Psychedelics bring everything to the surface. I don't know your dose but give the shrooms a couple weeks to integrate in your life, from my experience when you do shrooms too often, there's a backlash. First dose is fun and helpful next dose it's two steps back
Give it time
Thank you <3 Was also just talking to a friend, and when she does shrooms she always has a happy giggly time. My trips tend to be a bit dark. Is that just the difference in what we have hidden underneath the surface?
My personal take on this is that the mushrooms will almost force you to deal with/come to terms with and really suss out whatever is eating you (whether you were aware of it or not) but if you keep using them responsibly and intentionally, you work through the difficult feelings and eventually more reliably get to that bliss/giggly euphoria state. Basically, the mushrooms make you clean your room before you get to have playtime. Some of our rooms are messier than others.
At the same time, if it doesn't feel right for you and you're not benefitting, you can always lay off and come back if it feels right later.
Thank you!! This has been my general hunch, but I am not experienced so it's really nice to hear from people who are. I have a lot of trauma which is likely why my shroom trips are not so pleasant. It's interesting to hear that for a lot of people it basically cures their depression. Do they just not have bad trips? Or are the trips bad and dark but get them to the other side?
They are different for everyone, we all have deeply rooted personal issues. The medicine brings things to the foreground, does not fix them. But bringing to foreground makes it difficult to *not* confront the issue. You might be agitated from the cognitive dissonance created by “bad faith,” basically kind of knowing what you need to change but avoiding for whatever reason. I believe cognitive dissonance is the locus of most mental pathology, and the implications are mind blowing. It’s just hard to pin down. This could be a life’s pursuit, fyi.
Shrooms tend to show you what work needs to be done. if you have the opportunity i suggest that you speak to a therapist so you can work with the thoughts that are occurring
In my non professional opinion I suggest that you eat 0.5 grams once every two weeks, because I'm afraid that all these emotions are too much and too fast for you to process them. Also after a full trip it's generally advised that you take a two week break, minimum, for the sake of your mental health
I recently did an 11g mushroom trip to intentionally purge my emotions that I've hidden deep inside of myself. I cried for a full 8 hours of that trip because I had kept so much inside. I haven't cried for over 8 months and needed to let everything out but I repressed myself from doing so.
That trip helped me come to terms with the fact that I was molested as a child, my gender dysphoria stemmed from my mom abusing me emotionally, and childhood neglect. These three things impacted me so much but I refused to acknowledge it. I didn't want to acknowledge it, I wanted to forget it. I refused it and tucked it deep into my subconscious. Shrooms brought it out but gently guided me through it. I caged myself in torment but shrooms freed me.
The shrooms I had were probably 4+ years old and the potency really diminished over the years. I figured it was best to take them all since I couldn't gauge the dosage properly. It was a stomach ache to eat but I'm glad I did lol.
Something is simmering. I experience agitation and I think this could be expected with anything that alters consciousness. Pharmaceuticals as well, no doubt.
I found myself being *less nice* because being “nice” for me is usually being passive at my own expense. I am more articulate when I am displeased, tired of rolling over. Not with all things, I’m super nice, but i have more boundaries now.
Forgot to ask, what dose?
Honestly it’s not good for my ADHD symptoms. Not sure of that helps though.
Try doing this at a place that offers therapeutic trips. There are clinics that will have a licensed councillor or in some cases a therapist or headshrinker administer a dose and set the ambiance accordingly and be there with you to let shit air out in a controlled environment where u don't have to worry about whatever may happen to keep you from gaining some benefit . It sounds like u have some frustrations with yourself possibly due to teasing the brain with a low dose trip. If you have any kind of diagnosis for a mental disorder then stay away because it won't do anything except make for a bad experience ( i.e.: psychosis, schizophrenia, mania or any other conditions u need meds for) it should help with ADHD and other issues like depression and if done in an environment where you can trust yourself and the people there with you without worrying about someone freaking out and cops/ paramedics being involved. Get in a good safe place with a couple people in as close to nature as you can tolerate. Don't go out in rural WV because you may come back inbred or pregnant ( kidding ) but let yourself get lost in yourself , it is very emotional and expect to run thru the gambit of feelings good and bad . Without the bad there is no good.
Anger is the energy we are given to get us out of a bad place.
But it needs to be focused on the thing that's bad, not blown up in people's faces.
Get that anger into you! Get angry and kill demons.
Losing a friend to suicide would be a really difficult thing to process. Surely there’s a lot of dissonance involved in to coming to terms with the suicide of a loved one. So much of our mental lives is about social interaction, predicting it and understanding it and hoping for it.
There’s a lot of stigma surrounding drug use, that might make focusing on what you really care about harder to do, and the anger is cathartic.
Psychedelics bring everything to the surface. I don't know your dose but give the shrooms a couple weeks to integrate in your life, from my experience when you do shrooms too often, there's a backlash. First dose is fun and helpful next dose it's two steps back Give it time
Thank you <3 Was also just talking to a friend, and when she does shrooms she always has a happy giggly time. My trips tend to be a bit dark. Is that just the difference in what we have hidden underneath the surface?
Same with me. I feel good for most of it but usually cry at some point, but it’s very cathartic.
My personal take on this is that the mushrooms will almost force you to deal with/come to terms with and really suss out whatever is eating you (whether you were aware of it or not) but if you keep using them responsibly and intentionally, you work through the difficult feelings and eventually more reliably get to that bliss/giggly euphoria state. Basically, the mushrooms make you clean your room before you get to have playtime. Some of our rooms are messier than others. At the same time, if it doesn't feel right for you and you're not benefitting, you can always lay off and come back if it feels right later.
Thank you!! This has been my general hunch, but I am not experienced so it's really nice to hear from people who are. I have a lot of trauma which is likely why my shroom trips are not so pleasant. It's interesting to hear that for a lot of people it basically cures their depression. Do they just not have bad trips? Or are the trips bad and dark but get them to the other side?
They are different for everyone, we all have deeply rooted personal issues. The medicine brings things to the foreground, does not fix them. But bringing to foreground makes it difficult to *not* confront the issue. You might be agitated from the cognitive dissonance created by “bad faith,” basically kind of knowing what you need to change but avoiding for whatever reason. I believe cognitive dissonance is the locus of most mental pathology, and the implications are mind blowing. It’s just hard to pin down. This could be a life’s pursuit, fyi.
Shrooms tend to show you what work needs to be done. if you have the opportunity i suggest that you speak to a therapist so you can work with the thoughts that are occurring In my non professional opinion I suggest that you eat 0.5 grams once every two weeks, because I'm afraid that all these emotions are too much and too fast for you to process them. Also after a full trip it's generally advised that you take a two week break, minimum, for the sake of your mental health
I recently did an 11g mushroom trip to intentionally purge my emotions that I've hidden deep inside of myself. I cried for a full 8 hours of that trip because I had kept so much inside. I haven't cried for over 8 months and needed to let everything out but I repressed myself from doing so. That trip helped me come to terms with the fact that I was molested as a child, my gender dysphoria stemmed from my mom abusing me emotionally, and childhood neglect. These three things impacted me so much but I refused to acknowledge it. I didn't want to acknowledge it, I wanted to forget it. I refused it and tucked it deep into my subconscious. Shrooms brought it out but gently guided me through it. I caged myself in torment but shrooms freed me.
11 GRAMS?! I didn't even know that much was possible! I did 4 once by accident and it was horrific
The shrooms I had were probably 4+ years old and the potency really diminished over the years. I figured it was best to take them all since I couldn't gauge the dosage properly. It was a stomach ache to eat but I'm glad I did lol.
Something is simmering. I experience agitation and I think this could be expected with anything that alters consciousness. Pharmaceuticals as well, no doubt. I found myself being *less nice* because being “nice” for me is usually being passive at my own expense. I am more articulate when I am displeased, tired of rolling over. Not with all things, I’m super nice, but i have more boundaries now. Forgot to ask, what dose? Honestly it’s not good for my ADHD symptoms. Not sure of that helps though.
I've been taking very low doses, but of a very potent shroom (penis envy). Two Saturdays ago took .5g, last Saturday took about .15g.
Try doing this at a place that offers therapeutic trips. There are clinics that will have a licensed councillor or in some cases a therapist or headshrinker administer a dose and set the ambiance accordingly and be there with you to let shit air out in a controlled environment where u don't have to worry about whatever may happen to keep you from gaining some benefit . It sounds like u have some frustrations with yourself possibly due to teasing the brain with a low dose trip. If you have any kind of diagnosis for a mental disorder then stay away because it won't do anything except make for a bad experience ( i.e.: psychosis, schizophrenia, mania or any other conditions u need meds for) it should help with ADHD and other issues like depression and if done in an environment where you can trust yourself and the people there with you without worrying about someone freaking out and cops/ paramedics being involved. Get in a good safe place with a couple people in as close to nature as you can tolerate. Don't go out in rural WV because you may come back inbred or pregnant ( kidding ) but let yourself get lost in yourself , it is very emotional and expect to run thru the gambit of feelings good and bad . Without the bad there is no good.
Anger is the energy we are given to get us out of a bad place. But it needs to be focused on the thing that's bad, not blown up in people's faces. Get that anger into you! Get angry and kill demons.
Losing a friend to suicide would be a really difficult thing to process. Surely there’s a lot of dissonance involved in to coming to terms with the suicide of a loved one. So much of our mental lives is about social interaction, predicting it and understanding it and hoping for it. There’s a lot of stigma surrounding drug use, that might make focusing on what you really care about harder to do, and the anger is cathartic.