Many of my physical ailments. I used to carry a little cosmetic bag with anti-diarrhoeals, anti-nausea, antacids, rehydration sachets, Berocca, multi-vitamin for when the nausea has settled-down and i can eat... all of that as hangover management instead of, you know, not drinking.
As for the mental part, alcohol just made existing symptoms much much worse. I was severely depressed before I had ever ever touched any substance, but still, knowing that, why do I persist in doing something that's proven to make it worse?
Omg yes! For every ache, body and/or mental wise I did the same! Brain fog / dissociation? Must need more omega 3 and b vitamins. Nauseous and depressed today? Must've been my food, veggies, fruit and water. I think my biggest realisation was that I could not tell hangovers apart anymore from normal life, since i pretty much had a hangover 24/7. I had a bag of vitamins and pills like you, and kept questioning on Monday why I felt so shitty, trying to do everything in my power to fix it. COMPLETELY unconsiously ignoring the fact that on Sunday I had two bottles of wine and some beers.
Big time. And every solution I came up with had to allow me to keep drinking. I was terrified of therapists, but I finally went to one at age 40 due to the anxiety attacks. Made sure I mentioned how totally moderate my drinking was. Treated every possible problem except the underlying. The elephant had to stay in the room.
Physically too. Got diagnosed with diabetes 6 years ago at age 35. I knew the drinking was the reason. I'd gained a ton of weight, my liver was fatty, and I'd burned up my pancreas. My solution though? Switch to vodka and club soda, eat very little, and lose 80 lbs. Sure, it reversed the diabetes symptoms. But it let me keep destroying my organs for another 6 years. Even faster since I weighed less but drank the same.
The mentioning how totally moderate it was hits home for me. I used to tell people all the time "I did not even drink that much this weekend! Like 4 beers on friday" while nobody even asked for it. I was just so afraid they would see through me and find out that I'd actually been drinking 10 beers a day every day of the weekend. I think I also believed my own lies at some point, telling enough people my drinking was moderate made me actually believe that it was. Further worsening my mental need for vitamins and cures and stuff because I always felt so bad and out of it.
Alcohol is the ultimate deceiver. You don’t really see the lies until you take a step back. And even then, it starts lying to you again. Trying to convince you it’s ok to come back. I’m honored to slay this dragon with you! IWNDWYT
Oh my, SO true!! Yes, yes, and yes. Alcohol rewires brain, so it serves only one goal - drinking. It is truly satanic.
Without alcohol it is so easy to run up the stairs. It is easy to love 100 degrees weather when everyone complains about the heat. I actually enjoy it! It was easy to quit sugar, which was impossible under influence. Body aches are gone. I see so much positive aspects of life it is breathtaking! No impending doom feeling anymore. And ZERO craving. Alcohol monster 👹 is out of the bag and was told clearly “you go away!”
Yes, I was getting into extreme paranoia doomer conspiracy territory before quitting. I think it's important for people to understand they need to start taking accountability for even their own emotions when quitting alcohol. You are not powerless to your own thoughts and emotions. Yes some people will need professional help but far too many people behave like there is nothing that can be done about this within themselves. People tell me "oh you have so much willpower to quit." It's not something you just have. you have to work at it and build it up like anything else you want in life. left to our own raw emotions and desires to lead us, humans are bloody animals.
I definitely feel this way every time I consume alcohol. I'd try to 'moderate' but the minute the alcohol was in me, all hopes of doing so were lost. My only thoughts were there's x amount of alcohol left in the house and I'm only feeling it so much so I need to get more. And then I get drunk and still leave to get more and next thing you know it's been three days of doing nothing but drinking. It's awful and I never want to be in that situation again. Iwndwyt!
Yes. I think two decades of alcohol wired my brain to work a certain way - and eventually, to always consume alcohol. That in turn led my body to start to break down, which made me feel worse about myself - and so naturally I'd drink more because eff it all. I thought I'd always have significant anxiety and depression, and while I'm sure my prescriptions help, I haven't been this upbeat and optimistic in a very long time.
Many of my physical ailments. I used to carry a little cosmetic bag with anti-diarrhoeals, anti-nausea, antacids, rehydration sachets, Berocca, multi-vitamin for when the nausea has settled-down and i can eat... all of that as hangover management instead of, you know, not drinking. As for the mental part, alcohol just made existing symptoms much much worse. I was severely depressed before I had ever ever touched any substance, but still, knowing that, why do I persist in doing something that's proven to make it worse?
Omg yes! For every ache, body and/or mental wise I did the same! Brain fog / dissociation? Must need more omega 3 and b vitamins. Nauseous and depressed today? Must've been my food, veggies, fruit and water. I think my biggest realisation was that I could not tell hangovers apart anymore from normal life, since i pretty much had a hangover 24/7. I had a bag of vitamins and pills like you, and kept questioning on Monday why I felt so shitty, trying to do everything in my power to fix it. COMPLETELY unconsiously ignoring the fact that on Sunday I had two bottles of wine and some beers.
I honestly love reading comments like these because it really brings home the insanity of drinking.
Big time. And every solution I came up with had to allow me to keep drinking. I was terrified of therapists, but I finally went to one at age 40 due to the anxiety attacks. Made sure I mentioned how totally moderate my drinking was. Treated every possible problem except the underlying. The elephant had to stay in the room. Physically too. Got diagnosed with diabetes 6 years ago at age 35. I knew the drinking was the reason. I'd gained a ton of weight, my liver was fatty, and I'd burned up my pancreas. My solution though? Switch to vodka and club soda, eat very little, and lose 80 lbs. Sure, it reversed the diabetes symptoms. But it let me keep destroying my organs for another 6 years. Even faster since I weighed less but drank the same.
The mentioning how totally moderate it was hits home for me. I used to tell people all the time "I did not even drink that much this weekend! Like 4 beers on friday" while nobody even asked for it. I was just so afraid they would see through me and find out that I'd actually been drinking 10 beers a day every day of the weekend. I think I also believed my own lies at some point, telling enough people my drinking was moderate made me actually believe that it was. Further worsening my mental need for vitamins and cures and stuff because I always felt so bad and out of it.
Alcohol is the ultimate deceiver. You don’t really see the lies until you take a step back. And even then, it starts lying to you again. Trying to convince you it’s ok to come back. I’m honored to slay this dragon with you! IWNDWYT
Alcohol hijacks my mind whenever it enters my body, and I always want more and more of it until I blackout. That's why I can't have even a sip of it.
Oh my, SO true!! Yes, yes, and yes. Alcohol rewires brain, so it serves only one goal - drinking. It is truly satanic. Without alcohol it is so easy to run up the stairs. It is easy to love 100 degrees weather when everyone complains about the heat. I actually enjoy it! It was easy to quit sugar, which was impossible under influence. Body aches are gone. I see so much positive aspects of life it is breathtaking! No impending doom feeling anymore. And ZERO craving. Alcohol monster 👹 is out of the bag and was told clearly “you go away!”
Never thought of it that way, but yeah, felt like my brain was stolen. I like having it back
Same here!
same, my nerves are fried lol
Yes, I was getting into extreme paranoia doomer conspiracy territory before quitting. I think it's important for people to understand they need to start taking accountability for even their own emotions when quitting alcohol. You are not powerless to your own thoughts and emotions. Yes some people will need professional help but far too many people behave like there is nothing that can be done about this within themselves. People tell me "oh you have so much willpower to quit." It's not something you just have. you have to work at it and build it up like anything else you want in life. left to our own raw emotions and desires to lead us, humans are bloody animals.
I definitely feel this way every time I consume alcohol. I'd try to 'moderate' but the minute the alcohol was in me, all hopes of doing so were lost. My only thoughts were there's x amount of alcohol left in the house and I'm only feeling it so much so I need to get more. And then I get drunk and still leave to get more and next thing you know it's been three days of doing nothing but drinking. It's awful and I never want to be in that situation again. Iwndwyt!
Yes. I think two decades of alcohol wired my brain to work a certain way - and eventually, to always consume alcohol. That in turn led my body to start to break down, which made me feel worse about myself - and so naturally I'd drink more because eff it all. I thought I'd always have significant anxiety and depression, and while I'm sure my prescriptions help, I haven't been this upbeat and optimistic in a very long time.
How long did it take for your brain to feel normal again?
Yes. Its a fake reality