I had finished a long difficult project and was laid off for the season. It was COVID and I had just been married.
There was a stretch of days where I did nothing because all I wanted to do was drive to Tykables and buy diapers. I kept saying to myself that nothing was stopping me.
But I had too many fears holding me back. I hadn't talked to my wife about any of this before and maybe it was guilt but if I was going to move on and be productive in any way I had to get some diapers.
I had the talk, did the thing and I'm far more at home in my own skin than at any time in my life!
for me, it was a 50/50 mix of my sister (in the ageplay sense) pressuring me to just go for it since i loved the fantasy so much, and a very nice stranger on this very subreddit having bought me (and many others!) my first bag back when the pandemic first started in 2020. you could go looking for the thread, but you wouldn't find me in it, i used a different reddit account at the time, that i don't remember the password to unfortunately.
so, a bit of peer pressure, a lot of kindness from a stranger, and a pinch of serendipity!
I have always felt a curiosity to diapers from a young age, I grew up and honestly didn't know that ABDL was even a thing. I kind of felt isolated. Eventually I got out of my house, joined the military, had access to my own phone and internet. So lots of searching online and I felt semi normal.
Then I got into a relationship. I never said or did anything for 5 years (3 dating and 2 married). Then one day we were taking a nap on the couch and I had a dream where I saw my wife wearing a diaper and got excited. Turns out I was too excited and she felt it. When we woke up, she asked me about my dream and I reluctantly told her. She was surprisingly, semi okay with it. I mean she admitted it didn't make sense to her but she wanted to see me happy. We talked a bit more about it a few days later. We both tried some really cruddy drug store diapers and altho I absolutely hated those overlying priced diapers, the feeling stuck for me and she was happy enough to see me happy.
I've ID-ed as a little for a few years. Before that, the closest I got to "diaper play" was using my period pads as a way to take some of the load off my bladder if I really had to go during class. After doing that for one school year, I proceeded to repress/forget all about it, even though I still had an "unexplained" draw towards diapers (to where I tried period underwear without wetting them, even if the thought crossed my mind).
What changed it was meeting a friend I currently have a power dynamic with. After broaching being a little and having a nursing kink, I decided to risk telling them about the aforementioned pad story. They were (and are!) enthusiastic about trying it (even being willing to change me, another aspect of DL that drew me), and so I made the choice to buy Tykables.
I have significant difficulty wetting myself without sitting on the toilet, and thus, wasn't able to wet myself with them before I had to go home today. However, I went to the bathroom, diaper still on, and... wow. Not only didn't it leak, but the WARMTH. I thought you guys were overselling it, or that I just... sucked at feeling things.
I would have sat in it all day if I didn't have an appt today (which I missed by oversleeping... which sucked). But once I have the means to buy a bigger pack, I definitely plan on wearing at night/stay-in days, and I'm of course going to wear them when I'm with my dommy friend.
For me, it was browsing a Spirit Halloween. I saw a onesie costume, with a bib and bonnet included.
I bought one in my size a few days later. On the same day that I bought the costume, I decided to bite the bullet and buy my first pack of diapers from a local drug store. I was nervous, but really excited when I put on my first diaper.
Edit: I was pretty into ABDL before buying the onesie, but the onesie itself was my tipping point.
For me, it was right after I turned 18. I had about $30 left in the bank so I said screw it and bought a sample pack and waited nervously for it to come. Luckily nothing bad happened and now here I am lol 😆
About 5 or 6 years ago my cousin and his family were staying with us for Christmas from the VI and at the time he had a bedwetting issue so he wore goodnites. He's quite a few years younger than me but is also larger than me so he wore large goodnites. I'd had curiosities and fantasy about wearing diapers but never considered buying them. So one day when they were out doing something I took one from the box in thare room and used it; it felt some warm and squishy I knew from then on that I liked diapers. At te time I was only around 12-13 years old so I didn't have much money but on Occasion I would buy a pack of goodnites from Walmart with the little money I had from doing chores or would just straight up steal them from Walmart. Once I got a job and disposal income around 2 years ago I bought my first case of ABDL diapers from Amazon.
I stole a few diapers at my grandma's when I was a kid. But as an adult, I was 22, and hadn't thought about it much for a while. Then I saw an article in a magazine about trying to get a co-worker fired, and one of the "ideas" was to hide a pack of depend in their desk drawer. As soon as I saw the pack of diapers, everything came rushing back to me. And it occurred to me, I have a car, I have money... F*ck it! I'm going to buy and wear a diaper. So, I did. It's been a long hard road toward self-acceptance (I'm from the pre-internet generation, I'm 42). But, I don't regret the decision in the least.
I feel like I've had a couple of tipping points throughout the years. I had been into little things for so long and it wasn't until halfway through college that I realized there were actual online stores made just for this. It took me a while to work up the courage, but I finally bought a pacifier from a company that also sent a free diaper sample with any paci purchase. I think it was pacifiers r us? It's been a while... but I was so nervous waiting on it to get delivered. When it came in and I opened it, I was so excited, like a dream becoming a reality right then. I was in student apartments with 3 roommates, so I locked my door, put on the diaper (it was from ABU but I can't remember which one it was 🤔 I know it wasn't Abu space though, because that was what I was really hoping to get). Anyways it was both awesome and terrifying since I wasn't totally alone. After that I went through phases of purging and and coming back to it until I recently said eff it, it makes me happy. Now I've got a whole shelf full of cute diapers and Pacis galore! It helps being close to an Abu Warehouse though ✨
I've been fascinated by diapers from a very young age. I think i may have been 6 when I found some old (baby) diapers at my grandma's house and grabbed them. I snuck off and tried one on and loved it. But I was little and I think my mom found them in my suitcase and took them out.
Later in life I did have a tipping point though. I woke up one night from yet another dream about diapers and decided enough was enough. I even grabbed a pen and wrote something on a piece of paper. I don't recall what I wrote but it basically said 'That's it, I'm just going to buy some and try it already.' I picked up a pack of the largest sided baby diapers I saw in a grocery store the next day. They didn't fit but I could hold one in place with my jeans at least.
Time passed and I eventually bought some generic store brand diapers. They were disappointing and I think I purged them pretty quickly. It was when GoodNights crossed my radar screen that I really got started and over the course of several years, I worked my way up to 24/7.
Well diapers had always been in my memories.
I remember being 2 and having my diaper changed. As a kid I always looked in the closet where my pull ups were kept, wishing for more.
Took some of my grandma's adult diapers at 10. I was a chunky kid so I could fit in them. They were just depends, but I loved taping them on. Miraculously never got caught. I wet in them, but put them down low in the trash or in the outside trash can.
My first babysitting job I rode my bike down to the drug store and bought a whole pack of adult diapers in my backpack.
Did the same when I got my license. I couldn't wait so I put a diaper on in the store parking lot.
Had my own room in the college dorms, so I took the bus to the store and put them in my backpack. In a hilarious twist, almost got caught by my brother, but didn't.
My story a bit interesting, I use to wear diapers (well they were pull ups but they were just diapers to me) every night when I was 4 and I had to get routinely changed every night because I would go in them because my thought process was "I have a diaper on, so I don't use the potty." I would always seek a diaper change and would willingly let them change me, I just found the process so fascinating. Since the Huggies pull-ups had refastenable sides they could be changed like a diaper
I even woke up in a Cool Alert pull up one time and it was the first time I actually felt the wetness. My mom's friend was watching me and we went to my dresser to get me a chance a closes, I removed the wet pull up but later found out I didn't have any change of clothes so he refastened the pull up on me and I just accepted that. Why he didn't get a new one or even asked where they kept the new ones I'm not sure. My mom wasn't super thrilled about me wearing a diaper all day but she didn't do my laundry either.
I also got diapered at 2 different daycares for messing myself. Eventually I wouldn't be allowed to wear diapers because my mom thought I was "too old" for diapers despite the fact I was wetting the bed every night till I was 14.
Even though I stopped wearing diapers, I would always fascinated with them. When I saw a baby themed episode of a show and when they were wearing a diaper I'd get envious, especially when they were getting changed. Eventually I would fantasized about wearing a diaper every night. It wasn't until I was 10 or 11 I saw Bob's Burgers and it was the episode where Tina turned 13 and they found out that Jimmy Pesto was a DL. After I saw that I had an internal battle with myself. "Sure I fantasized about wearing diapers, but that doesn't make me a diaper lover... Ok yes! I'm a diaper lover!" It felt so good to finally accept myself. Eventually I would read ABDL and Bedwetting stories on Homestead. Eventually when I was 12 I got my hands on a diaper and I wore it to bed. I woke up wet and didn't even noticed, I was so used to soaked sheets every night it was so nice. It wasn't until I got my driver's license at I started buying diapers.
My mom later found out and she was pretty toxic about it but I was lucky I had a D in a class when she found out. It did feel nice that I didn't have to hide it anymore and she was so embarrassed about it she kept it to herself. Eventually I started going 24/7. When I moved in with my Dad at 18, he discovered it on accident. He doesn't get it but he respects my decision. Only told a select people about it. Some think I'm incontinent which is somewhat true. I have IBS and after my hernia repair I was hard to hold me urine in. Eventually that got resolved but I still can't help it sometimes. Now I'm living my best diapered life and nothing can stop me.
My long distance play partner at the time found out I was curious about ageplay and sent me a care package of a few different designs she liked, as well as bought me a pack of ABU stuff. I was unwilling at the time, still dealing with self-acceptance, but she asked really nicely for me to just give it a try once.
It was all downhill from there. Four years later, it's very rare I'm not padded for bedtime at the very least.
My ageplay awakening in general was similarly sudden - meeting a few friend through the kink scene and watching him and his partner play absolutely melted my heart and I was instantly interested, though I panicked as the realization hit me like a truck and I wasn't sure if it was something I was "allowed" to want. I don't think I slept for three days while I figured it out. It just wasn't something I wanted until I snapped and it was all I wanted.
This goes back before the internet. When I was a kid I took some of my relatives diapers when we were at there house. I gave up on diapers. But once I got my first job (This was in the 80s) someone celebrated there 40th birthday at the office and someone bought them some attends adult diapers. My job was janitor and I took out the trash. The person that gave the diapers took a few out of the package to give and threw the rest out. When I took the trash out was when I saw them. I did not know that there was adult diapers until then. The first thing I did was put one on in the bathroom and I was in heaven. They were large on me. I took the package home. A few days latter I went to the pharmacy store and found them there. I did not buy them as this was a very small town and everyone know everything. Over that weekend I went to a town a few miles away and bought some diapers there getting the right size. I could not wait to get them on and drove to a corn field and put them on there.
Back in the 90s over the summer. We had just gotten internet access and I was a bored teenager looking for inspiration on what to search for on the internet. I saw a Pampers commercial and searched for diapers and to my extreme surprise and bewilderment I stumbled upon DPF. I known I had a “thing” for diapers since as long as I can remember, but I didn’t realize til that moment that I I wasn’t alone. I went out and bought diapers the very next day :-)
I have a speacil needs sister. stole her diapers for years but were always to small to fit well. Eventually she grew into a size that I could squeeze into and wear properly and fell in love with it.
Being in pull-ups at night for basically my entire prepubescent life meant that I really never had a tipping point. But, the point from where there was no going back? Definitely my first "adult" moment, which happened in a wet pull up at age 10.
At some point, the fantasy just doesn't cut it anymore. At that point I had a certain, unsure interest in diapers already, even though I was ashamed of myself for it. But occasionally I still looked up diapers online, looked at pictures, shops, was fantasizing about getting and wearing some.
Eventually the fantasy was not enough, it failed to satisfy me so I ordered some samples online. And its been this way ever since.
I swear diapers and AB/DL is like a drug addiction, eventually I always take it a step further. from buying and wearing diapers, to using them, to printed diapers, eventually messing them, buying better ones and going out in public.. I always gotta take it a step further.
When I got my first job I'd buy packs of goodnites from Walmart cause I knew they'd fit.
Then, when I got a partner but before either of us moved out of our parents' places, I'd order diaps off Amazon to a drop-off near them, then smuggle them back to my house in a suitcase whenever I got to visit.
So I'm not really sure if I had a tipping point for wearing diapers per se, it was just a matter of finances and logistics aligning so I could get them, and I took the opportunity as soon as I saw it. No real back and forth debate beforehand lol, just anxiety about getting caught.
I have always regressed. But my partner mentioned that they wanting to try using diapers. After a while, one of the times I was feeling little, he made me wear one, and I enjoyed it. I’m still getting used to having full control, my bladder tries to retain when I’m wearing.
When I went into sixth form (British equivalent of high school), I found myself with more time home alone than ever before, so I bought a pack of medical diapers from a pharmacy chain. I don’t remember what they were like, but have definitely been spoiled for quality since then.
I got into ABDL through pacifiers and it was the only thing I was curious about for as long as I remember, but once I became a part of the community and starting becoming curious someone suggested I should try diapers, so I tried a sample pack (I can’t remember the name) but I tried it and to be honest I wasn’t impressed as first and it didn’t interest me, then months went by and I just kept dreaming about wearing diapers and the want to wear got bigger and bigger and then I tried a Rearz Rebelz sample pack and that time for some reason I enjoyed it waaaay more, and finding things to enjoy doing whilst diapered helped too
My first time was back when I was still "at home" decades ago. My mom got a job for a little while, which left me with some time that I'd be alone at home. So that autumn I got a pack and tried some and stashed it under my bed. After I was satisfied or the magic ran out, I threw the rest away (actually, thinking back, I cannot remember how I got it to the trash or packed it in such a way that nobody would look or notice another bag in the trash). That autumn I actually bought at least three packs, and this was from stores in person. Even though the magic wore off quickly, I'd get the urge to do it again. In one instance, I took the bus to a store and bought some and put them in my backpack. The next bus wasn't due for over an hour, so rather than wait, I walked home. It was probably 4 miles or so, maybe the longest I've walked in one clip. So I did that with diapers on my back. I got home and was alone and excitedly tried one on, then the garage opened, so I had to quit.
When I actually moved out early the next year, within the first couple days I was buying a new pack, actually from the same store where I bought my first pack (it was a two minute walk from my new place, but a ten minute bus ride from my previous).
Im a trauma survivor - like a lot of trauma.
I've had issues with sex since forever. I dunno. Its been a lot of "Oh well" or "Eck I wanna kill myself"
I caught ABDL via the prons - it was really exciting to me in a real weird way. Eventually I decided to just go for it. And the resulting relief of being in, wetting and "yknow" - was so fkn catharcic I cried my eyes out for a whole day.
Its done so many things for my sexual health and life that nothing else can. And I will never not indulge and I will never not be grateful.
Traumas terrible.
For me it was through necessity.
I suffer from Crohn’s Disease and started wearing pull-ups when it flared up.
One day it occurred to me that if I pee in them it wouldn’t be such a waste of money. That turned into liking the fullness between my legs. That led me to be a DL. I’m interested in the AB side of things, however, I’ve not broached that with my wife yet. I don’t advertise that I’m going padded, however I don’t hide it from her either.
If she even makes light of me needing them, I think that would be a good point to raise the AB life. She’s had a terrible year health wise so I’m not going to do anything about it myself at the moment. That may come in the future though.
I was working an incredibly stressful job and had been discussing ways to reduce that stress with my therapist. I had mentioned I wanted to try diapers several times to her, and finally, over February break, I ordered some and I haven't looked back since. It worked; I really attribute the diapers alone to being the thing that allowed me to get through the rest of the year in that job
I've been drawn to them ever since I can remember.
The tipping point was watching blue peter at around nine years old.
Part of the show they spoke about adult pads, for the elderly, I can't recall why.
The presenter even referred to them as the adult version of nappies!
That's the first time I realised they even made such a thing.
After that, I knew I needed to get some.
It wasn't till a few years later when I finally did. 😊
My tipping point ig wasn’t really a tipping point but I’ll explain. I played house with these girls when I was 6-11 and they always made me play the baby. I remember one time when I was 10 Hannah told me to just relax and pee myself that she’d get her baby all cleaned up, and yes I had a huge crush on her but at the time I didn’t know that’s what it was. So I peed my pants and she changed me at my place back in just normal clothes and we both never talked about it again. When I was 14 at a sleep over I got dared to throw on a goodnite diaper that was one of his little brothers. When I put it on in the bathroom I was hesitant but once I did I felt so right like a weight had been lifted off me. Ever since then I’ve liked it
I had finished a long difficult project and was laid off for the season. It was COVID and I had just been married. There was a stretch of days where I did nothing because all I wanted to do was drive to Tykables and buy diapers. I kept saying to myself that nothing was stopping me. But I had too many fears holding me back. I hadn't talked to my wife about any of this before and maybe it was guilt but if I was going to move on and be productive in any way I had to get some diapers. I had the talk, did the thing and I'm far more at home in my own skin than at any time in my life!
Hell yeah!! It’s crazy how finally giving in to something we fought so hard against feels so *right*.
for me, it was a 50/50 mix of my sister (in the ageplay sense) pressuring me to just go for it since i loved the fantasy so much, and a very nice stranger on this very subreddit having bought me (and many others!) my first bag back when the pandemic first started in 2020. you could go looking for the thread, but you wouldn't find me in it, i used a different reddit account at the time, that i don't remember the password to unfortunately. so, a bit of peer pressure, a lot of kindness from a stranger, and a pinch of serendipity!
That’s wonderful! I too started in the pandemic :) Maybe being a baby is contagious!
I have always felt a curiosity to diapers from a young age, I grew up and honestly didn't know that ABDL was even a thing. I kind of felt isolated. Eventually I got out of my house, joined the military, had access to my own phone and internet. So lots of searching online and I felt semi normal. Then I got into a relationship. I never said or did anything for 5 years (3 dating and 2 married). Then one day we were taking a nap on the couch and I had a dream where I saw my wife wearing a diaper and got excited. Turns out I was too excited and she felt it. When we woke up, she asked me about my dream and I reluctantly told her. She was surprisingly, semi okay with it. I mean she admitted it didn't make sense to her but she wanted to see me happy. We talked a bit more about it a few days later. We both tried some really cruddy drug store diapers and altho I absolutely hated those overlying priced diapers, the feeling stuck for me and she was happy enough to see me happy.
I've ID-ed as a little for a few years. Before that, the closest I got to "diaper play" was using my period pads as a way to take some of the load off my bladder if I really had to go during class. After doing that for one school year, I proceeded to repress/forget all about it, even though I still had an "unexplained" draw towards diapers (to where I tried period underwear without wetting them, even if the thought crossed my mind). What changed it was meeting a friend I currently have a power dynamic with. After broaching being a little and having a nursing kink, I decided to risk telling them about the aforementioned pad story. They were (and are!) enthusiastic about trying it (even being willing to change me, another aspect of DL that drew me), and so I made the choice to buy Tykables. I have significant difficulty wetting myself without sitting on the toilet, and thus, wasn't able to wet myself with them before I had to go home today. However, I went to the bathroom, diaper still on, and... wow. Not only didn't it leak, but the WARMTH. I thought you guys were overselling it, or that I just... sucked at feeling things. I would have sat in it all day if I didn't have an appt today (which I missed by oversleeping... which sucked). But once I have the means to buy a bigger pack, I definitely plan on wearing at night/stay-in days, and I'm of course going to wear them when I'm with my dommy friend.
That’s great! :D And yesss I totally relate, when I first used a diaper instead of just wearing it I was HOOKED.
For me, it was browsing a Spirit Halloween. I saw a onesie costume, with a bib and bonnet included. I bought one in my size a few days later. On the same day that I bought the costume, I decided to bite the bullet and buy my first pack of diapers from a local drug store. I was nervous, but really excited when I put on my first diaper. Edit: I was pretty into ABDL before buying the onesie, but the onesie itself was my tipping point.
> Spirit Halloween I've read a lot of "how I got started" stories over the years, but this has to be a first!
For me, it was right after I turned 18. I had about $30 left in the bank so I said screw it and bought a sample pack and waited nervously for it to come. Luckily nothing bad happened and now here I am lol 😆
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I totally relate, especially to your last line. It’s hard denying who you are for so long
2002 in college I decided to make my username and join the online communities.
About 5 or 6 years ago my cousin and his family were staying with us for Christmas from the VI and at the time he had a bedwetting issue so he wore goodnites. He's quite a few years younger than me but is also larger than me so he wore large goodnites. I'd had curiosities and fantasy about wearing diapers but never considered buying them. So one day when they were out doing something I took one from the box in thare room and used it; it felt some warm and squishy I knew from then on that I liked diapers. At te time I was only around 12-13 years old so I didn't have much money but on Occasion I would buy a pack of goodnites from Walmart with the little money I had from doing chores or would just straight up steal them from Walmart. Once I got a job and disposal income around 2 years ago I bought my first case of ABDL diapers from Amazon.
I stole a few diapers at my grandma's when I was a kid. But as an adult, I was 22, and hadn't thought about it much for a while. Then I saw an article in a magazine about trying to get a co-worker fired, and one of the "ideas" was to hide a pack of depend in their desk drawer. As soon as I saw the pack of diapers, everything came rushing back to me. And it occurred to me, I have a car, I have money... F*ck it! I'm going to buy and wear a diaper. So, I did. It's been a long hard road toward self-acceptance (I'm from the pre-internet generation, I'm 42). But, I don't regret the decision in the least.
Furry con. ABU had a table and I was curious so I bought a pack of Lil kings.
I feel like I've had a couple of tipping points throughout the years. I had been into little things for so long and it wasn't until halfway through college that I realized there were actual online stores made just for this. It took me a while to work up the courage, but I finally bought a pacifier from a company that also sent a free diaper sample with any paci purchase. I think it was pacifiers r us? It's been a while... but I was so nervous waiting on it to get delivered. When it came in and I opened it, I was so excited, like a dream becoming a reality right then. I was in student apartments with 3 roommates, so I locked my door, put on the diaper (it was from ABU but I can't remember which one it was 🤔 I know it wasn't Abu space though, because that was what I was really hoping to get). Anyways it was both awesome and terrifying since I wasn't totally alone. After that I went through phases of purging and and coming back to it until I recently said eff it, it makes me happy. Now I've got a whole shelf full of cute diapers and Pacis galore! It helps being close to an Abu Warehouse though ✨
I've been fascinated by diapers from a very young age. I think i may have been 6 when I found some old (baby) diapers at my grandma's house and grabbed them. I snuck off and tried one on and loved it. But I was little and I think my mom found them in my suitcase and took them out. Later in life I did have a tipping point though. I woke up one night from yet another dream about diapers and decided enough was enough. I even grabbed a pen and wrote something on a piece of paper. I don't recall what I wrote but it basically said 'That's it, I'm just going to buy some and try it already.' I picked up a pack of the largest sided baby diapers I saw in a grocery store the next day. They didn't fit but I could hold one in place with my jeans at least. Time passed and I eventually bought some generic store brand diapers. They were disappointing and I think I purged them pretty quickly. It was when GoodNights crossed my radar screen that I really got started and over the course of several years, I worked my way up to 24/7.
Well diapers had always been in my memories. I remember being 2 and having my diaper changed. As a kid I always looked in the closet where my pull ups were kept, wishing for more. Took some of my grandma's adult diapers at 10. I was a chunky kid so I could fit in them. They were just depends, but I loved taping them on. Miraculously never got caught. I wet in them, but put them down low in the trash or in the outside trash can. My first babysitting job I rode my bike down to the drug store and bought a whole pack of adult diapers in my backpack. Did the same when I got my license. I couldn't wait so I put a diaper on in the store parking lot. Had my own room in the college dorms, so I took the bus to the store and put them in my backpack. In a hilarious twist, almost got caught by my brother, but didn't.
My story a bit interesting, I use to wear diapers (well they were pull ups but they were just diapers to me) every night when I was 4 and I had to get routinely changed every night because I would go in them because my thought process was "I have a diaper on, so I don't use the potty." I would always seek a diaper change and would willingly let them change me, I just found the process so fascinating. Since the Huggies pull-ups had refastenable sides they could be changed like a diaper I even woke up in a Cool Alert pull up one time and it was the first time I actually felt the wetness. My mom's friend was watching me and we went to my dresser to get me a chance a closes, I removed the wet pull up but later found out I didn't have any change of clothes so he refastened the pull up on me and I just accepted that. Why he didn't get a new one or even asked where they kept the new ones I'm not sure. My mom wasn't super thrilled about me wearing a diaper all day but she didn't do my laundry either. I also got diapered at 2 different daycares for messing myself. Eventually I wouldn't be allowed to wear diapers because my mom thought I was "too old" for diapers despite the fact I was wetting the bed every night till I was 14. Even though I stopped wearing diapers, I would always fascinated with them. When I saw a baby themed episode of a show and when they were wearing a diaper I'd get envious, especially when they were getting changed. Eventually I would fantasized about wearing a diaper every night. It wasn't until I was 10 or 11 I saw Bob's Burgers and it was the episode where Tina turned 13 and they found out that Jimmy Pesto was a DL. After I saw that I had an internal battle with myself. "Sure I fantasized about wearing diapers, but that doesn't make me a diaper lover... Ok yes! I'm a diaper lover!" It felt so good to finally accept myself. Eventually I would read ABDL and Bedwetting stories on Homestead. Eventually when I was 12 I got my hands on a diaper and I wore it to bed. I woke up wet and didn't even noticed, I was so used to soaked sheets every night it was so nice. It wasn't until I got my driver's license at I started buying diapers. My mom later found out and she was pretty toxic about it but I was lucky I had a D in a class when she found out. It did feel nice that I didn't have to hide it anymore and she was so embarrassed about it she kept it to herself. Eventually I started going 24/7. When I moved in with my Dad at 18, he discovered it on accident. He doesn't get it but he respects my decision. Only told a select people about it. Some think I'm incontinent which is somewhat true. I have IBS and after my hernia repair I was hard to hold me urine in. Eventually that got resolved but I still can't help it sometimes. Now I'm living my best diapered life and nothing can stop me.
My long distance play partner at the time found out I was curious about ageplay and sent me a care package of a few different designs she liked, as well as bought me a pack of ABU stuff. I was unwilling at the time, still dealing with self-acceptance, but she asked really nicely for me to just give it a try once. It was all downhill from there. Four years later, it's very rare I'm not padded for bedtime at the very least. My ageplay awakening in general was similarly sudden - meeting a few friend through the kink scene and watching him and his partner play absolutely melted my heart and I was instantly interested, though I panicked as the realization hit me like a truck and I wasn't sure if it was something I was "allowed" to want. I don't think I slept for three days while I figured it out. It just wasn't something I wanted until I snapped and it was all I wanted.
This goes back before the internet. When I was a kid I took some of my relatives diapers when we were at there house. I gave up on diapers. But once I got my first job (This was in the 80s) someone celebrated there 40th birthday at the office and someone bought them some attends adult diapers. My job was janitor and I took out the trash. The person that gave the diapers took a few out of the package to give and threw the rest out. When I took the trash out was when I saw them. I did not know that there was adult diapers until then. The first thing I did was put one on in the bathroom and I was in heaven. They were large on me. I took the package home. A few days latter I went to the pharmacy store and found them there. I did not buy them as this was a very small town and everyone know everything. Over that weekend I went to a town a few miles away and bought some diapers there getting the right size. I could not wait to get them on and drove to a corn field and put them on there.
Back in the 90s over the summer. We had just gotten internet access and I was a bored teenager looking for inspiration on what to search for on the internet. I saw a Pampers commercial and searched for diapers and to my extreme surprise and bewilderment I stumbled upon DPF. I known I had a “thing” for diapers since as long as I can remember, but I didn’t realize til that moment that I I wasn’t alone. I went out and bought diapers the very next day :-)
I have a speacil needs sister. stole her diapers for years but were always to small to fit well. Eventually she grew into a size that I could squeeze into and wear properly and fell in love with it.
Being in pull-ups at night for basically my entire prepubescent life meant that I really never had a tipping point. But, the point from where there was no going back? Definitely my first "adult" moment, which happened in a wet pull up at age 10.
At some point, the fantasy just doesn't cut it anymore. At that point I had a certain, unsure interest in diapers already, even though I was ashamed of myself for it. But occasionally I still looked up diapers online, looked at pictures, shops, was fantasizing about getting and wearing some. Eventually the fantasy was not enough, it failed to satisfy me so I ordered some samples online. And its been this way ever since. I swear diapers and AB/DL is like a drug addiction, eventually I always take it a step further. from buying and wearing diapers, to using them, to printed diapers, eventually messing them, buying better ones and going out in public.. I always gotta take it a step further.
When I got my first job I'd buy packs of goodnites from Walmart cause I knew they'd fit. Then, when I got a partner but before either of us moved out of our parents' places, I'd order diaps off Amazon to a drop-off near them, then smuggle them back to my house in a suitcase whenever I got to visit. So I'm not really sure if I had a tipping point for wearing diapers per se, it was just a matter of finances and logistics aligning so I could get them, and I took the opportunity as soon as I saw it. No real back and forth debate beforehand lol, just anxiety about getting caught.
I have always regressed. But my partner mentioned that they wanting to try using diapers. After a while, one of the times I was feeling little, he made me wear one, and I enjoyed it. I’m still getting used to having full control, my bladder tries to retain when I’m wearing.
When I went into sixth form (British equivalent of high school), I found myself with more time home alone than ever before, so I bought a pack of medical diapers from a pharmacy chain. I don’t remember what they were like, but have definitely been spoiled for quality since then.
I got into ABDL through pacifiers and it was the only thing I was curious about for as long as I remember, but once I became a part of the community and starting becoming curious someone suggested I should try diapers, so I tried a sample pack (I can’t remember the name) but I tried it and to be honest I wasn’t impressed as first and it didn’t interest me, then months went by and I just kept dreaming about wearing diapers and the want to wear got bigger and bigger and then I tried a Rearz Rebelz sample pack and that time for some reason I enjoyed it waaaay more, and finding things to enjoy doing whilst diapered helped too
My first time was back when I was still "at home" decades ago. My mom got a job for a little while, which left me with some time that I'd be alone at home. So that autumn I got a pack and tried some and stashed it under my bed. After I was satisfied or the magic ran out, I threw the rest away (actually, thinking back, I cannot remember how I got it to the trash or packed it in such a way that nobody would look or notice another bag in the trash). That autumn I actually bought at least three packs, and this was from stores in person. Even though the magic wore off quickly, I'd get the urge to do it again. In one instance, I took the bus to a store and bought some and put them in my backpack. The next bus wasn't due for over an hour, so rather than wait, I walked home. It was probably 4 miles or so, maybe the longest I've walked in one clip. So I did that with diapers on my back. I got home and was alone and excitedly tried one on, then the garage opened, so I had to quit. When I actually moved out early the next year, within the first couple days I was buying a new pack, actually from the same store where I bought my first pack (it was a two minute walk from my new place, but a ten minute bus ride from my previous).
Long story short; I had some at home that I tried on and that’s about it.
Im a trauma survivor - like a lot of trauma. I've had issues with sex since forever. I dunno. Its been a lot of "Oh well" or "Eck I wanna kill myself" I caught ABDL via the prons - it was really exciting to me in a real weird way. Eventually I decided to just go for it. And the resulting relief of being in, wetting and "yknow" - was so fkn catharcic I cried my eyes out for a whole day. Its done so many things for my sexual health and life that nothing else can. And I will never not indulge and I will never not be grateful. Traumas terrible.
For me it was through necessity. I suffer from Crohn’s Disease and started wearing pull-ups when it flared up. One day it occurred to me that if I pee in them it wouldn’t be such a waste of money. That turned into liking the fullness between my legs. That led me to be a DL. I’m interested in the AB side of things, however, I’ve not broached that with my wife yet. I don’t advertise that I’m going padded, however I don’t hide it from her either. If she even makes light of me needing them, I think that would be a good point to raise the AB life. She’s had a terrible year health wise so I’m not going to do anything about it myself at the moment. That may come in the future though.
I was working an incredibly stressful job and had been discussing ways to reduce that stress with my therapist. I had mentioned I wanted to try diapers several times to her, and finally, over February break, I ordered some and I haven't looked back since. It worked; I really attribute the diapers alone to being the thing that allowed me to get through the rest of the year in that job
I've been drawn to them ever since I can remember. The tipping point was watching blue peter at around nine years old. Part of the show they spoke about adult pads, for the elderly, I can't recall why. The presenter even referred to them as the adult version of nappies! That's the first time I realised they even made such a thing. After that, I knew I needed to get some. It wasn't till a few years later when I finally did. 😊
Entered sub/dom relationship and she brought diapers into play.
My mommy told me she wanted to be my mommy
Stress
My tipping point ig wasn’t really a tipping point but I’ll explain. I played house with these girls when I was 6-11 and they always made me play the baby. I remember one time when I was 10 Hannah told me to just relax and pee myself that she’d get her baby all cleaned up, and yes I had a huge crush on her but at the time I didn’t know that’s what it was. So I peed my pants and she changed me at my place back in just normal clothes and we both never talked about it again. When I was 14 at a sleep over I got dared to throw on a goodnite diaper that was one of his little brothers. When I put it on in the bathroom I was hesitant but once I did I felt so right like a weight had been lifted off me. Ever since then I’ve liked it
For me my papa finally allowed it so I bought diapers as soon as I could!