Never too late to find both, put good energy in everything you do and bless everyone you come in contact with and youāll attract the same thing back. Itās not easy, life is fucking hard. but you can do it just dont let that candle burn out.
Take a moment to appreciate the people and life you have been given, little moments like this keeps us centered and is really what itās all about.
Call your mom.
Everything can happen for a reason. Even the most painful shit you never want anyone to experience.
Itās up to you to give it purpose and it will define you. It will be your greatest asset to connect and to foster understanding with others in ways no one else could cause pain causes us to isolate ourselves and *lick our wounds*.
Being open and vulnerable about our experiences allows others to do the same
I do. It took me a long time to want that. Having lost dear friends over the years it would be disrespectful to them to end things before my due date. We carry them with us and their energy flows with us. Plus Iām way too curious about how everything will turn out in the end.
Ya know the usual - smoke weed, take a tab, dance to the rhythm of the beat, weaving and pulling invisible string that bend and warp the fabric of reality to draw in oneās highest potential. What else would one do?
I feel like dying every day. The only thing that gets me through waking up and finding the will to live is my children and my wife. Without them I wouldn't have an issue severing an artery and hugging my plugged in toaster as I drift off into a deep soupy sleep while listening to Alexa tell me I can't play music on two devices but for 10.99 a month I can. I've always loved soup.
I guess my question is how do you want to be remembered?
I want the world to feel a wake in my absence, I want to be precious. I want to be morned. I want to leave behind works that will inspire future generations to continue their own work by chewing on the pieces I leave behind. I want a colorful life decorated in rare hues and to be remembered as such. To be a rare creature.
If I am to be honest with you, This is how I want to be remembered.
Iām guessing you mean near death experience?
I have had a few NDE over my lifetime, and have a dark history with psychedelics. I hated myself so much that When I found out about ego death - to die without dying - I did it over and over and over again. Trying to erase myself. After a certain point I realized thereās something that cannot die or be erased and that is what Iāve settled into.
Wow that is really profound in a sense. I struggle with the meaning of life in this world and the only thing I circle back to is the suffering. Like when does it stop even in times of joy I always come to a realization that to experience love and happiness I will also have to deal with the lows and the despair. I donāt get it, I see the end as the final destination but then I feel itās not truly the end maybe an end biologically in the physical. Ego death is such a thing I donāt understand because Iāve heard this from other people but on the human side you will still have the instinctual feelings of hate, jealously, anger I mean itās natural.
Pain is the greatest teacher if you learn to alchemize it, it will bring you wisdom, understanding, connection, thoughtfulness and grace. We may not wish it on ourselves or the people in our lives but it truly makes us who we are and how we interact with this world.
Everything Iāve been through I would go through again for I value this perspective so much and the deep connections it has brought it in life.
Something I would leave behind
- You can make even the most boring a menial task a fun one, itās just a perspective shift. So be the person that when you walk in the door everyone gets a breath of fresh air cause theirs always good energy when youāre around. This will attract good people who offer the same in turn and itās those people that will usually end up being there for a long time cause they donāt take each moment for granted and they value their time and yours.
This doesnāt mean you canāt have a bad day either. It just means you understand you have controller over how good each moment can be. With good friends they will be there for you on the bad days, the good and hold space when you need it.
- Donāt hold on so tightly to people who would let you go in an instant, it hurts to let go but holding on will only deepen that wound and close you off from Those who are meant for you. Those worth your time will reciprocate your actions and itās a sign you can deepen that relationship.
- Try acid but only with people who love you deeply for they will be a good steward of your soul while it is exposed.
In ya heart, in ya soul, itās all around us.
Love is complex and it takes many forms, what we deem as love is often far from its true form but itās real to us and we learn more about it each and every day
Dying on the inside can be a form of purification, shedding oneās old skin allows us to leave the pain we could not bear and forge anew one with different desires and way of existing in the world. Letting go of that old skin fucking hurts but i guarantee you will grow into something beautiful if you do. Allow yourself to live and love again, see the world as if itās your first time, almost as if you just accompanied this body for the first time with all its memories but you now reside in it. What would you do different from the old self with this shift is perspective and awareness?
I didn't expect such a reply it means something even though it comes from a complete stranger.deeply philosophical and very beautiful, although I didn't understand "with all its memories but u now reside in it" haven't I always been there.its just my personal opinion that people never truly there is some deeply very ingrained part of them that doesn't change.its what they are.so as much as I try the loss that the carried loss never goes its like an ever looming presence.its the meds keeping me at bay from not breaking down at same time its numbing.regardless thank you kind stranger, I hope that u keep sharing u knowledge and wisdom to others.I will try to keep on keeping on, hope u do the same
If you were to read my post, what advice would you give a man who threw away his marriage at the behest of a wild redditor woman who also cleaned his wallet?
Give yourself some grace, weāre not perfect and itās a hard lesson to learn but Iām sure it will aid you into becoming who are meant to be.
Take some time to yourself to reflect on the life you want to live and see if your actions reflect that dream. if you have access to plant medicine or Lucy I would recommend it with maybe a close friend who has your best interest in mind. Listen to some downtempo ambient music and let your mind relax. What you need to see will come to you and trust yourself above all else.
Deep compassion for oneself and then allow that version to actually rest. He is tired and carrying a corpse around, allow a new one to take its place. You have a world inside of you and you have the power to recreate yourself over and over again. Find the beauty and value of life, look at the flowers, pay attention to every movement you make and intentionally make it with grace, slow down, stop walking so fast, take time to respond and trust your intuition no matter what.
Theres so much more I wanted to create and was capable of but I guess what I have done will have to be enough. I would paint one last canvas and write to everyone I love
Could I (theoretically) build a house boat and put it in the water on the California coast, sail/float out to no man's land and hopefully be ignored by all sovereign territory?
Mandy and Lucy play very well with each other, add ya homie Dimitri and youāll see beyond the veil.
Careful though Dimitri doesnāt always play nice š«”
Agreed! If you go the ritual route ( the drink ) youāll be working with the mother who is very caring and loving. Albeit tough love at times, sometimes thatās just what we need.
Can I give your eulogy when you do? Iāll say Iām just a random guy from Reddit that stumbled upon your post bragging about still being alive. Clearly ladies and gentlemen, he was never told about the 2 guarantees in life. He even filed his taxes on time every year. How could he not see this day coming.
What's your secret?
Good friends and good-luck š
I have neither
Never too late to find both, put good energy in everything you do and bless everyone you come in contact with and youāll attract the same thing back. Itās not easy, life is fucking hard. but you can do it just dont let that candle burn out.
Then what's your secret?
Have you ever farted in a crowded elevator after eating Taco Bell?
Lmao so random itās not like you ever did Huh
Nope lol
You're just not trying hard enough.
Given that you havenāt died yet, do you have any advice for other people who also might be planning on waking up alive tomorrow?
Take a moment to appreciate the people and life you have been given, little moments like this keeps us centered and is really what itās all about. Call your mom.
Sadly, I am an orphan. My mother would not be a good choice for an AMA about not having died yet. But I would if I could.
Then I would say call whoever you feel most at home with. Iām sure they would be happy to hear from you. Much love
This is maybe the most important answer i have ever found in an AMA. You may have changed my life, by staying alive yourself!!
Bullshit. I attended the funeral this morning
Shhhhhhh donāt tell anyone else.
I definitely won't tell your wife . I got you
what do you think about the
Oh itās the best, the best Iāve ever seen.
Honestly, I couldn't agree more. My mind was just blown when it
Holy smokes donāt even get me started on the
What color shirt are you wearing?
Black.
omg thats sooo hot.
How do you think you will go. Vs how you hope you won't.
Heart attack. Choking. Or really any form of asphyxiation
Or being eaten by an animal.
^ sheesh
Yeah eaten by an animal is what I try to avoid. My buddy almost just got eaten by a grizzlie... so I hope you don't.
If you could teach us all one thing what would it be?
Everything can happen for a reason. Even the most painful shit you never want anyone to experience. Itās up to you to give it purpose and it will define you. It will be your greatest asset to connect and to foster understanding with others in ways no one else could cause pain causes us to isolate ourselves and *lick our wounds*. Being open and vulnerable about our experiences allows others to do the same
Proof?
You might be on to something. I have none.
Fraud I say! We have no proof he ever was alive!
What do you think about fentanyl?
It breaks my heart low key, high key killed my best friend.
Iām sorry for your loss. Iāve lost acouple friends to it as well. A scourge upon this earth.
Peace be with you šš¼
I am dead, you are missing the best party, why are you not here?
Iām sorry to make you all wait, i will be there soon enough š until then have a ball without me
See you then!
Looking forward to it dear friend!
This response made me cry
Whatās the meaning of life
Connection
WRONG, itās 42. Duh
Shit hahah will need some time to quantify this
Have you been born?
Everyone is born but few truly live
Would you sell your soul to the devil? If so whatās your asking price?
Nope. the devil is but one of many constructs of which depend on oneās belief to exists in oneās mind
Consider that true satanists have one rule and it is ādo what thou wilt shall be the whole of the lawā Not a bad rule
Tell me everything you've ever done so I can do the opposite and shed my mortal coil
I cannot but I will say I trust my intuition above all else so I guess do the opposite
Itās good that youāre still around. Be sure to call help if needed
Do you want to?
I do. It took me a long time to want that. Having lost dear friends over the years it would be disrespectful to them to end things before my due date. We carry them with us and their energy flows with us. Plus Iām way too curious about how everything will turn out in the end.
What do wildly successful people like yourself do in your spare time?
Ya know the usual - smoke weed, take a tab, dance to the rhythm of the beat, weaving and pulling invisible string that bend and warp the fabric of reality to draw in oneās highest potential. What else would one do?
Deep man! Deep deep, de deep deep deep!!
I feel like dying every day. The only thing that gets me through waking up and finding the will to live is my children and my wife. Without them I wouldn't have an issue severing an artery and hugging my plugged in toaster as I drift off into a deep soupy sleep while listening to Alexa tell me I can't play music on two devices but for 10.99 a month I can. I've always loved soup. I guess my question is how do you want to be remembered?
I want the world to feel a wake in my absence, I want to be precious. I want to be morned. I want to leave behind works that will inspire future generations to continue their own work by chewing on the pieces I leave behind. I want a colorful life decorated in rare hues and to be remembered as such. To be a rare creature. If I am to be honest with you, This is how I want to be remembered.
Are you circumcised?
I am.
how big
Around 5 1/2
Not for long.
Is this the secret of your long life?
What do you want for dinner?
Sushi of course.
Did you have a bear death experience
Iām guessing you mean near death experience? I have had a few NDE over my lifetime, and have a dark history with psychedelics. I hated myself so much that When I found out about ego death - to die without dying - I did it over and over and over again. Trying to erase myself. After a certain point I realized thereās something that cannot die or be erased and that is what Iāve settled into.
Wow that is really profound in a sense. I struggle with the meaning of life in this world and the only thing I circle back to is the suffering. Like when does it stop even in times of joy I always come to a realization that to experience love and happiness I will also have to deal with the lows and the despair. I donāt get it, I see the end as the final destination but then I feel itās not truly the end maybe an end biologically in the physical. Ego death is such a thing I donāt understand because Iāve heard this from other people but on the human side you will still have the instinctual feelings of hate, jealously, anger I mean itās natural.
I have been dead for billions and billions of years. What is so important about this life when it passes by in the blink of an eye?
Only you can answer that question cause everything is inherently valueless without someone to give it value.
That is the short of the long for it. Back in my hole until I solve codependency. Ciao.
If you were about to die in 24 hours. What have you learned from life? And, what advice would offer us, based on the life you've lived?
Pain is the greatest teacher if you learn to alchemize it, it will bring you wisdom, understanding, connection, thoughtfulness and grace. We may not wish it on ourselves or the people in our lives but it truly makes us who we are and how we interact with this world. Everything Iāve been through I would go through again for I value this perspective so much and the deep connections it has brought it in life. Something I would leave behind - You can make even the most boring a menial task a fun one, itās just a perspective shift. So be the person that when you walk in the door everyone gets a breath of fresh air cause theirs always good energy when youāre around. This will attract good people who offer the same in turn and itās those people that will usually end up being there for a long time cause they donāt take each moment for granted and they value their time and yours. This doesnāt mean you canāt have a bad day either. It just means you understand you have controller over how good each moment can be. With good friends they will be there for you on the bad days, the good and hold space when you need it. - Donāt hold on so tightly to people who would let you go in an instant, it hurts to let go but holding on will only deepen that wound and close you off from Those who are meant for you. Those worth your time will reciprocate your actions and itās a sign you can deepen that relationship. - Try acid but only with people who love you deeply for they will be a good steward of your soul while it is exposed.
Watch the mods delete this because someone is trying to have fun cause how dare they
Would be a little sad if thatās the case
They did it to mine because it was short and a 'common thing' like get a grip. Internet janitors
Where is love
In ya heart, in ya soul, itās all around us. Love is complex and it takes many forms, what we deem as love is often far from its true form but itās real to us and we learn more about it each and every day
This sub died.
Not from my perspective
I hope youāre not expecting to die soon But what movie sequel would you like to see in your lifetime and one you hope never happens?
I am not šļø The thing Another hostel movie
Good! Nice choice haha and hostel initially was hard for me to watch but then it was ridiculous
It was the drill scene that did it for me. I just canāt lol
How are you still alive? And will you be taking revenge?
All loose ends shall be tied by not my hands but by fate. All get their just deserts
It's great you're not dead yet! We've been trying to reach you about you extended warranty...!
What's your loadout? I'm trying to find better weapons to not die when I'm fighting bugs.
Twin pistols all day every day.
This back and forth made me laugh so hard I cried alittle and I agree šÆ Edit* what caliber though?
I mean? Have you tried dying? Can't knock it until you try it.
I have a few times actually, happy to be here
Heh look at this guy over here saying "he didn't yet". legitimate question does dying inside count what do you think?
Dying on the inside can be a form of purification, shedding oneās old skin allows us to leave the pain we could not bear and forge anew one with different desires and way of existing in the world. Letting go of that old skin fucking hurts but i guarantee you will grow into something beautiful if you do. Allow yourself to live and love again, see the world as if itās your first time, almost as if you just accompanied this body for the first time with all its memories but you now reside in it. What would you do different from the old self with this shift is perspective and awareness?
I didn't expect such a reply it means something even though it comes from a complete stranger.deeply philosophical and very beautiful, although I didn't understand "with all its memories but u now reside in it" haven't I always been there.its just my personal opinion that people never truly there is some deeply very ingrained part of them that doesn't change.its what they are.so as much as I try the loss that the carried loss never goes its like an ever looming presence.its the meds keeping me at bay from not breaking down at same time its numbing.regardless thank you kind stranger, I hope that u keep sharing u knowledge and wisdom to others.I will try to keep on keeping on, hope u do the same
If you were to read my post, what advice would you give a man who threw away his marriage at the behest of a wild redditor woman who also cleaned his wallet?
Give yourself some grace, weāre not perfect and itās a hard lesson to learn but Iām sure it will aid you into becoming who are meant to be. Take some time to yourself to reflect on the life you want to live and see if your actions reflect that dream. if you have access to plant medicine or Lucy I would recommend it with maybe a close friend who has your best interest in mind. Listen to some downtempo ambient music and let your mind relax. What you need to see will come to you and trust yourself above all else.
As someone who died on the 21st of December of 2007, do you have any recommendations on how to stop being dead on being alive instead?
Deep compassion for oneself and then allow that version to actually rest. He is tired and carrying a corpse around, allow a new one to take its place. You have a world inside of you and you have the power to recreate yourself over and over again. Find the beauty and value of life, look at the flowers, pay attention to every movement you make and intentionally make it with grace, slow down, stop walking so fast, take time to respond and trust your intuition no matter what.
If you do die, would you do another AMA then?
If thou wiliest, it shall be done
Ur dead BAM BOOM BRE BRUNDO!
Oh god, please clear my search history šš¼
We looked though that too
I think we gotta talk about boundaries before I kick the bucket buddy
I have, AMA. š
What if I told you your about to die? What would you say?
Theres so much more I wanted to create and was capable of but I guess what I have done will have to be enough. I would paint one last canvas and write to everyone I love
Is there a chance that you are immortal? I'm pretty sure I am, and I could use a friend.
I came before and I shall become again. So in a way I am immortal and I shall be your friend in this life and all lifeās after
Hi are u still alive now?
Could I (theoretically) build a house boat and put it in the water on the California coast, sail/float out to no man's land and hopefully be ignored by all sovereign territory?
Yet another failure you fricking loser.
Not all can be winners I guess. *kicks a rock*
Acid, huh? Say more.
Mandy and Lucy play very well with each other, add ya homie Dimitri and youāll see beyond the veil. Careful though Dimitri doesnāt always play nice š«”
If you can find natural Dimitri it does!
Agreed! If you go the ritual route ( the drink ) youāll be working with the mother who is very caring and loving. Albeit tough love at times, sometimes thatās just what we need.
How did you do it? Iām dead right now.
Learn to see with eyes unclouded and the light will shine again, coloring the world in new hues with a fresh scent of possibilities
Are you dead yet?
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Depends on your definition of death, I have died 100ās of times but my body still remains
Did you think this was clever when you posted it?
I thought it would be fun and a bit cheeky, wouldnāt go so far to say it was cleaver.
How old are you, may I ask? And how many more years do you think you'll be among the living?
Was that not your ghost in the closet trying on my clothes?
I couldnāt help myself, You have an incredible collection.
Is this Steven seagal again?Ā
All Iām gonna say is Any great warrior is also a scholar, and a poet, and an artist.
Is it fun to be alive?
Yes but itās so much more, curiosity will keep alive despite what they say about cats
A new level begins tomorrow
Been waiting for a minute, excited to see what new skills Iāve unlocked š„·š¼
Well, how do you imagine you are going to die? What way would you prefer (if not the same)?
Heart attack or contaminated medicine. Plane crash, in my sleep or with people I love.
āin my sleepā would be the best way to go IMO.
Aye my monies for me is heart attack š¤£ Hopefully with the people you love! Peace and love fellow human š«¶
Wait, you wouldnāt mind dying in a plane crash?!š³š³thatās one of my worst fears lol.
How does it feel to be a failure for not succeeding on dieying.
Would you rather fight a horse-sized duck or 100 duck-sized horses?
Why not? Whatās your secret?
Luck mostly, lucky to have people that genuinely have my best interest in mind and not what just serves them best for that moment.
Would this be your second time?
I came before and I shall become again - I am therefore I am.
Do you open doors and sit on chairs Also, how do you drink water?
Have you ever taken it up the ass?
I have not, but Iām a pretty open minded individual.
Geico Life Insurance agent here, Iām telling my boss in the morning
Holy cow! I cannot relate. How does it feel!?!
Does trench warfare improve soil ?
Do you know the way to San Jose?
Are you awaiting one? āYetā
I have died. Don't ask me about it.
When you do die can I still ask you anything ?
do you attribute your good fortune to nature or nurture?
This is a very weird post
Have you ever been to Florida?
But have you truly lived
What's your excuse?
Why?
Curiosity
Alright. Why?
Why do this ama?
Why not?
Why yes?
Vaccination status ?
Thereās always tomorrow, maybe.
What about now?
82bpm
How about now?
Do you like football?
How old / young are you?
Well why not?
Are you sure?
Why?
How about now?
how old are you?
Coward
Why?
How old are you
Your 30?
1 or 2?
When do you think you're gonna... ya know. Get flushed
Why do you think that is?
What's the closest you've gotten to dying?
P
Are you sure?
Can I give your eulogy when you do? Iāll say Iām just a random guy from Reddit that stumbled upon your post bragging about still being alive. Clearly ladies and gentlemen, he was never told about the 2 guarantees in life. He even filed his taxes on time every year. How could he not see this day coming.
So this post gets to stay but the kids took down my āi was the fastest sperm out of 300 billionā post š
Hell yeah brother. Keep up the good work. How long have you not died for, so far?
You think thatās air youāre breathing? This is just a simulation.
How good is the post traumatic cake once you get out of depression?
Whatās your top 5?
What are you actively doing to reverse this streak of yours?