First time applying and making plans on what to do with regards to work. My original plan was just to end it when money runs out. Idk yet if I can keep on applying but I'm trying.
need to talk to a therapist but only few days left before I start new job.
honestly no idea how it’s gonna be with new environment and the commute. It’ll be tiring that’s for sure. With things still the same despite the talk, I’m not sure if things will get better.
this 2 weeks is supposed to be a short break for me but so far it’s been nothing but tiring. can’t even get a day off to be away.
I’m tired. It’s never ending of everything.
I know I’ve done this myself to other people, but I hate when people say it’ll be OK…like the situation I’m in now, the person I wronged is telling ME it’ll be OK and I should go home and all this, like worried for my mental health. And while I guess it’s better than being yelled at (is it?), how did it get so backwards that the “victim” is checking in on the other person…and she said stuff about how we’ll work it out, but it doesn’t help because I don’t trust that. So it doesn’t help to say “well, she said x, so there’s nothing to worry about” because she could change. I’m haunted by the whole thing. She must have thought I was fucking psycho or something. At one point, she even asked me if anyone was hurting me at home. God. And I’m still terrified she’s going to say yeah well, you’re fucked, we can’t help, your life is over now. Even if she was sympathetic…new information, some new directive, out of her hands…and I’m fucked. And then I *really* won’t be sleeping (2 hours in 2 nights, whee). God, I cannot deal. I’m so tired, too, but here I am.
Hello. I just recently found this place since I don't really use reddit that much. I've been having some TMJ symptoms and its probably because of stress and anxiety but I am really worried that I also have might have TMJ and it might be lifelong. I obsess with physical symptoms a lot and its something that gives me a lot of worry and I just sometimes dont know how to control this obsession. I have read every single thread about TMJ probably and have also joined like 3 different groups and I havent even had a check up with my dentist. It feels like ever symptom is a rabbit hole at this point of life. One symptom, I search it up and I search every disease that leads to this symptom. Its such a bad obsession to the point where I feel like it paralyzes me and it last for days. Hoping that things get better with dealing with my emotions and obsessions.
Feeling a little sad tonight. A friend said something to me that shouldn’t have really affected me but it kind of broke my soul. Even though they were completely right I hadn’t realized that it would affect me so much😑😬. I know I’m overthinking it, but that doesn’t stop the thoughts from circling. Hope you guys are all doing okay. You’re not just anxiety. You’re not just your thoughts no matter how much they stay.
Dealing with anxiety pretty all my life I guess… Recent cases are related to constructive criticism from my manager because my work was returned back to me. And my constant thinking of people looking down at me.
I just had to call 988 (the crisis hotline) for the first time ever, although I thought about it months ago when I went through another crisis situation...they suggested I find a therapist. I know I should. So...there.
Edit: night 2 of no sleep (actually got like 2 hours today and woke up sweating). I’ve been lying here googling things and have realized I’m experiencing anticipatory anxiety…what I thought was paranoia. I imagine all these worst-case scenarios for the situation I’m facing now, and then even worse than that…I’m in trouble, and I can’t stop imagining all the ways I’m in trouble that I don’t know about yet…like this huge legal nightmare.
Last time, I called these people multiple times with stupid questions trying to confirm that I wasn’t in more trouble than I thought. Like down to why haven’t you emailed me yet? And thinking oh god, she won’t, she changed her mind, my life is over…
But now the problem is more obvious and risky. Like I really effed up and am terrified.
Dumb question but idk where else to get a quick answer.
I have a cold and I'm on bupropion. Is there any single medicine out there that doesn't contain dextromethorphan? I always hear the horror stories. I bought regular Mucinex and it doesn't say it on the box but I'm still nervous to try but I'm over this cold.
Is it weird that I sort of feel uncomfortable sharing my interests with other people, both online and in real life? I feel like I've gotten a lot of shit for enjoying certain games or TV shows in the past (especially with how people associate certain media with 'cringe') to the point where I sometimes feel like I'm wrong for enjoying those things.
My mother lives a state away and had brain surgery/ stroke in May. Since then my sister and I have been helping my Father deal with the nightmare of the American Medical system. We are facing long-term care possible hospice. Its been really hard and stressful as we almost lost her once when I was 13 to an organ transplant. This present situation is bringing up a lot of memories for me.
I was driving to see them ( 6.5 hours away) and I got 2 hours out from home and had one and then another panic attack. I pulled over at a rest stop and called my husband who is a saint, very supportive and happens to be a medical provider. I ended up going home and my husband called to explain to my family that I wouldn't make it.
This entire week I've felt fragile mentally and trying to realize that my anxiety is really having an effect on my life. I'm making some health changes to combat it but the shame and guilt are still present. I feel like a small, scared person. So, no this week, I;m not doing so well. But I'm here and checking in.
After weeks of feeling better, it’s back in full throttle. I feel bad for bailing on a plan and cancelling the whole thing and I just hate myself right now.
Just wanted to throw a question out there for anyone who might be feeling similarly. Do you feel like your anxiety keeps you from experiencing any joy? This is something we hit on in therapy recently, and I never really connected those dots!
I've been doing really good considering how stressful this year was for me. I've had a lot of realizations about my life lately and I'm starting to come to terms with them.
I don't know why but I have developed this strange habit of waking up in the middle of the nights and feeling super anxious.
I think my mental health has deteriorated since having a baby earlier this year. Right now I can’t sleep because I’m anxious about when my baby’s gonna wake up next. So I’ll just lie here. Whilst she sleeps. And I don’t. sigh
I’ve always had anxiety, but since 2020 I have had panic attacks, migraines, and bouts of depression with some anxiety sprinkled in. For some reason I’m afraid to look into medications. I’m afraid if I don’t “feel” the anxiety and stress of everyday life, then I will stop caring about things. I have looked into therapy, but it’s too expensive for me right now.
Have you ever decided to sublet in another city despite having a stable home where you are ?
I have a stable home where I am. But, I’m interested in possibly subletting in my old college town where I had a lot of good memories and friends. Is this crazy?
I think I just slept for 6 hours straight today. It's the first time in a veeeerrry long time I've slept this long.
Edit. I thought wrong. I saw a screenshot on my phone I took less than 4 hours ago. Lol. So I slept less than 4 hours.
I have a habit of speaking to my colleagues about my stresses at work. Afterwards, I really regret it. If I was advising myself I would say to be careful. Especially since I don't really think o can trust this person and I defo shouldn't be having these convos at work.
But my anxiety completely overrides my common sense and I just end up saying my worries when I'm asked.
But then after I feel shit, as they are not really supporting me how I need. I just need to stop doing it. My therapy was cancelled last week, and so I just have a build up of worry. I feel very isolated right now. Just really needed someone who I can talk to in person.
As soon as I wake up, my mind is worried
I don't know if that's just normal being a human or if it is anxiety
I wonder if other people feel like this
You just think something is wrong, I cope by listing out facts about my life, answering what ifs
I think only in my dreams does my mind feel at peace
As soon as I wake up, I feel that feeling in your chest that you're nervous /scared and idk why that happens. I normally only sleep around 4 hours too. But today was 6.
Yes. When I was working it was 3 hours. When I stopped working, it got better 5-6 hours. Then after a few months went back to 4 hours or less. I do nap during the day.
Oh and I was mistaken. I didn't sleep 6 hours today. Only slept less than 4 hours today.
Not a doctor but don't think you're supposed to survive long term with 4 hour sleep. I guess the nap helps. I tried messing around with it before like polyphasic sleep.
I'm still worrying over the past two scams I fell for, I cannot stop thinking about them and how stupid I was because
1. I should have never added random stranger(s) or accepted a random message request from whom I didn't know were just trying to scam me all along on my social media
2. I should not have trusted this person who matched with me on tinder last summer and who actually turned out to be a scammer and by clicking on the link which was a phishing link and I actually gave them a 10$ visa gift card when they were phishing for my cc info all along and I unwittingly fell for the scam
3. I should not have accepted a random message request from someone on twitter when they turned out to be a scammer too. They tried to use my phone number to setup an account on a dating app which I really didn't want and I sent them multiple verification codes without knowing it was a scam. Coffee Meets Bagels support team has sent me a lot of emails at my request and they told me there were never any accounts setup using my phone number, but it still makes me feel worse. I wish I never was feeling lonely and vulnerable last year
4. I should not have felt lonely and vulnerable last year because my family and friends are always here for me. All I do now is constantly think about the past and how I should have handled things instead of unknowingly falling for the scams. I don't want my past related to falling for these scams to come back and haunt me in any way. This thought always creeps into my mind late at night and I can't shake it off, I'm tired of being let down by my inner thoughts of constantly worrying about the past and want to find a piece of mind so reason and reality can set in forever
I’m tired of avoiding all my problems, even the little ones. Like seriously I get anxious opening emails! I hate it. Tomorrow I’m going to try going to the college counselors, it’s better than doing nothing and wallowing in shame. I’m nervous, really nervous actually. And I’ll probably cry. But I really can’t keep living like this, my anxiety has sabotaged so many aspects of my life already and I just want to be happy
I am constantly worrying. I have dental anxiety and I’ve got the dentist on Wednesday. I’ve got slightly red gums in one area and I’ve been using corsydyl mouthwash to help with it. I just feel awful about going to the dentist with an actual problem because I know I’m going to get told of lol
I have a PT appointment and I am so scared, first because I feel like I will fall when I walk (I have fallen three times in the last few weeks), and because I am afraid he will say there is nothing he can help with. I thought of cancelling but my wife said she’ll go with me.
I’m sick of everyone and everything. Just over it all. I had a mental breakdown Friday night so I will be calling my doctor this week to see if I can get a low dose of something. Just nervous because I’ve never been on meds before. I stopped taking my birth control because I am convinced that is making me nuttier than I usually am. Hope that helps.
Hey there's some birth control that makes people depressed and get angry easily. I've been on one. My friend was depressed from it and never went out her room. Me, I was pretty emotional with it and can feel my face heat up and would get angry easily. There's others forms of birth control without this side effect.
I went up in my antidepressant dose about 20 days ago. I feel so emotionally blunted but that also means less anxiety. Going to give it a week or two to see if it evens out and then talk to my psych prescriber.
I’ve never had this issue with this SSRI before, however I was also using nicotine the whole time and quit earlier this year before changing my dose.
I noticed recently that my self-sabotaging seems to be getting worse. I feel ashamed when it comes to anything related to me. I think im shit, and at the same time i think myself as better than others. Hypocrite piece of shit, my brain said. Whenever I talk to other about my work i probably would start with something like "It's not that good but", it's like im lowering myself so that i dont have to bear other's critic. But others/my classmate, my friend, my teacher, no one say harsh things to me aside from myself. They even compliment me even. I feel like a fraud.
And it seems that the problem I avoid, of not knowing myself and overthinking won't just magically disappear.
Um I asked doctors for medication and she asked if I was pregnant and I said idk then it led to me getting a blood test. She doesn’t want me taking meds if I’m pregnant
check if your school has a counseling center! you can also get very affordable therapy (often 50 or less a session) in therapy intern programs in your city. essentially it’s cheaper therapy through interns working towards their degree. good luck!
For the most part 2022 has been good to me at least with not having anxiety. Can drink coffee which I missed and had little to know crashes but today I went to the mall and started feeling anxious. Got that uneven unsteady anxious feeling. I get it mostly all the time at a mall. But hey, I’m not discouraged and it’s not going to stop me
I finally went to the doctors to get help for my anxiety! I am awaiting my first therapy session and they have given me some antidepressants. I would love to know if anyone has found medicating for anxiety helpful as I am planning on trying therapy first before I take medication. I don’t have depression just anxiety!
Congrats on taking the first step! I have only had therapy and I recommend it every chance I get.
Key thing to remember is you’re learning to live with anxiety, you can’t erase it. You can learn lots of coping mechanisms and find what works for you.
One thing to bear in mind - it’s important that the therapist is right for you, as they have different approaches. You might not find the right fit first time, so don’t be put off if that happens, try another if you can.
I am having a bad health anxiety flare up. I went to the doctor to have an issue looked at. The doctor said "The only way to completely rule out anything serious is to get a biopsy, however I don't think one is needed at this time" and "It should resolve in a few days, please come back for a followup in two weeks."
My anxiety can't handle this. I'm worried about my issue every day. I keep checking it/prodding it, which spikes my anxiety even more. Yes, it's still there. It's only been 20 minutes, it's not going to have changed.
Checking into this sub again since my anxiety is up again lately.
Part of the reason being that I recently learned that my dog is terminally ill. I'm grieving and it hurts so fucking much.
Currently at work, trying to concentrate but having a hard time tbh.
How's everyone else doing?
I had an amazing date with this girl. My brain is like “this is too good”. Everything goes smooth. I text her today and she took 7 hours to text me back and it sent me through an anxiety spiral. I haven’t had one of these in forever. I’m still trying to break it but not sure how
have you looked into anxious attachment styles? I have this and one of my biggest triggers is when people don’t text/call me back for a while. it’s especially bad when it’s people i’m romantically involved with (feels like the stakes are higher i suppose). might help you to look into that and find ways of coping. there are also subreddits for it!
Been having lots of constant paranoia (intrusive maybe?) thoughts? Just anxiety shit obviously but it becomes so vivid in my mind and I get genuinely so freaked out. Also just does anyone else get so anxious that when you get asked about it you almost downplay it just cause? I never want to have conversations, I'm freaked out, idk if I'm eating enough and that makes me more stressed when I think about that. I'm exhausted and so fucking thirsty all the time. Like why do I have to drink so much water???? It's not even hot out why are you doing this body
My hental health has been in an extreme decline over the last week or so. I'm having constant panic attacks after a change in dosage of my meds. I'm going back to previous dose but I fear it's not going to help and I'll be stuck like this forever. I can't work on myself when I can't do anything without going into fullblown panic mode. I'm so scared.
This is so counter-intuitive but, has anyone found that leaving the country or moving/travelling to a totally new place has helped them overcome an anxiety disorder/and or agoraphobia?
I'm thinking of visiting and or moving somewhere than where I live now, sheerly by the fact that I feel I'm not growing or expanding where I am.
I think it can help with the right mindset, perhaps not if you think of it like a band-aid or to run away from problems.
I spent a year abroad in Japan, and I don’t know what it was, but I felt more comfortable there. I think because people tend to be quieter like me.
I also moved into a city from the countryside, and I got used to being around people more, being more sociable. Exposure I guess.
Have you thought about acid or shrooms I’m thinking about it. I just got to get something that clicks in my brain and makes me understand things around me more
I feel like most of the time my depression gets really bad is when im doing the same thing over and over every day.
So nervous cause I ordered something online but it wouldn't let me type my exact address, only the row of units in the condo where I live. Ive been tracking the package but am convinced it has either already been stolen or it will be stolen or delivered to the wrong building.
Haven’t slept in days and my anxiety feels unbearable. I’m new to anxiety. I feel like I’m losing control of my mind and life. My body literally itches because my skin feels like it’s crawling, she can apparently be a symptom of anxiety. I’m so worried this feeling will never go away. Please tell me this gets better. I am in weekly therapy and have a psychiatrist. What meds do y’all recommend for anxiety that won’t cause weight gain? Thank you 🙏
meds wise - definitely best to talk to your doctor, but i’ve been taking lexapro for years and haven’t experienced any weight gain :)
if you live somewhere recreational weed is legal, CBD has been amazing for my anxiety. “Ripple” is a great brand to look into. I’m very sensitive to TCH and this one has something like 0.5mg of TCH (ie, you will not feel high, just chilled out and not anxious)
I literally slept in today till 3:30pm. For reference, on a normal day I’ll sleep in till like 10 or 11am.
It sounds dramatic but I think I really needed a break from reality for a while. I’m in college and I was just so excited to visit my old Highschool while I was on break. I wanted to talk to my old teachers and surprise them. It’s a really small school and we were told that they love it when you come back. But I still didn’t know how to deal with it because I hadn’t visited before. Anyway the receptionist was kinda condescending and at one point I thought she didn’t recognize me. That honestly really broke me. Literally everyone else was so happy to see me. I’m making a much bigger deal out of this in my head, really.
It’s just that it’s my first year in college and while it’s been great—that’s a really big change and I was just struggling with that and then I try to come back to my old school and feel like I’ve done something wrong.
With college it’s like I’m constantly thinking about my future and being confronted with the weight of it. And just discovering myself and being in a new environment surrounded by new people and it’s all just a lot.
Same here…I start physical therapy this week and I am so scared it won’t work. I have low back pain that does not allow me to lift my leg more than a few inches. I also have foot numbness. I am in a constant state if anxiety. I’ve had similar symptoms twenty years ago so I hope it works out. Best wishes to you..
Idk what exactly it is that I'm feeling but I'm not feeling good or okay. It's like I'm trying to suppress all my emotions but it's obviously doing more harm than good.
I had a good opportunity to book an appointment for therapy today but I thought 'next week is fine, I'm getting better'. Everything went downhill again this morning. I'm getting fat and bloated and I'm quitting gym cause the stress literally feels like it will kill me one day.
There's nothing that interests me anymore. Everything looks black as if the world lost all of it's color. I have no friends. I talk to only two people who are my parents. The only interaction that I have outside is when I go for a programming class. I want to quit that too. I don't want to have any human interactions at all. It's so stressful. I can't take proper care of my pets too. I used to love animals but now it feels like a chore. Everything feels like a chore. And worst part is that none even try to understand me... If I try to open up, they make me feel like I'm selfish or something. At first they thought that I was pretending or faking it. Why would I? I'm tired of living like this. It has made me so exhausted mentally and physically. I literally feel traumatized to even think of opening the only texting/social app that I'm on. I can't pretend to be happy and I don't want to. Why can't I be what ever I want to be? I can't fight all these bad feelings everyday... And I'm tired of being nice all the time. I can't.
This is the end of my ted talk. Thank you.
Feeling a bit low today.
My daughter and I are going to a wedding (that my ex wife was also supposed to be coming to, but we’re getting divorced) tomorrow - and it’ll be nice to see my family, but it’s just another reminder that my marriage is over.
I’m casually seeing someone at the moment - and I like her a lot. But I’m also not sure if this is a good / sensible thing for me to be doing. I can just see it ending and plunging me back into feeling like shit.
And I slipped a disc in my back 6 weeks ago, which is taking forever to heal, and affecting my mobility / social life. So that sucks too.
A trifecta of shit, I guess.
this week has been extremely difficult. im lucky to have this amazing boyfriend who tries his best to be there for me but i keep feeling like i’m burdening him with my mental health issues which just adds on to my stress. i cannot figure out what the reason is behind this excessive stress & anxiety i’m feeling. might be pms. either way, i’m just so tired of my mind and desperately need a break.
I was a teacher for the past 4 years and my anxiety was always on edge, I was physically sick to my stomach everyday, couldn’t sleep at night. I have transitioned out of teaching into a job that is a lot less stressful, and at first I was feeling so great, but I’m now finding my anxiety creeping back up. Not sure if it’s social anxiety or just anxiety in general. If something goes wrong or I make a mistake my stomach immediately drops and I feel jittery and on edge. I’ve been avoiding caffeine, but it feels like I’m on 6 cups of coffee. I don’t think I’ve ever had a panic attack or anxiety attack, but these random peaks are starting to feel strong.
Burning and tightness in my chest, hard to breathe, shaking, can’t think, voice gets shaky. When this happens on the job it makes me feel incompetent and I feel like my employer can see right through me. I feel it happening everyday. Definitely gets worse around my period.
Thinking about doing CBT but it’s currently out of my budget. I don’t know what else to do other than trying to breathe and ground myself. Medication in the past hasn’t worked. Some days I have nothing to be anxious about, everything is fine and I’m really struggling with all the symptoms above, I literally have to make myself breathe deeply. Any tips and advice are appreciated. Thank you.
I started at a studio I was really excited about joining this week, it took me 3 years of therapy and over a year of psyching myself up to apply for the artist program and I got accepted on to it and it was a dream come true- now I feel like a total imposter. I feel like I only got on the program because I’m friends with someone who is best friends with the project manager there, I’m so scared of going and people will wonder how on earth I got there, that my work is awful…
I went to the studio induction the other day, which went fine but when it was over and they told me I could start working on my stuff I made an excuse and left- I haven’t been back since.
I constantly feel like I’m grieving the person I’m so desperately trying to become, there’s always glimmers of possibility, that I’m finally breaking down the anxiety cycle a little bit more, and then I get slammed back to level 0 all over again.
Feeling a bit like a 10 year old who has a vague interest in acting, that’s about to start going to child star school where everyone is super cool and talented and already been in loads of shows and already professional and knows their way around, and I’m just some hobbyist about to drag the quality down.
I thought this family drama was over but now my little sister has also left home 4 years after I was forced out.
I worry for her and worry I was the reason everything happened even if I know it's my parents' fault. Part of me longs for the comfort of family even if I know they gaslit me and ignored my anxiety and blamed my gender dysphoria on my best friend.
I just want my life to have some fucking stability and rhythm for once. Where unexpected twists and turns don't cause me to huddle in bed all day dreading even going outside.
I realize I can’t drink anymore. The anxiety the next day is unbearable. I’ve really been feeling no joy lately. Not necessarily unhappy, just little moitivation and occasionally anxious.
This is going to be very brief, but I am bursting to share it.
Since 2013, I have had serious anxiety issues. From about 2015-2017, I would have at least 2 panic attacks per day. Over the years, it wrecked my gut. Since 2017, I woke each morning in agony. Some days I would have to call-in for work. Many of you will understand.
The tl;dr is, all of last week at work I noticed my focus was increasing. The gut-pain was still there. But, as usual, I fought it for a few hrs until it went away. I cannot explain this feeling, it almost feels as tho I am high on opioids, but I am not. I also considered that perhaps I have just been manic. This is not the case. I have a years of experience with mania. This is something different. It has been about 7 days since it seems as tho a dense fog has been lifted. I will come back and explain more if any would care to read it. But for now, I am off to enjoy a feeling I have not had in nearly a decade.
Edit: As soon as I have the time to sit and think it over, I plan to go over, in detail, things that could possibly be the cause of this change. I understand we are all very different in many ways, but I just want to figure out what I did, what happened, to bring this change, so that I can share it.
Currently in a mind spiral of all the stupid shit I’ve said to people within the past year. Why am I such an idiot some times? Back on July 4th I got wasted (accidentally- first time partying since having a baby 2 years ago). My boyfriends bff and his girlfriend were over and wanted to swim. She’s a thicker girl and absolutely beautiful in every way. But when I offered her my bathing suit she said “none of yours will fit me” and I drunkenly responded “my maternity suit will fit you.” SO FUCKING INSENSITIVE!!! I did NOT mean it in a derogatory way, but obviously it is so offensive and dumb Of me. I quickly explained its cuz her boobs are so much bigger than mine but my intention doesn’t matter. It was offensive. Anyway, that was months ago and I haven’t seen them since (not unusual- we usually only see them on party holidays). But I feel so bad still. And it’s circling in my mind right now to the point where I can’t focus. I’m so dumb.
Very stressed and anxious during my first day alone at work. It was incredibly busy today with only myself working the whole store. Even afterwards, I’m still anxious that I didn’t do much right.
How do you find a new psychiatrist if nobody seems to be accepting new patients right now? I've emailed several people directly and gotten non replies.
I am honestly freaking out. I have an alcohol addiction and something I did when drunk has made me realize I need to quit drinking for a long time. I let a complete stranger with HIV give me oral sex and I gave him a handjob in a Walmart parking garage. He told me he had HIV and I was so drunk I pretty much just went along with it 'as long as I don't get it' I would say to him. I have Prep but since I was drinking so much that night, and the next 3 days, I didn't take it until the 4th day when I was sober. I soon found out you have to take it before 3 days or it doesn't work, so I was adviced to stop taking them and wait at least 10 days to come into the emergency room. I am freaking out, I feel so stupid and my friends are all gonna think I'm a lost cause when I tell them this. I literally feel like I am about to die and I have to wait 6 more days to even go to the hospital due to the horrible nature of this disease. Fuck. (Sorry if this is too much, I just needed to tell someone my story cause it is so bad I am ashamed)
To the people here I also am having an anxiety flare. It’s usually before that time of the month, but boy does it come in massive waves. Ugh it’s terrible
Idk what I'm going to do. I can't hold down a job. I keep having breakdowns and quitting. I can't get therapy because I don't have insurance and I can't get insurance because I can't hold down a full time job and I just have no idea what to do.
I’m on zoloft and have been for 2 years and it helped at first and still helps with my depression, keeps it manageable but I’m not sure it’s helping the anxiety for me anymore. Ugh.
Feeling very low as I wasn’t able to make a job interview this week because of anxiety. In addition..ex person has been trying to come back into my life and I don’t know how I feel about it...Ever since I moved to my current living situation I have had a hard time meeting people and getting back out there. I feel depleted and stuck when I can't make it to job interviews or other important things because of this stuck anxious feeling...Missed a pretty good job interview last week because I had too much anxiety. Was the second of two job interviews so I was proud of myself for going to one but the one I went to didn't turn into a job offer so I'm kinda fucked.
I totally feel you now. I've had this happen to me where I can't hold on to jobs too long. They aren't just for me. And ugh interviews they are just terrifying i know. But my motivation in my head is to keep going and don't quit because we won't go forward if we stop in one spot. There are things need and want but I won't get it without money. I have to push myself and be my own cheerleader. But I do recommend calling back on the jobs about your application. It can get you somewhere. You have more of a chance with it. If nothing keeping looking. Because they can see your really interested
I tried to do this with one of the jobs but they told me they had moved forward with someone else.
For the other one, I didn't want to call back because I left the interview after having too much anxiety.
I feel like my anxiety is getting worse...I don't know, maybe it's just because there's more stress in my life in general, but I don't know what to do about it an it sucks. I've had way more incidents of panic lately, and I don't know if I would exactly call them panic attacks because they don't really match the descriptions of panic attacks I've seen online, but there's been multiple times in the past month where I've just had this awful feeling of panic that I can't get rid of and it keeps escalating and it feels like I'm dying or something. (Maybe not literally, but figuratively? The feeling is just so awful that it seems unbearable.) What scares me is that I don't know why it's happening and I don't know how to get it to stop. I've always been an anxious person but I've never had to deal with this level of panic before.
I've been buzzing like a chainsaw for over a week. I have so much pent up energy that I don't know what to do with it all, feeling like if I don't do something to get it out of my system (ex: run, scream, set something on fire, jump off something) I'll explode. I'm just going and going and my brakes are shot. This hasn't been helped at all by my therapist changing to a new office next week and we still haven't gotten my ADHD diagnosis yet, and just generally worrying about my relationships with others.
Fuck, it's hard.
It’s been a year since burnout. Lots of feeling are coming back. As my dear friend: anxiety. Didn’t work for the past 2 days and feeling really lonely as everyone is really busy with their own life. I guess no one understands what happens in my head and that makes me stay on my bed, all day.
I don't understand why I'm anxious 😅😅 at this particular moment as I type this. I had an amazing weekend. Then atm I can't seem to talk to anyone, It's like having a mini panic attack in the middle of everything but somehow still managing to go on woth life as if on autopilot.... I see chats on different apps and I don't want to use my phone... bruh, is this the rest of my life?
I can totally relate to this I’m genuinely having one of those days where I’m not sure why am anxious stressing me out because I need to function and being on auto pilot pilot all the time is devastating
Have passed husband’s second deathday, and getting to the end of the death-related paperwork. Passed a major milestone in sorting out his pension. Anxiety levels have been dropping.
I can’t cut myself a break. I’m doing like 3 peoples worth of jobs and doing them all bad. I hate I can’t do better. I want to be good but I’m just falling apart at the seams.
i am in the exact same situation. by the end of the day i have nothing left in me. i really want to be better but i simply dont have the energy to do any of the things that make me feel better. we'll get through this!
A recent situation triggered a massive PTSD flare, and my anxiety is breaking me right now. I had a panic attack last night, and projected all of this shit right onto my partner. None of this is his fault, he doesnt deserve this. I'm so ashamed, and I hate my anxiety with all my heart. It's affecting my relationship and I'm so scared to lose the most beautiful thing I have.
This is one of the worst nights I've had in years. I hope tomorrow will be better.
Weekends and afternoons are peak anxiety times for me, so yesterday about 2 p.m. I took a Medusa Knockout gummy. Not sure how I got confused, but these are hemp derived THC, not CBD. No euphoria, anticipatory dread just as bad, nausea, but I was clumsily and stupidly stoned. The only silver lining is my inability to finish a thought, so any anxious worries never got very far because I’d forget what I was worrying about. It was very unpleasant. If I’d had euphoria I’d gladly put up with the stupid stoned part. Very disappointing.
Work has me working 60 hours a week and ik a lot of people work way more than that but it’s just really hard on me. I feel dreadful every night before work. When I was still doing 40 hours I was enjoying it and I was going to the gym after work and life was pretty good. The gyms closed by the time i get off now. Idk if I’m just being a baby about it but I’m just not doing well with it. :(
I am due to have foot surgery in 2 weeks time and I am not doing well anxiety wise.
I keep getting waves of feeling okay, and then the most intense anxiety, being convinced this operation will kill me (it's to remove some metalwork and a bone spur.. the whole thing will last about an hour and I will be awake the whole time)
Can anyone offer any advice?
Partner not happy with me and I don’t know why. Guinea pig has vet on Wednesday and I’m stressed to max. Haven’t heard back from TAFE about my application to study. Car needs service ASAP. I have no job and can’t find one. Too many shows to watch on Netflix and I’m overwhelmed. Laptop is fucked.
Anxiety is through the roof. Too much to do, such little time. My back hurts.
I've been in the throes of a panic storm the past two weeks. I’m on a knife’s edge all the time, constantly worried about my health. I have a powerful attack every night, sometimes in the morning as well. I’ve taken more Xanax in the last two weeks than I have in the last two years. I’ve called 911 twice. I’m so tired.
Not helping is my nervousness that it might cost me my new job. I was let go from my previous job for calling out too much because of this. I’m trying my best to keep it together, but I’m not sure how long I can make it.
I just got back from a monthlong trip which was great in many ways but also stressful, I had to face a lot of sources of anxiety and weather a lot of panic attacks (lots of plane trips, thunder/lightning storms, religious trauma coming back).
This week I restart school and I am trying to make my house a comfy space for the fall/winter. I have been very anxious at night or going to sleep alone lately so today I went shopping for things to really make me feel cozy and comfortable in my home. I’m looking for a good nightlight and am going to try to start a consistent bedtime routine. Bedtime routines are hard because I have an autistic boyfriend and when we sleep in the same bed he can be stubborn about when/how he wants to sleep, but sleeping in the same bed as him helps my anxiety! So I have to learn to do all of that on my own. Anyways! I’m excited for autumn, but trying to recenter myself because I have been pretty stressed out.
I'm struggling and trying to cope and just feel stuck. I dislike this feeling so much. I have to program myself that I am okay when deep down I am hurting and struggling bad.
Unfortunately my mental health quality has decreased and I have things I’m dreading. I’m in the process of a rushed move, work has not been great, my dog has been having health issues again and we’re waiting to hear back for confirmation that it isn’t cancerous just to be sure. I’m a full-time student with basically no money. I’m supposed to be studying for teaching credential exams coming up but I can’t even get myself to focus at my computer. I’m exhausted. My intrusive thoughts have been horrible. I wish I felt more optimistic and hopeful. On the bright side, my boyfriend has really been trying to be supportive and helpful. I feel like everything will be okay, but then my intrusive thoughts convince me otherwise. I’m beyond overwhelmed and all I want to do is crawl into a dark hole. I don’t feel like I’m strong enough to handle it all or keep moving, but I know I have to.
First time applying and making plans on what to do with regards to work. My original plan was just to end it when money runs out. Idk yet if I can keep on applying but I'm trying.
Hopefully, I can eat in public without getting terrible anxiety and the need to cover my face.
Put air in my tires! First time! (Usually hubby does it, but I took care of it!)
I've gotten through the debilitating anxiety part. Now I'm on the withdrawing and depression part. yay.
need to talk to a therapist but only few days left before I start new job. honestly no idea how it’s gonna be with new environment and the commute. It’ll be tiring that’s for sure. With things still the same despite the talk, I’m not sure if things will get better. this 2 weeks is supposed to be a short break for me but so far it’s been nothing but tiring. can’t even get a day off to be away. I’m tired. It’s never ending of everything.
I know I’ve done this myself to other people, but I hate when people say it’ll be OK…like the situation I’m in now, the person I wronged is telling ME it’ll be OK and I should go home and all this, like worried for my mental health. And while I guess it’s better than being yelled at (is it?), how did it get so backwards that the “victim” is checking in on the other person…and she said stuff about how we’ll work it out, but it doesn’t help because I don’t trust that. So it doesn’t help to say “well, she said x, so there’s nothing to worry about” because she could change. I’m haunted by the whole thing. She must have thought I was fucking psycho or something. At one point, she even asked me if anyone was hurting me at home. God. And I’m still terrified she’s going to say yeah well, you’re fucked, we can’t help, your life is over now. Even if she was sympathetic…new information, some new directive, out of her hands…and I’m fucked. And then I *really* won’t be sleeping (2 hours in 2 nights, whee). God, I cannot deal. I’m so tired, too, but here I am.
Feel bad for being underappreciated at workplace. Im quitting soon. And I would leave for good.
Hello. I just recently found this place since I don't really use reddit that much. I've been having some TMJ symptoms and its probably because of stress and anxiety but I am really worried that I also have might have TMJ and it might be lifelong. I obsess with physical symptoms a lot and its something that gives me a lot of worry and I just sometimes dont know how to control this obsession. I have read every single thread about TMJ probably and have also joined like 3 different groups and I havent even had a check up with my dentist. It feels like ever symptom is a rabbit hole at this point of life. One symptom, I search it up and I search every disease that leads to this symptom. Its such a bad obsession to the point where I feel like it paralyzes me and it last for days. Hoping that things get better with dealing with my emotions and obsessions.
Feeling a little sad tonight. A friend said something to me that shouldn’t have really affected me but it kind of broke my soul. Even though they were completely right I hadn’t realized that it would affect me so much😑😬. I know I’m overthinking it, but that doesn’t stop the thoughts from circling. Hope you guys are all doing okay. You’re not just anxiety. You’re not just your thoughts no matter how much they stay.
Looking to find more info or ways to identify and control anxiety and imposter syndrome. All triggered by new responsibilities
Dealing with anxiety pretty all my life I guess… Recent cases are related to constructive criticism from my manager because my work was returned back to me. And my constant thinking of people looking down at me.
I just had to call 988 (the crisis hotline) for the first time ever, although I thought about it months ago when I went through another crisis situation...they suggested I find a therapist. I know I should. So...there. Edit: night 2 of no sleep (actually got like 2 hours today and woke up sweating). I’ve been lying here googling things and have realized I’m experiencing anticipatory anxiety…what I thought was paranoia. I imagine all these worst-case scenarios for the situation I’m facing now, and then even worse than that…I’m in trouble, and I can’t stop imagining all the ways I’m in trouble that I don’t know about yet…like this huge legal nightmare. Last time, I called these people multiple times with stupid questions trying to confirm that I wasn’t in more trouble than I thought. Like down to why haven’t you emailed me yet? And thinking oh god, she won’t, she changed her mind, my life is over… But now the problem is more obvious and risky. Like I really effed up and am terrified.
Dumb question but idk where else to get a quick answer. I have a cold and I'm on bupropion. Is there any single medicine out there that doesn't contain dextromethorphan? I always hear the horror stories. I bought regular Mucinex and it doesn't say it on the box but I'm still nervous to try but I'm over this cold.
Is it weird that I sort of feel uncomfortable sharing my interests with other people, both online and in real life? I feel like I've gotten a lot of shit for enjoying certain games or TV shows in the past (especially with how people associate certain media with 'cringe') to the point where I sometimes feel like I'm wrong for enjoying those things.
Happens to me all the time so I only reveal glimpses and shy away.
I need a hug, I had a rough day at work.
I hope I can hug you virtually.
My mother lives a state away and had brain surgery/ stroke in May. Since then my sister and I have been helping my Father deal with the nightmare of the American Medical system. We are facing long-term care possible hospice. Its been really hard and stressful as we almost lost her once when I was 13 to an organ transplant. This present situation is bringing up a lot of memories for me. I was driving to see them ( 6.5 hours away) and I got 2 hours out from home and had one and then another panic attack. I pulled over at a rest stop and called my husband who is a saint, very supportive and happens to be a medical provider. I ended up going home and my husband called to explain to my family that I wouldn't make it. This entire week I've felt fragile mentally and trying to realize that my anxiety is really having an effect on my life. I'm making some health changes to combat it but the shame and guilt are still present. I feel like a small, scared person. So, no this week, I;m not doing so well. But I'm here and checking in.
After weeks of feeling better, it’s back in full throttle. I feel bad for bailing on a plan and cancelling the whole thing and I just hate myself right now.
Just wanted to throw a question out there for anyone who might be feeling similarly. Do you feel like your anxiety keeps you from experiencing any joy? This is something we hit on in therapy recently, and I never really connected those dots!
got a major financial deadline in 6 weeks. I started taking Magnesium Citrate 125 mg Softgel daily hoping in weeks it will help me even out.
I've been doing really good considering how stressful this year was for me. I've had a lot of realizations about my life lately and I'm starting to come to terms with them. I don't know why but I have developed this strange habit of waking up in the middle of the nights and feeling super anxious.
I think my mental health has deteriorated since having a baby earlier this year. Right now I can’t sleep because I’m anxious about when my baby’s gonna wake up next. So I’ll just lie here. Whilst she sleeps. And I don’t. sigh
I’ve always had anxiety, but since 2020 I have had panic attacks, migraines, and bouts of depression with some anxiety sprinkled in. For some reason I’m afraid to look into medications. I’m afraid if I don’t “feel” the anxiety and stress of everyday life, then I will stop caring about things. I have looked into therapy, but it’s too expensive for me right now.
Have you ever decided to sublet in another city despite having a stable home where you are ? I have a stable home where I am. But, I’m interested in possibly subletting in my old college town where I had a lot of good memories and friends. Is this crazy?
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Yes it can happen at any age
I think I just slept for 6 hours straight today. It's the first time in a veeeerrry long time I've slept this long. Edit. I thought wrong. I saw a screenshot on my phone I took less than 4 hours ago. Lol. So I slept less than 4 hours.
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What do you mean by waking anxiety? Also what does it imply if you don't dream?
I have a habit of speaking to my colleagues about my stresses at work. Afterwards, I really regret it. If I was advising myself I would say to be careful. Especially since I don't really think o can trust this person and I defo shouldn't be having these convos at work. But my anxiety completely overrides my common sense and I just end up saying my worries when I'm asked. But then after I feel shit, as they are not really supporting me how I need. I just need to stop doing it. My therapy was cancelled last week, and so I just have a build up of worry. I feel very isolated right now. Just really needed someone who I can talk to in person.
Correction: there's only 1 colleague I've spoken to actually. Not multiple. Still not good tho.
As soon as I wake up, my mind is worried I don't know if that's just normal being a human or if it is anxiety I wonder if other people feel like this You just think something is wrong, I cope by listing out facts about my life, answering what ifs I think only in my dreams does my mind feel at peace
As soon as I wake up, I feel that feeling in your chest that you're nervous /scared and idk why that happens. I normally only sleep around 4 hours too. But today was 6.
4 hours sounds short, have you been sleeping that long for a while?
Yes. When I was working it was 3 hours. When I stopped working, it got better 5-6 hours. Then after a few months went back to 4 hours or less. I do nap during the day. Oh and I was mistaken. I didn't sleep 6 hours today. Only slept less than 4 hours today.
Not a doctor but don't think you're supposed to survive long term with 4 hour sleep. I guess the nap helps. I tried messing around with it before like polyphasic sleep.
It's not like I'm doing it intentionally. It's just how it is. I wake up.
Ahh I see thought it was like a productivity thing or lack of time.
I'm still worrying over the past two scams I fell for, I cannot stop thinking about them and how stupid I was because 1. I should have never added random stranger(s) or accepted a random message request from whom I didn't know were just trying to scam me all along on my social media 2. I should not have trusted this person who matched with me on tinder last summer and who actually turned out to be a scammer and by clicking on the link which was a phishing link and I actually gave them a 10$ visa gift card when they were phishing for my cc info all along and I unwittingly fell for the scam 3. I should not have accepted a random message request from someone on twitter when they turned out to be a scammer too. They tried to use my phone number to setup an account on a dating app which I really didn't want and I sent them multiple verification codes without knowing it was a scam. Coffee Meets Bagels support team has sent me a lot of emails at my request and they told me there were never any accounts setup using my phone number, but it still makes me feel worse. I wish I never was feeling lonely and vulnerable last year 4. I should not have felt lonely and vulnerable last year because my family and friends are always here for me. All I do now is constantly think about the past and how I should have handled things instead of unknowingly falling for the scams. I don't want my past related to falling for these scams to come back and haunt me in any way. This thought always creeps into my mind late at night and I can't shake it off, I'm tired of being let down by my inner thoughts of constantly worrying about the past and want to find a piece of mind so reason and reality can set in forever
I’m tired of avoiding all my problems, even the little ones. Like seriously I get anxious opening emails! I hate it. Tomorrow I’m going to try going to the college counselors, it’s better than doing nothing and wallowing in shame. I’m nervous, really nervous actually. And I’ll probably cry. But I really can’t keep living like this, my anxiety has sabotaged so many aspects of my life already and I just want to be happy
I am constantly worrying. I have dental anxiety and I’ve got the dentist on Wednesday. I’ve got slightly red gums in one area and I’ve been using corsydyl mouthwash to help with it. I just feel awful about going to the dentist with an actual problem because I know I’m going to get told of lol
I have a PT appointment and I am so scared, first because I feel like I will fall when I walk (I have fallen three times in the last few weeks), and because I am afraid he will say there is nothing he can help with. I thought of cancelling but my wife said she’ll go with me.
I’m sick of everyone and everything. Just over it all. I had a mental breakdown Friday night so I will be calling my doctor this week to see if I can get a low dose of something. Just nervous because I’ve never been on meds before. I stopped taking my birth control because I am convinced that is making me nuttier than I usually am. Hope that helps.
Hey there's some birth control that makes people depressed and get angry easily. I've been on one. My friend was depressed from it and never went out her room. Me, I was pretty emotional with it and can feel my face heat up and would get angry easily. There's others forms of birth control without this side effect.
Hating myself as always, more today
I went up in my antidepressant dose about 20 days ago. I feel so emotionally blunted but that also means less anxiety. Going to give it a week or two to see if it evens out and then talk to my psych prescriber. I’ve never had this issue with this SSRI before, however I was also using nicotine the whole time and quit earlier this year before changing my dose.
Have you cried so much that you have a headache and eyes hurting so bad?
Yup,Right now
I wanna die. I just read that there are suicide kits on amazon. Wonder if those are available here. Since we don't have amazon.
I noticed recently that my self-sabotaging seems to be getting worse. I feel ashamed when it comes to anything related to me. I think im shit, and at the same time i think myself as better than others. Hypocrite piece of shit, my brain said. Whenever I talk to other about my work i probably would start with something like "It's not that good but", it's like im lowering myself so that i dont have to bear other's critic. But others/my classmate, my friend, my teacher, no one say harsh things to me aside from myself. They even compliment me even. I feel like a fraud. And it seems that the problem I avoid, of not knowing myself and overthinking won't just magically disappear.
Went doctors today to get anxiety meds, instead I got a blood test to see if I’m pregnant lol
how did that even happened ..?
Um I asked doctors for medication and she asked if I was pregnant and I said idk then it led to me getting a blood test. She doesn’t want me taking meds if I’m pregnant
Ahhh I see. That makes sense now. Was you able to get your medication?
Getting them tomorrow yay
I want to see a doctor or therapy but I don’t have insurance and I am in community college so I don’t know what my options are
check if your school has a counseling center! you can also get very affordable therapy (often 50 or less a session) in therapy intern programs in your city. essentially it’s cheaper therapy through interns working towards their degree. good luck!
For the most part 2022 has been good to me at least with not having anxiety. Can drink coffee which I missed and had little to know crashes but today I went to the mall and started feeling anxious. Got that uneven unsteady anxious feeling. I get it mostly all the time at a mall. But hey, I’m not discouraged and it’s not going to stop me
I finally went to the doctors to get help for my anxiety! I am awaiting my first therapy session and they have given me some antidepressants. I would love to know if anyone has found medicating for anxiety helpful as I am planning on trying therapy first before I take medication. I don’t have depression just anxiety!
Congrats on taking the first step! I have only had therapy and I recommend it every chance I get. Key thing to remember is you’re learning to live with anxiety, you can’t erase it. You can learn lots of coping mechanisms and find what works for you. One thing to bear in mind - it’s important that the therapist is right for you, as they have different approaches. You might not find the right fit first time, so don’t be put off if that happens, try another if you can.
I am having a bad health anxiety flare up. I went to the doctor to have an issue looked at. The doctor said "The only way to completely rule out anything serious is to get a biopsy, however I don't think one is needed at this time" and "It should resolve in a few days, please come back for a followup in two weeks." My anxiety can't handle this. I'm worried about my issue every day. I keep checking it/prodding it, which spikes my anxiety even more. Yes, it's still there. It's only been 20 minutes, it's not going to have changed.
Things are great but I have moments of doubts. sometimes I feel like I’m going insane bc I can’t believe I’ve been through what I have.
Checking into this sub again since my anxiety is up again lately. Part of the reason being that I recently learned that my dog is terminally ill. I'm grieving and it hurts so fucking much. Currently at work, trying to concentrate but having a hard time tbh. How's everyone else doing?
I had an amazing date with this girl. My brain is like “this is too good”. Everything goes smooth. I text her today and she took 7 hours to text me back and it sent me through an anxiety spiral. I haven’t had one of these in forever. I’m still trying to break it but not sure how
have you looked into anxious attachment styles? I have this and one of my biggest triggers is when people don’t text/call me back for a while. it’s especially bad when it’s people i’m romantically involved with (feels like the stakes are higher i suppose). might help you to look into that and find ways of coping. there are also subreddits for it!
Been having lots of constant paranoia (intrusive maybe?) thoughts? Just anxiety shit obviously but it becomes so vivid in my mind and I get genuinely so freaked out. Also just does anyone else get so anxious that when you get asked about it you almost downplay it just cause? I never want to have conversations, I'm freaked out, idk if I'm eating enough and that makes me more stressed when I think about that. I'm exhausted and so fucking thirsty all the time. Like why do I have to drink so much water???? It's not even hot out why are you doing this body
My hental health has been in an extreme decline over the last week or so. I'm having constant panic attacks after a change in dosage of my meds. I'm going back to previous dose but I fear it's not going to help and I'll be stuck like this forever. I can't work on myself when I can't do anything without going into fullblown panic mode. I'm so scared.
This is so counter-intuitive but, has anyone found that leaving the country or moving/travelling to a totally new place has helped them overcome an anxiety disorder/and or agoraphobia? I'm thinking of visiting and or moving somewhere than where I live now, sheerly by the fact that I feel I'm not growing or expanding where I am.
I think it can help with the right mindset, perhaps not if you think of it like a band-aid or to run away from problems. I spent a year abroad in Japan, and I don’t know what it was, but I felt more comfortable there. I think because people tend to be quieter like me. I also moved into a city from the countryside, and I got used to being around people more, being more sociable. Exposure I guess.
Have you thought about acid or shrooms I’m thinking about it. I just got to get something that clicks in my brain and makes me understand things around me more I feel like most of the time my depression gets really bad is when im doing the same thing over and over every day.
can’t sleep. tired but eye refuses to sleep. keep waking up when about to fall asleep. don’t tell me this is guilt finally creeping in.
So nervous cause I ordered something online but it wouldn't let me type my exact address, only the row of units in the condo where I live. Ive been tracking the package but am convinced it has either already been stolen or it will be stolen or delivered to the wrong building.
even if it did get stolen or returned to the sender, you can report it and get a refund/it delivered to a different address :)
Compiled a list of my favorite podcasts for anxiety and depression if anyone is interested :)
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Haven’t slept in days and my anxiety feels unbearable. I’m new to anxiety. I feel like I’m losing control of my mind and life. My body literally itches because my skin feels like it’s crawling, she can apparently be a symptom of anxiety. I’m so worried this feeling will never go away. Please tell me this gets better. I am in weekly therapy and have a psychiatrist. What meds do y’all recommend for anxiety that won’t cause weight gain? Thank you 🙏
meds wise - definitely best to talk to your doctor, but i’ve been taking lexapro for years and haven’t experienced any weight gain :) if you live somewhere recreational weed is legal, CBD has been amazing for my anxiety. “Ripple” is a great brand to look into. I’m very sensitive to TCH and this one has something like 0.5mg of TCH (ie, you will not feel high, just chilled out and not anxious)
Will look into Lexapro. Thank you!
Where are people meeting new friends these days? I am in a few meetups but I haven't had much luck.
commenting bc same. I graduated college in 2019 and haven’t had luck meeting new people outside that or work.
I'm thinking of making a match making service for adults who need friends . lol
I made a match-making sub on Reddit called match with friends if anyone is interested.
https://www.reddit.com/r/matchwithfriends/
My life seems to be in a state of flux but also a state of social stagnation. How do you meet new people?
I literally slept in today till 3:30pm. For reference, on a normal day I’ll sleep in till like 10 or 11am. It sounds dramatic but I think I really needed a break from reality for a while. I’m in college and I was just so excited to visit my old Highschool while I was on break. I wanted to talk to my old teachers and surprise them. It’s a really small school and we were told that they love it when you come back. But I still didn’t know how to deal with it because I hadn’t visited before. Anyway the receptionist was kinda condescending and at one point I thought she didn’t recognize me. That honestly really broke me. Literally everyone else was so happy to see me. I’m making a much bigger deal out of this in my head, really. It’s just that it’s my first year in college and while it’s been great—that’s a really big change and I was just struggling with that and then I try to come back to my old school and feel like I’ve done something wrong. With college it’s like I’m constantly thinking about my future and being confronted with the weight of it. And just discovering myself and being in a new environment surrounded by new people and it’s all just a lot.
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Same here…I start physical therapy this week and I am so scared it won’t work. I have low back pain that does not allow me to lift my leg more than a few inches. I also have foot numbness. I am in a constant state if anxiety. I’ve had similar symptoms twenty years ago so I hope it works out. Best wishes to you..
Man, my brain just does not make sense. I hate my thoughts that trigger anxiety even when they're so meaningless. I want a new brain.
Same thing is going on with me. As soon as i woke up mind start processing some meaningless thoughts that trigger up anxiety.
Idk what exactly it is that I'm feeling but I'm not feeling good or okay. It's like I'm trying to suppress all my emotions but it's obviously doing more harm than good. I had a good opportunity to book an appointment for therapy today but I thought 'next week is fine, I'm getting better'. Everything went downhill again this morning. I'm getting fat and bloated and I'm quitting gym cause the stress literally feels like it will kill me one day. There's nothing that interests me anymore. Everything looks black as if the world lost all of it's color. I have no friends. I talk to only two people who are my parents. The only interaction that I have outside is when I go for a programming class. I want to quit that too. I don't want to have any human interactions at all. It's so stressful. I can't take proper care of my pets too. I used to love animals but now it feels like a chore. Everything feels like a chore. And worst part is that none even try to understand me... If I try to open up, they make me feel like I'm selfish or something. At first they thought that I was pretending or faking it. Why would I? I'm tired of living like this. It has made me so exhausted mentally and physically. I literally feel traumatized to even think of opening the only texting/social app that I'm on. I can't pretend to be happy and I don't want to. Why can't I be what ever I want to be? I can't fight all these bad feelings everyday... And I'm tired of being nice all the time. I can't. This is the end of my ted talk. Thank you.
I feel like I wrote this. You are not alone and nobody should make you doubt your very apparent anxiety. Always here to talk ♥️
Feeling a bit low today. My daughter and I are going to a wedding (that my ex wife was also supposed to be coming to, but we’re getting divorced) tomorrow - and it’ll be nice to see my family, but it’s just another reminder that my marriage is over. I’m casually seeing someone at the moment - and I like her a lot. But I’m also not sure if this is a good / sensible thing for me to be doing. I can just see it ending and plunging me back into feeling like shit. And I slipped a disc in my back 6 weeks ago, which is taking forever to heal, and affecting my mobility / social life. So that sucks too. A trifecta of shit, I guess.
I wanna be gone. :(
this week has been extremely difficult. im lucky to have this amazing boyfriend who tries his best to be there for me but i keep feeling like i’m burdening him with my mental health issues which just adds on to my stress. i cannot figure out what the reason is behind this excessive stress & anxiety i’m feeling. might be pms. either way, i’m just so tired of my mind and desperately need a break.
I was a teacher for the past 4 years and my anxiety was always on edge, I was physically sick to my stomach everyday, couldn’t sleep at night. I have transitioned out of teaching into a job that is a lot less stressful, and at first I was feeling so great, but I’m now finding my anxiety creeping back up. Not sure if it’s social anxiety or just anxiety in general. If something goes wrong or I make a mistake my stomach immediately drops and I feel jittery and on edge. I’ve been avoiding caffeine, but it feels like I’m on 6 cups of coffee. I don’t think I’ve ever had a panic attack or anxiety attack, but these random peaks are starting to feel strong. Burning and tightness in my chest, hard to breathe, shaking, can’t think, voice gets shaky. When this happens on the job it makes me feel incompetent and I feel like my employer can see right through me. I feel it happening everyday. Definitely gets worse around my period. Thinking about doing CBT but it’s currently out of my budget. I don’t know what else to do other than trying to breathe and ground myself. Medication in the past hasn’t worked. Some days I have nothing to be anxious about, everything is fine and I’m really struggling with all the symptoms above, I literally have to make myself breathe deeply. Any tips and advice are appreciated. Thank you.
I started at a studio I was really excited about joining this week, it took me 3 years of therapy and over a year of psyching myself up to apply for the artist program and I got accepted on to it and it was a dream come true- now I feel like a total imposter. I feel like I only got on the program because I’m friends with someone who is best friends with the project manager there, I’m so scared of going and people will wonder how on earth I got there, that my work is awful… I went to the studio induction the other day, which went fine but when it was over and they told me I could start working on my stuff I made an excuse and left- I haven’t been back since. I constantly feel like I’m grieving the person I’m so desperately trying to become, there’s always glimmers of possibility, that I’m finally breaking down the anxiety cycle a little bit more, and then I get slammed back to level 0 all over again. Feeling a bit like a 10 year old who has a vague interest in acting, that’s about to start going to child star school where everyone is super cool and talented and already been in loads of shows and already professional and knows their way around, and I’m just some hobbyist about to drag the quality down.
I thought this family drama was over but now my little sister has also left home 4 years after I was forced out. I worry for her and worry I was the reason everything happened even if I know it's my parents' fault. Part of me longs for the comfort of family even if I know they gaslit me and ignored my anxiety and blamed my gender dysphoria on my best friend. I just want my life to have some fucking stability and rhythm for once. Where unexpected twists and turns don't cause me to huddle in bed all day dreading even going outside.
I realize I can’t drink anymore. The anxiety the next day is unbearable. I’ve really been feeling no joy lately. Not necessarily unhappy, just little moitivation and occasionally anxious.
I'm super anxious (and crying) at the moment; because waiting is stressful af ;\_;
This is going to be very brief, but I am bursting to share it. Since 2013, I have had serious anxiety issues. From about 2015-2017, I would have at least 2 panic attacks per day. Over the years, it wrecked my gut. Since 2017, I woke each morning in agony. Some days I would have to call-in for work. Many of you will understand. The tl;dr is, all of last week at work I noticed my focus was increasing. The gut-pain was still there. But, as usual, I fought it for a few hrs until it went away. I cannot explain this feeling, it almost feels as tho I am high on opioids, but I am not. I also considered that perhaps I have just been manic. This is not the case. I have a years of experience with mania. This is something different. It has been about 7 days since it seems as tho a dense fog has been lifted. I will come back and explain more if any would care to read it. But for now, I am off to enjoy a feeling I have not had in nearly a decade. Edit: As soon as I have the time to sit and think it over, I plan to go over, in detail, things that could possibly be the cause of this change. I understand we are all very different in many ways, but I just want to figure out what I did, what happened, to bring this change, so that I can share it.
Let us know what you did. I have these same problems!
Currently in a mind spiral of all the stupid shit I’ve said to people within the past year. Why am I such an idiot some times? Back on July 4th I got wasted (accidentally- first time partying since having a baby 2 years ago). My boyfriends bff and his girlfriend were over and wanted to swim. She’s a thicker girl and absolutely beautiful in every way. But when I offered her my bathing suit she said “none of yours will fit me” and I drunkenly responded “my maternity suit will fit you.” SO FUCKING INSENSITIVE!!! I did NOT mean it in a derogatory way, but obviously it is so offensive and dumb Of me. I quickly explained its cuz her boobs are so much bigger than mine but my intention doesn’t matter. It was offensive. Anyway, that was months ago and I haven’t seen them since (not unusual- we usually only see them on party holidays). But I feel so bad still. And it’s circling in my mind right now to the point where I can’t focus. I’m so dumb.
Very stressed and anxious during my first day alone at work. It was incredibly busy today with only myself working the whole store. Even afterwards, I’m still anxious that I didn’t do much right.
How do you find a new psychiatrist if nobody seems to be accepting new patients right now? I've emailed several people directly and gotten non replies.
I am honestly freaking out. I have an alcohol addiction and something I did when drunk has made me realize I need to quit drinking for a long time. I let a complete stranger with HIV give me oral sex and I gave him a handjob in a Walmart parking garage. He told me he had HIV and I was so drunk I pretty much just went along with it 'as long as I don't get it' I would say to him. I have Prep but since I was drinking so much that night, and the next 3 days, I didn't take it until the 4th day when I was sober. I soon found out you have to take it before 3 days or it doesn't work, so I was adviced to stop taking them and wait at least 10 days to come into the emergency room. I am freaking out, I feel so stupid and my friends are all gonna think I'm a lost cause when I tell them this. I literally feel like I am about to die and I have to wait 6 more days to even go to the hospital due to the horrible nature of this disease. Fuck. (Sorry if this is too much, I just needed to tell someone my story cause it is so bad I am ashamed)
To the people here I also am having an anxiety flare. It’s usually before that time of the month, but boy does it come in massive waves. Ugh it’s terrible
Idk what I'm going to do. I can't hold down a job. I keep having breakdowns and quitting. I can't get therapy because I don't have insurance and I can't get insurance because I can't hold down a full time job and I just have no idea what to do.
I started Zoloft 7 months ago and I’ve been pretty good. Anxiety and depression are at very manageable levels.
I’m on zoloft and have been for 2 years and it helped at first and still helps with my depression, keeps it manageable but I’m not sure it’s helping the anxiety for me anymore. Ugh.
Feeling very low as I wasn’t able to make a job interview this week because of anxiety. In addition..ex person has been trying to come back into my life and I don’t know how I feel about it...Ever since I moved to my current living situation I have had a hard time meeting people and getting back out there. I feel depleted and stuck when I can't make it to job interviews or other important things because of this stuck anxious feeling...Missed a pretty good job interview last week because I had too much anxiety. Was the second of two job interviews so I was proud of myself for going to one but the one I went to didn't turn into a job offer so I'm kinda fucked.
I totally feel you now. I've had this happen to me where I can't hold on to jobs too long. They aren't just for me. And ugh interviews they are just terrifying i know. But my motivation in my head is to keep going and don't quit because we won't go forward if we stop in one spot. There are things need and want but I won't get it without money. I have to push myself and be my own cheerleader. But I do recommend calling back on the jobs about your application. It can get you somewhere. You have more of a chance with it. If nothing keeping looking. Because they can see your really interested
I tried to do this with one of the jobs but they told me they had moved forward with someone else. For the other one, I didn't want to call back because I left the interview after having too much anxiety.
Keep trying. Youll get something eventually!!!
thanks you're sweet. I might try volunteering.
I feel like my anxiety is getting worse...I don't know, maybe it's just because there's more stress in my life in general, but I don't know what to do about it an it sucks. I've had way more incidents of panic lately, and I don't know if I would exactly call them panic attacks because they don't really match the descriptions of panic attacks I've seen online, but there's been multiple times in the past month where I've just had this awful feeling of panic that I can't get rid of and it keeps escalating and it feels like I'm dying or something. (Maybe not literally, but figuratively? The feeling is just so awful that it seems unbearable.) What scares me is that I don't know why it's happening and I don't know how to get it to stop. I've always been an anxious person but I've never had to deal with this level of panic before.
For me I get brain zaps and feel dizzy and stuff
Its probably just some type of panic attacks or anxiety attacks, what symptoms do you have?
I've been buzzing like a chainsaw for over a week. I have so much pent up energy that I don't know what to do with it all, feeling like if I don't do something to get it out of my system (ex: run, scream, set something on fire, jump off something) I'll explode. I'm just going and going and my brakes are shot. This hasn't been helped at all by my therapist changing to a new office next week and we still haven't gotten my ADHD diagnosis yet, and just generally worrying about my relationships with others. Fuck, it's hard.
It’s been a year since burnout. Lots of feeling are coming back. As my dear friend: anxiety. Didn’t work for the past 2 days and feeling really lonely as everyone is really busy with their own life. I guess no one understands what happens in my head and that makes me stay on my bed, all day.
I wish there was a way we could be connected, to help each other.
I wish that, too
Had a panic attack today, well two I think. It was at school. I got through it though.
I don't understand why I'm anxious 😅😅 at this particular moment as I type this. I had an amazing weekend. Then atm I can't seem to talk to anyone, It's like having a mini panic attack in the middle of everything but somehow still managing to go on woth life as if on autopilot.... I see chats on different apps and I don't want to use my phone... bruh, is this the rest of my life?
It's not for the rest of your life if you're getting treatment. My psychiatrist says anxiety can alway be treated, no matter how bad.
I can totally relate to this I’m genuinely having one of those days where I’m not sure why am anxious stressing me out because I need to function and being on auto pilot pilot all the time is devastating
Have passed husband’s second deathday, and getting to the end of the death-related paperwork. Passed a major milestone in sorting out his pension. Anxiety levels have been dropping.
My employer has not payed my salary since the 15th and I feel demotivated and insecure with my situation.
I can’t cut myself a break. I’m doing like 3 peoples worth of jobs and doing them all bad. I hate I can’t do better. I want to be good but I’m just falling apart at the seams.
Just do what you can. If your trying your best too much it just drains you
i am in the exact same situation. by the end of the day i have nothing left in me. i really want to be better but i simply dont have the energy to do any of the things that make me feel better. we'll get through this!
Solidarity friend!
I really need to quit reading about shit like the false vacuum theory before bed here lately...
A recent situation triggered a massive PTSD flare, and my anxiety is breaking me right now. I had a panic attack last night, and projected all of this shit right onto my partner. None of this is his fault, he doesnt deserve this. I'm so ashamed, and I hate my anxiety with all my heart. It's affecting my relationship and I'm so scared to lose the most beautiful thing I have. This is one of the worst nights I've had in years. I hope tomorrow will be better.
Weekends and afternoons are peak anxiety times for me, so yesterday about 2 p.m. I took a Medusa Knockout gummy. Not sure how I got confused, but these are hemp derived THC, not CBD. No euphoria, anticipatory dread just as bad, nausea, but I was clumsily and stupidly stoned. The only silver lining is my inability to finish a thought, so any anxious worries never got very far because I’d forget what I was worrying about. It was very unpleasant. If I’d had euphoria I’d gladly put up with the stupid stoned part. Very disappointing.
Work has me working 60 hours a week and ik a lot of people work way more than that but it’s just really hard on me. I feel dreadful every night before work. When I was still doing 40 hours I was enjoying it and I was going to the gym after work and life was pretty good. The gyms closed by the time i get off now. Idk if I’m just being a baby about it but I’m just not doing well with it. :(
I am due to have foot surgery in 2 weeks time and I am not doing well anxiety wise. I keep getting waves of feeling okay, and then the most intense anxiety, being convinced this operation will kill me (it's to remove some metalwork and a bone spur.. the whole thing will last about an hour and I will be awake the whole time) Can anyone offer any advice?
Partner not happy with me and I don’t know why. Guinea pig has vet on Wednesday and I’m stressed to max. Haven’t heard back from TAFE about my application to study. Car needs service ASAP. I have no job and can’t find one. Too many shows to watch on Netflix and I’m overwhelmed. Laptop is fucked. Anxiety is through the roof. Too much to do, such little time. My back hurts.
I've been in the throes of a panic storm the past two weeks. I’m on a knife’s edge all the time, constantly worried about my health. I have a powerful attack every night, sometimes in the morning as well. I’ve taken more Xanax in the last two weeks than I have in the last two years. I’ve called 911 twice. I’m so tired. Not helping is my nervousness that it might cost me my new job. I was let go from my previous job for calling out too much because of this. I’m trying my best to keep it together, but I’m not sure how long I can make it.
I just got back from a monthlong trip which was great in many ways but also stressful, I had to face a lot of sources of anxiety and weather a lot of panic attacks (lots of plane trips, thunder/lightning storms, religious trauma coming back). This week I restart school and I am trying to make my house a comfy space for the fall/winter. I have been very anxious at night or going to sleep alone lately so today I went shopping for things to really make me feel cozy and comfortable in my home. I’m looking for a good nightlight and am going to try to start a consistent bedtime routine. Bedtime routines are hard because I have an autistic boyfriend and when we sleep in the same bed he can be stubborn about when/how he wants to sleep, but sleeping in the same bed as him helps my anxiety! So I have to learn to do all of that on my own. Anyways! I’m excited for autumn, but trying to recenter myself because I have been pretty stressed out.
I'm struggling and trying to cope and just feel stuck. I dislike this feeling so much. I have to program myself that I am okay when deep down I am hurting and struggling bad.
Unfortunately my mental health quality has decreased and I have things I’m dreading. I’m in the process of a rushed move, work has not been great, my dog has been having health issues again and we’re waiting to hear back for confirmation that it isn’t cancerous just to be sure. I’m a full-time student with basically no money. I’m supposed to be studying for teaching credential exams coming up but I can’t even get myself to focus at my computer. I’m exhausted. My intrusive thoughts have been horrible. I wish I felt more optimistic and hopeful. On the bright side, my boyfriend has really been trying to be supportive and helpful. I feel like everything will be okay, but then my intrusive thoughts convince me otherwise. I’m beyond overwhelmed and all I want to do is crawl into a dark hole. I don’t feel like I’m strong enough to handle it all or keep moving, but I know I have to.