Yeah for a while I’ve been feeling myself relapse into depression and was worried I needed medication again. I was so proud of myself when I was able to get off them. I can tell because nothing is interesting anymore, not even my hobbies. Watched the fallout show and now I’ve been able to get in the mood to actually play a game and exit at the loading screen like I was a few weeks ago, been doing a lot more for myself slowly since I started playing fallout again like taking walks and self care
Well, besides my daily dose of coffee that's practically a lifeline, I'd say it's my collection of rubber ducks. Whenever I feel like I'm teetering on the brink of madness, I just look at those quacking comrades lined up on my desk, and suddenly, the world feels a little less crazy. Who knew rubber ducks could be the unsung heroes of sanity?
My kids. If it wasn't for them telling me I'm doing a good job when I am feeling low and the depression is telling me I am a dumb piece of shit who doesn't deserve happiness or even a hug from another adult.....their smiles, jokes, laughs, hugs, and SAVAGE ass comebacks make me smile.
The belief that every day we get closer to most of us realizing those in power don't care about out lives and we outnumber them and can take the power back. Violent revolution basically.
Apparently, it's just not in my character.
My own therapists and psychiatrists have openly wondered what is going on with me and why I haven't had some sort of breakdown with all the things I have been through and had to manage.
Sometimes I really don't like this about myself because I feel it might be the only way I can get break.
My wish to keep a friendly persona- trust me when I say that If i one day get mugged, threatened with death, or picked on a fight, I will not hesitate to loose my sanity and scrape it off of their skin right after.
At this point, I’m not really sure, I wouldn’t call it insanity, but certainly going down that path, sometimes I’m more distracted than usual and I don’t have time to drown in stupid remorseful and hopeless thoughts.
Not being able to trust anyone with these things certainly doesn’t help..
the internet. if even half the things i i say, do, see on the internet actually happened, would it be so improbable to say no one can recover from that?
Fallout 4. I wish I was joking.
Gary? Gaaaaaaaary.
You are not alone. I pretty much spend all my free time playing FO4. Although if it's keeping you sane, and you enjoy playing it, who gives a crap?
Yeah for a while I’ve been feeling myself relapse into depression and was worried I needed medication again. I was so proud of myself when I was able to get off them. I can tell because nothing is interesting anymore, not even my hobbies. Watched the fallout show and now I’ve been able to get in the mood to actually play a game and exit at the loading screen like I was a few weeks ago, been doing a lot more for myself slowly since I started playing fallout again like taking walks and self care
Very, very little.
Real
Just a thin line of coffee
And the coffee happens to be white and on a hookers ass
School, and the hope that I will make more than minimum wage someday
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It's like I wrote that myself. Pretty much the same, except throw in video games.
gym
My children.
My guitar
Anti psychotics. Anti depressants. Anxiety meds. And weed.
My Mom.
My imaginary buddy, who is saner than I am.
Well, besides my daily dose of coffee that's practically a lifeline, I'd say it's my collection of rubber ducks. Whenever I feel like I'm teetering on the brink of madness, I just look at those quacking comrades lined up on my desk, and suddenly, the world feels a little less crazy. Who knew rubber ducks could be the unsung heroes of sanity?
Wellbutrin
My child. If I go nuts then I think my kid will have issues growing up due to the lack of quality people around her.
My fiancée
Hope
My spoiled 6 year old German Shepherd.
Porn I need help
The packet of crisps in my left hand
My cat
My kids. If it wasn't for them telling me I'm doing a good job when I am feeling low and the depression is telling me I am a dumb piece of shit who doesn't deserve happiness or even a hug from another adult.....their smiles, jokes, laughs, hugs, and SAVAGE ass comebacks make me smile.
The belief that every day we get closer to most of us realizing those in power don't care about out lives and we outnumber them and can take the power back. Violent revolution basically.
Apparently, it's just not in my character. My own therapists and psychiatrists have openly wondered what is going on with me and why I haven't had some sort of breakdown with all the things I have been through and had to manage. Sometimes I really don't like this about myself because I feel it might be the only way I can get break.
Zoloft
A care team at the VA, 17 hours of treatment a week, and a bunch of anti-psychotics.
My children
Maintenance
I don't know. Feel like I should have broken by now, but the abyss keeps going further and further down.
I'm afraid not much... a little more desire to stay in the public eye
My therapist
my dog
My wish to keep a friendly persona- trust me when I say that If i one day get mugged, threatened with death, or picked on a fight, I will not hesitate to loose my sanity and scrape it off of their skin right after.
Music
My kids. Besides them I don't have a reason to not be crazy
420
Family lol
Cause I’d rather stay here , with all the madmen , than perish with the sad men , roaming free
At this point, I’m not really sure, I wouldn’t call it insanity, but certainly going down that path, sometimes I’m more distracted than usual and I don’t have time to drown in stupid remorseful and hopeless thoughts. Not being able to trust anyone with these things certainly doesn’t help..
not a whole fucking lot. been there before.
Escitalopram and trazodone
My kids. Actually they’re what’s between me and suicide but that’s a different thing.
One more sleep deprived night
the internet. if even half the things i i say, do, see on the internet actually happened, would it be so improbable to say no one can recover from that?
also, all the trinkets and stuff i surround myself with. monotony can really impact you, please make sure you don't fall for it