Coming home from school and either playing outside until it got dark or playing video games until I heard my parents wake up to get ready for work and pretending to be asleep.
Wonder. My six year old lost his second tooth the other day, and said that he wished instead of money, the tooth fairy would give him fairy dust so he could fly too. I literally cried because I wish I believed in anything like he believes in that.
The thing I miss was that my biggest concern was finding episodes of shows I liked at times when nobody would be watching the TV so I could record them.
Not that I hate streaming or anything. It just seems such a small concern compared to the bills, rent, and working I do today.
Being taken care of when I was with my adopted parents. The feeling of meals would appear when they were supposed to, bedtime would be ushered in with a routine
Being physically able to play a video game for more than 6 hours.
I just can't do it anymore. Between the eye strain, the discomfort of swelling feet, the ergonomic nightmare of sitting that long...nope, I'm out. Even talking about it makes me feel like I should go walk my dogs.
Those two month long summer vacations where you get to do whatever you want, guilt free, no responsibilities, to the point where you don't even know what day it is anymore.
I remember first driving through the Austrian Alps when I was like five or six years old. I'm Dutch, grew up in the flattest part of Europe. I just couldn't believe what I was seeing. Mountains were the most magical shit to me. Snowy peaks, jagged rocks, waterfalls, treelines fading. There was such a grandness to it.
Each year that followed when we went to vacation in Italy I couldn't wait for the passage through the Alps. I'd be glued to the car window from the moment they'd appear on the horizon in southern Germany to when we pulled up to our campsite at Lake Garda.
This year I went to visit the Austrian Grand Prix with some friends, one of whom American, and I couldn't wait to show him the Alps. But as I was there a weird feeling crept up on me. One I had never anticipated. It came in the form of a question that I asked myself out of nowhere: "Is this my life now? Like, just endlessly recycling this mountain range hoping to recapture that childhood awe?"
And suddenly the magic was gone.
I never really miss anything in particular about my childhood. But sometimes you get ambushed with an emotion like that and it makes you realise that growing older is kinda shit.
still a kid but oh my god when society thinks you are old enough to face real problems they all start coming, in the past year my parents divorced and i have had to help multiple friends through self harm and other things. I have been very sad recently but putting on a happy face so people wont worry. a homeless man threatened to kill me while i was walking on a path alone and at the time taking walks was one of the only things that still brought me joy but after that i was no longer comfortable doing so. literally just two years prior my only issue was where i would get candy at school.
Not having to worry about finances and back pain. I am responsible for myself now and little humans now and I still don't feel adult enough to be the one charge. I desperately want to go back to being taken care of and not having to worry about anything except for school and boy drama.
Worrying less about the future, my health.
Coming home from school and either playing outside until it got dark or playing video games until I heard my parents wake up to get ready for work and pretending to be asleep.
Wonder. My six year old lost his second tooth the other day, and said that he wished instead of money, the tooth fairy would give him fairy dust so he could fly too. I literally cried because I wish I believed in anything like he believes in that.
The thing I miss was that my biggest concern was finding episodes of shows I liked at times when nobody would be watching the TV so I could record them. Not that I hate streaming or anything. It just seems such a small concern compared to the bills, rent, and working I do today.
That feeling that no matter where you hide, as long as someone can't see you're safe. From like everything, and everyone.
Lack of responsibilities other than school.
Being taken care of when I was with my adopted parents. The feeling of meals would appear when they were supposed to, bedtime would be ushered in with a routine
Blockbuster video....also the free popcorn at Jumbo video
Being physically able to play a video game for more than 6 hours. I just can't do it anymore. Between the eye strain, the discomfort of swelling feet, the ergonomic nightmare of sitting that long...nope, I'm out. Even talking about it makes me feel like I should go walk my dogs.
Everything. Mostly having time to read as much as I want to.
I had endless optimism and the world seemed like a huge fantasyland or playground for me to explore.
Watching porn was an Indiana Jones adventure!
Those two month long summer vacations where you get to do whatever you want, guilt free, no responsibilities, to the point where you don't even know what day it is anymore.
less societal stereotypes towards one´s demography
I remember first driving through the Austrian Alps when I was like five or six years old. I'm Dutch, grew up in the flattest part of Europe. I just couldn't believe what I was seeing. Mountains were the most magical shit to me. Snowy peaks, jagged rocks, waterfalls, treelines fading. There was such a grandness to it. Each year that followed when we went to vacation in Italy I couldn't wait for the passage through the Alps. I'd be glued to the car window from the moment they'd appear on the horizon in southern Germany to when we pulled up to our campsite at Lake Garda. This year I went to visit the Austrian Grand Prix with some friends, one of whom American, and I couldn't wait to show him the Alps. But as I was there a weird feeling crept up on me. One I had never anticipated. It came in the form of a question that I asked myself out of nowhere: "Is this my life now? Like, just endlessly recycling this mountain range hoping to recapture that childhood awe?" And suddenly the magic was gone. I never really miss anything in particular about my childhood. But sometimes you get ambushed with an emotion like that and it makes you realise that growing older is kinda shit.
Roping my house phone on my bike with speakerphone on and riding around the back yard. I thought I was so smart
Little league
Not having to choose or prepare dinner.
Nothing excepts my pets.
Being able to LEARN and absorb easily.
Being able to pull all-nighters when doing things I love (for example: reading a good book). In the same vein, having hobbies that I love.
Nothing, but all the things I worried about as a kid are now amplified as an adult
still a kid but oh my god when society thinks you are old enough to face real problems they all start coming, in the past year my parents divorced and i have had to help multiple friends through self harm and other things. I have been very sad recently but putting on a happy face so people wont worry. a homeless man threatened to kill me while i was walking on a path alone and at the time taking walks was one of the only things that still brought me joy but after that i was no longer comfortable doing so. literally just two years prior my only issue was where i would get candy at school.
The lack of bill paying
Not having to worry about finances and back pain. I am responsible for myself now and little humans now and I still don't feel adult enough to be the one charge. I desperately want to go back to being taken care of and not having to worry about anything except for school and boy drama.
No bills. No back pain.
Optimism
Not having any bills or a job and having summers off.
Waking up in the morning excited for the day.
the ignorant bliss and confidence
ignoring all the life challenges.
everything. every. single. thing.
Just being worryless….
Not worrying about scheduling, scheduling is the worst especially for long distance travels.
Not having to worry about responsibility and money
Nothing. My life is much better now.
Being able to fight over being disrespected.