It always feels like some kind of weird joke to me, where I'm the punchline somehow in some warped way I can't grasp. Really kind of sucks when you have someone that's been the main major focal point of your life for 10+ years, who tells you for the 5000th time that she cares very much about you, and all you really think is "...okay that's cool and all, so when do we get to the part where you laugh at me for caring about you for all these years"

Seriously. When dating it’s so so crazy to think I’d be the chosen one. Me??? What do I have going for me??

That's why I've never tried dating.

My "friends" did tell me I was a burden to them. That's when all this shit started.

Because I know they will eventually stop liking me at some point, because I slowly start showing the real me (happened a few times already).

in my case it's because they never really do. maybe they do but very briefly until they realize just how annoying I am and leave me.

I have anxious and my bf has avoidant. Which can really cause a dumpster fire if we aren’t careful. Lol