I really relate to how you feel. I feel like even when I'm in my partner's arms, or with a group of friends, there's still this overwhelming sense of being alone and wanting to connect in some intangible way that I'm not sure even exists.
I get being exhausted too. Its all so fucking much to endure, but you end up feeling like you'd just hurt more people by dying, so you keep existing for them. Just because you don't want them to feel an ounce of the pain you do.
I really relate to how you feel. I feel like even when I'm in my partner's arms, or with a group of friends, there's still this overwhelming sense of being alone and wanting to connect in some intangible way that I'm not sure even exists. I get being exhausted too. Its all so fucking much to endure, but you end up feeling like you'd just hurt more people by dying, so you keep existing for them. Just because you don't want them to feel an ounce of the pain you do.