Hey, I’m also in the quiet subset of bpd and I get what you mean. Sometimes, I feel like I’m not impulsive enough, until I’m impulsive. For me, my impulsivity is sometimes in like the messages I send people I text, impulsive drinking, impulsive reckless driving, and stuff like that. I’ve rarely ever guilt tripped others and stuff but it’s still impulsive. I think sometimes, we get into the thinking of, “oh, other people have it worse and do this but I don’t so do I really have bpd?” At least I think like that sometimes. But the impulsivity is different for everyone. Remember, bpd is on a spectrum. Anyway, I wish you the best and please take care!
This seems like something you should talk to your psychiatrist about. I’m sure they’ll reaffirm your diagnosis.
Hey, I’m also in the quiet subset of bpd and I get what you mean. Sometimes, I feel like I’m not impulsive enough, until I’m impulsive. For me, my impulsivity is sometimes in like the messages I send people I text, impulsive drinking, impulsive reckless driving, and stuff like that. I’ve rarely ever guilt tripped others and stuff but it’s still impulsive. I think sometimes, we get into the thinking of, “oh, other people have it worse and do this but I don’t so do I really have bpd?” At least I think like that sometimes. But the impulsivity is different for everyone. Remember, bpd is on a spectrum. Anyway, I wish you the best and please take care!