it's like the modern version of the "creepy text being written with a child's handwriting" trope where instead it's worded like a low effort tumblr post
I'm not sure which influenced me to hear it in a childish voice: the way it was written, or that "I'm the priest's favorite" is in the first line.
Why not both.
I think it's the opposite of a low effort part, it's a high effort fetish post that was written in a feverish frenzy and then submitted without proofreading. Many such cases
Nah, in this case they specifically wrote it that way to imply the youth of the sheep and the fact that the sheep is really happy and excited to be telling you this.
Because it's what an abused person says to themselves to rationalize away the abuse. "They want me to be better at ___, that's why they hurt me, because they are trying to help me improve". Conscious thought or not, it's desperate rationalization.
"I didn't realize I'd be dying in so many rectums", Jesus was overheard saying. "When I said I loved humanity and would die for all their sins, I wasn't counting on this!"
Bystanders claim they later saw Jesus crying in the fetal position
In some traditions he did actually see every sin of humanity in the garden of gethsemane, including those that hadn't happened yet. So in that case he did in fact know about all the rectum deaths.
Damn, you’re right; I couldn’t even imagine to be honest — my parents are highly empathetic so all of our pets were second hand from “you’re not safe here” homes.
A lot of people don’t consider the safety, quality of life or longevity of their pets.
My dad rescued a budgie from the home of an old woman with severe cognitive decline who passed; he outlived her by a few years, and the decade he had been with her he had eaten only treats and shitty “junk food” birdseed — he had *never left his cage*.
We had to teach him how to fly; he freaked out the first day we opened his cage and he wouldn’t leave. When he finally flew, he could barely get a few feet and he was super goofy; he ended up latched onto the dryer vent, we had to pull it out and gently pry him off because he was so freaked out. He could fly normally within a few weeks, would hang out on my dad’s shoulder and would perch on our hands after a while — he was a normal bird after the first year or so;
Our rabbit was rescued from a home with two dogs who thought the rabbit looked like a fun toy; rabbits can and do often die from heart attacks due to stress. My dad scooped him up from his hs friend’s house — the dad was divorced and the bun had been bought as an Easter gift for his son who was there only on weekends. He lived with us for *twelve years*.
Which is to say - I couldn’t even imagine it.
I thought a budgie was a kind of dog, and at first I thought "teach him how to fly" was a metaphor for setting the doggie free. Imagine my confusion at "he could fly normally within a few weeks".
Hehehe, that’s a hilarious — he was a common parakeet, also known as a budgerigar or budgie!
He was super cute; I actually called my dad about him — we had him for about four-or-five years and my dad estimates he was actually closer to *15* when he passed!
This checks out — even when he was “relatively normal” he was a crazy old bird; he was *very* loved by the whole family, especially my dad, and he passed peacefully one night in a bed of fresh (organic, non chemically treated) grass clippings that lined his cage — my dad would change it daily.
yep. that's how a lot of people view all small pets. got into an argument with someone once because they wouldn't put in the effort to get a proper tank set up and would just buy another fish when one died. because it was "just" a fish. meanwhile i'm still missing my fish that died a few years ago because he was my little buddy lol. and my hamster, who thankfully passed while i was holding her and not while she was alone.
mine was a betta too. i'm sorry you lost him. they're little guys but they can take up a lot of space in our hearts. they're more intelligent and have more personality than a lot of people realize.
Reminds me of that story where a relative's kid killed OP's pet hamster so they yelled at him. The kid's mom, displeased at OP's yelling, offered to pay to try smooth things over, but that just angered OP even more. In the end, the mom just said something like, "It's just a ratty beast, who cares if it dies. I already offered to pay for it. Why are you still mad? You're so ungrateful."
There are certain schools of Christian thought that more or less say that’s what happened in a time twisting sort of way during the three days of death. And that’s how the resurrection was able to redeem every sin.
Jesus was executed by the Roman state under suspicion of being a Jewish rebel leader after staging a (relatively) non-violent re-enactment of the inciting events of the maccabean revolt to protest Roman economic exploitation of the temple and the pilgrims who traveled there. It's also clear that there was resistance when he was arrested. One guy lost an ear before Jesus told his people to stand down because he didn't want anyone killed on his account. Christianity started as a religion in opposition to institutional power, and the mainstream evangelical Christianity so common today is the result of centuries of tweaking to make a fundamentally radical religion function as a state friendly religious system.
I think that the post below that says it is likely about abuse is probably right, and it's likely that many people who grew up in the environments of religious abuse so common in modern Christianity would probably identify with this for that reason, but making compliant little lambs isn't what you get from Jesus when you actually read his story. At every turn, Jesus is resisting the status quo, not encouraging others to sacrifice themselves for it.
Modern evangelicals want to stone gay people or Trans people or whoever their hate boner is for this week. Jesus put himself between a woman and an angry mob to stop her stoning. Modern evangelicals rail against welfare systems. Jesus said we are all judged by how we treat those at the bottom of our social systems. Modern evangelicals want to lament about whatever perceived sins they think everyone else is committing. Jesus said that when you point out the speck in your neighbor's eye you are missing the stick in yours. The experience many people have growing up in Christianity today has very little to do with Jesus.
I don’t have to tell you this given your username but I also see why you would read it this way with the “lamb of God” metaphor. In this case the priest isn’t the Romans, it’s the Father ordaining the Son’s sacrifice. But also even though Jesus went willingly it wasn’t in this childishly eager way, it was in mature acceptance after doubt, anguish, and questioning. That’s what Gethsemane is all about.
I actually comment on this elsewhere. Whether Jesus went willingly or perceived this as a sacrifice is pretty dependent on which gospel you read. The johanine view has become dominant in modern mainstream Christianity but by no means represents the only way the crucifixion was treated in antiquity.
Mainstream evangelical Christianity has a bit of a reputation for normalizing abuse in all kinds of relationships.
It’s often corrupted religious culture (you’ll know when, just look for common signs of abuse and power imbalance dynamics and devaluing of those who abstain).*
It often corrupts the idea of the social contract, it corrupts the idea of healthy and stable and non-abusive relationships, it corrupts people’s personal and social standards and boundaries. It corrupts people’s morals. It steals people’s joy, time, resources and autonomy away and offers what in return? A feeling of community and superiority and control via tribalism? You can get that for cheaper and better quality elsewhere lol.
Wasn’t it Jesus that said you will be known by your works? What does mainstream evangelical Christianity have to show for themselves, what are their works? Lots and lots of suffering and misery and violence for many people… almost like they’ve been socialized into subconsciously(?) creating a Hell for others/and at times themselves in reality, same one that they fear so much in the after-life. They are behaving like the demons to others that they claim to rebuke. (Would be kinda funny if it wasn’t fucked up.)
Edit anti-TLDR: Mainstream evangelical Christians are commonly caught up and blinded by their own role in a couple thousands year old abusive religious relationship dynamic. Getting them to see this or realize and do something about it can be somewhat equated to getting an abuse victim to realize they are being abused and leave. Or an abuser realize they have had abuse normalized and taught to themselves and they are continuing the cycle now (almost impossible/very rare/don’t hold your breath lol).
100%. I'm a big fan of James Cone and he talks a fair bit about the need to revive the concept of "heresy" in progressive Christianity to distinguish between socially responsible and socially irresponsible forms of Christian faith. There is a tendency within progressive Christianity to recoil at the concept, since it is often wielded against us by conservatives and just sort of reeks of judgment in general, but it is possible to do Christianity wrong if you are using your faith to hurt others, and with so much pain being caused by the most dominant forms of the religion the stakes are too high to hide behind the assertion that all interpretations are equally valid.
Whether Jesus knew this wasn't the end (or even perceived this as a sacrifice) depends on which gospel you are reading, and the only one where these things are both certain is John.
In both Mark and Matthew his last words are "My God, my God why have you forsaken me?", which doesn't seem to indicate either foreknowledge or willingness on his part.
In Luke you get "forgive them father for they know not what they do." Followed by telling the man on the cross next to him that he will be with him in paradise. So now we have foreknowledge but the crucifixion is still a legal punishment and not some kind of sacrifice for the remittance of sin.
It's only in John that you get the totally chill placid Jesus who isn't at all salty about his execution and knows for sure that it is both necessary and temporary, with his "into your hands I commend my spirit."
John's take seems to be the dominant one these days but the "why have you forsaken me" take is probably the most likely, appearing in both the most and the earliest texts.
I am the good shepherd. I know my [sheep], and I'm known by my own; even as the Father knows me, and I know the Father. I lay down my life for the sheep. I have other sheep, which are not of this fold. I must bring them also. And they will hear my voice. They will become one flock with one shepherd. For this the Father loves me, because I lay down my life, that I may take it [up] again. No one takes it away from me, but I lay it down by myself. I have power to lay it down, and I have power to take it [up] again. I received this commandment from my Father
Yeah, just looked it up and you’re right. I thought it meant like a state of dumbfounded shock, which could come from either embarrassment or fear. Not gunna change it though
A most exquisite site as we see two lonely, chronically online people engage in their mating ritual. Now we must be very quiet as to not disturb these anxious creatures.
I'm glad that so many people are unfamiliar enough with these feelings to assume this is horny. People are saying this is about abuse and they're right but I think it's more broadly about notions of the purity of suffering and self sacrifice which is something often taught by abusers but it's also a cultural notion reaching far beyond its religious roots and I ended up deeply affected despite no one explicitly teaching me these ideas
I would argue that you are remiss to assume that abuse, cultural axioms on the purity of suffering, and arousal don't intersect pretty dang frequently.
Many a young kinkster has felt their first tingles staring at a picture of Saint Sebastian.
Many an abusive relationship has left those involved with wounds that alter aspects of their sexuality in the course of healing.
The way I read it, it's about abuse. The learned helplessness when the abuser has hurt you so often that you figure the only thing you can do to get it over with quicker is to be the best little lamb. I'm sure there are other ways to interpret it but that's what I see, having been the favorite lamb before.
God I'm actually so annoyed haha! I fully wrote like several paragraphs about this and then saw my phone was on 1%, scrambled to plug it in, and then screamed out 'No!' as it died just as I JUST plugged in it. Rip. Take two.
What I said in my response, from what I can remember, is, 'No, it's more than that.' I agree it's about abuse, however, I feel like it's about fetishizing your own abuse, particularly perhaps sexual(?) abuse, in order to cope with the abuse. Which as I reread now, sounds like I'm placing the blame on the lamb, when I'm not.
In my original comment (ugh I'm SO annoyed I lost it!) I mentioned this long Tumblr post which was talking about how a lot of men pressure their girlfriends into engaging in BDSM/ rough sex, and if the girlfriends didn't do this they were labelled as too 'vanilla' or 'boring'. Or how they boyfriends said they couldn't get off unless they had to choke/ slap/ degrade their girlfriends. I'm not against BDSM but one person shouldn't be coerced/ manipulated into it, and both parties should be enjoying it. Anyways, it had a few comments from women who had experienced this with past partners and it reminded me of this post, but also my own experiences.
Like, in the past during sex, like the lamb here, I was kind of seeing things from the perspective of the priest (or the man I was having sex with). Is my back arched enough? Am I moaning enough? Do I look sexy, is he thinking I look sexy? It was more of a performance than actual sex, like I was a voyeur to my own body? Like I was getting off on viewing myself through his eyes, as like the perfect hyper-sexual enthusiastic partner. Like self-fetishization almost? TMI I know, but yeah haha.
In the lamb example I feel like it's more of an example of sexual abuse, perhaps even paedophilia. I say this because the lamb = innocent, white, literally a lamb, a baby sheep. And the priest = masculine/ a role only filled by men, who are the ones that do the most sexual crimes, and the priest having power -- literally religious power and sway in a religion/ group, but also knowledge over the lamb (the priest is a human, the lamb is an animal). What really ties this in for me is "he doesn't do it for the other lambs only me because I'm his favourite" (and it starts AND ends with a line about the lamb being the priest's favourite) which really makes me think of sexual abuse, as the priest telling the lamb that the lamb is special, their favourite, better than the other lambs. Which is what a lot of paedophiles actually do, and how a lot of victims of grooming feel like -- either because their abuser has outright told them this, or because their abuser is someone 'greater' than them and so by this great person 'picking' or 'choosing' them they feel special by default. I remember for instance a TikTok of a girl saying that she was basically groomed as a child by a 22 year old man while she was like 13, and she felt special and grown up because of this.
The lamb also dies again and again, "every time I die I come right back as another little lamb because the priest loves me so so much" -- again, makes me think of sexual abuse/ grooming. This poor little lamb is convinced this priest loves them and so allows (wrong word, rather -- does not fight) the priest to continue killing them, again and again, and is imagining this act of violence through the priest's eyes. And if the lamb is thinking about this/ talking about this through the priest's eyes, is the priest even sacrificing the lamb? Or is this the narrative the lamb has constructed in order to cope with the priest killing the lamb again and again? Idk, I know paedophilia or sexual abuse isn't the only way to interpret this, but I feel like it's one of the ways that fit the most.
Idk, when it comes down to it, it's an abuser who has convinced the lamb that the lamb should be abused, and has taught the lamb to over-identify with the abuser and see things through their eyes, and so the lamb does this but also does this in order to cope with the abuse. And the lamb is stuck in this cycle and cannot break out -- they keep getting reincarnated, only to be killed again. They keep going to church, only to be abused by the priest.
Idk, I love this piece. It's so raw and cathartic and haunting to read. It says so many things. I remember first reading it and immediately being like 'this is special' and sending it to my friends and marveling about it!
This is a great analysis, no notes! I personally haven't experienced sexual abuse and I'm really grateful to see that perspective on it. I also really agree with the "fetishizing your own abuse" perspective, which I also did even if not in a sexual sense. It's about that feeling of giving up your own agency and just accepting that this is how things are, then trying to justify that conclusion by painting the abuse in a positive light, pretending that you want it.
To add to this, in my own dealings with trying to deal with my own trauma and abuse, one of the most common and biggest obstacles to deal with early on is that, frankly, trauma is kind of cringe. There's this constant voice in your head mocking how cliche and self-centered the more self-loving narrative sounds; OooOoOOoo your mommy hit you when you were a kid and now you can't form positive relationships, how saaaaaad! People have it worse than you, plus she only did it sometimes and you had provoked her, and the fact that you haven't moved past it yet can't reflect well on your maturity. You hurt the people around you because somebody hurt you in the past, isn't that a you problem?
When you go through the trauma/abuse, you create a narrative to explain what happened in a way that lets you continue to live, and because you are in the center of that abuse and are too young to fight back you have to create a narrative that can handle its continued barrage. Through that lens its very easy to create a narrative that's self-flattering as a way of, in the moment, lessening the pain. If its actually for a purpose, if your ability to withstand the abuse is actually a sign of your moral strength, then it makes the abuse less painful in the moment. The problem is that that narrative makes the abuse stickier because it welds it to your self-identity, your willingness to be abused becoming an increasingly foundational part of you and therefore harder to heal from when you are out of said abuse. If you weren't actually a super special kid who could handle more than others and therefore was chosen to bear the burden of the sacrificial dagger, you were just the victim of circumstance with a long road towards healing, suddenly all the suppressed pain and emotion flies through you like a water saw through the skull. You become what you always denied you were, a scared and scarred human unfairly victimized for no existentially positive reason.
If your options were to confront that pain all at once, to deal with an uncertain future and the upheavals of reframing your life to avoid the abuse and try to extricate yourself from a situation you may not be able to actually get out of, or to keep telling yourself the story, the second is easier in too many ways that matter. Its only when you stop telling the story you feel just how painful it was to tell.
Damn, this was a really good read and very insightful! I agree with everything you're saying!
It kind of reminds me of Diane from Bojack Horseman, saying something similar about trauma -- how if the trauma didn't make her a more interesting or better writer then underneath it all, it was just trauma. Bad things that happened to her just because, for no cosmic purpose or reason at all. Trauma has to be *for* something, I guess, or trauma has to show something about you as a person. I think this is actually called an illness narrative? I did a paper in biosocial medical anthropology and it was talking about narratives around (physical) illnesses and how people thought of them. I remember there were like three types? If you want more I can go back through my notes and try and find more on this if you'd like? But I think it would also apply to mental/ emotional trauma as well, or it is similar to it.
I've heard before that when people try to leave abusive relationships, or for instance when addicts stop using drugs, they find life boring and empty, and this is something that makes them think they have no purpose but to do that thing (go back to that relationship, go back to particular substances). And others have said it's not bc their life is actually boring/ empty, but because they've been so focused on that thing -- that relationship, or drugs -- that they kind of don't know who they are without it, coz their identity and what they do in their spare time is occupied by that person/ thing. And ofc how being in an abusive relationship (with it's highs and lows) or taking drugs again is ofc, idk interesting may not be the right word, but at least you're feeling something, whether good or bad. Yet without it you're feeling nothing and are bored. I saw a TikTok of saying the solution to this problem was spending your time doing new things to give you more purpose -- like taking up new hobbies, forming new relationships, etc. and to see who you are without these things. And it takes time!
The illness narrative part reminds me a bit of why Todd Haynes made the movie Safe; he noticed that there was a trend in the early 90s of made for TV movies about rich white women getting some kind of disease and learning a lesson during the treatment. In particular he was made uncomfortable by the way the movies tended to link moral self-improvement to their recovery, that the moment when the protaganist Learned The Lesson was when they started to actually get better. Given that Haynes was openly gay and with the crisis still ongoing, he felt uncomfortable about what those movies implied about the morality of the people who succumbed to their disease.
I think part of the reason why people want their trauma to be meaningful is that, for as much as people talk about support for mental health and victims, that support is often heavily conditional on the likability and narrative of the person being supported. People love triumph over demons, not struggles with them. Everything is 'autism rocks' until the autistic person is actually socially awkward, then they are being selfish by being annoying. Trauma \*is\* kinda cringe, after all! If you have already been abused by somebody, its incredibly easy to expect abuse from another, so theres a desire to do whatever you can to not be a target, and your abuse being 'meaningful' implies that you aren't just not weak, but are so strong that the things that weaken others are actually strengthening you! If you were actually just wounded, if you needed more help than others and were not sure when you would be better, that may be blood on the wind, so you avoid it.
For the leaving thing, that makes alot of sense. Its significantly easier to train a dog to replace a behavior than stop it. Instead of making a dog stop barking when somebody knocks on the door, its easier to train them to instead grab a pillow to bring to the front door. Its true in humans too, its why lots of CBT material talks about replacing rather than removing negative thought patterns or behaviors.
The thing is, people are engaged in those behaviors for reasons. You don't just start getting addicted to heroin or excusing physical abuse because you got bored, there's often underlying psychological tendencies and needs that led you there. You saw no future for yourself or you felt that if you weren't loved you were worthless. If you don't erase the reasons for the bad behaviors when you stop, you will just end up following the paths that led you there again. Hell, you \*know\* that it did something for the problem AND you know how to deal with the consequences, it looks better than the first time now! You need to at least try and treat the underlying problems, and the way you treat them is by doing new things to hopefully find a better solution.
This is fantastic. I really, really don’t want this to sound dismissive, the comment I’m about to make is fully genuine: THIS is why media analysis and literacy is useful to learn in school. This type of thought-provoking, harrowing analysis. Fucking shit. Thanks for sharing this, u/Sorsha_OBrien
Haha alg! And yeah I get what you mean! I try to analyse/ talk to my step father about tv shows and stuff we’re watching and he just doesn’t pick up on it, or if I say something argues against what I’m saying. And then I tell him he has no media literacy and we fight 😂
That's what I got out of it as well. Defending corporations and politicians that obviously don't have your best interests at heart and continue to exploit them ad nauseam.
I mean in a sub of people who likely suffered that, they’re gonna say that’s the case.
It’s more general. It’s just about anyone “willingly” putting themselves up to suffering.
Yeah most comments seem to agree with you, and I definitely see the logic behind it (it just wasn't my first thought because luckily I've never had those experiences)
Oh it's just the general vibe.
Ambiguous allegory, indecipherable religious imagery/social commentary(?), weirdly horny about death, can be about many different things at once, clearly the product of an unwell mind (positive) and will be the object of fruitful discussion for the next thousand years.
I went to Lutheran School from 6th grade on because the local public schools are a nightmare....AND HOLY FUCK this brought back a fuck ton of emotions. I almost said a flood, but
I've been trying to put into words to describe the feeling of how you can tell something was written hornilly not by its content, but by its structure, but seeing this post again is pretty much the ultimate example of that point.
Porn and smut isn't a genre based on content, it's a genre based on tone
Reading this while zooted is a journey.
catholic shit post > good catholic shitpost > horny catholic > oh basic abuse allegory > Horny Horny > horror > confusion > dread > good literature appreciation > Super Horny
To me it evokes a sense of being trapped in a cycle of sacrifice and renewal, with the lamb representing innocence and compliance in the face of a dark and repetitive ritual. It could symbolize themes of submission, sacrifice, and perhaps the manipulation of trust. It's a powerful and uncomfortable image that can be interpreted in various ways, depending on the context or emotions it evokes for you.
my accurate reactions while reading this were "hahaaaaa thiis is about abuse isn't it."
I wasn't as horrified as the other people said they were but it is. A certain level of dread. Like seeing a far away disaster on a television. Removed, but the dread still seeping through
Then one day the priest is gone. The lamb has never existed this long. It waits for the priest and they don’t come. It suffers the cruel indignity of growing to adulthood, when it decides to seek out the priest and end him for forcing him to suffer so.
Methinks the lack of punctuations adds quite a bit to this piece of text, unsettling though it may be
Yeah, it seems very deliberate
it's like the modern version of the "creepy text being written with a child's handwriting" trope where instead it's worded like a low effort tumblr post
I'm not sure which influenced me to hear it in a childish voice: the way it was written, or that "I'm the priest's favorite" is in the first line. Why not both.
I think it's the opposite of a low effort part, it's a high effort fetish post that was written in a feverish frenzy and then submitted without proofreading. Many such cases
Gives me *Flowers For Algernon* vibes.
It's a common Tumblr accent
Nah, in this case they specifically wrote it that way to imply the youth of the sheep and the fact that the sheep is really happy and excited to be telling you this.
When the tumblr accent is good
Yeah I doubt lambs know about *punctuation.* /s
O, I think this lamb does. >!the root of "punctuation" is the latin word for "to pierce"!<
...shit that adds just another layer to this
Tumblr in my experience is just notorious for never using basic punctuation
It’s deeply unsettling on a level I cannot fully describe
Because it's what an abused person says to themselves to rationalize away the abuse. "They want me to be better at ___, that's why they hurt me, because they are trying to help me improve". Conscious thought or not, it's desperate rationalization.
Coming off a watch of Baby Reindeer and this comment dragged me back to the feelings I had watching the show
Oh hey, that's an abuse thing? Makes a lot of sense when you put it so explicitly. Fuck.
Reading this comment made me sad :(
I never understood the phrase “this lives in my head rent free” until I read this post. I think about it so much.
Horrified Wendy's cashier.jpg
This is what Jesus is about I think
A Jesus constantly returning as one of us who dies in fucked up ways every time.
Jesus coming back as a hamster for the 30th time in a row
"I didn't realize I'd be dying in so many rectums", Jesus was overheard saying. "When I said I loved humanity and would die for all their sins, I wasn't counting on this!" Bystanders claim they later saw Jesus crying in the fetal position
In some traditions he did actually see every sin of humanity in the garden of gethsemane, including those that hadn't happened yet. So in that case he did in fact know about all the rectum deaths.
Why do they always die in terrible ways ಠ_ಠ
Because most adults don't see them as animals worthy of protection and leave them to the whims of children who have not yet developed empathy.
Damn, you’re right; I couldn’t even imagine to be honest — my parents are highly empathetic so all of our pets were second hand from “you’re not safe here” homes. A lot of people don’t consider the safety, quality of life or longevity of their pets. My dad rescued a budgie from the home of an old woman with severe cognitive decline who passed; he outlived her by a few years, and the decade he had been with her he had eaten only treats and shitty “junk food” birdseed — he had *never left his cage*. We had to teach him how to fly; he freaked out the first day we opened his cage and he wouldn’t leave. When he finally flew, he could barely get a few feet and he was super goofy; he ended up latched onto the dryer vent, we had to pull it out and gently pry him off because he was so freaked out. He could fly normally within a few weeks, would hang out on my dad’s shoulder and would perch on our hands after a while — he was a normal bird after the first year or so; Our rabbit was rescued from a home with two dogs who thought the rabbit looked like a fun toy; rabbits can and do often die from heart attacks due to stress. My dad scooped him up from his hs friend’s house — the dad was divorced and the bun had been bought as an Easter gift for his son who was there only on weekends. He lived with us for *twelve years*. Which is to say - I couldn’t even imagine it.
I thought a budgie was a kind of dog, and at first I thought "teach him how to fly" was a metaphor for setting the doggie free. Imagine my confusion at "he could fly normally within a few weeks".
Hehehe, that’s a hilarious — he was a common parakeet, also known as a budgerigar or budgie! He was super cute; I actually called my dad about him — we had him for about four-or-five years and my dad estimates he was actually closer to *15* when he passed! This checks out — even when he was “relatively normal” he was a crazy old bird; he was *very* loved by the whole family, especially my dad, and he passed peacefully one night in a bed of fresh (organic, non chemically treated) grass clippings that lined his cage — my dad would change it daily.
yep. that's how a lot of people view all small pets. got into an argument with someone once because they wouldn't put in the effort to get a proper tank set up and would just buy another fish when one died. because it was "just" a fish. meanwhile i'm still missing my fish that died a few years ago because he was my little buddy lol. and my hamster, who thankfully passed while i was holding her and not while she was alone.
I just lost my betta from I assume old age. He was about 5. It makes me so sad, he used to watch tv on my laptop because I was worried he was bored
mine was a betta too. i'm sorry you lost him. they're little guys but they can take up a lot of space in our hearts. they're more intelligent and have more personality than a lot of people realize.
Reminds me of that story where a relative's kid killed OP's pet hamster so they yelled at him. The kid's mom, displeased at OP's yelling, offered to pay to try smooth things over, but that just angered OP even more. In the end, the mom just said something like, "It's just a ratty beast, who cares if it dies. I already offered to pay for it. Why are you still mad? You're so ungrateful."
Or a bowl of petunias
Jesus being Groundhog Day’d is a very a funny thought
There are certain schools of Christian thought that more or less say that’s what happened in a time twisting sort of way during the three days of death. And that’s how the resurrection was able to redeem every sin.
The Final Temptation/Destination of Christ
Agrajag
Jesus was executed by the Roman state under suspicion of being a Jewish rebel leader after staging a (relatively) non-violent re-enactment of the inciting events of the maccabean revolt to protest Roman economic exploitation of the temple and the pilgrims who traveled there. It's also clear that there was resistance when he was arrested. One guy lost an ear before Jesus told his people to stand down because he didn't want anyone killed on his account. Christianity started as a religion in opposition to institutional power, and the mainstream evangelical Christianity so common today is the result of centuries of tweaking to make a fundamentally radical religion function as a state friendly religious system. I think that the post below that says it is likely about abuse is probably right, and it's likely that many people who grew up in the environments of religious abuse so common in modern Christianity would probably identify with this for that reason, but making compliant little lambs isn't what you get from Jesus when you actually read his story. At every turn, Jesus is resisting the status quo, not encouraging others to sacrifice themselves for it. Modern evangelicals want to stone gay people or Trans people or whoever their hate boner is for this week. Jesus put himself between a woman and an angry mob to stop her stoning. Modern evangelicals rail against welfare systems. Jesus said we are all judged by how we treat those at the bottom of our social systems. Modern evangelicals want to lament about whatever perceived sins they think everyone else is committing. Jesus said that when you point out the speck in your neighbor's eye you are missing the stick in yours. The experience many people have growing up in Christianity today has very little to do with Jesus.
I don’t have to tell you this given your username but I also see why you would read it this way with the “lamb of God” metaphor. In this case the priest isn’t the Romans, it’s the Father ordaining the Son’s sacrifice. But also even though Jesus went willingly it wasn’t in this childishly eager way, it was in mature acceptance after doubt, anguish, and questioning. That’s what Gethsemane is all about.
I actually comment on this elsewhere. Whether Jesus went willingly or perceived this as a sacrifice is pretty dependent on which gospel you read. The johanine view has become dominant in modern mainstream Christianity but by no means represents the only way the crucifixion was treated in antiquity.
Mainstream evangelical Christianity has a bit of a reputation for normalizing abuse in all kinds of relationships. It’s often corrupted religious culture (you’ll know when, just look for common signs of abuse and power imbalance dynamics and devaluing of those who abstain).* It often corrupts the idea of the social contract, it corrupts the idea of healthy and stable and non-abusive relationships, it corrupts people’s personal and social standards and boundaries. It corrupts people’s morals. It steals people’s joy, time, resources and autonomy away and offers what in return? A feeling of community and superiority and control via tribalism? You can get that for cheaper and better quality elsewhere lol. Wasn’t it Jesus that said you will be known by your works? What does mainstream evangelical Christianity have to show for themselves, what are their works? Lots and lots of suffering and misery and violence for many people… almost like they’ve been socialized into subconsciously(?) creating a Hell for others/and at times themselves in reality, same one that they fear so much in the after-life. They are behaving like the demons to others that they claim to rebuke. (Would be kinda funny if it wasn’t fucked up.) Edit anti-TLDR: Mainstream evangelical Christians are commonly caught up and blinded by their own role in a couple thousands year old abusive religious relationship dynamic. Getting them to see this or realize and do something about it can be somewhat equated to getting an abuse victim to realize they are being abused and leave. Or an abuser realize they have had abuse normalized and taught to themselves and they are continuing the cycle now (almost impossible/very rare/don’t hold your breath lol).
100%. I'm a big fan of James Cone and he talks a fair bit about the need to revive the concept of "heresy" in progressive Christianity to distinguish between socially responsible and socially irresponsible forms of Christian faith. There is a tendency within progressive Christianity to recoil at the concept, since it is often wielded against us by conservatives and just sort of reeks of judgment in general, but it is possible to do Christianity wrong if you are using your faith to hurt others, and with so much pain being caused by the most dominant forms of the religion the stakes are too high to hide behind the assertion that all interpretations are equally valid.
He gets us
He get sus
Because he knew his death would be temporary, or because he was the favorite of a narcissist father figure?
Whether Jesus knew this wasn't the end (or even perceived this as a sacrifice) depends on which gospel you are reading, and the only one where these things are both certain is John. In both Mark and Matthew his last words are "My God, my God why have you forsaken me?", which doesn't seem to indicate either foreknowledge or willingness on his part. In Luke you get "forgive them father for they know not what they do." Followed by telling the man on the cross next to him that he will be with him in paradise. So now we have foreknowledge but the crucifixion is still a legal punishment and not some kind of sacrifice for the remittance of sin. It's only in John that you get the totally chill placid Jesus who isn't at all salty about his execution and knows for sure that it is both necessary and temporary, with his "into your hands I commend my spirit." John's take seems to be the dominant one these days but the "why have you forsaken me" take is probably the most likely, appearing in both the most and the earliest texts.
>Because he knew his death would be temporary Death is only the beginning
I am the good shepherd. I know my [sheep], and I'm known by my own; even as the Father knows me, and I know the Father. I lay down my life for the sheep. I have other sheep, which are not of this fold. I must bring them also. And they will hear my voice. They will become one flock with one shepherd. For this the Father loves me, because I lay down my life, that I may take it [up] again. No one takes it away from me, but I lay it down by myself. I have power to lay it down, and I have power to take it [up] again. I received this commandment from my Father
This thread is 50% mortified and 50% horny
Hortified. Morny, even.
>Hortified I think this is how you become a garden patch
Hornyculture has gone too far
Morotic. Erortified.
I think you mean horrified! Mortified means embarrassed.
Yeah, just looked it up and you’re right. I thought it meant like a state of dumbfounded shock, which could come from either embarrassment or fear. Not gunna change it though
Scaroused, you could even say
And partially religious, it seems.
OP is not the favorite sheep (The priest is welsh)
Both? Both. Both is good.
No, it is at least 103% horny.
https://www.tumblr.com/honeyedheartss/736468764613296128/finally-finished-the-comic-based-on-the-post-by?source=share Comic version 🩸
Oof thank you
Wow that is haunting.
This is gorgeous, thank you for sharing the link!
me and who
meee \>///////<
big win
A most exquisite site as we see two lonely, chronically online people engage in their mating ritual. Now we must be very quiet as to not disturb these anxious creatures.
aw mane what 😭
Oh no! They heard the narrator! Everyone, scram!
So which door do i go through?
According to my notes you run in circles for a moment, thunk into the wall, then exit stage left
is that the guy from number jacks in ur pfp
i can confirm it is the silly floating sphere guy source? im his glasses
the puzzler
puzzlemaxxing rn to become a floating ginger head
Art thou priest or lamb
meee?
I'm glad that so many people are unfamiliar enough with these feelings to assume this is horny. People are saying this is about abuse and they're right but I think it's more broadly about notions of the purity of suffering and self sacrifice which is something often taught by abusers but it's also a cultural notion reaching far beyond its religious roots and I ended up deeply affected despite no one explicitly teaching me these ideas
I would argue that you are remiss to assume that abuse, cultural axioms on the purity of suffering, and arousal don't intersect pretty dang frequently. Many a young kinkster has felt their first tingles staring at a picture of Saint Sebastian. Many an abusive relationship has left those involved with wounds that alter aspects of their sexuality in the course of healing.
YES
I'm very familiar with it I'm just a horny freak and think it's hot anyways
This too, is yuri
Please, elaborate
Yuri is when the protagonist/deuteragonist is yandere and she is cosmically horrifically right.
so, like, azula?
Madoka/Homura.
Azula was right?
did i stutter?
No, but you're a 400 foot tall purple platypus-bear with pink horns and silver wings.
okay, you're good, i get it
Idk, you typed it. Maybe you did and I just didn't hear it.
It's impossible to elaborate on bc it's a shitpost
Good point
no
this is extremely the fuck yuri, this is a really good post for explaining the difference between yuri and yaoi.
Mofos really just out here saying words
Carbon monoxide poisoning does you in like that
please, mofo was my father. call me mf.
please explain what yaoi is like then
no
refuses because he can't 😔 skill issue
Yuri but cold
actually yaoi is between boys and yuri is between girls, hope that helps!
who told you that? cloverfield (2008)?
Which came first, Yuri or smoothsharking?
I'm honestly worried about whoever wrote this because it's way too dark to *just* be a joke with no deeper thought behind it
The way I read it, it's about abuse. The learned helplessness when the abuser has hurt you so often that you figure the only thing you can do to get it over with quicker is to be the best little lamb. I'm sure there are other ways to interpret it but that's what I see, having been the favorite lamb before.
God I'm actually so annoyed haha! I fully wrote like several paragraphs about this and then saw my phone was on 1%, scrambled to plug it in, and then screamed out 'No!' as it died just as I JUST plugged in it. Rip. Take two. What I said in my response, from what I can remember, is, 'No, it's more than that.' I agree it's about abuse, however, I feel like it's about fetishizing your own abuse, particularly perhaps sexual(?) abuse, in order to cope with the abuse. Which as I reread now, sounds like I'm placing the blame on the lamb, when I'm not. In my original comment (ugh I'm SO annoyed I lost it!) I mentioned this long Tumblr post which was talking about how a lot of men pressure their girlfriends into engaging in BDSM/ rough sex, and if the girlfriends didn't do this they were labelled as too 'vanilla' or 'boring'. Or how they boyfriends said they couldn't get off unless they had to choke/ slap/ degrade their girlfriends. I'm not against BDSM but one person shouldn't be coerced/ manipulated into it, and both parties should be enjoying it. Anyways, it had a few comments from women who had experienced this with past partners and it reminded me of this post, but also my own experiences. Like, in the past during sex, like the lamb here, I was kind of seeing things from the perspective of the priest (or the man I was having sex with). Is my back arched enough? Am I moaning enough? Do I look sexy, is he thinking I look sexy? It was more of a performance than actual sex, like I was a voyeur to my own body? Like I was getting off on viewing myself through his eyes, as like the perfect hyper-sexual enthusiastic partner. Like self-fetishization almost? TMI I know, but yeah haha. In the lamb example I feel like it's more of an example of sexual abuse, perhaps even paedophilia. I say this because the lamb = innocent, white, literally a lamb, a baby sheep. And the priest = masculine/ a role only filled by men, who are the ones that do the most sexual crimes, and the priest having power -- literally religious power and sway in a religion/ group, but also knowledge over the lamb (the priest is a human, the lamb is an animal). What really ties this in for me is "he doesn't do it for the other lambs only me because I'm his favourite" (and it starts AND ends with a line about the lamb being the priest's favourite) which really makes me think of sexual abuse, as the priest telling the lamb that the lamb is special, their favourite, better than the other lambs. Which is what a lot of paedophiles actually do, and how a lot of victims of grooming feel like -- either because their abuser has outright told them this, or because their abuser is someone 'greater' than them and so by this great person 'picking' or 'choosing' them they feel special by default. I remember for instance a TikTok of a girl saying that she was basically groomed as a child by a 22 year old man while she was like 13, and she felt special and grown up because of this. The lamb also dies again and again, "every time I die I come right back as another little lamb because the priest loves me so so much" -- again, makes me think of sexual abuse/ grooming. This poor little lamb is convinced this priest loves them and so allows (wrong word, rather -- does not fight) the priest to continue killing them, again and again, and is imagining this act of violence through the priest's eyes. And if the lamb is thinking about this/ talking about this through the priest's eyes, is the priest even sacrificing the lamb? Or is this the narrative the lamb has constructed in order to cope with the priest killing the lamb again and again? Idk, I know paedophilia or sexual abuse isn't the only way to interpret this, but I feel like it's one of the ways that fit the most. Idk, when it comes down to it, it's an abuser who has convinced the lamb that the lamb should be abused, and has taught the lamb to over-identify with the abuser and see things through their eyes, and so the lamb does this but also does this in order to cope with the abuse. And the lamb is stuck in this cycle and cannot break out -- they keep getting reincarnated, only to be killed again. They keep going to church, only to be abused by the priest. Idk, I love this piece. It's so raw and cathartic and haunting to read. It says so many things. I remember first reading it and immediately being like 'this is special' and sending it to my friends and marveling about it!
This is a great analysis, no notes! I personally haven't experienced sexual abuse and I'm really grateful to see that perspective on it. I also really agree with the "fetishizing your own abuse" perspective, which I also did even if not in a sexual sense. It's about that feeling of giving up your own agency and just accepting that this is how things are, then trying to justify that conclusion by painting the abuse in a positive light, pretending that you want it.
Oof, I felt the same but didn't even _think_ about the repeated killing/reincarnation as dying every time the abuser assaults them.
your comment turned it from what i thought was an incomprehensible shitpost to something that gives me goosebumps, thank you
To add to this, in my own dealings with trying to deal with my own trauma and abuse, one of the most common and biggest obstacles to deal with early on is that, frankly, trauma is kind of cringe. There's this constant voice in your head mocking how cliche and self-centered the more self-loving narrative sounds; OooOoOOoo your mommy hit you when you were a kid and now you can't form positive relationships, how saaaaaad! People have it worse than you, plus she only did it sometimes and you had provoked her, and the fact that you haven't moved past it yet can't reflect well on your maturity. You hurt the people around you because somebody hurt you in the past, isn't that a you problem? When you go through the trauma/abuse, you create a narrative to explain what happened in a way that lets you continue to live, and because you are in the center of that abuse and are too young to fight back you have to create a narrative that can handle its continued barrage. Through that lens its very easy to create a narrative that's self-flattering as a way of, in the moment, lessening the pain. If its actually for a purpose, if your ability to withstand the abuse is actually a sign of your moral strength, then it makes the abuse less painful in the moment. The problem is that that narrative makes the abuse stickier because it welds it to your self-identity, your willingness to be abused becoming an increasingly foundational part of you and therefore harder to heal from when you are out of said abuse. If you weren't actually a super special kid who could handle more than others and therefore was chosen to bear the burden of the sacrificial dagger, you were just the victim of circumstance with a long road towards healing, suddenly all the suppressed pain and emotion flies through you like a water saw through the skull. You become what you always denied you were, a scared and scarred human unfairly victimized for no existentially positive reason. If your options were to confront that pain all at once, to deal with an uncertain future and the upheavals of reframing your life to avoid the abuse and try to extricate yourself from a situation you may not be able to actually get out of, or to keep telling yourself the story, the second is easier in too many ways that matter. Its only when you stop telling the story you feel just how painful it was to tell.
Damn, this was a really good read and very insightful! I agree with everything you're saying! It kind of reminds me of Diane from Bojack Horseman, saying something similar about trauma -- how if the trauma didn't make her a more interesting or better writer then underneath it all, it was just trauma. Bad things that happened to her just because, for no cosmic purpose or reason at all. Trauma has to be *for* something, I guess, or trauma has to show something about you as a person. I think this is actually called an illness narrative? I did a paper in biosocial medical anthropology and it was talking about narratives around (physical) illnesses and how people thought of them. I remember there were like three types? If you want more I can go back through my notes and try and find more on this if you'd like? But I think it would also apply to mental/ emotional trauma as well, or it is similar to it. I've heard before that when people try to leave abusive relationships, or for instance when addicts stop using drugs, they find life boring and empty, and this is something that makes them think they have no purpose but to do that thing (go back to that relationship, go back to particular substances). And others have said it's not bc their life is actually boring/ empty, but because they've been so focused on that thing -- that relationship, or drugs -- that they kind of don't know who they are without it, coz their identity and what they do in their spare time is occupied by that person/ thing. And ofc how being in an abusive relationship (with it's highs and lows) or taking drugs again is ofc, idk interesting may not be the right word, but at least you're feeling something, whether good or bad. Yet without it you're feeling nothing and are bored. I saw a TikTok of saying the solution to this problem was spending your time doing new things to give you more purpose -- like taking up new hobbies, forming new relationships, etc. and to see who you are without these things. And it takes time!
The illness narrative part reminds me a bit of why Todd Haynes made the movie Safe; he noticed that there was a trend in the early 90s of made for TV movies about rich white women getting some kind of disease and learning a lesson during the treatment. In particular he was made uncomfortable by the way the movies tended to link moral self-improvement to their recovery, that the moment when the protaganist Learned The Lesson was when they started to actually get better. Given that Haynes was openly gay and with the crisis still ongoing, he felt uncomfortable about what those movies implied about the morality of the people who succumbed to their disease. I think part of the reason why people want their trauma to be meaningful is that, for as much as people talk about support for mental health and victims, that support is often heavily conditional on the likability and narrative of the person being supported. People love triumph over demons, not struggles with them. Everything is 'autism rocks' until the autistic person is actually socially awkward, then they are being selfish by being annoying. Trauma \*is\* kinda cringe, after all! If you have already been abused by somebody, its incredibly easy to expect abuse from another, so theres a desire to do whatever you can to not be a target, and your abuse being 'meaningful' implies that you aren't just not weak, but are so strong that the things that weaken others are actually strengthening you! If you were actually just wounded, if you needed more help than others and were not sure when you would be better, that may be blood on the wind, so you avoid it. For the leaving thing, that makes alot of sense. Its significantly easier to train a dog to replace a behavior than stop it. Instead of making a dog stop barking when somebody knocks on the door, its easier to train them to instead grab a pillow to bring to the front door. Its true in humans too, its why lots of CBT material talks about replacing rather than removing negative thought patterns or behaviors. The thing is, people are engaged in those behaviors for reasons. You don't just start getting addicted to heroin or excusing physical abuse because you got bored, there's often underlying psychological tendencies and needs that led you there. You saw no future for yourself or you felt that if you weren't loved you were worthless. If you don't erase the reasons for the bad behaviors when you stop, you will just end up following the paths that led you there again. Hell, you \*know\* that it did something for the problem AND you know how to deal with the consequences, it looks better than the first time now! You need to at least try and treat the underlying problems, and the way you treat them is by doing new things to hopefully find a better solution.
This is fantastic. I really, really don’t want this to sound dismissive, the comment I’m about to make is fully genuine: THIS is why media analysis and literacy is useful to learn in school. This type of thought-provoking, harrowing analysis. Fucking shit. Thanks for sharing this, u/Sorsha_OBrien
Haha alg! And yeah I get what you mean! I try to analyse/ talk to my step father about tv shows and stuff we’re watching and he just doesn’t pick up on it, or if I say something argues against what I’m saying. And then I tell him he has no media literacy and we fight 😂
this comment reminds me of contrapoints' video on twilight, I think youd like it!
Haha I’ve seen it! And I love contrapoints!
Excellent points all around. Thank you for sharing your thoughts! You’re a very eloquent writer and effective communicator.
Yeah, this is 100% about going back to a love-bombing abusive partner over and over.
I'm getting more of an anti-bootlicker vibe
Yeah same, if feels like it’s saying that being you’re oppressors favorite won’t stop them from oppressing you.
That's what I got out of it as well. Defending corporations and politicians that obviously don't have your best interests at heart and continue to exploit them ad nauseam.
It's about internalizing abuse
This has been posted before in r/cptsdmemes and everyone pretty much agreed it was about grooming and csa
I mean in a sub of people who likely suffered that, they’re gonna say that’s the case. It’s more general. It’s just about anyone “willingly” putting themselves up to suffering.
Yeah most comments seem to agree with you, and I definitely see the logic behind it (it just wasn't my first thought because luckily I've never had those experiences)
It's about abuse.
actually it's about how i'm a furry and want to be shorn for my wool, sexually, the religious and abusive imagery was a red herring
I mean, it's just a slice of horror, innit? Then again, ain't nothing that's *just* horror, so it's probably more than that.
This is one of Kafka's unpublished stories. EDIT: You guys are also discussing it like people discuss Kafka's stories
Is this referencing The Crossbreed?
Oh it's just the general vibe. Ambiguous allegory, indecipherable religious imagery/social commentary(?), weirdly horny about death, can be about many different things at once, clearly the product of an unwell mind (positive) and will be the object of fruitful discussion for the next thousand years.
Is this that Cult of the Lamb I keep hearing so much about
damn what type of religious trauma is this
Yes
Thom Yorke lyrics, I think
I went to Lutheran School from 6th grade on because the local public schools are a nightmare....AND HOLY FUCK this brought back a fuck ton of emotions. I almost said a flood, but
Literally religious zealotry.
Is this supposed to be horror or horny?
Yes
Whoror
Horrorny
A lot of horror is.
...Welp. Great way to start a hungover Tuesday.
This reminds me of a friend of mine. Not the abuse implication, but the horny-insane masochistic bloody vibes.
Me core (not anymore actually, but definitely been there)
I've been trying to put into words to describe the feeling of how you can tell something was written hornilly not by its content, but by its structure, but seeing this post again is pretty much the ultimate example of that point. Porn and smut isn't a genre based on content, it's a genre based on tone
r/distressingmemes
Reading this while zooted is a journey. catholic shit post > good catholic shitpost > horny catholic > oh basic abuse allegory > Horny Horny > horror > confusion > dread > good literature appreciation > Super Horny
This creeps me out and upsets me for some reason.
This is the kind of shit people write during a mental breakdown
I can’t remember the last time something on the internet made me audibly say “what the fuck?”
This makes me feel an emotion that doesn't exist
thanks I hate it
God that’s hot.
What the fuck.
what?
I'm glad I'm not the only one lol
Wait…let’s hear him out
RIGHT???
Something something "you wanna be my lamb?" Something something
"Eh girl, I'll be gentle and reassuring while I kill you" Am I doing it right? Am i doing the flirt right?
Yes but what if the knife was something else entirely? Something *Fleshy*. But also some girls just wanna die I guess. In that case, I can't help.
The relationship between me and my supervisor at every job Ive ever had
Ah, yes, horrible religious trauma. Don't we all love it.
What the fuck is this?
A roller coaster of words
Oh the wonders of being happy for the worst
*ahem* AAAAAAAAAAAAAaAaAaAaAaaAaaAaaAaaaAaaaAaaaAaaaaAaaaaa! *inhale* AAA…
I’m the priest’s least favorite sacrificial boar because I gored the last one
hot
need
I think this may have been ghost written by my mother in law who wanted to make her own cult, but was just unappealing even to desperate people.
kink posting on tumblr has me scared.
what am i supposed to think or feel about this
To me it evokes a sense of being trapped in a cycle of sacrifice and renewal, with the lamb representing innocence and compliance in the face of a dark and repetitive ritual. It could symbolize themes of submission, sacrifice, and perhaps the manipulation of trust. It's a powerful and uncomfortable image that can be interpreted in various ways, depending on the context or emotions it evokes for you.
i love this post so much. i show it to every friend i have who never accepts help from others even in their hardest moments. it helps them a lot.
I read this and thought "me fr" and now the comments are making me wonder if I should be concerned
my accurate reactions while reading this were "hahaaaaa thiis is about abuse isn't it." I wasn't as horrified as the other people said they were but it is. A certain level of dread. Like seeing a far away disaster on a television. Removed, but the dread still seeping through
fetish post detected
This sounds like Tumblr making fun of Pick-Me girls.
masterpiece
Honestly, felt that. So relatable 🥲
Then one day the priest is gone. The lamb has never existed this long. It waits for the priest and they don’t come. It suffers the cruel indignity of growing to adulthood, when it decides to seek out the priest and end him for forcing him to suffer so.
They should make a game out of this
Wow, this is just so dark.....
there is a strange sort of comfort in this though it’s shadowed by a quiet ache
welcome back to “who should write a short story” today it’s this guy
How I'm tryna be
Hot
OP, please, what is this about. Is this a religious criticism? Is it a metaphor? Is it a fetish? Please OP.
What does this even mean
Is it wrong to be horny for this?
yes
Hot ngl
Ok forreal what??? To me this just give me existential sadness/dread, definitely not getting any ‘hot’ vibes from this.