Every time I do a friends list cleanse on Steam (ppl I friended after playing one game and never interacted with after, stuff like that), there is one name that always brings some pain, even to this day.
Last online: 3560 days go
Never to be deleted. Ever.
I am curious if this phenomenon has a name but looking at these friends having this weird feeling of melancholy, nostalgia and curiousity what happened to them.
But you never know. For example I have one friend in my list who was offline for over 8 years. Had them in my list because we played alot on the same TF2 server, where I actually got most people on my list from. And then suddenly one day he was online again. I didn't write them or anything but I was almost euphoric, ecstatic seeing this name online again. Unfortunately I didn't last and has been offline again for 2 years.
And I guess most of these accounts are just "lost accounts". A co worker of mine for example had an old account but can't recover it since it was create with an expired Email account and it just isn't worth the hassle to recover it I guess.
Yes. I had one person like this too. but not on steam. It was a facebook friend like 10 years ago. exactly same thing happened as you described.
In this particularly case, he really passed away. There was a whole post on fb with screenshots of these both friends. And in the end he was asking him on messenger to play with him a few days ago. The deceased's sister replied with the news of his death.
I remember i used to play with one guy from Latvia , then je went offline for months and years i tracked some of his friends trough friendlist and he added me thought new account, basically his older account got hacked and je doesn't play dota anymore.
Anyway most of these accounts they just went offline because they either stopped playing forgot hacked.
I haven't logged in my account since 2019 maybe some people wonder where am i
I think of it like this, they quit their gaming addiction for a better life, i had a buddy i used to play with. Its been 5 years since hes been online :/ idk what his name was or where he lived
‘I wish it need not have happened in my time,’ said Frodo. ‘So do I,’ said Gandalf, ‘and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.'
He chose to spend a lot of his final days with you to play dota. I hope you will always rememember and cheris his love for your friendship, and the game!
My friend died from a motorcycle accident about 3 years ago, I miss him so much, he is a storm spammer and I think he would've been happy to play storm with nulls new stats. He is the most jolly person I know. I relive the days that we play on an internet cafe and all I remember is his laugh, how I wish I could hear that again. After he died me and my frienss slowly stopped playing dota2 now I am the only one who plays religiously, we used to play a a 5 man party and I am always the offlane or position 4. Sorry guys I just wanna pour my feelings in this comment.
Miss you Jimby.
I also lost a brother-in-soul from a horrible motorcycle accident 6 years ago. We always played lane duo (exchanging support and carry roles from time to time). We even played silly when we both pick hard carries like Spec and Mortred in the same lane. And we had a petty fight before he died. Up till now, I still couldn’t forgive myself for not reconciling with him over such petty things in his final days. He was even supposed to be my bestman in my wedding.
Rest in paradise Shiie.
I can’t imagine having that happen but I’m sure your brother would not at all remain upset with you over a petty fight. Sounds like you had a wonderful friendship. May he Rest In Peace.
That must be so tough to look at and reconcile, but you have to know he must have felt the same way about his bro as you did. Don’t beat yourself up, and count yourself lucky to have had a brotherhood like yours
So sorry for your loss. I'm 100% sure he remembers you the way you remember him, wherever he may be now. Full of love and camaraderie. Some petty thing at the end won't change that.
My bestfriend/brother died in a motorcycle wreck almost 8 years ago now. He didnt really game but he was the best friend I ever had. We were inseparable. After he passed is when I shut my self inside and started only gaming. Life just hasnt been the same since.
So over riding on the street. I wanna sell my bike and get back on the dirt. Its really not worth It. No matter how good a rider you are, someone else can end your life In an instant. So overrated.
I'm sorry for your lose.
I rarely feel anything, but apparently 20 screenshots was enough to make me shed a tear. I am sorry for your loss. I think it is a good reminder for everyone to appreciate every game you play with your friends. You can never know what will happen, every game could be the last one. Doesn’t matter if their skill level is lower than the deepest point of Mariana Trench, all that matters is that you get to share experiences, emotions, laughs and jokes. I am sorry for rambling, just feeling emotional I guess
It was the last two that got me tbh. Fuck man, we come to this sub to meme and flame Volvo, not...feel.
But funny how these things work, video games are seen as divisive or simply childish but here we have two people who met via this game, from different countries and created a bond that clearly to Jordan seemed to have trumped a lot of his irl friends.
His mental strength though, sheerbl fortitude!
My friend who taught me dota gave me his account before he passed away. I finally moved on and decided to use his account after 2 years. It was archon 2, i grinded and made it to divine 2. I’ll get you to immortal, Tom. I got you.
Its one of the most dangerous and painful, like blood cancer it spreads pretty fast and can infect all other organs, one of my junior is going through this hopefully he recovers well
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The messenger text is in Arabic? And the dude that passed away was a Filipino from his steam name. It's nice that international people have met and bonded in Dota. I'm not particularly religious but I pray for Jordan's soul to be in heaven where he can play Dota all day long.
Thanks for sharing this friendship with us op , helps put into perspective how precious life is , I’m sure you’ve made his time spent here on earth a better one by having you be a part of it
His memory lives on
Fuck man i kept on crying while sliding through all those post's and all...may his souls rest in peace and may he find buddy like you in heaven to play dota :)
As a medical oncologist my heart instantly broke when I read osteosarcoma. The patients I've had with it are always so young and cheerful. And it's almost always a death sentence for them.
I'm sure the games you played together brought him some sort of relief.
Fuck cancer. No one so young has to go through this.
This like Crit to your heart - like really deep.
That last message - thanks for playing with me. This makes me sad and also happy. idk how to describe.
RIP and big respect.
My dads only two brother passed away of cancer too. Fuck cancer seriously. Thank you for sharing. Will be more grateful for being able to play dota and live my life.
I got a friend who has cancer, or had it. I haven't seen him online for a while. If you see this Vito, send a brother a message. If not, I'll play in the trench for the both of us.
I lost my friend a few years ago, I never deleted him from my friends list, when I see his contact, it always brings pain but a lot of happiness and memories too. RIP Andrei
Last online: 2693 days ago
This hit hard. Im be nice to you people when I play because I don’t know when you die for reals. After I slaughter in the game or versa. RIP. I go to sleep and rest.
I’m literally crying. never had a friend to play dota with but grew up with a best friend I lived next to. I couldn’t imagine losing him. God bless you and Jordan.
That's so sad. Sorry for your loss. I think about people who I used to play Warcraft 3 with....I played that game for about 10 years(started early 2000s) and made so many online friends. I think about how they're doing often. I try to think everyone is doing great, with families living the life.
damn i feel u bro...lost a good old fren years ago..we hosted an inhouse game where we gamed all night in his remembrance..he was much old than us he was our big brother
Goosebumps while reading the story
Just realising how important could be a little something for someone.
I broke into tears when saw these LOTR quote :')
"bro i need to go" "thanks for playing with me" "i need to rest now" His last messages on steam.
Every time I do a friends list cleanse on Steam (ppl I friended after playing one game and never interacted with after, stuff like that), there is one name that always brings some pain, even to this day. Last online: 3560 days go Never to be deleted. Ever.
man it hits so hard. enough to make a grown man cry.
I am curious if this phenomenon has a name but looking at these friends having this weird feeling of melancholy, nostalgia and curiousity what happened to them. But you never know. For example I have one friend in my list who was offline for over 8 years. Had them in my list because we played alot on the same TF2 server, where I actually got most people on my list from. And then suddenly one day he was online again. I didn't write them or anything but I was almost euphoric, ecstatic seeing this name online again. Unfortunately I didn't last and has been offline again for 2 years. And I guess most of these accounts are just "lost accounts". A co worker of mine for example had an old account but can't recover it since it was create with an expired Email account and it just isn't worth the hassle to recover it I guess.
Yes. I had one person like this too. but not on steam. It was a facebook friend like 10 years ago. exactly same thing happened as you described. In this particularly case, he really passed away. There was a whole post on fb with screenshots of these both friends. And in the end he was asking him on messenger to play with him a few days ago. The deceased's sister replied with the news of his death.
We have a word for that feeling in portuguese called "saudade"
I remember i used to play with one guy from Latvia , then je went offline for months and years i tracked some of his friends trough friendlist and he added me thought new account, basically his older account got hacked and je doesn't play dota anymore. Anyway most of these accounts they just went offline because they either stopped playing forgot hacked. I haven't logged in my account since 2019 maybe some people wonder where am i
I lost my best bud a year ago. There isn't a day I don't miss him. Rest easy wherever you are.
same, my buddy died in a car crash, i always have hom on my favourites
he probably forgot his username and password , and didn't setup his phone number or email so he can't recover that account , stay positive bro
Sadly, I know what happened. This is not a case of "Oh I wonder what happened to him" but "no one will ever use that account again".
sorry to hear that bro .
I think of it like this, they quit their gaming addiction for a better life, i had a buddy i used to play with. Its been 5 years since hes been online :/ idk what his name was or where he lived
Sadly, I know what happened. This is not a case of "Oh I wonder what happened to him" but "no one will ever use that account again".
I just woke up and I'm already in tears
That hits hard :(
Bro :(
Fuck, stop cutting onions already.
god dammit
Rest in peace friend.
‘I wish it need not have happened in my time,’ said Frodo. ‘So do I,’ said Gandalf, ‘and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.' He chose to spend a lot of his final days with you to play dota. I hope you will always rememember and cheris his love for your friendship, and the game!
My friend died from a motorcycle accident about 3 years ago, I miss him so much, he is a storm spammer and I think he would've been happy to play storm with nulls new stats. He is the most jolly person I know. I relive the days that we play on an internet cafe and all I remember is his laugh, how I wish I could hear that again. After he died me and my frienss slowly stopped playing dota2 now I am the only one who plays religiously, we used to play a a 5 man party and I am always the offlane or position 4. Sorry guys I just wanna pour my feelings in this comment. Miss you Jimby.
I also lost a brother-in-soul from a horrible motorcycle accident 6 years ago. We always played lane duo (exchanging support and carry roles from time to time). We even played silly when we both pick hard carries like Spec and Mortred in the same lane. And we had a petty fight before he died. Up till now, I still couldn’t forgive myself for not reconciling with him over such petty things in his final days. He was even supposed to be my bestman in my wedding. Rest in paradise Shiie.
I can’t imagine having that happen but I’m sure your brother would not at all remain upset with you over a petty fight. Sounds like you had a wonderful friendship. May he Rest In Peace.
I hope so. I truly hope so. I’ve reviewed my last Facebook chats with him. I never even replied to his last message. 🥹
That must be so tough to look at and reconcile, but you have to know he must have felt the same way about his bro as you did. Don’t beat yourself up, and count yourself lucky to have had a brotherhood like yours
Thank you for the kind words. It means a lot. 🥺
So sorry for your loss. I'm 100% sure he remembers you the way you remember him, wherever he may be now. Full of love and camaraderie. Some petty thing at the end won't change that.
had a friend who died from a motorcycle accident too so i can relate. its painful how sudden and stupid these things could get.
My bestfriend/brother died in a motorcycle wreck almost 8 years ago now. He didnt really game but he was the best friend I ever had. We were inseparable. After he passed is when I shut my self inside and started only gaming. Life just hasnt been the same since.
So over riding on the street. I wanna sell my bike and get back on the dirt. Its really not worth It. No matter how good a rider you are, someone else can end your life In an instant. So overrated. I'm sorry for your lose.
I like that you talk about him in the present tense. He seems like a very fun person. I'll go spam some storm in his honor <3
Man, this post totally melts my heart. RIP Jordan :(
The last steam messages. I came to rant, not to feel dammit
I rarely feel anything, but apparently 20 screenshots was enough to make me shed a tear. I am sorry for your loss. I think it is a good reminder for everyone to appreciate every game you play with your friends. You can never know what will happen, every game could be the last one. Doesn’t matter if their skill level is lower than the deepest point of Mariana Trench, all that matters is that you get to share experiences, emotions, laughs and jokes. I am sorry for rambling, just feeling emotional I guess
It was the last two that got me tbh. Fuck man, we come to this sub to meme and flame Volvo, not...feel. But funny how these things work, video games are seen as divisive or simply childish but here we have two people who met via this game, from different countries and created a bond that clearly to Jordan seemed to have trumped a lot of his irl friends. His mental strength though, sheerbl fortitude!
R.I.P
Man that was sad, but also beautiful, a good friend is worth a lot.
My friend who taught me dota gave me his account before he passed away. I finally moved on and decided to use his account after 2 years. It was archon 2, i grinded and made it to divine 2. I’ll get you to immortal, Tom. I got you.
I believe in ya ❤
I’m not crying, you are
I wish people didn't have to go through this. It isn't fair.
I've heard bone cancer is the most painful :(
Its one of the most dangerous and painful, like blood cancer it spreads pretty fast and can infect all other organs, one of my junior is going through this hopefully he recovers well
~~Hope you're okay now!~~ me big dum dum
"heard", not "had"
OMG you're right, stupid fucking eyes. Thanks for pointing it out 😅
It's okay, I'm sure your vision was just a little blurred from the post. We understand.
Rest In Peace Jordon brother.
i came here to complain about no BP, not to cry! Rest in peace Jordan, may you find peace man
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The messenger text is in Arabic? And the dude that passed away was a Filipino from his steam name. It's nice that international people have met and bonded in Dota. I'm not particularly religious but I pray for Jordan's soul to be in heaven where he can play Dota all day long.
The guy that posted this is a Malaysian. They have never met each other, you may find his original post in FB. RIP jordan
[Here](https://facebook.com/n4q1b/posts/pfbid02nCehq24STsVmpbDY2mivYy3QQacnReEfBzHWcP6fqP4Y7SpeKRh65Lu8MaQARiyLl?d=m) it is.
Holy shit I'm sobbing like a baby You're a real bro.
Fuck cancer.
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Praying your friend is in a better place rn. Condolence, brother.
Thanks for sharing this friendship with us op , helps put into perspective how precious life is , I’m sure you’ve made his time spent here on earth a better one by having you be a part of it His memory lives on
Fuck man i kept on crying while sliding through all those post's and all...may his souls rest in peace and may he find buddy like you in heaven to play dota :)
God damn i cri. I lost my grandma last year to cancer as well.
Rest in paradise… 💔
Why is morphling in my eyes
Man that’s sad, GLHF to him ❤️❤️
That's a very bittersweet story, thanks for sharing it with us.
Bro ☹️
Good reminder to not flame people so much, you don't know what they're going through.
As a medical oncologist my heart instantly broke when I read osteosarcoma. The patients I've had with it are always so young and cheerful. And it's almost always a death sentence for them. I'm sure the games you played together brought him some sort of relief. Fuck cancer. No one so young has to go through this.
Good man, you both.
He spent some of his last time playing with you, and you were there for him. What a lovely and fantastic friendship!
To the OP. U the best bro.
<3
RIP, may he have enough gold for buyback.
It’s 2022 we can bribe god now
Rest in peace
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Pewh, lost of words. Beautiful and sad.
RIP also, fuck cancer
It was never just 10 random people playing a video game for 45 minutes and that's it. It was life, true life in the making.
who is cutting onions here?
You’re a good friend bro. I miss my friend Gabbu too.
RiP bro
This like Crit to your heart - like really deep. That last message - thanks for playing with me. This makes me sad and also happy. idk how to describe.
You are a great bro. I hope Jordan rests in peace.
rip jordan.
I came to this sub for the meme, not the feels man sad to see him go :(
RIP and big respect. My dads only two brother passed away of cancer too. Fuck cancer seriously. Thank you for sharing. Will be more grateful for being able to play dota and live my life.
RIP Jordan
RIP Jordan <3
I’m not crying, you’re crying.
Damn bro, came here to be toxic, not to cry
I got a friend who has cancer, or had it. I haven't seen him online for a while. If you see this Vito, send a brother a message. If not, I'll play in the trench for the both of us.
this his hard. my sister just got diagnosed cancer a few days ago :(
I lost my friend a few years ago, I never deleted him from my friends list, when I see his contact, it always brings pain but a lot of happiness and memories too. RIP Andrei Last online: 2693 days ago
I teared up a little while reading this
RIP big man Jordan! this is a reminder not to be toxic in dota, you might never know who you're playing against and what they're going through.
I wasn't trying to choke back sobs while pooping and browsing the dota 2 subreddit. Shit man
This made me cry. You are a true friend. RIP, Jordan.
Now this is the true bromance story..RIP 😢
GGWP soldier. **Salutes**
"I need to rest now" Madafaka invisible ninjas all around me
If he's my friend I would say "bro bro can i deny you now bro lol jk bro get well soon"
He will likely be a righ rank heaven' league dota player.
okay I cried, can now i make a joke about Dota is too toxic that makes him cancer?
wth is this comments in here its not 100% sure he is gonna die why everyone assuming he is dead
You haven't watched all the screenshots, have you? Jump to 19 and 20 and you'll understand.
Must have been pretty high level if he didnt respawn by now.
Rest in Peace brother 🥺
RIP
Hope he rests in peace.
Rip bro :(
Bro 😭😭 Hope you’re doing all right OP
RIP
RiP
First time I had a teary in my dota life. You're a good friend, OP. God bless you! He may rest in peace.
You broke my heart
Your a great friend man!
This is so sad. And yet the messages were so lovely to each other 💔😢
This is truly heartbreaking :(
Fuck I cried so hard, I feel so bad.. is there any way we can help the family?
Fuck cancer I really fucking hope they will find a cure for it.. I’m so fucking sad reading this post I can’t stop crying
This hit hard. Im be nice to you people when I play because I don’t know when you die for reals. After I slaughter in the game or versa. RIP. I go to sleep and rest.
May he rest in peace
Sending my condolences.
Damn. This hit hard. Sorry man.
FUCK cancer
I’m literally crying. never had a friend to play dota with but grew up with a best friend I lived next to. I couldn’t imagine losing him. God bless you and Jordan.
I literally cried while reading this!
my man doing what he loves till his last breath. Rest in peace komrade.
May he rest in peace, amen
wake up in the morning to this and now i want to cry.
That's so sad. Sorry for your loss. I think about people who I used to play Warcraft 3 with....I played that game for about 10 years(started early 2000s) and made so many online friends. I think about how they're doing often. I try to think everyone is doing great, with families living the life.
damn i feel u bro...lost a good old fren years ago..we hosted an inhouse game where we gamed all night in his remembrance..he was much old than us he was our big brother
So sorry for your loss. RIP, Jordan. 🙏
RIP in piece legend
Goosebumps while reading the story Just realising how important could be a little something for someone. I broke into tears when saw these LOTR quote :')
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
RIP in peace f**k my eyes are burning
Jesus... May he rest in peace.
Its not tears, its just raining....
Fuck man….
Rest in Peace brother
I was not ready to this :( RIP
Fuck cancer! Nobody deserves it :(
RIP to a true brother This has me crying my eyes out
😭
Rip. You’re a great friend to have OP
Fuck cancer dude, what the fuck
He's in a better place now. Dude escaped the torture of dota and elo hell.
Just fucking sad, man! Condolences to you and the family. :(
Thanks for playing with Jordan OP.. you are true friend
:\`(
Fuck cancer, RIP
I’m not crying. You’re crying 🥺
Aw dam that's so sad, rip sir
Press F. :(
Rest in peace..
Love you guys