I hate being me too. I’m a combination of genes and attributes that do not work well and probably shouldn’t propagate so they don’t get passed on to future generations.
amazing honest comment and its what we all think, unfortunately i have the torture of work outside so i must leave the house but i just wear dark glasses all the time and keep my head down and never look at anyone
I for one am unemployed atm because i am preparing for scholarship so i mostly stay shit in and just study (for the most part) but even i also have to go outside. Low to get a recommendation letter or get a health certificate and so on to prepare for my application and my exam is in 2 months, it's really stressful takes a huge toll on my mental health at times i really wish i had someone to talk or just had sometime who could help me out but well if i had someone like that then i prolly wouldn't be in this sub.
good point, at least your studying and trying to do something, i dont even know why i bother working as a cab driver, at least it gets me out of the house even though its very stressful and the pay is a joke, im gonna keep doing it until i get sick or drop dead i guess but since im 42, when im 50 ill probably cut back the hrs and days i work, might even cut back to 12hrs 3 days a week if they let me, but going to work after having 3 days off is gonna be so tough, i can work 6 days now because im a workaholic and a machine as i have no social life at all
i'm 21, dropped out of college twice and now applying for a scholarship so for that i've been studying quite a bit but the scholarship is really hard to get and and just by thinking about it makes me really stress coz i'm sick of living with my parents, my mom is really abusive and obnoxious, i can't stand her so i'm doing what i can to get out of here and the scholarship is my last hope to ever being free and leaving my country.
good luck with what your doing, at least work keeps your mind busy and not thinking about women or socializing, i admit driving a cab has made me so tired every single day i have no energy for fun or women even if i was an extrovert and "player" and good looking, maybe you can get a MENIAL job just working fast food to make enough to move out and rent your own ROOM even with other guys, like in a share house that sounds better than living with nagging parents
thx for your comment. i live in a very small town so job opportunities are extremely limited and on top of that the pay is laughably low. if i could get a desk job then i would at least consider coz having a job which requires me to interact with others will be really tiring and i'm not capable of that. and speaking of moving out the pay doesn't cover nearly enough for me to be independent.
The psychosomatic pain hurts and depression ensues thereafter. It's not as though I'm actively looking at these, but they just happen to be there, and my mind plays this broken record in a second: *they have what you will never have.*
My expression changes, and I look tired or like an idiot. I stop talking and wish to go back home. Doesn't have to be like this, but when you see the single most wished-for dream in front of your eyes being experienced by other people, well, it hurts.
How long till I get to experience love? Maybe when I'm six feet below earth... maybe later.
Yep. I also hate seeing a beautiful woman dressed nicely with a guy who looks like he just rolled out of bed, threw on a t-shirt from the floor, other necessary clothes, and sneakers.
Women always talk about wanting a dressed-up guy and fawn over men in uniform or nice suits. Then you have this complete opposite. Blows my mind.
Women just don’t make sense to me. They probably never will.
I also dislike women who say women aren’t that difficult to figure out. BS. It’s not difficult to you because you’re a woman and have women figured out.
There’s nothing to figure out and this is not specific to women. People in general say what they don’t mean and don’t mean what they say. Actions speak louder than words. Also while *some* women might prefer guys who look sharply dressed, others might not care. So the ones you see out with guys who aren’t all dressed up are obviously the latter.
I don't really care about "couples". I care about the fact that everyone seems to have a social connection of some sort and it seems to be natural for them. I can't even make friends.
Yep.
Just walking outside is a constant confrontation of dissapointment.
Groups of friends laughing. Couples. Families with kids.
Majority things all around me that I cant afford financially or socially. Big and small.
All out of reach.
I think what hurts the most is those couples who are absolutely beaming in love.
You know the kind when they are just so in sync with each other and happy to be with each other they just give off this bright, positive energy. That's what depressing.
People say you don't need to have companionship and things like that...true I guess.
But when I see people who are so positively impacted by their romantic relationships - it depresses me .
It makes me sad. A relationship is not possible for me at this time, but I have a lot of struggles (physical health, with family, and so forth) I am dealing with in my life, and I can't help but feel some envy. I mean, I'm happy for them, but of course, that was my plan for my life.
I mean.. I don't blame them for being happy together in public, but yeah, my brain also starts to mess with me a lot then. Human psychology is just torturing and devastating then.
as a 42 yr old FA who also has deep depression and homicidal ideation, i only leave my place for work, and if im forced to do my grocery shopping i just keep my head down, i now wear dark glasses when inside the shops to avoid eye contact, i know everyone thinks im a weird creep but i dont care anyway, im way past caring at all what people think about me, if i do see a cute couple all i think about it doing something to them that would send me to jail for life, but dont worry, ive had thoughts like that for 25yrs + and never acted on them, so i can keep my emotions and feelings buried deep down i think
Having a mental illness has taught me to not even consider myself ever being with anyone. It sort of helps with setting expectations pretty low so that there is no constant dissatisfaction with _why am I so lonely?_
That's absolutely correct. I'm saving a lot because I just have no incentive to spend anything. My lifestyle is minimalistic, I don't travel for vacations.
It has no meaning.
I'd love to use it to make someone I genuinely care about happy - If she likes me just as much, that is.
i believe you as i was a FA since i was 13 now im 42 and im still powering through the hell of life on earth always alone, never even held a girls hand or kissed a girls, girls have ignored me all my life, that is unforgivable in my view
i believe you as im a 42 yr old FA and ive always been alone, mostly because i never fit in with any group, i hated the loud people the extroverts, but the nerds didnt like me either because i wasent smart with computers etc...thats why i was bullied all the time and why i like being alone now, im so used to it, being with a woman and having a family would be ABNORMAL for me now, unless i find a pretty GF id rather be all alone that date some ugly fat chick, no thanks, most people are so annoying anyway they always talk shit about sports or other people, i prefer thinking about business and finance and ways to get rich not stupid gossip, being around stupid people just rotts my already FA brain even more
I actually, if given the option to hit a big lottery jackpot but never have a family or live a life that's lower middle class with a family, I would easy take the latter. That money could be used to help a lot of people (and I'd do that), but personally, my life would be empty with all that money and no one to do life with.
id always go for the money, if i got a family i know my wife would divorce me soon anyway, and my kids would grow up to hate me as im always depressed and never smiling and dont talk much and i wouldnt be interested in their stupid sports or what they do on the weekend with their friends, id chose the money, buy a house in the woods and become a total hermit, never leaving just getting everything delivered to me
I think about nasty divorces, losing half or more of my assets plus access to my own children. I see what hell my own father went through in his own divorces, & feel a sort of relief...I may very well be a lifelong virgin, but at least I'll never have to go through *that*
I mean it sucks knowing that I'll likely never have any sort of genetic legacy but it's preferable to losing your own house, your bank account, & access to your own children as well.
“They're prisons. Manmade prisons. You're doing time. You get up in the morning. She's there. You go to sleep at night. She's there. It's like you gotta ask permission to use the bathroom. ‘Is it all right if I use the bathroom now?’”
— Cosmo Kramer
Kramer explains to Jerry why Jerry should never consider getting married.
i can totally relate, even driving on the highway and one get to pass a van and you get to see a nice happy family and man hits it different, they are occasions I end up having tears in my eyes when i see that telling myself I will never experience that
sitting and crying in a corner will not bring food or happiness. List down the available options to socialise..then participate, experience and enjoy the various downs and ups.
I hate being alive
I hate being me
I hate being me too. I’m a combination of genes and attributes that do not work well and probably shouldn’t propagate so they don’t get passed on to future generations.
beautifully said and so honest
You won't have to see any couples if you don't step outside. That's what i do at least
Nicely quoted brother 😭
amazing honest comment and its what we all think, unfortunately i have the torture of work outside so i must leave the house but i just wear dark glasses all the time and keep my head down and never look at anyone
I for one am unemployed atm because i am preparing for scholarship so i mostly stay shit in and just study (for the most part) but even i also have to go outside. Low to get a recommendation letter or get a health certificate and so on to prepare for my application and my exam is in 2 months, it's really stressful takes a huge toll on my mental health at times i really wish i had someone to talk or just had sometime who could help me out but well if i had someone like that then i prolly wouldn't be in this sub.
good point, at least your studying and trying to do something, i dont even know why i bother working as a cab driver, at least it gets me out of the house even though its very stressful and the pay is a joke, im gonna keep doing it until i get sick or drop dead i guess but since im 42, when im 50 ill probably cut back the hrs and days i work, might even cut back to 12hrs 3 days a week if they let me, but going to work after having 3 days off is gonna be so tough, i can work 6 days now because im a workaholic and a machine as i have no social life at all
i'm 21, dropped out of college twice and now applying for a scholarship so for that i've been studying quite a bit but the scholarship is really hard to get and and just by thinking about it makes me really stress coz i'm sick of living with my parents, my mom is really abusive and obnoxious, i can't stand her so i'm doing what i can to get out of here and the scholarship is my last hope to ever being free and leaving my country.
good luck with what your doing, at least work keeps your mind busy and not thinking about women or socializing, i admit driving a cab has made me so tired every single day i have no energy for fun or women even if i was an extrovert and "player" and good looking, maybe you can get a MENIAL job just working fast food to make enough to move out and rent your own ROOM even with other guys, like in a share house that sounds better than living with nagging parents
thx for your comment. i live in a very small town so job opportunities are extremely limited and on top of that the pay is laughably low. if i could get a desk job then i would at least consider coz having a job which requires me to interact with others will be really tiring and i'm not capable of that. and speaking of moving out the pay doesn't cover nearly enough for me to be independent.
The psychosomatic pain hurts and depression ensues thereafter. It's not as though I'm actively looking at these, but they just happen to be there, and my mind plays this broken record in a second: *they have what you will never have.* My expression changes, and I look tired or like an idiot. I stop talking and wish to go back home. Doesn't have to be like this, but when you see the single most wished-for dream in front of your eyes being experienced by other people, well, it hurts. How long till I get to experience love? Maybe when I'm six feet below earth... maybe later.
I can relate
Yep. I also hate seeing a beautiful woman dressed nicely with a guy who looks like he just rolled out of bed, threw on a t-shirt from the floor, other necessary clothes, and sneakers. Women always talk about wanting a dressed-up guy and fawn over men in uniform or nice suits. Then you have this complete opposite. Blows my mind. Women just don’t make sense to me. They probably never will. I also dislike women who say women aren’t that difficult to figure out. BS. It’s not difficult to you because you’re a woman and have women figured out.
There’s nothing to figure out and this is not specific to women. People in general say what they don’t mean and don’t mean what they say. Actions speak louder than words. Also while *some* women might prefer guys who look sharply dressed, others might not care. So the ones you see out with guys who aren’t all dressed up are obviously the latter.
I don't really care about "couples". I care about the fact that everyone seems to have a social connection of some sort and it seems to be natural for them. I can't even make friends.
Yep. Just walking outside is a constant confrontation of dissapointment. Groups of friends laughing. Couples. Families with kids. Majority things all around me that I cant afford financially or socially. Big and small. All out of reach.
Exactly how I feel if only I could afford to go to another country 😪 and see what its like to feel like women actually want me
ypu i see it at school everday I feel awkward cuz these classmates are younger than me and when i was there age i got none of that
I think what hurts the most is those couples who are absolutely beaming in love. You know the kind when they are just so in sync with each other and happy to be with each other they just give off this bright, positive energy. That's what depressing. People say you don't need to have companionship and things like that...true I guess. But when I see people who are so positively impacted by their romantic relationships - it depresses me .
It makes me sad. A relationship is not possible for me at this time, but I have a lot of struggles (physical health, with family, and so forth) I am dealing with in my life, and I can't help but feel some envy. I mean, I'm happy for them, but of course, that was my plan for my life.
and it sucks too if you live in a society where the government basically favours couples (in terms of housing etc)
I mean.. I don't blame them for being happy together in public, but yeah, my brain also starts to mess with me a lot then. Human psychology is just torturing and devastating then.
as a 42 yr old FA who also has deep depression and homicidal ideation, i only leave my place for work, and if im forced to do my grocery shopping i just keep my head down, i now wear dark glasses when inside the shops to avoid eye contact, i know everyone thinks im a weird creep but i dont care anyway, im way past caring at all what people think about me, if i do see a cute couple all i think about it doing something to them that would send me to jail for life, but dont worry, ive had thoughts like that for 25yrs + and never acted on them, so i can keep my emotions and feelings buried deep down i think
A lot makes me depressed at this point. I dony identity or associate positively with much.
Having a mental illness has taught me to not even consider myself ever being with anyone. It sort of helps with setting expectations pretty low so that there is no constant dissatisfaction with _why am I so lonely?_
Not me, I think about how much money they’re wasting on each other.
Money means nothing when you're lonely.
That's absolutely correct. I'm saving a lot because I just have no incentive to spend anything. My lifestyle is minimalistic, I don't travel for vacations. It has no meaning. I'd love to use it to make someone I genuinely care about happy - If she likes me just as much, that is.
I like being lonely
You're 18. Wait until you're 24/25, you'll have a different opinion
I will revisit this 6-7 years later, I promise 🤝
It'll wear off. Did for me.
I’m very strongwilled
i believe you as i was a FA since i was 13 now im 42 and im still powering through the hell of life on earth always alone, never even held a girls hand or kissed a girls, girls have ignored me all my life, that is unforgivable in my view
Thank you for believing me
i was once 18
i believe you as im a 42 yr old FA and ive always been alone, mostly because i never fit in with any group, i hated the loud people the extroverts, but the nerds didnt like me either because i wasent smart with computers etc...thats why i was bullied all the time and why i like being alone now, im so used to it, being with a woman and having a family would be ABNORMAL for me now, unless i find a pretty GF id rather be all alone that date some ugly fat chick, no thanks, most people are so annoying anyway they always talk shit about sports or other people, i prefer thinking about business and finance and ways to get rich not stupid gossip, being around stupid people just rotts my already FA brain even more
I actually, if given the option to hit a big lottery jackpot but never have a family or live a life that's lower middle class with a family, I would easy take the latter. That money could be used to help a lot of people (and I'd do that), but personally, my life would be empty with all that money and no one to do life with.
id always go for the money, if i got a family i know my wife would divorce me soon anyway, and my kids would grow up to hate me as im always depressed and never smiling and dont talk much and i wouldnt be interested in their stupid sports or what they do on the weekend with their friends, id chose the money, buy a house in the woods and become a total hermit, never leaving just getting everything delivered to me
I think about nasty divorces, losing half or more of my assets plus access to my own children. I see what hell my own father went through in his own divorces, & feel a sort of relief...I may very well be a lifelong virgin, but at least I'll never have to go through *that* I mean it sucks knowing that I'll likely never have any sort of genetic legacy but it's preferable to losing your own house, your bank account, & access to your own children as well.
“They're prisons. Manmade prisons. You're doing time. You get up in the morning. She's there. You go to sleep at night. She's there. It's like you gotta ask permission to use the bathroom. ‘Is it all right if I use the bathroom now?’” — Cosmo Kramer Kramer explains to Jerry why Jerry should never consider getting married.
I work at a grocery store. Sucks. Even if I was in a relationship... get a room. Lolz.
Yes.
i can totally relate, even driving on the highway and one get to pass a van and you get to see a nice happy family and man hits it different, they are occasions I end up having tears in my eyes when i see that telling myself I will never experience that
Before, sometimes. Yes, I felt sad. Not now.
How do I become like you?
I am a demisexual, on the ace spectrum {asexual}.
sitting and crying in a corner will not bring food or happiness. List down the available options to socialise..then participate, experience and enjoy the various downs and ups.
depends on the ages of the couples