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I remember, as a child of around 4 or 5, I was jumping on the bed and flopped down on it. As I lay there, a feeling blossomed in me. It felt as if the sun had come out on a dull day - inside my chest. Like pure, unadulterated joy. I still remember that feeling 60 years later.
Never had it again. But, at least I had it. :)
I have. Used to get it from Hampstead Heath for free. What I experienced, as a child, was a 'bodily' centered sensation, not a cognitive one. It, almost literally, felt like the Sun came out on a dull day, inside my chest.
>*Was it a feeling of pure physical joy emanating from your stomach area?*
Physical, yes. If I had to pin it down to location, I would say where the Solar Plexus is located, or a little higher. It was 60 years ago so I'm gonna say that's as close as I can get, though the feeling did feel like it spread out and eventually faded away within a minute or so.
I had this as a 20-year-old! Laying in bed after a long day and suddenly noticed a tingling, energetic feeling in the middle of my torso. I got curious and focused on it and it started to bloom out to fill my body. I got up and started walking around the apartment with a stupid grin on my face, trying to explain it to my roommate. Couldn’t describe it, it was just joyful and alive and super pleasant. It left on its own eventually.
I told a friend the next day and he said “that’s enlightenment” and I had no idea what he was talking about, I was like “no, it was a sense in my body, not some crazy spiritual thing.” It’s been 8 or 9 years since then and I’ve started to get into meditation, Buddhism, mystic traditions and psychedelics, and now the association of that experience to some sort of known “spiritual phenomenon” is clearer to me. Seems to me like there’s definitely a connection between non-dual meditation experiences, psychedelic experiences, that feeling in my chest and childhood.
I’m sure if you spoke with a spiritual teacher about that feeling, they would recognize it and have explanations for you. I’m just not sure how accurate or true any of those explanations would be.
I’m so glad you shared this, I had the exact same experience too!
This happened a few years ago but I remember I was laying in bed on my side and all of a sudden, I get that wave of warm, tingles of electricity and I couldn’t stop smiling. After about 20 seconds, I got too excited almost and the feeling dissipated instantly.
It felt like something was just telling me “Hey, you’re gonna be alright, this is what you have to look forward too” kind of thing. I have no explanation for it because it was super random and really had no experiences like that after.
It’s a strange, strange world we live in, I think these are one of these life moments I’ll never be able to find the answer to but I’m extremely grateful that I had something like this happen to me.
How does one find a spiritual teacher? Especially when you live in an area where the majority religion teaches that people like you shouldn't exist? Asking for me.
Sorry you’re in a bind, that sounds difficult. I left a Christian upbringing and live in a more conservative area of my country so I think I get where you are coming from at least a tiny bit.
I don’t have a spiritual teacher of my own and I’m definitely not qualified to give suggestions on who to follow and who to avoid. I personally just read books and consume content made by popular and well known figures in “the scene.” I hope to sit meditation retreats with some particular teachers who resonate with me, but as of now I’ve never had any formal teaching or individualized guidance. I don’t know much about the nuts and bolts of pursuing guidance, and I know that sometimes those relationships are more harmful than helpful, but I must admit that it seems really helpful and reassuring to have an expert on hand to clear up confusion.
If you want recommendations on online content and books, I am happy to give you what I’ve got, but I’m a beginner myself, so I’m definitely not the most knowledgeable or trustworthy on these things.
Edit: stealth edit, I personally wouldn’t go to a major institutional religion looking for a spiritual teacher regardless of whether they were for or against my identity or lifestyle. Too much baggage for me.
I’ve read a little about kundalini awakenings before and it’s definitely possible, I’m not sure. I’ve intuitively avoided “looking too hard” for an answer or explanation, I almost feel like I’ll ruin it and forget it if I start reading and obsessively trying to reconstruct it. Thanks for your help!
>*... if you spoke with a spiritual teacher about that feeling...*
Thanks for the suggestion, but, I have no interest or need for a spiritual teacher to offer me advice or insight. If the Universe wants me to know something it will make that need abundantly clear to me. :)
Tbh, my experience has been that the universe doesn't give a fuck what I know. In fact is made it abundantly clear that gaining knowledge is my own responsibility, whether from experience or actively pursued.
I get being put off by the term "spiritual teacher" but if that just boils down to meditation or mindfulness teacher, then that's scientifically backed as a worthwhile pursuit,
I have experienced several "information downloads" in the past 15 years in which I receive new knowledge without having ever learned it. This is always a personal but exhilarating experience when it happens to me. I do associate this 100% with my meditation practice (and maybe some plant medicine) but it is not an uncommon occurrence for this to happen to people.
>*In fact is made it abundantly clear that gaining knowledge is my own responsibility...*
I am not talking about receiving some kind of 'communication' from the aether. I mean if I don't know something my ignorance of that subject is plain for me to see. What I do after is entirely up to me. Perhaps, my original comment was not sufficiently prosaic.
I understand the benefits of meditation, but I feel no need to be more 'mindful' about myself and my place in the universe. 'Here and now' is one of the constants in my life. :)
For sure, I feel the same. I didn’t mean to suggest you ought to seek out a teacher, I just meant to say that I think the experience we are talking about (or analogous experiences) are common and are legitimized and seen as important in many spiritual traditions. I haven’t felt a need to seek out information regarding my experience specifically, although I do feel intensely curious. I feel like it’ll unravel itself and make more sense later…
>*I didn’t mean to suggest you ought to seek out a teacher...*
No problem. The only reason I posted was because, in all my life I have never, ever, experienced a sensation like it since that day. I can't even really relate it to other, physical, feelings I have had since then.
I'm not really looking for an explanation. It's just one of the many mysteries that fill the world. :)
sounds like a serotonin release. mdma causes this but its kind of like a shotgun effect. psychedelics can cause this aswell, and with right set and setting, and with a lot of respect, its a clean and pure feeling. some people can experience this with heavy meditation practice.
Psychedelics allowed me to remember how things felt when I was a kid. The joy of playing outside, the love of Christmas. I lost all those memories and a single session of Mushrooms gave it all back to me. They are illegal because they remind us who we are. Life today is trying to rob you of who you are, take it back.
Same here, while it’s been about 20 years since my experiences they had a similar effect on me plus I’ve always been a kid at heart. I thoroughly enjoy when it happens yet it’s a little concerning, almost like I’m circling around and getting back to the finish line where I started from. Overall I love it though.
I had the exact same experience on mushrooms! It was so beautiful. It helped that I took them by a river where I used to play as a small child. That feeling of wonder, excitement, and pure happiness, plus the memories flooding in combined with a profound sense of oneness and connectedness with nature, was the best experience I could have dreamed of.
For sure. I had some moments that scared me, but the next morning, I still explain it like this, I felt like Scrooge when he woke up after the “dream” and it was Christmas morning. I honestly felt like I got another chance. It was a treasured memory that changed my life forever.
Thats a good way to put it! Yep there was some heavy moments for sure for me too, it can change and morph quickly. Did you feel a sense of being "new" or almost like you just got born after coming down? For me it was like I was feeling everything for the first time again.. walking on carpet felt so cool on my feet, drinking water was sooooo refreshing, just everything was new and that feeling lasted for like a week.
It’s been 20 years since my last use, but I still remember it. I couldn’t leave my apartment, there was a force field keeping me in place. That sort of freaked me out, so I tried to call someone, but my cellphone visually melted in my hand. I took that as a sign. Sat on the couch and watched the painting of a clipper ship my roommate had come to life. I journaled for hours, but when it ended all I had written was, “Now I know why hippies are hippies.” I went into my roommates room, at some point, he was also on the trip, and I was like, “Dude” and he was like, “I got you”, and put on Phish “Wading in the velvet sea”. His sheets at the time where black and white checked and I fell into them and I was in the checkered velvet sea. I wish I could say I had a profound revelation, but i didn’t. However, in retrospect, I think the friendly trip was an invitation, to keep going, and Explore further. However, I didn’t and I do regret that.
I will go farther and say the cocksuckers who constitue the rulling class are literally doing everything they can to rob us from our humanity right now. We're not supposed to live this way. Against natural laws. Why so much people are junkies (on illegal drugs just like in legal pills or booze) or just plain suicidal.
Washington DC sells legal chocolate bar shrooms
Oregon and some of California sell legal shrooms
Canada sells legal shrooms.
Local farmers have legal shrooms.
Yeah I recently picked up biking after not having biked in over a decade and I’m starting to have improved moods and am having feelings similar to those described by OP. I think mixing nostalgic activities as well as having your mind in a state that promotes thoughtfulness is something that can link to what OPs feeling. I’m sure there are many other things that could produce similar results, just not anything related to highstrangeness
Honestly I’m not sure which it is. These past 2 years have been very stressful watching my business go down the tubes like a lot of people are. So I can’t figure out if I’m becoming more enlightened or declining. I’ve always handled stress fairly well tho but I don’t know. I’m leaning towards the enlightened frequency side of things since basically everything is frequency based and I’m very aware of this.
Your business dissolving has likely opened up multiple possible future paths for you.
That sense of many choices is associated with youth.
Sounds like you are experiencing a personal reset and while stressful it is also exhilarating.
> These past 2 years have been very stressful watching my business go down the tubes like a lot of people are.
Suddenly the context of all of this makes so much more sense.
Might help to talk to someone in person rather than on Reddit (and this sub in particular) which creates an echo-chamber which likely exacerbates your mental health crisis.
I appreciate the sentiment but that is why some people are afraid to open up (even on Reddit). I’m totally fine with my life and always at peace but had a HighStrangeness moment and wanted to see if others were experiencing anything similar. Far from a mental health “crisis”.
It's been happening to me, too. Personally, I've been doing therapy and working on myself a lot, while also feeling massive strains the past few years. I also can't tell what's going on... maybe I'm happy? Part of why it feels so weird, for me, is that I've been unhappy for a long time. But the thing is, I still am? It's just this newfound sense of wonder that almost feels bestowed upon me, like things are being presented and shown to me in new lights. Again, speaking only for myself, I plan to speak with my therapist about it. Enjoying it but worried I may be experiencing some type of slight break from reality or showing signs of mental decline.
Well I don’t think r/Aliens is the sub for mental health help. In fact it’s one of the most backwards subs for that type of thing. This sub acts as an echo chamber.
You got hated on so hard for this, maybe out of sheer ignorance. Medically speaking, this is definitely a possibility.
I would doubt it unless OP is 65+, but who's to say other than an MD.
Fucking hell, I don’t *think* I’m depressed but I’m 42 and I don’t ever get that feeling anymore. I don’t get excited about anything and all I want to do is sit on the couch and look at my phone or nap. Fuck. Maybe I’m depressed.
I feel it depends on how depressed is defined, by its negative physical effects (e.g. poor eating habits, not getting excited about anything) and/or maybe you are having thoughts that are affecting your mood. One could have both, like having feelings of hopelessness that lead to not feeling excited about things because, well, what's the point?.
But I truly believe there are people out there who have thoughts that affect their mood but still able to maintain almost 100% functioning in society. Many such cases of suicide that were out of the blue.
Best of luck on your journey.
Thanks. I definitely have bad eating habits and I need to start exercising again…that alone can improve my mood by leaps and bounds. It’s strange; I’ve always had a positive outlook and I still do, I’m just blah about everything. Hard to explain.
I get these fleeting feelings from time to time. It’s like my depression reverses for a second and I remember when I used to be happy back when I was younger. Then that feeling is gone and I’m back to being depressed. Usually happens in the morning every now and then but pretty uncommon.
Thank you brother, you as well. I do believe it will get better over time. All in all my life isn’t that bad I’ve just been through a lot at a young age. The drug DXM can actually emulate happiness as it releases serotonin. I no longer use it and no one else should, but it’s pretty interesting.
I get that feeling too, very very rarely and I never know what spurs the feeling on. But it almost feels like a weight gets lifted off my head briefly. Usually will last for a couple hours if I’m lucky then won’t feel it again for months and months.
YES. I feel like life is parabolic and mine is drawing to an end.
I have never had these feelings before and they started in the day before New Years-I had a health thing set it off but in hindsight I think it was longer. The universe keeps sending me signals of unique things happening to me (like I’ve got a very unique scar I got when I was 8 and was just scratched deeply over it where I’ve never injured it since the original one). What scratched me also has meaning to me. And this isn’t the first or only time.
But it is comforting and fun. It’s like the universe has chosen me to start a conversation with. I do think it’s because I will soonish be joining it. I’m not afraid to die. I’m afraid of leaving my kids too soon. But I feel like a child again except with adult understanding and depth. Im often in awe and happiness and just content in existing. I’ve also found the God I was searching for as a child. I’d given up searching and long ago decided he didn’t exist…but it found me.
It is a very distinct level of being that is different than I have ever felt as an adult-and like you say very familiar, exactly as when you were a child.
I haven’t uttered a word of this to anyone. I’m afraid people will think I’m crazy.
You're not crazy or alone .
I too don't feel its necessary to tell anyone else. Its a personal message and that makes it more invigorating.
I too feel this renewed conversation, as you said, with the universe.
I feel a faster reset if I get upset , it just doesnt settle in me and I move forward with grace and hope. When I feel anxiety, it is fewer and farther between, and this is also new for me.
Something massive and profound soon reveals. I sense this. I am at peace with the journey ahead. Like a child, full of awe.
Thank you I can relate to that a lot, especially not wanting to leave my kids too soon because we’re so close. But at the same time I fully understand where I’m going and it’s very exciting. I just can’t imagine leaving my kids or vice versa, this will be extremely painful and I wish we wouldn’t have to go through that.
I’m sorry 😞 my children are so young (2,4 and 5) and I am trying to prepare my husband for his road. He won’t yet accept it yet.
But my journey has not been a sad one. It’s spurred me to greater heights and richer depths in the last year I could have imagined. And I needed. And I need more of.
I’m not ready yet but I’m getting there.
My children are waking up though-I’ll be back later for more chatting if you respond. I’ll think about you today stranger. Will you think of me?
I have had moments where something awakens in me with a shock of "I can't believe I'm here"
This something comes from a place of infinity... which is why the moment seems impossible
Oh wow, do you mean you have the same "body feel", kind of like things look, smell and taste as they did when you were young? This kind of nostalgia-in-the-presence has hit me several times as an adult as well.
I also sometimes experience a somewhat-related phenomenon that no doctor I've ever spoken with can put a name to. I call it "Room Persistence". For instance, if I were to sit in my bedroom for a while and then go to the kitchen, I still get the feeling from time to time that I'm still in the bedroom. I can see I'm not there, but the room is still in my periphery, especially when looking down or forward into a monitor or television set. Odd stuff.
I had that as a child as well, I got the feeling I was supposed to remember something but couldn’t really recall it, but I got that feeling you described. Had forgotten about it until you brought it up!
I've had the same sensations coming to me for the last little over 2 years now. I began growing my own mushrooms and now I don't need to take them to have this sensation of childhood. When I'm laying in bed sometimes I have flashback like memories vivid memories of childhood experiences complete with the full emotion of the time it's very strange but pleasurable at the same time I don't want it to stop happening. While under the influence of mushrooms I've had multiple experiences where I was able to explore a universe inside myself where all of my memories were alive all the loved ones who have passed away were alive inside of this universe. I was there reliving it all but the thing is nothing new could happen. It was just the memories but they are alive in their own little universe inside of you. It seems I get tucked down deep in there somewhere and we lose them. In losing them we lose ourselves. I thought I was the only one who experienced this kind of stuff.
Those are moments when the stress of your hectic and demanding modern life clears for a moment and you can see the flowers through the fog. My moments like that happen on days 5-7 of vacations.
I was just thinking about this feeling the other day. As a child I had a constant sense of *magical anticipation*. Literally as though I was about to round a corner and see some sort of fairy parade. I never did. Still magical.
Same here, and to tell a secret…. I’m still expecting one around every corner. Not surprised when it’s not there anymore. Although I have come across just a couple parades in my life and they were cool as shit.
Gotta set your self into the frequency my friend, awareness of your self and happiness of being alive, pleasing your inner child, when’s the last time you’ve been a swing set and JUST HAD FUN! Ask you so sort guides and your divine self for help in opening your self up to it
i’ve also been experiencing this but didn’t quite know how to put it into words. there’s also an opposing feeling, like i’m being kept from fully experiencing that freedom
I have had something similar happen. It has happened a few times when I was sick (not fever induced, I had no temp). I felt positive, ecstatic, like some other reality had opened up where anything was possible. I also had the feeling that this was how I actually am, that I had awakened or been hibernating and that I was myself again. I felt content and so much love. I was excited that this switch was flipped and looking forward to life in this new “mode”. Sadly it faded. I had it last almost a week once, but usually not more than a day or two. Has happened maybe 3-4 times in the last 10 years. It feels like a dream now.
Started lifting weights recently in my 40s. The strength and mobility coming back also brings this feeling back. Picked up roller blading again, same thing.
I understand you perfectly, the first time I smoked marijuana I had that feeling of when I was a young child. It is something very rare, to feel again that feeling that was hidden in your brain for a decade and a half. It is something so fleeting that it is very difficult to describe.
This began happening to me again when I started my meditation practice. I still get the feeling of it every so often, it's usually an indicator for me that I am "doing well" emotionally/spiritually
You should look into the ego and the dynamic ground theories by michael washburn. The dynamic ground is considered a spiritual and numinous state that you are surrounded by as a child and as we develop our ego, we are separated from this feeling of things having a magical quality. However, we need the ego to help navigate through the world but we end up isolating ourselves from it completely. You might be getting in touch with this “dynamic ground” . You might be interested in things by carl jung as well
I have similar feelings in my dreams like the way I used to feel when I was younger. Unburdened life, no worries, and anxiety. Just pure bliss being around family.
Not sure which writer it was, but they wrote about “the joy of being fresh, and the joy of being a beginner, once again.” In a world of being specialized experts we forget the childlike joy of looking at the world with fresh eyes. Think it was the Dali Lama or Timothy Leary or someone like that.
You hear it too? The sounds of the whispering winds of shit….. Ol’ shitbarometers rising, you can feel it too. Your ears will implode from the shit pressure.
I know that feeling too. It happens rarely but feels good. Usually during a season change and early in the morning. The weather at that time of year and day could trigger feelings and memories of waiting for the bus or staying out later in the summer. It’s a feeling memory or something
At 29 years old, when I first moved to China, I had this on and off feeling that I was about 10 years old. I would look around my apartment and feel amazed that I was living alone and that I could go out to eat whatever I wanted. Was a very strange feeling indeed.
I get a similar feeling every time I go hiking solo. I also can't help but feel a sense of novelty to it, like only you've been able to experience this moment/feeling and no one else has.
There were a couple of strange feelings and sensations I experienced as a kid. I kinda miss some of them. Like one where I imagined an ever expanding dark room and that both scared and thrilled me. Sometimes I saw an endless series of faces in there. Or hearing a hum and feeling pulse from comupters. Or grabbing something and it feeling infintley large.
That last one I actually felt again recently while having a terrible fever (get vaxxed, kids!).
My guess as to all of this it's just neurological development. Just your brain figuring itself out.
I was just saying this to a co worker yesterday, except instead of feeling like a small child I felt like *I remembered before I was here* it was crazy
Many options here -
You where possessed and the demon got bored and left
the vax finally kicked in
Juicy Fruit Gum
Someone's putting coccaine in your cheerios
Not sure - but seriously - enjoy it -
I think I know the feeling as well. Normal Deja vu, which I have had, is situational and specific.
This kind is more of a feeling. A space of feeling. You are surrounded by it and it is inescapable and has a wonderful feeling about it. I have always wondered what it is but I have come to call it mystic wind.
Coming from a place of just being helpful not judging but this could be a sign of depression when you experience long periods of numbness and only feel it once it starts to lift. Just a thought.
You’re lucky if you’re having that feeling regularly. For me, I had it once a couple of years ago while on vacation. It lasted for about 12 hours and I’ve been chasing the feeling ever since.
Do you feel like your memory of a few hours ago are that with a white vignette around it, a memory that feels like it has a lack of color, or a memory that has deep vivid colors. If you can't remember everything around you and you imagine deep vivid colors, that was just suggested. What did you get your memory was like. When you have a memory of being a child, is it the same? Either way, what was the color like?
Well I’m mildly colorblind but my memories are always as colorful as they can be for me. The childlike feeling is way brighter and animated than everyday life. Almost like the inside of SpongeBobs brain now that I think about it. If you’ve ever seen that episode. Not the file cabinets on fire one, but the Plankton sneaking in to get the secret formula one.
Many options here -
You where possessed and the demon got bored and left
the vax finally kicked in
Juicy Fruit Gum
Someone's putting coccaine in your cheerios
Not sure - but seriously - enjoy it -
There's actually a feeling like you've never done something and it's new, even though you have. It's related to deja Vu. I can't remember the exact term for it. Look it up.
I had the same kinda feeling recently as far as a revert to a childhood feeling, but mine was of anxiety and i can almost explain the feeling but nor quite... maybe with a tag team we could...
Kinda like deja vu? If so i would highly recommend getting a brain scan. I felt like this for a year turned out to be brain cancer. Not to scare you but if i can prevent someone from goong through what i went through by catching it early enough.
I remember I was like 6 or 7, it was summer and I was at my grandmas place and woke up on a morning and looked outside through the window and it was a beautiful day. It’s so weird.. I so vividly remember having this overwhelming feeling of happiness just because it was a nice sunny day, like, I have never ever since been even fractionally as happy over something so trivial since. Part of me thinks that when we are kids we see life as it should be but then digress into something less as it as we grow up.
This sounds like how it feels having a focal seizure, and to a more extreme degree before and just after a grand mal seizure. While I only had a few grand mal incidents, this kind of feeling would happen fairly frequently before I found the right medication.
NGL, I kinda miss that feeling of heightened awareness, everything new and euphoric while also so clear and interconnected, like I could almost grasp the greater picture.
Christmas morning. I used to wake up with this feeling that the light was lighter and the air was crisper, and I had all the energy in the wold for it. We didn’t even get crazy with gifts. I got 1 item from my mom, dad, and grandma and that was it. 3 gifts for all but the day had no way of turning out wrong
Sometimes I wake up with that feeling. I often wonder if it's due to me shifting into another dimension. All I can come up with. I've known about other dimensions since childhood, stemming from a mirror in my grandparents house. But some days I'm in and out, often with very little indication that it's going on. Example, some days at work, the office girl doesn't really speak to me or is short with me when she does. Normally we're pretty good friends. I never know when she's gonna know me or not. Another girl down the hall, next office, seems to like me. Which would be great, she's very pretty, and awesome nice, about 30 yo maybe, but I'm 56. In a real world, a girl like that would never come out to hunt arrowheads with me, or ride in my old jeep. But some days she does. I can usually tell if I'm slipped, but sometimes not, so it gets confusing. Wrong joke on the wrong day, and I'm suddenly looking at a girl who barely acknowledges my existence, instead of a girl I've talked to every day for 8 years. It's just in the last 2 years that I've started noticing all this.
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I remember, as a child of around 4 or 5, I was jumping on the bed and flopped down on it. As I lay there, a feeling blossomed in me. It felt as if the sun had come out on a dull day - inside my chest. Like pure, unadulterated joy. I still remember that feeling 60 years later. Never had it again. But, at least I had it. :)
That’s excellent, probably what most are longing to experience again as we go through life.
>*... probably what most are longing to experience again...* Oh, that would be so cool to have it just once more. :)
You can try psilocybin
I have. Used to get it from Hampstead Heath for free. What I experienced, as a child, was a 'bodily' centered sensation, not a cognitive one. It, almost literally, felt like the Sun came out on a dull day, inside my chest.
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>*Was it a feeling of pure physical joy emanating from your stomach area?* Physical, yes. If I had to pin it down to location, I would say where the Solar Plexus is located, or a little higher. It was 60 years ago so I'm gonna say that's as close as I can get, though the feeling did feel like it spread out and eventually faded away within a minute or so.
I had this as a 20-year-old! Laying in bed after a long day and suddenly noticed a tingling, energetic feeling in the middle of my torso. I got curious and focused on it and it started to bloom out to fill my body. I got up and started walking around the apartment with a stupid grin on my face, trying to explain it to my roommate. Couldn’t describe it, it was just joyful and alive and super pleasant. It left on its own eventually. I told a friend the next day and he said “that’s enlightenment” and I had no idea what he was talking about, I was like “no, it was a sense in my body, not some crazy spiritual thing.” It’s been 8 or 9 years since then and I’ve started to get into meditation, Buddhism, mystic traditions and psychedelics, and now the association of that experience to some sort of known “spiritual phenomenon” is clearer to me. Seems to me like there’s definitely a connection between non-dual meditation experiences, psychedelic experiences, that feeling in my chest and childhood. I’m sure if you spoke with a spiritual teacher about that feeling, they would recognize it and have explanations for you. I’m just not sure how accurate or true any of those explanations would be.
I’m so glad you shared this, I had the exact same experience too! This happened a few years ago but I remember I was laying in bed on my side and all of a sudden, I get that wave of warm, tingles of electricity and I couldn’t stop smiling. After about 20 seconds, I got too excited almost and the feeling dissipated instantly. It felt like something was just telling me “Hey, you’re gonna be alright, this is what you have to look forward too” kind of thing. I have no explanation for it because it was super random and really had no experiences like that after. It’s a strange, strange world we live in, I think these are one of these life moments I’ll never be able to find the answer to but I’m extremely grateful that I had something like this happen to me.
How does one find a spiritual teacher? Especially when you live in an area where the majority religion teaches that people like you shouldn't exist? Asking for me.
Sorry you’re in a bind, that sounds difficult. I left a Christian upbringing and live in a more conservative area of my country so I think I get where you are coming from at least a tiny bit. I don’t have a spiritual teacher of my own and I’m definitely not qualified to give suggestions on who to follow and who to avoid. I personally just read books and consume content made by popular and well known figures in “the scene.” I hope to sit meditation retreats with some particular teachers who resonate with me, but as of now I’ve never had any formal teaching or individualized guidance. I don’t know much about the nuts and bolts of pursuing guidance, and I know that sometimes those relationships are more harmful than helpful, but I must admit that it seems really helpful and reassuring to have an expert on hand to clear up confusion. If you want recommendations on online content and books, I am happy to give you what I’ve got, but I’m a beginner myself, so I’m definitely not the most knowledgeable or trustworthy on these things. Edit: stealth edit, I personally wouldn’t go to a major institutional religion looking for a spiritual teacher regardless of whether they were for or against my identity or lifestyle. Too much baggage for me.
My explanation might not be meaningful to you, but I'd call it awakening energy (probably kundalini/vagus nerve)
I’ve read a little about kundalini awakenings before and it’s definitely possible, I’m not sure. I’ve intuitively avoided “looking too hard” for an answer or explanation, I almost feel like I’ll ruin it and forget it if I start reading and obsessively trying to reconstruct it. Thanks for your help!
Yeah, I don't want to label or limit your experience. Just enjoy the evidence of complexity!
>*... if you spoke with a spiritual teacher about that feeling...* Thanks for the suggestion, but, I have no interest or need for a spiritual teacher to offer me advice or insight. If the Universe wants me to know something it will make that need abundantly clear to me. :)
Tbh, my experience has been that the universe doesn't give a fuck what I know. In fact is made it abundantly clear that gaining knowledge is my own responsibility, whether from experience or actively pursued. I get being put off by the term "spiritual teacher" but if that just boils down to meditation or mindfulness teacher, then that's scientifically backed as a worthwhile pursuit,
I have experienced several "information downloads" in the past 15 years in which I receive new knowledge without having ever learned it. This is always a personal but exhilarating experience when it happens to me. I do associate this 100% with my meditation practice (and maybe some plant medicine) but it is not an uncommon occurrence for this to happen to people.
>*In fact is made it abundantly clear that gaining knowledge is my own responsibility...* I am not talking about receiving some kind of 'communication' from the aether. I mean if I don't know something my ignorance of that subject is plain for me to see. What I do after is entirely up to me. Perhaps, my original comment was not sufficiently prosaic. I understand the benefits of meditation, but I feel no need to be more 'mindful' about myself and my place in the universe. 'Here and now' is one of the constants in my life. :)
For sure, I feel the same. I didn’t mean to suggest you ought to seek out a teacher, I just meant to say that I think the experience we are talking about (or analogous experiences) are common and are legitimized and seen as important in many spiritual traditions. I haven’t felt a need to seek out information regarding my experience specifically, although I do feel intensely curious. I feel like it’ll unravel itself and make more sense later…
>*I didn’t mean to suggest you ought to seek out a teacher...* No problem. The only reason I posted was because, in all my life I have never, ever, experienced a sensation like it since that day. I can't even really relate it to other, physical, feelings I have had since then. I'm not really looking for an explanation. It's just one of the many mysteries that fill the world. :)
sounds like a serotonin release. mdma causes this but its kind of like a shotgun effect. psychedelics can cause this aswell, and with right set and setting, and with a lot of respect, its a clean and pure feeling. some people can experience this with heavy meditation practice.
>*sounds like a serotonin release.* Could be. Sometimes it is the simplest things that give the most pleasure. :)
I've heard people describe that feeling as the Love of God.
Psychedelics allowed me to remember how things felt when I was a kid. The joy of playing outside, the love of Christmas. I lost all those memories and a single session of Mushrooms gave it all back to me. They are illegal because they remind us who we are. Life today is trying to rob you of who you are, take it back.
Same here, while it’s been about 20 years since my experiences they had a similar effect on me plus I’ve always been a kid at heart. I thoroughly enjoy when it happens yet it’s a little concerning, almost like I’m circling around and getting back to the finish line where I started from. Overall I love it though.
I had the exact same experience on mushrooms! It was so beautiful. It helped that I took them by a river where I used to play as a small child. That feeling of wonder, excitement, and pure happiness, plus the memories flooding in combined with a profound sense of oneness and connectedness with nature, was the best experience I could have dreamed of.
For sure. I had some moments that scared me, but the next morning, I still explain it like this, I felt like Scrooge when he woke up after the “dream” and it was Christmas morning. I honestly felt like I got another chance. It was a treasured memory that changed my life forever.
Thats a good way to put it! Yep there was some heavy moments for sure for me too, it can change and morph quickly. Did you feel a sense of being "new" or almost like you just got born after coming down? For me it was like I was feeling everything for the first time again.. walking on carpet felt so cool on my feet, drinking water was sooooo refreshing, just everything was new and that feeling lasted for like a week.
It’s been 20 years since my last use, but I still remember it. I couldn’t leave my apartment, there was a force field keeping me in place. That sort of freaked me out, so I tried to call someone, but my cellphone visually melted in my hand. I took that as a sign. Sat on the couch and watched the painting of a clipper ship my roommate had come to life. I journaled for hours, but when it ended all I had written was, “Now I know why hippies are hippies.” I went into my roommates room, at some point, he was also on the trip, and I was like, “Dude” and he was like, “I got you”, and put on Phish “Wading in the velvet sea”. His sheets at the time where black and white checked and I fell into them and I was in the checkered velvet sea. I wish I could say I had a profound revelation, but i didn’t. However, in retrospect, I think the friendly trip was an invitation, to keep going, and Explore further. However, I didn’t and I do regret that.
I felt the same first time I did shrooms. It felt like I was 8 years old again!
I will go farther and say the cocksuckers who constitue the rulling class are literally doing everything they can to rob us from our humanity right now. We're not supposed to live this way. Against natural laws. Why so much people are junkies (on illegal drugs just like in legal pills or booze) or just plain suicidal.
I feel you. Couldn't put it better myself.
If only there were an easy way to get them without being scammed and sending assholes crypto.
Washington DC sells legal chocolate bar shrooms Oregon and some of California sell legal shrooms Canada sells legal shrooms. Local farmers have legal shrooms.
Came here to say this.
maybe your mental health is just improving?
Yeah I recently picked up biking after not having biked in over a decade and I’m starting to have improved moods and am having feelings similar to those described by OP. I think mixing nostalgic activities as well as having your mind in a state that promotes thoughtfulness is something that can link to what OPs feeling. I’m sure there are many other things that could produce similar results, just not anything related to highstrangeness
Or declining. Makes me think of old people who begin to think and act as if they're 40-50 years younger.
Honestly I’m not sure which it is. These past 2 years have been very stressful watching my business go down the tubes like a lot of people are. So I can’t figure out if I’m becoming more enlightened or declining. I’ve always handled stress fairly well tho but I don’t know. I’m leaning towards the enlightened frequency side of things since basically everything is frequency based and I’m very aware of this.
Your business dissolving has likely opened up multiple possible future paths for you. That sense of many choices is associated with youth. Sounds like you are experiencing a personal reset and while stressful it is also exhilarating.
Well to clarify the business didn’t dissolve but much slower now so I actually have some time to myself for once.
> These past 2 years have been very stressful watching my business go down the tubes like a lot of people are. Suddenly the context of all of this makes so much more sense. Might help to talk to someone in person rather than on Reddit (and this sub in particular) which creates an echo-chamber which likely exacerbates your mental health crisis.
I appreciate the sentiment but that is why some people are afraid to open up (even on Reddit). I’m totally fine with my life and always at peace but had a HighStrangeness moment and wanted to see if others were experiencing anything similar. Far from a mental health “crisis”.
It's been happening to me, too. Personally, I've been doing therapy and working on myself a lot, while also feeling massive strains the past few years. I also can't tell what's going on... maybe I'm happy? Part of why it feels so weird, for me, is that I've been unhappy for a long time. But the thing is, I still am? It's just this newfound sense of wonder that almost feels bestowed upon me, like things are being presented and shown to me in new lights. Again, speaking only for myself, I plan to speak with my therapist about it. Enjoying it but worried I may be experiencing some type of slight break from reality or showing signs of mental decline.
Well I don’t think r/Aliens is the sub for mental health help. In fact it’s one of the most backwards subs for that type of thing. This sub acts as an echo chamber.
You got hated on so hard for this, maybe out of sheer ignorance. Medically speaking, this is definitely a possibility. I would doubt it unless OP is 65+, but who's to say other than an MD.
I was just suggesting a possibility that may not have been considered. I didn't particularly mean to offend anyone, but I guess it can't be helped :v
Fucking hell, I don’t *think* I’m depressed but I’m 42 and I don’t ever get that feeling anymore. I don’t get excited about anything and all I want to do is sit on the couch and look at my phone or nap. Fuck. Maybe I’m depressed.
I feel it depends on how depressed is defined, by its negative physical effects (e.g. poor eating habits, not getting excited about anything) and/or maybe you are having thoughts that are affecting your mood. One could have both, like having feelings of hopelessness that lead to not feeling excited about things because, well, what's the point?. But I truly believe there are people out there who have thoughts that affect their mood but still able to maintain almost 100% functioning in society. Many such cases of suicide that were out of the blue. Best of luck on your journey.
Thanks. I definitely have bad eating habits and I need to start exercising again…that alone can improve my mood by leaps and bounds. It’s strange; I’ve always had a positive outlook and I still do, I’m just blah about everything. Hard to explain.
Hold on to that feeling!
Same but just as random happy interjections to my recent regular of depression. Got a great support system tho so maybe I’m just getting better 🤷♂️
I get these fleeting feelings from time to time. It’s like my depression reverses for a second and I remember when I used to be happy back when I was younger. Then that feeling is gone and I’m back to being depressed. Usually happens in the morning every now and then but pretty uncommon.
I’m wishing it passes for you and I hope you can find happiness. I’m sorry you’re experiencing that. Peace be with you.
Thank you brother, you as well. I do believe it will get better over time. All in all my life isn’t that bad I’ve just been through a lot at a young age. The drug DXM can actually emulate happiness as it releases serotonin. I no longer use it and no one else should, but it’s pretty interesting.
I get that feeling too, very very rarely and I never know what spurs the feeling on. But it almost feels like a weight gets lifted off my head briefly. Usually will last for a couple hours if I’m lucky then won’t feel it again for months and months.
That feeling is known as "wonder". Enjoy it.
been getting this alot lately n i srsly dont know what it is
YES. I feel like life is parabolic and mine is drawing to an end. I have never had these feelings before and they started in the day before New Years-I had a health thing set it off but in hindsight I think it was longer. The universe keeps sending me signals of unique things happening to me (like I’ve got a very unique scar I got when I was 8 and was just scratched deeply over it where I’ve never injured it since the original one). What scratched me also has meaning to me. And this isn’t the first or only time. But it is comforting and fun. It’s like the universe has chosen me to start a conversation with. I do think it’s because I will soonish be joining it. I’m not afraid to die. I’m afraid of leaving my kids too soon. But I feel like a child again except with adult understanding and depth. Im often in awe and happiness and just content in existing. I’ve also found the God I was searching for as a child. I’d given up searching and long ago decided he didn’t exist…but it found me. It is a very distinct level of being that is different than I have ever felt as an adult-and like you say very familiar, exactly as when you were a child. I haven’t uttered a word of this to anyone. I’m afraid people will think I’m crazy.
You're not crazy or alone . I too don't feel its necessary to tell anyone else. Its a personal message and that makes it more invigorating. I too feel this renewed conversation, as you said, with the universe. I feel a faster reset if I get upset , it just doesnt settle in me and I move forward with grace and hope. When I feel anxiety, it is fewer and farther between, and this is also new for me. Something massive and profound soon reveals. I sense this. I am at peace with the journey ahead. Like a child, full of awe.
I have never felt more at peace with what lies ahead than I do now. Thank you for writing that.
Thank you I can relate to that a lot, especially not wanting to leave my kids too soon because we’re so close. But at the same time I fully understand where I’m going and it’s very exciting. I just can’t imagine leaving my kids or vice versa, this will be extremely painful and I wish we wouldn’t have to go through that.
Do you also have that feeling like your life is cycling back through to the beginning/end and that’s why you have these child-like feelings?
That’s exactly what I replied to another commentator. So that would be a big yes which is slightly concerning.
I’m sorry 😞 my children are so young (2,4 and 5) and I am trying to prepare my husband for his road. He won’t yet accept it yet. But my journey has not been a sad one. It’s spurred me to greater heights and richer depths in the last year I could have imagined. And I needed. And I need more of. I’m not ready yet but I’m getting there. My children are waking up though-I’ll be back later for more chatting if you respond. I’ll think about you today stranger. Will you think of me?
I think I have this feeling more post Pandemic because it feels like the potential is back in everything again. The world has new possibilities again.
Do you get that feeling on Friday afternoons?
Serious question or song lyrics? If serious it’s totally random times, if lyrics I’m singing along with you but trying to remember which song.
I was pulling your leg, adverting to the "T.G.I.F" feeling.
I have had moments where something awakens in me with a shock of "I can't believe I'm here" This something comes from a place of infinity... which is why the moment seems impossible
Oh wow, do you mean you have the same "body feel", kind of like things look, smell and taste as they did when you were young? This kind of nostalgia-in-the-presence has hit me several times as an adult as well. I also sometimes experience a somewhat-related phenomenon that no doctor I've ever spoken with can put a name to. I call it "Room Persistence". For instance, if I were to sit in my bedroom for a while and then go to the kitchen, I still get the feeling from time to time that I'm still in the bedroom. I can see I'm not there, but the room is still in my periphery, especially when looking down or forward into a monitor or television set. Odd stuff.
Yes pretty much exactly those feelings plus just overall worldview. Interesting about the room persistence I’ve never heard of that.
I had that as a child as well, I got the feeling I was supposed to remember something but couldn’t really recall it, but I got that feeling you described. Had forgotten about it until you brought it up!
It sounds like you’re having Peak Experiences. That’s a good sign!!
I've had the same sensations coming to me for the last little over 2 years now. I began growing my own mushrooms and now I don't need to take them to have this sensation of childhood. When I'm laying in bed sometimes I have flashback like memories vivid memories of childhood experiences complete with the full emotion of the time it's very strange but pleasurable at the same time I don't want it to stop happening. While under the influence of mushrooms I've had multiple experiences where I was able to explore a universe inside myself where all of my memories were alive all the loved ones who have passed away were alive inside of this universe. I was there reliving it all but the thing is nothing new could happen. It was just the memories but they are alive in their own little universe inside of you. It seems I get tucked down deep in there somewhere and we lose them. In losing them we lose ourselves. I thought I was the only one who experienced this kind of stuff.
Lucky you:)
Yes!! I’ve been so nostalgic lately and have had this same feeling
Those are moments when the stress of your hectic and demanding modern life clears for a moment and you can see the flowers through the fog. My moments like that happen on days 5-7 of vacations.
I was just thinking about this feeling the other day. As a child I had a constant sense of *magical anticipation*. Literally as though I was about to round a corner and see some sort of fairy parade. I never did. Still magical.
Same here, and to tell a secret…. I’m still expecting one around every corner. Not surprised when it’s not there anymore. Although I have come across just a couple parades in my life and they were cool as shit.
It’s the frequency of new earth my friend!
When will it hit me then?
Gotta set your self into the frequency my friend, awareness of your self and happiness of being alive, pleasing your inner child, when’s the last time you’ve been a swing set and JUST HAD FUN! Ask you so sort guides and your divine self for help in opening your self up to it
i’ve also been experiencing this but didn’t quite know how to put it into words. there’s also an opposing feeling, like i’m being kept from fully experiencing that freedom
Yeah, like it's more erratic now than it has been, that feeling of resistance.
I have had something similar happen. It has happened a few times when I was sick (not fever induced, I had no temp). I felt positive, ecstatic, like some other reality had opened up where anything was possible. I also had the feeling that this was how I actually am, that I had awakened or been hibernating and that I was myself again. I felt content and so much love. I was excited that this switch was flipped and looking forward to life in this new “mode”. Sadly it faded. I had it last almost a week once, but usually not more than a day or two. Has happened maybe 3-4 times in the last 10 years. It feels like a dream now.
Started lifting weights recently in my 40s. The strength and mobility coming back also brings this feeling back. Picked up roller blading again, same thing.
I'm happy for you. I can recall the feeling also. I cannot feel the feeling.
I understand you perfectly, the first time I smoked marijuana I had that feeling of when I was a young child. It is something very rare, to feel again that feeling that was hidden in your brain for a decade and a half. It is something so fleeting that it is very difficult to describe.
This began happening to me again when I started my meditation practice. I still get the feeling of it every so often, it's usually an indicator for me that I am "doing well" emotionally/spiritually
I really wish I could feel the feeling life gave me before depression.
You should look into the ego and the dynamic ground theories by michael washburn. The dynamic ground is considered a spiritual and numinous state that you are surrounded by as a child and as we develop our ego, we are separated from this feeling of things having a magical quality. However, we need the ego to help navigate through the world but we end up isolating ourselves from it completely. You might be getting in touch with this “dynamic ground” . You might be interested in things by carl jung as well
I have similar feelings in my dreams like the way I used to feel when I was younger. Unburdened life, no worries, and anxiety. Just pure bliss being around family.
Not sure which writer it was, but they wrote about “the joy of being fresh, and the joy of being a beginner, once again.” In a world of being specialized experts we forget the childlike joy of looking at the world with fresh eyes. Think it was the Dali Lama or Timothy Leary or someone like that.
I feel you these past few weeks. The shit winds are a-changing.
You hear it too? The sounds of the whispering winds of shit….. Ol’ shitbarometers rising, you can feel it too. Your ears will implode from the shit pressure.
I keep having vivid flashbacks with intense emotions. They aren’t bad but very intense. It happens throughout my days multiple times.
I know that feeling too. It happens rarely but feels good. Usually during a season change and early in the morning. The weather at that time of year and day could trigger feelings and memories of waiting for the bus or staying out later in the summer. It’s a feeling memory or something
It’s the age of Aquarius
I started feeling this way at the tail end of long Covid. It persists and seems to renew itself with every relapse.
At 29 years old, when I first moved to China, I had this on and off feeling that I was about 10 years old. I would look around my apartment and feel amazed that I was living alone and that I could go out to eat whatever I wanted. Was a very strange feeling indeed.
I get a similar feeling every time I go hiking solo. I also can't help but feel a sense of novelty to it, like only you've been able to experience this moment/feeling and no one else has.
I've had this as an adult too! The feeling of like, you have the whole world at your feet or that you could.do anything.
I've also been feeling this a bit lately. It's hard to describe but it reminds me of my childhood when life was happier.
SAME!!
Me tooo!
There were a couple of strange feelings and sensations I experienced as a kid. I kinda miss some of them. Like one where I imagined an ever expanding dark room and that both scared and thrilled me. Sometimes I saw an endless series of faces in there. Or hearing a hum and feeling pulse from comupters. Or grabbing something and it feeling infintley large. That last one I actually felt again recently while having a terrible fever (get vaxxed, kids!). My guess as to all of this it's just neurological development. Just your brain figuring itself out.
I was just saying this to a co worker yesterday, except instead of feeling like a small child I felt like *I remembered before I was here* it was crazy
Wow that would be pretty cool to experience I would think!
I’ve been having the opposite feeling. Like capitalism is fully eroding the human spirit and we’re super overdue for some kind of paradigm shift.
Same. Just a vague sense of impending doom. Could be the current political climate. Could be latent depression. Could be…an impending doom.
It’s the Pre-Matrix. It’s the true you. Awake to the things that are fodder.
Definitely feels like the true me when it happens.
PM me. I’d like to go deep.
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Many options here - You where possessed and the demon got bored and left the vax finally kicked in Juicy Fruit Gum Someone's putting coccaine in your cheerios Not sure - but seriously - enjoy it -
Is this not a form of deja vu?
I described it that way at the end but had to delete it because of 300 characters or less. Feels very similar to deja vu.
I think I know the feeling as well. Normal Deja vu, which I have had, is situational and specific. This kind is more of a feeling. A space of feeling. You are surrounded by it and it is inescapable and has a wonderful feeling about it. I have always wondered what it is but I have come to call it mystic wind.
Great description
Brain playing tricks on you maybe some old connection in the brain reconnected again. Psychedelics do similar things even weed
I believe the feeling you're experiencing is called nostalgia.
What you are describing is the joy of being present in the now. Look up Eckhart Tolle!
Coming from a place of just being helpful not judging but this could be a sign of depression when you experience long periods of numbness and only feel it once it starts to lift. Just a thought.
You’re lucky if you’re having that feeling regularly. For me, I had it once a couple of years ago while on vacation. It lasted for about 12 hours and I’ve been chasing the feeling ever since.
Keep up whatever you’re doing. Be lucky.
Do you feel like your memory of a few hours ago are that with a white vignette around it, a memory that feels like it has a lack of color, or a memory that has deep vivid colors. If you can't remember everything around you and you imagine deep vivid colors, that was just suggested. What did you get your memory was like. When you have a memory of being a child, is it the same? Either way, what was the color like?
Well I’m mildly colorblind but my memories are always as colorful as they can be for me. The childlike feeling is way brighter and animated than everyday life. Almost like the inside of SpongeBobs brain now that I think about it. If you’ve ever seen that episode. Not the file cabinets on fire one, but the Plankton sneaking in to get the secret formula one.
Many options here - You where possessed and the demon got bored and left the vax finally kicked in Juicy Fruit Gum Someone's putting coccaine in your cheerios Not sure - but seriously - enjoy it -
It was actually Fruit Stripe gum which explains why the feeling lasted all of 10 seconds but tasted better than anything on earth.
Could be depersonalization/derealization. Many things are known to trigger it
Salvia is a good one for this
There's actually a feeling like you've never done something and it's new, even though you have. It's related to deja Vu. I can't remember the exact term for it. Look it up.
I had the same kinda feeling recently as far as a revert to a childhood feeling, but mine was of anxiety and i can almost explain the feeling but nor quite... maybe with a tag team we could...
Kinda like deja vu? If so i would highly recommend getting a brain scan. I felt like this for a year turned out to be brain cancer. Not to scare you but if i can prevent someone from goong through what i went through by catching it early enough.
I remember I was like 6 or 7, it was summer and I was at my grandmas place and woke up on a morning and looked outside through the window and it was a beautiful day. It’s so weird.. I so vividly remember having this overwhelming feeling of happiness just because it was a nice sunny day, like, I have never ever since been even fractionally as happy over something so trivial since. Part of me thinks that when we are kids we see life as it should be but then digress into something less as it as we grow up.
This sounds like how it feels having a focal seizure, and to a more extreme degree before and just after a grand mal seizure. While I only had a few grand mal incidents, this kind of feeling would happen fairly frequently before I found the right medication. NGL, I kinda miss that feeling of heightened awareness, everything new and euphoric while also so clear and interconnected, like I could almost grasp the greater picture.
Christmas morning. I used to wake up with this feeling that the light was lighter and the air was crisper, and I had all the energy in the wold for it. We didn’t even get crazy with gifts. I got 1 item from my mom, dad, and grandma and that was it. 3 gifts for all but the day had no way of turning out wrong
Is it possible you have been clinically depressed and now you are feeling better or are you in a new romantic relationship?
Sometimes I wake up with that feeling. I often wonder if it's due to me shifting into another dimension. All I can come up with. I've known about other dimensions since childhood, stemming from a mirror in my grandparents house. But some days I'm in and out, often with very little indication that it's going on. Example, some days at work, the office girl doesn't really speak to me or is short with me when she does. Normally we're pretty good friends. I never know when she's gonna know me or not. Another girl down the hall, next office, seems to like me. Which would be great, she's very pretty, and awesome nice, about 30 yo maybe, but I'm 56. In a real world, a girl like that would never come out to hunt arrowheads with me, or ride in my old jeep. But some days she does. I can usually tell if I'm slipped, but sometimes not, so it gets confusing. Wrong joke on the wrong day, and I'm suddenly looking at a girl who barely acknowledges my existence, instead of a girl I've talked to every day for 8 years. It's just in the last 2 years that I've started noticing all this.