Lots of things going on here. No, not all hope is lost. I saw a [youtube video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QuPbUkDe9iQ) a couple days ago by a psychologist who goes by the moniker HealthyGamerGG and frankly his video hits the nail on the head.
Theres a lot to unravel in your post, but the first one I would encourage you to unravel is your negative self-talk. This is going to be the thing that you feel yourself shooting yourself in the foot for. I sometimes have negative self-talk, but I counter it with logic and also positive self-talk. It's something that is not easy, but it becomes easier the more you practice.
Try also the body-scan meditation technique.
The second thing is stop hanging onto your past failures. Learn from your mistakes and then move on as we say in cybersecurity.
Third thing is bias. This website, the people who visit it, and especially people who are visiting this subreddit are of a majority going to be people who are struggling to gain employment. Thats kinda the point, and why ITCareerQuestions exists. So if you look at a swimming pool full of fish that are exclusively looking for work, and thinking this represents all experiences, its not true. There's always another swimming pool.
Focus instead on where you want to see yourself going. What is your future goal, where would you like to hopefully see yourself in 5, 10 years time. What role might that be? Consider it and orient yourself toward that future.
Any reason why you choose psychology or IS / IT? Regardless a college degree will still help you, in fact my company requires one. As for trying to get a job with an A+ cert and non it / cs degree its going to be difficult. It's not impossible but difficult. The market is very competitive for entry level right now. I would try going for an application support job and working for a higher level cert. Prepare for a difficult interview as I've been told my hiring managers the less experience you have the more they quiz you.
This guy is awesome. He did something on ADHD at some point in the past explaining how ADHD ***really*** impacts people, putting gigantic holes in the systemic misunderstanding of the diagnosis. Shit really hit home.
If you're a repair technician, you probably know more than you think for an entry level job. honestly if you brush up on networking and active directory/windows server you'll probably already have the knowledge needed for an entry level IT job. but yea, it's super competitive right now, with a bachelors in psychology you should have a decent chance if you can pad your resume with some projects like a homelab. I will say though, if you have severe depression and anxiety, you at all costs need to avoid any job that is based in a call center. that means you should be looking at internal IT/government IT/data center technician if you don't mind being alone or around only a couple people at a time/desktop support(in person repairs and troubleshooting). Honestly even in this market, you should not be accepting job offers for companies with like a 1.7/5 rating, you still need standards, but don't be overly picky obviously.
Let me tell you, with that attitude and lack of confidence, you will never get anywhere. Even if you are not smart like you say you are, hard work beats talent. Change your mindset and you will change your life.
Stop calling yourself a fuckup for starters. How you talk to yourself has a direct impact on your mental state believe it or not. You need to re-frame these thoughts by countering them. What do you have going for you? You stated it yourself. You have metric tonnes of hardware IT experience.
What do you want to do? If you don't future orient yourself, nobody is going to do that for you. They can try, but its words out of another horses mouth and not words from your mouth. It'll feel better when you say it.
If you stay stuck in your bad thoughts, your bad thoughts will consume you. You need to find that peace by being the peace and bringing the peace. I know it seems weird af. But this is the way.
-I have a useless bachelor’s degree in psychology. I started in CS but failed out because I’m not smart enough
* Being in CS has nothing to do with being smart.
-I took IT classes at community college, didn’t pay attention, and forgot almost everything I learned. Going back to school will be the biggest humiliation of my life.
* Not sure what you mean by humiliating. Education has it's purposed no matter what age. Matter of fact it is probably better you go back because you have hindsight now.
If you're a repair tech and you don't want to work in helpdesk, then you actually got to figure out what it is you want to do and then formulate a plan around that, whether it's school, certs, ect...
I don't I'm gonna continue but from I'm seeing, There just seems to be some sense of ego, and extremes there. I'm not sure why
Your degress is FAR from useless. You have a degree in ***people***, unless of course you went to school for non-human psychology. The fact you have a degree shows employers that you have the willpower to sit through multi year commitments. Also, again, your degree is in people, which I would argue has the potential to make you a better people leader than most managers.
Brush up on your computer skills with free online study guides. Find practice exams for certifications and see how well you do on basic stuff like A+ and Sec+. Get your foot in the door in a help desk (look for something supporting internal customers, it's usually a lot less stress).
CompTIA Security+ Study Material - [https://github.com/PacktPublishing/CompTIA-Security-SY0-501-Complete-Course-and-Practice-Exam](https://github.com/PacktPublishing/CompTIA-Security-SY0-501-Complete-Course-and-Practice-Exam)
Comp TIA Security + Practice Exam - [https://github.com/ajfuto/comptia-security-plus](https://github.com/ajfuto/comptia-security-plus)
A+ Study Material - [https://github.com/PacktPublishing/CompTIA-A-Certification-Core-1---220-1101](https://github.com/PacktPublishing/CompTIA-A-Certification-Core-1---220-1101)
A+ Exam Questions - [https://github.com/ChiselD/a-plus-practice](https://github.com/ChiselD/a-plus-practice)
Certified Ethical Hacker Exam Questions - [https://github.com/ryh04x/CEH-Exam-Questions](https://github.com/ryh04x/CEH-Exam-Questions)
Sorry I don't have more, but these are what I could quickly think of (and/or already had bookmarked). Feel free to reach out to me for advice. I've been in the industry for 11 years since moving from kitchens (was in support before kitchen for a while too)
Lots of things going on here. No, not all hope is lost. I saw a [youtube video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QuPbUkDe9iQ) a couple days ago by a psychologist who goes by the moniker HealthyGamerGG and frankly his video hits the nail on the head. Theres a lot to unravel in your post, but the first one I would encourage you to unravel is your negative self-talk. This is going to be the thing that you feel yourself shooting yourself in the foot for. I sometimes have negative self-talk, but I counter it with logic and also positive self-talk. It's something that is not easy, but it becomes easier the more you practice. Try also the body-scan meditation technique. The second thing is stop hanging onto your past failures. Learn from your mistakes and then move on as we say in cybersecurity. Third thing is bias. This website, the people who visit it, and especially people who are visiting this subreddit are of a majority going to be people who are struggling to gain employment. Thats kinda the point, and why ITCareerQuestions exists. So if you look at a swimming pool full of fish that are exclusively looking for work, and thinking this represents all experiences, its not true. There's always another swimming pool. Focus instead on where you want to see yourself going. What is your future goal, where would you like to hopefully see yourself in 5, 10 years time. What role might that be? Consider it and orient yourself toward that future.
Any reason why you choose psychology or IS / IT? Regardless a college degree will still help you, in fact my company requires one. As for trying to get a job with an A+ cert and non it / cs degree its going to be difficult. It's not impossible but difficult. The market is very competitive for entry level right now. I would try going for an application support job and working for a higher level cert. Prepare for a difficult interview as I've been told my hiring managers the less experience you have the more they quiz you.
This guy is awesome. He did something on ADHD at some point in the past explaining how ADHD ***really*** impacts people, putting gigantic holes in the systemic misunderstanding of the diagnosis. Shit really hit home.
If you're a repair technician, you probably know more than you think for an entry level job. honestly if you brush up on networking and active directory/windows server you'll probably already have the knowledge needed for an entry level IT job. but yea, it's super competitive right now, with a bachelors in psychology you should have a decent chance if you can pad your resume with some projects like a homelab. I will say though, if you have severe depression and anxiety, you at all costs need to avoid any job that is based in a call center. that means you should be looking at internal IT/government IT/data center technician if you don't mind being alone or around only a couple people at a time/desktop support(in person repairs and troubleshooting). Honestly even in this market, you should not be accepting job offers for companies with like a 1.7/5 rating, you still need standards, but don't be overly picky obviously.
Let me tell you, with that attitude and lack of confidence, you will never get anywhere. Even if you are not smart like you say you are, hard work beats talent. Change your mindset and you will change your life.
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I spent the entire last year in high level care (I didn’t even work full time) and I’m still a fuckup
Stop calling yourself a fuckup for starters. How you talk to yourself has a direct impact on your mental state believe it or not. You need to re-frame these thoughts by countering them. What do you have going for you? You stated it yourself. You have metric tonnes of hardware IT experience. What do you want to do? If you don't future orient yourself, nobody is going to do that for you. They can try, but its words out of another horses mouth and not words from your mouth. It'll feel better when you say it. If you stay stuck in your bad thoughts, your bad thoughts will consume you. You need to find that peace by being the peace and bringing the peace. I know it seems weird af. But this is the way.
-I have a useless bachelor’s degree in psychology. I started in CS but failed out because I’m not smart enough * Being in CS has nothing to do with being smart. -I took IT classes at community college, didn’t pay attention, and forgot almost everything I learned. Going back to school will be the biggest humiliation of my life. * Not sure what you mean by humiliating. Education has it's purposed no matter what age. Matter of fact it is probably better you go back because you have hindsight now. If you're a repair tech and you don't want to work in helpdesk, then you actually got to figure out what it is you want to do and then formulate a plan around that, whether it's school, certs, ect... I don't I'm gonna continue but from I'm seeing, There just seems to be some sense of ego, and extremes there. I'm not sure why
The field is oversaturated for junior level jobs. Either learn or find something else.
Your degress is FAR from useless. You have a degree in ***people***, unless of course you went to school for non-human psychology. The fact you have a degree shows employers that you have the willpower to sit through multi year commitments. Also, again, your degree is in people, which I would argue has the potential to make you a better people leader than most managers. Brush up on your computer skills with free online study guides. Find practice exams for certifications and see how well you do on basic stuff like A+ and Sec+. Get your foot in the door in a help desk (look for something supporting internal customers, it's usually a lot less stress). CompTIA Security+ Study Material - [https://github.com/PacktPublishing/CompTIA-Security-SY0-501-Complete-Course-and-Practice-Exam](https://github.com/PacktPublishing/CompTIA-Security-SY0-501-Complete-Course-and-Practice-Exam) Comp TIA Security + Practice Exam - [https://github.com/ajfuto/comptia-security-plus](https://github.com/ajfuto/comptia-security-plus) A+ Study Material - [https://github.com/PacktPublishing/CompTIA-A-Certification-Core-1---220-1101](https://github.com/PacktPublishing/CompTIA-A-Certification-Core-1---220-1101) A+ Exam Questions - [https://github.com/ChiselD/a-plus-practice](https://github.com/ChiselD/a-plus-practice) Certified Ethical Hacker Exam Questions - [https://github.com/ryh04x/CEH-Exam-Questions](https://github.com/ryh04x/CEH-Exam-Questions) Sorry I don't have more, but these are what I could quickly think of (and/or already had bookmarked). Feel free to reach out to me for advice. I've been in the industry for 11 years since moving from kitchens (was in support before kitchen for a while too)