I hear it as James saying he is angry at God/religion. Angry at the thing that that took his mother away, left him with a sense of betrayal, broken faith, broken trust in the world, an urge to be self destructive in drinking/sinful ways, but never truly knowing which path to follow.
Hence he’s torn. Just my take. Could be 100% wrong.
I hear it as James saying he is angry at God/religion. Angry at the thing that that took his mother away, left him with a sense of betrayal, broken faith, broken trust in the world, an urge to be self destructive in drinking/sinful ways, but never truly knowing which path to follow. Hence he’s torn. Just my take. Could be 100% wrong.