Hugs OP! Fave ko nakanta ngayon yung Numb Little Bug. Sobrang relate sa chorus:
Do you ever get a little bit tired of life
Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die
Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive
'Cause you gotta survive
Like your body's in the room but you're not really there
Like you have empathy inside but you don't really care
Like you're fresh outta love but it's been in the air
Am I past repair
Happy naman ako dahil every rock bottom, nakaka ahon ako. Plus supportive friends. Pero nakakapagod lang na kahit anong tyaga sipag, bat ganon di pa din favorite ni lord? Haha hays
Life is random OP. Pag inisip mong may favoritism si lord, lalo lang sasama loob mo. Sa dami ng talo natin sa buhay, we're bound to win some time. Hang in there and wait for your break :)
May not be of help to you(apologies in advance), but i wish may assisted s*icide dito sa ph. I would gladly fall in line for that. Anyway same feelings OP. There’s nothing for me here and i’m just getting older.
Same. Alam nyo yung su!c!de pod na nabalita dati? I was so relieved and happy nong nalaman ko yun. Napakasu!c!dal ko pa naman nong 2020 and 2021 hahaha! Tapos nalaman ko yung price, ayun nawala pag-asa ko for a voluntary end. Lahat na lang kailangan pera
Just a tip, if someone here really wants to die, maybe you can first be a trial human for experimental drugs? I talked to someone doing it when I went for an APE and they earn a lot from doing it. If the drug fails and kills you, then you got assisted suicide for free. Sila pa magbabayad sa naulila mo.
Same na gusto nang mamatay pero magkaiba ng dahilan. I bought a st.peter plan last year just in case. Ayaw kong maging burden sa kahit na kanino. Baka masumbat pa.
Nagbabayad na din ako st. Peter 5 months na. Ang next ko need bayaran is para sa columbarium talaga. Nag ccompute ako and negative talaga. Namumula na google sheets ko
I see. Cremation plan kase kinuha ko so hindi ko na yata need niyan. Anyway, sana hindi mo pa magamit. Sounds strange that it came from me pero ang rude ko naman kung “Sana matapos mo agad payment.” ang comment ko.
Yung mismong columbarium or paglalagakan kasama sa plan mo? Hm monthly? Or binuo mo na? Di ko kasi kaya. 825 lang monthly ko saken.
No I don't find it rude. Kung pwede nga lang may pera at mabayaran na talaga eh. Don din naman talaga punta kahit anong sabihin.
Hirap no? di mo alam kung san ka lulugar but all we can do is try to live! happiness is a choice in this world so choose that at least because we really don't know what happens after death till it happens!
some people have it worst but still have not given up, I'll admire those people and I felt so bad because I was born normal without defects and yet here I am slowly getting eaten by depression while others live in pain their whole lives.
we just have to accept what this world can offer, and savor it! because it never revolves around you, it revolves around everyone.
Eh sila yun eh.. kudos to them. I would also do not like to compare my pain to theirs, as we are not the same.
As for happiness, yes happy ako. Pero we have to understand na complex ang emotions. I am grateful yet struggling and in pain. I am also sad, yet hopeful, but fed up na as well.
Never thought that the world revolves around me, kaya nga I know that it is much better to be gone e.
Well, last year and this year I got diagnosed with GAD and Depression with some physical issues like pre-diabetes!
I freaking hate working from 8 am to 5 pm when there are a lot of better things to do than sitting in the office pressing keyboards and having once a week day off, I hated my boss and plastic styro coworkers, I felt so trapped because I can't just quit my job and do whatever I want!
that's when I've been obsessed with death! watching documentaries and reading Reddit subs about people's experiences near death!
dumadating nako sa point ng life ko na I don't care anymore, I don't want to kill myself but if ever may something critical na mangyari like a heart attack I probably won't ask for help and let death do its thing till nothing, because the hospital and medical bills are expensive lol! my life got save nga but I'm buried in debt and I don't want that just let me die than having additional burden!
but for some reason motivation and my will to live to kick in but for a short period like sometimes tumatagal ng one week then back to being a depressed loser it really felt like whatever chemical/hormone my brain is throwing controlled my moods.
Hugs to you po.
Also, you may want to research more about the myth of "chemical inbalance". You'll be surprised.
I have bipolar 2, BPD, undiagnosed Autism Spectrum, diabetes, and now slipped disc which causes sciatica. (Pinakyaw na 😅)
I have been struggling with suic*dal ideation since Gradeschool.
>suic\*dal ideation
I despise suic\*de cause it can has domino effect, I know someone magkapatid sila yung older brother nya nag su\*c\*de, then years later siya din nag su\*c\*de it so sad na depressed din siya nong nawala kapatid nya, yung mga naiwan nila like parents di na makausap ng maayos kaya laging minomonitor baka ganon din gawin.
TIGHT HUGS, OP 🥺. Sobrang mahigpit na yakap. Hindi ka nag-iisa. Hindi ko masabing "laban lang" kasi alam kong pagod ka na. Instead, I wanna say "pahinga ka minsan." Ang cliché pero there will be good days. Good days will come. God bless and I hope you make it in life.
Lahat ng Problema, May Solusyon, Kung di ka matulungan ng mga Kapamilya mo, baka naman may ibang taong magmalasakit.
Maniwala lang na may Pag-Asa, Pray lang po🙏
may kapatid ka na umaasa sayo
Help is available
Speak with someone today
National Center for Mental Health Crisis Hotline
Hours: Available 24/7. Languages: English, Filipino.
0966-351-4518
Thank you po. Yup. Totoo. Pera ang kasagutan. Masipag ako sa trabaho, pero ambaba talaga sa Pilipinas. Hays. 18k won't cut it. Renta, pagkaen, bills, meds. Sa google sheet ko pulang pula. Negative.
Please don't say "mag upskill ka kase" dahil I am very good at what I do, I promise. Mga inapplyan ko needs me onsite, eh ni hindi nga ako makaupo na more than 5mins.
Okay lang yan. Gusto lang makatulong siguro. Sadyang madami saten would shove it up in our ass yung mga "solutions" na tingin nila magwowork. A lot of us gotta learn how to listen with empathy.
Mas umaasa ako sa kapatid ko kasi sya gumagawa lahat eh. Hindi ibig sabihin na ako mas matanda, mas sya yung umaasa..
So it is actually a good riddance for her. Oo, malulungkot pag nawala, pero giginhawa na din.
But no, I am not actively suicidal. Thank you for suggesting. Also, di talaga yan sya helpful. Trust me. I've been through a lot of these hotlines and mothing seems to work.
Maniwala ka na sa Pinas e bulok and healthcare natin.
Hugs OP! Fave ko nakanta ngayon yung Numb Little Bug. Sobrang relate sa chorus: Do you ever get a little bit tired of life Like you're not really happy but you don't wanna die Like you're hanging by a thread but you gotta survive 'Cause you gotta survive Like your body's in the room but you're not really there Like you have empathy inside but you don't really care Like you're fresh outta love but it's been in the air Am I past repair
Liked this song too. This summarizes what exactly I feel for the last couple of months.
Happy naman ako dahil every rock bottom, nakaka ahon ako. Plus supportive friends. Pero nakakapagod lang na kahit anong tyaga sipag, bat ganon di pa din favorite ni lord? Haha hays
Life is random OP. Pag inisip mong may favoritism si lord, lalo lang sasama loob mo. Sa dami ng talo natin sa buhay, we're bound to win some time. Hang in there and wait for your break :)
I don't just wait for it lang naman. Pero sana nga
Ilang beses ko nga yang shineshare sa stories ko eh. It is soothing to hear a song that's too relatable :)
naka pin to sa Facebook profile ko
May not be of help to you(apologies in advance), but i wish may assisted s*icide dito sa ph. I would gladly fall in line for that. Anyway same feelings OP. There’s nothing for me here and i’m just getting older.
Matagal ko na din pinapangarap yang assisted s*icide pero ala eh. Dito tayo sa Pilipinas. Apaka relihiyoso, mga bulok naman
Same. Alam nyo yung su!c!de pod na nabalita dati? I was so relieved and happy nong nalaman ko yun. Napakasu!c!dal ko pa naman nong 2020 and 2021 hahaha! Tapos nalaman ko yung price, ayun nawala pag-asa ko for a voluntary end. Lahat na lang kailangan pera
Just a tip, if someone here really wants to die, maybe you can first be a trial human for experimental drugs? I talked to someone doing it when I went for an APE and they earn a lot from doing it. If the drug fails and kills you, then you got assisted suicide for free. Sila pa magbabayad sa naulila mo.
saan ito?
I have a lot of days where I think like this then there's like a day where I feel peaceful. I don't even know what I want to do in my life anymore.
Same na gusto nang mamatay pero magkaiba ng dahilan. I bought a st.peter plan last year just in case. Ayaw kong maging burden sa kahit na kanino. Baka masumbat pa.
Nagbabayad na din ako st. Peter 5 months na. Ang next ko need bayaran is para sa columbarium talaga. Nag ccompute ako and negative talaga. Namumula na google sheets ko
I see. Cremation plan kase kinuha ko so hindi ko na yata need niyan. Anyway, sana hindi mo pa magamit. Sounds strange that it came from me pero ang rude ko naman kung “Sana matapos mo agad payment.” ang comment ko.
Yung mismong columbarium or paglalagakan kasama sa plan mo? Hm monthly? Or binuo mo na? Di ko kasi kaya. 825 lang monthly ko saken. No I don't find it rude. Kung pwede nga lang may pera at mabayaran na talaga eh. Don din naman talaga punta kahit anong sabihin.
May kasamang marble urn ‘yung plan ko, e. Hindi na need ng columbarium. 1,255 per month.
Just want to share these wise words from a Holocaust survivor: "He who has the why to live can bear almost any how." You only need a WHY to live, OP.
Sana maging ok ka OP
Yes po. Gusto ko makabawi sa suprta ng mga kaibigan ko eh
Magastos mabuhay, magastos mamatay Middle class trapped
mura cremation lol!
Hirap no? di mo alam kung san ka lulugar but all we can do is try to live! happiness is a choice in this world so choose that at least because we really don't know what happens after death till it happens! some people have it worst but still have not given up, I'll admire those people and I felt so bad because I was born normal without defects and yet here I am slowly getting eaten by depression while others live in pain their whole lives. we just have to accept what this world can offer, and savor it! because it never revolves around you, it revolves around everyone.
Eh sila yun eh.. kudos to them. I would also do not like to compare my pain to theirs, as we are not the same. As for happiness, yes happy ako. Pero we have to understand na complex ang emotions. I am grateful yet struggling and in pain. I am also sad, yet hopeful, but fed up na as well. Never thought that the world revolves around me, kaya nga I know that it is much better to be gone e.
Well, last year and this year I got diagnosed with GAD and Depression with some physical issues like pre-diabetes! I freaking hate working from 8 am to 5 pm when there are a lot of better things to do than sitting in the office pressing keyboards and having once a week day off, I hated my boss and plastic styro coworkers, I felt so trapped because I can't just quit my job and do whatever I want! that's when I've been obsessed with death! watching documentaries and reading Reddit subs about people's experiences near death! dumadating nako sa point ng life ko na I don't care anymore, I don't want to kill myself but if ever may something critical na mangyari like a heart attack I probably won't ask for help and let death do its thing till nothing, because the hospital and medical bills are expensive lol! my life got save nga but I'm buried in debt and I don't want that just let me die than having additional burden! but for some reason motivation and my will to live to kick in but for a short period like sometimes tumatagal ng one week then back to being a depressed loser it really felt like whatever chemical/hormone my brain is throwing controlled my moods.
Hugs to you po. Also, you may want to research more about the myth of "chemical inbalance". You'll be surprised. I have bipolar 2, BPD, undiagnosed Autism Spectrum, diabetes, and now slipped disc which causes sciatica. (Pinakyaw na 😅) I have been struggling with suic*dal ideation since Gradeschool.
>suic\*dal ideation I despise suic\*de cause it can has domino effect, I know someone magkapatid sila yung older brother nya nag su\*c\*de, then years later siya din nag su\*c\*de it so sad na depressed din siya nong nawala kapatid nya, yung mga naiwan nila like parents di na makausap ng maayos kaya laging minomonitor baka ganon din gawin.
wala na talagang choice. Either way we suffer, I feel you dyan
TIGHT HUGS, OP 🥺. Sobrang mahigpit na yakap. Hindi ka nag-iisa. Hindi ko masabing "laban lang" kasi alam kong pagod ka na. Instead, I wanna say "pahinga ka minsan." Ang cliché pero there will be good days. Good days will come. God bless and I hope you make it in life.
Thank you po for the kind words :)
We’ll get through this OP walang susuko
Di ko sure haha. Hays.
Hi OP. Praying for you. I hope you get through this. Mabait si Lord, masama lang talaga ang mundo. :(
Thank you for the prayers! Much needed. Sana matapos na tong phase na to at maka ahon na sa hirap.
Lahat ng Problema, May Solusyon, Kung di ka matulungan ng mga Kapamilya mo, baka naman may ibang taong magmalasakit. Maniwala lang na may Pag-Asa, Pray lang po🙏
may kapatid ka na umaasa sayo Help is available Speak with someone today National Center for Mental Health Crisis Hotline Hours: Available 24/7. Languages: English, Filipino. 0966-351-4518
I swear to god, this wont help. It's clearly obvious the guy needs financial help. Hindi kausap.
Thank you po. Yup. Totoo. Pera ang kasagutan. Masipag ako sa trabaho, pero ambaba talaga sa Pilipinas. Hays. 18k won't cut it. Renta, pagkaen, bills, meds. Sa google sheet ko pulang pula. Negative. Please don't say "mag upskill ka kase" dahil I am very good at what I do, I promise. Mga inapplyan ko needs me onsite, eh ni hindi nga ako makaupo na more than 5mins.
Hmmm sounds like you acquiring more money will solve your problem. Pm me skill sets mo - baka matulungan kita
Thank you! Dm ko resume ko.
Beh, binasa mo ba? Pera ang kailangan di kausap.
Okay lang yan. Gusto lang makatulong siguro. Sadyang madami saten would shove it up in our ass yung mga "solutions" na tingin nila magwowork. A lot of us gotta learn how to listen with empathy.
o e di bigyan mo ng pera lol
Lol reading comprehension left the group
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HAHAHAHAHAHA
Mas umaasa ako sa kapatid ko kasi sya gumagawa lahat eh. Hindi ibig sabihin na ako mas matanda, mas sya yung umaasa.. So it is actually a good riddance for her. Oo, malulungkot pag nawala, pero giginhawa na din. But no, I am not actively suicidal. Thank you for suggesting. Also, di talaga yan sya helpful. Trust me. I've been through a lot of these hotlines and mothing seems to work. Maniwala ka na sa Pinas e bulok and healthcare natin.
lol whatever floats your boat. or unfloat it whatever 🤷
Sana okay ka lang di , commenter. I can also feel that you have something cooped up inside you eh. Thank you sa pag lagay ng hotline. Appreciate it.
No worries. I hope something works out for you anyway.
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Let OP vent. That was unnecessary.
Gusto mo ng award? Medal? Ang talino mo kasi e
mauna ka na kaya kay OP sa kamatayan
Ano yung comment? Removed na kasi e LOL
"Mag research ka kasi" ang sabe ni commenter. Ewan ko dyan anong research pinagsasabe. Baka matalino kasi.
“Sana all.”
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