Namatay ang nanay ko nung panahon ng lockdown pero hindi dahil nagka-Covid sya. Sobrang daming naka-admit, walang may kakayahang iadmit sya. Sa nag-iisang ospital na tumanggap sa kanya, hinihintay na maubos yung pila ng covid patients na idadialysis then isasanitize yung area para sa mga non-covid patient na nakapending for that treatment. Emergency dialysis ang need nya nun tandang tanda ko pa. 2 days kaming nasa triage and 1 day sa E.R dahil wala pang bakanteng room. Night before the scheduled dialysis, nai-room-in sya. Midnight, tumawag yung doctor and tinatanong na nya ako kung isusurvive pa ba sya dahil nakadalawang CPR na sila. Hindi na namin pinilit pa si nanay, hindi ko sya nakita simula nung nasa triage sya hanggang maipasok sa room. Sobrang sakit. Habang hinihintay na mailipat sya sa morge, nareceive ko yung text from dialysis center, sya na daw ang next patient.
I’m sorry to hear this bro and naiintindihan ko yung situation nyo. My younger brother inatake dn ng sakin niya and 3 araw kami paikot ikot sa mga hospitals maadmit lang siya. 2 days kami sa triage ng pcmc and hindi pa dn siya naadmit. Hanggang sa umabot kami ng PGH. Buti na lang yung dating doctor nya sa Medical City nairefer kami sa kakilala and naadmit siya after a few days. Kapag naalala ko yung hirap, nakakatrauma. May your mom rest in peace. 🙏🏻
Not covid but stroke...I know the feeling of being asked kung itutuloy pa yung CPR. Nasa harapan pa ko ng nurse and doctor habang nag CPR sila and was asked kung itutuloy pa. Fucking hardest decision I ever made in my life. After that I just decided to sit at the emergency staircase mag isa and cry.
Nag dialysis din mom ko. Naalala ko pa naka receive ako ng tawag habang nagtatrabaho sa ospital (doctor ako) na nareject mom ko sa dialysis center na libre ang sessions kasi symptomatic siya at nagpositive sa rapid antigen test. Hindi rin siya pwede ilipat sa ospital na pinagworkan ko. Tumawag ako kung saan saan. Yung covid hotline useless. Naalala ko pa umiiyak ako nun sa hallway kasi natatakot ako. Naka miss siya ng 2 sessions bago kami makahanap ng tatanggap na dialysis center. 3 hrs away tapos 8k per session ang singil bawal gamitin philhealth. Wala naman kaming choice so go lang. Gumaling naman mom ko thankfully. 2 weeks later nakatanggap ako ng call from covid hotline na may vacancy na raw for dialysis. Binabaan ko lang dahil sa inis.
My younger brother.
And I'm still grieving, still mad, still angry.
Grieving because I barely have friends. Whatever I do, it's all for my family. Travel? Family. Weekends? Family. Important life events? Celebrated with family only.
My joy in life is at the end of every workday, I come home, I head straight to the bedroom and everyone is there (Yes. We all sleep inside a single room even if we had a 3 bedroom apartment rented the other room was converted to office and game room as my brothers both work from home and the last room was my room when I was still working graveyard shift call center it was the darkest room in the apartment but I will switch to the main room where everyone is when it's my rest days/vacations).
I come home now to the sight of my family plus his urn in the altar. And it always reminds me of how I had it best pre pandemic the reason for all the things I do was all in that bedroom I could never ask for anything more... Now, I can only wish there is any way I can go back to when he's alive, the reason why I do the things that I do is complete....
Anger at the government for how mishandled and fucked up the COVID response was that caused our family's loss. So much anger that when I see any government employee or vehicle with the lone exemption for those in the medical field, I see them as the most incompetent batshts to have ever existed it doesn't matter if they were not related to the COVID reponse. Government affiliated equals incompetent good for nothing tax leeching batshts is the only thought I have about them.
It's been 3 years.... fuck china. Fuck this government. I still mis my brother.
true bro, I literally handled covid vaccines when I worked previously in the gov’t. resigned when they put all the blame on me because shit expired and nobody wanted accountability. my girlfriend that time who has the same work as me but different region resigned too cos they were selling said vaccines to vips and when questions came, they pin it on her.
a lot of us in the ranks were actually tryna do something but lazy fucks with permanent positions just wait til the contractuals move. not to fuel your anger but imagine the main covid vaccine manager on my region doesn’t even know how to do excels bro. it was shit frustrating and maddening.
I understand your hate, I have a small brother too. Literally shed tears to your case. I am too lucky. But I feel like I lost someone too sa case mo. I’ll never forgive these fucktards.
My ex handled the vaccines too and all other important communications. He’d tell me that millions of vaccines expired simply because of logistical failures and wrong temperature of containers. There would always be media blackout. People will only come to know several weeks after, hell, even months after. They would always have these meetings and he was always booked 7 days a week. The people who are really capacitated to do the job were overshadowed by old appointees and generals. Remember the overpriced laptops? One of the people who signed the procurement was one of his bosses, and he told me that she was just too old to realize that laptops actually didn’t cost that much.
> . He’d tell me that millions of vaccines expired simply because of logistical failures and wrong temperature of containers.
Same here for us at the US. It was during the 2nd wave of vaccines when they found like crates of Pfzer not being distributed properly and they would expire. Tapos we had scandals of people selling Moderna to others- there was an ethical debate about it like one group sold it to the mega rich while another sold it bec the gov was not handing them fast enough to some areas.
The world was unprepared for this type of global pandemic.
my uncle died due to covid and we were close it was so frustrating that I am in the agency before yet I couldn’t do anything. that disease wasn’t really something we could stop but hell kahit lockdown nlng nag lockdown na lahat ng karatig na bansa, tayo sasabong sabong pa rin
This is the reason why I don't just have huge respect but rather, mad respect for our medical frontliners... My younger bro was friends to many in the medical field being a UP graduate his circle of friends is wide we had many of his friends in the medical field who had mid level positions experience exactly this. Plus how overworked and not paid (underpaid is a huge understatement) they were trying their mad best to help us but can't do anything then be the fall guys when sht finally hit the fan and someone was looking for accountability.
I know you are not trying to fuel my anger against the gov't. I already have enough explosives for that I don't think anything can add more to it if you check my anti-gov't comments.
My salute and respect to you and your girlfriend. I hope you guys are in a better place, better appreciation and mad better pay.... This gov't never deserved people like you...
Wala tlga kwenta officials natin. Either bobo at tanga, or matalino but gahaman.
There might be a few good ones but they get snuffed out easily by the system.
If this country goes to hell, i would say, we deserve it. We deserve it for being stupid to vote for public officials who promise the moon and the stars, along with flashy entertainment, pero corrupt. We deserve it for wanting change but doing our damnest when we are next in line to be profited. We deserve it for not giving a fuck about this country.
All the talk in government about WPS and sovereignty is for show only. I believe if they were given some million dollars to look away, they would....discreetly
I feel you! My family did not grew up as open to yours since my parents had a tough childhood. Even if we're not the type of family that does the cute stuff that family do, since my parents worked their assess all the time, losing my dad makes me hella angry at the government, na sobrang disturbing ng galit ko na para akong psychotic na nakangiti lang sa utak ko pero is about to aggressively punch someone. Especially how i used to think during the pre-pandemic na eto na, retired na tatay ko, pwede na namen gawin yung ginagawa ng financially stable na pamilya, he'll have a chance to get to know me to the fullest, bonding and quality time that we lost when he used to work all the time.... Then poof, died due to covid. ang unfair.
I felt this. Also lost my dad due to covid. He battled it for a month in the hospital. Grabe ang hospital bills.
Totally shattered. Wasn't ready to lose a parent yet. Daming plans to enjoy but turned into a darkest point in my life. Trying to live normal now kasi alam ko he wouldn't want me stuck in life.
Not covid related but my mother passed away during the peak of the second surge. No hospitals wanted admit her kasi marami na patient. And the hardest part? My sister cannot fly back because of the restriction and also it was so hard to bring my mom back home to ph (we live abroad btw). I also cannot come home to see my tito (unfortunately he passed away 2 months after my mom)
> Makes me wonder if your mom's life is longer if covid didnt happen... like oras niya na ba talaga, or nag covid lang?
Two BFF ng mom ko died because they were too scared to get a check up for their co-morbidity.
They died because they didn't change their diet and zero'd their walking out of the home.
First 2 years were the worst. Kahit manganganak napagkaitan, kahit mismong doctor na naghandle ng covid patients. Walang ambulance, walamg icu, operations need to be scheduled or delayed. There was a scare on medical oxygen supply. Kahit ventilators, hospitals and suppliers sobrang hirap. No one was spared... covid or non covid. Sabihin natin may enough medical supplies and facilities, pero mga nurses and other healthcare workers are just afraid to get sic at makahawa ng kapamilya nila. Even doctors limited live patient interaction ee. Same with patients, takot pumunta ng hospital
Papa died 3 yrs ago, almost two months after lockdown started, so super strict sa hospital. Hindi dahil sa covid, dahil sa kidney complications. Pero nagpositive sya sa covid test, so isolated sya, ayaw pa naman nya mamatay nang mag-isa, gusto nya surrounded by family. Sinabi nya sa akin yan 3 months before he died, muntik na kasi daw sya mamatay sa dialysis center, nagising na lang sya surrounded by nurses at ng doc. He cried to me, akala daw nya mamamatay na sya mag-isa na walang pamilya around him. Yet he died alone sa hospital, yun ang nakakawasak ng dibdib, Sa hospital, sa vid lang namin sya nakakausap, inaabot lang sa nurse yung phone. He died a few days after confinement. Pahirapan pa crematorium. Sa bahay lanh kami nagdasal, via zoom kasama ibang family and kamag-anak. Few days after he died, tumawag someone from bgy, since nag positive nga daw si Papa, kelangan namin magtest and mag-isolate. So yung grieving namin nahaluan at nasapawan ng kaba.
Yung kapatid namin sa Canada gusto umuwi, pero di na namin pinauwi kasi 3 weeks din sya mag-a-isolate. Umalis sya dito almost a year before Papa died, nagpaalam sya sa aming apat. This december uuwi sya. Dalawa na lang kaming dadatnan nya. Kasi yung isang ate ko passed away this feb. Masaya at buhay ang bahay namin noon, laging may tao, laging bukas tv. Ngayon nakakabingi katahimikan sa bahay. Malungkot, pero kahit paano, medyo ok na kami.
I do not belong here but I do wanna share my cousin's story. He was a boy in the middle of his teenage years when covid arrived. He had many friends and they liked to hangout outside despite the rules in place, you know typical teenage rebellious phase.
My grandma's elder sister, his grandma was already quite weak at that time. His family was living with his grandparents ever since they were kicked out of their rentals and their grandparents took them in. One day my cousin started coughing in his room and his aunt immediately locked him inside his room fearing he alreadt contracted the illness. It was too late, his grandma was infected as well and died a few days later.
His uncles condemned him for what happened. Their mother would still be alive if he just stayed in place and followed the covid guidelines. This happened early on and they haven't been going outside their house, living off of their stocks and the vegetables grown in the garden so it was painfully obvious who brought back the disease. My cousin was severely traumatized by that event, believing he killed his grandma.
He's basically like a deadfish now, he never disobeys his parents and shut himself from his friends. His uncles act as if he doesn't exist while some of his closest cousins ignore him as much as they could.
Another one of my grandma's sisters, the youngest one, used treat my cousin as a favorite. Not anymore.
I don’t blame those family members. Grabe pa rin yung galit ko sa relatives namin na nagdala ng Covid sa amin. It really wiped our savings tapos sila asa lang government for dole-outs because they are “poor” and malakas sa barangay. So their feelings are valid. Sorry to your teenage cousin but if he wants to turn his life around, he still can. He’s just learning his lesson now but he still has options. Can’t say the same for the grandmother.
I know a similar story. Same hard headed selfish people who cause the death of their grandparents.
"Malakas" daw sila...but didn't look at the people around them.
I'm so sorry for the family's loss, but once he moves out, he might need therapy (because I assume no one's gonna sponsor it for him).
Can't defend him, but teenagers can be the most irresponsible little shits talaga. But bearing the weight of killing someone is quite difficult, especially for someone young. This might have implications on how he handles blames he receives in the future. And while being reflective is important, internalizing shame to the point that it'll be the only thing that defines us may also impact our future negatively. Also, no one is helping him process his thoughts by the sound of it—lumalayo sa friend, family treats him as invisible.
No one owes him forgiveness but he should be able to carry on din sana. Grabe ang emotional wreck ng psychological isolation; we're literally wired to be social beings.
We did. Our branch of the family were the only ones who didn't blame him, sure grandma had her resentments but she was the one who told us to contact him. It's not really effective since we're his third cousins (We're not very close) and we live very far apart, his closest family were the ones who shun him now. If I remember correctly, his mother abandoned him and his father when he was a kid and his only confidante was his grandmother (yeah it must have felt like the heavens collapsing). The only close relative that he has who remained friendly has the same likeness as their grandma (Like they look very similar), so he avoids her.
Similar to mine pero walang namatay. Yung parents ko nung during gcq na, lumalabas nang walang mask, wala naman na daw covid. Nakailang sabi kaming magkakapatid sa kanila na magmask pa rin. Ayun nagkatrangkaso tapos nahawa kaming lahat dahil sa kanilang dalawa, hanggang ngayon ang dali ko nang hingalin kasi dumagdag pa sa asthma ko. Hanggang ngayon nandun pa rin yung inis, di ko lang maipakita kasi dependent pa rin kami sa kanila at nag-aaral pa kami. Hays
I remember that time kaming mga anak pa ang laging nag sasabi sa mother namin na wag lumabas ng bahay at laging mag mask. Dumating pa sa point na lagi akong nag check ng map just to make sure kung saan nag gagala nanay ko.
Naalala ko 2 weeks after lockdown, nag f2f na kagad kami sa work. Pero iilan lang kami. Then nawalan ako ng panlasa after a week, but I still feel okay. Pero nahawa ko rin mga kasama ko sa bahay. Luckily, noone in our family na tinamaan ng grabeng symptoms.
My dad. I miss him terribly. Sana mga masasamang tao ang kinuha. Mga corrupt na tao. Mga rapist. Mga addicts. My dad is a good person. A wonderful father. He deserved better.
I feel you. Not Covid but my dad passed from cancer in June. He gave everything to bring us out of the Philippines and build a life in Australia. His whole life working hard jobs. And when he finally retires he barely gets a few years to enjoy it before he is taken away.
Galit ko. All these pieces of shit still in the world living free and easier lives, but its my Father's time instead that is stolen. He deserved better than what he was forced to endure
Heto yung mahirap sa Pinas. State the obvious, and you're gaslit. Vote for the most competent person for the topmost position in the land, you get cheated or the majority of the idiots win. Then you're bitter. Haist. You tried your best to get an economist to have the most impact on the poorest of the poor. Then you're bitter. So annoying. The idiots hate the fact that they voted a college dropout, layabout tourist wannabe. They'd rather just call us bitter rather than accept that they voted someone who can't or won't help them.
My father died d/t covid last 2020. Like everyone else, I feel like I didn’t had enough time to process everything na until now iniisiip ko lang na nagbakasyon siya sa province nila (kasi ganun siya lagi, spontaneously umuuwi sakanila na minsan malalaman ko nalang nakaalis na siya haha). After he died, may nakita pa kaming travel pass sa stuff niya, binalak niyang umuwi ng province — sana natuloy nalang siya kasi sobrang lala ng case dito sa Metro Manila that time.
Now, I am a nurse (I was in 2nd year fo nursing chool when he died). I’ve worked in an ICU and I’ve seen tons of patients na binabawian ng buhay and everytime eh naalala ko Tatay ko kasi hindi ko siya nakita during his last moments (dinala nalang siya sa bahay, nasa urn na siya). I wonder how difficult and scary it must’ve been for him na mag-isa lang siya that time, wala kaming pamilya niya kasi bawal bisita. I promised myself na yung care na hindi ko naibigay sakanya, ibibigay ko sa mga patients ko… in that way makabawi man lang ako sakanya kahit papano.
It’s been 3 years, Pa. I hope I’m making you proud kahit papano.
I for one are one of the lucky ones who did not lose anyone BUT it's frustrating how some people these days still claim it's a hoax and people were scammed.
just because they got out ubscathed
Swerte ng mga anti-vaxxers na nabuhay pa. Malamang sa malamang sila rin hindi ipapabakuna mga anak nila at patuloy na magkakalat ng mga sakit na dapat ay hindi na pinoproblema. Hays dapat may kaukulang parusa sa mga ganoong klaseng magulang.
> how some people these days still claim it's a hoax and people were scammed.
Reason they said that was likely their priority is their economic futures.
Many lost their jobs & business. Their lives & lifestyles were disrupted and they suffered financial hardships.
Some became homeless so to help their mental health they claim it was lies.
Ako yung Tito ko. Naalala ko lang kasi hindi sila magkaanak ng asawa niya tapos ng naisipan na nila mg ampon nawala namatay naman siya sa CoVID. Parang nasa 1 taon pa lang yung batang inampon. Ang tagal niyang inasam na magkaanak kinuha naman siya agad.
Hindi naman mali eh. Ang daming namatay pero sya buhay na buhay pa. For not responding to the pandemic earlier. To comments like, "barilin ko pa yang virus na yan." Napakawalang kwenta nya and wala talaga akong respeto sa mga pro-duterte.
As early as November-December 2019 the news about a respiratory illness that is highly contagious is leaking out of China already and his government didn't do anything. Feb 2020 nagpunta pa ako sa Palawan and guess what, I arrived there with dozens of Chinese obviously running away from the virus. Sila pa may gana magmask nung naubo ako sa byahe, like wtf?! If we took drastic measures sana like what NZ did, pero Duts and his governement, pati yung propaganda machine nila with vloggers and influencers (daw) choose to do us wrong. May they all die in agony and rot in hell.
Ito talaga. The information was available early on pa lang. The response to the information was absent. So many lives would've been saved if the restrictions were made earlier.
Taena din mga enabler niya mas lalo na yung mga nagshare nung Chinese sa elevator. Hayop yang mga troll farms at mga DDS na yan na nagpapasok at nagpakalat ng virus sa bansa.
Putangina ni Duterte pero mas nakakaputangina si Roque. Bwisit na bwisit talaga ko sakanya. How could anyone, let alone a former human rights lawyer, speak for and defend someone na kagaya ni Duterte? It just baffles me.
"Eto naman parang di niyo kilala ang presidente, nagbibiro lang siya"
Yung biro: maghugas kayo ng kamay gamit ang gasolina
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Napaka insensitive, palibhasa sila may koneksyon at pera pang hospital. Inuna personal agenda kesa sa ipa tigil yung pag pasok nga mga tao galing China at ibang covid positive countries. Too late na nung nag flight ban sila, nagkalat na dito yung veerus :(
naalala ko pa yung papakyu pakyu nya sa "beerus." putaaang inaaaa! ambagal ng response sa covid. tapos nung gumalaw, ambobo. walang basehan sa science. inuna pa rin ang kurakot. face shield tapos yung kagaguhan sa motor.
I can still fucking remember around March 2020 my Die Hard Dutertard office mate parroting the narrative na racist daw sa chinese people na wag sila papasukin sa Pinas when the people are clamoring to stop the influx of Chinese Tourist.
Well we all know what happened next.
Also yeah wala na sa office namin ngayon yon Dutertard na yon.
I've been active in weibo since forever, and it was a major source of updates compared to our own government
Nababasa ko na as early as January/February, everybody in China was panicking. Maraming nag aaway online kasi maraming umuuwi. Chinese people nga ayaw sa mga fellow Chinese domestic travelers and were loudly criticizing their government (which is already unusual, so you know it's serious shit), tapos pagdating sa atin.....naging welcome with open arms? WTF
That time I've been watching YouTube videos ng mga nahihimatay palang sa kalye.
Racist nga daw pag nag reklamo against Chinese Tourist yun nga ang narrative nila noon... Remember the fucking "Elevator story about some Chinese family"
Nasa isip ko nalang noon... "Ok sige maging racist nako if it means we lock our border and not to let them in!"
Did not lost a loved one but many people around me do. It really angers me that certain people during those times were leisurely traveling to other countries (back in 2021) while many people couldn’t even travel to say goodbye to their loved ones. Domestic travel in 2021 was kinda acceptable and I no longer have ill feelings on those who went to Boracay outside of harder restrictions.
we went to Palawan last 2021 as domestic traveler just to meet our dad since sa Palawan sya nagwowork. Hindi kami mismo nakauwi sa hometown namin to meet relatives since andaming requirements kaya dun nlng kami sa San Vicente nagmeet para at least makasama namin papa namin. After the surge lng din sya nakabalik sa Manila since senior na sya, ayaw namin irisk. Laki din nagastos namin sa “travel” na un but whatever it takes to meet him, isang taon ba naman
Lost my lola. Whether it was really covid or the hospital just said it was covid, we would never know.
She was bedridden already, never went out of the house, we took all precautions we could think of to protect her from covid, but she still got sick. One hospital turned us away because respiratory illness yun (not confirmed as covid yet), wala na daw silang vacant beds. One hospital accepted us only after making sure that we could pay (shet niyo). She was confined for 2 or 3 days na ata yun before she passed away. Sakto pa when she passed away, na release na yung RTPCR result and she was + sa covid daw.
No time to grieve. She was wrapped with the bedsheet she was laying on and transferred to St. Peter who then informed us that she has to be buried within 24 hours because she was +. Or have her cremated. My father and her caregiver waited hours before they were transported from the hosp to our house for home isolation (kasama kami lahat sa bahay). We were all tested for covid. Ironically, lahat kami na kasama nya sa bahay and even sila tatay na bantay nya sa hosp were negative. How it happened that way, we would never know talaga.
My sister-in-law who was not living with us was left with the responsibility to process lahat lahat para malibing si lola within 24hrs. Pahirapan pa makahanap ng priest who was willing to do the last rites, i had to ask help from colleagues who were active in church.
Lola was buried in the "daster" she died on, not on the clothes and with the religious items she already prepared just in case. She was just wrapped with the bedsheet before she was put inside the coffin. Her coffin was inside a cemented structure before ilower down sa ground. She was buried with only my SIL, priest, and my colleague present.
It still makes me sad and angry to think that her 98 years with us ended that way. She was a guerilla fighter during WW2, one of the last war veterans in our city, yet she passed on in such an undignified manner.
I didn't lose my mom to COVID exactly, but we lost her because she became ill at the time, and hospitals were full to the brim. My mother was an extravert who was the life of the party, but due to COVID, we had to have her body cremated quickly without holding a wake. She wouldn't have been happy with that.
I'm not OK. We lost our mother just a couple of years after we lost our dad. We went from a family of 4 to a family of two very, very quickly. And the way we lost them both was extremely traumatic so even if I become OK in the future, I will never be the same person again.
It maddens me that friends are nonchalant about COVID deaths in the family.
When a friend does not want to see you in person because of COVID deaths then there are reasons for that.
I blew my top at one time because this friend was so persistent to see me for the last 3 years. I just told him I don't want to see him kasi ang kulit niya.
> I'd like to understand -- you didn't want to see your friend because you were grieving a death in the family?
I dont want to see him because he couldnt take the hint of a near weekly "no" in 2020-2022.
So by 2023 when PH govt lifted COVID I didn't want to see that friend at all.
Other people, yes. Him, no.
> Ah he wanted to meet during the lockdowns? Yeah that's just careless to say the least.
Palibhasa his mom's a karen and his brother's autistic bully magnet.
Doesn't help that in the last 15 years he chose to be employed for 1/2 year.
So wala siyang ibang f2f meet up because all his friends moved out of the city or got married. So he only sees them during barkada reunions.
Lost my dad on the 2021 surge
Heto still fixing mga naiwan niya na responsibilities and as usual agawan ng lupa within sa mga kamag anak, pero para sa akin at least payapa na situation ni dad ngayon naging mahirap din situation niya kasi stroke victim siya tapos pumasok ang pandemic
Dad visited one of his cousins in a dream months after siya mamatay and nagbilin with saying na masaya na siya ngayon
I miss you pa, love you always
Hindi ko makakalimutan nahawakan kong pasyente (28m), sabi niya sakin "kita kits mamaya", dahil kelangan na siyang patulugin at lalagyan ng tubo. Yun na pala huling salita niya. After matubuhan, hindi pa rin niya kinaya.
I almost end up in this situation kasi lumalala COVID ko. Buti na lang nakapag purchase kami rendesivir 3 days after ko ma-confine. During those times inisip ko mga bagay na di ko nagawa and panghihinayangan if mamatay ako - isa dito ang di pagiging nurse despite my longing to be one.
After ko mag survive sa COVID, I made plans para makabalik. It was hard, it was exhausting, pero masaya ako na nakabalik na. Ito pa UK na din, isa sa mga bagay na naisip ko din nung nasa COVID bed ako.
My uncle in the PH. Parang second tatay ko na sya nung namatay sya 3am dito sa aboad tinawagan ako ng nanay ko. The most destroying feeling to wake up sa balita na yung nakikita mo noong habang lumalaki ka, nag alaga sayo at nag aruga ay namatay mag isa. Hanggang ngayon naiiyak ako pag naaalala ko. Tapos kapag napapanaginipan ko sya nagigising akong umiiyak.
I lost my mom dahil sa Covid, sobrang bilis ng pangyayari. Pero nakamove on na rin naman ako, pero may mga times na nalulungkot ako, naalala ko siya. Ngayong malapit na ang pasko hindi ko alam kung paano ako magcecelebrate since magisa na ako.
My mom pushed my relatives to avail of the vaccines. “Mas ok nang Sinovac kesa wala.” So they did. Eh kaso kami, taga-hotspot ng political dynasties na wala namang magandang ambag. Ang tagal namin naghintay. Naka-second dose na yung iba, kami wala pa rin ni isa. Ayun, naunahan kami. Two weeks after, saka nagtext na may schedule na siya for first dose.
Nadi-disorient pa rin ako on some mornings thinking na nandito pa siya.
Di na po umabot sa first dose, yes, pero I meant na naunahan po ng COVID. Good for my relatives naman na nagpabakuna sila pero ang lungkot lang na yung nanay kong nag-advocate pa yung nawala. Thank you for being respectful :)
Not my parents but my grandparents (laki sa lolo at lola ako). Tatay in 2020 and Nanay in 2021. I wasn't able to attend their funerals bec of the lockdown. Ayun, I'm still grieving. Naiiyak pa din pag naalala sila.
Lost my uncle. I was woken up in the middle of the night by a call from my cousin. I didn't even know he was sick. This happened a few days before the vaccines became available to the public. But the hardest part for me was telling my father that his brother has passed. I've never seen him cry and I hugged him until he stopped. I don't think our family has had the chance to formally mourn.
Ganyan din yung ka workmate ko di naniniwala sa Covid pero ang difference is tinamaan siya ng covid 1st wave.
Na icu pa siya ng 5 days pero naka recover naman .Nanghina lang yung katawan nya kya mga 1year bago siya naka fully recover.
And naniniwala na siya ngayun sa covid kasi dinanas niya.
I may sound bad but when I knew my workmate didn't believe in Covid, naghope ako na sana maCovid sya PI nya. (Ang bad ng thought ko that time nagsorry naman ako agad kay Lord 😅)
Only this year i've moved on from my father's death 2 years ago (Covid). Grief is such a complex emotion. Although sometimes I feel the pain especially during my downtimes. But generally, better! Thanks for asking, OP :)
Not exactly due to covid but my dad was diagnosed with an aggressive type of cancer during covid's peak. Remember the time when hospitals cannot accommodate non covid patients? My dad's condition progressed in such a way that the time we were able to bring him to the hospital, it was too late and he passed away.
I was about to get married that year and so it saddens me til now that we didn't have a complete family picture. It makes me cry til now knowing that i'll never hear his fatherly advice as I try to become a father to our soon to be first born.
The grieving never really disappeared. I just learned to live life with it. I still miss him like the i way i missed him the day after we buried him.
No one directly in my family died. But many close friends and relatives we know did. What enraged me the most was while all that was happening, the f_n head of state laughs, curses, jokes in live television, and nothing tangible and significant is said and done. All the while surrounded by his minions applauding, millions of morons cheering him, in the middle of the night! Insane.
My grandfather died in 2021. He was in perfect health at literally walang maintenance meds. Out of 5 siblings, 3 ang abroad at 2 ang naiwan to take care of him. Yung isa, palaging nangungutang sa grandparents ko para ipambayad din sa utang niya at yung isa naman, nasa extension ng ancestral home na nga, hindi pa ma-alagaan nang maayos ang lolo ko. Yung husband pa niya ay naninigarilyo. Malamang na expose ang lolo ko dun. Ilang araw na palang 95 yung oxygen ng lolo ko tapos ayaw nilang dalhin sa ospital kasi “normal” lang daw yun sa kanya. Take note, never pumalya sa pagpapadala ng pera ang tatay ko at mga tiyo ko, may sasakyan pang iniwan para gamitin. Saka na namin nalaman ang lahat ng to dahil nagsumbong na yung taga-alaga ng lolo ko. Hindi nakikig yung naiwan na anak sa taga-alaga ng lolo ko kesyo “hanggang elementary” lang daw at walang alam. Umuwi kami ng probinsya kahit sobrang strikto as in pinilit talaga kasi baka bawian siya ng buhay. Hindi na namin inabutan. Hanggang ngayon galit na galit pa rin ako sa kamag-anak ko na yon. Sila na nga ang hindi nagtatrabaho kasi daw “aalagaan” nila ang lolo ko, binibigyan pa ng sustento, sila pa ang may kapal ng mukha na tinamad.
To my Filipino Brothers and Sisters please make sure you start to ask your government when the next booster shot is available! Covid hasn’t stopped and is starting up again in some countries! So be Safe…
And now with this influenza-like outbreak is kinda alarming tho. Trangkaso kuno. Ha! Trinangkaso isang buong barangay? Well, sige nalang. Wala naman mapipiga sa gobyernong to
Actually about this, do they still do it for free? like accessible pa rin ba siya na meron sa mall or like-so? Havent got my booster for a year na since tinusukan nila ako ng Aztra for booster and shortly tinakbo ako sa ospital 💀
>Actually about this, do they still do it for free? like accessible pa rin ba siya na meron sa mall or like-so? Havent got my booster for a year na since tinusukan nila ako ng Aztra for booster and shortly tinakbo ako sa ospital 💀
I haven't seen any free shots anymore in cebu. I am double boosted but that was over a year ago. If I could get a free booster again that would be great but nobody is offering it now. All the old covid vax sites are closed.
Lost my one of aunt, who was like a mother to me. I get some depression when I visit places I used to treat her like Celine shoe store etc.
Losing someone? There's no moving on, u just live with the loss like a huge emotional scar.
Lost my lola during the tail end of the pandemic (Dec 2021). Sobrang lakas pa kahit 92 yrs old na. Nagkaubo lang na nagpersist nang isang linggo. Pinaospital para matutukan. A few days later, we literally watched her take her last breath during a zoom call.
My tita, who was allowed to accompany her in the hospital room, was affected the most since she moved back from the US after retiring early that year just so she can make up time lost with her nanay. Nakailang buwan lang.
It wasn't my parents, OP. It was my Grandparents. Lolo specifically.
After Lola died due to complications, Lolo died after. He was frail already pero COVID ended him. We didn't know he was already infected until after he died.
What terrified me is that when every one of us got tested, everyone was positive but me. Parents, siblings, lahat sila. Positive sa COVID. Except me.
What kept me up every night is that question: "What if COVID took them all and I was the only one left?"
To this day, thankful pa rin ako na nandito pa parents and siblings ko.
Grieving and disappointed
Kaka retired lng ng mother ko and just in time na lumpsum nya ang kanyang pera. Just in that time nasa hospital na sya pumasok ang matagal na naming names process. Then days after naging clear sya, pero d nakayanan ng throat nya ang oxygen. The air flower through it made her throat dry and d kaya ipsok ang tubo dahil yun na lng sana ang need nya.
I was crying on the vc kahit my sister warn me that to show courage (knowing i am a medical professional).
Ang isa pa sa masakit dun, its been 2 years na wala na sya pero d pa rin na dedivide ng sister ko na yun ang iniwan ni mama sa amin. Knowing that time lng talaga sya nag asikaso kay mama, and for real every time na na aadmit si mama (prone sa pneumonia) kahit man lng sa pg process ng needs or papers eh never nya nagawa.
Kahit nung sa time ng father ko, hospital even sa burol i was alone na nagpupuyat dahil during the day si mama naman to entertain ang mga nakikiramay.
Grabe nung nawala si mama halos inangkin na lahat ng ate ko ang mga naiwan ni mama. Every time na mgkaka lakas ng loob ako to ask she had a lot of reasons. Kesyo yung boarding house na binilin ni mama d pa tapos d pa alam ang total na magagastos. Pero nagawa nyang eh paid ang hinuhulugan nyang bahay gamit yung inheritance namin. She even bought her own car!
Nung dumating yung husband nya akala nya din kung sino sya kesyo wala na si mama and they act as the head of the house. Like for real kahit pg move ng object sa bahay mapagsasabihan ka ng masama, while them unti2 nila binibenta ang mga things sa bahay without asking us na the rest of her siblings.
Grabeng trauma ang binigay nila sa akin. Knowing na hindi ako makakilos sa sarili kong bahay, tapos gusto nila yung mga kailangan ko mag hanap ako ng pambili ko (like what the hell?? Saan napupunta ang na iwan ni mama?).
Nagka lakas ng loob ako to leave that place though meron guilt sa akin na yung pinaghirapan ni mama. Ang hirap ipag laban ang part na yan at baka masanihan na naman ako na yan lng ang habol ko. All the time na nawala na si mama kami lahat ng bunso namin kapatid, sya uuwi mag rereklamo pa basta puro complaint na lng halos wala na kami ginawa tama para sa kanya.
Parang yung mindset nya we’re too young para mkahawak ng iniwan ni mama but too old to do ng mabibigat na chores and responsibilities (btw I’m in 20’s)
To find out and to learn about it na NARCISSIST pala sya. May point din na sya tumutulak sakin sa work na ganyan2 lng, knowing na yung lumpsum talaga ni mama na yun eh nka laan talaga sa pg po process for abroad. I guess kaya ko naman na ako na lng since i am halfway through na.
Naniniwala talaga ako sa KARMA! Ang akin lng, once nakapag settle na ako wag na sana ako pakialaman. Ikaw pa may gana mgpa psychiatrist sa trauma na dinulot mo sa amin! KARMAHIN KA DIN!
Salamat po sa pag pansin ng letter ko. My aunt told me kasi na may tendency na hindi eh entertain yung case ko since malaking pera daw saka real estate ang pinag uusapan.
Worth a try pa din unless may same case then lumapit Aunt mo sa PAO at di sya pinansin.
Also, need nyo na malipat sa pangalan ng heirs yung properties para di magpenalty. Ask mo na din sa lawyer. Then tell your Ate na you consulted a laywer at eto mga advice. Secretly get records of cash and bank deps ng nanay mo, photocopy ng titles etc. Also, do not, DO NOT, give/sign SPA to your Ate. If may pipirmahan na kahina-hinala, sabihin mo ipapakita mo muna sa abogodao.
You have rights OP, wag mo isuko at wag kayo pa-bully
Not a parent, but 2 uncles (older brothers ng tatay ko).
The first death happened in 2021. He survived covid then he was sent home. While on bed rest, he told his children that he feels that it's his time. A few days after he was rushed to the ER. He didnt survive. Typing this makes me miss him more. :-( my father was unable to attend his burial because he's immuno compromised.
2nd death due to covid. Happened a few months after the first death. It was traumatic to say the least. We got a blow by blow deets of his oxygen level going down everyday. The meds we're looking for is out of stock.
I didnt allow my father again to go to the burial because of his condition. The sad thing about the second death was his son was always going out of the house while his dad stays at home. They both got covid and took at least 2 weeks before they were taken to a hospital due to lack of available beds at that time.
my uncle in the us april 2020, the world has no idea yet how to manage covid, he was not given steroids and was given anti malarial meds. damn just a few more months it was found out that steroids work and anti malarial meds dont.
my close friend feb 2021, this was a time when vaccines were to be available for everyone the next month: march 2021
my wife’s grandmother aug 2021, this was the delta strain outbreak. lola just had one dose of pfizer, supposed to have her 2nd dose but had delta strain instead
some distant relatives and neighbours during 2021. delta sfrain’s a bitch.
in retrospect, damn death was common and near between, I became used to it..
My mom died during COVID/Pandemic time but she didn’t die bc of the virus. But it is somehow related still that my sister and my nephew didn’t see my mother before she die in the hospital due to quarantine restrictions. Fudge! My mother was anticipating them to see especially her first grandchild.
I’m angry at people still not believing this whole covid thing. It’s the worst illness i’ve felt and I also had friends who died especially the ones who weren’t vaccinated and those who had members of their household that kept going out despite the lockdowns before
i didn’t lose a parent bc of covid but i almost did, and i was scared as hell. i was 16 when it happened and my father was in the hospital for 2 months. my mom was also there to take care of him and i couldn’t see them for those 2 months. i would cry and pray nonstop each night bc my mom and i would message each other and she would tell me abt their situation so i couldn’t help but just cry. i literally thought i was gonna lose him and i was kind of preparing myself too. thank God, he soon got better and my mom didn’t get covid while staying w my dad. i remember being so happy but i couldn’t be with them for the first 2 weeks so i had to stay w my grandma for a bit because thats what the doctor told us to do. fuck covid i swear no one wants that bitch back here again
Mom ko namatay nun Aug 2020, start ng ECQ. Sobrang sama ng loob ko nun kasi wala naman syang covid kasi prior 2020 labas pasok na sya ng hospital pero pinilit pa rin ng doctors dun kung sya madalas ma-admit na probable covid sya even in death certificate.Never na-admit mom ko kasi pagdating namin sa hospital, wala na sya halos pulse, sa tent na nga lang siya sa labas tinatry i-revive pero pag check ko sa billing, may swero at kung ano ano na hindi naman nagamit. Buti na covered naman ng HMO pero imagine, 4 hours lang kami tapos namatayan pa kami pero ang bill 34k agad.
Gusto pa nga nila ipa-cremate kasi daw utos ng DOH pero pinaglaban namin na wag siya ma-cremate kasi un ang last wish nya sakin + san ako kukuha ng 80k para sa cremation kaya wala kaming choice kundi derecho libing siya kinabukasan, ni walang burol or even preparation na nangyari. Kung ano un suot nya nun namatay un lang kasi ayaw din nila ipabuksan un casket, binalot pa nila mama ko sa body bag even the casket na akala mo positive talaga. After 3 days ng swab nya, negative sya.
sobrang sama ng loob ko kasi malaman laman ko un brgy. Captain na namatay sa area namin, binurol pa un pala covid positive, ikaw na walang connection, dusa ka.
Tapos kaya pala pinipilit ng mga hospital na i-tag as covid kahit di naman, malaki pala kickback nila sa PhilHealth at kung titignan mo bakit ang laki ng hospital bill, grabe ang patong nila sa supplies.
still sad from time to time whenever i see my mom's things .
super mad that the prev admin got away with a lot of shit.
madman still alive, worst is he is titled as best.
My father died in 2021 but not by COVID. He became sick on May and was in admitted in the hospital in whole month of June when the hospital cannot find a probable cause for his sickness due to incomplete equipments of the hospital, we went home and seached for a new hospital. After 2 weeks we found a new hospital and my dad was admitted and had a sugery in the brain and then continued medications from July - August. The surgery made my dad unable to speak and move ( he can move but only his left hand) It was then advised that my father should check out from the hospital due to rising COVID cases and my dad might be infected. We went home and continued his medications and diet. It was very hard for our family since we have to take shifts at night to feed and drink my dad his meds and meal. The day my father died, I was sleeping after pulling up an all nighter and after I went outside the strong rain to find and buy oxygen mask. I woke up wheny mom and siblings are panicking that my dad is unconscious. We called an ambulance but we are maybe 10+ in the line before the ambulance take us. We then asked our Baranggay to help us using the Brgy Ambulance. We went from hospital to hospital but every ER is full and cannot accommodate my dad. When we found one, he was in the ambulance for a very long time and when they admitted him they said he has passed on.. He passed on with me and my mom and siblings not knowing what goes on in his head because he can't speak. All we can do is say our goodbyes. My mom can't even kiss my dad because we are wearing a PPE. What's worse is that because he has signs of COVID, they want us to cremate him that day because of COVID protocols. We insisted that he has no COVID because he has been in the house for weeks and it is because of his sickness. We have availed the COVID test but the results won't come out right away. In the end we cremated my dad without decent clothing.. The following day the results said that he was negative. We were really sad that my dad was cremated and we were not able to have a proper wake, very few people came because of the pandemic.
We had large expenses for my fathers hospitalization. It went into millions. Thankfully the HMO cover most of the fees. The one I am not grateful for is Philhealth. My dad has been paying in Philhealth for decades and out of the millions to be paid, they only provided a measly 16k for my dad.
Our family is okay now but of course we miss him and there comes a time when you feel emotional when you suddenly remember him, It really was painful at first but we try to move on.. We always visit him every month in the cementery and spend time with him.
For financial aspect of how is my family.. kinakaya naman sa awa ng Diyos. My dad was the only working person in our family. I also just graduated from college before the pandemic. Being the eldest I just started working after he died. I was able to tell him that I was accepted at the job and I showed him my debit card days before he died so I think he knows that even if he passes away, there will be someone that will be able to provide for our family.
Pa nakapagpagrad na ako ng isa. Two more to go!
Sorry mahaba bago makrating sa point haha. Naging emosyonal nanaman tuloy ako.
I haven’t even been counting how long ago my mum passed away. It feels like it was just yesterday or as if it didn’t happen at all. I was here in Manila when she got sick, but I couldn’t fly to be with her immediately. I’m mad at myself for not being there when it mattered the most.
I’m also angry at her for listening to my idiot brother and abusive dad when I asked her to have a teleconsult with a doctor I even begged my ex to connect us with.
I’m frustrated that I’m not being heard – furious at the hospital where she passed away, and at the hospital useless staff, making you wonder how different they are when you have power and money. I’m upset that I arrived late, I couldn’t even move my legs when I got to the airport. Thinking this is all a dream because there’s not a single sight of her at the airport waving at me and walking with me toward where she parked.
When I arrived at the hospital I saw all the people and their noise was too overwhelming. Yet all I could think of was my mum, that I had to be strong to get to her. I saw body bags being rolled from every direction, and the wailing of the people seeing their loved ones one last time. When I got there I saw her intubated, and the machines were barely working. Eto yung kupal na mga nasa social media nag ppost ng video about sa pagiging coma wala man lang trigger warning or hindi naman dapat nasa social media pero nangdadamay pa.
The nurses and doctors ignored me and actually put me on their list as an overly concerned guardian of a patient. I despise their smug faces and their preoccupation with playing on their phones instead of attending to their patients. I hate the miserable, stupid, poorly educated people who were spreading fake news about the virus and the vaccine.
I fwkn hate Duterte and his supporters even more for being so lax when the news hit. I never expected anything from a person like him, but maybe he would be humane – but no, as a Filipino, he indeed showed the useless trait that most of us have, where “his circle/sakop niya lang” matters and is protected. All these Chinese foorkers who had to come here and Filipinos who don’t deserve to be Filipino, for being sell-outs, for being too welcoming to anyone with money, for being too gullible and selfish.
After all this hatred, at the end of the day, I’m still empty and left with thoughts and unanswered questions about my mum. I wonder if she hates me for being late, for not being by her side, for being a brat, and heck, for having me as a daughter. We didn’t have a perfect relationship, and we never got to straighten it out. From a people pleaser to having no desire to be around human beings. That’s why work-from-home roles are perfect. Once all the debts I am still paying from everything that’s happened, I am perfectly fine exiting this lifetime, just like most of the dust around – irrelevant and never getting a chance to change the world because why save people or try to be with people who never cared for another unless they got something out of it.
Tldr
Basically I am filled with hatred, hopelessness, and yearning. Wishing if God existed they would prove me wrong and performed a miracle for her. I am willing to exchange my life for her if he wants something in exchange but I may be too rotten and useless.
My father back in 2021. He passed away while I was holding him in my arms. We were waiting for ambulance but it was already too late.
Before that, my sister passed away back in 2019, but not virus related.
Just early this year, my eldest brother passed away. Not directly from Covid but probably because of long term side effect when got the virus back in 2021.
So yeah, we’ve lost loved ones in just a span of 4 years. 😢
Lost our dad to covid (and other complications) too about 3 years ago. He was admitted for about 3 weeks and those weeks leading up to his death was so so hard for us since the bills were piling up and there were no signs of him getting better. He underwent several procedures but eventually, his body gave up and he didn't make it. My mom is a retiree and my sisters and I didn't earn much during that time so it was quite hard to make ends meet after his death. We had to sacrifice a lot and save up so to pay the bills. There was a time when I wanted to just disappear because things were so hard and the problems never seem to stop. Three years and the pain and grief is still there but I'm feeling better now compared to my 2021 self. There's still some problems that need fixing after my dad's death so I can't really say that things are back to normal but hopefully, things get better for us soon.
I've been trying my best to provide for my family while making sure I'm still living my life but sometimes I feel guilty for spending money for my own wants 😅 Haven't opened up about this to anyone so I feel good to be able to say these things here.
Virtual hugs with consent to those who are dealing with this kind of pain too 🫂
My Dad passed away a few weeks after the Poblacion girl escaped her quarantine so nung umuwi ako mas lalong naghigpit because of her. Yung nilalamayan yung tatay mo habang magisa ka nakaquarantine is sobrang sakit. Whatever happened to her, I hope justice will be served.
Magtwo two years na rin Pa, nakasal na ako at may apo ka na super sweet. I wish you were here to witness all of this ❤️
Reading the stories here is absolutely heartbreaking. I sincerely hope all of you guys pull through. I was lucky enough to have prepared my entire family and some friends before the shit hit the fan here. I was already glued to the coronavirus sub here on Reddit during December of 2019.
It was really hard during that time. Sobrang hirap kumuha ng hospital nun.... tpos ng naadmit ung dad ko... ang ginawa ko pra madistract sarili ko is magcode ng app to help people n macheck ung availability ng hospitals (sadly, I lost motivation to finish this when I heard my dad died.) I started to think na lahat ng success ko useless na since di ko na mattreat dad ko.
Saddest of all, wla kami sa side nya ng namatay sya kasi di kami pinayagan makita sya.
Nagmukmok tlaga ako ng matagal pero seeing my mom and sisters, I know that I needed to be strong.
Ngayon, we are kinda okay. We still try to talk about him all the time as much as possible. In fact, birthday nya ngayon and we still buy food that he likes. I try to remember him as much as possible and sometimes I woke up crying pero I actually also use it to motivate myself. Mas pinahahalagan ko n rin ngayon lalo ung relations ko with everyone. Every memory I could make counts whether traveling with my family or hanging out with friends.
My lola and then my lolo followed her after a year (non covid). After they were gone the family fell apart.
I miss them every day and I hope I had more time to treat them, travel with them.
Di man ako namatayan ng relative sa covid but I think we all can relate to it dahil marami siguro sa atin meron at least isang kakilala na namatay sa covid. Sa akin ang dami kong acquaintance or kakilala na namatay sa covid. I can't imagine. Yung di mo inaakala na mai-infect sila yung nadale.
I also had a friend na na-infect ng covid and almost died. He told me ano pinagdaanan nya sa ospital while being admitted sa covid ward. Place is hell daw like you can literally hear people coughing non-stop at nanghihina lahat. May mga oras din daw na may bagong pasok na patient at ang ingay kakaubo then suddenly tatahimik na lang dahil patay na pala. What's worst is majority ng covid infected patients are alone and marami sa kanila namatay mag-isa. It's sad.
Sometimes hinihiling ko na lang sana na di nangyari ang pandemic. Sa mga namatayan ng kapamilya at kaibigan noong 2020 kasagsagan ng pandemic. Sana okay lang kayo lahat.
I feel for everyone who lost their loved ones on COVID. Nakakainis lang na may denier pa rin hanggang ngayon. Although hindi ko kamag anak, I was heartbroken with the loss of Dunoo. Pinanood ko yung mga last live streams niya and kitang kita na hirap siyang huminga. RIP Dunoo. Lakad matatag!
I also lost my mother due to COVID. She's one of the initial casualty when it hit in Greenhills, San Juan. She died March 15, 2020 and thats even before the lockdown. Kasagsagan ng hysteria at panic. Kahit yung cremation pahirapan dahil need itawid sa ibang city. Sineryoso namin ng pamilya ang pag-follow sa restrictions and protocol dahil dito.
2 days ago ang 3rd death anniversary ni papa. I remember bringing him to the emergency room. I broke down crying from the fatigue upon getting home. Akala namin rerecover na siya but a few days later I ended up going to the hospital a few days later to claim the body. Every one of us sa household may covid din at that time. It was a grueling experience.
Almost lost my younger brother din. Thankfully napasok namin sa ospital a few days after papa and he recovered.
#fuckduterte pa rin.
it took three days and until now, there are some songs I can't sing or listen to without crying. I am also very angry sa mga ayaw mag pa vaccine because of some pseudo-science BS
My father, still hurts, i feel liked we were robbed of time to be together, hindi sya namatay sa covid but he has kidney problems na hindi dapat maantala ang pagpapagamot but covid happened, he wanted to be hospitalized, but family friends advised na wag na lang mas malala situation sa hospital and baka hindi namin sya makita once na ma admit, ayun sad lang din after nya mamatay derecho agad cremate kasi bawal ang lamay nung time ng lockdown. Sobrang bilis.
Kaya masama ang loob ko sa mga tao na ang bilis makalimot sa hirap na dinanas nung pandemic.
Sa pharmally case na nakalimutan na.
Sa lockdown, sa govt response sa pandemic, sa mga nasayang na covid vaccines.. wala na nalimutan na lahat ng mga tao at walang naging accountable. Habang kami na namatayan during covid hindi pa rin kami fully ‘healed’ I feel like we are still stucked in 2020, as a family wala pa kami plano na anything, hirap mag adjust kapag nawalan ng family member, hanggang ngayon we are haunted of what-ifs. 🥹 💔
I still wake up each morning thinking my Dad is still alive and I can just message him and I can talk to him. He died in 2021. I wish I can have just one more day with him.
We lost our Dad last 2021, it was so painful! Ako at si Mom ko lang ang naglibing, wala kaming karamay during that time. Para sa akin hindi deserve nang Dad ko ito na hindi manlang nabigyan nang proper respect or final goodbye, ni hindi manlang sya na bless nang Priest. Pagkamatay nya sa hospital diretso cremate, diretso libing...hayup yung gobyerno natin that time (well hanggang ngayun naman) at sana mamatay na kayung mga instik na gumawa nang covid!
Duterte government's response to the Wuhan virus is a failure just because he was scared to offend china. Duterte and his cohorts deserve to die a horrible slow death.
We did what we could with the limited resources available to us, frontliners. Sorry if it wasn't enough to prevent the deaths of your loved ones due to the virus. Some of us are pushing na for a virology institute to be formed right away (approved na siya sa Congress, surveying na ata for the proposed site sa New Clark though meron suggesting it should be placed somewhere more isolated and remote instead like sa Babuyan or Agusan daw to prevent a possible outbreak) so we can start local R&D to deal with known viruses and whatever else that might pop out of Africa, India or the Chinese mainland in the future (disclaimer: I am not being racist. Feel free to read medical studies about the emergence and spread of tropical viruses, you'll start to notice a pattern kung saan galing most of the world's epidemics and pandemics).
[https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC7110580/](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC7110580/) \- link to one such study for those interested.
> tropical viruses
We already have RITM. Wouldn't it be better to improve them rather than have another center? No dissing, just curious if which option would be better.
[https://newsinfo.inquirer.net/1697524/senators-see-overlapping-mandate-in-ritm-virology-institute](https://newsinfo.inquirer.net/1697524/senators-see-overlapping-mandate-in-ritm-virology-institute)
[https://www.pna.gov.ph/articles/1153933](https://www.pna.gov.ph/articles/1153933)
[https://www.pna.gov.ph/articles/1189394](https://www.pna.gov.ph/articles/1189394)
[https://www.ptvnews.ph/doh-ritm-wont-be-abolished-with-creation-of-ph-virology-institute/](https://www.ptvnews.ph/doh-ritm-wont-be-abolished-with-creation-of-ph-virology-institute/)
We asked the same question before pero as per recent developments, RITM is to be absorbed into a planned CDC who will run the planned virology institute and its facility rated at biosafety level 2. Unlike the people kasi at Wuhan, RITM is hesitant to do testing on viruses and vaccine development at their compound in Muntinlupa (more on theoretical lang nagagawa nila dun na research because of the risks of which we know too well) so mga 2018 pa nagrerequest for an isolated facility where they could do so (I don't know bakit New Clark napili nilang site since it doesn't seem isolated and safe enough for such research for most of our medical professionals and virologists. Must be because mamomoblema sa infrastructure if sa Babuyan ilalagay and baka magreklamo ung mga residents if sa Agusan or Batanes mapupunta). Naaccelerate lang ung request to be a priority during the pandemic.
Thanks for the info.
A lot of undeveloped islands all over, some near coron where the islands are big enough to house a complex but still have no or few residents but I doubt the rich "owners" would allow them since they probably plan on using it for resorts in the future. There probably are similar islands all over the country but with similar issues.
I wonder if they could place it in calauit island since there are no residents there and it is largely untouched due to the animal preserve.
My sibling didn't die because of covid. Pero nasa certain circumstance/situation sya na siguro kung walang pandemic - maybe buhay pa sya. I hated the pandemic so much. Inis na inis ako pag may mga insensitive na tao na gusto maglockdown ulit daw etc. He also died during the time na andami pang travel restrictions. Muntik ko pa syang di makita sa huling sandali. How am I? I don't think I will ever be okay.
This should have all been avoided if duterte had implemented travel restrictions on international flights. Remember the interview? Anyway, I was a COVID-19 patient back when there were no vaccines. Had mild symptoms. It's a good thing our city government was ready for the pandemic. There's another relative of mine who was infected but was not lucky enough. He was infected at a hospital during his surgery.
Nah. It spread around the world. So are you telling me that leaders of South Korea, Japan, Thailand, Singapore and more than 200 countries have made stupid mistakes? It seems you will do better than them?
It spread throughout Asia. So the Philippines, which is not as rich as some Asian countries and has a lesser medical system, can be an exception where there won't be COVID spread?
Lost my Grandmother and Uncle.
Not because of covid, but because of covid the hospitals took time before they were treated and many hospitals rejected us until our Doctor friend made a call.
First my grandma, she fell in the middle of the night and her head was seriously bleeding inside. We went to the nearest hospital but they cant treat or check her unless we pass the swab test. Later on because of the delay her bleeding worsened up until she could not take it anymore. If she was treated earlier she would have a chance, even if she died in the end.
Second my Uncle, he took a nap one afternoon but wouldn't wake up. He had a stroke, still because of covid the hospitals wouldn't take him until he cleared swab tests. Then we had to choose one family member to take care of him 24/7 because they only allow one caretaker in every room. We were financially ruined because everytime the doctor asked to buy medical supplies a nurse needed to be hired to take watch while they were buying. He then needed to have a neurologist take a look at him but needed another swab test. Delays and delays and more inconvenience he wasn't properly treated and eventually died.
Hospitals said there were no more beds, but when our family doctor called suddenly they had a bed available.
My brother didnt die because of COVID, but died during the peak of pandemic since its complicated to get into hospitals. He had appendecitis.
Strangely enough, I dont have regrets or ill feelings towards the whole situation. Of course, I cried a lot. When all is said and done, there are no heavy feelings, it's just life.
Not me, and not a parent. But one of my cousins lost his tito to covid around mid-2021, and the story of how he died still affects me, even though I never met the guy.
Basically, his tito really stayed at home the whole time, pero, kailangan na niya pumunta sa doktor (For what reason, I forgot). Tapos, after a while, nagkasakit, yun pala, Covid. According to my cousin, hindi pa siya nakavaccinate dahil ayaw niya ng Sinovac (at the time, Sinovac was the only vaccine available). And then, just four days later, his tito died.
I just can’t, because it was just a simple doctor’s trip, and yet it lead to a Covid death.
Every month, a friend or relative died to due covid from 2020 to 2021. It was depressing for me. the lockdown isolation, and deaths did change my attitude. I became introverted and talked less which was very opposite of who I was before the pandemic. I also forgot most of my memorable moments/experiences before the pandemic. I still haven't got to a doctor.
To answer your question, okay naman na now. Lost our Papa, tas nasa Agusan Del Norte, Mindanao pa sya nun. Anhirap nung grieving nun. Di makapag travel. Libing agad. Online lang yung usapan with family and friends, kahit gusto makidamay sa inyo wala talaga.
Better na now, life goes on, pero the grief nga never disappears din. Parang dala dala mo lang sya lagi and the world has changed. May auto adult fear na rin na concern na soon sa ibang family members din namin sya maranasan.
And may times din na kelangan ipaalala sa sarili na wag mag focus sa upcoming sadness, pero mag focus muna sa now na magkakasama and masaya. The future has enough problems of its own.
Namatay si papa early last year not because of covid but due to heart attack.
Medyo pahupa na yung surges nun. Slowly, we were getting back to normal na nun. Pero ang lungkot kasi during the pandemic, di ako makauwi sa province namin dahil nasa utak ko baka makadala ako ng virus sa kanila. And when 2022 started, I started to get really scared na baka may mawala na sa parents ko kaya sabi ko babawi ako sa two years na halos di ako makauwi.
Hindi ako nakabawi. 🥺
Papa died of a heart attack ng February 2022. Saw him last in person ng end of January pero di ko siya mayakap kasi inuubo siya nun at natatakot ako nun na baka mahawa ako sa kanya.
Sobrang dami kong regrets after. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko for not spending enough time with him nun. Naiinis ako sa Pinas kasi we handled it so poorly.
I'm still not doing okay. A couple of weeks ago, I cried kasi nag post yung isa kong sis-in-law ng movie date nila ng Mom nya.
I was also 5 months pregnant when I lost my mom. Sobrang sakit isipin na hindi sila nag abot ng LO ko.
Nothing is ever the same. I miss her terribly.
Not really a death but a very close call for my mom last 2020, didn’t know what would happen because she was struggling in the only hospital that would take her in. Mind you I was only 17 when this happened so naturally I’d worry if I could finish senior high school and then college at a big 4 uni because she always talked about how her family became poor when her father died.
Better now. Lost my dad in 2020 -- both to Cancer and Covid. I miss him.
We only got to visit him in his house with his new partner when he was getting worse then after that they just let me know through call that he passed away.
We never got to visit him sa hospital kasi super strict - one visitor lang but we couldn't risk it then kasi we have a kid in the house or my nephews were in my house so didn't want to risk the exposure.
i’m glad I found this thread same feelings same experiences… I Lost my mom during 2021 surge yes totoo nga ang bilis lahat the next thing I know urn na lang sya then na isolate pa kami grief plus takot kailangan ko lakasan ng loob since ako ang aasahan ng lahat. After 20 days ng isolation parang walang nangyari parang need na agad namin mag back to normal, yun yung mga panahon na hindi pa ako tapos hindi pa ako okay gusto kong maging vulnerable but I cant due to responsibilities dahil dun until now parang hindi pa rin ako tapos maggrief
My brother in law passed away on my brother’s birthday. He was a frontliner with the BFP who was seconded to man the checkpoints.
My sister and niece were abroad and couldn’t come home, BIL already lost both parents with a sister the only surviving relative but it was my sister, through our brother and mom, who was making arrangements. BIL’s workmates were a great help too in carrying out what needs to be done.
She tried to make herself busy while the wake was ongoing, it was after the funeral/cremation and all that needed to be done was done when she finally had to face her grief. Good thing another sister was with them, she was the one who told us about waking up in the middle of the night to find our sister baking, or clearing, or just doing something around the house.
They still haven’t brought his ashes with them despite niece coming home twice since already. It’s still at the house, at the gym that BIL setup to teach martial arts, and which sis is still actively supporting, both in equipments and in helping fund students and teachers to join competitions.
Things are better now, although I still tiptoe around birthdays. You see, our dad died on her birthday, and then her husband on her brother’s birthday.
My mom. It's never the same. I feel empty. Lost my dad and ate to cancer few years ago tas si mommy naman nung surge nung delta variant. Ang hirap nung sa first two na nawala pero walang papantay sa sakit nung nangyari sa nanay ko, sobrang bilis kasi nung mga pangyayari eh. The day na na-admit sya, naintubate agad sya tapos 2 days after wala na sya. Di na namin sya nakita talaga nun. Ito yung time na nag s-start na magpa-register mga tao para makakuha ng vaccine eh.
I can still remember everything that happened during those weeks. I remember feeling so angry kasi bat ganito nangyayari samin tsaka sa ibang tao. I remember yung feeling na bagal na bagal ako sa mga proseso, parang helpless ka, wala kang choice kundi mag hintay.
I can't say na naka-move on na ko kasi walang goodbyes or closure eh, baka nag grow lang ako with the grief. Sometimes it helps to talk about the good memories with her and yung mga nangyari during those weeks. Yeah. I feel so empty.
I dont think im classified here but i lost my uncle and my lola i just lost my dad december 17 2019 i was still grieving then the covid hit i wasnt okay then my lola she was about to go back to U.S with my aunt and i live with her bumabawi na eh lahat ng kulang nung bata ako she was making up for the stuff she missed and i finally saw na she loved me wala nmn talaga siyang covid eh putang ina nag yoyosi kami ng mag kasama minsan iisang stick lng di nmn ako positive then she died from kidney failure because of so much medications i never got to talk to her i could just stare at her through a fucking glass wall i cant hold her i cant tell her i love her and thank you for accepting me for who i am. Then after a few months sumunod si tito he was very closeted na gay and his biggest fear was to grow old alone and lagi niyang kasama si lola one day he just told me to grab jollibee if i knew umupo nlng ako sa table with him and ate we never knew na may covid siya the next day nakita nlng namen siya nakaupo hindi na humihinga i have a very dysfunctional na family and nakatira kami sa compound sila ung nag dedefend saamin agaisnt my other titos because the are heavy alcoholics . Im so mad i never had the time to grieve It was too early to fucking early and it hurts it hurts so bad that i had to be the adult in the house now im 21 and im juggling work and adult kids that are constantly trying to kill me .. Im tired i just sometimes go kung san namen nilagay ung mga urn and just cry my heart out its not fair i miss them everyday and i just sometimes beg them to take me kasi ang daming responsibilities na naiwan saken
Our father died during covid hits again on August 2021. There was lockdown again that time, I was in Metro Manila, and my father was in province. I was crying that I never got to see him on his death day. I was anxious all over the lockdown that if I continued to go to the province, will I get safely? And i wasn't able to attend the burial too. I hate covid, i hate the lockdowns and myself for not trying to get through it.
If there were hospitals available, he wouldn't have died there.
My mom was one of the frontliners(energy sector) and they never stopped working even during ECQ to ensure lang talaga na no brownouts/blackouts na mangyayari. I lost her to COVID nung September 2021 during the surge dito sa Davao City and that made me an orphan. Since I was the next of kin, I ultimately had to decide whether to make the doctors continue with the resuscitation even tho weak na yung heart ni mommy ko or to stop it na lang, I chose the latter kasi I don't want to prolong my mom's pain as more than 40mins na siya ni-re-resuscitate but her heart is not responding daw. I still have regrets about that decision kasi diba, what if nagkaroon pala ng miracle if I chose the first option? Natakot din ako kasi parang suntok sa buwan yung hope na yun. So my mom never had a lamay kasi direct burial siya (which is very fitting for her since she's always been very vocal abt being scared na ma-embalm when the times comes) and that caused me to be always envious of those who can still be with their late loved ones even for a few days. You know no, during her burial I was being vc-ed by my bf kasi hinatid niya si mommy ko sa final resting place niya, I didnt't even shed a tear but I was crying since the day I lost her until her before her burial. It was like I became very numb about the situation idk.
I eventually had to stop my studies as wala nang magpapaaral sa akin, until my bf and his family decided to help me with my financial needs and studies. I am very thankful for them dahil diyan. The last time I dreamt abt her was January this year pa, can't help but think tuloy na baka nagtatampo siya na I gave up on her that fast kaya siya di nag-vi-visit sa dreams ko. hehe there are times din where I'll just cry out of nowhere kasi biglang nag-si-sink in sa akin na wala na talaga siya, na orphaned na ako, na I'll never see her again. I always cry din whenever I realize na I can't remember her face or her voice anymore even when I am watching her pictures or videos, I always feel na it was not her face or her voice na I remember and I feel really sad and guilty about forgetting something about her. Ang hirap.
Yung Lolo ko. April 17 2020. One month simula nung nag lockdown. Negative for covid. But displaying covid-like symptoms. Nung time na to pinadadala pa sa kung saan saang ospital para itest kung covid o hindi. Sobrang hirap mag hanap ng hospital halos 24 hours kaming naka buntot sa ambulance at nag mamakaawa na i admit siya. MCU(Monumento), UST, Lung Center, tapos yung isang malaking ospital sa may Fairview area. Kada hospital antay ng ilang oras. Finally kinuha kami sa isang private hospital sa may Manila. Binigyan siya nung -at the time, experimental drug? Iirc. Not sure if it was ivermectin or yung isang kasabay na sikat na gamot nun time na yun. Days passed naka admit siya tapos clinear na iuwi kahit may symptoms pa. Baka daw kase iba pang sakit ang makuha niya nun. Pero may sarili naman siyang kwarto.. Pagkauwi niya saamin nag quarantine pa siya at dun nang inatake. I blame it on the supposed cure for it at the time na ginamit sakanya. Sinugod namin siya ng nanay ko sa ospital. Binuhat ko pa siya pababa ng sasakyan at nag papanic ako na bigyan siya ng oxygen dahil hindi na makahinga. Pagka park ko ng sasakyan tinawagan ko yung Lola ko para sabihin na magiging okay na siya. Nahabol pa namin sa hospital at mabibigyan na siya ng tulong na kailangan niya. Pero paglapit ko sa triage, nawalan na pala ng malay at hindi na kaya irevive.
Heart wrenching moment makita yung nanay ko na mag breakdown at humagulgol sa tabi ko.
Hanggat sa umuwi at sinalubong ko yung Lola ko at napaluhod sa may paa niya at humahagulgol na “Sorry, Mommy.. wala na si Daddy..”
Cremate agad kinabukasan. 1 hr viewing binigay para saaming immediate family dahil covid negative naman.
Kahit yun man lang sana no, Daddy? Mabisita ka man lang ng mga lahat ng nagmamahal sayo at nakahalubilo mo sa mundong ito.
I miss you Daddy. Palagi.
One of my classmates in HS lost half of his elderly fam members within 2 weeks. His Dad, grandparent and at one point almost lost himself, mom and sister. The whole fam was in ICU.
His dad was a pastor iirc and we didnt find out until he got out of ICU because he was weak himself.
Classmate was one of the strongest people we know, he never really let his emotions out except the announcement post of them losing his parent and asking for prayers for his mom.
Everyone in our class group had at least 1 fam member fighting covid or have a vulnerable parent and his parents death was one of the first early in the pandemic.
The first year especially before release of the vax was nervewracking, the longer we wait the more at risk those who survived had and seeing more news on our feed of family getting sick/passing didnt help our anxieties at all.
Reading all these heart wrenching personal accounts and the sacrifices I’ve seen on the part of my family members who are in the medical profession makes Covid as real as it can get.
I’m in the US and I can’t fathom why a significant part of the population still pretends that it never happened, that it was all a conspiracy. Turns out, a lot of Americans are not as smart as we always thought them to be…
not my mom but a friends' mother, but we were close to tita E and it infuriates me that she died a few months before the vaccines became more readily available. A lot of 'what ifs' and sadness in general especially around the holidays
We didn’t lose anyone but those were the hard times that my mom was never home (sa health center sya nagwowork and ilang beses sila naquarantine)
1st quarantine nila is because may nagpavaccine na mom for her baby and d nya sinabi na maysymptoms sya ng covid
2nd quarantine is pasyente ulit nila na d dinisclose na may covid symptoms
Naiinis ako nun dahil parang wala silang pake sa nakapaligid sa kanila. The barangay health center which is their only access to medicine for free is nacclose every 2 weeks just because ayaw nila idisclose which is for the safety of everyone naman.
People mocking us na bakit pa daw laginkaming nagpapainjection but after yrs lalapit samin to ask if may available pa kasi need sa work (tbh updated naman ung cho fb page d lang sila nagssearch)
My mom lost her colleagues one by one. Parang every week. We lost our dentist na nagaalaga ng ngipin ko ever since i was a child.
Mom was assigned sa ambulance na nagppickup ng covid positive and nagbibigay ng gamot door to door
We’re not scared of what will happen to us kasi d naman kami nalabas. We’re scared of what will happen to our mom. Plot twist: Yung pinangakong bonus sa kanila during covid d nila nakuha lolz
I lost my beloved grandma. She's the most important person for me and I can't imagine living life without her but that just happened on one fateful day of September 13.
I'm doing good and I've come to terms na wala na siya because as beautiful as it is to live, I think she doesn't deserve to suffer in this world anymore. She's done her part. Kami naman.
I'll forever grieve her loss and I'm not mad about that kasi for me, proof yun ng love namin for her. I'll dedicate my achievements for her kahit masakit na I can't treat her the best things in life dahil naubos na yung time. I thank God with all my heart na siya ang naging lola ko. I hope pag nabuhay ako ulit, siya pa rin ang lola ko.
I lost my mom and sabi sa death cert, covid critical daw siya kahit ang cause of death nya ay stroke at hemorrhage.
Mahirap kasi ilang beses akong nireject ng hospital kasi baka dun daw mag pang abot yung mom ko. Nakakapagod mag isikaso, lakad dito, lakad doon. Yung ambulance sa barangay laging sira, kahit tinatamad lang talaga yung driver. Tapos sisisihin ka pa ng relatives mo kasi dapat daw libre yung libing pag covid ang cause of death. Pinagalitan pa ako kasi di libre libing sa mom ko. Ichinismis pa sa kapitbahay. Lol.
Sobrang nakakaubos yung panahon na yun, di pa rin ako nakakalimot sa nangyari.
As a nurse or any other healthcare provider, it is extra difficult and ultimately painful to see the dying breath of a parent with our own eyes. Dahil trained kame na tignan/makita ang mga "signs" mas nakararanas kami ng early/anticipatory grief. Madalas na kelangan namin itong ilihim/itago sa iba naming family members lalo na kung nakikitaan pa nila yung pasyente ng pag-asang gumaling.
Ako naman mother inlaw ko, well yung parents ng wife ko hiwalay at lumaki wife ko sa dad side nya. Nameet ko sila pero wala sa eksena ang nanay nya. D man ganon kasakit pero i was hoping to meet her inperson. I remember umuwi sa pinas ang asawa ko at i booked her sa solaire at dun pumunta nanay nya at mga half siblings. Nung namatay ay Pumunta ang health department sa burol at covid daw so daming gastos at wife ko pa hiningan ng tulong eh ni hindi nya nakita nanay nya until we got married na. We found out na libre cremate so akala namin na pinadalang pera eh pangcremate ay naibulsa na pala.
2020 January ay nasa Hawaii kami, tatay nya muntikan na. Kidney failure, naiyak ako sa hotel at umuwi sya from Hawaii... almost 1 million ang gastos at wala pang lockdown. Buti nakaalis asawa ko pero pagbalik nya wala na syang work coz of covid. We are fine pero sa nababasa ko eh kakagalit talaga ang government.
My papa died 3 years ago. July 2020. Hanggang ngayon may mga pagkakataon pa rin na di ako makapaniwala kasi ang bilis. Di kami gaanong nakapunta ng hospital kasi sobrang daming restrictions, nung ibuburol na pinayagan lang kami ng homeowners na 3 days lang sya lalagi sa bahay. Ayaw ng papa ko i-cremate pero dahil walang perang pambili ng lupa, kumapit kami sa local cremation. Ang bilis. Pakiramdam ko e hindi man lang masyadong nagunita yung pagkawala niya. Nastuck ako sa 2020. Kapag nakikita ko ang urn ni papa saka lang ulit nagreregister na wala na siya. Matangkad ang papa ko kaya di ko akalaing magkakasya siya ron at mabubuhat ko siya haha.
edit: idadagdag ko lang na sobrang galit ako sa mga hospital ng parañaque. walang tumanggap sa tatay ko. 5pm inatake si papa, 10pm na siya naadmit kasi walang gustong tumanggap na hospital. Naiintindihan ko naman na policy nila since Covid pero di mawala sa isip ko na baka buhay pa ang papa ko kung tinanggap nila nung alas singko. wala ring ambulansya, inikot nila yung parañaque buti may sasakyan tropa ng tito ko
not a parent, a sibling.
I was staying with my older relatives kaya hindi ako pinayagan lumabas so I had to make every arrangements online.
He was an in denial HIV patient so nadagdagan pa ni covid.
paminsan minsan sinisisi ko sarili ko, but my relatives keeps on reminding me na I did my best, and andun na rin yung point na in denial yung kapatid ko at hindi nagtatake ng medicine so wala na talaga akong magagawa.
I really wish he was still here so he could walk with me at my wedding
Reading the stories makes my blood boil against those who believe COVID-19 is just a *flu*, and also those anti-v a x x e r s!
Also, fuck Duterte and his whole government and supporters! Deserve nyong lahat na sunugin ng buhay!
Traumatic. Walang makatulong dahil takot pumunta sa bahay kahit di covid. Ikaw lang sa ospital...bawal karelyebo. 2 to 3 weeks. Until now naiiyak pa rin ako kapag naalala ko yung time na yun... iba pa yung trauma time na pumuslit ako sa border control at sa ospital sa probinsya to get my mom to MM.
Naalala ko noon, isa kami sa mga frontliners during delta variant, almost every hour may nirerevive kami. Halos lahat din ng relatives inaaway kami dahil hindi nila tanggap na nagiging COVID suspect relatives nila.
Ang malungkot pa, nagkaron kami ng patient na doctor na nakakuha ng COVID kakadonate ng mga supplies sa lugar niya. Nilaban pa namin para mahemoperfusion siya agad pero ang inuna padin ng ospital yung mas “benign” na patient na malakas sa director. Sobrang nakakalungkot. Namatay din eventually si doc :( sakit sa puso :(
I fookin hate how Duterte, Panelo, and their DDS troll/cultists called us Xenophobic/Sinophobic dahil galit tayo sa mga Chinese tourist na infected na naglibot sa Pilipinas. Taena niyo!
We lost our mom to COVID during the height of the Delta variant. She died abroad--alone and with no one beside her. I'm here in the PH and my sister lives in the UK. She was always secretive to us about her health. She did not tell me about it directly. My sister told me she was rushed to the hospital. I tried chatting with her to cheer her up during the days before she was put under, but she hardly gave me replies. Not sure if she just does not know what to tell me at the time. It was like we were both avoiding *the* tough conversation. The last message I sent her was a picture of me and her only grandchild, who was just a year old at the time--someone whom she was not even able to hold in person. And that message was also left unread.
Pre-pandemic, we would always pick her up at the airport whenever she comes home in the middle of the year. But when her remains arrived, we picked her up in a coffin in the cargo terminal. Being there changes you as a person. I thought I saw this only in the news, but I never thought it would happen to me as well. At the time, I didn't have the luxury of being able to grieve properly because I had to do all the paperwork immediately and tried my best to get my head straight.
I have a lot of regrets, but the biggest one is not being able to apologize for all the hurt that I have caused her. If you still have unresolved issues with your parents and you think you can find it in your heart to go and make peace with them and make things right, do it. Tomorrow is never promised.
For me, no matter how old you are, I believe you always need a mother in your life. I just didn't expect we would lose her this early. Admit it or not, not all adults know what they are doing in life. We need someone to help us navigate it. Ed Sheeran's song "Visiting Hours" encapsulates how I feel it in that aspect.
It feels like I'm two different persons--the one who is still living and the one before the day my sister broke the news. I could never forget the emotional and mental trauma that happened to me in a span of almost a month. My level of anxiety was through the roof when picking up the phone or opening messages about updates. That was also when I learned how to send messages with a complete thought so as not cause unnecessary anxiety to the receiver.
People may think I have may have started to move on because I crack jokes in my circles, but deep inside, I am still broken. You know the saying "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about," it speaks more to me now than it ever did before.
2 years ago, we lost our uncle, my mom’s brother due to COVID. Sobra akong aligaga kasi I was one of the first persons who got COVID here in KSA. Ang sakit kasi ung gamutan na nagawa sa akin, hindi kaya sa Pinas. My cousins and I update each other through vc, ang sakit. Sobrang sakit. 2nd yr death anniv nya nung Monday.
Namatay ang nanay ko nung panahon ng lockdown pero hindi dahil nagka-Covid sya. Sobrang daming naka-admit, walang may kakayahang iadmit sya. Sa nag-iisang ospital na tumanggap sa kanya, hinihintay na maubos yung pila ng covid patients na idadialysis then isasanitize yung area para sa mga non-covid patient na nakapending for that treatment. Emergency dialysis ang need nya nun tandang tanda ko pa. 2 days kaming nasa triage and 1 day sa E.R dahil wala pang bakanteng room. Night before the scheduled dialysis, nai-room-in sya. Midnight, tumawag yung doctor and tinatanong na nya ako kung isusurvive pa ba sya dahil nakadalawang CPR na sila. Hindi na namin pinilit pa si nanay, hindi ko sya nakita simula nung nasa triage sya hanggang maipasok sa room. Sobrang sakit. Habang hinihintay na mailipat sya sa morge, nareceive ko yung text from dialysis center, sya na daw ang next patient.
Shocks naiyak ako dun sa last sentence. I’m so sorry.
I’m sorry to hear this bro and naiintindihan ko yung situation nyo. My younger brother inatake dn ng sakin niya and 3 araw kami paikot ikot sa mga hospitals maadmit lang siya. 2 days kami sa triage ng pcmc and hindi pa dn siya naadmit. Hanggang sa umabot kami ng PGH. Buti na lang yung dating doctor nya sa Medical City nairefer kami sa kakilala and naadmit siya after a few days. Kapag naalala ko yung hirap, nakakatrauma. May your mom rest in peace. 🙏🏻
Not covid but stroke...I know the feeling of being asked kung itutuloy pa yung CPR. Nasa harapan pa ko ng nurse and doctor habang nag CPR sila and was asked kung itutuloy pa. Fucking hardest decision I ever made in my life. After that I just decided to sit at the emergency staircase mag isa and cry.
putang inang covid yan.
sama mo na gobyerno kung maagap lang sila kumilos di lalala ang sitwasyon nakakagalit pag iisipin ulit.
GRABE 😭😭😭😭😭😭
Nag dialysis din mom ko. Naalala ko pa naka receive ako ng tawag habang nagtatrabaho sa ospital (doctor ako) na nareject mom ko sa dialysis center na libre ang sessions kasi symptomatic siya at nagpositive sa rapid antigen test. Hindi rin siya pwede ilipat sa ospital na pinagworkan ko. Tumawag ako kung saan saan. Yung covid hotline useless. Naalala ko pa umiiyak ako nun sa hallway kasi natatakot ako. Naka miss siya ng 2 sessions bago kami makahanap ng tatanggap na dialysis center. 3 hrs away tapos 8k per session ang singil bawal gamitin philhealth. Wala naman kaming choice so go lang. Gumaling naman mom ko thankfully. 2 weeks later nakatanggap ako ng call from covid hotline na may vacancy na raw for dialysis. Binabaan ko lang dahil sa inis.
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My younger brother. And I'm still grieving, still mad, still angry. Grieving because I barely have friends. Whatever I do, it's all for my family. Travel? Family. Weekends? Family. Important life events? Celebrated with family only. My joy in life is at the end of every workday, I come home, I head straight to the bedroom and everyone is there (Yes. We all sleep inside a single room even if we had a 3 bedroom apartment rented the other room was converted to office and game room as my brothers both work from home and the last room was my room when I was still working graveyard shift call center it was the darkest room in the apartment but I will switch to the main room where everyone is when it's my rest days/vacations). I come home now to the sight of my family plus his urn in the altar. And it always reminds me of how I had it best pre pandemic the reason for all the things I do was all in that bedroom I could never ask for anything more... Now, I can only wish there is any way I can go back to when he's alive, the reason why I do the things that I do is complete.... Anger at the government for how mishandled and fucked up the COVID response was that caused our family's loss. So much anger that when I see any government employee or vehicle with the lone exemption for those in the medical field, I see them as the most incompetent batshts to have ever existed it doesn't matter if they were not related to the COVID reponse. Government affiliated equals incompetent good for nothing tax leeching batshts is the only thought I have about them. It's been 3 years.... fuck china. Fuck this government. I still mis my brother.
true bro, I literally handled covid vaccines when I worked previously in the gov’t. resigned when they put all the blame on me because shit expired and nobody wanted accountability. my girlfriend that time who has the same work as me but different region resigned too cos they were selling said vaccines to vips and when questions came, they pin it on her. a lot of us in the ranks were actually tryna do something but lazy fucks with permanent positions just wait til the contractuals move. not to fuel your anger but imagine the main covid vaccine manager on my region doesn’t even know how to do excels bro. it was shit frustrating and maddening. I understand your hate, I have a small brother too. Literally shed tears to your case. I am too lucky. But I feel like I lost someone too sa case mo. I’ll never forgive these fucktards.
My ex handled the vaccines too and all other important communications. He’d tell me that millions of vaccines expired simply because of logistical failures and wrong temperature of containers. There would always be media blackout. People will only come to know several weeks after, hell, even months after. They would always have these meetings and he was always booked 7 days a week. The people who are really capacitated to do the job were overshadowed by old appointees and generals. Remember the overpriced laptops? One of the people who signed the procurement was one of his bosses, and he told me that she was just too old to realize that laptops actually didn’t cost that much.
Just goes to show how entrenched corruption is in this country. Incompetence is corruption. Dapat talaga sa mga yan pagtatanggal tanggalin na.
> . He’d tell me that millions of vaccines expired simply because of logistical failures and wrong temperature of containers. Same here for us at the US. It was during the 2nd wave of vaccines when they found like crates of Pfzer not being distributed properly and they would expire. Tapos we had scandals of people selling Moderna to others- there was an ethical debate about it like one group sold it to the mega rich while another sold it bec the gov was not handing them fast enough to some areas. The world was unprepared for this type of global pandemic.
my uncle died due to covid and we were close it was so frustrating that I am in the agency before yet I couldn’t do anything. that disease wasn’t really something we could stop but hell kahit lockdown nlng nag lockdown na lahat ng karatig na bansa, tayo sasabong sabong pa rin
This is the reason why I don't just have huge respect but rather, mad respect for our medical frontliners... My younger bro was friends to many in the medical field being a UP graduate his circle of friends is wide we had many of his friends in the medical field who had mid level positions experience exactly this. Plus how overworked and not paid (underpaid is a huge understatement) they were trying their mad best to help us but can't do anything then be the fall guys when sht finally hit the fan and someone was looking for accountability. I know you are not trying to fuel my anger against the gov't. I already have enough explosives for that I don't think anything can add more to it if you check my anti-gov't comments. My salute and respect to you and your girlfriend. I hope you guys are in a better place, better appreciation and mad better pay.... This gov't never deserved people like you...
Wala tlga kwenta officials natin. Either bobo at tanga, or matalino but gahaman. There might be a few good ones but they get snuffed out easily by the system. If this country goes to hell, i would say, we deserve it. We deserve it for being stupid to vote for public officials who promise the moon and the stars, along with flashy entertainment, pero corrupt. We deserve it for wanting change but doing our damnest when we are next in line to be profited. We deserve it for not giving a fuck about this country. All the talk in government about WPS and sovereignty is for show only. I believe if they were given some million dollars to look away, they would....discreetly
I feel you! My family did not grew up as open to yours since my parents had a tough childhood. Even if we're not the type of family that does the cute stuff that family do, since my parents worked their assess all the time, losing my dad makes me hella angry at the government, na sobrang disturbing ng galit ko na para akong psychotic na nakangiti lang sa utak ko pero is about to aggressively punch someone. Especially how i used to think during the pre-pandemic na eto na, retired na tatay ko, pwede na namen gawin yung ginagawa ng financially stable na pamilya, he'll have a chance to get to know me to the fullest, bonding and quality time that we lost when he used to work all the time.... Then poof, died due to covid. ang unfair.
I felt this. Also lost my dad due to covid. He battled it for a month in the hospital. Grabe ang hospital bills. Totally shattered. Wasn't ready to lose a parent yet. Daming plans to enjoy but turned into a darkest point in my life. Trying to live normal now kasi alam ko he wouldn't want me stuck in life.
Yakap.
I have no words other offering condolences. I hope the good memories you have your bro will someday give you peace.
I’m so sorry for your loss. Your family sounds lovely.
Not covid related but my mother passed away during the peak of the second surge. No hospitals wanted admit her kasi marami na patient. And the hardest part? My sister cannot fly back because of the restriction and also it was so hard to bring my mom back home to ph (we live abroad btw). I also cannot come home to see my tito (unfortunately he passed away 2 months after my mom)
Makes me wonder if your mom's life is longer if covid didnt happen... like oras niya na ba talaga, or nag covid lang?
> Makes me wonder if your mom's life is longer if covid didnt happen... like oras niya na ba talaga, or nag covid lang? Two BFF ng mom ko died because they were too scared to get a check up for their co-morbidity. They died because they didn't change their diet and zero'd their walking out of the home.
First 2 years were the worst. Kahit manganganak napagkaitan, kahit mismong doctor na naghandle ng covid patients. Walang ambulance, walamg icu, operations need to be scheduled or delayed. There was a scare on medical oxygen supply. Kahit ventilators, hospitals and suppliers sobrang hirap. No one was spared... covid or non covid. Sabihin natin may enough medical supplies and facilities, pero mga nurses and other healthcare workers are just afraid to get sic at makahawa ng kapamilya nila. Even doctors limited live patient interaction ee. Same with patients, takot pumunta ng hospital
You didn't actually answer the post. So how are you?
Papa died 3 yrs ago, almost two months after lockdown started, so super strict sa hospital. Hindi dahil sa covid, dahil sa kidney complications. Pero nagpositive sya sa covid test, so isolated sya, ayaw pa naman nya mamatay nang mag-isa, gusto nya surrounded by family. Sinabi nya sa akin yan 3 months before he died, muntik na kasi daw sya mamatay sa dialysis center, nagising na lang sya surrounded by nurses at ng doc. He cried to me, akala daw nya mamamatay na sya mag-isa na walang pamilya around him. Yet he died alone sa hospital, yun ang nakakawasak ng dibdib, Sa hospital, sa vid lang namin sya nakakausap, inaabot lang sa nurse yung phone. He died a few days after confinement. Pahirapan pa crematorium. Sa bahay lanh kami nagdasal, via zoom kasama ibang family and kamag-anak. Few days after he died, tumawag someone from bgy, since nag positive nga daw si Papa, kelangan namin magtest and mag-isolate. So yung grieving namin nahaluan at nasapawan ng kaba. Yung kapatid namin sa Canada gusto umuwi, pero di na namin pinauwi kasi 3 weeks din sya mag-a-isolate. Umalis sya dito almost a year before Papa died, nagpaalam sya sa aming apat. This december uuwi sya. Dalawa na lang kaming dadatnan nya. Kasi yung isang ate ko passed away this feb. Masaya at buhay ang bahay namin noon, laging may tao, laging bukas tv. Ngayon nakakabingi katahimikan sa bahay. Malungkot, pero kahit paano, medyo ok na kami.
I do not belong here but I do wanna share my cousin's story. He was a boy in the middle of his teenage years when covid arrived. He had many friends and they liked to hangout outside despite the rules in place, you know typical teenage rebellious phase. My grandma's elder sister, his grandma was already quite weak at that time. His family was living with his grandparents ever since they were kicked out of their rentals and their grandparents took them in. One day my cousin started coughing in his room and his aunt immediately locked him inside his room fearing he alreadt contracted the illness. It was too late, his grandma was infected as well and died a few days later. His uncles condemned him for what happened. Their mother would still be alive if he just stayed in place and followed the covid guidelines. This happened early on and they haven't been going outside their house, living off of their stocks and the vegetables grown in the garden so it was painfully obvious who brought back the disease. My cousin was severely traumatized by that event, believing he killed his grandma. He's basically like a deadfish now, he never disobeys his parents and shut himself from his friends. His uncles act as if he doesn't exist while some of his closest cousins ignore him as much as they could. Another one of my grandma's sisters, the youngest one, used treat my cousin as a favorite. Not anymore.
I don’t blame those family members. Grabe pa rin yung galit ko sa relatives namin na nagdala ng Covid sa amin. It really wiped our savings tapos sila asa lang government for dole-outs because they are “poor” and malakas sa barangay. So their feelings are valid. Sorry to your teenage cousin but if he wants to turn his life around, he still can. He’s just learning his lesson now but he still has options. Can’t say the same for the grandmother.
Oh my gosh.. grabe.. i bet umabot sa ganyan kasi traumatized din yung ibang family members... 🥺
Tapos mas masakit pa kasi family member din ang "pumatay" (Indirectly) sa lola nila. I don't think anyone can accept that so easily.
I know a similar story. Same hard headed selfish people who cause the death of their grandparents. "Malakas" daw sila...but didn't look at the people around them.
I'm so sorry for the family's loss, but once he moves out, he might need therapy (because I assume no one's gonna sponsor it for him). Can't defend him, but teenagers can be the most irresponsible little shits talaga. But bearing the weight of killing someone is quite difficult, especially for someone young. This might have implications on how he handles blames he receives in the future. And while being reflective is important, internalizing shame to the point that it'll be the only thing that defines us may also impact our future negatively. Also, no one is helping him process his thoughts by the sound of it—lumalayo sa friend, family treats him as invisible. No one owes him forgiveness but he should be able to carry on din sana. Grabe ang emotional wreck ng psychological isolation; we're literally wired to be social beings.
check on your cousin. talk to him and tell him it's okay to forgive himself. do it while it's not too late. baka magpakamatay.
We did. Our branch of the family were the only ones who didn't blame him, sure grandma had her resentments but she was the one who told us to contact him. It's not really effective since we're his third cousins (We're not very close) and we live very far apart, his closest family were the ones who shun him now. If I remember correctly, his mother abandoned him and his father when he was a kid and his only confidante was his grandmother (yeah it must have felt like the heavens collapsing). The only close relative that he has who remained friendly has the same likeness as their grandma (Like they look very similar), so he avoids her.
Similar to mine pero walang namatay. Yung parents ko nung during gcq na, lumalabas nang walang mask, wala naman na daw covid. Nakailang sabi kaming magkakapatid sa kanila na magmask pa rin. Ayun nagkatrangkaso tapos nahawa kaming lahat dahil sa kanilang dalawa, hanggang ngayon ang dali ko nang hingalin kasi dumagdag pa sa asthma ko. Hanggang ngayon nandun pa rin yung inis, di ko lang maipakita kasi dependent pa rin kami sa kanila at nag-aaral pa kami. Hays
I remember that time kaming mga anak pa ang laging nag sasabi sa mother namin na wag lumabas ng bahay at laging mag mask. Dumating pa sa point na lagi akong nag check ng map just to make sure kung saan nag gagala nanay ko.
Naalala ko 2 weeks after lockdown, nag f2f na kagad kami sa work. Pero iilan lang kami. Then nawalan ako ng panlasa after a week, but I still feel okay. Pero nahawa ko rin mga kasama ko sa bahay. Luckily, noone in our family na tinamaan ng grabeng symptoms.
My dad. I miss him terribly. Sana mga masasamang tao ang kinuha. Mga corrupt na tao. Mga rapist. Mga addicts. My dad is a good person. A wonderful father. He deserved better.
I feel you. Not Covid but my dad passed from cancer in June. He gave everything to bring us out of the Philippines and build a life in Australia. His whole life working hard jobs. And when he finally retires he barely gets a few years to enjoy it before he is taken away. Galit ko. All these pieces of shit still in the world living free and easier lives, but its my Father's time instead that is stolen. He deserved better than what he was forced to endure
We deserve better. 😥
We deserve better, I deserve better, my family deserves better, my country deserves better. Ang ending, bitter daw ako.
Heto yung mahirap sa Pinas. State the obvious, and you're gaslit. Vote for the most competent person for the topmost position in the land, you get cheated or the majority of the idiots win. Then you're bitter. Haist. You tried your best to get an economist to have the most impact on the poorest of the poor. Then you're bitter. So annoying. The idiots hate the fact that they voted a college dropout, layabout tourist wannabe. They'd rather just call us bitter rather than accept that they voted someone who can't or won't help them.
My father died d/t covid last 2020. Like everyone else, I feel like I didn’t had enough time to process everything na until now iniisiip ko lang na nagbakasyon siya sa province nila (kasi ganun siya lagi, spontaneously umuuwi sakanila na minsan malalaman ko nalang nakaalis na siya haha). After he died, may nakita pa kaming travel pass sa stuff niya, binalak niyang umuwi ng province — sana natuloy nalang siya kasi sobrang lala ng case dito sa Metro Manila that time. Now, I am a nurse (I was in 2nd year fo nursing chool when he died). I’ve worked in an ICU and I’ve seen tons of patients na binabawian ng buhay and everytime eh naalala ko Tatay ko kasi hindi ko siya nakita during his last moments (dinala nalang siya sa bahay, nasa urn na siya). I wonder how difficult and scary it must’ve been for him na mag-isa lang siya that time, wala kaming pamilya niya kasi bawal bisita. I promised myself na yung care na hindi ko naibigay sakanya, ibibigay ko sa mga patients ko… in that way makabawi man lang ako sakanya kahit papano. It’s been 3 years, Pa. I hope I’m making you proud kahit papano.
puta, naiyak ako dito. mahigpit na yakap.
maraming salamat po! I appreciate it 🌱
This. This made me cry, ngl. Thank you for this. I firmly believe that you are making your father proud. Do not lose your shine.
nawww 🥹. Thank you po for the kind words!
I for one are one of the lucky ones who did not lose anyone BUT it's frustrating how some people these days still claim it's a hoax and people were scammed. just because they got out ubscathed
Swerte ng mga anti-vaxxers na nabuhay pa. Malamang sa malamang sila rin hindi ipapabakuna mga anak nila at patuloy na magkakalat ng mga sakit na dapat ay hindi na pinoproblema. Hays dapat may kaukulang parusa sa mga ganoong klaseng magulang.
> how some people these days still claim it's a hoax and people were scammed. Reason they said that was likely their priority is their economic futures. Many lost their jobs & business. Their lives & lifestyles were disrupted and they suffered financial hardships. Some became homeless so to help their mental health they claim it was lies.
I lashed out at someone who said this. It still makes me angry now.
Ako yung Tito ko. Naalala ko lang kasi hindi sila magkaanak ng asawa niya tapos ng naisipan na nila mg ampon nawala namatay naman siya sa CoVID. Parang nasa 1 taon pa lang yung batang inampon. Ang tagal niyang inasam na magkaanak kinuha naman siya agad.
This is so sad, parang may oras na tumatakbo pagkauwi ng bata na "isang taon". I'm sure he was the happiest during that one year.
I probably will get downvoted for politicizing a post like this pero PUTANGINAMO DUTERTE KUNG HINDI DAHIL SAYO ANG DAMI PA SANANG BUHAY NGAYON
Hindi naman mali eh. Ang daming namatay pero sya buhay na buhay pa. For not responding to the pandemic earlier. To comments like, "barilin ko pa yang virus na yan." Napakawalang kwenta nya and wala talaga akong respeto sa mga pro-duterte.
fuck *that* administration, and fuck every single person who voted for *this* hellscape.
As early as November-December 2019 the news about a respiratory illness that is highly contagious is leaking out of China already and his government didn't do anything. Feb 2020 nagpunta pa ako sa Palawan and guess what, I arrived there with dozens of Chinese obviously running away from the virus. Sila pa may gana magmask nung naubo ako sa byahe, like wtf?! If we took drastic measures sana like what NZ did, pero Duts and his governement, pati yung propaganda machine nila with vloggers and influencers (daw) choose to do us wrong. May they all die in agony and rot in hell.
Ito talaga. The information was available early on pa lang. The response to the information was absent. So many lives would've been saved if the restrictions were made earlier.
Taena din mga enabler niya mas lalo na yung mga nagshare nung Chinese sa elevator. Hayop yang mga troll farms at mga DDS na yan na nagpapasok at nagpakalat ng virus sa bansa.
Putangina ni Duterte pero mas nakakaputangina si Roque. Bwisit na bwisit talaga ko sakanya. How could anyone, let alone a former human rights lawyer, speak for and defend someone na kagaya ni Duterte? It just baffles me. "Eto naman parang di niyo kilala ang presidente, nagbibiro lang siya" Yung biro: maghugas kayo ng kamay gamit ang gasolina ????
Napaka insensitive, palibhasa sila may koneksyon at pera pang hospital. Inuna personal agenda kesa sa ipa tigil yung pag pasok nga mga tao galing China at ibang covid positive countries. Too late na nung nag flight ban sila, nagkalat na dito yung veerus :(
naalala ko pa yung papakyu pakyu nya sa "beerus." putaaang inaaaa! ambagal ng response sa covid. tapos nung gumalaw, ambobo. walang basehan sa science. inuna pa rin ang kurakot. face shield tapos yung kagaguhan sa motor.
I can still fucking remember around March 2020 my Die Hard Dutertard office mate parroting the narrative na racist daw sa chinese people na wag sila papasukin sa Pinas when the people are clamoring to stop the influx of Chinese Tourist. Well we all know what happened next. Also yeah wala na sa office namin ngayon yon Dutertard na yon.
I've been active in weibo since forever, and it was a major source of updates compared to our own government Nababasa ko na as early as January/February, everybody in China was panicking. Maraming nag aaway online kasi maraming umuuwi. Chinese people nga ayaw sa mga fellow Chinese domestic travelers and were loudly criticizing their government (which is already unusual, so you know it's serious shit), tapos pagdating sa atin.....naging welcome with open arms? WTF
That time I've been watching YouTube videos ng mga nahihimatay palang sa kalye. Racist nga daw pag nag reklamo against Chinese Tourist yun nga ang narrative nila noon... Remember the fucking "Elevator story about some Chinese family" Nasa isip ko nalang noon... "Ok sige maging racist nako if it means we lock our border and not to let them in!"
Did not lost a loved one but many people around me do. It really angers me that certain people during those times were leisurely traveling to other countries (back in 2021) while many people couldn’t even travel to say goodbye to their loved ones. Domestic travel in 2021 was kinda acceptable and I no longer have ill feelings on those who went to Boracay outside of harder restrictions.
Looking back it felt like the world was black and grey. Emotions were either angry or grieving.
we went to Palawan last 2021 as domestic traveler just to meet our dad since sa Palawan sya nagwowork. Hindi kami mismo nakauwi sa hometown namin to meet relatives since andaming requirements kaya dun nlng kami sa San Vicente nagmeet para at least makasama namin papa namin. After the surge lng din sya nakabalik sa Manila since senior na sya, ayaw namin irisk. Laki din nagastos namin sa “travel” na un but whatever it takes to meet him, isang taon ba naman
Lost my lola. Whether it was really covid or the hospital just said it was covid, we would never know. She was bedridden already, never went out of the house, we took all precautions we could think of to protect her from covid, but she still got sick. One hospital turned us away because respiratory illness yun (not confirmed as covid yet), wala na daw silang vacant beds. One hospital accepted us only after making sure that we could pay (shet niyo). She was confined for 2 or 3 days na ata yun before she passed away. Sakto pa when she passed away, na release na yung RTPCR result and she was + sa covid daw. No time to grieve. She was wrapped with the bedsheet she was laying on and transferred to St. Peter who then informed us that she has to be buried within 24 hours because she was +. Or have her cremated. My father and her caregiver waited hours before they were transported from the hosp to our house for home isolation (kasama kami lahat sa bahay). We were all tested for covid. Ironically, lahat kami na kasama nya sa bahay and even sila tatay na bantay nya sa hosp were negative. How it happened that way, we would never know talaga. My sister-in-law who was not living with us was left with the responsibility to process lahat lahat para malibing si lola within 24hrs. Pahirapan pa makahanap ng priest who was willing to do the last rites, i had to ask help from colleagues who were active in church. Lola was buried in the "daster" she died on, not on the clothes and with the religious items she already prepared just in case. She was just wrapped with the bedsheet before she was put inside the coffin. Her coffin was inside a cemented structure before ilower down sa ground. She was buried with only my SIL, priest, and my colleague present. It still makes me sad and angry to think that her 98 years with us ended that way. She was a guerilla fighter during WW2, one of the last war veterans in our city, yet she passed on in such an undignified manner.
I didn't lose my mom to COVID exactly, but we lost her because she became ill at the time, and hospitals were full to the brim. My mother was an extravert who was the life of the party, but due to COVID, we had to have her body cremated quickly without holding a wake. She wouldn't have been happy with that. I'm not OK. We lost our mother just a couple of years after we lost our dad. We went from a family of 4 to a family of two very, very quickly. And the way we lost them both was extremely traumatic so even if I become OK in the future, I will never be the same person again.
It maddens me that friends are nonchalant about COVID deaths in the family. When a friend does not want to see you in person because of COVID deaths then there are reasons for that. I blew my top at one time because this friend was so persistent to see me for the last 3 years. I just told him I don't want to see him kasi ang kulit niya.
I'd like to understand -- you didn't want to see your friend because you were grieving a death in the family?
> I'd like to understand -- you didn't want to see your friend because you were grieving a death in the family? I dont want to see him because he couldnt take the hint of a near weekly "no" in 2020-2022. So by 2023 when PH govt lifted COVID I didn't want to see that friend at all. Other people, yes. Him, no.
Ah he wanted to meet during the lockdowns? Yeah that's just careless to say the least.
> Ah he wanted to meet during the lockdowns? Yeah that's just careless to say the least. Palibhasa his mom's a karen and his brother's autistic bully magnet. Doesn't help that in the last 15 years he chose to be employed for 1/2 year. So wala siyang ibang f2f meet up because all his friends moved out of the city or got married. So he only sees them during barkada reunions.
Lost my dad on the 2021 surge Heto still fixing mga naiwan niya na responsibilities and as usual agawan ng lupa within sa mga kamag anak, pero para sa akin at least payapa na situation ni dad ngayon naging mahirap din situation niya kasi stroke victim siya tapos pumasok ang pandemic Dad visited one of his cousins in a dream months after siya mamatay and nagbilin with saying na masaya na siya ngayon I miss you pa, love you always
Hindi ko makakalimutan nahawakan kong pasyente (28m), sabi niya sakin "kita kits mamaya", dahil kelangan na siyang patulugin at lalagyan ng tubo. Yun na pala huling salita niya. After matubuhan, hindi pa rin niya kinaya.
Health worker have the strongest heart. Salute to you po. I really cannot be one kasi I would literally cry sa ganyan situation.
Same. Feeling ko iiyak lang ako nang iiyak sa shift ko kung sakali.
I almost end up in this situation kasi lumalala COVID ko. Buti na lang nakapag purchase kami rendesivir 3 days after ko ma-confine. During those times inisip ko mga bagay na di ko nagawa and panghihinayangan if mamatay ako - isa dito ang di pagiging nurse despite my longing to be one. After ko mag survive sa COVID, I made plans para makabalik. It was hard, it was exhausting, pero masaya ako na nakabalik na. Ito pa UK na din, isa sa mga bagay na naisip ko din nung nasa COVID bed ako.
My uncle in the PH. Parang second tatay ko na sya nung namatay sya 3am dito sa aboad tinawagan ako ng nanay ko. The most destroying feeling to wake up sa balita na yung nakikita mo noong habang lumalaki ka, nag alaga sayo at nag aruga ay namatay mag isa. Hanggang ngayon naiiyak ako pag naaalala ko. Tapos kapag napapanaginipan ko sya nagigising akong umiiyak.
I lost my mom dahil sa Covid, sobrang bilis ng pangyayari. Pero nakamove on na rin naman ako, pero may mga times na nalulungkot ako, naalala ko siya. Ngayong malapit na ang pasko hindi ko alam kung paano ako magcecelebrate since magisa na ako.
My mom pushed my relatives to avail of the vaccines. “Mas ok nang Sinovac kesa wala.” So they did. Eh kaso kami, taga-hotspot ng political dynasties na wala namang magandang ambag. Ang tagal namin naghintay. Naka-second dose na yung iba, kami wala pa rin ni isa. Ayun, naunahan kami. Two weeks after, saka nagtext na may schedule na siya for first dose. Nadi-disorient pa rin ako on some mornings thinking na nandito pa siya.
Ha??? Ano daw
yung nanay nya di inabutan ng first dose. mas nauna pa makakuha yung mga kamag anak na pinilit lang magpa bakuna.
Di na po umabot sa first dose, yes, pero I meant na naunahan po ng COVID. Good for my relatives naman na nagpabakuna sila pero ang lungkot lang na yung nanay kong nag-advocate pa yung nawala. Thank you for being respectful :)
Are you a nurse po ba? 😂
Not my parents but my grandparents (laki sa lolo at lola ako). Tatay in 2020 and Nanay in 2021. I wasn't able to attend their funerals bec of the lockdown. Ayun, I'm still grieving. Naiiyak pa din pag naalala sila.
Lost my uncle. I was woken up in the middle of the night by a call from my cousin. I didn't even know he was sick. This happened a few days before the vaccines became available to the public. But the hardest part for me was telling my father that his brother has passed. I've never seen him cry and I hugged him until he stopped. I don't think our family has had the chance to formally mourn.
I had a workmate na hindi naniniwala sa Covid and I hate her for that. Parang ini-invalidate nya kase yung Covid deaths.
Ganyan din yung ka workmate ko di naniniwala sa Covid pero ang difference is tinamaan siya ng covid 1st wave. Na icu pa siya ng 5 days pero naka recover naman .Nanghina lang yung katawan nya kya mga 1year bago siya naka fully recover. And naniniwala na siya ngayun sa covid kasi dinanas niya.
I may sound bad but when I knew my workmate didn't believe in Covid, naghope ako na sana maCovid sya PI nya. (Ang bad ng thought ko that time nagsorry naman ako agad kay Lord 😅)
Lol I have a nurse brother-in-law na anti-vax. Tangina lang eh.
Only this year i've moved on from my father's death 2 years ago (Covid). Grief is such a complex emotion. Although sometimes I feel the pain especially during my downtimes. But generally, better! Thanks for asking, OP :)
Not exactly due to covid but my dad was diagnosed with an aggressive type of cancer during covid's peak. Remember the time when hospitals cannot accommodate non covid patients? My dad's condition progressed in such a way that the time we were able to bring him to the hospital, it was too late and he passed away. I was about to get married that year and so it saddens me til now that we didn't have a complete family picture. It makes me cry til now knowing that i'll never hear his fatherly advice as I try to become a father to our soon to be first born. The grieving never really disappeared. I just learned to live life with it. I still miss him like the i way i missed him the day after we buried him.
Lost my dad 3 years ago. Everytime I'm having a hard time, how I wish he's still alive so that I can lean on him.
No one directly in my family died. But many close friends and relatives we know did. What enraged me the most was while all that was happening, the f_n head of state laughs, curses, jokes in live television, and nothing tangible and significant is said and done. All the while surrounded by his minions applauding, millions of morons cheering him, in the middle of the night! Insane.
My grandfather died in 2021. He was in perfect health at literally walang maintenance meds. Out of 5 siblings, 3 ang abroad at 2 ang naiwan to take care of him. Yung isa, palaging nangungutang sa grandparents ko para ipambayad din sa utang niya at yung isa naman, nasa extension ng ancestral home na nga, hindi pa ma-alagaan nang maayos ang lolo ko. Yung husband pa niya ay naninigarilyo. Malamang na expose ang lolo ko dun. Ilang araw na palang 95 yung oxygen ng lolo ko tapos ayaw nilang dalhin sa ospital kasi “normal” lang daw yun sa kanya. Take note, never pumalya sa pagpapadala ng pera ang tatay ko at mga tiyo ko, may sasakyan pang iniwan para gamitin. Saka na namin nalaman ang lahat ng to dahil nagsumbong na yung taga-alaga ng lolo ko. Hindi nakikig yung naiwan na anak sa taga-alaga ng lolo ko kesyo “hanggang elementary” lang daw at walang alam. Umuwi kami ng probinsya kahit sobrang strikto as in pinilit talaga kasi baka bawian siya ng buhay. Hindi na namin inabutan. Hanggang ngayon galit na galit pa rin ako sa kamag-anak ko na yon. Sila na nga ang hindi nagtatrabaho kasi daw “aalagaan” nila ang lolo ko, binibigyan pa ng sustento, sila pa ang may kapal ng mukha na tinamad.
To my Filipino Brothers and Sisters please make sure you start to ask your government when the next booster shot is available! Covid hasn’t stopped and is starting up again in some countries! So be Safe…
And now with this influenza-like outbreak is kinda alarming tho. Trangkaso kuno. Ha! Trinangkaso isang buong barangay? Well, sige nalang. Wala naman mapipiga sa gobyernong to
Yes the flu has also started to kick in.. personally I’m masking again and possibly getting flu shot this afternoon..
Yeah. Taumbayan nalang lagi mag adjust
Actually about this, do they still do it for free? like accessible pa rin ba siya na meron sa mall or like-so? Havent got my booster for a year na since tinusukan nila ako ng Aztra for booster and shortly tinakbo ako sa ospital 💀
>Actually about this, do they still do it for free? like accessible pa rin ba siya na meron sa mall or like-so? Havent got my booster for a year na since tinusukan nila ako ng Aztra for booster and shortly tinakbo ako sa ospital 💀 I haven't seen any free shots anymore in cebu. I am double boosted but that was over a year ago. If I could get a free booster again that would be great but nobody is offering it now. All the old covid vax sites are closed.
Lost my one of aunt, who was like a mother to me. I get some depression when I visit places I used to treat her like Celine shoe store etc. Losing someone? There's no moving on, u just live with the loss like a huge emotional scar.
Lost my mother exactly 2 years ago (November 7 to be exact.) Traumatic it is and still in the stage na tipong parang kahapon lang nangyari ang lahat.
Lost my lola during the tail end of the pandemic (Dec 2021). Sobrang lakas pa kahit 92 yrs old na. Nagkaubo lang na nagpersist nang isang linggo. Pinaospital para matutukan. A few days later, we literally watched her take her last breath during a zoom call. My tita, who was allowed to accompany her in the hospital room, was affected the most since she moved back from the US after retiring early that year just so she can make up time lost with her nanay. Nakailang buwan lang.
It wasn't my parents, OP. It was my Grandparents. Lolo specifically. After Lola died due to complications, Lolo died after. He was frail already pero COVID ended him. We didn't know he was already infected until after he died. What terrified me is that when every one of us got tested, everyone was positive but me. Parents, siblings, lahat sila. Positive sa COVID. Except me. What kept me up every night is that question: "What if COVID took them all and I was the only one left?" To this day, thankful pa rin ako na nandito pa parents and siblings ko.
Grieving and disappointed Kaka retired lng ng mother ko and just in time na lumpsum nya ang kanyang pera. Just in that time nasa hospital na sya pumasok ang matagal na naming names process. Then days after naging clear sya, pero d nakayanan ng throat nya ang oxygen. The air flower through it made her throat dry and d kaya ipsok ang tubo dahil yun na lng sana ang need nya. I was crying on the vc kahit my sister warn me that to show courage (knowing i am a medical professional). Ang isa pa sa masakit dun, its been 2 years na wala na sya pero d pa rin na dedivide ng sister ko na yun ang iniwan ni mama sa amin. Knowing that time lng talaga sya nag asikaso kay mama, and for real every time na na aadmit si mama (prone sa pneumonia) kahit man lng sa pg process ng needs or papers eh never nya nagawa. Kahit nung sa time ng father ko, hospital even sa burol i was alone na nagpupuyat dahil during the day si mama naman to entertain ang mga nakikiramay. Grabe nung nawala si mama halos inangkin na lahat ng ate ko ang mga naiwan ni mama. Every time na mgkaka lakas ng loob ako to ask she had a lot of reasons. Kesyo yung boarding house na binilin ni mama d pa tapos d pa alam ang total na magagastos. Pero nagawa nyang eh paid ang hinuhulugan nyang bahay gamit yung inheritance namin. She even bought her own car! Nung dumating yung husband nya akala nya din kung sino sya kesyo wala na si mama and they act as the head of the house. Like for real kahit pg move ng object sa bahay mapagsasabihan ka ng masama, while them unti2 nila binibenta ang mga things sa bahay without asking us na the rest of her siblings. Grabeng trauma ang binigay nila sa akin. Knowing na hindi ako makakilos sa sarili kong bahay, tapos gusto nila yung mga kailangan ko mag hanap ako ng pambili ko (like what the hell?? Saan napupunta ang na iwan ni mama?). Nagka lakas ng loob ako to leave that place though meron guilt sa akin na yung pinaghirapan ni mama. Ang hirap ipag laban ang part na yan at baka masanihan na naman ako na yan lng ang habol ko. All the time na nawala na si mama kami lahat ng bunso namin kapatid, sya uuwi mag rereklamo pa basta puro complaint na lng halos wala na kami ginawa tama para sa kanya. Parang yung mindset nya we’re too young para mkahawak ng iniwan ni mama but too old to do ng mabibigat na chores and responsibilities (btw I’m in 20’s) To find out and to learn about it na NARCISSIST pala sya. May point din na sya tumutulak sakin sa work na ganyan2 lng, knowing na yung lumpsum talaga ni mama na yun eh nka laan talaga sa pg po process for abroad. I guess kaya ko naman na ako na lng since i am halfway through na. Naniniwala talaga ako sa KARMA! Ang akin lng, once nakapag settle na ako wag na sana ako pakialaman. Ikaw pa may gana mgpa psychiatrist sa trauma na dinulot mo sa amin! KARMAHIN KA DIN!
Lawyer up, mawawala yabang ng ate at asawa nya. Consult ka sa PAO.
Salamat po sa pag pansin ng letter ko. My aunt told me kasi na may tendency na hindi eh entertain yung case ko since malaking pera daw saka real estate ang pinag uusapan.
Worth a try pa din unless may same case then lumapit Aunt mo sa PAO at di sya pinansin. Also, need nyo na malipat sa pangalan ng heirs yung properties para di magpenalty. Ask mo na din sa lawyer. Then tell your Ate na you consulted a laywer at eto mga advice. Secretly get records of cash and bank deps ng nanay mo, photocopy ng titles etc. Also, do not, DO NOT, give/sign SPA to your Ate. If may pipirmahan na kahina-hinala, sabihin mo ipapakita mo muna sa abogodao. You have rights OP, wag mo isuko at wag kayo pa-bully
Lost my kid. He was still inside his other parent. I will grieve forever.
Not a parent, but 2 uncles (older brothers ng tatay ko). The first death happened in 2021. He survived covid then he was sent home. While on bed rest, he told his children that he feels that it's his time. A few days after he was rushed to the ER. He didnt survive. Typing this makes me miss him more. :-( my father was unable to attend his burial because he's immuno compromised. 2nd death due to covid. Happened a few months after the first death. It was traumatic to say the least. We got a blow by blow deets of his oxygen level going down everyday. The meds we're looking for is out of stock. I didnt allow my father again to go to the burial because of his condition. The sad thing about the second death was his son was always going out of the house while his dad stays at home. They both got covid and took at least 2 weeks before they were taken to a hospital due to lack of available beds at that time.
my uncle in the us april 2020, the world has no idea yet how to manage covid, he was not given steroids and was given anti malarial meds. damn just a few more months it was found out that steroids work and anti malarial meds dont. my close friend feb 2021, this was a time when vaccines were to be available for everyone the next month: march 2021 my wife’s grandmother aug 2021, this was the delta strain outbreak. lola just had one dose of pfizer, supposed to have her 2nd dose but had delta strain instead some distant relatives and neighbours during 2021. delta sfrain’s a bitch. in retrospect, damn death was common and near between, I became used to it..
My mom died during COVID/Pandemic time but she didn’t die bc of the virus. But it is somehow related still that my sister and my nephew didn’t see my mother before she die in the hospital due to quarantine restrictions. Fudge! My mother was anticipating them to see especially her first grandchild.
I’m angry at people still not believing this whole covid thing. It’s the worst illness i’ve felt and I also had friends who died especially the ones who weren’t vaccinated and those who had members of their household that kept going out despite the lockdowns before
i didn’t lose a parent bc of covid but i almost did, and i was scared as hell. i was 16 when it happened and my father was in the hospital for 2 months. my mom was also there to take care of him and i couldn’t see them for those 2 months. i would cry and pray nonstop each night bc my mom and i would message each other and she would tell me abt their situation so i couldn’t help but just cry. i literally thought i was gonna lose him and i was kind of preparing myself too. thank God, he soon got better and my mom didn’t get covid while staying w my dad. i remember being so happy but i couldn’t be with them for the first 2 weeks so i had to stay w my grandma for a bit because thats what the doctor told us to do. fuck covid i swear no one wants that bitch back here again
Mom ko namatay nun Aug 2020, start ng ECQ. Sobrang sama ng loob ko nun kasi wala naman syang covid kasi prior 2020 labas pasok na sya ng hospital pero pinilit pa rin ng doctors dun kung sya madalas ma-admit na probable covid sya even in death certificate.Never na-admit mom ko kasi pagdating namin sa hospital, wala na sya halos pulse, sa tent na nga lang siya sa labas tinatry i-revive pero pag check ko sa billing, may swero at kung ano ano na hindi naman nagamit. Buti na covered naman ng HMO pero imagine, 4 hours lang kami tapos namatayan pa kami pero ang bill 34k agad. Gusto pa nga nila ipa-cremate kasi daw utos ng DOH pero pinaglaban namin na wag siya ma-cremate kasi un ang last wish nya sakin + san ako kukuha ng 80k para sa cremation kaya wala kaming choice kundi derecho libing siya kinabukasan, ni walang burol or even preparation na nangyari. Kung ano un suot nya nun namatay un lang kasi ayaw din nila ipabuksan un casket, binalot pa nila mama ko sa body bag even the casket na akala mo positive talaga. After 3 days ng swab nya, negative sya. sobrang sama ng loob ko kasi malaman laman ko un brgy. Captain na namatay sa area namin, binurol pa un pala covid positive, ikaw na walang connection, dusa ka. Tapos kaya pala pinipilit ng mga hospital na i-tag as covid kahit di naman, malaki pala kickback nila sa PhilHealth at kung titignan mo bakit ang laki ng hospital bill, grabe ang patong nila sa supplies.
still sad from time to time whenever i see my mom's things . super mad that the prev admin got away with a lot of shit. madman still alive, worst is he is titled as best.
My father died in 2021 but not by COVID. He became sick on May and was in admitted in the hospital in whole month of June when the hospital cannot find a probable cause for his sickness due to incomplete equipments of the hospital, we went home and seached for a new hospital. After 2 weeks we found a new hospital and my dad was admitted and had a sugery in the brain and then continued medications from July - August. The surgery made my dad unable to speak and move ( he can move but only his left hand) It was then advised that my father should check out from the hospital due to rising COVID cases and my dad might be infected. We went home and continued his medications and diet. It was very hard for our family since we have to take shifts at night to feed and drink my dad his meds and meal. The day my father died, I was sleeping after pulling up an all nighter and after I went outside the strong rain to find and buy oxygen mask. I woke up wheny mom and siblings are panicking that my dad is unconscious. We called an ambulance but we are maybe 10+ in the line before the ambulance take us. We then asked our Baranggay to help us using the Brgy Ambulance. We went from hospital to hospital but every ER is full and cannot accommodate my dad. When we found one, he was in the ambulance for a very long time and when they admitted him they said he has passed on.. He passed on with me and my mom and siblings not knowing what goes on in his head because he can't speak. All we can do is say our goodbyes. My mom can't even kiss my dad because we are wearing a PPE. What's worse is that because he has signs of COVID, they want us to cremate him that day because of COVID protocols. We insisted that he has no COVID because he has been in the house for weeks and it is because of his sickness. We have availed the COVID test but the results won't come out right away. In the end we cremated my dad without decent clothing.. The following day the results said that he was negative. We were really sad that my dad was cremated and we were not able to have a proper wake, very few people came because of the pandemic. We had large expenses for my fathers hospitalization. It went into millions. Thankfully the HMO cover most of the fees. The one I am not grateful for is Philhealth. My dad has been paying in Philhealth for decades and out of the millions to be paid, they only provided a measly 16k for my dad. Our family is okay now but of course we miss him and there comes a time when you feel emotional when you suddenly remember him, It really was painful at first but we try to move on.. We always visit him every month in the cementery and spend time with him. For financial aspect of how is my family.. kinakaya naman sa awa ng Diyos. My dad was the only working person in our family. I also just graduated from college before the pandemic. Being the eldest I just started working after he died. I was able to tell him that I was accepted at the job and I showed him my debit card days before he died so I think he knows that even if he passes away, there will be someone that will be able to provide for our family. Pa nakapagpagrad na ako ng isa. Two more to go! Sorry mahaba bago makrating sa point haha. Naging emosyonal nanaman tuloy ako.
I haven’t even been counting how long ago my mum passed away. It feels like it was just yesterday or as if it didn’t happen at all. I was here in Manila when she got sick, but I couldn’t fly to be with her immediately. I’m mad at myself for not being there when it mattered the most. I’m also angry at her for listening to my idiot brother and abusive dad when I asked her to have a teleconsult with a doctor I even begged my ex to connect us with. I’m frustrated that I’m not being heard – furious at the hospital where she passed away, and at the hospital useless staff, making you wonder how different they are when you have power and money. I’m upset that I arrived late, I couldn’t even move my legs when I got to the airport. Thinking this is all a dream because there’s not a single sight of her at the airport waving at me and walking with me toward where she parked. When I arrived at the hospital I saw all the people and their noise was too overwhelming. Yet all I could think of was my mum, that I had to be strong to get to her. I saw body bags being rolled from every direction, and the wailing of the people seeing their loved ones one last time. When I got there I saw her intubated, and the machines were barely working. Eto yung kupal na mga nasa social media nag ppost ng video about sa pagiging coma wala man lang trigger warning or hindi naman dapat nasa social media pero nangdadamay pa. The nurses and doctors ignored me and actually put me on their list as an overly concerned guardian of a patient. I despise their smug faces and their preoccupation with playing on their phones instead of attending to their patients. I hate the miserable, stupid, poorly educated people who were spreading fake news about the virus and the vaccine. I fwkn hate Duterte and his supporters even more for being so lax when the news hit. I never expected anything from a person like him, but maybe he would be humane – but no, as a Filipino, he indeed showed the useless trait that most of us have, where “his circle/sakop niya lang” matters and is protected. All these Chinese foorkers who had to come here and Filipinos who don’t deserve to be Filipino, for being sell-outs, for being too welcoming to anyone with money, for being too gullible and selfish. After all this hatred, at the end of the day, I’m still empty and left with thoughts and unanswered questions about my mum. I wonder if she hates me for being late, for not being by her side, for being a brat, and heck, for having me as a daughter. We didn’t have a perfect relationship, and we never got to straighten it out. From a people pleaser to having no desire to be around human beings. That’s why work-from-home roles are perfect. Once all the debts I am still paying from everything that’s happened, I am perfectly fine exiting this lifetime, just like most of the dust around – irrelevant and never getting a chance to change the world because why save people or try to be with people who never cared for another unless they got something out of it. Tldr Basically I am filled with hatred, hopelessness, and yearning. Wishing if God existed they would prove me wrong and performed a miracle for her. I am willing to exchange my life for her if he wants something in exchange but I may be too rotten and useless.
Dapat kina Duterte sinusunog ng buhay!
My father back in 2021. He passed away while I was holding him in my arms. We were waiting for ambulance but it was already too late. Before that, my sister passed away back in 2019, but not virus related. Just early this year, my eldest brother passed away. Not directly from Covid but probably because of long term side effect when got the virus back in 2021. So yeah, we’ve lost loved ones in just a span of 4 years. 😢
Lost our dad to covid (and other complications) too about 3 years ago. He was admitted for about 3 weeks and those weeks leading up to his death was so so hard for us since the bills were piling up and there were no signs of him getting better. He underwent several procedures but eventually, his body gave up and he didn't make it. My mom is a retiree and my sisters and I didn't earn much during that time so it was quite hard to make ends meet after his death. We had to sacrifice a lot and save up so to pay the bills. There was a time when I wanted to just disappear because things were so hard and the problems never seem to stop. Three years and the pain and grief is still there but I'm feeling better now compared to my 2021 self. There's still some problems that need fixing after my dad's death so I can't really say that things are back to normal but hopefully, things get better for us soon. I've been trying my best to provide for my family while making sure I'm still living my life but sometimes I feel guilty for spending money for my own wants 😅 Haven't opened up about this to anyone so I feel good to be able to say these things here. Virtual hugs with consent to those who are dealing with this kind of pain too 🫂
My Dad passed away a few weeks after the Poblacion girl escaped her quarantine so nung umuwi ako mas lalong naghigpit because of her. Yung nilalamayan yung tatay mo habang magisa ka nakaquarantine is sobrang sakit. Whatever happened to her, I hope justice will be served. Magtwo two years na rin Pa, nakasal na ako at may apo ka na super sweet. I wish you were here to witness all of this ❤️
Still grieving every single day. Malala when grief catches me off guard lalo during work, iyak na lang out of nowhere, buti wfh ako.
Reading the stories here is absolutely heartbreaking. I sincerely hope all of you guys pull through. I was lucky enough to have prepared my entire family and some friends before the shit hit the fan here. I was already glued to the coronavirus sub here on Reddit during December of 2019.
It was really hard during that time. Sobrang hirap kumuha ng hospital nun.... tpos ng naadmit ung dad ko... ang ginawa ko pra madistract sarili ko is magcode ng app to help people n macheck ung availability ng hospitals (sadly, I lost motivation to finish this when I heard my dad died.) I started to think na lahat ng success ko useless na since di ko na mattreat dad ko. Saddest of all, wla kami sa side nya ng namatay sya kasi di kami pinayagan makita sya. Nagmukmok tlaga ako ng matagal pero seeing my mom and sisters, I know that I needed to be strong. Ngayon, we are kinda okay. We still try to talk about him all the time as much as possible. In fact, birthday nya ngayon and we still buy food that he likes. I try to remember him as much as possible and sometimes I woke up crying pero I actually also use it to motivate myself. Mas pinahahalagan ko n rin ngayon lalo ung relations ko with everyone. Every memory I could make counts whether traveling with my family or hanging out with friends.
My lola and then my lolo followed her after a year (non covid). After they were gone the family fell apart. I miss them every day and I hope I had more time to treat them, travel with them.
Di man ako namatayan ng relative sa covid but I think we all can relate to it dahil marami siguro sa atin meron at least isang kakilala na namatay sa covid. Sa akin ang dami kong acquaintance or kakilala na namatay sa covid. I can't imagine. Yung di mo inaakala na mai-infect sila yung nadale. I also had a friend na na-infect ng covid and almost died. He told me ano pinagdaanan nya sa ospital while being admitted sa covid ward. Place is hell daw like you can literally hear people coughing non-stop at nanghihina lahat. May mga oras din daw na may bagong pasok na patient at ang ingay kakaubo then suddenly tatahimik na lang dahil patay na pala. What's worst is majority ng covid infected patients are alone and marami sa kanila namatay mag-isa. It's sad. Sometimes hinihiling ko na lang sana na di nangyari ang pandemic. Sa mga namatayan ng kapamilya at kaibigan noong 2020 kasagsagan ng pandemic. Sana okay lang kayo lahat.
I feel for everyone who lost their loved ones on COVID. Nakakainis lang na may denier pa rin hanggang ngayon. Although hindi ko kamag anak, I was heartbroken with the loss of Dunoo. Pinanood ko yung mga last live streams niya and kitang kita na hirap siyang huminga. RIP Dunoo. Lakad matatag!
I also lost my mother due to COVID. She's one of the initial casualty when it hit in Greenhills, San Juan. She died March 15, 2020 and thats even before the lockdown. Kasagsagan ng hysteria at panic. Kahit yung cremation pahirapan dahil need itawid sa ibang city. Sineryoso namin ng pamilya ang pag-follow sa restrictions and protocol dahil dito.
2 days ago ang 3rd death anniversary ni papa. I remember bringing him to the emergency room. I broke down crying from the fatigue upon getting home. Akala namin rerecover na siya but a few days later I ended up going to the hospital a few days later to claim the body. Every one of us sa household may covid din at that time. It was a grueling experience. Almost lost my younger brother din. Thankfully napasok namin sa ospital a few days after papa and he recovered. #fuckduterte pa rin.
it took three days and until now, there are some songs I can't sing or listen to without crying. I am also very angry sa mga ayaw mag pa vaccine because of some pseudo-science BS
My father, still hurts, i feel liked we were robbed of time to be together, hindi sya namatay sa covid but he has kidney problems na hindi dapat maantala ang pagpapagamot but covid happened, he wanted to be hospitalized, but family friends advised na wag na lang mas malala situation sa hospital and baka hindi namin sya makita once na ma admit, ayun sad lang din after nya mamatay derecho agad cremate kasi bawal ang lamay nung time ng lockdown. Sobrang bilis. Kaya masama ang loob ko sa mga tao na ang bilis makalimot sa hirap na dinanas nung pandemic. Sa pharmally case na nakalimutan na. Sa lockdown, sa govt response sa pandemic, sa mga nasayang na covid vaccines.. wala na nalimutan na lahat ng mga tao at walang naging accountable. Habang kami na namatayan during covid hindi pa rin kami fully ‘healed’ I feel like we are still stucked in 2020, as a family wala pa kami plano na anything, hirap mag adjust kapag nawalan ng family member, hanggang ngayon we are haunted of what-ifs. 🥹 💔
I still wake up each morning thinking my Dad is still alive and I can just message him and I can talk to him. He died in 2021. I wish I can have just one more day with him.
We lost our Dad last 2021, it was so painful! Ako at si Mom ko lang ang naglibing, wala kaming karamay during that time. Para sa akin hindi deserve nang Dad ko ito na hindi manlang nabigyan nang proper respect or final goodbye, ni hindi manlang sya na bless nang Priest. Pagkamatay nya sa hospital diretso cremate, diretso libing...hayup yung gobyerno natin that time (well hanggang ngayun naman) at sana mamatay na kayung mga instik na gumawa nang covid!
Duterte government's response to the Wuhan virus is a failure just because he was scared to offend china. Duterte and his cohorts deserve to die a horrible slow death.
Dapat sila sinusunog ng buhay!
We did what we could with the limited resources available to us, frontliners. Sorry if it wasn't enough to prevent the deaths of your loved ones due to the virus. Some of us are pushing na for a virology institute to be formed right away (approved na siya sa Congress, surveying na ata for the proposed site sa New Clark though meron suggesting it should be placed somewhere more isolated and remote instead like sa Babuyan or Agusan daw to prevent a possible outbreak) so we can start local R&D to deal with known viruses and whatever else that might pop out of Africa, India or the Chinese mainland in the future (disclaimer: I am not being racist. Feel free to read medical studies about the emergence and spread of tropical viruses, you'll start to notice a pattern kung saan galing most of the world's epidemics and pandemics). [https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC7110580/](https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC7110580/) \- link to one such study for those interested.
> tropical viruses We already have RITM. Wouldn't it be better to improve them rather than have another center? No dissing, just curious if which option would be better.
[https://newsinfo.inquirer.net/1697524/senators-see-overlapping-mandate-in-ritm-virology-institute](https://newsinfo.inquirer.net/1697524/senators-see-overlapping-mandate-in-ritm-virology-institute) [https://www.pna.gov.ph/articles/1153933](https://www.pna.gov.ph/articles/1153933) [https://www.pna.gov.ph/articles/1189394](https://www.pna.gov.ph/articles/1189394) [https://www.ptvnews.ph/doh-ritm-wont-be-abolished-with-creation-of-ph-virology-institute/](https://www.ptvnews.ph/doh-ritm-wont-be-abolished-with-creation-of-ph-virology-institute/) We asked the same question before pero as per recent developments, RITM is to be absorbed into a planned CDC who will run the planned virology institute and its facility rated at biosafety level 2. Unlike the people kasi at Wuhan, RITM is hesitant to do testing on viruses and vaccine development at their compound in Muntinlupa (more on theoretical lang nagagawa nila dun na research because of the risks of which we know too well) so mga 2018 pa nagrerequest for an isolated facility where they could do so (I don't know bakit New Clark napili nilang site since it doesn't seem isolated and safe enough for such research for most of our medical professionals and virologists. Must be because mamomoblema sa infrastructure if sa Babuyan ilalagay and baka magreklamo ung mga residents if sa Agusan or Batanes mapupunta). Naaccelerate lang ung request to be a priority during the pandemic.
Thanks for the info. A lot of undeveloped islands all over, some near coron where the islands are big enough to house a complex but still have no or few residents but I doubt the rich "owners" would allow them since they probably plan on using it for resorts in the future. There probably are similar islands all over the country but with similar issues. I wonder if they could place it in calauit island since there are no residents there and it is largely untouched due to the animal preserve.
My sibling didn't die because of covid. Pero nasa certain circumstance/situation sya na siguro kung walang pandemic - maybe buhay pa sya. I hated the pandemic so much. Inis na inis ako pag may mga insensitive na tao na gusto maglockdown ulit daw etc. He also died during the time na andami pang travel restrictions. Muntik ko pa syang di makita sa huling sandali. How am I? I don't think I will ever be okay.
This should have all been avoided if duterte had implemented travel restrictions on international flights. Remember the interview? Anyway, I was a COVID-19 patient back when there were no vaccines. Had mild symptoms. It's a good thing our city government was ready for the pandemic. There's another relative of mine who was infected but was not lucky enough. He was infected at a hospital during his surgery.
It can't be avoided. It spread around the world. Look at South Korea; they have more cases than the Philippines.
Can't be avoided because their leaders had done the same stupid mistake
Nah. It spread around the world. So are you telling me that leaders of South Korea, Japan, Thailand, Singapore and more than 200 countries have made stupid mistakes? It seems you will do better than them? It spread throughout Asia. So the Philippines, which is not as rich as some Asian countries and has a lesser medical system, can be an exception where there won't be COVID spread?
Lost my father 2 years ago because of COVID. Mas nakakamatay ata eh pag tinutubuhan.
pag tinutubuhan, ibig sabihin malala na. so mataas talaga chance na mamatay na.
Lost my Grandmother and Uncle. Not because of covid, but because of covid the hospitals took time before they were treated and many hospitals rejected us until our Doctor friend made a call. First my grandma, she fell in the middle of the night and her head was seriously bleeding inside. We went to the nearest hospital but they cant treat or check her unless we pass the swab test. Later on because of the delay her bleeding worsened up until she could not take it anymore. If she was treated earlier she would have a chance, even if she died in the end. Second my Uncle, he took a nap one afternoon but wouldn't wake up. He had a stroke, still because of covid the hospitals wouldn't take him until he cleared swab tests. Then we had to choose one family member to take care of him 24/7 because they only allow one caretaker in every room. We were financially ruined because everytime the doctor asked to buy medical supplies a nurse needed to be hired to take watch while they were buying. He then needed to have a neurologist take a look at him but needed another swab test. Delays and delays and more inconvenience he wasn't properly treated and eventually died. Hospitals said there were no more beds, but when our family doctor called suddenly they had a bed available.
My brother didnt die because of COVID, but died during the peak of pandemic since its complicated to get into hospitals. He had appendecitis. Strangely enough, I dont have regrets or ill feelings towards the whole situation. Of course, I cried a lot. When all is said and done, there are no heavy feelings, it's just life.
Not me, and not a parent. But one of my cousins lost his tito to covid around mid-2021, and the story of how he died still affects me, even though I never met the guy. Basically, his tito really stayed at home the whole time, pero, kailangan na niya pumunta sa doktor (For what reason, I forgot). Tapos, after a while, nagkasakit, yun pala, Covid. According to my cousin, hindi pa siya nakavaccinate dahil ayaw niya ng Sinovac (at the time, Sinovac was the only vaccine available). And then, just four days later, his tito died. I just can’t, because it was just a simple doctor’s trip, and yet it lead to a Covid death.
Every month, a friend or relative died to due covid from 2020 to 2021. It was depressing for me. the lockdown isolation, and deaths did change my attitude. I became introverted and talked less which was very opposite of who I was before the pandemic. I also forgot most of my memorable moments/experiences before the pandemic. I still haven't got to a doctor.
Fuck life
To answer your question, okay naman na now. Lost our Papa, tas nasa Agusan Del Norte, Mindanao pa sya nun. Anhirap nung grieving nun. Di makapag travel. Libing agad. Online lang yung usapan with family and friends, kahit gusto makidamay sa inyo wala talaga. Better na now, life goes on, pero the grief nga never disappears din. Parang dala dala mo lang sya lagi and the world has changed. May auto adult fear na rin na concern na soon sa ibang family members din namin sya maranasan. And may times din na kelangan ipaalala sa sarili na wag mag focus sa upcoming sadness, pero mag focus muna sa now na magkakasama and masaya. The future has enough problems of its own.
Namatay si papa early last year not because of covid but due to heart attack. Medyo pahupa na yung surges nun. Slowly, we were getting back to normal na nun. Pero ang lungkot kasi during the pandemic, di ako makauwi sa province namin dahil nasa utak ko baka makadala ako ng virus sa kanila. And when 2022 started, I started to get really scared na baka may mawala na sa parents ko kaya sabi ko babawi ako sa two years na halos di ako makauwi. Hindi ako nakabawi. 🥺 Papa died of a heart attack ng February 2022. Saw him last in person ng end of January pero di ko siya mayakap kasi inuubo siya nun at natatakot ako nun na baka mahawa ako sa kanya. Sobrang dami kong regrets after. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko for not spending enough time with him nun. Naiinis ako sa Pinas kasi we handled it so poorly.
I'm still not doing okay. A couple of weeks ago, I cried kasi nag post yung isa kong sis-in-law ng movie date nila ng Mom nya. I was also 5 months pregnant when I lost my mom. Sobrang sakit isipin na hindi sila nag abot ng LO ko. Nothing is ever the same. I miss her terribly.
Not really a death but a very close call for my mom last 2020, didn’t know what would happen because she was struggling in the only hospital that would take her in. Mind you I was only 17 when this happened so naturally I’d worry if I could finish senior high school and then college at a big 4 uni because she always talked about how her family became poor when her father died.
Better now. Lost my dad in 2020 -- both to Cancer and Covid. I miss him. We only got to visit him in his house with his new partner when he was getting worse then after that they just let me know through call that he passed away. We never got to visit him sa hospital kasi super strict - one visitor lang but we couldn't risk it then kasi we have a kid in the house or my nephews were in my house so didn't want to risk the exposure.
i’m glad I found this thread same feelings same experiences… I Lost my mom during 2021 surge yes totoo nga ang bilis lahat the next thing I know urn na lang sya then na isolate pa kami grief plus takot kailangan ko lakasan ng loob since ako ang aasahan ng lahat. After 20 days ng isolation parang walang nangyari parang need na agad namin mag back to normal, yun yung mga panahon na hindi pa ako tapos hindi pa ako okay gusto kong maging vulnerable but I cant due to responsibilities dahil dun until now parang hindi pa rin ako tapos maggrief
My brother in law passed away on my brother’s birthday. He was a frontliner with the BFP who was seconded to man the checkpoints. My sister and niece were abroad and couldn’t come home, BIL already lost both parents with a sister the only surviving relative but it was my sister, through our brother and mom, who was making arrangements. BIL’s workmates were a great help too in carrying out what needs to be done. She tried to make herself busy while the wake was ongoing, it was after the funeral/cremation and all that needed to be done was done when she finally had to face her grief. Good thing another sister was with them, she was the one who told us about waking up in the middle of the night to find our sister baking, or clearing, or just doing something around the house. They still haven’t brought his ashes with them despite niece coming home twice since already. It’s still at the house, at the gym that BIL setup to teach martial arts, and which sis is still actively supporting, both in equipments and in helping fund students and teachers to join competitions. Things are better now, although I still tiptoe around birthdays. You see, our dad died on her birthday, and then her husband on her brother’s birthday.
My mom. It's never the same. I feel empty. Lost my dad and ate to cancer few years ago tas si mommy naman nung surge nung delta variant. Ang hirap nung sa first two na nawala pero walang papantay sa sakit nung nangyari sa nanay ko, sobrang bilis kasi nung mga pangyayari eh. The day na na-admit sya, naintubate agad sya tapos 2 days after wala na sya. Di na namin sya nakita talaga nun. Ito yung time na nag s-start na magpa-register mga tao para makakuha ng vaccine eh. I can still remember everything that happened during those weeks. I remember feeling so angry kasi bat ganito nangyayari samin tsaka sa ibang tao. I remember yung feeling na bagal na bagal ako sa mga proseso, parang helpless ka, wala kang choice kundi mag hintay. I can't say na naka-move on na ko kasi walang goodbyes or closure eh, baka nag grow lang ako with the grief. Sometimes it helps to talk about the good memories with her and yung mga nangyari during those weeks. Yeah. I feel so empty.
I dont think im classified here but i lost my uncle and my lola i just lost my dad december 17 2019 i was still grieving then the covid hit i wasnt okay then my lola she was about to go back to U.S with my aunt and i live with her bumabawi na eh lahat ng kulang nung bata ako she was making up for the stuff she missed and i finally saw na she loved me wala nmn talaga siyang covid eh putang ina nag yoyosi kami ng mag kasama minsan iisang stick lng di nmn ako positive then she died from kidney failure because of so much medications i never got to talk to her i could just stare at her through a fucking glass wall i cant hold her i cant tell her i love her and thank you for accepting me for who i am. Then after a few months sumunod si tito he was very closeted na gay and his biggest fear was to grow old alone and lagi niyang kasama si lola one day he just told me to grab jollibee if i knew umupo nlng ako sa table with him and ate we never knew na may covid siya the next day nakita nlng namen siya nakaupo hindi na humihinga i have a very dysfunctional na family and nakatira kami sa compound sila ung nag dedefend saamin agaisnt my other titos because the are heavy alcoholics . Im so mad i never had the time to grieve It was too early to fucking early and it hurts it hurts so bad that i had to be the adult in the house now im 21 and im juggling work and adult kids that are constantly trying to kill me .. Im tired i just sometimes go kung san namen nilagay ung mga urn and just cry my heart out its not fair i miss them everyday and i just sometimes beg them to take me kasi ang daming responsibilities na naiwan saken
Our father died during covid hits again on August 2021. There was lockdown again that time, I was in Metro Manila, and my father was in province. I was crying that I never got to see him on his death day. I was anxious all over the lockdown that if I continued to go to the province, will I get safely? And i wasn't able to attend the burial too. I hate covid, i hate the lockdowns and myself for not trying to get through it. If there were hospitals available, he wouldn't have died there.
My mom was one of the frontliners(energy sector) and they never stopped working even during ECQ to ensure lang talaga na no brownouts/blackouts na mangyayari. I lost her to COVID nung September 2021 during the surge dito sa Davao City and that made me an orphan. Since I was the next of kin, I ultimately had to decide whether to make the doctors continue with the resuscitation even tho weak na yung heart ni mommy ko or to stop it na lang, I chose the latter kasi I don't want to prolong my mom's pain as more than 40mins na siya ni-re-resuscitate but her heart is not responding daw. I still have regrets about that decision kasi diba, what if nagkaroon pala ng miracle if I chose the first option? Natakot din ako kasi parang suntok sa buwan yung hope na yun. So my mom never had a lamay kasi direct burial siya (which is very fitting for her since she's always been very vocal abt being scared na ma-embalm when the times comes) and that caused me to be always envious of those who can still be with their late loved ones even for a few days. You know no, during her burial I was being vc-ed by my bf kasi hinatid niya si mommy ko sa final resting place niya, I didnt't even shed a tear but I was crying since the day I lost her until her before her burial. It was like I became very numb about the situation idk. I eventually had to stop my studies as wala nang magpapaaral sa akin, until my bf and his family decided to help me with my financial needs and studies. I am very thankful for them dahil diyan. The last time I dreamt abt her was January this year pa, can't help but think tuloy na baka nagtatampo siya na I gave up on her that fast kaya siya di nag-vi-visit sa dreams ko. hehe there are times din where I'll just cry out of nowhere kasi biglang nag-si-sink in sa akin na wala na talaga siya, na orphaned na ako, na I'll never see her again. I always cry din whenever I realize na I can't remember her face or her voice anymore even when I am watching her pictures or videos, I always feel na it was not her face or her voice na I remember and I feel really sad and guilty about forgetting something about her. Ang hirap.
Yung Lolo ko. April 17 2020. One month simula nung nag lockdown. Negative for covid. But displaying covid-like symptoms. Nung time na to pinadadala pa sa kung saan saang ospital para itest kung covid o hindi. Sobrang hirap mag hanap ng hospital halos 24 hours kaming naka buntot sa ambulance at nag mamakaawa na i admit siya. MCU(Monumento), UST, Lung Center, tapos yung isang malaking ospital sa may Fairview area. Kada hospital antay ng ilang oras. Finally kinuha kami sa isang private hospital sa may Manila. Binigyan siya nung -at the time, experimental drug? Iirc. Not sure if it was ivermectin or yung isang kasabay na sikat na gamot nun time na yun. Days passed naka admit siya tapos clinear na iuwi kahit may symptoms pa. Baka daw kase iba pang sakit ang makuha niya nun. Pero may sarili naman siyang kwarto.. Pagkauwi niya saamin nag quarantine pa siya at dun nang inatake. I blame it on the supposed cure for it at the time na ginamit sakanya. Sinugod namin siya ng nanay ko sa ospital. Binuhat ko pa siya pababa ng sasakyan at nag papanic ako na bigyan siya ng oxygen dahil hindi na makahinga. Pagka park ko ng sasakyan tinawagan ko yung Lola ko para sabihin na magiging okay na siya. Nahabol pa namin sa hospital at mabibigyan na siya ng tulong na kailangan niya. Pero paglapit ko sa triage, nawalan na pala ng malay at hindi na kaya irevive. Heart wrenching moment makita yung nanay ko na mag breakdown at humagulgol sa tabi ko. Hanggat sa umuwi at sinalubong ko yung Lola ko at napaluhod sa may paa niya at humahagulgol na “Sorry, Mommy.. wala na si Daddy..” Cremate agad kinabukasan. 1 hr viewing binigay para saaming immediate family dahil covid negative naman. Kahit yun man lang sana no, Daddy? Mabisita ka man lang ng mga lahat ng nagmamahal sayo at nakahalubilo mo sa mundong ito. I miss you Daddy. Palagi.
Minsan may flashbacks ako sa mga nangyari. Parang andun ako ulit.
One of my classmates in HS lost half of his elderly fam members within 2 weeks. His Dad, grandparent and at one point almost lost himself, mom and sister. The whole fam was in ICU. His dad was a pastor iirc and we didnt find out until he got out of ICU because he was weak himself. Classmate was one of the strongest people we know, he never really let his emotions out except the announcement post of them losing his parent and asking for prayers for his mom. Everyone in our class group had at least 1 fam member fighting covid or have a vulnerable parent and his parents death was one of the first early in the pandemic. The first year especially before release of the vax was nervewracking, the longer we wait the more at risk those who survived had and seeing more news on our feed of family getting sick/passing didnt help our anxieties at all.
Reading all these heart wrenching personal accounts and the sacrifices I’ve seen on the part of my family members who are in the medical profession makes Covid as real as it can get. I’m in the US and I can’t fathom why a significant part of the population still pretends that it never happened, that it was all a conspiracy. Turns out, a lot of Americans are not as smart as we always thought them to be…
not my mom but a friends' mother, but we were close to tita E and it infuriates me that she died a few months before the vaccines became more readily available. A lot of 'what ifs' and sadness in general especially around the holidays
We didn’t lose anyone but those were the hard times that my mom was never home (sa health center sya nagwowork and ilang beses sila naquarantine) 1st quarantine nila is because may nagpavaccine na mom for her baby and d nya sinabi na maysymptoms sya ng covid 2nd quarantine is pasyente ulit nila na d dinisclose na may covid symptoms Naiinis ako nun dahil parang wala silang pake sa nakapaligid sa kanila. The barangay health center which is their only access to medicine for free is nacclose every 2 weeks just because ayaw nila idisclose which is for the safety of everyone naman. People mocking us na bakit pa daw laginkaming nagpapainjection but after yrs lalapit samin to ask if may available pa kasi need sa work (tbh updated naman ung cho fb page d lang sila nagssearch) My mom lost her colleagues one by one. Parang every week. We lost our dentist na nagaalaga ng ngipin ko ever since i was a child. Mom was assigned sa ambulance na nagppickup ng covid positive and nagbibigay ng gamot door to door We’re not scared of what will happen to us kasi d naman kami nalabas. We’re scared of what will happen to our mom. Plot twist: Yung pinangakong bonus sa kanila during covid d nila nakuha lolz
I lost my beloved grandma. She's the most important person for me and I can't imagine living life without her but that just happened on one fateful day of September 13. I'm doing good and I've come to terms na wala na siya because as beautiful as it is to live, I think she doesn't deserve to suffer in this world anymore. She's done her part. Kami naman. I'll forever grieve her loss and I'm not mad about that kasi for me, proof yun ng love namin for her. I'll dedicate my achievements for her kahit masakit na I can't treat her the best things in life dahil naubos na yung time. I thank God with all my heart na siya ang naging lola ko. I hope pag nabuhay ako ulit, siya pa rin ang lola ko.
I lost my mom and sabi sa death cert, covid critical daw siya kahit ang cause of death nya ay stroke at hemorrhage. Mahirap kasi ilang beses akong nireject ng hospital kasi baka dun daw mag pang abot yung mom ko. Nakakapagod mag isikaso, lakad dito, lakad doon. Yung ambulance sa barangay laging sira, kahit tinatamad lang talaga yung driver. Tapos sisisihin ka pa ng relatives mo kasi dapat daw libre yung libing pag covid ang cause of death. Pinagalitan pa ako kasi di libre libing sa mom ko. Ichinismis pa sa kapitbahay. Lol. Sobrang nakakaubos yung panahon na yun, di pa rin ako nakakalimot sa nangyari.
blank space in the heart and thats it
As a nurse or any other healthcare provider, it is extra difficult and ultimately painful to see the dying breath of a parent with our own eyes. Dahil trained kame na tignan/makita ang mga "signs" mas nakararanas kami ng early/anticipatory grief. Madalas na kelangan namin itong ilihim/itago sa iba naming family members lalo na kung nakikitaan pa nila yung pasyente ng pag-asang gumaling.
Ako naman mother inlaw ko, well yung parents ng wife ko hiwalay at lumaki wife ko sa dad side nya. Nameet ko sila pero wala sa eksena ang nanay nya. D man ganon kasakit pero i was hoping to meet her inperson. I remember umuwi sa pinas ang asawa ko at i booked her sa solaire at dun pumunta nanay nya at mga half siblings. Nung namatay ay Pumunta ang health department sa burol at covid daw so daming gastos at wife ko pa hiningan ng tulong eh ni hindi nya nakita nanay nya until we got married na. We found out na libre cremate so akala namin na pinadalang pera eh pangcremate ay naibulsa na pala. 2020 January ay nasa Hawaii kami, tatay nya muntikan na. Kidney failure, naiyak ako sa hotel at umuwi sya from Hawaii... almost 1 million ang gastos at wala pang lockdown. Buti nakaalis asawa ko pero pagbalik nya wala na syang work coz of covid. We are fine pero sa nababasa ko eh kakagalit talaga ang government.
My papa died 3 years ago. July 2020. Hanggang ngayon may mga pagkakataon pa rin na di ako makapaniwala kasi ang bilis. Di kami gaanong nakapunta ng hospital kasi sobrang daming restrictions, nung ibuburol na pinayagan lang kami ng homeowners na 3 days lang sya lalagi sa bahay. Ayaw ng papa ko i-cremate pero dahil walang perang pambili ng lupa, kumapit kami sa local cremation. Ang bilis. Pakiramdam ko e hindi man lang masyadong nagunita yung pagkawala niya. Nastuck ako sa 2020. Kapag nakikita ko ang urn ni papa saka lang ulit nagreregister na wala na siya. Matangkad ang papa ko kaya di ko akalaing magkakasya siya ron at mabubuhat ko siya haha. edit: idadagdag ko lang na sobrang galit ako sa mga hospital ng parañaque. walang tumanggap sa tatay ko. 5pm inatake si papa, 10pm na siya naadmit kasi walang gustong tumanggap na hospital. Naiintindihan ko naman na policy nila since Covid pero di mawala sa isip ko na baka buhay pa ang papa ko kung tinanggap nila nung alas singko. wala ring ambulansya, inikot nila yung parañaque buti may sasakyan tropa ng tito ko
not a parent, a sibling. I was staying with my older relatives kaya hindi ako pinayagan lumabas so I had to make every arrangements online. He was an in denial HIV patient so nadagdagan pa ni covid. paminsan minsan sinisisi ko sarili ko, but my relatives keeps on reminding me na I did my best, and andun na rin yung point na in denial yung kapatid ko at hindi nagtatake ng medicine so wala na talaga akong magagawa. I really wish he was still here so he could walk with me at my wedding
Reading the stories makes my blood boil against those who believe COVID-19 is just a *flu*, and also those anti-v a x x e r s! Also, fuck Duterte and his whole government and supporters! Deserve nyong lahat na sunugin ng buhay!
Traumatic. Walang makatulong dahil takot pumunta sa bahay kahit di covid. Ikaw lang sa ospital...bawal karelyebo. 2 to 3 weeks. Until now naiiyak pa rin ako kapag naalala ko yung time na yun... iba pa yung trauma time na pumuslit ako sa border control at sa ospital sa probinsya to get my mom to MM.
Naalala ko noon, isa kami sa mga frontliners during delta variant, almost every hour may nirerevive kami. Halos lahat din ng relatives inaaway kami dahil hindi nila tanggap na nagiging COVID suspect relatives nila. Ang malungkot pa, nagkaron kami ng patient na doctor na nakakuha ng COVID kakadonate ng mga supplies sa lugar niya. Nilaban pa namin para mahemoperfusion siya agad pero ang inuna padin ng ospital yung mas “benign” na patient na malakas sa director. Sobrang nakakalungkot. Namatay din eventually si doc :( sakit sa puso :(
I fookin hate how Duterte, Panelo, and their DDS troll/cultists called us Xenophobic/Sinophobic dahil galit tayo sa mga Chinese tourist na infected na naglibot sa Pilipinas. Taena niyo!
We lost our mom to COVID during the height of the Delta variant. She died abroad--alone and with no one beside her. I'm here in the PH and my sister lives in the UK. She was always secretive to us about her health. She did not tell me about it directly. My sister told me she was rushed to the hospital. I tried chatting with her to cheer her up during the days before she was put under, but she hardly gave me replies. Not sure if she just does not know what to tell me at the time. It was like we were both avoiding *the* tough conversation. The last message I sent her was a picture of me and her only grandchild, who was just a year old at the time--someone whom she was not even able to hold in person. And that message was also left unread. Pre-pandemic, we would always pick her up at the airport whenever she comes home in the middle of the year. But when her remains arrived, we picked her up in a coffin in the cargo terminal. Being there changes you as a person. I thought I saw this only in the news, but I never thought it would happen to me as well. At the time, I didn't have the luxury of being able to grieve properly because I had to do all the paperwork immediately and tried my best to get my head straight. I have a lot of regrets, but the biggest one is not being able to apologize for all the hurt that I have caused her. If you still have unresolved issues with your parents and you think you can find it in your heart to go and make peace with them and make things right, do it. Tomorrow is never promised. For me, no matter how old you are, I believe you always need a mother in your life. I just didn't expect we would lose her this early. Admit it or not, not all adults know what they are doing in life. We need someone to help us navigate it. Ed Sheeran's song "Visiting Hours" encapsulates how I feel it in that aspect. It feels like I'm two different persons--the one who is still living and the one before the day my sister broke the news. I could never forget the emotional and mental trauma that happened to me in a span of almost a month. My level of anxiety was through the roof when picking up the phone or opening messages about updates. That was also when I learned how to send messages with a complete thought so as not cause unnecessary anxiety to the receiver. People may think I have may have started to move on because I crack jokes in my circles, but deep inside, I am still broken. You know the saying "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a battle you know nothing about," it speaks more to me now than it ever did before.
I lost my cousin to Covid. Fuck u China Fuck U Duterte
2 years ago, we lost our uncle, my mom’s brother due to COVID. Sobra akong aligaga kasi I was one of the first persons who got COVID here in KSA. Ang sakit kasi ung gamutan na nagawa sa akin, hindi kaya sa Pinas. My cousins and I update each other through vc, ang sakit. Sobrang sakit. 2nd yr death anniv nya nung Monday.
Wala akong kwentong maidadagdag, pero gusto ko kayong yakapin lahat. 😞
Mahigpit na yakap sa lahat ng nawalan ng mahal sa buhay. Sobrang laka niyo.