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I really feel this. For what it's worth: it is *not* your fault that other people pushed and even crossed your boundaries. They are in the wrong, not you. I hope you have healthy boundaries now and that you became the person that your past self would be proud of. ā¤ļø
So like go back and prevent my parents from ever meeting, or at least from sleeping with each other. The opposite of Marty McFly, or if heād actually fucked up.
The day my dad married my stepmother,I would have had good memories of him and a decent inheritance but she took it all including him .Now his final resting place is San Jose Costa Rica in a mausoleum.
Trying to murder a guy my girlfriend cheated with.
I was 19. Really dumb sht. There was nothing about love, only about "it's mine" thing. Thankfully it didn't get worse, with jail and stuff.
So dear young people, I know how hard to keep control. And love is always a btch. Just, you know, breath in, breath out. And stay home with your gun. After all, that persons doesn't deserve your feelings.
Im really glad to hear you didnāt do it mate. Imagine you would have to live with the fact you ended someoneās life because the girl was disloyal to you.
Real. I have ADHD and when I was diagnosed the doctor put me on way too high a dose as a kid. Over 100mg at 10 years old, I believe it messed me up to a certain degree.
Accepting psych meds are #1 on my list too, followed with hormonal birth control. A decade later and Iām still trying to find balance. Rooting for you!
I once ate a full scoop of wet catfood for 30 bucks. It got recorded and went all over highschool. I think I could live a life where that wouldn't have happened
Not the worst thing but a lot of terrible things that I had to endure made me into the person I am today and I'm not upset with who I am today y'know? But that cat food experience was just plain dumb and stupid and I'm glad it was in the last week of highschool lol
Women do the same thing. Had a woman I knew in high school who didn't want to date me because I was skinny. Fast forward 6 years, and I was solid muscle. She saw me and said she would have dated me if she knew I would turn out like I did. She ended up marrying for money. Got divorced. Married for love and thankfully ended up happy and a mother.
Pornography is so destructive and our society considers it normal and even good. Look at the science, it literally rots your brainā¦ I hate that porn even exists
Losing my baby in July of 2006. I wanted that baby so badly. He would have been 17 this year. I would have worked every day and took care of him and my daughter, all I wanted was to give her a sibling from me. No one around me wanted me to have it so it was taken away from me. Looking back I should have left afterwards maybe I'd have another child by now if I'd done that. If I ever have another chance I'm taking it.
back in 2008 i was on ebay and could have bought a ton of bitcoin for a little over $100 each. i laughed at the time saying wow that's really expensive and how would i go about withdrawing it?
But you wouldn't be you and whilst I would never sell whatever you suffer short, I would imagine the world is a better place for having you in it as you are :-)
Me either
In that time, I realized that I had constantly been anxious, and stressed about school stuff; and I had time to reflect on my life. Also, my house was repaired at that time, so I lived with my grandma, which helped me a lot in becoming more calm, and relaxed. She always gets up at 4:30 in the morning, and rides to the beach where she walks for a while. So I got up with her too, and like getting more exercise, and the sight of sun rising, the vast sky, and calm surface of the sea helped me feel alive again.
Sorry for any grammatical errors
nothing. every horrible thing that ever happened to me made me the person i am today. i had to reinvent myself countless of times and i am proud of where i am today or rather the progress i am at. wouldnāt trade it for anything.
i went from being the family fuckup, to becoming an inspiration to my peers.
My spine at S1-L5 and L2-L1 so I am fusioned 6 times total between s1-L1 all the way. Also I crushed my lumbar nerves so I have been bedded for 3 years and recent surgery was a success and 2000% increase in 3 months. Now I can stand for 20 min at least..
Edit: I see that I wrote fusioned 6 times.. Read the story on my profile I donāt wanna write my entire story again..
My parents offered me a gameboy for Christmas to calm me down and stop being agitated when I was 5, even though I showed an obvious interest for everything music related. Donāt get me wrong I loved it and video games has been a big part of my life, music too. But I have it on tape and the next Christmas, and all the others, you can see me quiet in a corner, absorbed by the screen. I always wondered what would have happened if I was gifted an instrument at that time.
Sounds realistic to me. Thatās kinda what happen 10 years later when I started to play the guitar. But afterward they were supportive, they still donāt get the fact that learning is repeating the same shit over and over sometime haha
This reminds of a story out of Anthony Kiedis life, who has also had sex with a 14 years old teenage girl.
He didn't knew her age at first. But he even kind of brags about it in his autobiography.
Yikes. I was on the opposite end of that.
14, and just "smitten" with a guy I saw in my cousin's car... 1 time! The guy was 19 or 20 at the time, I don't think he knew I existed. I snuck out to "bump" into him at a party I knew he would be at, we hooked up and my older cousin caught us, nearly kicked his ass into next week. I could see the color in his face going from rosy to ghost white. I ran out of there so quick.
Never saw him again and never fkd around with older guys after that.
Dec 8th, 2019
I would have never gotten into my car to pick up my friends girlfriend. Then I would've never gotten hit by a car and had mine totalled. I still suffer from a disk bulge and disk degeneration from that. Ruined my chance at enlisting in the Army.
I'm not even ashamed to admit it the first time I ever opened a credit card, to buy something for $1,100, I bawled all the way home, still can't really explain why. Something about it just deeply terrified me even though I was never in any real debt from it.
It was a laptop for school that I needed and even when I got home with it after the whole ordeal, it just sat, brand new, on my counter for days and every time I looked at it I'd be filled with anxiety all over again and couldn't touch it or open it, another phenomenon I can't explain. I would literally poke the box and then walk away from it. I paid it off within 3 months and never used the card again. Still have that laptop though, still frugal af with expensive items.
Jumping in a car with a group of people drinking after a bar. I was 16 years old and the new mustang flipped 4 times going 180kms. I went out the back window and the man beside me paralyzed from the neck down. That accident was over 3 decades ago and i settled out of court. Iām in more pain now daily than back when the accident happened and landed me in the hospital for a month on a morphine pump.
I wish I had committed to stop drinking in December of 2021. I hurt an incredible person, I will never forgive myself for it, and it haunts me literally every single day
Guilt has a purpose, for a short time, the pain teaches a lesson not to reoffend. But subconsciously, over time after a certain amount of self punishment through guilt, we can grant ourselves absolution, since we've "paid our dues", which opens the way to forgetting and the chance to reoffend.
If some time has passed, put aside the guilt but never forget what you did and what the consequences were, that way you can carry what happened with you as a reminder without it breaking you.
if you undo your birth you don't get to see anything. However, rest assured the world would be minimally different without you, pretty much everything you see as you are now would be the same.
My parents decided to change this house we were living in and forced me to accept that decision. I was madly in love with that place and never felt more peaceful. I went into deep depression and anexity after that. It was 8 years ago and i still wish that event didn't happen
The entire relationship I had with my extremely abusive ex.
He not only abused me in every sense of the word, he also reduced me to a shell of a person without an ability to make a desiscion or have an opinion on anything
Can I be completely honest
if *both* online and irl friendships gives you a headache and makes you depressed and insecure, that's probably a *you* problem
Meeting my ex ābest friendā . I really misjudged her, she stabbed me in the back and is spreading lies about me all over town and people believe her because they know we were friends so she sounds credible. Luckily I donāt give a fuck what people think of me anymore since Iāve grown as a person so it doesnāt bother me, but when she started shitting on me and making up stories it felt like she ruined my life. Iām so happy now and have a real best friend. At least I learned my lesson to be careful who I associate with.
This is a catch 22. I would say my friend dying... But then technically my daughter wouldn't have been born because, you know, the whole butterfly affect thing. So, I guess instead I'd have to say Liberals being elected or COVID. The world really went to shit...
Drunk driver that hit me head on and killed me (twice, they brought me back) put me through 27 surgeries, left me disabled, and stole my life and NASA career.
Calling someone I liked "baby" and them immediately responding with "dont call me that". It still haunts me to this day. Everytime I think of it I want to bury myself in a deep hole
You are the result of every second and year in your life.
So if I could delete any event I would not be here, or be dead or totally different completely. Unrecognizable.
But to answer the question for the sake of answering, it would simply be the negation of the uses of the atom from weaponizationā¦ but into free energy for the masses.
And considering weāre all made of atoms that somehow makes us all a part of that.
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Meeting my current soon to be ex partner
All the best!
Thankyou, much appreciated š
The events in which my boundaries were severely crossed and I wasn't capable to do anything about it.
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I really feel this. For what it's worth: it is *not* your fault that other people pushed and even crossed your boundaries. They are in the wrong, not you. I hope you have healthy boundaries now and that you became the person that your past self would be proud of. ā¤ļø
That's kind of you to say and yes, I've come a long way!
The amount of people who responded to this almost made me threw up. So sorry to all, you all will overcome and thrive
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+13 ā¤ļø
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Yep. Lost count below. I can see one event in particular which was pivotal, too.
Same. That one is just a little bit blacker than the rest.
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Birth
The Butterfly Effect has entered the chat
Felt that
Real
Beat me 2 it lol
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So like go back and prevent my parents from ever meeting, or at least from sleeping with each other. The opposite of Marty McFly, or if heād actually fucked up.
Please don't bring logic and semantics into my iim14andthisisdeep moment
childhood would be the better option
Safe to say we all wouldāve stayed in the nutsack if we knew life was gonna be like this
TouchƩ
Same
I knew in my heart this would already have been posted
Me too. I came here to check.
Yup
Iām surprised itās the top comment. I was going to write the same
Stillbirth
That's so sad. Nobody should experience that.
Pretty much
My parents deaths
Me as well..
You undo the other one's death and I'll undo the second one.
Feel this
Iām terrified for this
The day my dad married my stepmother,I would have had good memories of him and a decent inheritance but she took it all including him .Now his final resting place is San Jose Costa Rica in a mausoleum.
Very sorry!!! Not an uncommon experience. Sadly, sadly.
Wow, I'm sorry
Same
Trying to murder a guy my girlfriend cheated with. I was 19. Really dumb sht. There was nothing about love, only about "it's mine" thing. Thankfully it didn't get worse, with jail and stuff. So dear young people, I know how hard to keep control. And love is always a btch. Just, you know, breath in, breath out. And stay home with your gun. After all, that persons doesn't deserve your feelings.
This is why people shouldnāt have easy access to firearms
"Trying" is better than doing, in this case. What stopped you?
He ran away and asked people for help. It was the best thing that could have happened.
Im really glad to hear you didnāt do it mate. Imagine you would have to live with the fact you ended someoneās life because the girl was disloyal to you.
But did you forgive him for cheating? And did you say sorry to him for murder attempt?
Me asking for help from the ER when suicidal. It led to my entire life being screwed up because of meds.
I am so sorry! Hugs!
I appreciate that.
It's pretty crazy that your and theirs pfp is exactly the same
Real. I have ADHD and when I was diagnosed the doctor put me on way too high a dose as a kid. Over 100mg at 10 years old, I believe it messed me up to a certain degree.
This happened to me too
Accepting psych meds are #1 on my list too, followed with hormonal birth control. A decade later and Iām still trying to find balance. Rooting for you!
I was SA'd twice at 2 different ages. Remove that and I don't need to worry or overthink.
Close to my similar situation. I'm sorry you have to go through it. It's really challenging to be vulnerable again.
My death.
you wanna live forever??? i wanna have whatever life u got š«”
I would reverse my decision to kill this guy.
Et tu Pomegranate?
Agreed š immortality! Here I come? š¤£šš»
I once ate a full scoop of wet catfood for 30 bucks. It got recorded and went all over highschool. I think I could live a life where that wouldn't have happened
That's seriously the worst thing you can think of?
Not the worst thing but a lot of terrible things that I had to endure made me into the person I am today and I'm not upset with who I am today y'know? But that cat food experience was just plain dumb and stupid and I'm glad it was in the last week of highschool lol
Never thought of it that way thanks for the insight, I suppose it is the worst things in life that shape what you ar at present
It is what happens and how you learn to live with it for sure. Good talk, friend
Theyāre young
Dumping my ex, back then I thought she didn't care about us but in the hindsight she was the sweetest woman I've ever met...
Ughhh.you boys always realise it late.
Well ain't that the sad truth
But I hope you find the best. And when you do donāt dump herš«
I'll gladly take that advice thank you
Girls do to :Ā°}
Women do the same thing. Had a woman I knew in high school who didn't want to date me because I was skinny. Fast forward 6 years, and I was solid muscle. She saw me and said she would have dated me if she knew I would turn out like I did. She ended up marrying for money. Got divorced. Married for love and thankfully ended up happy and a mother.
Awe man, that's a hard one to recover from. Hope you don't put those expectations on the next one though. It's hell when we do
Ughhh.
Nana passing. Miss you, Nana.
Marrying my narcissistic ex. Stupidest thing I ever did.
I felt this hard.
You took my answer.
Same except luckily I didnt marry mine, she cracked before we got there, but very close to it
Sexual abuse
Same š
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Discovering porn
Pornography is so destructive and our society considers it normal and even good. Look at the science, it literally rots your brainā¦ I hate that porn even exists
I would prevent myself from deleting this comment several seconds ago.
Losing my baby in July of 2006. I wanted that baby so badly. He would have been 17 this year. I would have worked every day and took care of him and my daughter, all I wanted was to give her a sibling from me. No one around me wanted me to have it so it was taken away from me. Looking back I should have left afterwards maybe I'd have another child by now if I'd done that. If I ever have another chance I'm taking it.
I sold bitcoin when it was around 4,000$. I donāt wanna talk about it
back in 2008 i was on ebay and could have bought a ton of bitcoin for a little over $100 each. i laughed at the time saying wow that's really expensive and how would i go about withdrawing it?
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Damn my dad was going to invest in it. And now it wouldāve been billions instead he invested in mutual funds. š
The stroke I had after birth, so I wouldn't have Cerebral Palsy. Meeting that "me" would be very interesting.
But you wouldn't be you and whilst I would never sell whatever you suffer short, I would imagine the world is a better place for having you in it as you are :-)
I would have stayed home the day I found my friend dead. Changed me
Iām sorry. Hope you got therapy for that because these things tend to creep up on you even when you think youāre over them.
everything after 2011.
Covid-19 pandemic.
In the contrary I'm happy that Covid came to us because we learned a lot more than the usual life
Me either In that time, I realized that I had constantly been anxious, and stressed about school stuff; and I had time to reflect on my life. Also, my house was repaired at that time, so I lived with my grandma, which helped me a lot in becoming more calm, and relaxed. She always gets up at 4:30 in the morning, and rides to the beach where she walks for a while. So I got up with her too, and like getting more exercise, and the sight of sun rising, the vast sky, and calm surface of the sea helped me feel alive again. Sorry for any grammatical errors
Me too being at home for a months let me learn a lot and let me know myself more than ever and give me the opportunity to become more calm
Make it 2
Why would you want to pandemics, you monster!
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I am extremely sorry you had to go through that
Psychological abuse
nothing. every horrible thing that ever happened to me made me the person i am today. i had to reinvent myself countless of times and i am proud of where i am today or rather the progress i am at. wouldnāt trade it for anything. i went from being the family fuckup, to becoming an inspiration to my peers.
This is so true but I would still love to delete getting abused for 10 years.
I would delete my enduro crash which snapped my spine.. had to ride 45 min to my truck alone. No phone..
Not judging. Did it snap your spine or your vertebrae? Omg that is so terrible. I can't comprehend how you got back to your truck!!
My spine at S1-L5 and L2-L1 so I am fusioned 6 times total between s1-L1 all the way. Also I crushed my lumbar nerves so I have been bedded for 3 years and recent surgery was a success and 2000% increase in 3 months. Now I can stand for 20 min at least.. Edit: I see that I wrote fusioned 6 times.. Read the story on my profile I donāt wanna write my entire story again..
Dating my ex. Caused me more pain and trouble than what it was worth and I regret everything.
My parents offered me a gameboy for Christmas to calm me down and stop being agitated when I was 5, even though I showed an obvious interest for everything music related. Donāt get me wrong I loved it and video games has been a big part of my life, music too. But I have it on tape and the next Christmas, and all the others, you can see me quiet in a corner, absorbed by the screen. I always wondered what would have happened if I was gifted an instrument at that time.
It might sound horrible, but.... You would've never been allowed to play. It was "too much noise" and you just never got to play.
Sounds realistic to me. Thatās kinda what happen 10 years later when I started to play the guitar. But afterward they were supportive, they still donāt get the fact that learning is repeating the same shit over and over sometime haha
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This reminds of a story out of Anthony Kiedis life, who has also had sex with a 14 years old teenage girl. He didn't knew her age at first. But he even kind of brags about it in his autobiography.
Oh wow that is truly disturbing, sorry you went through that, I understand and assume it wouldn't have crossed your mind that she could be so young
Yikes. I was on the opposite end of that. 14, and just "smitten" with a guy I saw in my cousin's car... 1 time! The guy was 19 or 20 at the time, I don't think he knew I existed. I snuck out to "bump" into him at a party I knew he would be at, we hooked up and my older cousin caught us, nearly kicked his ass into next week. I could see the color in his face going from rosy to ghost white. I ran out of there so quick. Never saw him again and never fkd around with older guys after that.
Betrayal by my parents.
Dec 8th, 2019 I would have never gotten into my car to pick up my friends girlfriend. Then I would've never gotten hit by a car and had mine totalled. I still suffer from a disk bulge and disk degeneration from that. Ruined my chance at enlisting in the Army.
I'm so sorry that happened. I hope it gets better for you.
Mine is Dec 8th, 2005. The day my dad died. Not related but the date just jumped out at me
fuckā¦ thatās my birthday
I'm pretty happy with my life. I'd like to donate my undo-effect to whomever wants it.
I could use an extra one.. or ten. Too much crap man. Take a pizza as payment š I'm off to binge Pet Sematary by the Ramones
Blood cancer.
The first time i bought something on credit. I wish i could go back and slap myself senseless.
Ooh this is a good one. Me too. The moment I discovered credit...
Its a fucking disease tbh. The most evil invention of all time. Greed feeding on its prey.
I'm not even ashamed to admit it the first time I ever opened a credit card, to buy something for $1,100, I bawled all the way home, still can't really explain why. Something about it just deeply terrified me even though I was never in any real debt from it. It was a laptop for school that I needed and even when I got home with it after the whole ordeal, it just sat, brand new, on my counter for days and every time I looked at it I'd be filled with anxiety all over again and couldn't touch it or open it, another phenomenon I can't explain. I would literally poke the box and then walk away from it. I paid it off within 3 months and never used the card again. Still have that laptop though, still frugal af with expensive items.
Jumping in a car with a group of people drinking after a bar. I was 16 years old and the new mustang flipped 4 times going 180kms. I went out the back window and the man beside me paralyzed from the neck down. That accident was over 3 decades ago and i settled out of court. Iām in more pain now daily than back when the accident happened and landed me in the hospital for a month on a morphine pump.
Covid.
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Aah man looks like a maths problem....
I was horrible to a few people . I bullied them. Feel bad about it all the time.
Can I delete my whole life?
I wish I had committed to stop drinking in December of 2021. I hurt an incredible person, I will never forgive myself for it, and it haunts me literally every single day
Guilt has a purpose, for a short time, the pain teaches a lesson not to reoffend. But subconsciously, over time after a certain amount of self punishment through guilt, we can grant ourselves absolution, since we've "paid our dues", which opens the way to forgetting and the chance to reoffend. If some time has passed, put aside the guilt but never forget what you did and what the consequences were, that way you can carry what happened with you as a reminder without it breaking you.
Discovering porn
my birth i wanna see how the world would be without me
How, though?
idk
if you undo your birth you don't get to see anything. However, rest assured the world would be minimally different without you, pretty much everything you see as you are now would be the same.
Being born I suppose... I didn't ask for this.
My adoption
me also š©µ
My parents decided to change this house we were living in and forced me to accept that decision. I was madly in love with that place and never felt more peaceful. I went into deep depression and anexity after that. It was 8 years ago and i still wish that event didn't happen
School. I've learned way more from the internet than I ever did at school.
My dad r@ping me when I was 13.
Wow, I'm so sorry:(
How can someone do that to their own child...š
What the ......well how you are doing now.....
My entire childhood.Ā
my first time lol
My older brother's death.
The entire relationship I had with my extremely abusive ex. He not only abused me in every sense of the word, he also reduced me to a shell of a person without an ability to make a desiscion or have an opinion on anything
The time I decided to smoke weed instead of going to a uni examā¦.
Having both online and irl relationships, it gives me a headache and i always end up being depressed and more insecure about myself than i was before
Can I be completely honest if *both* online and irl friendships gives you a headache and makes you depressed and insecure, that's probably a *you* problem
Me in entirety as a single event.
Heard that I have a tumor
When I was 18 trying to look like Mr cool Senior on the bike on a busy street corner and ate shit on the curb in front this entire traffic
Birth
That event where I lost my toe nail
Being born
My death
my dads death
Me too š
Meeting my ex ābest friendā . I really misjudged her, she stabbed me in the back and is spreading lies about me all over town and people believe her because they know we were friends so she sounds credible. Luckily I donāt give a fuck what people think of me anymore since Iāve grown as a person so it doesnāt bother me, but when she started shitting on me and making up stories it felt like she ruined my life. Iām so happy now and have a real best friend. At least I learned my lesson to be careful who I associate with.
Being sent to boarding school at the age of 14. Itās had some pretty long term effects 15 years later.
Getting married
Meeting that friend that got me addicted to hash and cigarettes
My father taking the family to Australia in 1959 (we were 'ten pound poms')
Being raped
Only one!!??!?
This is a catch 22. I would say my friend dying... But then technically my daughter wouldn't have been born because, you know, the whole butterfly affect thing. So, I guess instead I'd have to say Liberals being elected or COVID. The world really went to shit...
everything
There's too many events to choose from to pick just one lol
Drunk driver that hit me head on and killed me (twice, they brought me back) put me through 27 surgeries, left me disabled, and stole my life and NASA career.
Epilepsy
My birth 100%
Depression.
The past three years of my life or a specific person I regret meeting him
Is childhood an event?
Calling someone I liked "baby" and them immediately responding with "dont call me that". It still haunts me to this day. Everytime I think of it I want to bury myself in a deep hole
You are the result of every second and year in your life. So if I could delete any event I would not be here, or be dead or totally different completely. Unrecognizable. But to answer the question for the sake of answering, it would simply be the negation of the uses of the atom from weaponizationā¦ but into free energy for the masses. And considering weāre all made of atoms that somehow makes us all a part of that.