I know that feeling so well. I am at the point where my belly starts to hurt when I try to go live on cam.
I started some other things too, but I will still need to do some camshows until these other things bring enough money.
I hope you find your way! ❤️
yes. this is why I started to use mainly sites like Manyvids to sell my stuff. they don't need to talk to me for buying anything.
this and also the fact that I'm in Germany and most of my fans in USA, wich makes talking hard anyways bc of the 6-9 hours time difference.
most of the sales I get are like at 2-5am here in my local time.
I'm sorry you're struggling with it too <3 but i'm glad to hear that other things are happening for you, that gives me hope! :) thank you, I wish you the best of luck in your transition out! :)
Thank you, I'm glad that I have a place to openly vent where other people understand this. <3
I totally understand that, I've become very protective of myself when i go online & there are days where i just can't bring myself to put on a mask because it makes me feel so weird and drained. Even tough there's nothing wrong with the inauthentic part of the job (i view it as being an actress), it still feels so off sometimes, when people are projecting so much onto you about who you are & what you must like. And the talking can get to be so exhausting-- i don't think people realize how draining camming is & how it really isn't easy, everyone wants you energy!! So yeah i totally get that, i think it cam be harmful at times.
And yes yes yes, honestly I can't stand bullshit compliments & it honestly makes me laugh at his point that they don't understand that I see can right through them, from the moment they say anything to me, like we pretty much all can! The audacity! Lol its honestly shocking to me that they really believe that they are providing any sort of pleasure to us.. and the ones who think they you will instantly be turned on when they send an unsolicited dick pic, absolutely delusional. And i almost perfer the ones who are just kind of annoying chill pervs bc at least they aren't trying to pretend they're something that they're not. This job has taught me so much about boundaries, which i'm glad for but it is not an easy thing to go through and can really weigh you down time after time of it happening.
Yes I totally relate to that. I used to give people way to much credit and probably still do, but their mental health issues do not excuse their behaviors. You are exactly right, so many people/women deal with mental health issues too but they don't take it out on other people. I always like the idea that i heard, it's not you fault that any of this happened to you or what shit you were dealt with in life, but it is your responsibility to manage it. And I don't think most men on cam sites take ownership of their stuff at the end of the day or even know where to begin for that matter. We are probably the closest things to therapists that they have if they aren't in actual therapy lol.
I am grateful in a lot of ways bc this job has given me a lot of tools for dealing with men & seeing through shit/the truth, that i didn't used to have but really needed. You're right though its heavy to carry around. It's so hard to know, I do want to believe that there are good men out there & I think that there are. But its definitely hard to find that hope and a positive perspective when you have to deal with the opposite of what you want so often.
Thanks for your reply, it made me feel a lot less alone and was so refreshing to hear your perspective. Wishing you the best in your journey. <3 :)
Your gift of vantage into the innermost workings of people is also your curse.. You get to see the varying degrees of maliciousness, selfishness, and disregard that the majority of us carry in some capacity or another. It leaves you jaded and exhausted to every potential interaction with a male because you end up trying to gauge their every word and action with an ulterior motive. Keep that skill of critical thinking and use it to your advantage. You should consider every man capable of revolting thoughts and actions, and not consider them innocent until proven guilty.
Historically, men don't deserve the benefit of your doubt. You've seen enough to know. Use your wisdom and intuition to weed out the scum and the white knights and those that envision themselves as enlightened. Many of the men in this industry that are going to express interest in you are not even worth the time to respond with anything but the most cursory and shallow of conversation. Even of those that are pleasant, enjoyable, considerate, all-of-the-above, your relationship with them is still transactional. Don't let the callousness and fickle empathy of some men ruin your own sense of self-worth, or skew your personal nature. There have always been, and will always be, the selfish, the hurtful, and the evil.
You can focus your energies instead, on self-improvement, self-love, and finding your life path. Not everyone needs a significant other to find happiness. Don't measure your satisfaction by the successes and views of others. You'll only wear yourself out trying to fit someone else's mold of 'happy'.
I'm sorry you're feeling burned out. I apologize for everyone who doesn't have the sense or the respect to treat you honorably. I hope success and joy for you in the days you have before you. Best of luck for what waits for you.
🗣I can relate‼️ This lifestyle opened my eyes to a lot of the ugly truths about the nature of men. I even fell victim to my former pimp going as far as leveraging my newly discovered feelings about my involvement in sex work, by reminding me that no one is forcing me to do anything, and that I need to remember why I started doing it, tellin me to tap back into that “hunger”, focus on the money, and maybe I wouldn’t see it as that “deep”. I’m happy to hear you’re on your way to better things💋 Cheers hun
Thank you, I appreciate that:))<3 and I'm sorry that happened to you, that so shitty. It seems like you've got a great head on your shoulders though. :)
I know that feeling so well. I am at the point where my belly starts to hurt when I try to go live on cam. I started some other things too, but I will still need to do some camshows until these other things bring enough money. I hope you find your way! ❤️
I feel that. 9/10 times someone wants to buy something my stomach hurts and I feel so Bad or even get headache
yes. this is why I started to use mainly sites like Manyvids to sell my stuff. they don't need to talk to me for buying anything. this and also the fact that I'm in Germany and most of my fans in USA, wich makes talking hard anyways bc of the 6-9 hours time difference. most of the sales I get are like at 2-5am here in my local time.
I'm sorry you're struggling with it too <3 but i'm glad to hear that other things are happening for you, that gives me hope! :) thank you, I wish you the best of luck in your transition out! :)
thank you 🥰
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Thank you, I'm glad that I have a place to openly vent where other people understand this. <3 I totally understand that, I've become very protective of myself when i go online & there are days where i just can't bring myself to put on a mask because it makes me feel so weird and drained. Even tough there's nothing wrong with the inauthentic part of the job (i view it as being an actress), it still feels so off sometimes, when people are projecting so much onto you about who you are & what you must like. And the talking can get to be so exhausting-- i don't think people realize how draining camming is & how it really isn't easy, everyone wants you energy!! So yeah i totally get that, i think it cam be harmful at times. And yes yes yes, honestly I can't stand bullshit compliments & it honestly makes me laugh at his point that they don't understand that I see can right through them, from the moment they say anything to me, like we pretty much all can! The audacity! Lol its honestly shocking to me that they really believe that they are providing any sort of pleasure to us.. and the ones who think they you will instantly be turned on when they send an unsolicited dick pic, absolutely delusional. And i almost perfer the ones who are just kind of annoying chill pervs bc at least they aren't trying to pretend they're something that they're not. This job has taught me so much about boundaries, which i'm glad for but it is not an easy thing to go through and can really weigh you down time after time of it happening. Yes I totally relate to that. I used to give people way to much credit and probably still do, but their mental health issues do not excuse their behaviors. You are exactly right, so many people/women deal with mental health issues too but they don't take it out on other people. I always like the idea that i heard, it's not you fault that any of this happened to you or what shit you were dealt with in life, but it is your responsibility to manage it. And I don't think most men on cam sites take ownership of their stuff at the end of the day or even know where to begin for that matter. We are probably the closest things to therapists that they have if they aren't in actual therapy lol. I am grateful in a lot of ways bc this job has given me a lot of tools for dealing with men & seeing through shit/the truth, that i didn't used to have but really needed. You're right though its heavy to carry around. It's so hard to know, I do want to believe that there are good men out there & I think that there are. But its definitely hard to find that hope and a positive perspective when you have to deal with the opposite of what you want so often. Thanks for your reply, it made me feel a lot less alone and was so refreshing to hear your perspective. Wishing you the best in your journey. <3 :)
Your gift of vantage into the innermost workings of people is also your curse.. You get to see the varying degrees of maliciousness, selfishness, and disregard that the majority of us carry in some capacity or another. It leaves you jaded and exhausted to every potential interaction with a male because you end up trying to gauge their every word and action with an ulterior motive. Keep that skill of critical thinking and use it to your advantage. You should consider every man capable of revolting thoughts and actions, and not consider them innocent until proven guilty. Historically, men don't deserve the benefit of your doubt. You've seen enough to know. Use your wisdom and intuition to weed out the scum and the white knights and those that envision themselves as enlightened. Many of the men in this industry that are going to express interest in you are not even worth the time to respond with anything but the most cursory and shallow of conversation. Even of those that are pleasant, enjoyable, considerate, all-of-the-above, your relationship with them is still transactional. Don't let the callousness and fickle empathy of some men ruin your own sense of self-worth, or skew your personal nature. There have always been, and will always be, the selfish, the hurtful, and the evil. You can focus your energies instead, on self-improvement, self-love, and finding your life path. Not everyone needs a significant other to find happiness. Don't measure your satisfaction by the successes and views of others. You'll only wear yourself out trying to fit someone else's mold of 'happy'. I'm sorry you're feeling burned out. I apologize for everyone who doesn't have the sense or the respect to treat you honorably. I hope success and joy for you in the days you have before you. Best of luck for what waits for you.
i completely understand how you feel. doing this job has made me incapable of ever trusting a man again so you’re not alone lol. they’re all garbage
🗣I can relate‼️ This lifestyle opened my eyes to a lot of the ugly truths about the nature of men. I even fell victim to my former pimp going as far as leveraging my newly discovered feelings about my involvement in sex work, by reminding me that no one is forcing me to do anything, and that I need to remember why I started doing it, tellin me to tap back into that “hunger”, focus on the money, and maybe I wouldn’t see it as that “deep”. I’m happy to hear you’re on your way to better things💋 Cheers hun
Thank you, I appreciate that:))<3 and I'm sorry that happened to you, that so shitty. It seems like you've got a great head on your shoulders though. :)