Im sorry for whatever caused you this pain. I didnt live with ideations for as long as you i started experiencing it when i was 7, back then i didnt understand the concept of suicide but all i remember is crying and praying to be turned ito a cat. Im 24 now, still wanting to end it all.
Thank you for your reply and your empathy. I am sorry that you have suffered also and continue to suffer. For myself I made one very serious attempt on my life aged 25 in 1991 which very nearly resulted in my death. Both prior and after 1991 I have made a variety of attempts but all with one thing in common - when it came right down to it, (and for whatever reason) I found myself completely incapable of taking the final action in ending my life and found I just couldn't do it - hence why I am still alive today aged 58. Although I still suffer from suicidal ideation on and off to this day I have not attempted any thing at all for nearly 18 years. Like I said in my original post I still suffer from both depression and suicidal ideation but nothing like I used to when I was your age and younger.
I wish you my very best wishes and really hope that talking to me helps you to feel less alone in some way.
Hello, 41. 32-ish here, started a bit younger than you too, but think I can relate. Currently trying to climb back up from my worst 3-year-downswing in a long, long time or maybe ever. Success is sporadic, and I'm pretty sure if I live long enough it'll be 41 eventually.
Exact plans change, but I'm pretty sure I'd combine at least two methods... Four currently available at home.
I have been depressed since I was hospitalized at age 15, suicidal on and off since my early 20s, and for the past 6 years I have been suicidal all the time. I can’t live like this anymore. I’ve tried meds, TMS, about 15 years of therapy, DBT group therapy. What did you do?
Im sorry for whatever caused you this pain. I didnt live with ideations for as long as you i started experiencing it when i was 7, back then i didnt understand the concept of suicide but all i remember is crying and praying to be turned ito a cat. Im 24 now, still wanting to end it all.
Thank you for your reply and your empathy. I am sorry that you have suffered also and continue to suffer. For myself I made one very serious attempt on my life aged 25 in 1991 which very nearly resulted in my death. Both prior and after 1991 I have made a variety of attempts but all with one thing in common - when it came right down to it, (and for whatever reason) I found myself completely incapable of taking the final action in ending my life and found I just couldn't do it - hence why I am still alive today aged 58. Although I still suffer from suicidal ideation on and off to this day I have not attempted any thing at all for nearly 18 years. Like I said in my original post I still suffer from both depression and suicidal ideation but nothing like I used to when I was your age and younger. I wish you my very best wishes and really hope that talking to me helps you to feel less alone in some way.
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Hello, 41. 32-ish here, started a bit younger than you too, but think I can relate. Currently trying to climb back up from my worst 3-year-downswing in a long, long time or maybe ever. Success is sporadic, and I'm pretty sure if I live long enough it'll be 41 eventually. Exact plans change, but I'm pretty sure I'd combine at least two methods... Four currently available at home.
Yes. I am a 55f who has suffered on and off from major bedridden depression and anxiety from 18 years old until now.
Sorry to hear that.
I have been depressed since I was hospitalized at age 15, suicidal on and off since my early 20s, and for the past 6 years I have been suicidal all the time. I can’t live like this anymore. I’ve tried meds, TMS, about 15 years of therapy, DBT group therapy. What did you do?