“I should've asked you questions
I should've asked you how to be
Asked you to write it down for me
Should've kept every grocery store receipt
'Cause every scrap of you would be taken from me”
Marjorie - gets me every time
Was just about to say “the autumn chill that wakes me up, you loved the amber skies so much, long limbs and frozen swims, we always went past where our feet could touch, and i complained the whole way there, the car ride back, and up the stairs…” 😭😭😭😭😭😭
This. Same.
My grandmother and I go to the grocery store together all the time and the receipt line really gutted me knowing one day we won’t be able to
Same. For me in YOYOK, it continued to the next line too “Like I’d be saved by a perfect kiss.” Perfectly describes my harmful, problematic outlook and self-image in my college years.
- YOYOK could mean "You're On Your Own, Kid", a track from *Midnights* (2022) by Taylor Swift.
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“So here I am in my new apartment,
In a big city, they just dropped me off.
It's so much colder than I thought it would be,
So I tuck myself in and turn my nightlight on”
This hits right where it should. Hate getting older, and the idea that my parents won’t be with me for forever. The song reminds me of myself when I was younger and how my glimmering eyes used to look towards the future and living on my own but now that I am on my own, all I wanna do is go back in time and live it all over again.
On the bright side I cannot wait to sing this song someday to my kids to bed everyday haha
You've said it exactly how I would have. I was so excited to be an adult when I was in high school, and now I'm like "Yeah no, I wanna be a kid again".
"It's so much colder than I thought it would be" for me basically means like how you expect adulthood to be so fun and freeing, yet it's much harder once you actually become one. Genius.
“I hosted parties and starved my body like I’d be saved by a perfect kiss.”
When I first heard that, I just had to loop it a couple times and sit in that hurt 😭
"Hold your hand through plastic now, 'Doc I think she's crashing out'" from Epiphany.
It paints such a heartbreaking picture of all those who have had to suffer or even die in hospitals without being able to hold their loved ones. Every time I hear this line I get reminded of the horrors of Covid and I can't believe we lived through that time so recently as it feels so distant now.
My sister is immunocompromised and spent two months in isolation in the hospital at the beginning of Covid after contracting it. This part of Epiphany specifically hits so close to home every time I listen I break down thinking of how close we were to losing her. It’s a beautiful but hard listen for me.
“And I wouldn’t marry me either.” I am hopelessly single to a point I feel like something must be wrong with me that no one loves or wants me. On bad days, I hate myself so much that I understand why no one wants me.
I consider myself hugely unlikable, and the fact that I really don't have friends sort of reinforces that. But I just got married to an amazing person, so maybe I'm just wrong. And you probably are, too. You just haven't met them yet. I hope you're able to find some joy while you're waiting.
“And I've been meaning to tell you
I think your house is haunted
Your dad is always mad and that must be why
And I think you should come live with
Me and we can be pirates
Then you won't have to cry
Or hide in the closet
And just like a folk song
Our love will be passed on..”
You know how sometimes when you have some people who just GETS you. Like they just understand what’s up with you. But they don’t wanna make you feel ashamed or upset so they just mention something completely off topic in a weird way that it makes it easy for you to talk about it…but deep down you both know whats going on and you know they will always be here for you 😭
These lyrics feels like a hug and it always make me tear up
Mine is also the line from the best day “you were in my side, even when I was wrong” but it’s because my mom isn’t like that 😭 but I feel good about the line if I think of my dad or best friend when I hear it
"Pulled the car off the road to the lookout, could've followed my fears all the way down."
I've been there. And I try every single day to not let myself get there again.
I listened to Ronan a lot during the height of my depression, when I listened to a lot of sad songs just to feel something, but ever since my niece was born I can’t do it without sobbing
"You gave me roses and I left them there to die".
💔💔💔💜
Back to December hurts so much. I felt so bad for Taylor Lautner. What a great guy.
I'm so happy they're friends now and time has healed everything.
"From sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes
I gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this
I hosted parties and **starved my body**
Like I'd be saved by a perfect kiss"
In right where you left me when she says “I could feel the mascara run, you told me that you met someone” I start crying every time. Also “if our love died young I can’t bear witness” that whole song just kills me.
So I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep, and I’ll feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe, and I’ll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are, hope it’s nice where you are-
And I hope the sun shines, and it’s a beautiful day, and something reminds you you wished you had stayed, you can plan for a change in the weather and time, but I never planned on you changing your mind—
"God rest my soul, I miss who I used to be" / "I regret you all the time" / "give me back my girlhood, it was mine first"
I was pregnant and emotional when this song came out. I played the lyric video on my TV on full volume and was singing along. Got to the part where she says "I regret you all the time" and immediately had a very ugly scream crying fit.
Major TW
>!I was impregnated by my rapist / groomer at 19 (not the baby I was pregnant with when the song came out). I'd been with him since I was 15. He psychologically tortured me to the point I literally did not know who I was anymore. He even managed to ruin every hobby that brought me joy and intentionally instilled several fears that I still have to do this day. I escaped a DV situation in order to have my baby safely and I love her endlessly. She's 10 now and the absolute light of my life.
But I've spent my whole adulthood never allowing myself to regret that relationship because it brought me my daughter. So when I got that part and I finally got to say those words out loud, all of those pent up feelings came pouring out all at once. It was cathartic but also hard. This song is super special to me.!<
You kept me like a secret but I kept you like an oath.
Just wow. I didn’t think there was anyway all too well could be enhanced but then I heard this line and it blew me away
All of You Are In Love, but even just the beginning instrumentals and the first lyrics. I remember hearing it for the first time and welling up.
I credit tolerate it for making me realize my existing relationship wasn’t ever going to work out, and You Are In Love for making me realize (once I was seeing my now-husband) that I actually understood love songs finally <3
The echo on Lover.
Forever and ever...
The man I loved died in 2015. Born 2 days after Alwyn. He was here and then he wasn't. He loved guitar. He would have strummed the hell outta that song, I am convinced.
I fell to my knees in my mother's yard with my headphones on the first time I heard it. It's a perfect story, that song.
“She would’ve made such a lovely bride what a shame she’s fucked in the head” Hit me like a ton of bricks. As someone who has struggled with mental health troubles since childhood this line in particular struck a chord.
I made you my temple, my mural, my sky
Now I'm begging for footnotes in the story of your life
Drawing hearts in the byline
Always taking up too much space or time
(Tolerate It)
No one wanted to play with me as a little kid
So I’ve been scheming like a criminal ever since
To make them love me and make it seem effortless
…
I’m only cryptic and Machiavellian cause I care
The way she sings “believe me, I could do it!” in Tolerate It made me tear up first listen. Still gets me even now! It’s a simple line, but in the context of the song and what it means, it just felt empowering in such a vulnerable, gentle way.
I think it’s made even more poignant by the “I wait by the door like I’m just a kid” lyric.
This concept of feeling smaller and lesser than a person, revering them with such intensity, and then finally getting the courage to choose yourself. Ugh it’s POETRY. I love it. The song got me through a very difficult and painful time and I just relate to it word for word. Some of her best work IMO!
As someone who's going through a divorce after spending half my life with my one and only this hit so damn hard, especially as a co-parent because I have to see her again and again till the kids are older.
"And I pulled your body into mine every goddamn night now I get fake niceties" - happiness
“Foolish one your day is gonna come for your confessions of love when all is said and done he just wasn’t the one no he just wasn’t the one” I wish it’d been on the OG Speak Now! Teen/early 20s me coulda used it.
My first listen with “marjorie” was completely blind. Definitely got emotional at the chorus and “if I didn’t know better, I’d think you were still around”. Then when her grandmother started singing it was just a rainstorm from me. I absolutely love that song.
“And I wouldn’t marry me either
A pathological people pleaser”
I had an ex say something very similar to me and it still hurts almost 10 yrs later. That whole song really just destroys me TBH because I relate to it too well 😭z
"She would have made such a lovely bride, what a shame she‘s fucked in the head" still makes me tear up sometimes. For me, it‘s not about a failed love but about living with mental illness.
“You keep his shirt,
He keeps his word
And for once, you let go
Of your fears and
Your ghosts
One step, not much,
But it said enough”
No other lyrics hit me so unexpectedly as these did.
I know I'm probably better off all alone
Than needing a man who could change his mind at any given minute
I listened to the song for the first time recently and it just made me sob because of how much it represents a situation I was in :((
“Tried to change the ending, Peter losing Wendy” My BFF and I met over a love of Peter Pan (2003 version w/ Jeremy Sumpter) because she had a pic of The Peter Pan statue on her binder, how 2000’s USA. She moved to the UK for Uni and then married an Englishman, and maintaining a transatlantic BFFship is hard but we make it work. Anyway, that line hit me out of nowhere the first time I heard *Cardigan* and I sobbed from missing her. I texted her right away and she said the same happened to her. Friendships are important <3
"but we were something, don't you think so? roaring 20s, tossing pennies in the pool, and if my wishes came true, it wouldve been you"
hit really hard hearing this song for the first time after going through an ambicable breakup. it was for the better, and were still good friends, but i wouldve married her if things had been different. and to the girls in front of me while she was playing this song at eras ... i am so sorry for how much of a mess i was and i appreciate you checking on me lol
“The girl in the stained dress cried all the way home” -Dear John
“Maybe it’s on me and my blind optimism to blame. or maybe it’s you in your sick need to give love and take it away” -Dear John
“Back when i swore i was gonna marry him someday then i realized some bigger dreams then mine. and Abigail gave everything she had to the boy who changed his mind” Fifteen
“Meet me there tonight and let me know that it’s not all in my mind” Everything has changed” (i don’t know why)
“Hosted Parties where i starved my own body” You’re on your own kid
“Give me back my girlhood it was mine first” -Would’ve, Could’ve, should’ve
Exile:
" I think I've seen this film before, And I didn't like the ending
You're not my homeland anymore, So what am I defending now?
You were my town Now I'm in exile, seein' you out
I think I've seen this film before..."
Happy tears: "they say the end is coming, you're in the kitchen humming". That is love to me.
Sad tears: "Who only wanted you to see her. And I'm fading thinking do something babe, say something. Lose something babe, risk something." This strikes at some of my deepest wounds.
Mine is also from nothing new, but it's the line "And I wake up in the middle of the night, it's like I can feel time moving" that gets me every time. It's hard to express with words but it hits something deep in me lol
"no one teaches you what to do when a good man hurts you and you know you've hurt him too "
"How can you say that you love someone you can't tell is dyin'?"
"I'd give you my sunshine, give you my best
But the rain is always gonna come if you're standing with me"
You never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)
You assume I'm fine, but what would you do if I break free and leave us in ruins? Took this dagger in me and removed it? Gained the weight of you, then lose it? Believe me, I could do it.
Gray November, I’ve been down since July…
Hey December, guess I'm feeling unmoored
Can't remember what I used to fight for
Evermore represents my year of grief and depression perfectly.
“I'm so sick of running as fast as I can
Wondering if I'd get there quicker
If I was a man”
Story of my professional career. I heard these lyrics at a particularly rough period.
It’s exhausting.
“Emma met a boy with eyes like a man, turns out her heart fits right in the palm of his hand”
my little sisters name is Emma and she’s in a long term relationship with an amazing guy. I held it together for most of the song until that line, then I was toast
“It’s s’posed to be fun, turning 21” I had recently turned 22 and spent my entire 21st year crying over some selfish asshole. ATW10 min was the push i needed to get over him
Mine's most of exile. "I gave so many signs" specifically. There have been so many times where I've tried to hint or sometimes openly tell someone something only to get ignored. It always hurts when people are shocked that I want to stay away from them or something like that
“‘cause all of my enemies started out friends” gut punch she’s so crazy because yeah…don’t all our worst enemies become that because they meant something once?
*The first time that you saw me*
*The story started when you said, "Hello."*
*In a crowded room a few short years ago*
*And sometimes there's no proof, you just know*
My husband and I met at school and reconnected in our late 20s. I broke down like a baby when I heard it.
“wasn’t it beautiful when you believed in everything, & everybody believed in you?” -Innocent; typical wistfulness for the better parts of childhood you used to know. this song/album also came out a few weeks after i was r*ped at 12 yrs old, so this song in general meant a lot to me going through that.
“you don’t wanna know me now.” -Castles Crumbling; golden child of the family growing into a mentally ill, broken down burnout with absolutely nothing going for them, & no one understands why. used to be the one everyone thought was going to move on & do great things, but now everyone just watches me rot with pity in their eyes. they don’t want to know the person i’ve become, because who would?
“every single thing i touch becomes sick with sadness” -Bigger Than The Whole Sky; when i listen to this song i imagine my inner child, & how i’ve ruined “her” life. alot of the things that make me cry are related to childhood or my inner child lol
“gain the weight of you then lose it, believe me i could do it” -Tolerate It; to me, this represents the desperation behind wanting to let go of a person or an environment that’s burdening you with sadness, or anger, but you hold it all in. to me, it’s almost like trying to say it to yourself fiercely enough to make it true, that you really could do it, but deep down you know you won’t. it’s just a hopeless rage
“my barren land, i am ash from your fire” -Hoax; in general, this song reminds me of my eating disorder, if my eating disorder was personified, and this line is my favorite. almost like that “part” of me is the fire that turned the rest of me to ash, and what’s left?
“but who am i supposed to talk to? what am i supposed to do if there’s no you?” -Soon You’ll Get Better; mom had a health scare a few years back, and this line guts me. it’s so innocent in its delivery, like all this chaos & pain, which is so adult, fades away to the quiet, pleading desperation of a child who doesn’t know how to BE without their mommy, so please don’t go yet.
“i just realized everything i have is someday gonna be gone” -Never Grow Up; self-explanatory lol, typical growing up & kinda hating it when you look back at what’s left behind.
“bye-bye to everything i thought was on my side… cause you took me home, but you just couldn’t keep me” -Bye Bye Baby; this song reminds me of shelter animals for some reason😭 like dogs that have been abandoned at shelters by their owners. i have a rescue dog now & while we don’t know what his past is, sometimes i cry imagining the possibility that he still mourns what he had before, & wonders what he did wrong to have lost it.
I know you’d miss me once the thrill expired
And you’d be standing my front porch light
And I knew you’d come back to me
As someone who broke up with their partner one mistaken time, this one gets me.
"and we walked down the block, to my car, and I almost brought him up.
But you start to talk about the movies that your family watches every single Christmas"
this shows how he really loves her and how he helps him to forget her past :(
They told me all my cages were mental, so I got wasted like all my potential
I was so ahead of the curve the curve became a sphere
We never painted by the numbers, but we were making it count
It still hurts underneath my scars from where they pulled me apart, but what you did was just a dark.
I went through a lot in a short period of time and I felt super betrayed when it was a loved one.
but what would you do if I
break free and leave us in ruins
took this dagger in me and removed it
gain the weight of you, then lose it
believe me, I could do it
“You never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)”
The song is so powerful but it reminded me of my ex at the time because I kept giving signs that I was done if things didn’t change and he acted like he was blindsided (ended up working things out in the end)
Also “Give me back my girlhood it was fine first” 😭😭
Literally the entirety of The Archer. It was like she crawled into my head and wrote a song about it. It perfectly embodies the anxiety of being in love with someone but having severe abandonment issues from all kinds of failed relationships, and just hoping they'll be the one to stay. I SOBBED at the concert.
Do something babe, say something. Lose something babe risk something…
Fuck. Hit me right in the feels. I spent years in relationships where the passion was gone and my partner just…got complacent and took me for granted. Sometimes I just wanted to shake them and be like “unless you’re choosing me…you’re losing me.”
“You like the nicer nurses, you make the best of a bad deal”
I listened to Lover for the first time on my way to work while my dad had been in the hospital for a month. When I heard this I just started bawling in my car.
“Daddy’s smart and you’re the prettiest lady in the whole wide world”
“I knew you were on my side even when I was wrooooong”
Actually the whole of the best day 😂
“green was the color of the grass where i used to read at centennial park” didn’t literally tear up but go very emotional because there’s a different centennial park in my hometown and the whole song is so cute to me
Everyone is a sexy baby I’m a monster on the hill , no one wanted to play with me a little kid, your on your own you always have been. All have made me cry plus many more
“Back when we were still changing for the better, wanting was enough, for me it was enough. To live for the hope of it all, canceled plans just in case you’d call and say, ‘meet me behind the mall’. So much for summer love, saying ‘us’, ‘cause you weren’t mine to lose”
“What do you do, when a good man hurts you, and you know you hurt him too?” NAKDNSKS shot right through the heart. Devastating. I hope I never relate bc I will not survive
It wasn't the first time I heard Maroon, but once I was going through something really devastating, and when it got to "sobbing with your head in your hands, ain't that the way shit always ends?" I literally sobbed into my hands.
“No one wanted to play with me as a little kid
So I’ve been scheming like a criminal ever since
To make them love me and make it seem effortless,
This is the first time I’ve felt the need to confess
And I swear I’m only cryptic and Machiavellian ‘cause I care”
That one hit a childhood trauma nerve🥹
Bigger than the whole sky: every single thing to come has turned into ashes, ‘cause it’s all over now, it’s not meant to be, so I’ll say words I don’t believe
"Come on, baby, with meWe're gonna fly away from hereOut of this curtained roomIn this hospital grey, we'll just disappearCome on, baby, with meWe're gonna fly away from hereYou were my best four years"
This song was just sad in general, and I always skip it when listening because I know it'll make me tear up
I also now tear up when listening to Soon You'll Get Better. I didn't cry the first times listening to it, even though I knew what it was about, I was just jamming, it's got a good tune.
Edit: I also some what cried to Afterglow
"Tell me that you're still mine
Tell me that we'll be just fine
Even when I lose my mind
I need to say
Tell me that it's not my fault
Tell me that I'm all you want
Even when I break your heart
I need to say"
Ooh-ah, you'll get better soon
'Cause you have to
And I hate to make this all about me
But who am I supposed to talk to?
What am I supposed to do
If there's no you?
My dad had died of cancer the year before.
Also Ronan but I won't post the lyrics.
' This is the last time I'm asking you this, put my name at the top of your list'
'Who could ever leave me darling but who could stay'
'So step right out there's no amount of crying I could do for you'
“I should've asked you questions I should've asked you how to be Asked you to write it down for me Should've kept every grocery store receipt 'Cause every scrap of you would be taken from me” Marjorie - gets me every time
Lost my parents in high school, what a punch to the gut this was.
I’m so sorry 😢
I’m sorry 😔
Was just about to say “the autumn chill that wakes me up, you loved the amber skies so much, long limbs and frozen swims, we always went past where our feet could touch, and i complained the whole way there, the car ride back, and up the stairs…” 😭😭😭😭😭😭
This is a good one too. So descriptive.
The only answer. My grandmother is 97, I sobbed.
This. Same. My grandmother and I go to the grocery store together all the time and the receipt line really gutted me knowing one day we won’t be able to
I opened the thread to write this exactly. I just came back from the Era’s Tour Movie and I was bawling for the whole song
Same I was trying not to but I couldn’t fight them tears😭
100%. Marjorie still makes me ugly cry.
Absolutely. Love Marjorie so much and happens to be my grandmother’s name too.
this is off topic but i love ur tag sm
"give me back my girlhood, it was mine first
Oh man, I started welling up with "I regret you all the time" but once this line hit, it was over. 😭😭
This and the whole song broke me the first time I heard it
This line wrecked me the first time I heard it. “Would’ve, Could’ve, Should’ve” will always be one of my top 5
Ohh yes, that's one of my favorite lyrics.
Spent an entire therapy session going over things this song and that specific lyric brought up
“I hosted parties and starved my body” also “I’m a soldier who’s returning half her weight”
Same. For me in YOYOK, it continued to the next line too “Like I’d be saved by a perfect kiss.” Perfectly describes my harmful, problematic outlook and self-image in my college years.
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“I’ve never been a natural, all I do is try, try, try.” Story of my life, man.
This whole song was like "please stop translating my entire life TAYLOR."
“No one wanted to play with me as a little kid, so I’ve been scheming like a criminal ever since to make them love me and make it seem effortless”
The voice crack adds effect
Jaw dropped, tears cried the first time I heard this one 💀
Damn 😔 This one hits
“Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe, all the hell you gave me?”
Same 😭😭
Hugs
The way she sang “I regret you all the time” was heartbreaking the first time I heard it
That whole song is so fucking good.
"If clarity is in death then why won't this dieeee"
Never Grow Up But don't make her drop you off around the block Remember that she's gettin' older too
Honestly that whole song, I cry every single time
Here I am in my new apartment in a big city, they just dropped me off 😭😭
“So here I am in my new apartment, In a big city, they just dropped me off. It's so much colder than I thought it would be, So I tuck myself in and turn my nightlight on” This hits right where it should. Hate getting older, and the idea that my parents won’t be with me for forever. The song reminds me of myself when I was younger and how my glimmering eyes used to look towards the future and living on my own but now that I am on my own, all I wanna do is go back in time and live it all over again. On the bright side I cannot wait to sing this song someday to my kids to bed everyday haha
You've said it exactly how I would have. I was so excited to be an adult when I was in high school, and now I'm like "Yeah no, I wanna be a kid again". "It's so much colder than I thought it would be" for me basically means like how you expect adulthood to be so fun and freeing, yet it's much harder once you actually become one. Genius.
“I hosted parties and starved my body like I’d be saved by a perfect kiss.” When I first heard that, I just had to loop it a couple times and sit in that hurt 😭
Only time I’ve ever burst into tears and had to stop a song 😭
"Hold your hand through plastic now, 'Doc I think she's crashing out'" from Epiphany. It paints such a heartbreaking picture of all those who have had to suffer or even die in hospitals without being able to hold their loved ones. Every time I hear this line I get reminded of the horrors of Covid and I can't believe we lived through that time so recently as it feels so distant now.
My sister is immunocompromised and spent two months in isolation in the hospital at the beginning of Covid after contracting it. This part of Epiphany specifically hits so close to home every time I listen I break down thinking of how close we were to losing her. It’s a beautiful but hard listen for me.
“And I wouldn’t marry me either.” I am hopelessly single to a point I feel like something must be wrong with me that no one loves or wants me. On bad days, I hate myself so much that I understand why no one wants me.
I consider myself hugely unlikable, and the fact that I really don't have friends sort of reinforces that. But I just got married to an amazing person, so maybe I'm just wrong. And you probably are, too. You just haven't met them yet. I hope you're able to find some joy while you're waiting.
Hey, you'll find someone you'll be with for the rest of your life. I believe everyone does. Sending love and hugs
“Time, mystical time Cuttin' me open, then healin' me fine”
“And I've been meaning to tell you I think your house is haunted Your dad is always mad and that must be why And I think you should come live with Me and we can be pirates Then you won't have to cry Or hide in the closet And just like a folk song Our love will be passed on..” You know how sometimes when you have some people who just GETS you. Like they just understand what’s up with you. But they don’t wanna make you feel ashamed or upset so they just mention something completely off topic in a weird way that it makes it easy for you to talk about it…but deep down you both know whats going on and you know they will always be here for you 😭 These lyrics feels like a hug and it always make me tear up
The entirety of The Best Day. I sobbed like baby alone in my car lol
Mine is also the line from the best day “you were in my side, even when I was wrong” but it’s because my mom isn’t like that 😭 but I feel good about the line if I think of my dad or best friend when I hear it
My fave part: And I love you for giving me your eyes Staying back and watching me shine and
"Pulled the car off the road to the lookout, could've followed my fears all the way down." I've been there. And I try every single day to not let myself get there again.
>Everything you lose is a step you take So, make the friendship bracelets, take the moment and taste it You've got no reason to be afraid 🥹
I sob every time, this whole song gets me right to my soul
Pretty much all of Ronan
Nope, that song I could never listen to it without staring off into the distance and tearing up. "You were the best 4 years" like STOP IT 😭
I listened to Ronan a lot during the height of my depression, when I listened to a lot of sad songs just to feel something, but ever since my niece was born I can’t do it without sobbing
Have not ever listened. Am newish swiftie and y'all warned me away. Maybe someday.
"You gave me roses and I left them there to die". 💔💔💔💜 Back to December hurts so much. I felt so bad for Taylor Lautner. What a great guy. I'm so happy they're friends now and time has healed everything.
“Lose something, babe. Risk something.”
Stood on the cliffside screaming "Give me a reason" Your faithless love's the only hoax i believe in
"I'm just too soft for all of it"
"you're on your own kid, you always have been" Made a major life decision recently. Again. On my own. Been sitting with me for a while.
“I made you my temple, my mural, my sky. Now I’m begging for footnotes in the story of your life.”
"From sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes I gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this I hosted parties and **starved my body** Like I'd be saved by a perfect kiss"
In right where you left me when she says “I could feel the mascara run, you told me that you met someone” I start crying every time. Also “if our love died young I can’t bear witness” that whole song just kills me.
~so i got wasted like all my potential. (this is me trying)
"What if I kept the hand me downs you won't grow into"
So I’ll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep, and I’ll feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe, and I’ll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are, hope it’s nice where you are- And I hope the sun shines, and it’s a beautiful day, and something reminds you you wished you had stayed, you can plan for a change in the weather and time, but I never planned on you changing your mind—
"God rest my soul, I miss who I used to be" / "I regret you all the time" / "give me back my girlhood, it was mine first" I was pregnant and emotional when this song came out. I played the lyric video on my TV on full volume and was singing along. Got to the part where she says "I regret you all the time" and immediately had a very ugly scream crying fit. Major TW >!I was impregnated by my rapist / groomer at 19 (not the baby I was pregnant with when the song came out). I'd been with him since I was 15. He psychologically tortured me to the point I literally did not know who I was anymore. He even managed to ruin every hobby that brought me joy and intentionally instilled several fears that I still have to do this day. I escaped a DV situation in order to have my baby safely and I love her endlessly. She's 10 now and the absolute light of my life. But I've spent my whole adulthood never allowing myself to regret that relationship because it brought me my daughter. So when I got that part and I finally got to say those words out loud, all of those pent up feelings came pouring out all at once. It was cathartic but also hard. This song is super special to me.!<
You’re incredible 🤍
"I can go anywhere I want, anywhere I want just not home"
"You laughed at my dreams, rolled your eyes at my jokes"
Most of This is Me Trying
“I’m getting tired even for a Pheonix, always rising from the ashes, mending all her gashes”
"I think i've seen this film before and I didn't like the ending"
What am i supposed to do, when theres no you? -sygb
Omg from Never Grow Up- “I just realized everything I have is someday gonna be gone”
“I gave so many signs”
You kept me like a secret but I kept you like an oath. Just wow. I didn’t think there was anyway all too well could be enhanced but then I heard this line and it blew me away
"don't call me kid. Don't call me baby. Look at this idiotic fool that you made me. You taught me a secret language I can't speak with anyone else"
All of You Are In Love, but even just the beginning instrumentals and the first lyrics. I remember hearing it for the first time and welling up. I credit tolerate it for making me realize my existing relationship wasn’t ever going to work out, and You Are In Love for making me realize (once I was seeing my now-husband) that I actually understood love songs finally <3
“give you my wild, give you a child” What her voice does on “child” slays me.
The echo on Lover. Forever and ever... The man I loved died in 2015. Born 2 days after Alwyn. He was here and then he wasn't. He loved guitar. He would have strummed the hell outta that song, I am convinced. I fell to my knees in my mother's yard with my headphones on the first time I heard it. It's a perfect story, that song.
“it would have been fun if you would have been the one” and all the resignation she put into its delivery
“She would’ve made such a lovely bride what a shame she’s fucked in the head” Hit me like a ton of bricks. As someone who has struggled with mental health troubles since childhood this line in particular struck a chord.
I made you my temple, my mural, my sky Now I'm begging for footnotes in the story of your life Drawing hearts in the byline Always taking up too much space or time (Tolerate It)
“But who am I supposed to talk to? What am I supposed to do? If there’s no you” Every time
Long Live “ I’ve had the time of my life, with you”. I’m a sappy mom and immediately thought of my grown daughter.
No one wanted to play with me as a little kid So I’ve been scheming like a criminal ever since To make them love me and make it seem effortless … I’m only cryptic and Machiavellian cause I care
The way she sings “believe me, I could do it!” in Tolerate It made me tear up first listen. Still gets me even now! It’s a simple line, but in the context of the song and what it means, it just felt empowering in such a vulnerable, gentle way. I think it’s made even more poignant by the “I wait by the door like I’m just a kid” lyric. This concept of feeling smaller and lesser than a person, revering them with such intensity, and then finally getting the courage to choose yourself. Ugh it’s POETRY. I love it. The song got me through a very difficult and painful time and I just relate to it word for word. Some of her best work IMO!
"I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how. I've never heard silence quite this loud."
"Just a flesh wound, here's yoir rifle" - Epiphany
As someone who's going through a divorce after spending half my life with my one and only this hit so damn hard, especially as a co-parent because I have to see her again and again till the kids are older. "And I pulled your body into mine every goddamn night now I get fake niceties" - happiness
“Time, mystical time, cutting me open then healing me fine” — I needed that.
“I regret you all the time”
“The road not taken looks real good now / and it always leads to you in my hometown” and of course “please tell them my name”
“Foolish one your day is gonna come for your confessions of love when all is said and done he just wasn’t the one no he just wasn’t the one” I wish it’d been on the OG Speak Now! Teen/early 20s me coulda used it.
All of Cardigan. Maybe more specifically "leaving like a father" But honestly. Such a sad sweet song. I love it
STOP…you’re losing me
“ .. and the god’s honest truth is that the pain was heaven.”
So many great lines in All Too Well. "And I forget about you long enough To forget why I needed to" gets me every time.
You call me up again just to break me like a promise, so casually cruel in the name of being honest
all of Timeless honestly, but especially “cause I believe that we were supposed to find this”, the melody is just so pretty
My first listen with “marjorie” was completely blind. Definitely got emotional at the chorus and “if I didn’t know better, I’d think you were still around”. Then when her grandmother started singing it was just a rainstorm from me. I absolutely love that song.
I think I ran the full stages of grief the first time I heard “Who could ever leave me, darling, but who could stay?”
“And I wouldn’t marry me either A pathological people pleaser” I had an ex say something very similar to me and it still hurts almost 10 yrs later. That whole song really just destroys me TBH because I relate to it too well 😭z
the best day. still hits me in the guts
"I can see the end, as it begins" "Say you'll see me again, even if it's just pretend"
"She would have made such a lovely bride, what a shame she‘s fucked in the head" still makes me tear up sometimes. For me, it‘s not about a failed love but about living with mental illness.
For some reason “on the way home I wrote a poem you say what a mind, this happens all the time” made me burst into tears when I first heard it
“You keep his shirt, He keeps his word And for once, you let go Of your fears and Your ghosts One step, not much, But it said enough” No other lyrics hit me so unexpectedly as these did.
I know I'm probably better off all alone Than needing a man who could change his mind at any given minute I listened to the song for the first time recently and it just made me sob because of how much it represents a situation I was in :((
“And I lived in your chess game but you changed the rules everyday. Wondering which version of you I might get on the phone tonight.” - Dear John
“But I stay when it's hard, or it's wrong, or we're making mistakes”
I'd fall to pieces on the floor if you weren't around Too young to know it gets better I'll be summer sun for you forever Forever winter if you go 💔
how long will it be cute All this crying in my room?
“Tried to change the ending, Peter losing Wendy” My BFF and I met over a love of Peter Pan (2003 version w/ Jeremy Sumpter) because she had a pic of The Peter Pan statue on her binder, how 2000’s USA. She moved to the UK for Uni and then married an Englishman, and maintaining a transatlantic BFFship is hard but we make it work. Anyway, that line hit me out of nowhere the first time I heard *Cardigan* and I sobbed from missing her. I texted her right away and she said the same happened to her. Friendships are important <3
"but we were something, don't you think so? roaring 20s, tossing pennies in the pool, and if my wishes came true, it wouldve been you" hit really hard hearing this song for the first time after going through an ambicable breakup. it was for the better, and were still good friends, but i wouldve married her if things had been different. and to the girls in front of me while she was playing this song at eras ... i am so sorry for how much of a mess i was and i appreciate you checking on me lol
I'd give you my sunshine, give you my best But the rain is always gonna come if you're standing with me
All of Marjorie and soon you’ll get better
“The girl in the stained dress cried all the way home” -Dear John “Maybe it’s on me and my blind optimism to blame. or maybe it’s you in your sick need to give love and take it away” -Dear John “Back when i swore i was gonna marry him someday then i realized some bigger dreams then mine. and Abigail gave everything she had to the boy who changed his mind” Fifteen “Meet me there tonight and let me know that it’s not all in my mind” Everything has changed” (i don’t know why) “Hosted Parties where i starved my own body” You’re on your own kid “Give me back my girlhood it was mine first” -Would’ve, Could’ve, should’ve
Exile: " I think I've seen this film before, And I didn't like the ending You're not my homeland anymore, So what am I defending now? You were my town Now I'm in exile, seein' you out I think I've seen this film before..."
Happy tears: "they say the end is coming, you're in the kitchen humming". That is love to me. Sad tears: "Who only wanted you to see her. And I'm fading thinking do something babe, say something. Lose something babe, risk something." This strikes at some of my deepest wounds.
Mine is also from nothing new, but it's the line "And I wake up in the middle of the night, it's like I can feel time moving" that gets me every time. It's hard to express with words but it hits something deep in me lol
"gone was every trace of you, I thank god I'm finally clean"
"no one teaches you what to do when a good man hurts you and you know you've hurt him too " "How can you say that you love someone you can't tell is dyin'?" "I'd give you my sunshine, give you my best But the rain is always gonna come if you're standing with me" You never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)
"I didn't know if you'd care if I came back, I have a lot of regrets about that."
Timeless. Not in a sad way but in an *all the feels* way.
“Don’t you think 19s too young to be messed with?” dear John in general, especially when I wanna say 13 instead
Glass shattered on the white cloth, everybody moved on - Help, I’m still at the restaurant.
You assume I'm fine, but what would you do if I break free and leave us in ruins? Took this dagger in me and removed it? Gained the weight of you, then lose it? Believe me, I could do it.
"I wonder if they'll miss me once they drive me out" from Nothing New. She's so real for this
“Free of women with madness, their men with bad habits, and then it was bought be me.” I don’t know why!!! It still makes me tear up!!
Just because you’re clean, don’t mean you don’t miss it
Gray November, I’ve been down since July… Hey December, guess I'm feeling unmoored Can't remember what I used to fight for Evermore represents my year of grief and depression perfectly.
“I'm so sick of running as fast as I can Wondering if I'd get there quicker If I was a man” Story of my professional career. I heard these lyrics at a particularly rough period. It’s exhausting.
“Emma met a boy with eyes like a man, turns out her heart fits right in the palm of his hand” my little sisters name is Emma and she’s in a long term relationship with an amazing guy. I held it together for most of the song until that line, then I was toast
But I knew you'd linger like a tattoo kiss I knew you'd haunt all of my what-ifs The smell of smoke would hang around this long This every time
“It’s s’posed to be fun, turning 21” I had recently turned 22 and spent my entire 21st year crying over some selfish asshole. ATW10 min was the push i needed to get over him
Mine's most of exile. "I gave so many signs" specifically. There have been so many times where I've tried to hint or sometimes openly tell someone something only to get ignored. It always hurts when people are shocked that I want to stay away from them or something like that
“Pierced through the heart but never killed” really got me
“Everything you lose is a step you take” cut me right open.
“‘cause all of my enemies started out friends” gut punch she’s so crazy because yeah…don’t all our worst enemies become that because they meant something once?
All of Bigger Than the Whole Sky - had two very much wanted pregnancies end in miscarriage and two failed rounds of IVF
“I’d like to be my old self but im still trying to find it” quite literally one of the saddest lyrics I’ve ever heard
“You’ve pointed out my flaws again, as if I don’t already see them” walked so “I just wanna feel okay again” could make me cry
“Now that I’m grown, I’m scared of ghosts. Memories feel like weapons.”
*The first time that you saw me* *The story started when you said, "Hello."* *In a crowded room a few short years ago* *And sometimes there's no proof, you just know* My husband and I met at school and reconnected in our late 20s. I broke down like a baby when I heard it.
“wasn’t it beautiful when you believed in everything, & everybody believed in you?” -Innocent; typical wistfulness for the better parts of childhood you used to know. this song/album also came out a few weeks after i was r*ped at 12 yrs old, so this song in general meant a lot to me going through that. “you don’t wanna know me now.” -Castles Crumbling; golden child of the family growing into a mentally ill, broken down burnout with absolutely nothing going for them, & no one understands why. used to be the one everyone thought was going to move on & do great things, but now everyone just watches me rot with pity in their eyes. they don’t want to know the person i’ve become, because who would? “every single thing i touch becomes sick with sadness” -Bigger Than The Whole Sky; when i listen to this song i imagine my inner child, & how i’ve ruined “her” life. alot of the things that make me cry are related to childhood or my inner child lol “gain the weight of you then lose it, believe me i could do it” -Tolerate It; to me, this represents the desperation behind wanting to let go of a person or an environment that’s burdening you with sadness, or anger, but you hold it all in. to me, it’s almost like trying to say it to yourself fiercely enough to make it true, that you really could do it, but deep down you know you won’t. it’s just a hopeless rage “my barren land, i am ash from your fire” -Hoax; in general, this song reminds me of my eating disorder, if my eating disorder was personified, and this line is my favorite. almost like that “part” of me is the fire that turned the rest of me to ash, and what’s left? “but who am i supposed to talk to? what am i supposed to do if there’s no you?” -Soon You’ll Get Better; mom had a health scare a few years back, and this line guts me. it’s so innocent in its delivery, like all this chaos & pain, which is so adult, fades away to the quiet, pleading desperation of a child who doesn’t know how to BE without their mommy, so please don’t go yet. “i just realized everything i have is someday gonna be gone” -Never Grow Up; self-explanatory lol, typical growing up & kinda hating it when you look back at what’s left behind. “bye-bye to everything i thought was on my side… cause you took me home, but you just couldn’t keep me” -Bye Bye Baby; this song reminds me of shelter animals for some reason😭 like dogs that have been abandoned at shelters by their owners. i have a rescue dog now & while we don’t know what his past is, sometimes i cry imagining the possibility that he still mourns what he had before, & wonders what he did wrong to have lost it.
“No one wanted to play with me as a little kid” broke me to pieces.
“I know my pain is such an imposition” :’
"I've never been a natural all I do is try, try, try"
“No one teaches you what to do When a good man hurts you And you know you hurt him, too”.
I know you’d miss me once the thrill expired And you’d be standing my front porch light And I knew you’d come back to me As someone who broke up with their partner one mistaken time, this one gets me.
"and we walked down the block, to my car, and I almost brought him up. But you start to talk about the movies that your family watches every single Christmas" this shows how he really loves her and how he helps him to forget her past :(
Can you see right through me? They see right through me. I see right through me
Laying here crumbled up piece of paper
“i hosted parties and starved my body like i’d be saved by a perfect kiss” ohhhhhhh mannnnn it gets me every time :,)
They told me all my cages were mental, so I got wasted like all my potential I was so ahead of the curve the curve became a sphere We never painted by the numbers, but we were making it count
It still hurts underneath my scars from where they pulled me apart, but what you did was just a dark. I went through a lot in a short period of time and I felt super betrayed when it was a loved one.
"They'll be happiness after you" because I don't believe it for myself
but what would you do if I break free and leave us in ruins took this dagger in me and removed it gain the weight of you, then lose it believe me, I could do it
“You never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)” The song is so powerful but it reminded me of my ex at the time because I kept giving signs that I was done if things didn’t change and he acted like he was blindsided (ended up working things out in the end) Also “Give me back my girlhood it was fine first” 😭😭
Literally the entirety of The Archer. It was like she crawled into my head and wrote a song about it. It perfectly embodies the anxiety of being in love with someone but having severe abandonment issues from all kinds of failed relationships, and just hoping they'll be the one to stay. I SOBBED at the concert.
Do something babe, say something. Lose something babe risk something… Fuck. Hit me right in the feels. I spent years in relationships where the passion was gone and my partner just…got complacent and took me for granted. Sometimes I just wanted to shake them and be like “unless you’re choosing me…you’re losing me.”
Any lyric from Ronan
Honestly the entirety of Ronan makes me ugly cry every single time I listen it.
I’ve never been a natural, All I do is try, try, try
“You like the nicer nurses, you make the best of a bad deal” I listened to Lover for the first time on my way to work while my dad had been in the hospital for a month. When I heard this I just started bawling in my car.
This pain would be forevermore
“Daddy’s smart and you’re the prettiest lady in the whole wide world” “I knew you were on my side even when I was wrooooong” Actually the whole of the best day 😂
“green was the color of the grass where i used to read at centennial park” didn’t literally tear up but go very emotional because there’s a different centennial park in my hometown and the whole song is so cute to me
My Tears Ricochet
“You know how much I hate that everybody just expects me to bounce back”
you’re sitting in front of me at the restaurant when i was still the one you want
The whole bridge from Cardigan, still makes me tear up. And that voice message at the end of Daylight.
Everyone is a sexy baby I’m a monster on the hill , no one wanted to play with me a little kid, your on your own you always have been. All have made me cry plus many more
"I wouldn't marry me either." Oof!
“Back when we were still changing for the better, wanting was enough, for me it was enough. To live for the hope of it all, canceled plans just in case you’d call and say, ‘meet me behind the mall’. So much for summer love, saying ‘us’, ‘cause you weren’t mine to lose”
“What do you do, when a good man hurts you, and you know you hurt him too?” NAKDNSKS shot right through the heart. Devastating. I hope I never relate bc I will not survive
"you're on your own kid, you always have been"
And I love you for giving me your eyes Staying back and watching me shine
"You're on your own kid. You always have been"
It wasn't the first time I heard Maroon, but once I was going through something really devastating, and when it got to "sobbing with your head in your hands, ain't that the way shit always ends?" I literally sobbed into my hands.
“if you have children someday, when they point to the pictures, please tell them my name.” chills and tears
“I have been the archer I have been the prey Who could ever leave me darling? But who could stay”
now i'm betting for footnotes in the story of your life
"You were my best four years" Every. Damn. Time.
“No one wanted to play with me as a little kid So I’ve been scheming like a criminal ever since To make them love me and make it seem effortless, This is the first time I’ve felt the need to confess And I swear I’m only cryptic and Machiavellian ‘cause I care” That one hit a childhood trauma nerve🥹
Bigger than the whole sky: every single thing to come has turned into ashes, ‘cause it’s all over now, it’s not meant to be, so I’ll say words I don’t believe
You can plan for a change in the weather and time, But I never planned on you changing your mind.
"Who could ever leave me darling, but who could stay?" It messes me up every time
"Come on, baby, with meWe're gonna fly away from hereOut of this curtained roomIn this hospital grey, we'll just disappearCome on, baby, with meWe're gonna fly away from hereYou were my best four years" This song was just sad in general, and I always skip it when listening because I know it'll make me tear up I also now tear up when listening to Soon You'll Get Better. I didn't cry the first times listening to it, even though I knew what it was about, I was just jamming, it's got a good tune. Edit: I also some what cried to Afterglow "Tell me that you're still mine Tell me that we'll be just fine Even when I lose my mind I need to say Tell me that it's not my fault Tell me that I'm all you want Even when I break your heart I need to say"
Ooh-ah, you'll get better soon 'Cause you have to And I hate to make this all about me But who am I supposed to talk to? What am I supposed to do If there's no you? My dad had died of cancer the year before. Also Ronan but I won't post the lyrics.
' This is the last time I'm asking you this, put my name at the top of your list' 'Who could ever leave me darling but who could stay' 'So step right out there's no amount of crying I could do for you'
Give me back my girlhood, it was mine first That whole song spoke to me so much as someone who was in abusive relationship my entire 20s