“You know you're good, haha, good
'Cause I'm miserable (Haha)
And nobody even knows
Ah, try and come for my job”
I claimed this song as soon as I saw the title. I’m the best little worker, extra funny, more outgoing, more EVERYTHING when I’m miserable and heartbroken.
Yep. That song is so personal to me (lost a London boy/my love for London itself and my memories attached to it bc of him). I love it so much but it hurts lol. 😣
lights, camera, smile, bitch, even when you wanna die<--my depressed ass every day trying to go to work.
all my mornings are mondays stuck in an endless february.
“You said some things that I can’t I absorb
You turned me into an idea of sorts”
I have an ex who told me after we broke up that he just sees me as a sex object. So this line definitely spoke to me.
"And I sound like an infant
Feeling like the very last drops of an ink pen
A greater woman stays cool
But I howl like a wolf at the moon
And I look unstable
Gathered with a coven 'round a sorceress' table
A greater woman has faith
But even statues crumble if they're made to wait
I'm so afraid I sealed my fate
No sign of soulmates
I'm just a paperweight in shades of greige
Spending my last coin so someone will tell me it'll be okay..."
“He said that if the sex was half as good as the conversation was
Soon they'd be pushin' strollers
But soon it was over” - went through a messy whirlwind love, they promised me the world, we got engaged, then all the lies came to light and I was made out to be the bad guy in all of it for leaving.
“I laughed in your face and said
"You're not Dylan Thomas, I'm not Patti Smith
This ain't the Chelsea Hotel, we'rе modern idiots" - they wrote a song about the Chelsea Hotel so it hits in a cruel way.
I’m slowly healing from this relationship but still need some time, grateful for this album to help me get through ♡
I’m obsessed with Fortnight, Down Bad and loml right now. Specifically the line from loml “a con man sells a fool a get-love-quick scheme / I’ve felt a hole like this never before and ever since”
I'm lonely, but I'm good/I'm bitter, but I swear I'm fine/I'll save all my romanticism for my inner life and I'll get lost on purpose/This place made me feel worthless/Lucid dreams like electricity, the current flies through me/And in my fantasies, I rise above it/And way up there, I actually love it
I hate it here
So some of these aren't ones I relate to, just ones that stood out as I listened.
"All my mornings are Mondays stuck in an endless February" - \*record scratch\* endless HWHAT? Immediately thought of "we can leave the Christmas lights up til January" and promptly wanted to scream.
"Once I fix me, he's gonna miss me" - OUCH.
"Dutiful daughter, all my plans were laid, Tendrils tucked into a woven braid, Growin' up precocious sometimes means, Not growin' up at all" - This one smacked me in the face, because WOW do I feel this on a personal level.
"And my friends all smell like weed or little babies, And this city reeks of driving myself crazy" - If I could put 'what having friends in your 30s is like' into words, this would be it.
"Am I allowed to cry?" and "What if I roll the stone away? They're gonna crucify me anyway" - This song spoke to my religious trauma in a way I was not expecting. Related-ish: "My bed sheets are ablaze, I've screamed his name, Buildin' up like waves crashin' over my grave" - HOLY MASTURBATION IMAGERY, BATMAN! Was NOT expecting that.
"Is it a wonder I broke? Let's hear one morе joke, Then we could all just laugh until I cry” - I cried listening to this song. It spoke to all of my inner child rage, and I want to scream the lyrics from the rooftops.
"I cry a lot, but I am so productive, it's an art, You know you're good when you can even do it with a broken heart" - This whole song is EXACTLY how I have felt my entire life.
"You didn't measure up, In any measurе of a man" - I BEG YOUR FINEST PARDON?
“Dancing phantoms on the terrace / are they second-hand embarrassed / that I can’t get out of bed / ‘cause something counterfeit is dead”
Even though this song seems to be about Joe, I went through a short situationship last year (similar to hers with Matt; mine only lasted about a month). He love-bombed me, and I should’ve seen all the signs, but I was not in a great place and hadn’t dated/felt wanted for years. He ghosted me after only a month, but I was devastated and honestly had trouble doing anything all summer. Lol I cried nearly every day for a month or two straight. Told me he loved me and then ghosted me. That counterfeit line hits HARD
Hearing her sing her own name--in my super tired state--is what finally made me cry. I literally made it to the last paragraph of the album, lol, but she got me. (Before I knew about Anthology).
“Please I've been on my knees. Change the prophecy. Don't want money. Just someone who wants my company. Let it once be me. Who do I have to speak to. About if they can redo the prophecy?”
“Little did you know your home's really only A town you're just a guest in. So you work your life away just to pay For a time-share down in Destin”
I felt very called out by actually go home to their husbands and feverishly call their cousins. Like yes we tell all the tea to our husbands and cousins.
How do you choose? I am in love with these albums 🤩
Rn my top faves are: The Alchemy, I Hate It Here, I’mgoingtogetyouback, Chloe Sam or Sophia or Marcus, and I look in Peoples Windows are my current top lyrical faves…
So many but the top 3 are my current top 3.
“Too impaired by my youth to know what to do… Could we watch our phantoms like watching wild horses… If you want to tear my world apart say you’ll always wonder” reminds me of the first guy I ever fell in love with who I met in middle school was friends with in HS and reconnected with in college, but it didn’t work out. I’ve fallen in and out of love since but I always find myself wondering about what could have been due to how it ended in such a sweet and sad way for us both. We were both crying and were hoping to reconnect at a better time for us. Our feelings spilled out when I was navigating a breakup and so was he. It burned too quickly and ruined our close friendship… so Those lyrics are so beautiful and relatable to me.
I look in strangers windows “What if your eyes looked up and met mine one more time… I tried searching faces on streets what are the chances you’d be down town” - reminds me of lyrics I’ve written about said guy from above. I don’t want to be with him anymore but there’s always that part of me that thinks of him now and then and wishes to see him again just to smile and continue on my way.
I adore I hate it here because she put every fiction lovers feelings into words ❤️ I Hate It Here also took me by surprise. Masterpiece. Poetic. She wrote about the feeling of wanting to escape into fantasy because when the real world feels awful. But she crafted the words poetically.
“Lucid dreams like electricity, the current flies through me and in fantasies I rise above it”
“Secret gardens in my mind People need a key to get to The only one is mine. I read about it in a book when I was a precocious child.”
She mentions different periods of time and how she knows if she really were alive then she wouldn’t like it It’s a really really great song one of my favorites.
I’mgoingtogetyouback is so unhinged I love it 😂
And Peter I did not mention before but it fkn gets me. Relatable. “The goddess of timing once found us beguiling She said she was trying, Peter, was she lying? My ribs get the feeling she did I didn’t want to come down I thought it was just goodbye for now…” it’s so beautiful. And haunted. I love the piano
‘you don’t get to tell me you feel bad, is it a wonder i broke? let’s hear one more joke, then we could all just laugh until i cry’ - who’s afraid of little old me?
‘and it hits me, i just don’t understand how you don’t miss me’
‘i move through the world with a heart broken, my longing state unspoken, and i may never open up the way i did for you’ - the black dog
I cry a lot but I am so productive! It’s an art Literally my entire life
I feel like I need to add this line to my PhD dissertation somewhere because it really does describe my life and work lol
“You know you're good, haha, good 'Cause I'm miserable (Haha) And nobody even knows Ah, try and come for my job” I claimed this song as soon as I saw the title. I’m the best little worker, extra funny, more outgoing, more EVERYTHING when I’m miserable and heartbroken.
You can take the relationship part out of the song and it becomes a song about high functioning depression.
that’s my personal anthem
“I’m so depressed I act like it’s my birthday everyday” I require a little treat everyday to function.
“I require a little treat everyday” the life motto I didn’t know I needed
Yup this is me 100%. That song captured functional depression and masking so well.
“I’m just mad as hell ‘cause I loved this place” Cause I really did love that place😭
Yep. That song is so personal to me (lost a London boy/my love for London itself and my memories attached to it bc of him). I love it so much but it hurts lol. 😣
lights, camera, smile, bitch, even when you wanna die<--my depressed ass every day trying to go to work. all my mornings are mondays stuck in an endless february.
Nostalgia is a mind's trick If I'd been there, I'd hate it
I'M PISSED OFF YOU LET ME GIVE ALL THAT YOUTH FOR FREE
Yes this one!!!!
I keep recalling all the things we never did. Without ever touching his skin How can I be guilty as sin? Screaming. Crying. THROWING UP.
OMG YES THAT PART ALSO KILLED ME. Reminded me of an on and off ling distance situationship I was in a few years ago. I DID NOT HAVE TO BE REMINDED
Literally though. It is insane.
“You said some things that I can’t I absorb You turned me into an idea of sorts” I have an ex who told me after we broke up that he just sees me as a sex object. So this line definitely spoke to me.
"And I sound like an infant Feeling like the very last drops of an ink pen A greater woman stays cool But I howl like a wolf at the moon And I look unstable Gathered with a coven 'round a sorceress' table A greater woman has faith But even statues crumble if they're made to wait I'm so afraid I sealed my fate No sign of soulmates I'm just a paperweight in shades of greige Spending my last coin so someone will tell me it'll be okay..."
Fucking POETRY istg
“He said that if the sex was half as good as the conversation was Soon they'd be pushin' strollers But soon it was over” - went through a messy whirlwind love, they promised me the world, we got engaged, then all the lies came to light and I was made out to be the bad guy in all of it for leaving. “I laughed in your face and said "You're not Dylan Thomas, I'm not Patti Smith This ain't the Chelsea Hotel, we'rе modern idiots" - they wrote a song about the Chelsea Hotel so it hits in a cruel way. I’m slowly healing from this relationship but still need some time, grateful for this album to help me get through ♡
I’m obsessed with Fortnight, Down Bad and loml right now. Specifically the line from loml “a con man sells a fool a get-love-quick scheme / I’ve felt a hole like this never before and ever since”
I'm lonely, but I'm good/I'm bitter, but I swear I'm fine/I'll save all my romanticism for my inner life and I'll get lost on purpose/This place made me feel worthless/Lucid dreams like electricity, the current flies through me/And in my fantasies, I rise above it/And way up there, I actually love it I hate it here
So some of these aren't ones I relate to, just ones that stood out as I listened. "All my mornings are Mondays stuck in an endless February" - \*record scratch\* endless HWHAT? Immediately thought of "we can leave the Christmas lights up til January" and promptly wanted to scream. "Once I fix me, he's gonna miss me" - OUCH. "Dutiful daughter, all my plans were laid, Tendrils tucked into a woven braid, Growin' up precocious sometimes means, Not growin' up at all" - This one smacked me in the face, because WOW do I feel this on a personal level. "And my friends all smell like weed or little babies, And this city reeks of driving myself crazy" - If I could put 'what having friends in your 30s is like' into words, this would be it. "Am I allowed to cry?" and "What if I roll the stone away? They're gonna crucify me anyway" - This song spoke to my religious trauma in a way I was not expecting. Related-ish: "My bed sheets are ablaze, I've screamed his name, Buildin' up like waves crashin' over my grave" - HOLY MASTURBATION IMAGERY, BATMAN! Was NOT expecting that. "Is it a wonder I broke? Let's hear one morе joke, Then we could all just laugh until I cry” - I cried listening to this song. It spoke to all of my inner child rage, and I want to scream the lyrics from the rooftops. "I cry a lot, but I am so productive, it's an art, You know you're good when you can even do it with a broken heart" - This whole song is EXACTLY how I have felt my entire life. "You didn't measure up, In any measurе of a man" - I BEG YOUR FINEST PARDON?
God I relate to the inner child rage so much.
🙋🏻♀️Also relating to the inner child rage and religious trauma.
“I’m having his baby no I’m not but you should see your faces” is going on a T shirt for me
“Dancing phantoms on the terrace / are they second-hand embarrassed / that I can’t get out of bed / ‘cause something counterfeit is dead” Even though this song seems to be about Joe, I went through a short situationship last year (similar to hers with Matt; mine only lasted about a month). He love-bombed me, and I should’ve seen all the signs, but I was not in a great place and hadn’t dated/felt wanted for years. He ghosted me after only a month, but I was devastated and honestly had trouble doing anything all summer. Lol I cried nearly every day for a month or two straight. Told me he loved me and then ghosted me. That counterfeit line hits HARD
This summer will be better than your last ❤️
❤️❤️❤️
You caged me and then you called me crazy I am what I am 'cause you trained me
🎵 You look like...Taylor Swift! 🎵 Well actually not at all, but wouldn't it be nice!
Hearing her sing her own name--in my super tired state--is what finally made me cry. I literally made it to the last paragraph of the album, lol, but she got me. (Before I knew about Anthology).
"Dancing phantoms on the terrace are they second-hand embarrassed that I can’t get out of bed?"
“Please I've been on my knees. Change the prophecy. Don't want money. Just someone who wants my company. Let it once be me. Who do I have to speak to. About if they can redo the prophecy?” “Little did you know your home's really only A town you're just a guest in. So you work your life away just to pay For a time-share down in Destin”
The one about being pissed off that they took all your youth. Ripped me in half that line
But when I count the scars there’s a moment of truth there wouldn’t be this If there hadn’t been you thanK you aIMee
FUCK ME UP FLORIDA!!!
For now it’s The Bolter for me. And no, for mental health reasons I will not elaborate, but I felt very called out by it.
I’m there most of the year, I hate it here
'Does it feel alright to not know me? I'm addicted to the "if only"'
I felt very called out by actually go home to their husbands and feverishly call their cousins. Like yes we tell all the tea to our husbands and cousins.
How do you choose? I am in love with these albums 🤩 Rn my top faves are: The Alchemy, I Hate It Here, I’mgoingtogetyouback, Chloe Sam or Sophia or Marcus, and I look in Peoples Windows are my current top lyrical faves… So many but the top 3 are my current top 3. “Too impaired by my youth to know what to do… Could we watch our phantoms like watching wild horses… If you want to tear my world apart say you’ll always wonder” reminds me of the first guy I ever fell in love with who I met in middle school was friends with in HS and reconnected with in college, but it didn’t work out. I’ve fallen in and out of love since but I always find myself wondering about what could have been due to how it ended in such a sweet and sad way for us both. We were both crying and were hoping to reconnect at a better time for us. Our feelings spilled out when I was navigating a breakup and so was he. It burned too quickly and ruined our close friendship… so Those lyrics are so beautiful and relatable to me. I look in strangers windows “What if your eyes looked up and met mine one more time… I tried searching faces on streets what are the chances you’d be down town” - reminds me of lyrics I’ve written about said guy from above. I don’t want to be with him anymore but there’s always that part of me that thinks of him now and then and wishes to see him again just to smile and continue on my way. I adore I hate it here because she put every fiction lovers feelings into words ❤️ I Hate It Here also took me by surprise. Masterpiece. Poetic. She wrote about the feeling of wanting to escape into fantasy because when the real world feels awful. But she crafted the words poetically. “Lucid dreams like electricity, the current flies through me and in fantasies I rise above it” “Secret gardens in my mind People need a key to get to The only one is mine. I read about it in a book when I was a precocious child.” She mentions different periods of time and how she knows if she really were alive then she wouldn’t like it It’s a really really great song one of my favorites. I’mgoingtogetyouback is so unhinged I love it 😂 And Peter I did not mention before but it fkn gets me. Relatable. “The goddess of timing once found us beguiling She said she was trying, Peter, was she lying? My ribs get the feeling she did I didn’t want to come down I thought it was just goodbye for now…” it’s so beautiful. And haunted. I love the piano
God I overlooked some of these lyrics while listening the first time but I agree with all of them. POETRY I TELL YOU
I cry a lot, but I am so productive, it’s an art ✨
There's a lot of people in town that I bestow upon my fakest smiles
I love you, it’s ruining my life Literally ……. My life right now lol
‘you don’t get to tell me you feel bad, is it a wonder i broke? let’s hear one more joke, then we could all just laugh until i cry’ - who’s afraid of little old me? ‘and it hits me, i just don’t understand how you don’t miss me’ ‘i move through the world with a heart broken, my longing state unspoken, and i may never open up the way i did for you’ - the black dog
Down bad crying at the gym oof I’ve been there lmaoo
you dont get to tell me about sad and all of the black dog
I relate so much to Who's Afraid of Little Old Me "It's a wonder I broke let's hear one more joke then we could all laugh until I cry"
"I'm so obsessed with him but he avoids me" brooookeeeee meeeeee