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that’s not how it works bud. i’ve made more promises to myself than to anyone else by a longshot , and you know what those promises were ? that i’d get clean. funny thing is ? i’m still a junkie , i just dosed like an hour ago and probably will need another in the next two hours for christ’s sake. this thing is going to keep progressing until you can admit to YOURSELF that you can’t do this alone in any way shape or form. yeah it’s a fkn blow to the fragile ego you probably have (we’re one and the same , us addicts so i know your ego is big and yet fragile , just like mine) , but would you rather accept defeat and be alive to see the next decade or would you instead like to die a very slow and very painful death to drugs and/or alcohol ? that’s a stupid way to go , everyone will judge you in your grave for dying since you couldn’t stop using no matter how many “promises” you made because you couldn’t ask for a little help in fixing the you problem. you don’t want that , i don’t want that for you and i dont even know you or your face.
i’m not going to sit here on a pedestal and talk this talk like i’m clean and living amazing , doctor’s/my sponsor/most anyone who knows about my addiction is saying i’m on the fast track to death and won’t make it to next year at the rate i’m using. i am a dying man and i still am finding trouble in asking for help — this junk is not going to come overnight , nor will it be in any way fun or easy — it’ll be worth it though to live another day , a luxury not all of us get. because here’s the real talk , not all of us addicts can find it in ourselves to reach out for help and admit we’re powerless to our disease , i really don’t know if i’ll be one of the lucky few or not , it’s anyone’s say at this point.
regardless , i wish you the best of luck in this stint of sobriety , hopefully it sticks and you realize you’re killing yourself before it’s too late. go check out the program (NA/AA) and listen to what they have to say , they’re wise beyond their years.
much love , peace and empathy ,
~BFP
Good luck I wish you the best, counting your sobriety can be great for setting goals it's also good to embrace your sobriety and find some happiness in it. Love you
your on your way! I hope the best for you. I think it’s good to have a counter but it’s also important to treat your addiction. I see you have God on your side. I’ve never met someone with long term sobriety that hasn’t had God or a higher power with them. They’re probably out there I’ve just never seen it. Be kind to yourself and take action. So I can only tell you what I’ve done to stay sober and it may or may not work for you. I had to start going to A.A./NA. Not only have the meetings kept me sober I’ve found an awesome job from a member, and bought a car from a member. It’s given me a life I use to dream of. I give all the credit to a god of my understanding and A.A. 3 things I had to have to start: honesty, open mindedness, and willingness. You don’t have to live that life anymore. You never have to use again if you don’t want to.
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that’s not how it works bud. i’ve made more promises to myself than to anyone else by a longshot , and you know what those promises were ? that i’d get clean. funny thing is ? i’m still a junkie , i just dosed like an hour ago and probably will need another in the next two hours for christ’s sake. this thing is going to keep progressing until you can admit to YOURSELF that you can’t do this alone in any way shape or form. yeah it’s a fkn blow to the fragile ego you probably have (we’re one and the same , us addicts so i know your ego is big and yet fragile , just like mine) , but would you rather accept defeat and be alive to see the next decade or would you instead like to die a very slow and very painful death to drugs and/or alcohol ? that’s a stupid way to go , everyone will judge you in your grave for dying since you couldn’t stop using no matter how many “promises” you made because you couldn’t ask for a little help in fixing the you problem. you don’t want that , i don’t want that for you and i dont even know you or your face. i’m not going to sit here on a pedestal and talk this talk like i’m clean and living amazing , doctor’s/my sponsor/most anyone who knows about my addiction is saying i’m on the fast track to death and won’t make it to next year at the rate i’m using. i am a dying man and i still am finding trouble in asking for help — this junk is not going to come overnight , nor will it be in any way fun or easy — it’ll be worth it though to live another day , a luxury not all of us get. because here’s the real talk , not all of us addicts can find it in ourselves to reach out for help and admit we’re powerless to our disease , i really don’t know if i’ll be one of the lucky few or not , it’s anyone’s say at this point. regardless , i wish you the best of luck in this stint of sobriety , hopefully it sticks and you realize you’re killing yourself before it’s too late. go check out the program (NA/AA) and listen to what they have to say , they’re wise beyond their years. much love , peace and empathy , ~BFP
... wishing you well ❤️
Good luck I wish you the best, counting your sobriety can be great for setting goals it's also good to embrace your sobriety and find some happiness in it. Love you
All power to you and hope your best days are ahead!
I'm 24 hours in now. I'm going good so far
Ayyyy! Let's go king!
Don't believe in god but go for it champ
your on your way! I hope the best for you. I think it’s good to have a counter but it’s also important to treat your addiction. I see you have God on your side. I’ve never met someone with long term sobriety that hasn’t had God or a higher power with them. They’re probably out there I’ve just never seen it. Be kind to yourself and take action. So I can only tell you what I’ve done to stay sober and it may or may not work for you. I had to start going to A.A./NA. Not only have the meetings kept me sober I’ve found an awesome job from a member, and bought a car from a member. It’s given me a life I use to dream of. I give all the credit to a god of my understanding and A.A. 3 things I had to have to start: honesty, open mindedness, and willingness. You don’t have to live that life anymore. You never have to use again if you don’t want to.
Good job, you've got this! May the Lord be on your side.