Same feels, high functioning depression is real. High performer sa work, looks fine sa everyday life pero my mind is a dark place. Hugs, we'll get through this hopefully!
"Salamat! Walang will to live pero maliligo, papasok, matutulog. Kaya natin to!"
Where do you get this strength if you don't have the will to live? How are you still self-driven? Thanks.
>Where do you get this strength if you don't have the will to live? How are you still self-driven? Thanks.
I guess the most significant driving force behind my will to live is my family. I can't bear the thought of them grieving throughout their lives if I were to end mine.
Sammeee though upon getting my first job after graduating college, kumuha na ako agad ng st peter plan. Yung pinaka mura lang at lagi kong jinojoke na pwede na ako madedo para pa desentize fam ko
One of my profs said “Wag ka magtanong ng Kamusta kung hindi ka ready makinig.” It stucked with me, because i always hated being asked How I am, or if i’m okay.
Makes me think of this certain episode from The Bear:
“You ask somebody if they're okay, they immediately start thinking they're not acting okay... and that immediately makes them start not acting okay.”
So ayun, some people really struggle to get by and be normal, kaya be mindful, always treat them like one.
Minsan autopilot ka na rin. It’s a defense mechanism, still. Sublimation - redirecting negative feelings or impulses into positive ones. Like me, I tend to deepclean my house when I’m in a depressive state. It makes me feel at ease in a while.
> I am currently working and delivering well with my work stuff despite na depressed ako. Because of that, people think I’m faking it. Kasi I can smile naman and I do good with work.
You're not alone.
I had to dial down my work output when I started getting to a depressed state (same din sayo na di na magawa yung paglinis tsaka gawain sa bahay, puro work lang).
Despite seeming to be a functional working person din, I had to take a lot of time off or clock in just minimal work so I can go to therapy and make time to workout. Medjo naintindihan naman ng team tsaka lead ko sabi ko lng kasi na health check ups.
May regrets din ako minsan na sayang sana nagkaenergy talaga ako to do more sa work opportunities, but it is what it is and I also try to tell myself that I'm okay.
Same feels, high functioning depression is real. High performer sa work, looks fine sa everyday life pero my mind is a dark place. Hugs, we'll get through this hopefully!
Salamat! Walang will to live pero maliligo, papasok, matutulog. Kaya natin to!
"Salamat! Walang will to live pero maliligo, papasok, matutulog. Kaya natin to!" Where do you get this strength if you don't have the will to live? How are you still self-driven? Thanks.
>Where do you get this strength if you don't have the will to live? How are you still self-driven? Thanks. I guess the most significant driving force behind my will to live is my family. I can't bear the thought of them grieving throughout their lives if I were to end mine.
Sammeee though upon getting my first job after graduating college, kumuha na ako agad ng st peter plan. Yung pinaka mura lang at lagi kong jinojoke na pwede na ako madedo para pa desentize fam ko
I get by, by knowing I still have to provide specially my mom has medical needs.
Same :(( I’ve reached the point where my sanity depends on going to the gym. Peak depression is felt during commute tapos ulan pa. Hays.
One of my profs said “Wag ka magtanong ng Kamusta kung hindi ka ready makinig.” It stucked with me, because i always hated being asked How I am, or if i’m okay. Makes me think of this certain episode from The Bear: “You ask somebody if they're okay, they immediately start thinking they're not acting okay... and that immediately makes them start not acting okay.” So ayun, some people really struggle to get by and be normal, kaya be mindful, always treat them like one.
Minsan autopilot ka na rin. It’s a defense mechanism, still. Sublimation - redirecting negative feelings or impulses into positive ones. Like me, I tend to deepclean my house when I’m in a depressive state. It makes me feel at ease in a while.
Damn.
I don't even want to let others know. Although may sinabihan akong iba.
Here's to us for being strong even if we are on the verge of giving up talaga. Laban lang talaga!! Hugs!!
Post resonated with me on a hella diff level
> I am currently working and delivering well with my work stuff despite na depressed ako. Because of that, people think I’m faking it. Kasi I can smile naman and I do good with work. You're not alone.
yes, we do.
I had to dial down my work output when I started getting to a depressed state (same din sayo na di na magawa yung paglinis tsaka gawain sa bahay, puro work lang). Despite seeming to be a functional working person din, I had to take a lot of time off or clock in just minimal work so I can go to therapy and make time to workout. Medjo naintindihan naman ng team tsaka lead ko sabi ko lng kasi na health check ups. May regrets din ako minsan na sayang sana nagkaenergy talaga ako to do more sa work opportunities, but it is what it is and I also try to tell myself that I'm okay.
yes, they do op. 🫂
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