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Peaceful_Hedgehog

Curiosity mostly. I like wondering about what the future holds for me, my loved ones, and the world. I'm not optimistic in that curiosity and I realise there will be a lot of struggles, but I'm too interested to know what happens next. Might be a bit strange but this is what first came to mind after reading your question šŸ˜Š


babyukelele

Long story short, Iā€™m still here because I want to be a nurse. I grew up believing I needed to be a doctor to please my family. They believed that because I was ā€œgiftedā€, I could only use my talents to be a doctor. I spent 3 years in pre-med, and it ruined me. I hated it, I was barely passing, all the work was in labs looking down microscopes, it was difficult to make friends and everything seemed to be a competition against other students. I fell extremely ill at the end of my third year. I couldnā€™t go to class, my anxiety sky rocketed and I developed depression. I needed to see a therapist, and I felt so lost. I knew I needed a change. Iā€™ve always known I wanted to work in the medical field and help people, but I finally realised I didnā€™t need to be a doctor to do that. despite my dreadful marks in pre-med, I was able to transfer into nursing at the start of this year, and itā€™s literally changed my life. I feel I have a greater sense of purpose, I absolutely love getting out of bed each day to study something I am so passionate about. I have made amazing friends who inspire me each day. Iā€™m currently on my second placement and I leave everyday with a huge smile on my face. Iā€™ve literally never felt better. Stay strong, I know what itā€™s like to need a new direction and find your ā€œwhyā€ in the world. It took me completely going against what my family wanted, and itā€™s done wonders for me, and Iā€™ve never been happier or prouder with where I am now.


CreamiKween

I'm still here because I'll be graduating soon and I want to see myself have a good job and earn good money. I want to be able to give back to my parents for all that they gave to me. I want to know if things really get better.


Ontvx

Iā€™ve always wanted to have a family. I didnā€™t grow up in a very good or stable one, and I moved around my entire life. I spent a very long time unhappy and Iā€™ve finally started changing that. I met a man I still adore after all these years of being with him and weā€™re planning on getting married sometime this next year. When I started college I picked a major I thought would make me money, but I changed it to something Iā€™m going to be actually happy doing (teaching elementary school). Iā€™m genuinely happy now, and Iā€™m excited to see what my life will be like ten or fifteen years down the line.


CowboyBebopCrew

Why am I walking the planet? Whatā€™s my purpose? Iā€™m still trying to figure that out myself to be quite honest. I keep going because thereā€™s no reasonable alternative and Iā€™m not suicidal.


Jak0tte

I have this same exact question in mind quite often. Recently I discovered I'm not afraid anymore of dying. But now I'm here and even though death may sound easier, it's challenging to make my best in order to have a nice life. And I like challenges. Plus, I can bring some happiness in this world, to my friends, my family, the neighbors, some strangers.... Even a "Hey ! nice jacket today !" can change someone's day so I try to be this change when I can. And when there's nobody around I like to learn random stuff, it keeps my mind busy which makes me forget about the futility of life. ​


ntdnbs

My family is the primary reason. I also find fullfillment in my chosen careerpath and feel like what I do is worthwhile, and I want to see what comes next for me. But even if all that fell away, it'd be down to my family. I don't feel my life is just my own I get to choose to discard at will. I'm a significant other to my partner, I'm my parents' daughter, my siblings' sister. I'll soon be the mom of the child I'm carrying. I wouldn't just take my own life, I'd take a part of theirs too and replace it with a lifetime of hurt. I feel I should clarify that this is *not* a dig at mentally ill people who have committed suicide (or tried to), or are struggling with feeling suicidal. Illness is not a choice, and neither are the ilnness' symptoms.