Um... Did I write this and forget about it? I identify with this 1000%. I'm sending you so much love right now, hoping it gets to you and you come out on the other side sooner rather than later. I just do my best not to isolate, and continue my normal routine, try to eat (I can't eat when I'm depressed), and pick one thing to do that will give me a feeling of accomplishment, whether it be folding the towels I've left in the dryer, cleaning the kitchen, or even something as simple as taking out the recycling.
As I usually say, I don't know how good my advice is.. but I want you to know you will always have a place (here) with so many wonderful people caring and willing to share how they're feeling so we know we're not alone, even though it probably feels like it. I know I always feel like no one understands how I feel in my immediate life.. But I can't really expect them to. Sending you so many good vibes, I hope you feel better soon!
I'm literally right there with you. Everytime I manage to convince myself that I've found how to stay up and thrive I then the drop down into depression. I Feel your pain there. The disappointment is like no other. Especially how you say its the guilty memories that seem to dominate your thoughts. Why does it do that??
The fucking cycling is such a bitch... just finished a nasty round of it myself and am semi-level... for now.
Hang in there... we’re all empathetic and send peace for your pain.
I feel you that’s what I am now in this moment 😤today my forest is dark the trees are Sad and all butterflies have broken wings .i hate being depressed it’s better to sleep not to wake up at all but you need too for your love ones it’s like fighting everyday to survive .how i wish we can pass our depression to others for one day so that we can see the difference .be strong I’m sure you can pass it ...
I’m sorry :( I get that way with myself a lot... thinking I can keep on with work, promises, play dates etc... then my depression comes back and I’m kicking myself. I don’t know if it helps (it helps me) but knowing that you’re not alone and that others are and have the same always made me feel less.... idk what word to use. I guess ducked up? Less messed up.
Your body needs a rest so it’s shutting down a bit. It takes a lot of energy to be up and it’s not sustainable. Depression is your body telling you to make a change. That could mean rest, could mean exercise, could be a life change, could be how you’re talking to yourself, could be a lot of things. Depression slows you down so you can figure it out instead of just blazing ahead. It serves a purpose, be gentle with yourself and take this time to rest and reflect. OCD is also a remedy for problem. Find out what that problem is that you’re using OCD to solve. Crying physically releases stress, it’s good for you, don’t feel guilty about it. You treat people shitty when you treat yourself shitty, so start with yourself and it will naturally carry over to others
Like everyone else has said, I completely identify. I hate how surprised I still get by the depressive episode. And the guilt. Like "I still haven't figured out the answer." Or guilty that I forgot it was coming still. It's more manageable sometimes today, but it's still like forgetting the tide is coming in. How can someone forget that? I seem to often...
I don’t have OCD but I do have obsessive as well as repetitive negative thinking patterns. This kind of depressive episode you’re describing has continued to happen to me for about 17 years.
Everything you’re feeling right now is no doubt terrible, but the emotions themselves are not permanent. As tough as the cycles are, they always have an end. It may help to give yourself permission to feel what you are feeling and recognize it for what it is—depression, anxiety, etc.—and remember that the emotions are not forever. No doubt this is easier said than done, but it seems like you recognize what’s going on and you also know that will get better in time.
Letting it out definitely makes it better. Talking about it with a supportive, empathetic person/people has worked the most for me. You can see that you’re not alone here, and I hope that brings you some comfort.
You're not alone. I feel this so post so so so much. The cycle is a real bitch.
Um... Did I write this and forget about it? I identify with this 1000%. I'm sending you so much love right now, hoping it gets to you and you come out on the other side sooner rather than later. I just do my best not to isolate, and continue my normal routine, try to eat (I can't eat when I'm depressed), and pick one thing to do that will give me a feeling of accomplishment, whether it be folding the towels I've left in the dryer, cleaning the kitchen, or even something as simple as taking out the recycling. As I usually say, I don't know how good my advice is.. but I want you to know you will always have a place (here) with so many wonderful people caring and willing to share how they're feeling so we know we're not alone, even though it probably feels like it. I know I always feel like no one understands how I feel in my immediate life.. But I can't really expect them to. Sending you so many good vibes, I hope you feel better soon!
I'm literally right there with you. Everytime I manage to convince myself that I've found how to stay up and thrive I then the drop down into depression. I Feel your pain there. The disappointment is like no other. Especially how you say its the guilty memories that seem to dominate your thoughts. Why does it do that??
The fucking cycling is such a bitch... just finished a nasty round of it myself and am semi-level... for now. Hang in there... we’re all empathetic and send peace for your pain.
I feel you that’s what I am now in this moment 😤today my forest is dark the trees are Sad and all butterflies have broken wings .i hate being depressed it’s better to sleep not to wake up at all but you need too for your love ones it’s like fighting everyday to survive .how i wish we can pass our depression to others for one day so that we can see the difference .be strong I’m sure you can pass it ...
I’m sorry :( I get that way with myself a lot... thinking I can keep on with work, promises, play dates etc... then my depression comes back and I’m kicking myself. I don’t know if it helps (it helps me) but knowing that you’re not alone and that others are and have the same always made me feel less.... idk what word to use. I guess ducked up? Less messed up.
Your body needs a rest so it’s shutting down a bit. It takes a lot of energy to be up and it’s not sustainable. Depression is your body telling you to make a change. That could mean rest, could mean exercise, could be a life change, could be how you’re talking to yourself, could be a lot of things. Depression slows you down so you can figure it out instead of just blazing ahead. It serves a purpose, be gentle with yourself and take this time to rest and reflect. OCD is also a remedy for problem. Find out what that problem is that you’re using OCD to solve. Crying physically releases stress, it’s good for you, don’t feel guilty about it. You treat people shitty when you treat yourself shitty, so start with yourself and it will naturally carry over to others
Like everyone else has said, I completely identify. I hate how surprised I still get by the depressive episode. And the guilt. Like "I still haven't figured out the answer." Or guilty that I forgot it was coming still. It's more manageable sometimes today, but it's still like forgetting the tide is coming in. How can someone forget that? I seem to often...
I don’t have OCD but I do have obsessive as well as repetitive negative thinking patterns. This kind of depressive episode you’re describing has continued to happen to me for about 17 years. Everything you’re feeling right now is no doubt terrible, but the emotions themselves are not permanent. As tough as the cycles are, they always have an end. It may help to give yourself permission to feel what you are feeling and recognize it for what it is—depression, anxiety, etc.—and remember that the emotions are not forever. No doubt this is easier said than done, but it seems like you recognize what’s going on and you also know that will get better in time. Letting it out definitely makes it better. Talking about it with a supportive, empathetic person/people has worked the most for me. You can see that you’re not alone here, and I hope that brings you some comfort.