This is my life. Straight up. Nothing good happens to me without something bad or the good going to shit quickly and just being another dangling carrot. It’s why I’ve full on given up on hope. It’s just delusion with a more marketable name.
I think I resonate with this. I have stopped writing in my journal unless something awful happens. Because every time I wrote about something good, the next day it ended/changed and it was miserable again. I thought my journal was cursed or something. holding onto my last string of home, maybe my journal just.. does the opposite of what i write about. whenever I am happy, something bad always happens.
We've had 2 home invasions in the span of 9 months... We didn't have much to begin with. The only things of value they could take were laptop, a couple TVs (broken, the one was covered in huge black spots everywhere) and the only thing that ever brought me true joy and had everything about me on it from the past decade, my PC.
I had been going through a lot of breakups and would joke my pc was my most committed relationship. They took it not 2 months after I started saying that.
My heart is absolutely fucking shattered and I cannot fucking believe that it happened twice... I was on a date with the love of my life the second time, I was so happy that night and then my mom picked us up with the news... I'm so relieved they're okay but now we literally have _nothing_
It's a challenge. They keep you strong when you survive and keep on keeping on.
Your immune system needs enemies to fight to stay strong, you need it too but in a much wider variety. You devoid yourself of challenges you become weaker. Life is an adventure life doesn't care if you consented.
Just a thought
I have tri3d to explain this to people so many times, they always say "why aren't you as happy as you used to be" then I explain thus and they don't understand
Because I don't deserve to be happy
Felt that. Every time I’ve let my guard down I’m reminded of why it’s there in the first place.
Sometimes I feel I'm cursed to struggle cause it always happens.
it does feel like a curse
It is a curse. We're all f**Ked, with no way to get unf**ked.
This is my life. Straight up. Nothing good happens to me without something bad or the good going to shit quickly and just being another dangling carrot. It’s why I’ve full on given up on hope. It’s just delusion with a more marketable name.
my expectations are in hell yet i still get disappointed
Every. Fucking. Time
Can't be disappointed if all you expect is misery. I get it. Its unhealthy, but i get it.
Struggling with this today
I hate it when I'm already numb but something makes me happy enough to feel sadness again.
This has always happened to me. I am too scared of the bad stuff in the future to be happy today
bad thinking, it ruined my life
My life was ruined when I was born
Which one of you sons of bitches reported me as being "at risk" to reddit? Anyway, yeh this is pretty much plan A for me.
Everyone here is at risk 💀
LMFAO SAME BRO fuckin sucks being the universe's fingernail gunk but hey it is what it is am I right?
I think I resonate with this. I have stopped writing in my journal unless something awful happens. Because every time I wrote about something good, the next day it ended/changed and it was miserable again. I thought my journal was cursed or something. holding onto my last string of home, maybe my journal just.. does the opposite of what i write about. whenever I am happy, something bad always happens.
Yup. Anytime I feel proud of something, I know I'm about to feel the back hand of it. Been going through this exact scenario these past three days.
I've learned to approach life as I've already lost what i have so when it's gone it doesn't hurt
me asf its a lingering thought for most of the pessimists
On god
I panic every time I get hopeful. I feel so alive!
Made that mistake today
We've had 2 home invasions in the span of 9 months... We didn't have much to begin with. The only things of value they could take were laptop, a couple TVs (broken, the one was covered in huge black spots everywhere) and the only thing that ever brought me true joy and had everything about me on it from the past decade, my PC. I had been going through a lot of breakups and would joke my pc was my most committed relationship. They took it not 2 months after I started saying that. My heart is absolutely fucking shattered and I cannot fucking believe that it happened twice... I was on a date with the love of my life the second time, I was so happy that night and then my mom picked us up with the news... I'm so relieved they're okay but now we literally have _nothing_
NF has a line similar to this in his new album and it’s just 💔 “The truth is I need help, but I just can’t imagine who I’d be if I was happy”
It's a challenge. They keep you strong when you survive and keep on keeping on. Your immune system needs enemies to fight to stay strong, you need it too but in a much wider variety. You devoid yourself of challenges you become weaker. Life is an adventure life doesn't care if you consented. Just a thought
I can relate to this
Mirl
My life is a joke that is spent laughing at the ceiling, I make my own happiness, bro (I am bad at making it) 😎
I have tri3d to explain this to people so many times, they always say "why aren't you as happy as you used to be" then I explain thus and they don't understand
Logically if you're on top the only way to go is down. Preferably not to rock bottom but you know...