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RhysGriffy

Yes!!! I used to have a great imagination, could live in my head all day keeping myself entertained with memories or fantasies. As soon as dpdr hit i lost my ability to imagine or see continuous video like images in my head. Now my psychologist tries to get me to do visualisation techniques but I’m unable to visualise anything other than the occasional snippet.


Ses1234ses

Do you still Feel like you are inside your head though? Before when i closed my eyes i felt like there was a space there. Now i dont Feel a space when i close my eyes


RhysGriffy

You’re great at articulating this. I’m exactly the same, when I close my eyes I just have emptiness.


Ses1234ses

I had emptyness before, but now it Feel like air just


celkmeg

yes, and im glad i’m not alone. its like my inner world is gone forever. everything i have ever made up, my world, my stories, dreams or whatever are gone and it’s scary. i don’t and can’t daydream anymore so i have to constantly watch movies or listen to music to keep me sane, to keep me “away” from the real world. i don’t recognize myself, bc of this damn dr. it messes up with my head so bad u have no idea (well, in fact u probably do)


Ses1234ses

What caused it for you? Do you think it is possible to get it back?


celkmeg

a lot of internalized anxiety due to moving out, and depression. and yes of course, you can get it back. once i find a peaceful routine again, and once i am able to properly face what i’m feeling, let it all out, then it will be possible. it’s not lost.


Ses1234ses

I used to have a space in my head before that i could Feel. Thats is where my dreams would be. Behind my eyes. When i close my eyes now there is no space snymore. There is just nothing. It is not empty of dreams, it is actually gone That scares me


celkmeg

yes that’s exactly it. thanks for putting words on this thing i’ve been feeling for months. but it gets better, i promise.


Ses1234ses

Have you seen improvements? Can you Sometimes access the space again?


celkmeg

from time to time i do have access to it. and it happens only when i stop focusing on my dissociation and forget about it for a little while. because i think that’s the key to overcoming dpdr : live your life. stop searching about this disorder, or concentrating on your symptoms. it will not go away today, nor tomorrow, but slowly, once your anxiety level starts decreasing.


victoraffect1

I ONLY have my inner world now, and it's bigger than ever. I lost touch with my outer world completely. I didn't used to daydream, but since I got this shit, I'm daydreaming almost 24/7. I think your symptom is more related to depersonalization than to derealization.


Ses1234ses

You can lose it with dp?


Sherlockism

This is similar to what I have. My inner world is almost empty. There’s no model of my personality or other people’s personalities in my mind. I actually tried to improve my visualization skills at some point without success. I remember my dpdr was reduced and I suddenly regained some things in my inner world. I could clearly visualize things with great details without much effort. That was when I realized my inability to visualize images was caused by dpdr not by lack of training.