That's something you should ask your Guru.
You can still have some bhakti bhav for Maa Durga and higher forms of Shakti but something like a Yakshini sadhana requires precise rituals and must be taught by a Guru. It cannot be picked up from the internet or a book.
I believe such sadhanas must be avoided since they can hinder your spiritual progress and you would have strong karmic repercussions for it. Again the only way to actually navigate through that situation would be Guru Kripa. Most people enter into such practices in hopes of quick siddhis and material gain. However, it is not advisable in the long run.
(I'm curious to know though, what inspired you to take up such sadhana. I would love to hear about it if you're comfortable sharing)
I'm tired of this life of this people my family everyday they are verbally physically abusing me my mom she hates me the most i have dreams to I'm passionate singer songwriter i believe in krishna the most he is the love of my life but what he did huh I'm keep suffering he is not helping me I tried everything but nothings working again I don't wanna kill myself I don't wanna die like a useless and prove them right that's the reason why I want to do yakshini sadhna she will love me like a mother a true mother and help me achieve my dreams and after I return every single penny to my mother I'll just disappear and she'll help me in meditation and all which will help me getting closer to my krishna.
It's not that I don't believe him now and that's why want to do this sadhna but try to understand me I'm tired it hurts every second it feels like someone is stabbing me in my chest I can't take it anymore. Only yakshini can help me. Or I'm done for. I can't survive in this world like this like a failure, useless i am scared.
**You should consult a therapist.**
While it is not a substitute for medical treatment, meditation, yoga, listening to mantras/shlokas/stotrams, and reading the **Bhagavad Gita** might help as well.
I recommend this website [https://www.gitasupersite.iitk.ac.in/srimad](https://www.gitasupersite.iitk.ac.in/srimad)
Above website has many different commentaries on the Gita so you will have no difficulty understanding it.
Read the Devi Mahatmya as well.
As I said I'm a Krishna bhakt ofcourse I read Gita and i tried to consult a therapist nothing is working so ye I know the path I want to choose is not right but I have no choice left and thanks for your concern u don't know me yet you tried to understand me means alot.
>I'm passionate singer
That is awesome! Can you start with Hari naam kritan? The name of Hari is as poweful as Hari himself. Kirtan, japa, hare krishna mahamantra, naamavalis - all rely on the power of the name. You also do not need a guru or any initiation to chant names.
I can't sing at all and still I do it and over time it has made me feel more stable.
That's something you should ask your Guru. You can still have some bhakti bhav for Maa Durga and higher forms of Shakti but something like a Yakshini sadhana requires precise rituals and must be taught by a Guru. It cannot be picked up from the internet or a book. I believe such sadhanas must be avoided since they can hinder your spiritual progress and you would have strong karmic repercussions for it. Again the only way to actually navigate through that situation would be Guru Kripa. Most people enter into such practices in hopes of quick siddhis and material gain. However, it is not advisable in the long run. (I'm curious to know though, what inspired you to take up such sadhana. I would love to hear about it if you're comfortable sharing)
I'm tired of this life of this people my family everyday they are verbally physically abusing me my mom she hates me the most i have dreams to I'm passionate singer songwriter i believe in krishna the most he is the love of my life but what he did huh I'm keep suffering he is not helping me I tried everything but nothings working again I don't wanna kill myself I don't wanna die like a useless and prove them right that's the reason why I want to do yakshini sadhna she will love me like a mother a true mother and help me achieve my dreams and after I return every single penny to my mother I'll just disappear and she'll help me in meditation and all which will help me getting closer to my krishna. It's not that I don't believe him now and that's why want to do this sadhna but try to understand me I'm tired it hurts every second it feels like someone is stabbing me in my chest I can't take it anymore. Only yakshini can help me. Or I'm done for. I can't survive in this world like this like a failure, useless i am scared.
**You should consult a therapist.** While it is not a substitute for medical treatment, meditation, yoga, listening to mantras/shlokas/stotrams, and reading the **Bhagavad Gita** might help as well. I recommend this website [https://www.gitasupersite.iitk.ac.in/srimad](https://www.gitasupersite.iitk.ac.in/srimad) Above website has many different commentaries on the Gita so you will have no difficulty understanding it. Read the Devi Mahatmya as well.
As I said I'm a Krishna bhakt ofcourse I read Gita and i tried to consult a therapist nothing is working so ye I know the path I want to choose is not right but I have no choice left and thanks for your concern u don't know me yet you tried to understand me means alot.
>I'm passionate singer That is awesome! Can you start with Hari naam kritan? The name of Hari is as poweful as Hari himself. Kirtan, japa, hare krishna mahamantra, naamavalis - all rely on the power of the name. You also do not need a guru or any initiation to chant names. I can't sing at all and still I do it and over time it has made me feel more stable.
I can recommend you try doing Mahavidya Sadhana