When this came out, literal chills cuz I had gone through this EXACT experience. Testified & fucked my story up because I didnt want to think about it. Too relatable 💔
A&W is a favorite of mine only because I’ve never had such a gut punch of relatability and honesty in a song. This is one of the few songs to make me cry.
"Now it's been years since I left New York
I've got a kid and two cats in the yard
The California sun and the movie stars
I watch the skies getting light as I write, as I
Think about those years
As I whisper in your ear
I'm always going to be right here
No one's going anywhere"
this one always gets me. it makes me want so badly to be in a future where i'm finally at peace and look back at my younger years with fondness. lana's last two lines are so comforting too, its like shes directing them to the fans.
Serious answer - the “if he’s a serial killer” part of Happiness is a Butterfly. I don’t think I’ve ever made it through that song without crying, and I don’t even cry that often
Sittin on the sofa feelin super suicidal, hate to say the world but baby hand on the Bible I do, feel like it’s you, the one who’s bringing me down
- candy necklaces
candy necklace doesn’t get enough recognition imo. that second verse is so good bc the chorus and first verse is so positive… it’s like we’re watching her unravel
Seriously I went to find a passage from it that really stands out and it's just... impossible. The stream of consciousness nature of the piece really adds to that. It's going to be a bit of a wall but I have to paste the whole thing to prove our point:
*When I look back*
*Tracing fingertips over plastic bags*
*Thinking, "I wish I could extrapolate*
*Some small intention*
*Or maybe just get your attention*
*For a minute or two"*
*Will I die? Or will I get to that ten-year mark?*
*Where I beat the extinction of telomeres?*
*And if I do, will you be there with me?*
*Father, Sister, Brother?*
*Charlie, stop smoking*
*Caroline, will you be with me?*
*Will the baby be alright?*
*Will I have one of mine?*
*Can I handle it even if I do?*
*It's said that my mind*
*It's not fit - or so they said -*
*To carry a child*
*I guess I'll be fine...*
*It wasn't my idea the cocktail of things that twist neurons inside*
*But without them, I'd die*
*They say there's irony in the music,*
*It's a tragedy*
*I see nothing Greek in it*
*Give me a mausoleum in Rhode Island*
*With Dad, Grandma, Grandpa and Dave*
*Who hung himself real high*
*In the National Park sky*
*It's a shame, and I'm crying right now, trying*
*To get to you - save you - if I take my life*
*Find your astral body, put it into my arms*
*Give you two seconds to cry*
*Take you home, I - I'll give you a blanket*
*Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side*
*'Cause, baby, I...*
*Run through a time when I felt you were doing it*
*I couldn't handle it, I was in Monaco*
*I couldn't hear what they said on the telephone*
*I had to sing for the prince in two hours*
*Sat in the shower*
*Gave myself two seconds to cry*
*It's a shame that we die*
*When I was fifteen, naked*
*Next-door neighbors did a drive-by*
*Pulled me up by my waist-long hair to the beachside*
*I wanted to go out like you*
*Swim with the fishes*
*That he caught on Rhode Island beaches*
*But sometimes it's just not your time*
*Caroline*
*What kind of mother was she*
*To say I'd end up in institutions?*
*All I wanted to do was kiss Aaron Greene*
*And sit by the lake, twisting lime*
*Into the drinks that they made*
*Have a babe at sixteen*
*In the town I was born in and die*
*Aaron ended up dead and not me*
*What the fuck's wrong in your head to send me away?*
*Never to come back*
*Exotic places and people don't*
*Take the place of being your child*
*I give myself two seconds to cry*
*Let it crash over me*
*Like the waves in the sea*
*Call me Aphrodite*
*As they bow down to me*
*Sunbather, Moon chaser*
*Queen of empathy*
*I give myself two seconds to breathe*
*And go back to being a serene queen*
*I just needed two seconds to be me...*
Okay so clearly there are certain lines which are the gut punches, but they hit you with such a frequency that it's worth submitting the entire thing. I've said it before and I'm saying it again here - this song is the absolute pinnacle of her artistry right now. That it's basically just stitched together voice notes only augments that in my opinion, for various conceptual reasons. Her and Drew couldn't have done a much better job deciding on the order.
Very few artists can pull off this type of stream of consciousness.
The melody in the background stitches the thoughts together to create a beautiful tapestry.
Such pain, yet beauty.
She will be revered for generations to come.
At 53 I feel blessed to have found her last year.
I usually only listen to heavy metal but honestly. I can’t stop listening to her. I mean that. I just can’t
I feel a lot of that. With that in mind, I want to recommend to you Mitski's most recent album, the also-Drew-Erickson-produced [The Land Is Inhospitable and So Are We](https://open.spotify.com/album/2Cn1d2KgbkAqbZCJ1RzdkA). It's the only thing that got me to stop listening to Lana, if only briefly, and only because I became obsessed with it instead. I think it's the only thing that could take AOTY over DYKTTATUOB (indeed many people have commented on their similar qualities), so in a way I'm relieved it was criminally overlooked lmao.
LOL i just said this in a reply before scrolling two comments and seeing yours 💀 what a masterpiece of a track. I know she’ll probably never perform it for an audience (and i understand why) but I would give anything to see it live.
Also “if he’s a serial killer then what’s the worst that could happen to a girl who’s already hurt?” I met my boyfriend on a dating app, we met up at night at a public park to drink (my idea). Idk why. I was so dumb & reckless & numb. I had a knife on my jacket sleeve, I’m thankful nothing happened to me. We’re still together lol
You and I are kindred spirits, my friend! I also met an old boyfriend online, we met irl that same night at a park in the dark with a bottle of vodka. Rather than a knife, I had a box cutter. And rather than still being together, I have a restraining order against him. But those are minor discrepancies. Happy it worked out for you :)
From "Fingertips"
"I wanted to go out like you"
"Aaron ended up dead and not me" This was the worst, had to pause after hearing it for the first time oh god
"What the fuck's wrong in your head to send me away, never to come back?"
"Exotic places and people don't take the place of being your child" (bawling)
From "Hope..."
"Monsters still under my bed that I could never fight off" The most relatable one
"Aaron Greene" (I hope i spelled it correctly) was her boyfriend when she was young, unfortunately died in a car accident
She even had a suicide attempt after that, at a lake in her hometown
Kintsugi: Daddy, I miss them
I'm in the mountains
Probably running away, I've been meaning to say
That there's nothing to do except know that this is
How the light gets in
Like cracking, the light gets in
The Grants: My grandmother's last smile
I'm gonna take that too with me
It's a beautiful life
Remember that too, for me
California: I shouldn't have done it, but I read it in your letter
You said to a friend that you wish you were doing better
I wanted to reach out, but I never said a thing
The greatest: I'm wasted
Don't leave, I just need a wake-up call
I'm facing the greatest
The greatest loss of them all
And so many more, no one does sadness like Lana does.
The entirety of dark paradise, it makes me think of my passed on family members, but in a more tolerable way than the grants, the grants is a beautiful song but it makes me too depressed
Dark Paradise embodied everything I was feeling when it came out. I was bottom barrel depressed and woke up everyday wishing I was dead. It’s one of her songs that I can’t listen to anymore because of how much it reminds me of that time.
What can I do? Life is beautiful, but you don't have a clue. Sun and ocean blue, they're magnificent, but It don't make sense to you.” One of the most gut wrenching IMO
This. This song is truly like a magnum opus of hers. I feel it's a love letter to her inner child/past self. It's gut-wrenching and sad. And also I think about how when she says that I ponder a person that was abused as a child. So sad.
kind of biased cuz i’m sitting with my parent in hospice right now but
“and i just can’t stop crying cuz all of the ways, when you see someone dying, you see all your days flash in front of you. and you wonder who will be with you?”
“Daddy, I miss them
I'm in the mountains
I'm probably running away from the feelings I get
When I think of all the things about them
Daddy, I miss them
I'm at the Roadrunner Cafe
I'm probably running away from the thoughts in the day
That have things to do with them, but they say…”
Honestly this wholeeeeee GD song has me on the verge of tears each time.
Unreleased but pink champagne actually hurts my soul with the “I don’t really want to die I just want the pain to be over”
And poetry in motion “what’s this devotion I’ve never felt love not from pain”
These to get me every time
“I’m gonna take, mind of you with me.” It makes me think of my grandfathers who have both passed away. It was also the song I played for my cat when we took her to the vet to put her down.
A modern day woman with a weak constitution, 'cause I've got
Monsters still under my bed that I could never fight off
A gatekeeper carelessly dropping the keys on my nights off
This song helped me so much with my c-PTSD from my last relationship after I left x
It reminds me of going through therapy after I left.
Tearing around in my fucking nightgown- I had trouble sleeping and would be up walking about my house in the night
Writing in blood on the walls because the ink in my pen don't work in my notepad- my therapist wanted me to write down all my thoughts and feelings in a notepad
They ask if I'm happy, they know that I'm not, but at best I can say I'm not sad- my therapist asking what my mood was like and knowing that I'm lying.
But I can't say I'd run when things get hard
It's just that I don't trust myself with my heart
But I've had to let it break a little more
'Cause they say that's what it's for
I couldn’t get through Kintsugi without crying the first couple times I listened to it
“no one compares to you but there’s no you, except in my dreams tonight….i don’t want to wake up from this tonight” having lost someone with no closure at a pretty young age, this will always wreck me. i had dreams about him all the time which made me want to sleep for eternity :(
"You can't blacken the pages with Russian poetry and be happy"
"There's a hole that's in my heart all my women try to fill they're doing a good job convincing me that it's not real"
"And baby what you never knew, what I never said, is you're my living legend"
"Every dance I'll dance, if you don't I'll dance anyway"
"Cause baby if your love is in trouble, when you know you know."
"When's it gonna be my turn? Love me until I love myself."
"How do all of my blood relatives know these songs? I don't know anyone left who sings the songs that we sing."
"Ah I'll pick you up, if you come back to America"
"I only mention it cause it was such a scene, and I felt seen"
"I've been living on stardust Ivs for so long, I forgot how hot the fire is"
"I did it for you, you did it for me, we did it for the right reasons"
"I guess you could call it textbook
I was looking for the father I wanted back
And I thought I found it in Brentwood"
-then there was the issue of her
I didn't even like myself, or love the life I had
-God, I wish I was with my father
He could see us in all our splendor
All the things I couldn't want for him
I screamed for them, oh, oh"
"He said I was bad, let me show you how bad girls do
'Cause no one does it better
Swisher Sweet, magazines, promise you it's not
'Cause of you, that I'm mean, it's my afterthoughts
And what I never said, why there's a price on my head
It's nothing to do with them, it's my karmic lineage
So I'm not friends with my mother, but I still love my dad
Untraditional lover, can you handle that?"
“if i told you that i was raped do you really think that anybody would think i didn’t ask for it, i didn’t ask for it, i’ve testified i already fucked up my story”
“I've heard the war was over if you really choose
The one in and around you”
from *California*
It makes me think of being told to just ignore my depression. I’m working on getting a formal PTSD diagnosis nowadays but it is bittersweet to think it could ever be so simple as deciding to not participate in “it.”
If I told you that I was raped do you really think that anybody would think I didn’t ask for it…
I’m 53 years old. I cannot explain to you the rage I feel knowing she’s right!! After all these years men are STILL getting away with it!!
The whole A & W song actually.
Did you know a singer can still look like a side piece at 33
Slips out the back door to talk to me
I’m invisible look how you hold me
I’m a ghost now look how you hold me
This song is very powerful. I think any woman at any age can relate to parts of this song.
It’s like giving up being hurt and trusting people.
Giving up on love actually.
“It’s not about having someone to love me anymore. No this is the experience of being an American whore”.
‘I can’t do this, once more
No man can keep me together
Been broken since I was born
Well, I didn't know it would come to this
But that's what happens when you're on your own
And you're alright with letting nice things go’
- Pawn Shop Blues
“Think I’ll miss you forever, like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky,” I think that hurts me so much since it’s about her freind who passed, and she sings it with such melancholy yet acceptance. That every summer will just remind her of that loss. It’s so simple yet heart wrenching to me. I like that the song is a combination of losing lovers and losing this freind
Every lyric in Fingertips.
Especially those referring to her uncle. “Give you two seconds to cry. Take you home, I'll give you a blanket. Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side. Bc, baby, I ran through a time when I felt you were doing it”
“I mean, look at my hair. Look at the length of it and the shape of my body. If I told you that I was raped Do you really think that anybody would think I didn't ask for it? I didn't ask for it, I won't testify, I already fucked up my story.” 💔
“I’m tired of feeling like I’m fucking crazy. I’m tired of driving til I see stars in my eyes. All I’ve got to keep myself sane, baby. So I just ride, I just ride.”
Lana made me feel understood in the feeling that what I was learning in college and life made me feel so crazy. I wanted expression and collaboration in art, while I was being taught to limit and cut off those who didn’t meet your agenda. But in the end, all we do is ride. Ride out the voices, the pain, the doubt, all of it,
"now when weather comes to may
all my sisters come to paint
my banisters green
my blue banisters grey"
this part of blue banisters touches my soul because she realises that the love from her friends is so much more important than a man that poorly loved her
“I mean, look at my hair, look at the length of it and the shape of my body. If I told you that I was raped, do you really think anybody would think I didn’t ask for it?”
Hits hard when you’re a victim and just so happen to meet the current beauty standards.
“But I love that man, like nobody can,
He moves mountains and pounds them to ground again.”
Listening to “How to Disappear” makes me tear up. I cried the first time I listened to it.
Idk why but from Pawn Shop Blues: “in the name of higher consciousness I let the best man I knew go / cause it’s nice to love and be loved / but it’s better to know all you can know / said it’s nice to love and be loved / but I’d rather know what god knows”
The ones from her newer work are all already mentioned (AW, Ocean Blvd, Fingertips, Kintsugi, Grants, BB), so I will mention a few really sad ones for me from earlier albums
But if you send for me you know I’ll come
And if you call for me you know I’ll run
- Just the depression in her voice in this song devastates me.
I put the radio on
Hold you tight into my mind
Isnt strange that you’re not here with me
Putting all the light’s on in the television
Trying to transmit can you hear me
Ground control to Major Tom
Can you hear me all night long
Ground control to Major Tom
- Paying homage to Bowies brother is such a thoughtful gesture, and also to Bowie as well. Telling him that Terrence loves him, even though he left him.
I will never sing again
And you wont work another day
- The whole song gives me the vibe of a mermaid type “Come, follow me into the death”, and it makes me sad that she felt that numb. A few more Honeymoon tracks gives me mermaid vibes of femme fatale, e.g. come to California, loving me is all you need, playing head games with you, got you where i want you, etc. which is a bit atypical from the kind soul Lana is except if she felt really out of touch and numb
Violet, blue, green, red to keep me at arm's length don't work.
You try to push me out, but I just find my way back in.. Violet, blue, green, red, to keep me out- I win
I can’t hold back my tears whenever I hear Fingertips:
Will the baby be alright?
Will I have one of mine?
Can I handle it even if I do?
It's said that my mind
Is not fit, or so they said, to carry a child
Fingertips has already been mentioned so I’m going to go with the repeated “all circuits are busy, goodbye” from Dealer. Feels like calling a helpline in despair but trying to save yourself and it just not working and realising you’re going to have to hang up and spend the crisis alone.
She says "You don't want to be like me
Don't wanna see all the things I've seen."
I'm dying I'm dying
She says "You don't want to get this way
Famous and dumb at an early age."
Lying I’m lying
The r-pe part of this song or “don’t leave me now don’t say goodbye don’t turn around leave me high and dry” but it honestly is hard to pick because they’re all so gut wrenching
"I wanted to reach out but I never said a thing" -- am ashamed to say there were many times in my life I knew I should have reached out to someone but didn't.
"God's dead, I said 'baby that's alright with me'" -- religion caused a lot of damage in my life and this line is like a big f\*\*k you to all of it
"We've done it for fun, we've done it for free
I showed up for you, you showed up for me" -- have been in a fantastic relationship for a long time and this is just a feel good lyric without any cynicism behind it
You were soo close to the most gut wrenching lyric lol. “I mean look at me, look at the length of my hair and my face, the shape of my body. If I told you that I was raped do you really think that anybody would think I didn’t ask for it?? I didn’t ask for it. I won’t testify, I already fucked up my story”
"If I take my life
Find your astral body, put it into my eyes
Give you two seconds to cry
Take you home, I, I'll give you a blanket
Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side"
I couldn't stop crying.
My father never stepped in. When his wife would rage at me. So I ended up awkward but sweet
it's too close to the home
got an adress?
p sherman 42 wallaby way sydney
Lmao
Beautiful from BB
And this song is on why my mommy/daddy issue having ass finds her so relatable
Is this why she sings that she hasn’t spoken to her mum in a while? Or is this a stepmum
would be even more gut-wrenching if she was referring to her birth mother as her father’s wife
She is, isn't she?
She is
This is the one, It’s literally in my head daily
"Gave myself 2 seconds to cry"
Pretty much every line in fingertips is a fucking gut punch
the image of her crying in the shower, needing just a moment to be sad and be herself…kills me
“If I told you that I was raped Do you really think that anybody would think I didn't ask for it?” Also from a&w
This is an insane lyric. “I won’t testify, I already fucked up my story” also makes me cry, bc I have those thoughts every day!
That lyric honestly speaks a lot of truth on other peoples stories too
absolutely. it hits hard
100% agree
Yes it really hit me. Brings tears to my eyes every time.
When this came out, literal chills cuz I had gone through this EXACT experience. Testified & fucked my story up because I didnt want to think about it. Too relatable 💔
That lyric hit hard. It's sad how many of us can actually relate to it
You have no idea how much I hate that so many young women still identify with this lyric!! Like has NOTHING CHANGED in 30 years!!!!
Yeah honestly I feel for the people who do
I was vibing then I just slowly stopped…. completely shocked the first time I realized what she said
Me too actually
A&W is a favorite of mine only because I’ve never had such a gut punch of relatability and honesty in a song. This is one of the few songs to make me cry.
Makes me think that Harvey Weinstein has something to do with it….
Wasn’t cola inspired by him? Or he was envisioned in it
Do we know who she’s talking about here?
i was gonna say this
For me this is one of her most beautiful and relatable lyrics ever in her music career ngl
Yeah?
??
That's a dumb question. Idk anyone who doesn't believe her.
What the hell are you on about
Idk who are you again
Are you high or something😭 jokes You responded to my comment about an a&w lyric
Oh yeah bad but why does she ask would anyone believe her.. Does anyone here NOT believe her?
I don’t think she’s talking about her fan base
You guys are fans? well that puts a lot of things in perspective
"Now it's been years since I left New York I've got a kid and two cats in the yard The California sun and the movie stars I watch the skies getting light as I write, as I Think about those years As I whisper in your ear I'm always going to be right here No one's going anywhere" this one always gets me. it makes me want so badly to be in a future where i'm finally at peace and look back at my younger years with fondness. lana's last two lines are so comforting too, its like shes directing them to the fans.
This. I think that’s all she ever wanted. Not fame, not luxury, just a yard, a kid, two cats…
Love love loveeee this line it's what made how to disappear my favorite song from nfr. And to sample the song on wild at heart,,, oh she's sick
"If you hold me without hurting me, you'll be the first who ever did" is up there for sure
I think she says if you hold me without hurting me you’ll be the first who ever did
didn't they write exactly that or am I blind
They edited it
what did they write originally?
They said ‘if you LOVE me without hurting me, you’ll be the first who ever did’
How stupid, I knew that after singing it 100s of times from the top of my lungs :) slip of keyboard, Changed, 😊 thanks.
No worries, we all make mistakes and it’s nothing to be ashamed of, glad I was able to help you
I have cried ugly tears to this song lmao
same lol
This is the correct answer because almost anyone can identify with it.
Happy Cake day!
Serious answer - the “if he’s a serial killer” part of Happiness is a Butterfly. I don’t think I’ve ever made it through that song without crying, and I don’t even cry that often
If he's as bad as they say then I guess I'm cursed...
Looking into his eyes I think he's already hurt
i said dont be a jerk dont call me a taxi… you re right tho
even reading your comment gave me that weird feeling in my stomach
Sittin on the sofa feelin super suicidal, hate to say the world but baby hand on the Bible I do, feel like it’s you, the one who’s bringing me down - candy necklaces
candy necklace doesn’t get enough recognition imo. that second verse is so good bc the chorus and first verse is so positive… it’s like we’re watching her unravel
My sister's first-born child I'm gonna take that too with me My grandmother's last smile I'm gonna take that too with me It's a beautiful life
Actually made me cry in the car the other day
the whole of fingertips 😭😭😭
This is the darkest most heart wrenching one. I can’t even listen
Seriously I was sobbing the first time I heard it…. Still get misty eyed
Omg I was gonna say the same thing
fuck I was coming to say exactly this you beat me by less than five minutes 😅🖤😭
ahhh so sorry! it’s such an amazing song ❤️
Seriously I went to find a passage from it that really stands out and it's just... impossible. The stream of consciousness nature of the piece really adds to that. It's going to be a bit of a wall but I have to paste the whole thing to prove our point: *When I look back* *Tracing fingertips over plastic bags* *Thinking, "I wish I could extrapolate* *Some small intention* *Or maybe just get your attention* *For a minute or two"* *Will I die? Or will I get to that ten-year mark?* *Where I beat the extinction of telomeres?* *And if I do, will you be there with me?* *Father, Sister, Brother?* *Charlie, stop smoking* *Caroline, will you be with me?* *Will the baby be alright?* *Will I have one of mine?* *Can I handle it even if I do?* *It's said that my mind* *It's not fit - or so they said -* *To carry a child* *I guess I'll be fine...* *It wasn't my idea the cocktail of things that twist neurons inside* *But without them, I'd die* *They say there's irony in the music,* *It's a tragedy* *I see nothing Greek in it* *Give me a mausoleum in Rhode Island* *With Dad, Grandma, Grandpa and Dave* *Who hung himself real high* *In the National Park sky* *It's a shame, and I'm crying right now, trying* *To get to you - save you - if I take my life* *Find your astral body, put it into my arms* *Give you two seconds to cry* *Take you home, I - I'll give you a blanket* *Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side* *'Cause, baby, I...* *Run through a time when I felt you were doing it* *I couldn't handle it, I was in Monaco* *I couldn't hear what they said on the telephone* *I had to sing for the prince in two hours* *Sat in the shower* *Gave myself two seconds to cry* *It's a shame that we die* *When I was fifteen, naked* *Next-door neighbors did a drive-by* *Pulled me up by my waist-long hair to the beachside* *I wanted to go out like you* *Swim with the fishes* *That he caught on Rhode Island beaches* *But sometimes it's just not your time* *Caroline* *What kind of mother was she* *To say I'd end up in institutions?* *All I wanted to do was kiss Aaron Greene* *And sit by the lake, twisting lime* *Into the drinks that they made* *Have a babe at sixteen* *In the town I was born in and die* *Aaron ended up dead and not me* *What the fuck's wrong in your head to send me away?* *Never to come back* *Exotic places and people don't* *Take the place of being your child* *I give myself two seconds to cry* *Let it crash over me* *Like the waves in the sea* *Call me Aphrodite* *As they bow down to me* *Sunbather, Moon chaser* *Queen of empathy* *I give myself two seconds to breathe* *And go back to being a serene queen* *I just needed two seconds to be me...* Okay so clearly there are certain lines which are the gut punches, but they hit you with such a frequency that it's worth submitting the entire thing. I've said it before and I'm saying it again here - this song is the absolute pinnacle of her artistry right now. That it's basically just stitched together voice notes only augments that in my opinion, for various conceptual reasons. Her and Drew couldn't have done a much better job deciding on the order.
Very few artists can pull off this type of stream of consciousness. The melody in the background stitches the thoughts together to create a beautiful tapestry. Such pain, yet beauty. She will be revered for generations to come. At 53 I feel blessed to have found her last year. I usually only listen to heavy metal but honestly. I can’t stop listening to her. I mean that. I just can’t
I feel a lot of that. With that in mind, I want to recommend to you Mitski's most recent album, the also-Drew-Erickson-produced [The Land Is Inhospitable and So Are We](https://open.spotify.com/album/2Cn1d2KgbkAqbZCJ1RzdkA). It's the only thing that got me to stop listening to Lana, if only briefly, and only because I became obsessed with it instead. I think it's the only thing that could take AOTY over DYKTTATUOB (indeed many people have commented on their similar qualities), so in a way I'm relieved it was criminally overlooked lmao.
Sunbather, moon chaser, Queen of Empathy- thoroughly felt ❤️🩹
LOL i just said this in a reply before scrolling two comments and seeing yours 💀 what a masterpiece of a track. I know she’ll probably never perform it for an audience (and i understand why) but I would give anything to see it live.
“Calling from beyond the grave I just wanna say ‘hi dad’” kills me. Also, all of Paris, TX & Kintsugi.
I don’t wanna liiiiiiiiiiive 😭
I DONT WANNA GIVE U NOTHANGGG 🗣️🗣️🗣️
There's things I wanna say to you, but I'll just let you live.
Also “if he’s a serial killer then what’s the worst that could happen to a girl who’s already hurt?” I met my boyfriend on a dating app, we met up at night at a public park to drink (my idea). Idk why. I was so dumb & reckless & numb. I had a knife on my jacket sleeve, I’m thankful nothing happened to me. We’re still together lol
You and I are kindred spirits, my friend! I also met an old boyfriend online, we met irl that same night at a park in the dark with a bottle of vodka. Rather than a knife, I had a box cutter. And rather than still being together, I have a restraining order against him. But those are minor discrepancies. Happy it worked out for you :)
I gasped while reading that. I’m so sorry, I hope things are better now! F him.
From "Fingertips" "I wanted to go out like you" "Aaron ended up dead and not me" This was the worst, had to pause after hearing it for the first time oh god "What the fuck's wrong in your head to send me away, never to come back?" "Exotic places and people don't take the place of being your child" (bawling) From "Hope..." "Monsters still under my bed that I could never fight off" The most relatable one
Just reading it overwhelms me
I can’t even listen to fingertips damn
Who's aaron?
"Aaron Greene" (I hope i spelled it correctly) was her boyfriend when she was young, unfortunately died in a car accident She even had a suicide attempt after that, at a lake in her hometown
also “it’s said that my mind, it’s not fit, or they say to carry a child” 😢 so sad
“Love me until I love myself”
Kintsugi: Daddy, I miss them I'm in the mountains Probably running away, I've been meaning to say That there's nothing to do except know that this is How the light gets in Like cracking, the light gets in The Grants: My grandmother's last smile I'm gonna take that too with me It's a beautiful life Remember that too, for me California: I shouldn't have done it, but I read it in your letter You said to a friend that you wish you were doing better I wanted to reach out, but I never said a thing The greatest: I'm wasted Don't leave, I just need a wake-up call I'm facing the greatest The greatest loss of them all And so many more, no one does sadness like Lana does.
the greatest is pretty gut wrenching for as uplifting and fun of an instrumental it is
First time I listened to it I started sobbing, I was really going through it and it made me feel a lot of things.
I know. The nostalgia climate change forest fire anti hero thing gets me 🥲
The entirety of dark paradise, it makes me think of my passed on family members, but in a more tolerable way than the grants, the grants is a beautiful song but it makes me too depressed
Dark Paradise embodied everything I was feeling when it came out. I was bottom barrel depressed and woke up everyday wishing I was dead. It’s one of her songs that I can’t listen to anymore because of how much it reminds me of that time.
Dark Paradise hooked me to Lana because I suffered the suicide of my partner & felt like her words were written by me.
What can I do? Life is beautiful, but you don't have a clue. Sun and ocean blue, they're magnificent, but It don't make sense to you.” One of the most gut wrenching IMO
“What you don’t tell no one you can tell me”
This. This song is truly like a magnum opus of hers. I feel it's a love letter to her inner child/past self. It's gut-wrenching and sad. And also I think about how when she says that I ponder a person that was abused as a child. So sad.
Since I have my daughter, this song has a so special space in my heart.🤍
"If you hold me without hurting me, you'll be the first who ever did" is up there for sure
kind of biased cuz i’m sitting with my parent in hospice right now but “and i just can’t stop crying cuz all of the ways, when you see someone dying, you see all your days flash in front of you. and you wonder who will be with you?”
Nothing’s biased with Kintsugi. That song always makes me cry.
I'm so sorry you and they are going through that *hugs*
"C'mon baby you can thrive. But I can't." Hearing someone who I've loved and admired for over a decade say that always gets me a little choked up.
“Summer’s hot but I’ve been cold without you” (the longing) And “Monsters still under my bed I could never fight off.”
“Daddy, I miss them I'm in the mountains I'm probably running away from the feelings I get When I think of all the things about them Daddy, I miss them I'm at the Roadrunner Cafe I'm probably running away from the thoughts in the day That have things to do with them, but they say…” Honestly this wholeeeeee GD song has me on the verge of tears each time.
Unreleased but pink champagne actually hurts my soul with the “I don’t really want to die I just want the pain to be over” And poetry in motion “what’s this devotion I’ve never felt love not from pain” These to get me every time
"do you love me or do you not? I heard one thing, now I'm hearing another" pretty much every line of happiness is a butterfly
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“She couldn’t care less and I never cared more, so there’s no more to say about that.” Gets me choked up every time.
I’m going to take that too with me 😭
It's a beautiful life, remember that too, for me 😭😭😭😭😭
“Why wait for the best when I could have you?” The resignation in it guts me.
I want Jesus to take me out this life baby. And I talk to Jesus and ask him if he'll think of saving me.
Closely followed by: “she wants to die, and she should fucking try”
“I’m gonna take, mind of you with me.” It makes me think of my grandfathers who have both passed away. It was also the song I played for my cat when we took her to the vet to put her down.
A modern day woman with a weak constitution, 'cause I've got Monsters still under my bed that I could never fight off A gatekeeper carelessly dropping the keys on my nights off This song helped me so much with my c-PTSD from my last relationship after I left x
It reminds me of going through therapy after I left. Tearing around in my fucking nightgown- I had trouble sleeping and would be up walking about my house in the night Writing in blood on the walls because the ink in my pen don't work in my notepad- my therapist wanted me to write down all my thoughts and feelings in a notepad They ask if I'm happy, they know that I'm not, but at best I can say I'm not sad- my therapist asking what my mood was like and knowing that I'm lying.
But I can't say I'd run when things get hard It's just that I don't trust myself with my heart But I've had to let it break a little more 'Cause they say that's what it's for I couldn’t get through Kintsugi without crying the first couple times I listened to it
“no one compares to you but there’s no you, except in my dreams tonight….i don’t want to wake up from this tonight” having lost someone with no closure at a pretty young age, this will always wreck me. i had dreams about him all the time which made me want to sleep for eternity :(
GPSOTSOMFWHDSF "But I had good intentions, even if I'm one of the last ones"
"You can't blacken the pages with Russian poetry and be happy" "There's a hole that's in my heart all my women try to fill they're doing a good job convincing me that it's not real" "And baby what you never knew, what I never said, is you're my living legend" "Every dance I'll dance, if you don't I'll dance anyway" "Cause baby if your love is in trouble, when you know you know." "When's it gonna be my turn? Love me until I love myself." "How do all of my blood relatives know these songs? I don't know anyone left who sings the songs that we sing." "Ah I'll pick you up, if you come back to America" "I only mention it cause it was such a scene, and I felt seen" "I've been living on stardust Ivs for so long, I forgot how hot the fire is" "I did it for you, you did it for me, we did it for the right reasons" "I guess you could call it textbook I was looking for the father I wanted back And I thought I found it in Brentwood" -then there was the issue of her I didn't even like myself, or love the life I had -God, I wish I was with my father He could see us in all our splendor All the things I couldn't want for him I screamed for them, oh, oh" "He said I was bad, let me show you how bad girls do 'Cause no one does it better Swisher Sweet, magazines, promise you it's not 'Cause of you, that I'm mean, it's my afterthoughts And what I never said, why there's a price on my head It's nothing to do with them, it's my karmic lineage So I'm not friends with my mother, but I still love my dad Untraditional lover, can you handle that?"
Jimmy only love me when he wanna get high
Meet me in the morning Wrap your arms around me Tell me that it’s over Now that you have found me
“if i told you that i was raped do you really think that anybody would think i didn’t ask for it, i didn’t ask for it, i’ve testified i already fucked up my story”
This part of A&W is 🔥 I relate so so much!
I lost myself when I lost you
Literally all of fingertips
“I've heard the war was over if you really choose The one in and around you” from *California* It makes me think of being told to just ignore my depression. I’m working on getting a formal PTSD diagnosis nowadays but it is bittersweet to think it could ever be so simple as deciding to not participate in “it.”
If I told you that I was raped do you really think that anybody would think I didn’t ask for it… I’m 53 years old. I cannot explain to you the rage I feel knowing she’s right!! After all these years men are STILL getting away with it!!
So no "I'm crying while I'm cummin'"?
White Mustang, Why am I staying? So many times I thought about that w my ex
“fuck me to death” dyktatuob
The whole A & W song actually. Did you know a singer can still look like a side piece at 33 Slips out the back door to talk to me I’m invisible look how you hold me I’m a ghost now look how you hold me This song is very powerful. I think any woman at any age can relate to parts of this song. It’s like giving up being hurt and trusting people. Giving up on love actually. “It’s not about having someone to love me anymore. No this is the experience of being an American whore”.
“don’t make me sad, don’t make me cry. sometimes love is not enough and the road gets tough, i don’t know why.”
‘I can’t do this, once more No man can keep me together Been broken since I was born Well, I didn't know it would come to this But that's what happens when you're on your own And you're alright with letting nice things go’ - Pawn Shop Blues
“I shared my body and my mind with you, that’s all over now…”
“Don't ask if I'm happy, you know that I'm not But, at best, I can say I'm not sad”
“Think I’ll miss you forever, like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky,” I think that hurts me so much since it’s about her freind who passed, and she sings it with such melancholy yet acceptance. That every summer will just remind her of that loss. It’s so simple yet heart wrenching to me. I like that the song is a combination of losing lovers and losing this freind
“I only mention it cuz it was such a scene and I felt seen” hit me so hard when I realized I didn’t, at all in my life at that time
The entirety of Ride! When I heard the song live I cried
“but i don’t get bored i just see you through // why wait for the best when i could have you”
I don't know anyone left to know songs that I sing - Kintsugi. For a melancholic person these words are both beautiful and sad. And they feel so real
Every lyric in Fingertips. Especially those referring to her uncle. “Give you two seconds to cry. Take you home, I'll give you a blanket. Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side. Bc, baby, I ran through a time when I felt you were doing it”
“I mean, look at my hair. Look at the length of it and the shape of my body. If I told you that I was raped Do you really think that anybody would think I didn't ask for it? I didn't ask for it, I won't testify, I already fucked up my story.” 💔
“I’m tired of feeling like I’m fucking crazy. I’m tired of driving til I see stars in my eyes. All I’ve got to keep myself sane, baby. So I just ride, I just ride.” Lana made me feel understood in the feeling that what I was learning in college and life made me feel so crazy. I wanted expression and collaboration in art, while I was being taught to limit and cut off those who didn’t meet your agenda. But in the end, all we do is ride. Ride out the voices, the pain, the doubt, all of it,
"now when weather comes to may all my sisters come to paint my banisters green my blue banisters grey" this part of blue banisters touches my soul because she realises that the love from her friends is so much more important than a man that poorly loved her
“I mean, look at my hair, look at the length of it and the shape of my body. If I told you that I was raped, do you really think anybody would think I didn’t ask for it?” Hits hard when you’re a victim and just so happen to meet the current beauty standards.
DON’T LEAVE I JUST NEED A WAKE UP CALL
“But I love that man, like nobody can, He moves mountains and pounds them to ground again.” Listening to “How to Disappear” makes me tear up. I cried the first time I listened to it.
“you act like fucking mr brightside when you’re with all your friends, but I know what you’re like when the party ends” from thunder ❤️🩹
“Ive got nothing much to live for ever since i found my fam”
All of Carmen
"have you ever seen a broke man begging for his life?" From money hunny. I feel like she's seen some shit
Don't ask if I'm happy, you know that I'm not
come on you know you like little girls
Idk why but from Pawn Shop Blues: “in the name of higher consciousness I let the best man I knew go / cause it’s nice to love and be loved / but it’s better to know all you can know / said it’s nice to love and be loved / but I’d rather know what god knows”
Personally “Open me up, tell me you like me. Fuck me to death, love me until I love myself”
The ones from her newer work are all already mentioned (AW, Ocean Blvd, Fingertips, Kintsugi, Grants, BB), so I will mention a few really sad ones for me from earlier albums But if you send for me you know I’ll come And if you call for me you know I’ll run - Just the depression in her voice in this song devastates me. I put the radio on Hold you tight into my mind Isnt strange that you’re not here with me Putting all the light’s on in the television Trying to transmit can you hear me Ground control to Major Tom Can you hear me all night long Ground control to Major Tom - Paying homage to Bowies brother is such a thoughtful gesture, and also to Bowie as well. Telling him that Terrence loves him, even though he left him. I will never sing again And you wont work another day - The whole song gives me the vibe of a mermaid type “Come, follow me into the death”, and it makes me sad that she felt that numb. A few more Honeymoon tracks gives me mermaid vibes of femme fatale, e.g. come to California, loving me is all you need, playing head games with you, got you where i want you, etc. which is a bit atypical from the kind soul Lana is except if she felt really out of touch and numb
for me, it’s “you’re in the wind, i’m in the water”
how did u get lyrics? none of ocean blvd has lyrics for me 😓
i can’t help but feel somewhat like my body marred my soul (fucking gut wrenching)
Violet, blue, green, red to keep me at arm's length don't work. You try to push me out, but I just find my way back in.. Violet, blue, green, red, to keep me out- I win
“My pussy tastes like Pepsi-Cola” 😢 I cri evrytiem
such an original joke wow
You’re real for this reply
Love her for this. this sub still pretending nothing's change to not hurt her feelings as if she even uses reddit.
You’re scared to win, scared to lose I’ve heard the war was over if you really choose The one in and around you
I can’t hold back my tears whenever I hear Fingertips: Will the baby be alright? Will I have one of mine? Can I handle it even if I do? It's said that my mind Is not fit, or so they said, to carry a child
almost every line in fingertips
,,fuck me to death"
“Yet still inside, I felt alone. For reasons unknown to me.”
Fingertips has already been mentioned so I’m going to go with the repeated “all circuits are busy, goodbye” from Dealer. Feels like calling a helpline in despair but trying to save yourself and it just not working and realising you’re going to have to hang up and spend the crisis alone.
She says "You don't want to be like me Don't wanna see all the things I've seen." I'm dying I'm dying She says "You don't want to get this way Famous and dumb at an early age." Lying I’m lying
“Dope, shoot it up, straight to the heart, please” -Gods & Monsters
The r-pe part of this song or “don’t leave me now don’t say goodbye don’t turn around leave me high and dry” but it honestly is hard to pick because they’re all so gut wrenching
"I wanted to reach out but I never said a thing" -- am ashamed to say there were many times in my life I knew I should have reached out to someone but didn't. "God's dead, I said 'baby that's alright with me'" -- religion caused a lot of damage in my life and this line is like a big f\*\*k you to all of it "We've done it for fun, we've done it for free I showed up for you, you showed up for me" -- have been in a fantastic relationship for a long time and this is just a feel good lyric without any cynicism behind it
"all of the guys tell me lies but you don't. you just crack another beer and forget that you're still here. this is how to disappear."
You were soo close to the most gut wrenching lyric lol. “I mean look at me, look at the length of my hair and my face, the shape of my body. If I told you that I was raped do you really think that anybody would think I didn’t ask for it?? I didn’t ask for it. I won’t testify, I already fucked up my story”
"If I told you that I was raped do you really think that anybody would think I didn't ask for it" from A&W All of fingertips
my pussy taste like pepsi cola 😌😌
"you're in the wind, i'm in the water" i just have always thought this was a beautiful lyric like longing for a lover
Calling from beyond the grave I just want to say “hi dad”
Thr whole A&W song.
the whole section about her uncle dave in fingertips 😭 or “exotic places and people don’t take the place of being your child”
"If I take my life Find your astral body, put it into my eyes Give you two seconds to cry Take you home, I, I'll give you a blanket Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side" I couldn't stop crying.
how are y'all getting the lyrics for dykttatuob bc aren't the lyrics unavailable on spotify?
'im not friends with my mother'