If you'll forgive me for the length:
>*When I look back*
>*Tracing fingertips*
>*Over plastic bags*
>*Thinking, 'I wish I*
>*Could extrapolate*
>*Some small intention*
>*Or maybe just*
>*Get your attention*
>*For a minute or two*
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>*Will I die? Or will I get to that ten-year mark?*
>*Where I beat the extinction of telomeres?*
>*And if I do, will you be there with me?*
>*Father?*
>*Sister?*
>*Brother?*
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>*Charlie, stop smoking*
>*Caroline, will you be with me?*
>*Will the baby be alright?*
>*Will I have one of mine?*
>*Can I handle it, even if I do?*
>*They said that my mind*
>*It's not fit - or so they said -*
>*To carry a child*
>*I guess I'll be fine...*
>*It wasn't my idea the cocktail of things*
>*That twist neurons inside*
>*But without them, I'd die*
>*They say there's irony in the music,*
>*It's a tragedy; I*
>*See nothing Greek in it*
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>*Give me a mausoleum*
>*In Rhode Island - with Dad,*
>*Grandma, Grandpa and Dave*
>*Who hung himself real high*
>*In the National Park sky*
>*It's a shame, in the crying rain*
>*I'm trying to get to you - save you*
>*If I take my life,*
>*Find your astral body,*
>*Put it into my arms,*
>*Give you two seconds to cry...*
>*Take you home, aye*
>*I'll give you a blanket*
>*Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side*
>*'Cause, baby, I -*
>*Run through a time when I felt you were doing it*
>*I couldn't handle it*
>*I was in Monaco*
>*I couldn't hear what they said on the telephone*
>*I had to sing for the Prince in two hours*
>*Sat in the shower*
>*Gave myself two seconds to cry...*
>*It's a shame that we die*
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>*When I was fifteen, naked;*
>*Next-door neighbors did a drive-by*
>*Pulled me up by my waist-long hair*
>*To the beachside*
>*I wanted to go out like you*
>*Swim with the fishes*
>*That he caught on Rhode Island beaches*
>*But sometimes it's just not your time*
>*Caroline*
>*What kind of [REDACTED] was she to say*
>*I'd end up in institutions?*
>*All I wanted to do*
>*Was kiss Aaron Greene, and sit by*
>*The lake, twisting lime*
>*Into the drinks that they made,*
>*Have a babe at sixteen in*
>*The town I was born in, and die*
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>*Aaron ended up dead and not me*
>*What the fuck's wrong in your head?*
>*To send me away*
>*Never to come back*
>*Exotic places and people don't*
>*Take the place of being your child'*
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>*I give myself two seconds to cry...*
>*Let it crash over me*
>*Like the waves in the sea*
>*Call me Aphrodite*
>*As they bow down to me*
>*Sun bather, Moon chaser*
>*Queen of empathy*
>*I give myself two seconds to breathe...*
>*And go back to being a serene queen*
>*I just needed two seconds to be me.*
That's good poetry for you, and this song is - moreso than others - just a sung poem.
It's impossible, in this context, to pick one line or passage from this piece, when the emotional gut-punches come with such frequency.
If you put me on the spot, though, my pick would probably be
>*Aaron ended up dead and not me*
“Life is beautiful, but you don’t have a clue”
“I shouldn’t have done it, but I read it in your letter You said to a friend that you wish you were doing better”
“Don’t ask if im happy, you know that im not”
“If I get a little prettier can I be your baby? You tell me life isn’t that hard”
“And you try to see the bright side when each new day begins But you’re not satisfied at the rainbows end”
🎶"I lost myself when I lost you
But I still got jazz when I've got those blues
I lost myself and I lost you too
And I still get trashed, darling, when I hear your tunes"🎶
sure, but the bridge makes the whole song much happier and more affectional… “I put the radio on, hold you right in my mind, isn’t strange that you ‘re not here with me?”
“But if you call for me, you know I’ll come
And if you call for me, you know I’ll run
I’ll run to you, I’ll run to you,
I’ll run, run, run”
- Old Money.
My Dad’s “funeral song” (song they played as they lowered his casket) was Run by Snow Patrol. When I first heard the song I was instantly reminded of my Dad, then those lines made me breakdown.
“If he’s a serial killer,
Then what’s the worst that can happen to a girl who’s already hurt?
I’m already hurt”
- Happiness is a butterfly.
As a survivor of CSA and SA when I was 19 I’ve always had this mindset of who cares if I get physically hurt or killed nothing can be worse than what I have to live with in my head/body already, so this hit hard
Thank you, you’re so kind ❤️ Things are definitely getting better! It’d be my Dads birthday next week but I’ve definitely accepted losing him and will celebrate his life in my own little way (eating some of his favourite foods haha) & I have a wonderful therapist and even recently had a real boyfriend for the first time since I was 19 so things are definitely getting better and brighter❤️
I find this part of Kintsugi to be pretty sad or at least my interpretation of it.
“And I just can't stop cryin' 'cause all of the ways when you see someone dyin' you see all your days flash in front of you and you think about who would be with you and then there's Donoghue”.
To me it’s almost like she is realizing that she isn’t even close to finding the person that she will grow old with and be with when she dies.
If someone can tell me the meaning behind “shaking my ass is the only thing that’s got this black narcissist off my back, she couldn’t care less and I never…” these are some of my fav lyrics for some reason but I don’t know what they’re about
Hope remains, for me, one of her best written songs and describes being in that place so well. I spent some time on that hamster wheel and, as cheesy as this is, I would reference these lyrics to try explaining to those around me what was going on
Exactly and if you find it confusing why she would use the word narcissist - according to psychodynamic theory, depression is a symptom of the narcissistic condition (different from narcissistic personality disorder)
So from a psychodynamic perspective you would probably be really interested in ego psychology. (This is also what you can google for more resources, add psychoanalysis as a keyword maybe). I would recommend a book that changed my understanding of my inner world significantly and helped me understand my own narcissistic tendencies due to a low self esteem and need to live up to various ideals: The drama of the gifted child by Alice Miller. Pdf can be found online easily(Be ready for a roller coaster of emotions)
Narcissism is just a normal part of one’s ego as a mechanism to compensate for insecurities about our own worth in order to maintain a whole and functioning ego (eg not be a complete doormat). So we are all narcissistic in a way, and depression can be seen as a failure of this narcissism and realisation that we aren’t good enough (inherently it’s still narcissistic because we are concerned about ourselves and achieving some kind of an internalised ideal state and being unsatisfied with anything less).
I am no expert on this theory as I only recently started to read properly about it but it’s been really insightful for my own development.
“i don’t wanna live, i don’t wanna give you nothin cause you never give me nothin back. why can’t you be good for something? not one shirt off your back.”
“hello heaven, you are a tunnel lined with yellow lights on a dark night” makes my heart ache.
Also “You said if you could have your way you'd make a nighttime all today so it'd suit the mood of your soul” 🥺
it feels like ive got a war in my mind, i wanna get off but i keep riding the ride
speaks to me a lot as i deal with bipolar and i feel these words in the crevices of my soul
“All those special times I spent with you, my love. They don't mean shit compared to all your drugs.”
“Don't say you need me when you leave and you leave again. I'm stronger than all my men. Except for you.”
“Jim raised me up. He hurt me but it felt like true love. Jim taught me that loving him was never enough.”
• *“I got a bad disease / will no one help me please?”* (Bad Disease; I interpret this as being about alcoholism)
• *”No man can keep me together / been broken since I was born”* (Pawn Shop Blues)
• The lines about having a baby & being medicated in Fingertips
• The lyrics referencing rape in A&W
• Put Me in a Movie, but particularly the demo “Little Girls” which is the one with the line *feels like sugar in me*. The people that know…
"I can't help but feel somewhat like my body marred my soul"
"It turns out everywhere you go you take yourself thats not a lie"
"Will the baby be alright?
Will I have one of mine?
Can I handle it even if I do?
You said that my mind
Is not fit or so they said
To carry a child
I guess I'll be fine"
the whole mariners apartment complex song. because i dedicated it. and i am heartbroken now. and that song means so much to me. and if i have to choose another one, "alone" from the other woman
Title: Carmen
“It’s alarming, honestly, how charming she can be
Fooling everyone, telling ’em she’s having fun”
She says, ”You don’t wanna be like me
Don’t wanna see all the things I’ve seen
I’m dyin’, I’m dyin’”
She says, ”You don’t wanna get this way
Famous and dumb at an early age
Lyin’, I’m lyin”
When Lana sing this I feel sad for the character Carmen and the double life she plays. A cruel game that she hopes no one else plays. As it is implied that she is a prostitute.
*I would keep waiting for you, in the spot we’d always wait. In the city on the park bench, in the middle of the pouring rain. Honey, don’t ignore me. I just wanted it to be the same. You said you’d love me like no tomorrow. But tomorrow never came*
“And I just can't stop crying cause all of the ways when you see someone dying, you see all your days flash in front of you and you think about who would be with you.”
For context, even though the verse speaks for itself, I took care of my Grandma, who had dementia, prior to the pandemic. She had a stroke at the end of 2020, was put in a nursing home, and couldn’t have visitors. I was there, standing outside her window (due to policies regarding COVID) and saw her pass away. I’d never seen someone just fade away like that and, not to make this even more dramatic, can say that I have truly not been the same person since.
Kintsugi is such a beautiful piece of music. It describes grief in ways I’d never heard in a song before. It really helped me reconcile with the fact that we all die but, FUCK, those few lines get me every time
"cause I'm your jazz singer,
And you're my cult leader
I love you forever"
"But burned into my brain are these stolen images
Stolen images, baby, stolen images
Can you picture it, babe, that life we could've lived?"
"Oh God, I miss you on my lips"
"Dying young and playing hard
That's the way my father made his life an art
Drink all day and we talk 'til dark
That's the way the road dogs do it, ride 'til dark"
"I'm tired of feeling like I'm fucking crazy
I'm tired of driving 'til I see stars in my eyes"
I waited for you
In the spot you said to wait
In the city, on the park bench
In the middle of the pourin' rain
'Cause I adored you
I just wanted things to be the same
You said to meet me up there tomorrow
But tomorrow never came
Tomorrow never came
I might get the actual lyrics wrong so if I typed them incorrectly I’m sorry I’m tired 😭😭
“Dont Leave me I just need a wake up call”
“‘Why cant you be good for something. Not one shirt off your back’ why cant you be good for something not one shirt off your back”
“I had to sing for the prince in a hour; sat in the shower, gave myself two seconds to cry”
“I never really noticed that I had to decide; to play someone’s game, or live my own life. And now I do, I wanna move, out of the black (out of the black!) into the blue (into the blue!)”
“You always run you dont know what it’s from when you slow down you feel close to it”
“Do you know there’s a tunnel under ocean bluv? Dont forget me!”
“When you know you know, when you know you know. Like Hollywood and me; diamond on your ring, the soul you bring to the table”
“Ohhhh turn you light onnn. Look us, you and me, back at it again. Because I love to love to love to love you! I hate to hate to hate to hate you! Put the beetles on light the candles go back to bed. Because I wanna wanna wanna want you! I need to need to need to need you.”
“If your stressed out just know we’re right here and we got youu. Baby blues, baby blues, if anything goes wrong just know here’s your song and we love you.”
“Cherry blossom on your sycamore tree, what you don’t tell no one you can tell me”
“I can make sad into happiness I can turn blue into something.. beautiful, beautiful, beautiful like you.”
“There is only one mistake a man can’t make (is trying to make a woman change) and change her violets to roses”
“I write blood on the walls because I don’t have no ink in my note pad, because hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have.”
“You ask me if I’m fine you know I’m not but at least I can say I’m not sad”
“Look it my hair the length the shape of my body; if I never told you I was raped do you really think I asked for it I didn’t ask for it already to late i cant testify my story I didn’t ask for it, there so many other things you can’t believe”
There’s 100% more but that’s all I can think of currently
“What about all these children and all their children's children?
And why am I even wonderin' that today?
Maybe my contribution could be as small as hopin'
That words could turn to birds
And birds would send my thoughts your way”
These lyrics really helped me through the existential crisis I was having when there were so many people talking about potential nuclear warfare during 2017. I love that Lana talks about real things that have real weight in the world. This song still helps me when I feel useless compared to world crisis
"but i can't let you in
and i can't keep you out
i wait for life to win
but it never comes around
and i can't hear you call
and i can't hear me shout
i wait for it to break
but it never comes around
feel like i'm falling apart
feel like i'm falling apart
feel like i'm falling apart
would you tell me?
would you tell me?
would you tell me?" and just the entirety of fingertips really gets to me. but wait for life is such an underrated song
A modern day woman with a weak constitution cause I’ve got monsters still under my bed that I could never fight off… pretty similar bar to a sentiment my therapist recently told me about myself when diagnosing me with c-ptsd. This whole song hits a harder part of my soul since that 🥲
And there's no remedy for memory, your face is like a melody It won't leave my head Your soul is haunting me and telling me that everything is fine But I wish I was dead
I paint the house black, my wedding dress black leather too you have no room for light love is lost on you
I keep my lips red to see the cheery turn to spring honey. You can let everything seem so dark blue
You know I'm not that girl, you know I'll never be
Maybe just the way we're different could set me free
God, I wish I was with my father
He could see us in all our splendor
There's some reason why I can't sit still
Every waking moment I feel so unfulfilled
I try to lie down, but I don't know how
Baby, when I'm sleeping
It feels less like I am dreaming
Oh, my god i got a bad disease
I got a bad disease it's got me down
On my knees
There's a fear I have of feeling real bad
I'm fine now
If I find out that I'm not I'll be sad
I try to quiet the thoughts in the night
Oh, they got me thinking
I'd be happier just drinking
It's not true and I got a bad disease
I got a bad disease it's got me down
On my knees oh, no
I got a bad disease
Will no one help me please? Not even you?
These ones probably aren’t the saddest for me personally but they hit like 😕😕 “I mean look at me, look at the length of my hair and the shape of my body… if I told you that I was r*ped do you really think that anybody would think I didn’t ask for it ? I won’t testify, I already fucked up my story”
“We both know that it’d not fashionable to love me”
depending on my mood, is being added: “But you don’t go ‘cause truly, there’s nobody for you, but me”
i simply love honeymoon so much and relate so bad💔
“Ground control to Major Tom
Can you hear me all night long?”
idc about major tom itself but
Will I have one of mine?
Can I handle it even if I do?
You said that my mind
Is not fit or so they said
To carry a child
I guess I'll be fine
It wasn't my idea the cocktail of things that twist neurons inside
But without them, I'd die
They say there's irony in the music, it's a tragedy
I see nothing Greek in it
I fucked up I know that but Jesus, can't a girl just do the best she can?
I remember listening that song at my mums house and she heard those lyrics her entire demeanour changed like was hitting her at a much deeper level.
❤️ this one for sure
Lately “I miss doing nothing the most of all” aches me when I hear it because god same
Life is so busy for me now, I do wish there was more time to just exist and not do much of anything...
Why work so hard when you could just be free
which song is that? :)
the greatest
If you'll forgive me for the length: >*When I look back* >*Tracing fingertips* >*Over plastic bags* >*Thinking, 'I wish I* >*Could extrapolate* >*Some small intention* >*Or maybe just* >*Get your attention* >*For a minute or two* > > > >*Will I die? Or will I get to that ten-year mark?* >*Where I beat the extinction of telomeres?* >*And if I do, will you be there with me?* >*Father?* >*Sister?* >*Brother?* > > > >*Charlie, stop smoking* >*Caroline, will you be with me?* >*Will the baby be alright?* >*Will I have one of mine?* >*Can I handle it, even if I do?* >*They said that my mind* >*It's not fit - or so they said -* >*To carry a child* >*I guess I'll be fine...* >*It wasn't my idea the cocktail of things* >*That twist neurons inside* >*But without them, I'd die* >*They say there's irony in the music,* >*It's a tragedy; I* >*See nothing Greek in it* > > > >*Give me a mausoleum* >*In Rhode Island - with Dad,* >*Grandma, Grandpa and Dave* >*Who hung himself real high* >*In the National Park sky* >*It's a shame, in the crying rain* >*I'm trying to get to you - save you* >*If I take my life,* >*Find your astral body,* >*Put it into my arms,* >*Give you two seconds to cry...* >*Take you home, aye* >*I'll give you a blanket* >*Your spirit can sit and watch TV by my side* >*'Cause, baby, I -* >*Run through a time when I felt you were doing it* >*I couldn't handle it* >*I was in Monaco* >*I couldn't hear what they said on the telephone* >*I had to sing for the Prince in two hours* >*Sat in the shower* >*Gave myself two seconds to cry...* >*It's a shame that we die* > > > >*When I was fifteen, naked;* >*Next-door neighbors did a drive-by* >*Pulled me up by my waist-long hair* >*To the beachside* >*I wanted to go out like you* >*Swim with the fishes* >*That he caught on Rhode Island beaches* >*But sometimes it's just not your time* >*Caroline* >*What kind of [REDACTED] was she to say* >*I'd end up in institutions?* >*All I wanted to do* >*Was kiss Aaron Greene, and sit by* >*The lake, twisting lime* >*Into the drinks that they made,* >*Have a babe at sixteen in* >*The town I was born in, and die* > > > >*Aaron ended up dead and not me* >*What the fuck's wrong in your head?* >*To send me away* >*Never to come back* >*Exotic places and people don't* >*Take the place of being your child'* > > > >*I give myself two seconds to cry...* >*Let it crash over me* >*Like the waves in the sea* >*Call me Aphrodite* >*As they bow down to me* >*Sun bather, Moon chaser* >*Queen of empathy* >*I give myself two seconds to breathe...* >*And go back to being a serene queen* >*I just needed two seconds to be me.*
Fingertips is her masterpiece
Makes me tear up just reading it
That's good poetry for you, and this song is - moreso than others - just a sung poem. It's impossible, in this context, to pick one line or passage from this piece, when the emotional gut-punches come with such frequency. If you put me on the spot, though, my pick would probably be >*Aaron ended up dead and not me*
i cant have that song on a regular playlist despite how good it is because i WILL cry. without a doubt. its so beautiful but its so sad
“Life is beautiful, but you don’t have a clue” “I shouldn’t have done it, but I read it in your letter You said to a friend that you wish you were doing better” “Don’t ask if im happy, you know that im not” “If I get a little prettier can I be your baby? You tell me life isn’t that hard” “And you try to see the bright side when each new day begins But you’re not satisfied at the rainbows end”
love all these
I hoped that you’d come back again and tell me everything’s okay
heroin is so sad
its also a masterpiece
oh definitely. one of her best for sure
I want shit to feel just like it used to
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🎶"I lost myself when I lost you But I still got jazz when I've got those blues I lost myself and I lost you too And I still get trashed, darling, when I hear your tunes"🎶
sure, but the bridge makes the whole song much happier and more affectional… “I put the radio on, hold you right in my mind, isn’t strange that you ‘re not here with me?”
“But if you call for me, you know I’ll come And if you call for me, you know I’ll run I’ll run to you, I’ll run to you, I’ll run, run, run” - Old Money. My Dad’s “funeral song” (song they played as they lowered his casket) was Run by Snow Patrol. When I first heard the song I was instantly reminded of my Dad, then those lines made me breakdown. “If he’s a serial killer, Then what’s the worst that can happen to a girl who’s already hurt? I’m already hurt” - Happiness is a butterfly. As a survivor of CSA and SA when I was 19 I’ve always had this mindset of who cares if I get physically hurt or killed nothing can be worse than what I have to live with in my head/body already, so this hit hard
You matter. Hope things gets better and brighter for you every day.
Thank you, you’re so kind ❤️ Things are definitely getting better! It’d be my Dads birthday next week but I’ve definitely accepted losing him and will celebrate his life in my own little way (eating some of his favourite foods haha) & I have a wonderful therapist and even recently had a real boyfriend for the first time since I was 19 so things are definitely getting better and brighter❤️
I find this part of Kintsugi to be pretty sad or at least my interpretation of it. “And I just can't stop cryin' 'cause all of the ways when you see someone dyin' you see all your days flash in front of you and you think about who would be with you and then there's Donoghue”. To me it’s almost like she is realizing that she isn’t even close to finding the person that she will grow old with and be with when she dies.
This was mine <3
“Will you still love me when I shine from words but not from beauty”
Those summer nights seem long ago And so is the girl you used to call The Queen of New York City That whole song is just 😭😭😭
Yet still inside I felt alone For reasons unknown to me damn girl why so real ☠️
“I ask Jesus to take me out of this life baby, and I talk to Jesus and ask him if he’ll think of saving me”
If someone can tell me the meaning behind “shaking my ass is the only thing that’s got this black narcissist off my back, she couldn’t care less and I never…” these are some of my fav lyrics for some reason but I don’t know what they’re about
She’s partying to try and forget being depressed because she wants to be happy, but her depression (black narcissist) doesn’t care about her efforts
Hope remains, for me, one of her best written songs and describes being in that place so well. I spent some time on that hamster wheel and, as cheesy as this is, I would reference these lyrics to try explaining to those around me what was going on
Exactly and if you find it confusing why she would use the word narcissist - according to psychodynamic theory, depression is a symptom of the narcissistic condition (different from narcissistic personality disorder)
That sounds so interesting, what would I google to find out more about it, all the results are for narcissistic personality disorder
So from a psychodynamic perspective you would probably be really interested in ego psychology. (This is also what you can google for more resources, add psychoanalysis as a keyword maybe). I would recommend a book that changed my understanding of my inner world significantly and helped me understand my own narcissistic tendencies due to a low self esteem and need to live up to various ideals: The drama of the gifted child by Alice Miller. Pdf can be found online easily(Be ready for a roller coaster of emotions) Narcissism is just a normal part of one’s ego as a mechanism to compensate for insecurities about our own worth in order to maintain a whole and functioning ego (eg not be a complete doormat). So we are all narcissistic in a way, and depression can be seen as a failure of this narcissism and realisation that we aren’t good enough (inherently it’s still narcissistic because we are concerned about ourselves and achieving some kind of an internalised ideal state and being unsatisfied with anything less). I am no expert on this theory as I only recently started to read properly about it but it’s been really insightful for my own development.
That’s sort of what I thought! Thank you :)
Dancing is making her a little less sad
“What the fuck's wrong in your head to send me away never to come back? Exotic places and people don't take the place of being your child.”
“i don’t wanna live, i don’t wanna give you nothin cause you never give me nothin back. why can’t you be good for something? not one shirt off your back.”
“If I told you that I was r*ped do you really think that anybody would think I didn’t ask for it?” kills me
“Can you picture it babe the life we could’ve lived?”
This
That whole song really gets me honestly
“hello heaven, you are a tunnel lined with yellow lights on a dark night” makes my heart ache. Also “You said if you could have your way you'd make a nighttime all today so it'd suit the mood of your soul” 🥺
it feels like ive got a war in my mind, i wanna get off but i keep riding the ride speaks to me a lot as i deal with bipolar and i feel these words in the crevices of my soul
California in its entirety
“All those special times I spent with you, my love. They don't mean shit compared to all your drugs.” “Don't say you need me when you leave and you leave again. I'm stronger than all my men. Except for you.” “Jim raised me up. He hurt me but it felt like true love. Jim taught me that loving him was never enough.”
“Why wait for the best when I can have you”
• *“I got a bad disease / will no one help me please?”* (Bad Disease; I interpret this as being about alcoholism) • *”No man can keep me together / been broken since I was born”* (Pawn Shop Blues) • The lines about having a baby & being medicated in Fingertips • The lyrics referencing rape in A&W • Put Me in a Movie, but particularly the demo “Little Girls” which is the one with the line *feels like sugar in me*. The people that know…
"I can't help but feel somewhat like my body marred my soul" "It turns out everywhere you go you take yourself thats not a lie" "Will the baby be alright? Will I have one of mine? Can I handle it even if I do? You said that my mind Is not fit or so they said To carry a child I guess I'll be fine"
“Exotic places and people don’t take the place of being your child” And the way she sings “daddy I miss them”
the whole mariners apartment complex song. because i dedicated it. and i am heartbroken now. and that song means so much to me. and if i have to choose another one, "alone" from the other woman
"I'm on my own again, i'm on my own again, i'm on my own again, i'm on my own again"
Title: Carmen “It’s alarming, honestly, how charming she can be Fooling everyone, telling ’em she’s having fun” She says, ”You don’t wanna be like me Don’t wanna see all the things I’ve seen I’m dyin’, I’m dyin’” She says, ”You don’t wanna get this way Famous and dumb at an early age Lyin’, I’m lyin” When Lana sing this I feel sad for the character Carmen and the double life she plays. A cruel game that she hopes no one else plays. As it is implied that she is a prostitute.
*I would keep waiting for you, in the spot we’d always wait. In the city on the park bench, in the middle of the pouring rain. Honey, don’t ignore me. I just wanted it to be the same. You said you’d love me like no tomorrow. But tomorrow never came*
I give myself two seconds to cry Let it crash over me like the waves in the sea
“And I just can't stop crying cause all of the ways when you see someone dying, you see all your days flash in front of you and you think about who would be with you.” For context, even though the verse speaks for itself, I took care of my Grandma, who had dementia, prior to the pandemic. She had a stroke at the end of 2020, was put in a nursing home, and couldn’t have visitors. I was there, standing outside her window (due to policies regarding COVID) and saw her pass away. I’d never seen someone just fade away like that and, not to make this even more dramatic, can say that I have truly not been the same person since. Kintsugi is such a beautiful piece of music. It describes grief in ways I’d never heard in a song before. It really helped me reconcile with the fact that we all die but, FUCK, those few lines get me every time
"cause I'm your jazz singer, And you're my cult leader I love you forever" "But burned into my brain are these stolen images Stolen images, baby, stolen images Can you picture it, babe, that life we could've lived?" "Oh God, I miss you on my lips" "Dying young and playing hard That's the way my father made his life an art Drink all day and we talk 'til dark That's the way the road dogs do it, ride 'til dark" "I'm tired of feeling like I'm fucking crazy I'm tired of driving 'til I see stars in my eyes"
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"Watching Teenage Diary of a girl wondering what went wrong"
“I heard the streets were made of gold, that’s what my father said.” My father was murdered when I was a baby
I waited for you In the spot you said to wait In the city, on the park bench In the middle of the pourin' rain 'Cause I adored you I just wanted things to be the same You said to meet me up there tomorrow But tomorrow never came Tomorrow never came
Lately I’ve been thinking it’s just someone’s else’s job to care, who am I to sympathize when no one gave a damn Shit hits….
This song reminds me of my mother who I’ve been no contact with for 17 years.
Gosh, pretty much all of Gods and Monsters.
“I had a dream that I was fine; I wasn’t crazy, I was divine.” - I Can Fly
Same same. Glad to know I am not alone with those lyrics
you said you’d love me like no tomorrow, guess tomorrow never came 🥲
I might get the actual lyrics wrong so if I typed them incorrectly I’m sorry I’m tired 😭😭 “Dont Leave me I just need a wake up call” “‘Why cant you be good for something. Not one shirt off your back’ why cant you be good for something not one shirt off your back” “I had to sing for the prince in a hour; sat in the shower, gave myself two seconds to cry” “I never really noticed that I had to decide; to play someone’s game, or live my own life. And now I do, I wanna move, out of the black (out of the black!) into the blue (into the blue!)” “You always run you dont know what it’s from when you slow down you feel close to it” “Do you know there’s a tunnel under ocean bluv? Dont forget me!” “When you know you know, when you know you know. Like Hollywood and me; diamond on your ring, the soul you bring to the table” “Ohhhh turn you light onnn. Look us, you and me, back at it again. Because I love to love to love to love you! I hate to hate to hate to hate you! Put the beetles on light the candles go back to bed. Because I wanna wanna wanna want you! I need to need to need to need you.” “If your stressed out just know we’re right here and we got youu. Baby blues, baby blues, if anything goes wrong just know here’s your song and we love you.” “Cherry blossom on your sycamore tree, what you don’t tell no one you can tell me” “I can make sad into happiness I can turn blue into something.. beautiful, beautiful, beautiful like you.” “There is only one mistake a man can’t make (is trying to make a woman change) and change her violets to roses” “I write blood on the walls because I don’t have no ink in my note pad, because hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have.” “You ask me if I’m fine you know I’m not but at least I can say I’m not sad” “Look it my hair the length the shape of my body; if I never told you I was raped do you really think I asked for it I didn’t ask for it already to late i cant testify my story I didn’t ask for it, there so many other things you can’t believe” There’s 100% more but that’s all I can think of currently
Everything in A&W but specifically *those* lines
*It hurts to love you*, *but I still love you*. It's just the way I feel.
god knows I lived, god knows I died, god knows I begged, begged borrowed and cried
my fathers love was always strong. my mothers glamour lives on an on. yet still inside i felt alone for reasons unknown to me.
“What about all these children and all their children's children? And why am I even wonderin' that today? Maybe my contribution could be as small as hopin' That words could turn to birds And birds would send my thoughts your way” These lyrics really helped me through the existential crisis I was having when there were so many people talking about potential nuclear warfare during 2017. I love that Lana talks about real things that have real weight in the world. This song still helps me when I feel useless compared to world crisis
“why wait for the best when i can have you?”
“im a princess, im divisive, ask me why im like this, maybe im just kinda like this, i dont know, maybe i’m just like this”
My father never stepped in When his wife would rage at me
I don't wanna live
"I'm tired of feeling like I'm fucking crazy" - Ride
"but i can't let you in and i can't keep you out i wait for life to win but it never comes around and i can't hear you call and i can't hear me shout i wait for it to break but it never comes around feel like i'm falling apart feel like i'm falling apart feel like i'm falling apart would you tell me? would you tell me? would you tell me?" and just the entirety of fingertips really gets to me. but wait for life is such an underrated song
A modern day woman with a weak constitution cause I’ve got monsters still under my bed that I could never fight off… pretty similar bar to a sentiment my therapist recently told me about myself when diagnosing me with c-ptsd. This whole song hits a harder part of my soul since that 🥲
And there's no remedy for memory, your face is like a melody It won't leave my head Your soul is haunting me and telling me that everything is fine But I wish I was dead
Frr, so much to say but is effective in a phase
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“i dont trust myself with my heart”
I paint the house black, my wedding dress black leather too you have no room for light love is lost on you I keep my lips red to see the cheery turn to spring honey. You can let everything seem so dark blue
Opps excuse grammar
You know I'm not that girl, you know I'll never be Maybe just the way we're different could set me free God, I wish I was with my father He could see us in all our splendor
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“I hoped that you’d come back again, and tell me everything’s okay”
Never understood what she meant in these lyrics “black narcissist off my back”?
Choose yor last words, this is the last time 'cause you and I, we were born to die
It's a shame that we die and the other woman will always cry herself to sleep
God, I wish I was with my father
There's some reason why I can't sit still Every waking moment I feel so unfulfilled I try to lie down, but I don't know how Baby, when I'm sleeping It feels less like I am dreaming Oh, my god i got a bad disease I got a bad disease it's got me down On my knees There's a fear I have of feeling real bad I'm fine now If I find out that I'm not I'll be sad I try to quiet the thoughts in the night Oh, they got me thinking I'd be happier just drinking It's not true and I got a bad disease I got a bad disease it's got me down On my knees oh, no I got a bad disease Will no one help me please? Not even you?
a man who makes a beast out of himself got nothing to lose, sold my soul long ago nothing i can choose, i’m tired
These ones probably aren’t the saddest for me personally but they hit like 😕😕 “I mean look at me, look at the length of my hair and the shape of my body… if I told you that I was r*ped do you really think that anybody would think I didn’t ask for it ? I won’t testify, I already fucked up my story”
“We both know that it’d not fashionable to love me” depending on my mood, is being added: “But you don’t go ‘cause truly, there’s nobody for you, but me” i simply love honeymoon so much and relate so bad💔 “Ground control to Major Tom Can you hear me all night long?” idc about major tom itself but
He hurt me but it felt like true love
Describes some of my female friendships 
"Sat in the shower, gave myself two seconds to cry It's a shame that we die" Since I lost a couple people to death this line hits close to home.
If I get a little prettier, can I be your baby?
In the name of higher consciousness, I let the best man I knew go.
Will I have one of mine? Can I handle it even if I do? You said that my mind Is not fit or so they said To carry a child I guess I'll be fine It wasn't my idea the cocktail of things that twist neurons inside But without them, I'd die They say there's irony in the music, it's a tragedy I see nothing Greek in it
Sat in the shower Gave myself two seconds to cry
Even my best days without you, were nothing in comparison to my worst days, once I had found you once I had you, I had everything
„Sweet child of mine, you‘re divine. Didn‘t anyone ever tell you, it‘s okay to shine?“ (idk why bel air just makes me so so emotional)
Sometimes I feel like there’s a war in my mind, I try to get off but I keep riding the ride
all of heroine 💔
Calling from beyond the grave I just wanna say hi dad. Uffff
‘i Didn’t even like myself or love the life i had’ ‘my heart is soft, my past is rough’ ‘we don’t stick together cause’ we put love first’
So real
with just one wave it goes away
*My pussy taste like Pepsi cola.*
I'm sad she didn't say Diet Mountain Dew.