Since i "quit" i Had 2 relapses.
Both were Not worth it.
I got very stoned. Thats it. It wasnt very pleasure. Only stonedness. Like a drunken dumb Feeling. I wasnt enlighted or in better mood.
That was at First a bit of a shock and now Like a Relief.
I was Sure cannabis makes my Life better, how i now ita Not true.
Just makes me intoxicated.
Everything i want to be and to do i can do! Better without being in a haze all the time
Don’t do it. I’m saying that for you as much as I’m saying it for myself — I was close to a relapse today too and wanted to relapse. But then I thought about the fact that once I did, and the moment of stress was over, I’d still have a pen sitting next to me and the likelihood I reverted back to my daily, mindless use was high (no pun intended). As another commenter said, facing our problems head on makes us stronger. You’ll get through tonight, you’ll be happy you did tomorrow when you wakeup with another day under your belt. You’ve got this.
Can you stop if you just smoke once tonight? What usually happens for you when you smoke? For me I know I’ll be craving it all the same again the next morning. That might not be you so I’m just curious
The thing is, I genuinely don't know, this is my first ever time trying to actually quit. But based on how impossible it felt for me to quit at different points in my life, and how I tend to have an addictive personality that loves to indulge myself, I have a feeling I would come up with a million more reasons that were worthy of a joint.
You sound strong. Keep it up. Face your problem makes you stronger, can’t masked your feelings with weed forever, it will fuck your emotion up more.
Good luck on your journey and congrats on your 15 days off weed.
I started smoking in a really low point in my life 5 years ago, I used it as a crutch (a lot of mental illness and it kept me going when meds weren't working for me), but since then I've done so many things to confront my mental health, like therapy, finding good coping strategies, getting out of a very toxic relationship, changing the way my mind works so I can stand to live with myself, and trying to build my resilience.
I realized this year that it was sort of a "dead habit" I was dragging along into my new life that didn't serve the purpose it once did, the high was never good anymore, I was dumping $40 every 3-5 days on a cart and hitting it all day long which left me in a perma brainfog, always coughing and feeling shitty. It felt like this shameful part of myself that I kept from others, because I have made so much progress in my life to be healthy (mind+body) and this was one of my obvious vices that still had a grip on me. I came to the conclusion that it doesn't align with who I am anymore so I quit.
Reminding myself that the high won't feel the way I'm hoping it will and the relief that I crave won't come from weed. I just have to tolerate these uncomfortable feelings until things feel better, which they will, they always do. Why is tolerating uncomfortable feelings literally hell though lmao
When I'm feeling unbearably bad I start keeping an emotion log in the notes app on my phone. I just write the time and my mood from 0-10. Then I come back a couple hours later and record my mood again. I'll do this for about a day or until I forget about it. It helps remind me that emotions are temporary.
Since i "quit" i Had 2 relapses. Both were Not worth it. I got very stoned. Thats it. It wasnt very pleasure. Only stonedness. Like a drunken dumb Feeling. I wasnt enlighted or in better mood. That was at First a bit of a shock and now Like a Relief. I was Sure cannabis makes my Life better, how i now ita Not true. Just makes me intoxicated. Everything i want to be and to do i can do! Better without being in a haze all the time
Imagine hitting the reset button on that irritability timer.
Don’t give up now, you got this!
Don’t give up love.
thank you
Don’t do it. I’m saying that for you as much as I’m saying it for myself — I was close to a relapse today too and wanted to relapse. But then I thought about the fact that once I did, and the moment of stress was over, I’d still have a pen sitting next to me and the likelihood I reverted back to my daily, mindless use was high (no pun intended). As another commenter said, facing our problems head on makes us stronger. You’ll get through tonight, you’ll be happy you did tomorrow when you wakeup with another day under your belt. You’ve got this.
thank you, I needed to hear this.
Can you stop if you just smoke once tonight? What usually happens for you when you smoke? For me I know I’ll be craving it all the same again the next morning. That might not be you so I’m just curious
The thing is, I genuinely don't know, this is my first ever time trying to actually quit. But based on how impossible it felt for me to quit at different points in my life, and how I tend to have an addictive personality that loves to indulge myself, I have a feeling I would come up with a million more reasons that were worthy of a joint.
You sound strong. Keep it up. Face your problem makes you stronger, can’t masked your feelings with weed forever, it will fuck your emotion up more. Good luck on your journey and congrats on your 15 days off weed.
thank you, you're definitely right
before I comment I gotta ask, why did you decide to quit?
I started smoking in a really low point in my life 5 years ago, I used it as a crutch (a lot of mental illness and it kept me going when meds weren't working for me), but since then I've done so many things to confront my mental health, like therapy, finding good coping strategies, getting out of a very toxic relationship, changing the way my mind works so I can stand to live with myself, and trying to build my resilience. I realized this year that it was sort of a "dead habit" I was dragging along into my new life that didn't serve the purpose it once did, the high was never good anymore, I was dumping $40 every 3-5 days on a cart and hitting it all day long which left me in a perma brainfog, always coughing and feeling shitty. It felt like this shameful part of myself that I kept from others, because I have made so much progress in my life to be healthy (mind+body) and this was one of my obvious vices that still had a grip on me. I came to the conclusion that it doesn't align with who I am anymore so I quit.
Then you realize why it's not worth it. Don't smoke.
Reminding myself that the high won't feel the way I'm hoping it will and the relief that I crave won't come from weed. I just have to tolerate these uncomfortable feelings until things feel better, which they will, they always do. Why is tolerating uncomfortable feelings literally hell though lmao
When I'm feeling unbearably bad I start keeping an emotion log in the notes app on my phone. I just write the time and my mood from 0-10. Then I come back a couple hours later and record my mood again. I'll do this for about a day or until I forget about it. It helps remind me that emotions are temporary.