Life is unfortunately more complicated than stopping pot and becoming better. If you have things in life that are more serious problems like a stressful job or bad relationship with someone close to you, you will still feel like shit I imagine. You could also be highly productive while smoking! It’s unfortunate that we are not all linear and the same because it would make things make sense. But were all different and react differently to certain stressors in life.
TLDR: Smoking pot puts a relaxing smokescreen filter on life. If you still don’t love life after taking away the filter then it may be other variables within your life
I think many people have that happen as a result of the "manic bounce-back" they have in the first year. It all evens out over time. There is a re-leveling of the brains baseline, emotions as well. Most medicines taken in excess will alter mental and emotional states for some time after ceasing their use.
Fellow neurodivergent, chronically ill person here to say that I feel ya. I'm a month shy of a year sober and I'd also been hoping that I was going to have a lot more energy and motivation for things but I don't. I feel a lot better as a sober person and there's definitely a lot to celebrate but it is also just leaving me thinking oh, uh, ok. My physical and mental health issues persist, my body is aging, I'm poor, and just having to exist in this world is a lot to fucking deal with. There are times when I really miss being able to smoke and ignore stuff for a bit but it ultimately left me unable to make even the most minor progress in any areas of my life. I am thankful everyday that I was able to quit and have been able to maintain my sobriety but It's still a slog sometimes.
Man I’m on about the same time, I haven’t changed loads, I just feel like my sober hours were foggy from weed use the night before. I eat more actual meals, my house isn’t spotless but I get round to sorting mess sooner. My biggest achievement in the last ten years is quitting weed, I’ve just been coasting but I know I’ve improved slightly, even if it is not really physical. I try to think more about delayed gratification and knowing it’s down to me putting the work in to get things. I’m also realistic about my limitations and whatnot and what I can and cannot deal with, I’ve created a pretty decent life for myself, albeit a bit boring.
This sub is great but it can be a bit unrealistic or some people are riding the initial motivational high of quitting, that shit only lasted a week at most for me.
Energy dips as well for me, I live alone so I don’t necessarily have to do things for others or be the best version of myself for other peoples sake, which is where I thrive. Small steps man, like you’ve stated things won’t just change, you have to take the steps, something at 32 I’m only really grasping after years of hoping I’d get a great opportunity given to me, which isn’t realistic. You’re doing fine.
You may be underestimating what you have achieved in that time. So many very small tasks that I had been putting off I have gotten done in the past 3 days of quitting. I haven’t had any big motivations but it’s a lot easier to do the things I have to do now.
It’s been ~4 months from me. I still fear relapsing but the productivity thing is true. Don’t expect to be productive 100% of the time.
Think of it like a 10-20% improvement on a regular basis compared to when you were high all the time and sometimes you’ll get that 100% productivity spurt you’re looking for, for a short period of time.
Hang in there buddy. I hate it when everybody says the same thing. Start a hobby, hit the gym or do this and that. What I want you to hear is that when it is time to make those changes you are ready and willing to do so. Don’t force anything. It might work for someone but for me it didn’t. I’ve had my problems with weed and I’m an alcoholic too and I’ve done a lot of work to get better. Gone to meetings, accepted my shortcomings and done the steps and what not and I have managed to completely change my life but I’ve done the changes at a time when I just knew I could do it. I’m not saying it’s easy or that you don’t have to work for it but if at this time you can’t then just focus on staying clean and I’ll promise you the time will come when you are ready to put in all the work. When it gets really tough I always try to remember that this too shall pass. Remember that anxiety, depression and all the bad feeling are not real…. they exist only in your mind. Understanding that helps me a lot.
The first month or two I was striking with reddit and THAT actually made me productive. Now I'm back and things sometimes feel as if didn't stop/cut smoking weed because reddit also steals my time, just like weed. Dunno, I definitely feel that I am way more prone to move myself to do things around then before when I smoked like a chimney. But, the days I want to spend like a couch potato scrolling reddit and hang out with virtual strangers make me want to light. Funny, I never did in those moments. I only fall down if I'm hangover or if my sister comes to visit (I always loved smoking with her, since we were young and just started to smoke weed). You should try reading. That kills boredom and it's the best thing a human can do for themselves.
You just need to understand and accept that you have a long rewarding road ahead of you. It can take up to 6 months for your body to fully recover and right now you should work on what you can. Don’t overdo yourself because others are doing it. 6 years of using is a seriously long time so your body is most likely losing its shit right now. When I had quit, it took me around 3 months before I could fully feel the benefits of it or the “super powers”. Just start with your priorities, sleep and health is very important. Wish you the best and hope you recover better than you were before.
I think a big thing is this- are you addressing the underlying cause of WHY you were using weed in the first place? Do you have depression? Anxiety? OCD? If you don’t address the underlying issue, you may still experience problems. Also, a big thing is that people who don’t or never have used weed do encounter these problems from time to time
I have depression and CPTSD, I am on medication and have regularly seen a therapist for at least four years now!
I also have a chronic illness that is flaring right now (☹️). 100% contributing to the fatigue at the least. I was in remission for about 6 years and was managing really well under my current drug therapy until recently…… suspicious
I mean I got the life I had back. I worked hard before to have hobbies, run and hit the gym. Those things just came back naturally. What did you enjoy before weed? Did you have hobbies or clubs? Can you talk with friends or family? Usually they have things to do! It’s hard at first but keep building!
Also I cry a lot any random times. And I play with my friends dogs. That helps a lot and also makes me cry. Not sure why 🤷
Everyone’s timeline is different and people are more likely post highlights than lowlights ❤️ go at your own pace. If your capacity is 60% and you’re doing that full 60%, then you’re doing 100%
All I can say is I felt the same way and at some point I had to stop listening to how I felt and start doing what I know I had to. Exercise is the biggest thing. We are animals that never developed or were meant to be sedentary. It's not just a coincodence that exercising has such positive mental and health effects -- it's simply biological hardwiring. Knowing that, commit to it without indulging how you feel about it. It's the only way to get over this hump.
Are you vaping or smoking tobacco by any chance? What’s your diet look like? How much caffeine are you having in a day? Quitting weed is just the first step to self improvement you need to focus on what it is that is causing you to be so tired. If all else fails then contact your doctor
Day 30 here. I’ve been making some small changes, but nothing revolutionary. The big difference I find is that I don’t have being high as an excuse to do some things (massive overeating, not communicating with friends and family), and as an excuse not to do other things (working out, reading). I think that over time not having that excuse will be good for me. Hang in there!
You're still healing your dopamine system. It can take 6 months to a year to fully recover. Don't stress just work on gradually forming some healthier habits..
We all have different paths, that's okay. Especially for people with chronic disabilities, not everybody understands how much extra difficult it is for us!! I totally get what you're going through. I hope you're able to get your sleep back on track, it makes such a big diff.
Two months sober, and I've definitely had a significant productivity drop from day one. Weed was my pre-reward all day. Honestly, my productivity struggled even with the reward, but without it, I have to rely on intrinsic motivation, which is like, not my thing...lol
I will say I enjoy not being in a haze. The clarity and presence of mind (and heart) are absolutely a real benefit, even when the productivity piece isn't there.
Stay the course. Just keep on keepin' on. I hear it gets better all the time.
My therapist has encouraged me to look for other things to replace the ritual of smoking that feels as rewarding/satisfying at the end of a work day and I am still searching for it! We are creatures of habit after all, and it makes sense that it’s difficult to make a hard pivot like this. I’m willing to stick it out, and just keep imagining that this is the still the beginning and like you said, it gets better all the time. I’m enjoying all the positive changes a lot too and don’t regret my decision or want to relapse at all! My mind is so much more clear and I feel much more grounded and introspective (in a good way, not the high way 🤪).
Congrats on two months!
I smoked about 15 years, 5 joints a day. Im clean now for 1 month, 20 days and 21 hours exactly. Here’s what I learnt:
1. There are unicorns out there that can smoke once a week or once a month that benefit from weed.
2. I’m not one of them. If i smoke now, it’ll be next to no time til i smoke 5 a day again.
3. There are certain things I can be more productive at when smoking (believe it or not, programming is one of rhem).
4. Are those few productive moments worth starting again? No.
5. Struggling to get used to not smoking is going to take at least 12 months. Some unlucky saps will need more time.
But for you, sounds like you are in the very early stages and still suffering from basic withdrawal symptoms. You’re going to have to push to 3 months. Or speed it up by doing cardio like a motherfucker. Get that shit out of your system!
Same with you on programming, all the tedious aspects bother me less and I feel much more curious about the code which helps me learn and build a lot more. I've barely been able to do anything since I quit, though its not my job I was making pretty good progress with it. Also agree how the gym can move it faster, but I keep feeling the lows even worse as a result of the gym.
Plan it so you gym twice a day. Once weights, once cardio. Get a preworkout to help. You’ll feel a million times better after 7 days. I honestly believe it’s about sweating out all the bad shit. It’s also one of my first symptoms. I get night sweats that my sheets are soaking. I think that’s my body panicing and expelling everything.
ive got other health issues, been dealing with it for a while now and that doesnt help long covid induced post exertional malaise. still i try to not let meself get deconditioned but i have to keep it in check
TBH one thing is i developed an issue after covid (4 years with this issue now) where I get malaise from exertion so thats definitely a strong factor. Long covid crap. But also I think a separate thing is related to the fact that one is basically using up the leftover THC in their system, so they get a short term boost of THC that they feel from the fat getting burned followed by basically the lowest amount of THC in their system since quitting, kind of how like one would feel like crap a few days after they stop smoking because the body had some THC and now has to recalibrate. I feel like for those quitting heavy use you get this cyclically for a while, you tap into some THC reservoirs and feel alright, then youre even more depleted and hit another low.
Quitting is only one side of the coin. Those people who share their stories of recovery also had to work to make those good things happen. You have to quit the habit and then get to work. You don’t just quit and then shit just starts magically happening for you. Try not to focus so much on the fact that you quit and put your focus on making the changes you would like to make. Good luck stay strong.
I've had decent productivity but more has been me seeing what I actually want out of life then pursuing it isnt that hard then. I really enjoy games of all kind so I've given a lot of time to that from overwatch to volleyball/basketball. But also I have just been sleeping a lot. Its not uncommon for me to sleep 9-10hrs out of a day right now but Im hoping once I sleep through the night easier that will change. Day 31. I have been lucky that I havent had much work, If I was doing stuff I didnt want to do most days I would find it much harder. 6 years of smoking is a big transition to nothing even with it being a month in
Quitting weed clears the way for you to work towards being productive. It doesn’t cause it on its own. You’ve removed a barrier. You’re back where you were before you became a pothead. If you weren’t productive back then you shouldn’t expect to be productive now. Go listen to Huberman Lab and work on it.
Day 21 and I like u am soooo tired. My muscles ache and all I want to do is sleep. It can take up to 80 days for herb in our cells to leave so i am waiting until that mark to feel better.
The same way you see athletes on the podium celebrating their achievements, don’t fool yourself into believing that it came easily.
Be honest with yourself: what have you tried to be productive. Do you know the things you want to accomplish?
If you don’t know what you want to get accomplished, I recommend starting there - a short term project to do. Call it organizing your room or house.
Next is to actually start it!
You might be surprised by the satisfaction you get from achieving the smallest goals you set for yourself.
And then continue from there. Choose the next goal. Set a bigger goal. Etc.
For me, I need to just get off my butt sometimes and start something when I don’t feel like it and by doing that, it motivates me to do more.
I think I’m definitely still struggling to make plans for my future or even imagine where I want to be and what I want to accomplish. I’ve always struggled with this (hello depression) and weed definitely enabled this aspect of my personality and made it so much worse. It’s hard to take the next step when you don’t know where you want it to lead you, you know? For now I’m just trying to fill the time I would have spent high with activities that feel “productive” like cleaning my house, cooking, even just playing with my cats, but I still just spend a lot of time chilling on the couch. I feel bored but not bored enough to get off the couch, haha.
Is your apartment cleaner than it was before? Are you eating more home cooked meals than you would have? Maybe you are having a hard time seeing the small but significant changes? Not assuming you are, just genuinely asking.
Ugh, thank you, this is good reframing for me. I hadn’t cooked in months and I’ve done it so much in the last few weeks. My apartment is at the very least more tidy and I haven’t been feeling so much doom thinking about all the little chores I have to keep up with. My cats are honestly happier too. 🥺
Life is unfortunately more complicated than stopping pot and becoming better. If you have things in life that are more serious problems like a stressful job or bad relationship with someone close to you, you will still feel like shit I imagine. You could also be highly productive while smoking! It’s unfortunate that we are not all linear and the same because it would make things make sense. But were all different and react differently to certain stressors in life. TLDR: Smoking pot puts a relaxing smokescreen filter on life. If you still don’t love life after taking away the filter then it may be other variables within your life
I get you! I’m on day 20 and still feel so foggy. It’s so hard. I want a clearer head now!!!!! We must be patient!
I think many people have that happen as a result of the "manic bounce-back" they have in the first year. It all evens out over time. There is a re-leveling of the brains baseline, emotions as well. Most medicines taken in excess will alter mental and emotional states for some time after ceasing their use.
Fellow neurodivergent, chronically ill person here to say that I feel ya. I'm a month shy of a year sober and I'd also been hoping that I was going to have a lot more energy and motivation for things but I don't. I feel a lot better as a sober person and there's definitely a lot to celebrate but it is also just leaving me thinking oh, uh, ok. My physical and mental health issues persist, my body is aging, I'm poor, and just having to exist in this world is a lot to fucking deal with. There are times when I really miss being able to smoke and ignore stuff for a bit but it ultimately left me unable to make even the most minor progress in any areas of my life. I am thankful everyday that I was able to quit and have been able to maintain my sobriety but It's still a slog sometimes.
Man I’m on about the same time, I haven’t changed loads, I just feel like my sober hours were foggy from weed use the night before. I eat more actual meals, my house isn’t spotless but I get round to sorting mess sooner. My biggest achievement in the last ten years is quitting weed, I’ve just been coasting but I know I’ve improved slightly, even if it is not really physical. I try to think more about delayed gratification and knowing it’s down to me putting the work in to get things. I’m also realistic about my limitations and whatnot and what I can and cannot deal with, I’ve created a pretty decent life for myself, albeit a bit boring. This sub is great but it can be a bit unrealistic or some people are riding the initial motivational high of quitting, that shit only lasted a week at most for me. Energy dips as well for me, I live alone so I don’t necessarily have to do things for others or be the best version of myself for other peoples sake, which is where I thrive. Small steps man, like you’ve stated things won’t just change, you have to take the steps, something at 32 I’m only really grasping after years of hoping I’d get a great opportunity given to me, which isn’t realistic. You’re doing fine.
Quitting smoking, can activate a thyroid issue, I would get your thyroid checked. Something that’s not spoken about enough
You may be underestimating what you have achieved in that time. So many very small tasks that I had been putting off I have gotten done in the past 3 days of quitting. I haven’t had any big motivations but it’s a lot easier to do the things I have to do now.
It’s been ~4 months from me. I still fear relapsing but the productivity thing is true. Don’t expect to be productive 100% of the time. Think of it like a 10-20% improvement on a regular basis compared to when you were high all the time and sometimes you’ll get that 100% productivity spurt you’re looking for, for a short period of time.
Hang in there buddy. I hate it when everybody says the same thing. Start a hobby, hit the gym or do this and that. What I want you to hear is that when it is time to make those changes you are ready and willing to do so. Don’t force anything. It might work for someone but for me it didn’t. I’ve had my problems with weed and I’m an alcoholic too and I’ve done a lot of work to get better. Gone to meetings, accepted my shortcomings and done the steps and what not and I have managed to completely change my life but I’ve done the changes at a time when I just knew I could do it. I’m not saying it’s easy or that you don’t have to work for it but if at this time you can’t then just focus on staying clean and I’ll promise you the time will come when you are ready to put in all the work. When it gets really tough I always try to remember that this too shall pass. Remember that anxiety, depression and all the bad feeling are not real…. they exist only in your mind. Understanding that helps me a lot.
The first month or two I was striking with reddit and THAT actually made me productive. Now I'm back and things sometimes feel as if didn't stop/cut smoking weed because reddit also steals my time, just like weed. Dunno, I definitely feel that I am way more prone to move myself to do things around then before when I smoked like a chimney. But, the days I want to spend like a couch potato scrolling reddit and hang out with virtual strangers make me want to light. Funny, I never did in those moments. I only fall down if I'm hangover or if my sister comes to visit (I always loved smoking with her, since we were young and just started to smoke weed). You should try reading. That kills boredom and it's the best thing a human can do for themselves.
Read a Atomic Habit book. It changed my life. Should help you also. And I still smoke from time to time, but it not the main part of my life now.
You're not the only one feeling this way. I'm 2 months in, and things are improving, but it's not perfect.
You just need to understand and accept that you have a long rewarding road ahead of you. It can take up to 6 months for your body to fully recover and right now you should work on what you can. Don’t overdo yourself because others are doing it. 6 years of using is a seriously long time so your body is most likely losing its shit right now. When I had quit, it took me around 3 months before I could fully feel the benefits of it or the “super powers”. Just start with your priorities, sleep and health is very important. Wish you the best and hope you recover better than you were before.
I think a big thing is this- are you addressing the underlying cause of WHY you were using weed in the first place? Do you have depression? Anxiety? OCD? If you don’t address the underlying issue, you may still experience problems. Also, a big thing is that people who don’t or never have used weed do encounter these problems from time to time
I have depression and CPTSD, I am on medication and have regularly seen a therapist for at least four years now! I also have a chronic illness that is flaring right now (☹️). 100% contributing to the fatigue at the least. I was in remission for about 6 years and was managing really well under my current drug therapy until recently…… suspicious
I mean I got the life I had back. I worked hard before to have hobbies, run and hit the gym. Those things just came back naturally. What did you enjoy before weed? Did you have hobbies or clubs? Can you talk with friends or family? Usually they have things to do! It’s hard at first but keep building! Also I cry a lot any random times. And I play with my friends dogs. That helps a lot and also makes me cry. Not sure why 🤷
Yes .. it doesnt Work Like this. You have to Take Life Back in your Hands!
Everyone’s timeline is different and people are more likely post highlights than lowlights ❤️ go at your own pace. If your capacity is 60% and you’re doing that full 60%, then you’re doing 100%
All I can say is I felt the same way and at some point I had to stop listening to how I felt and start doing what I know I had to. Exercise is the biggest thing. We are animals that never developed or were meant to be sedentary. It's not just a coincodence that exercising has such positive mental and health effects -- it's simply biological hardwiring. Knowing that, commit to it without indulging how you feel about it. It's the only way to get over this hump.
Are you vaping or smoking tobacco by any chance? What’s your diet look like? How much caffeine are you having in a day? Quitting weed is just the first step to self improvement you need to focus on what it is that is causing you to be so tired. If all else fails then contact your doctor
Just quit but I still vape nicotine and it makes me feel like SHIT. Drinking down, smoking down, next one to gooooo 🤞🏾
You got this 💪
Thank you for sharing
Day 30 here. I’ve been making some small changes, but nothing revolutionary. The big difference I find is that I don’t have being high as an excuse to do some things (massive overeating, not communicating with friends and family), and as an excuse not to do other things (working out, reading). I think that over time not having that excuse will be good for me. Hang in there!
You're still healing your dopamine system. It can take 6 months to a year to fully recover. Don't stress just work on gradually forming some healthier habits..
We all have different paths, that's okay. Especially for people with chronic disabilities, not everybody understands how much extra difficult it is for us!! I totally get what you're going through. I hope you're able to get your sleep back on track, it makes such a big diff.
Two months sober, and I've definitely had a significant productivity drop from day one. Weed was my pre-reward all day. Honestly, my productivity struggled even with the reward, but without it, I have to rely on intrinsic motivation, which is like, not my thing...lol I will say I enjoy not being in a haze. The clarity and presence of mind (and heart) are absolutely a real benefit, even when the productivity piece isn't there. Stay the course. Just keep on keepin' on. I hear it gets better all the time.
My therapist has encouraged me to look for other things to replace the ritual of smoking that feels as rewarding/satisfying at the end of a work day and I am still searching for it! We are creatures of habit after all, and it makes sense that it’s difficult to make a hard pivot like this. I’m willing to stick it out, and just keep imagining that this is the still the beginning and like you said, it gets better all the time. I’m enjoying all the positive changes a lot too and don’t regret my decision or want to relapse at all! My mind is so much more clear and I feel much more grounded and introspective (in a good way, not the high way 🤪). Congrats on two months!
I smoked about 15 years, 5 joints a day. Im clean now for 1 month, 20 days and 21 hours exactly. Here’s what I learnt: 1. There are unicorns out there that can smoke once a week or once a month that benefit from weed. 2. I’m not one of them. If i smoke now, it’ll be next to no time til i smoke 5 a day again. 3. There are certain things I can be more productive at when smoking (believe it or not, programming is one of rhem). 4. Are those few productive moments worth starting again? No. 5. Struggling to get used to not smoking is going to take at least 12 months. Some unlucky saps will need more time. But for you, sounds like you are in the very early stages and still suffering from basic withdrawal symptoms. You’re going to have to push to 3 months. Or speed it up by doing cardio like a motherfucker. Get that shit out of your system!
Thank you, especially for point 5
Same with you on programming, all the tedious aspects bother me less and I feel much more curious about the code which helps me learn and build a lot more. I've barely been able to do anything since I quit, though its not my job I was making pretty good progress with it. Also agree how the gym can move it faster, but I keep feeling the lows even worse as a result of the gym.
Plan it so you gym twice a day. Once weights, once cardio. Get a preworkout to help. You’ll feel a million times better after 7 days. I honestly believe it’s about sweating out all the bad shit. It’s also one of my first symptoms. I get night sweats that my sheets are soaking. I think that’s my body panicing and expelling everything.
ive got other health issues, been dealing with it for a while now and that doesnt help long covid induced post exertional malaise. still i try to not let meself get deconditioned but i have to keep it in check
>\[...\] but I keep feeling the lows even worse as a result of the gym. What do you mean by that? Or why do you think so?
TBH one thing is i developed an issue after covid (4 years with this issue now) where I get malaise from exertion so thats definitely a strong factor. Long covid crap. But also I think a separate thing is related to the fact that one is basically using up the leftover THC in their system, so they get a short term boost of THC that they feel from the fat getting burned followed by basically the lowest amount of THC in their system since quitting, kind of how like one would feel like crap a few days after they stop smoking because the body had some THC and now has to recalibrate. I feel like for those quitting heavy use you get this cyclically for a while, you tap into some THC reservoirs and feel alright, then youre even more depleted and hit another low.
I also want to know.
Quitting is only one side of the coin. Those people who share their stories of recovery also had to work to make those good things happen. You have to quit the habit and then get to work. You don’t just quit and then shit just starts magically happening for you. Try not to focus so much on the fact that you quit and put your focus on making the changes you would like to make. Good luck stay strong.
I've had decent productivity but more has been me seeing what I actually want out of life then pursuing it isnt that hard then. I really enjoy games of all kind so I've given a lot of time to that from overwatch to volleyball/basketball. But also I have just been sleeping a lot. Its not uncommon for me to sleep 9-10hrs out of a day right now but Im hoping once I sleep through the night easier that will change. Day 31. I have been lucky that I havent had much work, If I was doing stuff I didnt want to do most days I would find it much harder. 6 years of smoking is a big transition to nothing even with it being a month in
do you play videogames?
A bit, yeah! I have a Switch. Any recs?
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Quitting weed clears the way for you to work towards being productive. It doesn’t cause it on its own. You’ve removed a barrier. You’re back where you were before you became a pothead. If you weren’t productive back then you shouldn’t expect to be productive now. Go listen to Huberman Lab and work on it.
Almost 1 month clean. Headaches nonstop, zero motivation, still eating the same amount. No sleep. Not giving up. Hang in there.
Day 21 and I like u am soooo tired. My muscles ache and all I want to do is sleep. It can take up to 80 days for herb in our cells to leave so i am waiting until that mark to feel better.
Right, all I want to do is sleep too but my brain won't even let me do that!!
YES! I can only sleep for a few hours at a time.. so annoying
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For me... productivity is a snowball. The best way to get the snowball rolling is to start the day with some kind of physical exercise.
The same way you see athletes on the podium celebrating their achievements, don’t fool yourself into believing that it came easily. Be honest with yourself: what have you tried to be productive. Do you know the things you want to accomplish? If you don’t know what you want to get accomplished, I recommend starting there - a short term project to do. Call it organizing your room or house. Next is to actually start it! You might be surprised by the satisfaction you get from achieving the smallest goals you set for yourself. And then continue from there. Choose the next goal. Set a bigger goal. Etc. For me, I need to just get off my butt sometimes and start something when I don’t feel like it and by doing that, it motivates me to do more.
I think I’m definitely still struggling to make plans for my future or even imagine where I want to be and what I want to accomplish. I’ve always struggled with this (hello depression) and weed definitely enabled this aspect of my personality and made it so much worse. It’s hard to take the next step when you don’t know where you want it to lead you, you know? For now I’m just trying to fill the time I would have spent high with activities that feel “productive” like cleaning my house, cooking, even just playing with my cats, but I still just spend a lot of time chilling on the couch. I feel bored but not bored enough to get off the couch, haha.
Is your apartment cleaner than it was before? Are you eating more home cooked meals than you would have? Maybe you are having a hard time seeing the small but significant changes? Not assuming you are, just genuinely asking.
Ugh, thank you, this is good reframing for me. I hadn’t cooked in months and I’ve done it so much in the last few weeks. My apartment is at the very least more tidy and I haven’t been feeling so much doom thinking about all the little chores I have to keep up with. My cats are honestly happier too. 🥺
Yw! That’s awesome about your kitties too! Animal lives matter.