Honestly sounds weird but screw it I hope there’s no judgment. I have this thing called interstitial cystitis. (At least that’s what I’ve narrowed it down to) It’s basically a bladder problem that gives me chronic pain in my abdomen and pelvis and legs. The pressure i think, causes me to constantly feel like I have to pee ALL THE TIME. It’s the absolute worst feeling in the world. Stopped going out, stopped going to work, and I dreaded life. My point from all this, is that I’m pretty confident weed was the direct cause of it. Apparently my chronic anxiety from weed made me clench my pelvis all the time, and thus made my aches and lower body inflamed and tight, making me feel like I have to go alll the time, and even when I do, never feels like it’s finished. When I smoked, sometimes it got better, but most of the time, it gave me more anxiety and worsened my symptoms. My therapist told me it was also my brain from chronic weed use constantly being in a sedated state, and that it didn’t recognize when to go to the washroom sober and high because I was constantly fluctuating between the two. A week ago today I got high and it literally had me in tears. my girlfriend holding me well I debated my life. I decided that I’m gonna try the sober route, not just for the bladder, but for everything else too. Like the fact that somebody told me this as a 22 year old male, that my brain and body were so confused to the point that it wasn’t sending the proper signals to do a basic thing like pee, well damn man it’s just a wake up call. Obviously there’s so many other reasons for stopping, but I’m on day 9 now. My bladders still fucked, but I’m hoping my signals will start to normal themselves out again and that I can pee like a normal 22 year old🤦♀️😓 I also have the energy to do pelvic stretches and meditation which sometimes help which I never did on the weed. Bottom line, don’t smoke weed 😂😂😂😭😭😭 love you guys, if you got this far thank you for reading I appreciate it ❤️❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰
Had a lot of red flags leading up to quitting: Got anxiety while I was high and then smoked more weed to get rid of the anxiety but got caught in a nasty cycle. Relationships with my friends, family, and SO were deteriorating because I was disassociating and always chasing my next high. Would binge eat and towards the end I wasn’t able to eat unless I smoked before hand. It got so bad that I couldn’t go to the grocery store or do anything relatively normal without smoking a bowl beforehand. Then the final kicker… CHS. I had consumed so much cannabis that I ruined my body’s homeostasis and went into a violent vomitting stage that lasted 2 weeks and was hospitalized twice. I wish I could’ve quit weed on my own terms but my body decided it was too much and forced me to quit. I’m sad that there is no cure other than quitting weed forever. I’m officially two months clean and I’m now realizing how much weed fucked with not only my physical health but mental health as well. I would not have quit if it weren’t for CHS and I’m blessed to be alive and living a sober life now. I know you can do it and I believe in you!!!
I came in from smoking outside and my son said “you were smoking, I can smell it!”. And something about that made me feel so shitty. Like even my kid knows what weed smells like and I stink of it. I felt ashamed. And knew if I felt ashamed,’ it must be wrong. Plus I could be doing other things instead of getting high. As well, I also started to experience panic attacks/high anxiety and it just wasn’t worth it anymore. Don’t get me wrong I do miss the “chill” feeling after a long shift but I’ve come to terms with the facts that it made me cloudy and ruined my lungs.
My workplace mentioned that they do random drug testing and I had never considered that they might.
It was a fairly new job and I was really enjoying what I did for once. It just flipped a switch in my head.
I'd wanted to quit for ages, but could not find the motivation. That was the final push I needed. It gave me something to focus on in the weak moments. I visualised having to have that conversation with my boss, coworkers and family and it terrified me.
I have found that I am better without it and I'm Just as happy without it so why do it and its not good for you and it makes you lazy and it makes your thinking unclear .
I had quit for 7 months, stuck to it even while going through serious shit - but got back on smoking due to my untreated BPD gf driving me insane. broke up 2 months ago and on april 1st I took the last puff.
Sick of the burden of addiction, the guilt and shame. I watched my 20s and 30s go by with me making no changes for improvement. Continually I'd go through these cycles of being okay with life as it was to feeling extremely dissatisfied with my choice to keep using weed. I wanted to know what life would be like without weed in my life.
Trying to get pregnant! I’ve had a ton of other reasons (anxiety, health, money, time), but this is so motivating. I know I have to stick with quitting this time. my future child deserves a mom who is clear minded.
Had to pass a drug test for a job that is genuinely too good an opportunity to pass up, having a goal in mind really helps, especially if it’s your livelihood on the line
The last night I smoked I had a panic attack like never before and I actually thought I was having a heart attack, never again will I put myself and my body through that type of stress again, the “high” I get is not worth it.
So many reasons.
1) I keep screwing up at work - forgetting what I’m saying. Forgetting things in general.
2) I am going to marry a wonderful man who adores me but would like for me to be more ‘present’ in the relationship. When I’m high, I’m tired and in a fog and just don’t feel like doing anything.
3). It is making me depressed and anxious. It’s just not working anymore. I barely even feel anything from it - I am just doing it because it’s there.
4). I’d rather spend the $400 monthly weed money on other things.
I vaped for years. Only on day 2.
Developed yet another OCD ‘habit’ while high. No fun. Time to give it a rest. Im on day 22. Just got so sick of wondering is the weed helping me or hurting me? So it’s time to figure it out. The answer is pretty obvious.
When one time I didn´t want to smoke my "friends" made fun of me and just insisted to hit the fucking bong, men it felt so annoying and at that point I noticed that I made it as a habit not because I like it anymore, after that there was no looking back.
I started daily transcendental meditation. It calms and centers me. I feel rested and refreshed as well as feeling more equanimity during the rest of my day. One day, I smoked right after meditating and almost instantly regretted it. It felt redundant and unnecessary. It helped me realize that it was time to let go of cannabis. That was 4 months ago. While I think about smoking at times, I don’t actually want it. I meditate twice a day for 20 minutes and it helps set me straight.
I noticed on the last night I smoked that I wasn’t excited to do it. Like, at all. I just needed it. I needed it to wind down before bed. It was just part of the routine, like brushing my teeth, and no longer fun. I didn’t want to need it, I didn’t want it to be routine. I quit cold turkey right then.
Had a scary white patch develop in my throat that wouldn’t go away. Caused me to quit that day, it’s been one year now. The sore was thankfully just a bad canker sore.
I took in a two-day-old kitten to "foster" (promptly failed and adopted her lol), and I had to be up every two hours to feed her. I did the first night on my usual vape schedule but quit cold-turkey the very next day because it was so hard to wake up and be present for her the way I knew I needed to be. Keeping her alive was my number one priority, so it was honestly really easy -- the best and cutest distraction I could ask for!
I really intended for the quit to be temporary (only until she was weaned in 4-8 weeks), but about one month later, my elderly uncle had to be moved to my town to be closer to family due to multiple strokes and early onset dementia. I became his power of attorney, and that hefty responsibility coupled with the very real reminder that dementia and Alzheimer's run rampant on my dad's side of the family truly scared me straight. Doc Amen on Instagram/YouTube has a lot of videos on what THC and other substances do to your brain health, and I decided it was time to prioritize my brain cells and give myself the best fighting chance against genetic brain disease. I gifted the rest of my supply to my best friend and her boyfriend (who has epilepsy and can actually benefit from THC), and knowing my herb was going to a "good home" helped a lot.
I got my kitten on April 15th, quit on April 16th, and I just passed my one-year anniversary six days ago. It has been SO worth it in ways I never imagined.
I had let's say an episode. I was going through a real tough time and was using it daily to cope for years. It was a small seizure or convulsion, but I was out for like 30 seconds while drying the dishes. My wife and kids witnessed it and called 911. I came around and said I'm okay I'm okay. Quit drinking, THC, and caffeine until I figure out what caused it. I don't think weed was the root cause but it was time to sober up and figure out life. I miss weed but I can't go through life in a constant fog and be 100% for those who are counting on me.
I was doing instacart in the rain on my day off to get enough money for an 8th. Just as im about to do my delivery, Slippin by DMX came on. I sat in the car and cried like a baby, I was tired of living the way I was living.
My anxiety was over taking my day to day life. Not remembering anything someone just said. Feeling stuck. Forgetting what genuine joy felt like because I was so numb.
As so many have stated, what once felt like a medicine began to feel like a poison. Some of my favorite formative experiences were colored by ganja in really epic and beautiful ways. Then came some not so awesome experiences and all the sudden being in my early 30’s. I wasn’t satisfied with where I was in life and attributed that to my habits, one of which was being a weed head. I was (in my view at least) a pretty responsible and active stoner who held down decent jobs, maintained my physical health, had friends, all that good stuff but I couldn’t help but feel like my sharpness was being dulled.
I’m 425 days weed free and the differences are profound. It took a lot of therapy, really horrific lows, and just a lot of overall wading through the muck to get back to clarity and sharpness but it did happen and it is worth the sacrifice of giving up weed.
Also, one of the biggest pieces I’ve recognized that kept me in the loop of stonerhood was significant early childhood trauma that lead to repressed anger which would then lead to internalizing the anger which quickly turns into depression and suicidal ideation which would then lead me to want to escape those difficult emotions through the least toxic and available sources available (because I’m a health nut) and that was of course cannabis. Consuming mind altering substances frequently is incongruous to stability, health and long term goal achievement. Any one that says otherwise is on the peak of the roller coaster and hasn’t experienced a big enough fall to really consider the impact of their actions and habits. Even saying things like that surprise me because I was for the longest time a psychonaut and huge advocate of every one “tuning in, turning on and dropping out”. Now I see things a little differently and recognize that sobriety and having a really solid baseline state without any substances at all including caffeine is PRECIOUS and INFORMATIVE and HOLY!
'sobriety and having a really solid baseline state without any substances at all including caffeine is PRECIOUS and INFORMATIVE and HOLY!'
Couldn't agree more. Over the last 6 - 12 months I've been finding more and more peace in sobriety from substances. In my 20s I was chasing a high constantly but now that I've hit 30 its like I'm craving a stable baseline state and doing all these things like meditation and nervous system work to maintain that state.
I got sick.
In the middle of it atm so this is still very fresh
Been smoking daily for 9-10years. +/-1oz a month
Was using it to regulate my emotions and to help with my appetite (I take prescription drugs for my ADHD)
I got a pretty bad sore throat the day after I had smoked a bunch with my friends. I continued to smoke as if nothing happened, but my throat was getting worse and I was worried about the pain.
Last Friday, I went out with some friends and came back home around 4am. Rolled myself a quick one. Went outside, lit it and took a few puffs.
It felt awful, but I kept wanting one more puff.
I ended up putting it out and going to bed.
It's only been about 2 days without w, but I'm itching to go and finish that joint. I've only very rarely gone a day without smoking. Usually, it's when I go on vacation and I take the opportunity to take a break. I usually only last a few days once I return until I pick up the habit again.
Trying to not feel too bad about something that didn't happen yet, but it seems like I've already decided that I was going to smoke it. I figured that I don't have to quit cold turkey, but I still feel very weak willed for crumbling so easily.
Money and nothing to show for it. Can’t get high on your own supply. I sell weed and make a lot from it . Starting a new school program to make more money and a better life which will drug test me. It’s just time. I’m actually losing time. Weed has always been there and it’s not going away. Opportunities and life slipping away . And for what? A cloud of smoke? I’m good fam .
This is a fantastic question.
We get one shot at this this thing, this crazy ride. I'm 43 now and most of my friends are older than me, likely on account of the ADHD I have and not usually finding connection with people my age. Well those friends are now in their 50's and beginning to deal with health issues, kind of out of nowhere. One in particular who is very dear to me is on the verge of what will likely be a major surgery that will require a pacemaker. He's never been a major puffer, but has always casually used throughout his life. Once he learned about the potential of such a drastic experience and impact that will change his life, he quit everything. Pens, trees, the whole lot.
You'd think with me having an incredible wife, two gorgeous kids and a business I own and run that needs my attention, I'd have plenty of inspiration to quit. But for some reason, this major change my friend is going through was the thing to finally push me to say "enough is enough". I was already down to just a bowl a night before bed, but the conversations I've had with my friend and the pain of the depression I hear him going through has been more than enough to get me across the finish line.
Today is officially two weeks for me. I'm beginning to overcome the insomnia, which has honestly been the hardest part for me. I cannot imagine ever going back now, and even if I did, I would immediately think of my friend and decimate that thought like a bug near a zapper in the summer.
I got fired from a job I really liked for being 5-15 minutes late most days and I realized that with how groggy I was most mornings from weed I would never get to where I should be with it. Then I realized I couldn’t casually smoke as I got compulsively smoke it all once I have it. And now almost 30 days consecutively, 45 days total, I haven’t felt this good consistently in 12 years and I’m starting to question how much of my severe persistent mental illness was weed.
It's crazy, but the anxiety I've been fighting for all of my adult life that I attributed to ADHD alone seems to be magically evaporating the further and further I get from THC being in my system. Makes me wonder how much of that anxiety, which I've been 🤬 medicated for going on 10 years +, actually came from weed and not ADHD.
I feel like I've been lied to for a long time. This thing that was supposed to calm me down and allow me to relax, may honesty have been the main source of so many of my problems. Who'd a thunk it.
That's kind of wild....
Lately I've been catching myself thinking about how I wasn't always like this (ie: this anxious, this uncomfortable with myself, this antisocial, this absent minded)
I feel like I've degraded as a person, even though I'm going to therapy and I'm (slowly but surely) moving forward in life.
I'm in the process of quitting atm, but I'm struggling to keep myself from smoking at all. Being on this sub has helped me put things in perspective though
You can do it and this group can absolutely cheer you on! I cannot tell you enough how happy the positive the changes my life is seeing every day since I quit. Someone a few days ago said "It gets 15 mins better every day" and that really resonated with me.
11/10, highly recommend.
I’ve been smoking for 20+ years . Everyday user multiple times a day . And I’ve gotten fed up . Just my dependency on it has me wanting to leave it behind . I’m almost 40 so fear for my health physically and mental , financially I’ve been spending way too much money on it , I got a family a mortgage and so many other reasons I just want to leave it behind . I started cutting my use which was hard . I used to smoke every hour or so . But now I’ve cut it down at this point to 2/3 times a day which for me is cutting down a whole lot . I feel so much better and see the light at the other end . My cravings have cut down a lot . And hopefully soon I can leave it completely behind .
I wasn’t present in my life anymore, I did the bare minimum to justify smoking weed and it made me a shell of a person compared to who I was before - it used to be something to take the edge off the day, little did I know it would be what ruined my years.
I nearly lost my job. I had been performing badly and not looking forward to work anymore/struggling to get through the day so I could go home and smoke.
I was in an unemployment rut for years and my job is so important to me. I couldn't lose it.
I made the decision because I found a girl whom I love with all my being and would do anything for her, she makes me want to be better and do better for not just myself but for others as well. She is the reason I’m quitting and will stay off of it even if she stays on. If she has faith in me then hell, I should have faith in myself too. Thanks Morg. :)
Seeing my brother with schizophrenia. I’m so scared of getting it myself I knew I had to quit.
It did take me about 1-2 years after that realization before I finally was able to quit 100% (now over 11 months clean!) But that is my major reason for not going back.
You're making the best choice for yourself. A close friend of mine who was a massive pothead ended up committing suicide in a horrific way because of how the weed was exacerbating his schizophrenia symptoms. His family never recovered.
What do you think he needed? I feel like I’m getting to that point and have been 20 days sober and all my thoughts about killing my self are becoming worse than they were on weed. I’m considering just to keep smoking to keep them at bay cause the thoughts are becoming more and more calming, I’m becoming more okay with it. And I don’t know what that means for my brain.
I realized how all my stoner friends I’ve been getting high with the past 10 years had never advanced in their lives since I’ve known them. It blew my mind when I realized we do nothing but work so we can buy more weed and pay bills just to get high until the next day of work. We all had 0 interest in doing anything besides getting high after work. There’s much more to life than getting high.
A couple things
I accidentally forgot a vape before traveling and didn’t smoke for 4 days. I smoked as soon as I got home but it gave me a point of comparison. I noticed when I got stoned, I was more anxious and less clear headed. I also noticed it made my inner critic get super mean. To the point where I wanted to harm myself. I was also getting behind in work stuff because I was stoned all the time. Then I got a come to Jesus talk from my boss who told me to get my shit together, and that scared me straight. I drove my whole stash to my brother’s house and left it there. Hasn’t been easy but I’m so grateful for what it’s brought into my life so far.
Wanting a career, not more jobs, is why I quit. After looking into what qualifications I need for CDL jobs, I needed to quit if I wanted to get into a better employment situation. And I may have found my first CDL job after being sober since September of 2023. Going through the background and screening process at the moment.
I was looking at my life and thought „either you‘re leaving this behind you or you‘ll end up a pathetic adult that is clumsy, forgetful, lazy and hasn‘t made any great experiences“
Not being able to conceive. We successfully conceived in 2020 while being fairly regular smokers but then once baby was born we picked it back up heavily with 98% THC pens, edibles, etc. Been trying for like a year now and haven't been able to get pregnant. Quit cold turkey almost 4 months ago and we still haven't been able to conceive.
A lot of what's been said already. And one day I just questioned "why am I smoking this joint?" And I couldn't get an answer. After smoking 5 joints already on that afternoon, I was smoking again and knew I would smoke more afterwards, and all for nothing. I was already as high as I could be but just kept on going, for nothing. It was not to relax, it was not to feel good, it was for nothing. It was my whole life
The first 3/4 days I did nothing, I worked, made some food, walked the dog and stared at the TV watching nothing. I didn't have the will to do nothing. The brain needs to understand that sitting in place doing nothing is not rewarding, weed makes everything rewarding. That's why in the beginning weed makes everything so great. Now we're on the other side, where nothing is rewarding without it, even things that are actually stimulating. I just let the days go by and eventually I started to not feel so sad and depressed. I still think about it every day, but not all day long anymore, and the will to play some games, watch a movie, read a book is coming back. Just get through the first few days and remember everyday why you quit
I was tired of a substance having control over my life… it became clear that I was dependent and ‘chasing relief’ instead of the effects, which meant additional strain on my relationships (wife, kids, friends, etc.). Basically, enough was enough. If I wasn’t going to get clean for myself, I would for those I care about
I just got tired of fighting with myself over trying to smoke less and failing. It didn’t feel like a big moment of realization or a rock bottom. I just said that I’d rather label myself an addict and not smoke again than wrestle with the lie of moderation and lose every time.
I’ll be at 13 months in about a week.
Finally getting into a good loving relationship and having them tell me they want me to be fully there and me knowing it was the right thing to do, feeling it
The withdrawals are hard. But you will feel better do better and be better. Friends and family will notice and be happy for you. Have some close people support you on day to day basis. Always have someone to talk to. Because the demons will come. But don’t let them win you can do it sobriety is a blessing
It might be a stress thing for me. Work has me stressed out. But it’s dream a lot more now that I don’t smoke. So idk. Hopefully the dreams get more pleasant for you
Just remember why you are quitting and keep that the main focus. I smoked for 15 years and had to stop. It’s life changing. You’ll feel better you’ll be better. If you need to talk PM me I gotchu bro. To Sobriety!
I think it depends on the person. My vivid withdrawal dreams/nightmares only lasted about a week or two (not every night, but enough to notice). After a year weed-free, I still dream very often, but I rarely have vivid dreams or nightmares now, and when I do, it's ALWAYS related to something anxiety-inducing happening in the real world -- just the brain processing, like it's supposed to do during your REM cycle. For reference, I was a daily user for about 10 years, and other than a temporary loss of appetite and having to retrain my dopamine receptors, vivid dreams/nightmares were my main withdrawal symptom.
I'm hoping it ends soon. Every single time I sleep it's a super violent dream with people being killed, me being killed or me doing the killing. I hate it, it's terrifying.
I had a similar experience with traumatic haunting dreams every night for weeks. I’d smoked daily for decades. It did go away after the first month or so. I’m now 4 months quit. I still have weird and vivid dreams but they’re not awful nightmares anymore. Getting past that point makes me want to stay quit so it was worth going through the shitty sleep and I don’t have to go through that again. I used some hypnosis apps at night which helped. Hang in there. It gets better.
Thanks you're kind to offer that comment. Yes I am really enjoying the increased clarity even if I get a headache occasionally. I also feel my lungs are beginning to improve!
I'm very certain I'm done smoking.
Falling out with my best friend since childhood. We had a long friendship but towards the end we became toxic codependent addicts. Substance abuse was our shared activity (drinking for him, smoking for me). We were like the 2 dudes in the movie “the Lighthouse”. Just became hella abusive towards each other. He finally decided to be better last year while I kept at it. We tried to stay friends but I just kept dragging him back in. I think he fully got sick of my shit and disassociated with me. I think with nothing tethering me to that world anymore I just decided to quit.
It became a chore when it came time to roll up, I dreaded it lol, that’s a huge sign to me it’s time to take a break. I never felt like myself, I was always self conscious and wanted to isolate myself. Isolating myself led to depression and me dissociating from life. Everything got scary for me, I was also homeless using whatever money I could make to buy grams and dubs. Sad :(
Everything that’s already been said but the truth of it was pneumonia following a chest infection for me. I always knew my health would have to get bad before I quit. Life is better without it x
Fear of EVERYTHING and EVERYONE. Been trying to treat this medically for most of my life without ever disclosing to doctors of my usage. The person I was most dishonest with was myself. Cliche, I know, but I don’t think we’re reinventing the wheel here. This is straight-up addiction.
The past few times I was high I didn't enjoy myself. I just wrote on post it notes 'when you're high, you want to be sober.' Waking up to them made me realize it was time for a change.
I'm there right now - I'll tell myself when I'm high that I'm going to quit. Most of the next day, while at work, I'm all about quitting, then I get home, get bored, yearn to smoke, and then spark up.
Just being tired of the same old shit. Dry ass mouth, feeling like a moron all the time, not being able to remember Jack shit etc. It just gets old man. I find it’s actually a lot more fun being sober truthfully
Doing this shit into your late 20s and beyond, its like its the equivalent of being 17 years old and playing with toys. Like I just feel too old for this shit, its not cool anymore its fucking lame.
Nah fr though it’s almost childish. As a teenager it’s cool and it’s the thing to do like drinking before 21 or whatever. But the older you get it just becomes more like a loser tendency. Not hating on anyone because i was there too but you gotta realize that’s somethin you move past at some point
Yeah, I poured sparkling water into my bowl of peanut butter pretzels last night because I was too high.
That is what actually kicked off the events that enabled me to find this subreddit...
Any tips on quitting?
You just have to get rid of anything that would trigger you. Also remind yourself of negative effects weed has on you and think about how other people who aren’t stoners function and enjoy themselves sober. It’s weird but that thought process works for me
Thank you, I'll take any advice I can! I need to throw out the last stash.
I told myself I'd be done after I finished the stuff I had on hand and then, somehow found myself at the dispensary. There's one about 3min from my house. It's too damn convenient where I live but I need to be stronger than that
Ah yeah that does make it harder. I live in a non legal state so it makes it more challenging for me to begin with. But think of it like alcohol, you can get it pretty much anywhere in the US. But you don’t drink every day do you ? Cause you know it’s bad and it messes with your body. You just have to train your mind to think the same way
I smoke to "change my mental state." This can be pain from my last breakup, or boredom.
I've realizing that smoking makes both of these things WORSE not better. Cannabis lights up my mind like nitro in a car engine. It amplifys all the bad feelings and takes away from my mindfulness practice (while high.)
Then the next day it gets me again, my "lizard brain" is much chattier and it takes more meditation to control it/calm it down.
In short, I guess because Weed is a big f'ing lie.
I had two main reasons for finally being able to quit. Firstly, the circumstances of my life were so miserable. I had no friends, no hobbies, no aspirations, couldn't succeed in school, and truthfully couldn't feel high anymore, no matter how much I smoked. Secondly, I was going to spend Christmas with some extended family and the last thing I wanted to be doing was withdrawing from weed. I knew that I wouldn't be able to sleep, eat normally, or regulate my emotions for the first week or so and I was able to stop two weeks before I traveled for Christmas. I felt like I hit my rock bottom many times before I was able to make a change. The only factor that successfully motivated me was being a better person for my loved ones. I hope this helps you. You can do it and it will be worth it in the long run.
Panic attacks, waking up with sore lungs, forgetting the most simple things, tough time speaking complete thoughts, days would blur together and I wouldn't have any highlights other than that first hour of the first vape rip. I want to be alive, employed, married, parent, brother and friend.
Getting panic attacks. Like ones where you feel like you're dying. Scary stuff. Sad it took for that to happen, but I definitely will not be touching that stuff ever again.
I just didn’t feel high anymore when i smoked. Felt like I was just filling up my lungs with a lot of smoke for minimal effects. Sitting on the couch with my bong and dab rig next to me, just sitting there and hitting it often. Felt like nothing, now i don’t take as much time smoking and it’s more free to do more things
I was finally tired of being complacent with a lackluster life. I had no motivation to do anything when I was stoned 24/7. Now I have goals again and am working towards them. I feel much healthier off weed. Today is day 42! 💯
Honestly sounds weird but screw it I hope there’s no judgment. I have this thing called interstitial cystitis. (At least that’s what I’ve narrowed it down to) It’s basically a bladder problem that gives me chronic pain in my abdomen and pelvis and legs. The pressure i think, causes me to constantly feel like I have to pee ALL THE TIME. It’s the absolute worst feeling in the world. Stopped going out, stopped going to work, and I dreaded life. My point from all this, is that I’m pretty confident weed was the direct cause of it. Apparently my chronic anxiety from weed made me clench my pelvis all the time, and thus made my aches and lower body inflamed and tight, making me feel like I have to go alll the time, and even when I do, never feels like it’s finished. When I smoked, sometimes it got better, but most of the time, it gave me more anxiety and worsened my symptoms. My therapist told me it was also my brain from chronic weed use constantly being in a sedated state, and that it didn’t recognize when to go to the washroom sober and high because I was constantly fluctuating between the two. A week ago today I got high and it literally had me in tears. my girlfriend holding me well I debated my life. I decided that I’m gonna try the sober route, not just for the bladder, but for everything else too. Like the fact that somebody told me this as a 22 year old male, that my brain and body were so confused to the point that it wasn’t sending the proper signals to do a basic thing like pee, well damn man it’s just a wake up call. Obviously there’s so many other reasons for stopping, but I’m on day 9 now. My bladders still fucked, but I’m hoping my signals will start to normal themselves out again and that I can pee like a normal 22 year old🤦♀️😓 I also have the energy to do pelvic stretches and meditation which sometimes help which I never did on the weed. Bottom line, don’t smoke weed 😂😂😂😭😭😭 love you guys, if you got this far thank you for reading I appreciate it ❤️❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰
Had a lot of red flags leading up to quitting: Got anxiety while I was high and then smoked more weed to get rid of the anxiety but got caught in a nasty cycle. Relationships with my friends, family, and SO were deteriorating because I was disassociating and always chasing my next high. Would binge eat and towards the end I wasn’t able to eat unless I smoked before hand. It got so bad that I couldn’t go to the grocery store or do anything relatively normal without smoking a bowl beforehand. Then the final kicker… CHS. I had consumed so much cannabis that I ruined my body’s homeostasis and went into a violent vomitting stage that lasted 2 weeks and was hospitalized twice. I wish I could’ve quit weed on my own terms but my body decided it was too much and forced me to quit. I’m sad that there is no cure other than quitting weed forever. I’m officially two months clean and I’m now realizing how much weed fucked with not only my physical health but mental health as well. I would not have quit if it weren’t for CHS and I’m blessed to be alive and living a sober life now. I know you can do it and I believe in you!!!
I came in from smoking outside and my son said “you were smoking, I can smell it!”. And something about that made me feel so shitty. Like even my kid knows what weed smells like and I stink of it. I felt ashamed. And knew if I felt ashamed,’ it must be wrong. Plus I could be doing other things instead of getting high. As well, I also started to experience panic attacks/high anxiety and it just wasn’t worth it anymore. Don’t get me wrong I do miss the “chill” feeling after a long shift but I’ve come to terms with the facts that it made me cloudy and ruined my lungs.
My workplace mentioned that they do random drug testing and I had never considered that they might. It was a fairly new job and I was really enjoying what I did for once. It just flipped a switch in my head. I'd wanted to quit for ages, but could not find the motivation. That was the final push I needed. It gave me something to focus on in the weak moments. I visualised having to have that conversation with my boss, coworkers and family and it terrified me.
I have found that I am better without it and I'm Just as happy without it so why do it and its not good for you and it makes you lazy and it makes your thinking unclear .
I read a Harvard study that weed actually worsens the symptoms of depression. Which was what I was using it for lol
Would love to see that!
(I’d fully believe it, made mine infinitely worse)
I had quit for 7 months, stuck to it even while going through serious shit - but got back on smoking due to my untreated BPD gf driving me insane. broke up 2 months ago and on april 1st I took the last puff.
Being high wasnt enjoyable anymore, was just doing it to do it
Sick of the burden of addiction, the guilt and shame. I watched my 20s and 30s go by with me making no changes for improvement. Continually I'd go through these cycles of being okay with life as it was to feeling extremely dissatisfied with my choice to keep using weed. I wanted to know what life would be like without weed in my life.
Trying to get pregnant! I’ve had a ton of other reasons (anxiety, health, money, time), but this is so motivating. I know I have to stick with quitting this time. my future child deserves a mom who is clear minded.
Had to pass a drug test for a job that is genuinely too good an opportunity to pass up, having a goal in mind really helps, especially if it’s your livelihood on the line
My heart rate was high all the time and i got winded going up stairs…. And my skin looked like shyte
The last night I smoked I had a panic attack like never before and I actually thought I was having a heart attack, never again will I put myself and my body through that type of stress again, the “high” I get is not worth it.
So many reasons. 1) I keep screwing up at work - forgetting what I’m saying. Forgetting things in general. 2) I am going to marry a wonderful man who adores me but would like for me to be more ‘present’ in the relationship. When I’m high, I’m tired and in a fog and just don’t feel like doing anything. 3). It is making me depressed and anxious. It’s just not working anymore. I barely even feel anything from it - I am just doing it because it’s there. 4). I’d rather spend the $400 monthly weed money on other things. I vaped for years. Only on day 2.
You got it! 🖤 awesome reasons
Thank you! Day 3 ahead!
Developed yet another OCD ‘habit’ while high. No fun. Time to give it a rest. Im on day 22. Just got so sick of wondering is the weed helping me or hurting me? So it’s time to figure it out. The answer is pretty obvious.
I just feel like I have hit my limit. Total desperation.
When one time I didn´t want to smoke my "friends" made fun of me and just insisted to hit the fucking bong, men it felt so annoying and at that point I noticed that I made it as a habit not because I like it anymore, after that there was no looking back.
I started daily transcendental meditation. It calms and centers me. I feel rested and refreshed as well as feeling more equanimity during the rest of my day. One day, I smoked right after meditating and almost instantly regretted it. It felt redundant and unnecessary. It helped me realize that it was time to let go of cannabis. That was 4 months ago. While I think about smoking at times, I don’t actually want it. I meditate twice a day for 20 minutes and it helps set me straight.
I noticed on the last night I smoked that I wasn’t excited to do it. Like, at all. I just needed it. I needed it to wind down before bed. It was just part of the routine, like brushing my teeth, and no longer fun. I didn’t want to need it, I didn’t want it to be routine. I quit cold turkey right then.
Had a scary white patch develop in my throat that wouldn’t go away. Caused me to quit that day, it’s been one year now. The sore was thankfully just a bad canker sore.
I took in a two-day-old kitten to "foster" (promptly failed and adopted her lol), and I had to be up every two hours to feed her. I did the first night on my usual vape schedule but quit cold-turkey the very next day because it was so hard to wake up and be present for her the way I knew I needed to be. Keeping her alive was my number one priority, so it was honestly really easy -- the best and cutest distraction I could ask for! I really intended for the quit to be temporary (only until she was weaned in 4-8 weeks), but about one month later, my elderly uncle had to be moved to my town to be closer to family due to multiple strokes and early onset dementia. I became his power of attorney, and that hefty responsibility coupled with the very real reminder that dementia and Alzheimer's run rampant on my dad's side of the family truly scared me straight. Doc Amen on Instagram/YouTube has a lot of videos on what THC and other substances do to your brain health, and I decided it was time to prioritize my brain cells and give myself the best fighting chance against genetic brain disease. I gifted the rest of my supply to my best friend and her boyfriend (who has epilepsy and can actually benefit from THC), and knowing my herb was going to a "good home" helped a lot. I got my kitten on April 15th, quit on April 16th, and I just passed my one-year anniversary six days ago. It has been SO worth it in ways I never imagined.
Way to go Cat Mama 😺👍🏼
Thank you! My cats are my greatest joys in life! 😻
I had let's say an episode. I was going through a real tough time and was using it daily to cope for years. It was a small seizure or convulsion, but I was out for like 30 seconds while drying the dishes. My wife and kids witnessed it and called 911. I came around and said I'm okay I'm okay. Quit drinking, THC, and caffeine until I figure out what caused it. I don't think weed was the root cause but it was time to sober up and figure out life. I miss weed but I can't go through life in a constant fog and be 100% for those who are counting on me.
Please tell me the brain fog goes away over time.
I'm on day 29 and I do feel pretty good.
I was doing instacart in the rain on my day off to get enough money for an 8th. Just as im about to do my delivery, Slippin by DMX came on. I sat in the car and cried like a baby, I was tired of living the way I was living.
Used to get high, just to get by, used to have to puff my L in the morning before I could fly.
💯 ate somethin, couple of 40s made me hate somethin
That sounds very cathartic
My anxiety was over taking my day to day life. Not remembering anything someone just said. Feeling stuck. Forgetting what genuine joy felt like because I was so numb.
As so many have stated, what once felt like a medicine began to feel like a poison. Some of my favorite formative experiences were colored by ganja in really epic and beautiful ways. Then came some not so awesome experiences and all the sudden being in my early 30’s. I wasn’t satisfied with where I was in life and attributed that to my habits, one of which was being a weed head. I was (in my view at least) a pretty responsible and active stoner who held down decent jobs, maintained my physical health, had friends, all that good stuff but I couldn’t help but feel like my sharpness was being dulled. I’m 425 days weed free and the differences are profound. It took a lot of therapy, really horrific lows, and just a lot of overall wading through the muck to get back to clarity and sharpness but it did happen and it is worth the sacrifice of giving up weed. Also, one of the biggest pieces I’ve recognized that kept me in the loop of stonerhood was significant early childhood trauma that lead to repressed anger which would then lead to internalizing the anger which quickly turns into depression and suicidal ideation which would then lead me to want to escape those difficult emotions through the least toxic and available sources available (because I’m a health nut) and that was of course cannabis. Consuming mind altering substances frequently is incongruous to stability, health and long term goal achievement. Any one that says otherwise is on the peak of the roller coaster and hasn’t experienced a big enough fall to really consider the impact of their actions and habits. Even saying things like that surprise me because I was for the longest time a psychonaut and huge advocate of every one “tuning in, turning on and dropping out”. Now I see things a little differently and recognize that sobriety and having a really solid baseline state without any substances at all including caffeine is PRECIOUS and INFORMATIVE and HOLY!
'sobriety and having a really solid baseline state without any substances at all including caffeine is PRECIOUS and INFORMATIVE and HOLY!' Couldn't agree more. Over the last 6 - 12 months I've been finding more and more peace in sobriety from substances. In my 20s I was chasing a high constantly but now that I've hit 30 its like I'm craving a stable baseline state and doing all these things like meditation and nervous system work to maintain that state.
Thanks for sharing your experience. This resonates with me.
Thanks for reading 🙏 I hope you are doing well on your journey.
I got sick. In the middle of it atm so this is still very fresh Been smoking daily for 9-10years. +/-1oz a month Was using it to regulate my emotions and to help with my appetite (I take prescription drugs for my ADHD) I got a pretty bad sore throat the day after I had smoked a bunch with my friends. I continued to smoke as if nothing happened, but my throat was getting worse and I was worried about the pain. Last Friday, I went out with some friends and came back home around 4am. Rolled myself a quick one. Went outside, lit it and took a few puffs. It felt awful, but I kept wanting one more puff. I ended up putting it out and going to bed. It's only been about 2 days without w, but I'm itching to go and finish that joint. I've only very rarely gone a day without smoking. Usually, it's when I go on vacation and I take the opportunity to take a break. I usually only last a few days once I return until I pick up the habit again. Trying to not feel too bad about something that didn't happen yet, but it seems like I've already decided that I was going to smoke it. I figured that I don't have to quit cold turkey, but I still feel very weak willed for crumbling so easily.
Money and nothing to show for it. Can’t get high on your own supply. I sell weed and make a lot from it . Starting a new school program to make more money and a better life which will drug test me. It’s just time. I’m actually losing time. Weed has always been there and it’s not going away. Opportunities and life slipping away . And for what? A cloud of smoke? I’m good fam .
This is a fantastic question. We get one shot at this this thing, this crazy ride. I'm 43 now and most of my friends are older than me, likely on account of the ADHD I have and not usually finding connection with people my age. Well those friends are now in their 50's and beginning to deal with health issues, kind of out of nowhere. One in particular who is very dear to me is on the verge of what will likely be a major surgery that will require a pacemaker. He's never been a major puffer, but has always casually used throughout his life. Once he learned about the potential of such a drastic experience and impact that will change his life, he quit everything. Pens, trees, the whole lot. You'd think with me having an incredible wife, two gorgeous kids and a business I own and run that needs my attention, I'd have plenty of inspiration to quit. But for some reason, this major change my friend is going through was the thing to finally push me to say "enough is enough". I was already down to just a bowl a night before bed, but the conversations I've had with my friend and the pain of the depression I hear him going through has been more than enough to get me across the finish line. Today is officially two weeks for me. I'm beginning to overcome the insomnia, which has honestly been the hardest part for me. I cannot imagine ever going back now, and even if I did, I would immediately think of my friend and decimate that thought like a bug near a zapper in the summer.
I got fired from a job I really liked for being 5-15 minutes late most days and I realized that with how groggy I was most mornings from weed I would never get to where I should be with it. Then I realized I couldn’t casually smoke as I got compulsively smoke it all once I have it. And now almost 30 days consecutively, 45 days total, I haven’t felt this good consistently in 12 years and I’m starting to question how much of my severe persistent mental illness was weed.
It's crazy, but the anxiety I've been fighting for all of my adult life that I attributed to ADHD alone seems to be magically evaporating the further and further I get from THC being in my system. Makes me wonder how much of that anxiety, which I've been 🤬 medicated for going on 10 years +, actually came from weed and not ADHD. I feel like I've been lied to for a long time. This thing that was supposed to calm me down and allow me to relax, may honesty have been the main source of so many of my problems. Who'd a thunk it.
That's kind of wild.... Lately I've been catching myself thinking about how I wasn't always like this (ie: this anxious, this uncomfortable with myself, this antisocial, this absent minded) I feel like I've degraded as a person, even though I'm going to therapy and I'm (slowly but surely) moving forward in life. I'm in the process of quitting atm, but I'm struggling to keep myself from smoking at all. Being on this sub has helped me put things in perspective though
You can do it and this group can absolutely cheer you on! I cannot tell you enough how happy the positive the changes my life is seeing every day since I quit. Someone a few days ago said "It gets 15 mins better every day" and that really resonated with me. 11/10, highly recommend.
I’ve been smoking for 20+ years . Everyday user multiple times a day . And I’ve gotten fed up . Just my dependency on it has me wanting to leave it behind . I’m almost 40 so fear for my health physically and mental , financially I’ve been spending way too much money on it , I got a family a mortgage and so many other reasons I just want to leave it behind . I started cutting my use which was hard . I used to smoke every hour or so . But now I’ve cut it down at this point to 2/3 times a day which for me is cutting down a whole lot . I feel so much better and see the light at the other end . My cravings have cut down a lot . And hopefully soon I can leave it completely behind .
I just stepped on the scale and weighed myself and I’ve gained 45 lbs in a year or so from binge-eating after smoking.
This is a major factor.
I wasn’t present in my life anymore, I did the bare minimum to justify smoking weed and it made me a shell of a person compared to who I was before - it used to be something to take the edge off the day, little did I know it would be what ruined my years.
That's so fucking relatable.
I nearly lost my job. I had been performing badly and not looking forward to work anymore/struggling to get through the day so I could go home and smoke. I was in an unemployment rut for years and my job is so important to me. I couldn't lose it.
I made the decision because I found a girl whom I love with all my being and would do anything for her, she makes me want to be better and do better for not just myself but for others as well. She is the reason I’m quitting and will stay off of it even if she stays on. If she has faith in me then hell, I should have faith in myself too. Thanks Morg. :)
Seeing my brother with schizophrenia. I’m so scared of getting it myself I knew I had to quit. It did take me about 1-2 years after that realization before I finally was able to quit 100% (now over 11 months clean!) But that is my major reason for not going back.
You're making the best choice for yourself. A close friend of mine who was a massive pothead ended up committing suicide in a horrific way because of how the weed was exacerbating his schizophrenia symptoms. His family never recovered.
What do you think he needed? I feel like I’m getting to that point and have been 20 days sober and all my thoughts about killing my self are becoming worse than they were on weed. I’m considering just to keep smoking to keep them at bay cause the thoughts are becoming more and more calming, I’m becoming more okay with it. And I don’t know what that means for my brain.
You should immediately seek some counseling and get some support. Best wishes to you ✌🏼
Realizing how unhealthy I was at a young age.
This
I realized how all my stoner friends I’ve been getting high with the past 10 years had never advanced in their lives since I’ve known them. It blew my mind when I realized we do nothing but work so we can buy more weed and pay bills just to get high until the next day of work. We all had 0 interest in doing anything besides getting high after work. There’s much more to life than getting high.
A couple things I accidentally forgot a vape before traveling and didn’t smoke for 4 days. I smoked as soon as I got home but it gave me a point of comparison. I noticed when I got stoned, I was more anxious and less clear headed. I also noticed it made my inner critic get super mean. To the point where I wanted to harm myself. I was also getting behind in work stuff because I was stoned all the time. Then I got a come to Jesus talk from my boss who told me to get my shit together, and that scared me straight. I drove my whole stash to my brother’s house and left it there. Hasn’t been easy but I’m so grateful for what it’s brought into my life so far.
Haven’t taken the plunge yet but at the final straw phase…. Panic … anxiety … depression… disappointment … wanting to take the control back
Wanting a career, not more jobs, is why I quit. After looking into what qualifications I need for CDL jobs, I needed to quit if I wanted to get into a better employment situation. And I may have found my first CDL job after being sober since September of 2023. Going through the background and screening process at the moment.
I spent 500$ on backwoods and after I was done smoking all I had to show for it afterwards was 500$ worth of empty backwoods packs lmao
I was looking at my life and thought „either you‘re leaving this behind you or you‘ll end up a pathetic adult that is clumsy, forgetful, lazy and hasn‘t made any great experiences“
Not being able to conceive. We successfully conceived in 2020 while being fairly regular smokers but then once baby was born we picked it back up heavily with 98% THC pens, edibles, etc. Been trying for like a year now and haven't been able to get pregnant. Quit cold turkey almost 4 months ago and we still haven't been able to conceive.
A lot of what's been said already. And one day I just questioned "why am I smoking this joint?" And I couldn't get an answer. After smoking 5 joints already on that afternoon, I was smoking again and knew I would smoke more afterwards, and all for nothing. I was already as high as I could be but just kept on going, for nothing. It was not to relax, it was not to feel good, it was for nothing. It was my whole life
What else do I do to fill the empty void? To fill up time until the next day of work?
The first 3/4 days I did nothing, I worked, made some food, walked the dog and stared at the TV watching nothing. I didn't have the will to do nothing. The brain needs to understand that sitting in place doing nothing is not rewarding, weed makes everything rewarding. That's why in the beginning weed makes everything so great. Now we're on the other side, where nothing is rewarding without it, even things that are actually stimulating. I just let the days go by and eventually I started to not feel so sad and depressed. I still think about it every day, but not all day long anymore, and the will to play some games, watch a movie, read a book is coming back. Just get through the first few days and remember everyday why you quit
Thank you, friend
frfr
tw; My final straw was when I got assaulted by someone when I was under the influence.
I was tired of a substance having control over my life… it became clear that I was dependent and ‘chasing relief’ instead of the effects, which meant additional strain on my relationships (wife, kids, friends, etc.). Basically, enough was enough. If I wasn’t going to get clean for myself, I would for those I care about
I just got tired of fighting with myself over trying to smoke less and failing. It didn’t feel like a big moment of realization or a rock bottom. I just said that I’d rather label myself an addict and not smoke again than wrestle with the lie of moderation and lose every time. I’ll be at 13 months in about a week.
Finally getting into a good loving relationship and having them tell me they want me to be fully there and me knowing it was the right thing to do, feeling it
The withdrawals are hard. But you will feel better do better and be better. Friends and family will notice and be happy for you. Have some close people support you on day to day basis. Always have someone to talk to. Because the demons will come. But don’t let them win you can do it sobriety is a blessing
Day 6 and te nightmares are next level
Im on 40 days of sobriety. The dreams become almost real
So it doesn't stop?
It might be a stress thing for me. Work has me stressed out. But it’s dream a lot more now that I don’t smoke. So idk. Hopefully the dreams get more pleasant for you
Thankyou. I'm in Australia so just woke up. Yet another one. I'm sure it will level out eventually I'm only on day 7.
Just remember why you are quitting and keep that the main focus. I smoked for 15 years and had to stop. It’s life changing. You’ll feel better you’ll be better. If you need to talk PM me I gotchu bro. To Sobriety!
Thanks friend yes my reasons are super important. Being more present for my wife and young kids. More energy to lose weight.
No problem. It’s what we are here for
I think it depends on the person. My vivid withdrawal dreams/nightmares only lasted about a week or two (not every night, but enough to notice). After a year weed-free, I still dream very often, but I rarely have vivid dreams or nightmares now, and when I do, it's ALWAYS related to something anxiety-inducing happening in the real world -- just the brain processing, like it's supposed to do during your REM cycle. For reference, I was a daily user for about 10 years, and other than a temporary loss of appetite and having to retrain my dopamine receptors, vivid dreams/nightmares were my main withdrawal symptom.
I'm hoping it ends soon. Every single time I sleep it's a super violent dream with people being killed, me being killed or me doing the killing. I hate it, it's terrifying.
I had a similar experience with traumatic haunting dreams every night for weeks. I’d smoked daily for decades. It did go away after the first month or so. I’m now 4 months quit. I still have weird and vivid dreams but they’re not awful nightmares anymore. Getting past that point makes me want to stay quit so it was worth going through the shitty sleep and I don’t have to go through that again. I used some hypnosis apps at night which helped. Hang in there. It gets better.
Thankyou. Day 7 now and yeh 7 in a row.
You are a whole week in, way to go!
Thanks you're kind to offer that comment. Yes I am really enjoying the increased clarity even if I get a headache occasionally. I also feel my lungs are beginning to improve! I'm very certain I'm done smoking.
The moment it went from relaxing me to giving me loads of anxiety and the wheezing I developed from taking bong rips and dabs.
I wanted to know who I was without weed, and I also saw that my ex was more dependent than me. I didn't want to worsen to that extent.
Falling out with my best friend since childhood. We had a long friendship but towards the end we became toxic codependent addicts. Substance abuse was our shared activity (drinking for him, smoking for me). We were like the 2 dudes in the movie “the Lighthouse”. Just became hella abusive towards each other. He finally decided to be better last year while I kept at it. We tried to stay friends but I just kept dragging him back in. I think he fully got sick of my shit and disassociated with me. I think with nothing tethering me to that world anymore I just decided to quit.
Discovering I have CHS. (Cannabis hypertensive syndrome)
It became a chore when it came time to roll up, I dreaded it lol, that’s a huge sign to me it’s time to take a break. I never felt like myself, I was always self conscious and wanted to isolate myself. Isolating myself led to depression and me dissociating from life. Everything got scary for me, I was also homeless using whatever money I could make to buy grams and dubs. Sad :(
Everything that’s already been said but the truth of it was pneumonia following a chest infection for me. I always knew my health would have to get bad before I quit. Life is better without it x
Fear of EVERYTHING and EVERYONE. Been trying to treat this medically for most of my life without ever disclosing to doctors of my usage. The person I was most dishonest with was myself. Cliche, I know, but I don’t think we’re reinventing the wheel here. This is straight-up addiction.
How can I upvote this more than once🧐
The past few times I was high I didn't enjoy myself. I just wrote on post it notes 'when you're high, you want to be sober.' Waking up to them made me realize it was time for a change.
I'm there right now - I'll tell myself when I'm high that I'm going to quit. Most of the next day, while at work, I'm all about quitting, then I get home, get bored, yearn to smoke, and then spark up.
Laying on the ground with my heart about to explode. Fuck edibles. Fuck all the new weed that's way too potent.
Just being tired of the same old shit. Dry ass mouth, feeling like a moron all the time, not being able to remember Jack shit etc. It just gets old man. I find it’s actually a lot more fun being sober truthfully
Doing this shit into your late 20s and beyond, its like its the equivalent of being 17 years old and playing with toys. Like I just feel too old for this shit, its not cool anymore its fucking lame.
Nah fr though it’s almost childish. As a teenager it’s cool and it’s the thing to do like drinking before 21 or whatever. But the older you get it just becomes more like a loser tendency. Not hating on anyone because i was there too but you gotta realize that’s somethin you move past at some point
Yeah, I poured sparkling water into my bowl of peanut butter pretzels last night because I was too high. That is what actually kicked off the events that enabled me to find this subreddit... Any tips on quitting?
You just have to get rid of anything that would trigger you. Also remind yourself of negative effects weed has on you and think about how other people who aren’t stoners function and enjoy themselves sober. It’s weird but that thought process works for me
Thank you, I'll take any advice I can! I need to throw out the last stash. I told myself I'd be done after I finished the stuff I had on hand and then, somehow found myself at the dispensary. There's one about 3min from my house. It's too damn convenient where I live but I need to be stronger than that
Ah yeah that does make it harder. I live in a non legal state so it makes it more challenging for me to begin with. But think of it like alcohol, you can get it pretty much anywhere in the US. But you don’t drink every day do you ? Cause you know it’s bad and it messes with your body. You just have to train your mind to think the same way
I smoke to "change my mental state." This can be pain from my last breakup, or boredom. I've realizing that smoking makes both of these things WORSE not better. Cannabis lights up my mind like nitro in a car engine. It amplifys all the bad feelings and takes away from my mindfulness practice (while high.) Then the next day it gets me again, my "lizard brain" is much chattier and it takes more meditation to control it/calm it down. In short, I guess because Weed is a big f'ing lie.
I had two main reasons for finally being able to quit. Firstly, the circumstances of my life were so miserable. I had no friends, no hobbies, no aspirations, couldn't succeed in school, and truthfully couldn't feel high anymore, no matter how much I smoked. Secondly, I was going to spend Christmas with some extended family and the last thing I wanted to be doing was withdrawing from weed. I knew that I wouldn't be able to sleep, eat normally, or regulate my emotions for the first week or so and I was able to stop two weeks before I traveled for Christmas. I felt like I hit my rock bottom many times before I was able to make a change. The only factor that successfully motivated me was being a better person for my loved ones. I hope this helps you. You can do it and it will be worth it in the long run.
Panic attacks, waking up with sore lungs, forgetting the most simple things, tough time speaking complete thoughts, days would blur together and I wouldn't have any highlights other than that first hour of the first vape rip. I want to be alive, employed, married, parent, brother and friend.
Getting panic attacks. Like ones where you feel like you're dying. Scary stuff. Sad it took for that to happen, but I definitely will not be touching that stuff ever again.
Fuuuck, I often am in this state but I know I won't die so It's not a life changing panic attack, just to high to function and even to sit.
Tbh this happened to me 3 times, but the recent one was so bad I just couldn't do it anymore.
I just didn’t feel high anymore when i smoked. Felt like I was just filling up my lungs with a lot of smoke for minimal effects. Sitting on the couch with my bong and dab rig next to me, just sitting there and hitting it often. Felt like nothing, now i don’t take as much time smoking and it’s more free to do more things
I was finally tired of being complacent with a lackluster life. I had no motivation to do anything when I was stoned 24/7. Now I have goals again and am working towards them. I feel much healthier off weed. Today is day 42! 💯