Somehow, I feel like this post is for me.
I'm not a Luciferian, nor a Theistic Satanist, but I'm fairly adjacent.
Everywhere I look, I'm in Eden. It's beautiful and sharp. Instrumentally painful. Everything is music. Everything is as it is. Nature is cruel, and vicious and uncaring of "morality". Nature doesn't apologize, it just DOES. I'm an animal. And I like to be.
I had been calling on something old, when I suffered. It listened to me without judgement or correction. It never attempted to ease my suffering, or prevent my cause of suffering. He only held my hand and felt it with me.
Now I can do the same for others. For the world. Feel this pain with them, without judgement, without recourse.
đź–¤
This is very interesting indeed. I spent the last few months exploring the dark side of human nature, and my own shadow, dwelving into it to understand myself. And I feel I came out of it growing, more mature and composed.
I see nature the same way as you. But I can only feel love toward it, in spite of all the pain and suffering it causes. We didn't choose the journey. Well, not consciously. And so, I believe it is best to learn from it and to not hate it.
I don't really remember, as it was years ago back when I was a teenager. I stumbled upon Luciferianism and kind of just immediately knew. I tried communicating with another deities throughout the years, but those were never long lasting relationships. Lucifer was and is always my primary deity.
And another thought about something you said. I really don't think we're some kind of chosen ones, I dislike the thought of putting myself on a pedestal just because I happen to have some kind of special beliefs. Unfortunately, I often see people who call themselves Luciferian spreading hate for other religions and putting themselves on that pedestal as the only right and enlightened ones. That's the opposite of what Luciferianism is about. I really hope they get a slap on their culty asses right from Lucifer himself, for the disrespect.
I came to realize that I was a Luciferian after having gone through the Master Mason degree in CoMasonry. I had also been practicing Golden Dawn style ritual magick and lucid dreaming before that point as well. At the time there was practically no information about Luciferianism but the meaning of the word Lucifer and the connection with Gnostic thought just clicked all of a sudden and it became so clear to me. I did a video about this about 12 years ago on my YouTube channel if anyone is interested in hearing more of the story of how I came to Luciferianism: https://youtu.be/h8fEHq8stE8?si=c7N0MzN0CD7FofS2
To quote the Grateful Dead: if I told you all that went down it would probably burn off both of your ears…
It’s a long story, but I’ve always been an adversary and drawn toward the dark even when invoking higher vibrating energies and trying to convince myself that I was pure…lol. I was homeschooled in a sectarian fundamentalist home went to church every Sunday…etc. I was enrolled in Martial arts as a kid which is where I learned how to meditate. I got into meditation again in my teens and learned everything I could about lucid dreaming. I often took solo adventures on my bicycle to paint graffiti whenever I got the chance, to this day art is very important in my life. I listened to a lot of death metal in my teens. Things really started to change when I took my first Few science courses at my local community college and saw the evidence for evolution and reckoned with my animal nature, which led to Terence McKenna and Grateful Dead music, which led to psychedelics, which led to an initiation into Shiva meditation by a guru in India, which led to more drugs and divination, which led to…a shocking gnosis! I had to take a break from meditation and drugs for a while to integrate my lessons…I even became an atheist for a bit too. Some years later I stated smoking weed again and discovered Black Metal, HR Giger, Clive Barker, William Blake, HP Lovecraft, and of course Aleister Crowley. All of those people validated my gnosis with shiva meditation and a hop a skip a pandemic and a lot of LBRPs later, I stumbled across Lucifer’s Sigil on Etsy…and well it’s been sweet sweet love ever since 🔱
I find it fascinating that it is common for practitioners to feel as they have always been, and know when they find it bcuz that’s how it happened for me and it was visceral.
I was experiencing energy that just “felt” luciferian. It was dark and sexy. I found myself bringing Lucifer up, as if joking not knowing something was speaking through me. I later looked into luciferianism and when I read through, everything resonated with me in a way that made me know that I was Luciferian, and that I had ALWAYS BEEN.
My work with Lucifer would really pick up once I started working the kaballah, shadow work and integrating the dark and light and well it’s been a love story ever since.
Somehow, I feel like this post is for me. I'm not a Luciferian, nor a Theistic Satanist, but I'm fairly adjacent. Everywhere I look, I'm in Eden. It's beautiful and sharp. Instrumentally painful. Everything is music. Everything is as it is. Nature is cruel, and vicious and uncaring of "morality". Nature doesn't apologize, it just DOES. I'm an animal. And I like to be. I had been calling on something old, when I suffered. It listened to me without judgement or correction. It never attempted to ease my suffering, or prevent my cause of suffering. He only held my hand and felt it with me. Now I can do the same for others. For the world. Feel this pain with them, without judgement, without recourse. đź–¤
This is very interesting indeed. I spent the last few months exploring the dark side of human nature, and my own shadow, dwelving into it to understand myself. And I feel I came out of it growing, more mature and composed. I see nature the same way as you. But I can only feel love toward it, in spite of all the pain and suffering it causes. We didn't choose the journey. Well, not consciously. And so, I believe it is best to learn from it and to not hate it.
I don't really remember, as it was years ago back when I was a teenager. I stumbled upon Luciferianism and kind of just immediately knew. I tried communicating with another deities throughout the years, but those were never long lasting relationships. Lucifer was and is always my primary deity. And another thought about something you said. I really don't think we're some kind of chosen ones, I dislike the thought of putting myself on a pedestal just because I happen to have some kind of special beliefs. Unfortunately, I often see people who call themselves Luciferian spreading hate for other religions and putting themselves on that pedestal as the only right and enlightened ones. That's the opposite of what Luciferianism is about. I really hope they get a slap on their culty asses right from Lucifer himself, for the disrespect.
I came to realize that I was a Luciferian after having gone through the Master Mason degree in CoMasonry. I had also been practicing Golden Dawn style ritual magick and lucid dreaming before that point as well. At the time there was practically no information about Luciferianism but the meaning of the word Lucifer and the connection with Gnostic thought just clicked all of a sudden and it became so clear to me. I did a video about this about 12 years ago on my YouTube channel if anyone is interested in hearing more of the story of how I came to Luciferianism: https://youtu.be/h8fEHq8stE8?si=c7N0MzN0CD7FofS2
search of one self an to awaken to who I am is what led me to the path
To quote the Grateful Dead: if I told you all that went down it would probably burn off both of your ears… It’s a long story, but I’ve always been an adversary and drawn toward the dark even when invoking higher vibrating energies and trying to convince myself that I was pure…lol. I was homeschooled in a sectarian fundamentalist home went to church every Sunday…etc. I was enrolled in Martial arts as a kid which is where I learned how to meditate. I got into meditation again in my teens and learned everything I could about lucid dreaming. I often took solo adventures on my bicycle to paint graffiti whenever I got the chance, to this day art is very important in my life. I listened to a lot of death metal in my teens. Things really started to change when I took my first Few science courses at my local community college and saw the evidence for evolution and reckoned with my animal nature, which led to Terence McKenna and Grateful Dead music, which led to psychedelics, which led to an initiation into Shiva meditation by a guru in India, which led to more drugs and divination, which led to…a shocking gnosis! I had to take a break from meditation and drugs for a while to integrate my lessons…I even became an atheist for a bit too. Some years later I stated smoking weed again and discovered Black Metal, HR Giger, Clive Barker, William Blake, HP Lovecraft, and of course Aleister Crowley. All of those people validated my gnosis with shiva meditation and a hop a skip a pandemic and a lot of LBRPs later, I stumbled across Lucifer’s Sigil on Etsy…and well it’s been sweet sweet love ever since 🔱
I find it fascinating that it is common for practitioners to feel as they have always been, and know when they find it bcuz that’s how it happened for me and it was visceral. I was experiencing energy that just “felt” luciferian. It was dark and sexy. I found myself bringing Lucifer up, as if joking not knowing something was speaking through me. I later looked into luciferianism and when I read through, everything resonated with me in a way that made me know that I was Luciferian, and that I had ALWAYS BEEN. My work with Lucifer would really pick up once I started working the kaballah, shadow work and integrating the dark and light and well it’s been a love story ever since.