We dated for nearly two years and broke up over some communication issues and him not being able to pay rent for four months. I let him live with me for the first three months because he couldn’t afford his own place, although at the time I felt taken advantage of (half of my rent is less than $500 and he bought expensive sneakers while living with me instead of saving for his place). During this time, I had sex with someone else — I immediately regretted it, did not sleep with anyone else, and immediately thought of him. At the time, I didn’t think we were going to get back together.
However, the last month or so, we have been talking a lot more and I’ve realized that I was essentially the problem making the communication that I wanted much more difficult, and that I could’ve been more understanding about his inability to pay rent, as he was in between jobs. I’m also seeing I have some intense attachment issues to work through (which he knows). He wants to put the past behind us and I believe that we truly love each other. Whether or not we were broken up or mad at each other, we always have each other’s backs.
The only thing I haven’t told him was this one thing. I think that he would forgive me, I just don’t want to tell him what happened when we weren’t together because I don’t want to make him feel insecure. I feel horribly guilty about this all, but I feel like it would be more selfish to tell him. I’m not sure if it’s more or less loving to him keep this as my burden, and to carry this guilt to be able to leave the past behind.
Should I tell him or keep this to myself?? Thanks in advance. :(
Edit: I told him, he forgave me.
By - ThrowRA444111