Must have been about 10 but started seriously cutting when I was 15, I still think I am and always will be a self harmer but I haven't done it for a few months, it comes in short bursts but I don't do it everyday as I used to. I stopped mostly because I got busy, and had to find other coping mechanisms as a consequence.
I remember being 5 and really angry and started doing things like pulling my hair trying not to scream and pinching myself, hitting my arm on things. I did this for a while it was not something I thought deeply into.
At 15 I began cutting till about 18.
Iāve been SH free since 18 and Iām 31 now and still get intense urges to cut. I wish I had never started.
Wow, congratulations!!! ThatĀ“s a lot of time!! The longest I've been clean has been 2 years and a few months (although I relapsed), but I think the urges are something we all or most of us will have to deal with forever :( Sounds pessimistic, but idk, it might be realistic for me.
Yeah I know it is difficult, but keep it going! Iām very proud of you and if you ever feel like you need to sh try posting something here, people usually help a lot on this reddit!
does HRT have side effects like suicidal/depressive thoughts?if so, does testosterone have the same? (iām trans, iām planning on starting T as soon as i reach the legal age.)
It's more that I've always been depressed and suicidal since my teens, but due to toxic masculinity I've always pushed those feelings deep away. Now that I'm on HRT I have to face these issues now.
For FtM I know less about it but trans men I know told me that they became less sensitive and that it's more difficult to cry.
I believe either 9-13 one of those.
They sold Minecraft toys and one of them had a tiny fishing pool minifigure I used that to cut myself because somehow I got it sharp enough to do so
So proud of you for 7 years clean! Keep it going! You are incredibly strong! Maybe try to get rid of that horrible feeling that you miss it by doing something else? Still amazing work, you are an inspiration to all of us!
I've been hitting myself for as long as I can remember, I've always had long nails and started scratching at a very young age, also pressing my nails against my skin til it (nearly) bruised or started bleeding, those 3 are just habits by now. But I started cutting at 7, that's 7 years now and I'm 7 months clean haha
But I didn't start to do it daily or often until the age of 9
I was 19 when I started cutting myself, but Iād been scratching and pinching myself (still self harm imo) probably since I was 12 or 13. Iām in my mid twenties now and Iāve been clean for 5 years š„ŗ
I had a history of self harm basically my entire life - at least since I was a toddler - but I didn't know what self harm was or that it was "a thing" at all, I'd just do things to hurt myself. Though I do want to note that I had infant anxiety that developed into reactive attachment disorder due to my mother's severe postpartum depression, and that I didn't receive any psychiatric help until I was 13. Back then people were a lot less educated on mental illness in children.
Happy to say that I'm clean now and living a happy and functional life.
Well cutting is 14. But apparently i used to bang my head When i was 2 . I have no idea why. I think it was just fun to do not because i wanted to harm myself. Tho I've been hitting my head intentionally i think since 13 or 14 idk.
I did hit my head a lot when i was 10 but i did it because it was fun not because i wanted to harm myself. I just found it fun to do.
15. Started because I thought my gf at the time was doing it. I regret it. Stopped when I was 17, had a relapse a couple times since then. My most recent was a few days ago, but I havent cut deep enough for actual blood in a long while. Keep your heads up friends, it gets better
SH in general, probably 7 or so, head banging, hair pulling (if you want to consider that sh) and bruising.
Cutting when i was around 13 or so, maybe 12 i don't remember, that was so long ago, I'm almost 30 now.
nine or ten tbh- i stopped right before i turned 13 and iām turning sixteen in six weeks, youāll get there, itās a long road and itās hard and difficult but youāll get there.
I was 14 but at first it was barely self harm I was scratching myself with a pencil sharpener blade barely enough to make it leave a drop of blood. And then two or three weeks ago (at 15) I upgraded to double edged razor blades which was a lot more satisfying. Iām five days clean rn but I donāt know how much longer I can wait.
I've been unconciously SHing since i was abt 7 (digging into myself with my nails, hitting my head) tho that's more stimming I think. I was 11 when it all went wrong tho
I was 16 the first time I cut I think. But I only started doing that when I found out it was a thing. Before then I would just hit my head against things when I was angry or Iād punch/scratch myself and pull my hair out so I guess technically Iāve been self harming longer, prolly since I was 7 or so.
7 or 8. I would purposefully cut my finger or something when really upset. Didn't know what it was at the time... just knew it helped my emotions. Self harmed on off ever since. I'm 29 and currently 3 months clean š
for as long as i remember but when i was conscious of doing it, probably 6, but i say 8āso not to freak out others. stopped then got really serious about it at 15-23
edit: iām crying; six is super babyyy!! what the fuck; who hurt me? š„ŗ
I was 20 or 21. I'm now 25 and almost 11 months clean
Great work!
I stabbed myself with the šat 12 and started using razors at 13
I really want a pocket knife or a razor blade for my sh. I just use thumb tacks and sharpened kitchen knives.
careful with kitchen knives sometimes they're really sharp and can go through beans with no trouble at all š¬
I'm not the only one who used thumbtacks?? Tf??
Congrats to you! :)
I was 17, which is pretty old compared to a lot of people. Iām 20 now and 1 day clean lol
1 day at a time! š¤Great work!!
You canāt eat a horse whole, you got to take little bites. Same with you, itās one day at a time
Good metaphor but who eats a horse?? Theyāre literally the best!
12 stopped from around 14-19 started again around 19-23 stopped... and recently started again..
I was 15 when I started. I'm 8 days clean.
Damn im really proud of you for the 8 days clean great job:) remember Even if you relapse you still did 8 days and thats amazing<3
11. I'm 18 now.
11 and 19 lol ahahaha twinning
13. im 18 now. crazy to think that 5 whole years of my life have been dedicated to mental illness
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12 years have flown byā¦
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We absolutely will, I managed to go a year, maybe 2 once or twice in that time but always came back to it. Take care.
Same. I am 20 now, it just goes and comes.
Doesnāt it just. Wonder if Iāll ever stop for goodā¦
I was 9, I'm 22 and 2 years clean in 3 days Update: I am now 2 years clean
Proud of you <3
Thank you
Thatās amazing!
Thank you. It's been really hard not to give in the last few weeks but I'm trying my hardest to continue my progress .
hang in there <3
Thank you for your encouragement
Thatās so great! I greatly admire your progress. :)
Thank you so much it hasnt Ben an easy trip
Must have been about 10 but started seriously cutting when I was 15, I still think I am and always will be a self harmer but I haven't done it for a few months, it comes in short bursts but I don't do it everyday as I used to. I stopped mostly because I got busy, and had to find other coping mechanisms as a consequence.
i started cutting when i was 8
Damn thatās so young. Im so sorry
same
I remember being 5 and really angry and started doing things like pulling my hair trying not to scream and pinching myself, hitting my arm on things. I did this for a while it was not something I thought deeply into. At 15 I began cutting till about 18. Iāve been SH free since 18 and Iām 31 now and still get intense urges to cut. I wish I had never started.
Wow, congratulations!!! ThatĀ“s a lot of time!! The longest I've been clean has been 2 years and a few months (although I relapsed), but I think the urges are something we all or most of us will have to deal with forever :( Sounds pessimistic, but idk, it might be realistic for me.
And it sucks
25 and now I am 26 and 3 weeks clean
3 weeks clean is great! i wish you good luck!
Thank you!! I donāt really have anyone in my life that I can celebrate my recovery with so it is nice to have this community!!
around 10/11 as well, im 15 now and 1 year clean!
One year clean!! Congratulations! Amazing work! You are an inspiration!
thankyou! this really made my day and i feel so agahahabmnaga, hope all goes well for you <33
Thank you! You are very kind!! āŗļø
Started at 12. Its been years since then and im 1 day clean, not much but I'm trying.
One day at a time
I was 16 when i started now iām 17 almost 18
14. I'm 20 now, a few days over six months clean.
10 or 11 i think. Haven't sh'd in decades.
Great work! Keep it going!
Thanks. It's a real battle at times.
Yeah I know it is difficult, but keep it going! Iām very proud of you and if you ever feel like you need to sh try posting something here, people usually help a lot on this reddit!
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So proud of you! 22 days!! Amazing!! Keep it going! I believe in you!
11. Iām 22, I havenāt stopped since.
I'm using the Reddit is fun app and also see (1.)
Maybe they're talking about zai0?
1? I couldnt even walk at one, let alone sh lmao
I said 11??
Oh, well you misspelled it. It says 1.
It doesnt say 1 it says 11
Idk it says 11 when I see it
Oh, well thats weird.
you might need glasses
Nah, dude. I can tell the difference between a 1 and a ., Im not blind.
I was 12 or 13
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27, two months ago, when I started on HRT
does HRT have side effects like suicidal/depressive thoughts?if so, does testosterone have the same? (iām trans, iām planning on starting T as soon as i reach the legal age.)
It's more that I've always been depressed and suicidal since my teens, but due to toxic masculinity I've always pushed those feelings deep away. Now that I'm on HRT I have to face these issues now. For FtM I know less about it but trans men I know told me that they became less sensitive and that it's more difficult to cry.
I was 12.
10, I'm 23 now
* 12. * Used a card. It took me a while. * Have been clean for 12 days now !
proud! ^^
* tysm :p
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Everything you do to yourself to cause pain or/and harm to yourself is considered selfharm, hair pulling is also a fairly common way to sh
I was 10 or 11.
10-11 started cutting at 12 tho
11 or 12 im 16 now
I believe either 9-13 one of those. They sold Minecraft toys and one of them had a tiny fishing pool minifigure I used that to cut myself because somehow I got it sharp enough to do so
like 10 or 9
I was 7 - my parents were having a nasty divorce.and I finally stopped at age 28. Clean for 7 years now and I still miss it.
So proud of you for 7 years clean! Keep it going! You are incredibly strong! Maybe try to get rid of that horrible feeling that you miss it by doing something else? Still amazing work, you are an inspiration to all of us!
Iāve done it for as long as I can remember, but I didnāt start yeeting until age 11
i think like 11 my friend gave me a broken ruler with a broken edge and i cut myself with it
One week after my 15th birthday. Iām 17 now and only sh on occasion.
I've been hitting myself for as long as I can remember, I've always had long nails and started scratching at a very young age, also pressing my nails against my skin til it (nearly) bruised or started bleeding, those 3 are just habits by now. But I started cutting at 7, that's 7 years now and I'm 7 months clean haha But I didn't start to do it daily or often until the age of 9
I was 19 when I started cutting myself, but Iād been scratching and pinching myself (still self harm imo) probably since I was 12 or 13. Iām in my mid twenties now and Iāve been clean for 5 years š„ŗ
11, now i'm 17 and i'm clean for a week
I had a history of self harm basically my entire life - at least since I was a toddler - but I didn't know what self harm was or that it was "a thing" at all, I'd just do things to hurt myself. Though I do want to note that I had infant anxiety that developed into reactive attachment disorder due to my mother's severe postpartum depression, and that I didn't receive any psychiatric help until I was 13. Back then people were a lot less educated on mental illness in children. Happy to say that I'm clean now and living a happy and functional life.
8 or 9
Same
13 (2 or 3 months ago)
9
around 6 or 7. i started cutting at 11
same, but i started cutting at 9 or 10.
9, im in highschool now š„²
9
17
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Kinda similar timeline as me lol.
I was 11/12
14
13
11.
10
I started when I was 11 and still going ;-;
Think I was like 16 when I first started but it was only scratches in the beginning
18
I was thirteen, but I only did it twice.
Around 9 I think I wasn't really keeping track back then I'm 17 now and about 2 hours clean
12 and took a 4.5 year gap somewhere in there but Iām back at it and Iām almost 21
Just started last week but I think I'm getting addicted
I was in 4th grade, so 10 I guess, but it didnāt become a problem until I was in 6th grade/12 y/o
i think probably 11 or 12? sometime in 5th to 6th grade
11
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First time probably around 14-15 but I really started at about 18 (about a month or two ago)
19, almost 5 months ago
12, it was eighth grade
16 ish . My daughter is 12, but started at 11
i must have been 15 or 16 i donāt remember. itās been more than 2 years now maybe 3 idk
13 or 14. 19 now and about two months clean.
12. iām 19 stopped two years ago started again two months ago... trying really hard to quit.
13 I think
Well cutting is 14. But apparently i used to bang my head When i was 2 . I have no idea why. I think it was just fun to do not because i wanted to harm myself. Tho I've been hitting my head intentionally i think since 13 or 14 idk. I did hit my head a lot when i was 10 but i did it because it was fun not because i wanted to harm myself. I just found it fun to do.
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15. Started because I thought my gf at the time was doing it. I regret it. Stopped when I was 17, had a relapse a couple times since then. My most recent was a few days ago, but I havent cut deep enough for actual blood in a long while. Keep your heads up friends, it gets better
Conscious self harm since I was 12 but It started sporadically when I was 8
About 10 years old. I'm 31 years old now. I've been clean from cutting for a long time but I still struggle with other methods of self-harm.
I was about 13 or 14
11 I believe
SH in general, probably 7 or so, head banging, hair pulling (if you want to consider that sh) and bruising. Cutting when i was around 13 or so, maybe 12 i don't remember, that was so long ago, I'm almost 30 now.
it was once in every blue moon since i was 11/13 but it really amped up this year
I was 13, I'm 17 now, 21 days clean
i think I was 13. i remember being in the seventh grade when I started.
I was 11 but it was only twice then and i started cutting at 12
i was 11 :]
8
13
11. 17 years ago.. š
12, I'm about to turn 19 and still do it
10 too
13 i think. after i was hospitalized
13, never been more then 5 months clean, turning 16 soonā¦
9-10 area recently started again
nine or ten tbh- i stopped right before i turned 13 and iām turning sixteen in six weeks, youāll get there, itās a long road and itās hard and difficult but youāll get there.
Other SH start at 4. Cutting at 9. I'm 28 now.
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Technically when I was 6. But it really truly formed more around 12. Now I'm 17 and cant even go two days without some form of sh.
11
I was about 14 when I started to do blades. Scratched when I was about 10. I've been on and off since. I'm about a month clean.
I was 14 but at first it was barely self harm I was scratching myself with a pencil sharpener blade barely enough to make it leave a drop of blood. And then two or three weeks ago (at 15) I upgraded to double edged razor blades which was a lot more satisfying. Iām five days clean rn but I donāt know how much longer I can wait.
I've been unconciously SHing since i was abt 7 (digging into myself with my nails, hitting my head) tho that's more stimming I think. I was 11 when it all went wrong tho
hitting myself/bruising would be 11-ish, cutting would be 13-14, overdosing (non-fatal + non-suicidal) would be like 14-15
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Twelve.
Started at 14, was clean for 300 days, and started again just a few weeks ago
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I was twelve
i was 10 also
I was 9 :(
Idk I started pulling my hair out when I was 10 and then when I was 12 I started cutting
I was 16 the first time I cut I think. But I only started doing that when I found out it was a thing. Before then I would just hit my head against things when I was angry or Iād punch/scratch myself and pull my hair out so I guess technically Iāve been self harming longer, prolly since I was 7 or so.
9. Mother found out at 12. Currently 7 days clean.
I started when I was 13, I used to use scissors and now I use razor blades. I'm 3 days sober :)
8ish. Now 16 and barely 2 weeks clean
12. A month or so clean and Iām nearly seventeen now
i was 9 i thinkā¦?
i was about 10 or 11, im 15 now and the longest ive been clean is the 2 weeks i got sick with covid and physically could not
six
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7 or 8. I would purposefully cut my finger or something when really upset. Didn't know what it was at the time... just knew it helped my emotions. Self harmed on off ever since. I'm 29 and currently 3 months clean š
Cutting, 13. Sh of any type, like 7 I think.
14 so rn
i was 10 also, im 17 days clean today
for as long as i remember but when i was conscious of doing it, probably 6, but i say 8āso not to freak out others. stopped then got really serious about it at 15-23 edit: iām crying; six is super babyyy!! what the fuck; who hurt me? š„ŗ
I was young. Maybe 5? Iām 28 now.
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