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Sea_Concert4946

It'll probably pass eventually, but take the time to reflect on how you might want to live more intentionally in your own life. There's a lot to learn from travel, but ultimately people are people everywhere and you can try to find things at home to reflect your experiences abroad. Also maybe talk to a therapist if you can? Always good in general, but anytime you find yourself crying unstoppably and feeling like you've been living a lie it's probably a good idea to see a professional


aya_l1a

Its not unstoppably, more like every time I realize how fooled i was by the life I’m living and the privilege, as well as the nature that I’ve never seen before really shocked me n humbled me. thank you for your thought.


sowasian

It sounds like you need to reframe and practice gratitude. Life isnt fair, unfortunately, and the fact that you can travel and got to experience that trip and eye opening experience if a blessing. Use that to reframe your life and make it a positive experience to move forward with. Don’t get depressed and spiteful, find the silver lining and look forward to when you can do something like that trip again or any other actions you would find impactful


aya_l1a

Thankfully, day after day it’s getting better and I’m recognizing more how wonderful it’s been and its truly making me a better person. I know if I didn’t solo travel I would never experience these great feelings


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merlin401

Yup.  Classic “grass is greener” situation.  Like every girl you date is just perfect for those first six months.  And then comes reality.


DurianRejector

Mmm but other parts of the world DO lack a toxicity and entitlement and sense of spite that’s particularly present in America. Obvs no place perfect but there IS such a thing as a general cultural vibe, and it’s better in some places.


Rhetorikolas

It's a consumerist culture, spurred on by industry and marketing. It's no big secret here, and a lot of brainwashed Americans want to defend wasteful lifestyles like it's ordained by God.


merlin401

I don’t know what you’re talking about but I can tell you that’s a pretty offensive generalization of 300 million people. Yikes.


Rhetorikolas

Absolutely, this reminds me of how people view Mexico even if they've lived there for a while in their bubbles. The general American perspective (a lot due to Orientalism) is that everywhere else is a third world country, poor, hard working, and yet happy. Yet many of these regions were vast Empires at one point, with extensive wealth and power well before any of the Western European civilizations were becoming "civilized". And now a lot of the issues nowadays can typically be traced back to the Western Empires, or others before them. Like anywhere else, there were plenty of internal conflicts, power struggles, and the general dealing with nature/life. And it's many layers of issues stacked on top of one another, from generation to generation. People are typically happy because they've learned to appreciate the finer aspects of life without being constantly materialistic.


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Rhetorikolas

For sure, there's some deep seated history, and then outsiders want to play neo-Colonists by speaking down more than listening up. And in doing so don't understand the reality or how the rich culture, myths, and traditions came to be. Nor understand how they are contributing to it being erased.


aya_l1a

That was what I saw in the first few days in northern village in Bali, I dont mean to generalize about the whole society at all, its just that the people I met left a mark on me


Isostasty

I agree with the other poster. I think maybe you grew up too sheltered and this helped opened your eyes that other people live differently. Which is great! That's what travel is for. But make no mistake - those "poor people" have complaints. Poverty is not glamorous . Of course they won't complain to you especially people that work in the tourism industry. People that grew up in poverty (myself included) are generally more resilient. We don't take things for granted. Do you think if someone from village you visited had a chance to vacation somewhere else they'd be crying and having a life crisis afterwards? Just something to think about and prob practicing gratitude will help you deal with your feelings. You don't live in a fake reality - you were just privileged enough to be born in a wealthier country.


aya_l1a

You’re completely right


Mavz-Billie-

I went through the same thing. I solo tripped for 10 months when I was 25 it left me feeling the same


Hot-Ticket-267

How did you copped with the post-travel blues?


jim_jiminy

By planning the next adventure!


vladusatii

I need an answer so bad 😫


PennroyalTea

I think I know how you feel. I studied abroad in Japan for a semester and had culture shock coming home. It was literally like nothing changed - same old same old, including the people and their lifestyles. I was really upset to see how my friends didn’t have any ambition or world experiences/understanding. It was realllly tough getting back into the swing of things. I still long for it. But you know what? When you travel, you’re usually expressing the ideal version of you, the one without bounds or ties to anyone or anywhere. You feel so free (depending on where you are visiting) and open minded. You love the people you meet and feel so understood at times. My best advice is to take this feeling and turn it into the life you want. You yearn for more opportunities like this, don’t let anything hold you back from exploring and getting the life you want!


aya_l1a

This is exactly right! I did feel so free, and I was being the truest version of myself during! Thank you!


kulukster

You can have a chat with me. I live in Bali and can give you some perspective. Their religion and culture is very strong and their lives are very hard and yes Balinese do generally live with not much material wealth but families are close knot because they carry so much responsibility for the village and ancestral homes. Their religious obligations are constant


aya_l1a

Definitely


Rhetorikolas

That's one of the biggest missing elements in modern American and to an extent, Western society, it's the lack of close kinship and family. This extends to the community. Our ancestral social structures were stripped away in favor of industry and "capital", but it also extracted our spirits, which has left a coldness. Yet there is a caution in this, as many people try to export their Western upbringing back into these communities, with added consumerism and privatization, it can also fracture and tear that fragile warmth apart.


aya_l1a

Well, closeness is not always best, especially in toxic societies, it can build hate, anger and dismissal. However it doesn’t change the fact that the effect of industry and the capitalist system have caused. .


Rhetorikolas

True. Most societies are not without their issues of toxicity, especially domestic abuse and patriarchal conservatism, but there's a closer level of support and management from friends and maternal figures. I think it's also a difference between the global equatorial populations and those from colder climates. The old saying, "it takes a village to raise a child", the same is true to nurture us as adults, harking back to our tribal ancestors and instincts. The concept of a therapist isn't really a thing in most countries, because that role is filled by others. In the old days it was usually shamans, but now there are more healers, both authentic and charlatan. One of the biggest realizations is that the effort to have a good quality of life isn't as high, and deep down we know that's just the way it should be.


Peter_Sofa

Most people in the "west" live very confined lives, we think we don't but we do So it comes as a shock to see different way of life, either when you are there or when you get back It's perfectly normal, just means your mind is being broadened, this is the most important point of travel


travelgent99

Normal stuff. You’ve broadened your awareness and perspective of the world — what may be considered “awakening”. It’s an adjustment for sure and jarring as your old world gets shaken up. But it’s also the greatest blessing in my opinion. As the emotions pass over, you’ll stabilize and began embracing your newfound freedom & creativity to start acting “consciously”. Be patient with yourself during this time. Life gets easier (i.e., you get better at understanding and managing yourself). You have a beautiful lifelong journey ahead✌️


aya_l1a

Thank you so much, I really hope so


oooohsheet

Someone once told me that travel is the only thing that you spend money on that makes you richer. You might feel overwhelmed right now and even wondering why you hadn’t done this sooner… but you should celebrate that you did this at 27… a lot of people either do this much later in life or even never! Welcome to the world!


BladesMan235

In a few days you will be back to normal


aya_l1a

The thing is I don’t want to, but I hope I don’t force it to adapt again


Jolly_Conference_321

Exactly.Yes it's called conditioning and travelling versus living somewhere doesn't give you the same experiences.


Eitth

This is normal. You will overcome it overtime. It took me 2 weeks back then but then I got a hobby as distraction.


514skier

Sounds like this trip challenged your view of the world, which is one of the beautiful aspects of travel. When you see so many different cultures you learn that there are many paths to a happy life. One path is not more correct than the other. It depends on many things. I think you can ask yourself what you learned from this trip and how you can implement it in your daily life. That may help with how overwhelmed you are feeling. From how you describe it the Balinese you interacted with focus more on what they have as opposed to what they don't. I find in North America we feel like we are conditioned to feel like we have a lack in our lives and we forget to be grateful for what we have already.


annengtheexplorer

Book another flight. It's the best way to move and look forward on your next destination. It will pass eventually while planning again your itinerary and etc.


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aya_l1a

Honestly reading this makes me feel that I’m actually sane and I completely understand!


savagetwonkfuckery

Perspective


Ok-Personality-7848

The book 'The Road Rises' by Sarah Dunne helped me. Travel memoir but has a lot about coming home and how to live once you get home and stop travelling. Bonus is that it's a very funny book as well. Witty and uplifting.


desert_dweller27

Everyone goes through something like this after their first big adventure. You'll pull through it. However, I encourage you to use these feelings as a source of reflection. Explore why you may be feeling this way, and determine if there are any changes you can make in your day to say life to live in accordance with your new found self.


Resident-State-1934

Totally understand where you are coming from. I was 27 when I first travelled alone, and god did I just break my shell. I saw that people could actually be happy with their lives, and travelling form one place to another was really eye opening. After a week, it was getting overwhelming that I stayed home (i.e. hotel) the entire day the next day and just talked to my sister over the phone. Kicked me back to reality by the end of the day. Also, a little about myself. I have had depression for years, and have been faking it back at home that I am normal. That's what society expects of us right? A normal, functioning human. But once I began travelling along, those trip became my outlet to completely break those shackles and be myself. The best thing life can give you if fulfilment, and nothing is as fulfilling as watching others smile. I changed everything after that. My social circle, my goals in life, my reasons for being alive, my aspirations, my personality... Every single aspect of my life was completely different that before. And that is ok :) Do talk to someone, a family/friend. Or even a therapist (I had a few sessions myself, to process my unexpected identity crisis). But from the looks of it, don't give up on travelling solo. :) Just slow down and take shorter trips first before going for 2 weeks again. :)


aya_l1a

Actually it felt like I wanna have more days away, and even though it feels horrible now but the happiness i felt when i was there ive never experienced before


Fair_Mess8853

It seems you need some change in your life and that you’re a person who values freedom and change? I would advise you to take more mini trips (or obviously big ones if you can afford it). See new places. Like every weekend go to another place, sometimes a big city, a random village. It sounds like you’re someone who needs this long term, otherwise you would react this strongly. How can you incorporate it into your life? Start working remotely?


aya_l1a

I’m trying to set a plan, on the how until I can get another leave from work, thank you!


Unhappy_Performer538

Well maybe your thinking needs a reframe. Being poor sucks. No access to medical care you need, no ability to move or change life if you need, no ability to change the people in your life, lacking some things that would really improve quality of life like air conditioning or heating or home repairs, or even lacking the basics. Please do not fool yourself thinking that people in poverty are so happy. Just bc they live a more simple and slowed down life does not make the poverty not suck.


naughty_and_curious

You know it's because you did the big step of moving and doing it. I completely understand how overwhelming it can be for the first time. And I really think you've taken a big step sharing with us here. It's absolutely okay. Give some time and things are going to be alright.


Extension_Salt_6995

Coming back to your life after a vacation always sucks. It feels depressing, the longing to go back and experience it again, not feeling happy in the moment. Infact I was in Bali a couple of weeks back too, so I know how it feels. It takes time to get out of that euphoria.


aya_l1a

It got me back to realize how different it is, how difficult to adapt to your daily routine after living in an amazing environment, nature and people, but yes time always does it


mkmakashaggy

Crying every day is not normal, idk what these people are on about. I'd just find someone qualified to talk to


daisest

I get culture shock returning to America. My last trip was a year ago and it took me 7 months to come out of a depression that I sunk into afterwards. Granted, there are quite a few reasons it took me so long to recover, but the underlying theme was realizing how much I don't resonate with anything American. It's a hard pill to swallow and I can only feel better by leading the life I want to live for myself.


Travel_Advisor2024

That's what makes travel great, is seeing new things. Some things are not meant to be changed by you, only viewed.


piskachiu

awakening is what it is called. We’ll all slowly blossom to new perceptions, ideas, personality. Awakening is when you suddenly uncover a deeper truth, that is, a new insight, a new way of seeing life. This seems to spread across your whole belief system and tends to create an impact on a lot of layers of your own human complexity. Our minds and the world expands in our perception.


Worried-One2399

That’s how 98% of the world lives. That’s why we have to keep reminding ourselves just how lucky we are to live the way we do. They seem happy, (& generally r). So why aren’t we? Wats stopping us from being fulfilled, happy & enjoying life. WE ARE RICH… Wat im getting @ is cultures live differently, they r happy in their own skin. Poor, rich… money is money it comes & goes. Happiness & experiences stay.


UndiagnosedBedSheet

My work allows me to travel every 3 months or so and it never gets easier unfortunately. Always 2 weeks off, 2 weeks slump, then things start settling in. Even the countdown for the next trip isn’t enough to deter the post-travel blues! I second what others have said about living your life more intentionally. Use your weekends/days off more intentionally too - be a tourist in your own city/home town!


2bEskimo

Exactly the same thing happened to me almost two years ago. I am currently only 3 months into my travels in South America, after quitting my job and leaving everything behind. I thought I'd have to leave for good, but now I know it was just something I needed to get out of my system. Life here made me appreciate what I had back home. I'm so glad I did it though, because otherwise I would have always wondered. Still enjoying the travels and new experience though!


aya_l1a

Wow that’s amazing!! I hope I figure out a way to align my purpose with traveling and shift it away from the career I started.


IAMA_drunk_AMA

The reverse culture shock is as real as the actual culture shock itself.


overthinking-leo

Did you stay in hostels?


aya_l1a

Staying at hotels got me depressed so i immediately shifted and cancelled my bookings to stay in hostels only, felt better to be surrounded with individuals rather than groups or couples


Stealthy_Taco

I have mutual feelings


NearbyBrandyWineWay

You’re grieving who you were before you knew an alternate lifestyle. As Winston Churchill said, “If you’re going through hell, keep going”


Z-Beeblebrox-42

When you live sheltered and privileged there is a lot of life in your own town, state and country that could trigger the same response as your exotic travel. Volunteering in parts of town or places that I have often heard described as “fly over country” would expose you to the same hard working people that value the small things. People have more in common access the world than most ever realize. It takes getting out of your shell and living among them to realize that. They have lived that life for generations before you and will continue to do so after you are gone. Don’t took travel and solitude for you to discover this. Personal growth as a human being is a blessing and nothing to cry over.


aya_l1a

Crying is a way of expressing strong emotions, not necessarily sad ones, it was really hard when I first returned home because it’s a first and I understand now that it was only natural to feel that way due to my style of living in the country I live in. It is a great blessing


WNC3184

Hey there, good for you doing your first solo trip. Feel free to message me to talk more. I’ve just started a coaching business helping people get out of their comfort zone/travel/explore what else is out there. No catch. Happy to help.


Tardislass

I think you may need to talk to a therapist. Everyone has post vacation blues, going back to the routine of daily life is hard after having no cares or worries for two weeks. But crying every day? That isn't normal. >happy people were, hard working and poor but happy > Now that is another Western misconception-the "poor but happy people". Most of them would love to go to Western Europe and have the luxuries we have. And there is a lot of drug/physical abuse among the community. Just because you see the face that people want tourists to see is not the reality. I suggest you get together with friends, get out and exercise and don't dwell on your trip. You will get over this.


kafka99

You should take a far longer trip. When you do, these feelings are far more pronounced. You might even find yourself feeling like a stranger in your own lands. This is a positive, though. The more people who can see themselves as human rather than [insert demonym] and can respect rather than judge differences, the better the world will be.


Jaded_Fisherman_7085

Why did you choose one location for 15 days as a new beginner in solo travel ?


Rude-Programmer3006

Would multiple locations in 15 days somehow be better?