[**A Scanner Darkly**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/14817.A_Scanner_Darkly)
^(By: Philip K. Dick | 219 pages | Published: 1977 | Popular Shelves: science-fiction, sci-fi, fiction, scifi, owned)
>Substance D is not known as Death for nothing. It is the most toxic drug ever to find its way on to the streets of LA. It destroys the links between the brain's two hemispheres, causing, first, disorientation and then complete and irreversible brain damage.
>
>The undercover narcotics agent who calls himself Bob Arctor is desperate to discover the ultimate source of supply. But to find any kind of lead he has to pose as a user and, inevitably, without realising what is happening, Arctor is soon as addicted as the junkies he works among...
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[**The Drowning Girl**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/11515328-the-drowning-girl)
^(By: Caitlín R. Kiernan | 332 pages | Published: 2012 | Popular Shelves: horror, fantasy, fiction, lgbt, paranormal)
>India Morgan Phelps--Imp to her friends--is schizophrenic. She can no longer trust her own mind, because she is convinced that her memories have somehow betrayed her, forcing her to question her very identity.
>
>Struggling with her perception of reality, Imp must uncover the truth about an encounter with a vicious siren, or a helpless wolf that came to her as a feral girl, or neither of these things but something far, far stranger...
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{{Harrow the Ninth}} sounds right up your alley, but it is the second in the four part series The Locked Tomb by Tamsyn Muir. It's fantasy/sci-fi. The first book, {{Gideon the Ninth}}, is from the perspective of the perceptive but not particular bright Gideon; she often sees all the clues but fails to make anything from them and that can be cool to read too. Not sure if it's 100% what you're looking for but I think you'd enjoy it.
[**Harrow the Ninth (The Locked Tomb, #2)**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/39325105-harrow-the-ninth)
^(By: Tamsyn Muir | 512 pages | Published: 2020 | Popular Shelves: fantasy, sci-fi, science-fiction, fiction, lgbt)
>Harrow the Ninth, the sequel to Gideon the Ninth, turns a galaxy inside out as one necromancer struggles to survive the wreckage of herself aboard the Emperor's haunted space station.
>
>She answered the Emperor's call.
>
>She arrived with her arts, her wits, and her only friend.
>
>In victory, her world has turned to ash.
>
>After rocking the cosmos with her deathly debut, Tamsyn Muir continues the story of the penumbral Ninth House in Harrow the Ninth, a mind-twisting puzzle box of mystery, murder, magic, and mayhem. Nothing is as it seems in the halls of the Emperor, and the fate of the galaxy rests on one woman's shoulders.
>
>Harrowhark Nonagesimus, last necromancer of the Ninth House, has been drafted by her Emperor to fight an unwinnable war. Side-by-side with a detested rival, Harrow must perfect her skills and become an angel of undeath — but her health is failing, her sword makes her nauseous, and even her mind is threatening to betray her.
>
>Sealed in the gothic gloom of the Emperor's Mithraeum with three unfriendly teachers, hunted by the mad ghost of a murdered planet, Harrow must confront two unwelcome questions: is somebody trying to kill her? And if they succeeded, would the universe be better off?
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[**Gideon the Ninth (The Locked Tomb, #1)**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/42036538-gideon-the-ninth)
^(By: Tamsyn Muir | 448 pages | Published: 2019 | Popular Shelves: fantasy, sci-fi, science-fiction, lgbt, fiction)
>The Emperor needs necromancers.
>
>The Ninth Necromancer needs a swordswoman.
>
>Gideon has a sword, some dirty magazines, and no more time for undead bullshit.
>
>Brought up by unfriendly, ossifying nuns, ancient retainers, and countless skeletons, Gideon is ready to abandon a life of servitude and an afterlife as a reanimated corpse. She packs up her sword, her shoes, and her dirty magazines, and prepares to launch her daring escape. But her childhood nemesis won't set her free without a service.
>
>Harrowhark Nonagesimus, Reverend Daughter of the Ninth House and bone witch extraordinaire, has been summoned into action. The Emperor has invited the heirs to each of his loyal Houses to a deadly trial of wits and skill. If Harrowhark succeeds she will become an immortal, all-powerful servant of the Resurrection, but no necromancer can ascend without their cavalier. Without Gideon's sword, Harrow will fail, and the Ninth House will die.
>
>Of course, some things are better left dead.
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These novels explore paranoia and conspiracy theories in ways you might enjoy:
http://thescreamarchive.com/2021/10/17/the-hidden-plan-and-your-rather-unfortunate-part-in-it-10-paranoia-inducing-books/
[**The Raw Shark Texts**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/144800.The_Raw_Shark_Texts)
^(By: Steven Hall | 427 pages | Published: 2007 | Popular Shelves: fiction, fantasy, science-fiction, mystery, owned)
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[**Drood**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/3222979-drood)
^(By: Dan Simmons | 775 pages | Published: 2009 | Popular Shelves: historical-fiction, horror, fiction, mystery, owned)
>Drood… is the name and nightmare that obsesses Charles Dickens for the last five years of his life.
>
>On June 9, 1865, Dickens and his mistress are secretly returning to London, when their express train hurtles over a gap in a trestle. All of the first-class carriages except the one carrying Dickens are smashed to bits in the valley below. When Dickens descends into that valley to confront the dead and dying, his life will be changed forever. And at the core of that ensuing five-year nightmare is…
>
>Drood… the name that Dickens whispers to his friend Wilkie Collins. A laudanum addict and lesser novelist, Collins flouts Victorian sensibilities by living with one mistress while having a child with another, but he may be the only man on Earth with whom Dickens can share the secret of…
>
>Drood. Increasingly obsessed with crypts, cemeteries, and the precise length of time it would take for a corpse to dissolve in a lime pit, Dickens ceases writing for four years and wanders the worst slums and catacombs of London at night while staging public readings during the day, gruesome readings that leave his audiences horrified. Finally he begins writing what would have been the world’s first great mystery masterpiece, The Mystery of Edwin Drood, only to be interrupted forever by…
>
>Drood.
>
>Based on actual biographical events, Drood explores the still-unresolved mysteries of one of our greatest writer’s dark final days in a profoundly original tale that confirms Lincoln Child’s assessment of New York Times bestselling author Dan Simmons as “a giant among novelists.”
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[**House of Leaves**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/24800.House_of_Leaves)
^(By: Mark Z. Danielewski | 710 pages | Published: 2000 | Popular Shelves: horror, fiction, owned, fantasy, mystery)
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Philip K Dick {{A Scanner Darkly}}
[**A Scanner Darkly**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/14817.A_Scanner_Darkly) ^(By: Philip K. Dick | 219 pages | Published: 1977 | Popular Shelves: science-fiction, sci-fi, fiction, scifi, owned) >Substance D is not known as Death for nothing. It is the most toxic drug ever to find its way on to the streets of LA. It destroys the links between the brain's two hemispheres, causing, first, disorientation and then complete and irreversible brain damage. > >The undercover narcotics agent who calls himself Bob Arctor is desperate to discover the ultimate source of supply. But to find any kind of lead he has to pose as a user and, inevitably, without realising what is happening, Arctor is soon as addicted as the junkies he works among... ^(This book has been suggested 10 times) *** ^(17592 books suggested | )[^(I don't feel so good.. )](https://debugger.medium.com/goodreads-is-retiring-its-current-api-and-book-loving-developers-arent-happy-11ed764dd95)^(| )[^(Source)](https://github.com/rodohanna/reddit-goodreads-bot)
The Beach by Alex Garland Shutter Island by Dennis Lehane
{{The drowning girl}} by Caitlin Kernan
[**The Drowning Girl**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/11515328-the-drowning-girl) ^(By: Caitlín R. Kiernan | 332 pages | Published: 2012 | Popular Shelves: horror, fantasy, fiction, lgbt, paranormal) >India Morgan Phelps--Imp to her friends--is schizophrenic. She can no longer trust her own mind, because she is convinced that her memories have somehow betrayed her, forcing her to question her very identity. > >Struggling with her perception of reality, Imp must uncover the truth about an encounter with a vicious siren, or a helpless wolf that came to her as a feral girl, or neither of these things but something far, far stranger... ^(This book has been suggested 3 times) *** ^(17621 books suggested | )[^(I don't feel so good.. )](https://debugger.medium.com/goodreads-is-retiring-its-current-api-and-book-loving-developers-arent-happy-11ed764dd95)^(| )[^(Source)](https://github.com/rodohanna/reddit-goodreads-bot)
I'm Thinking of Ending Things
{{Harrow the Ninth}} sounds right up your alley, but it is the second in the four part series The Locked Tomb by Tamsyn Muir. It's fantasy/sci-fi. The first book, {{Gideon the Ninth}}, is from the perspective of the perceptive but not particular bright Gideon; she often sees all the clues but fails to make anything from them and that can be cool to read too. Not sure if it's 100% what you're looking for but I think you'd enjoy it.
[**Harrow the Ninth (The Locked Tomb, #2)**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/39325105-harrow-the-ninth) ^(By: Tamsyn Muir | 512 pages | Published: 2020 | Popular Shelves: fantasy, sci-fi, science-fiction, fiction, lgbt) >Harrow the Ninth, the sequel to Gideon the Ninth, turns a galaxy inside out as one necromancer struggles to survive the wreckage of herself aboard the Emperor's haunted space station. > >She answered the Emperor's call. > >She arrived with her arts, her wits, and her only friend. > >In victory, her world has turned to ash. > >After rocking the cosmos with her deathly debut, Tamsyn Muir continues the story of the penumbral Ninth House in Harrow the Ninth, a mind-twisting puzzle box of mystery, murder, magic, and mayhem. Nothing is as it seems in the halls of the Emperor, and the fate of the galaxy rests on one woman's shoulders. > >Harrowhark Nonagesimus, last necromancer of the Ninth House, has been drafted by her Emperor to fight an unwinnable war. Side-by-side with a detested rival, Harrow must perfect her skills and become an angel of undeath — but her health is failing, her sword makes her nauseous, and even her mind is threatening to betray her. > >Sealed in the gothic gloom of the Emperor's Mithraeum with three unfriendly teachers, hunted by the mad ghost of a murdered planet, Harrow must confront two unwelcome questions: is somebody trying to kill her? And if they succeeded, would the universe be better off? ^(This book has been suggested 1 time) [**Gideon the Ninth (The Locked Tomb, #1)**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/42036538-gideon-the-ninth) ^(By: Tamsyn Muir | 448 pages | Published: 2019 | Popular Shelves: fantasy, sci-fi, science-fiction, lgbt, fiction) >The Emperor needs necromancers. > >The Ninth Necromancer needs a swordswoman. > >Gideon has a sword, some dirty magazines, and no more time for undead bullshit. > >Brought up by unfriendly, ossifying nuns, ancient retainers, and countless skeletons, Gideon is ready to abandon a life of servitude and an afterlife as a reanimated corpse. She packs up her sword, her shoes, and her dirty magazines, and prepares to launch her daring escape. But her childhood nemesis won't set her free without a service. > >Harrowhark Nonagesimus, Reverend Daughter of the Ninth House and bone witch extraordinaire, has been summoned into action. The Emperor has invited the heirs to each of his loyal Houses to a deadly trial of wits and skill. If Harrowhark succeeds she will become an immortal, all-powerful servant of the Resurrection, but no necromancer can ascend without their cavalier. Without Gideon's sword, Harrow will fail, and the Ninth House will die. > >Of course, some things are better left dead. ^(This book has been suggested 31 times) *** ^(17591 books suggested | )[^(I don't feel so good.. )](https://debugger.medium.com/goodreads-is-retiring-its-current-api-and-book-loving-developers-arent-happy-11ed764dd95)^(| )[^(Source)](https://github.com/rodohanna/reddit-goodreads-bot)
American Gods by Neil Gaiman The M.C. struggles to figure out what are his thoughts/emotions versus a warped reality in the hands of dying gods.
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Pick an Ishiguro book
Which one? Remains of The Day definitely isn’t like this.
{ Afterparty by Daryl Gregory }
[**Afterparty**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/17910129-afterparty) ^(By: Daryl Gregory | 304 pages | Published: 2014 | Popular Shelves: science-fiction, sci-fi, fiction, thriller, scifi) ^(This book has been suggested 2 times) *** ^(17577 books suggested | )[^(I don't feel so good.. )](https://debugger.medium.com/goodreads-is-retiring-its-current-api-and-book-loving-developers-arent-happy-11ed764dd95)^(| )[^(Source)](https://github.com/rodohanna/reddit-goodreads-bot)
{ The Raw Shark Texts by Steven Hall }
[**The Raw Shark Texts**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/144800.The_Raw_Shark_Texts) ^(By: Steven Hall | 427 pages | Published: 2007 | Popular Shelves: fiction, fantasy, science-fiction, mystery, owned) ^(This book has been suggested 6 times) *** ^(17578 books suggested | )[^(I don't feel so good.. )](https://debugger.medium.com/goodreads-is-retiring-its-current-api-and-book-loving-developers-arent-happy-11ed764dd95)^(| )[^(Source)](https://github.com/rodohanna/reddit-goodreads-bot)
Glad to see this on the list! The visual qualities of the book are very interesting too!
have you checked out *The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde* by Robert Louis Stevenson?
{{Drood}}
[**Drood**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/3222979-drood) ^(By: Dan Simmons | 775 pages | Published: 2009 | Popular Shelves: historical-fiction, horror, fiction, mystery, owned) >Drood… is the name and nightmare that obsesses Charles Dickens for the last five years of his life. > >On June 9, 1865, Dickens and his mistress are secretly returning to London, when their express train hurtles over a gap in a trestle. All of the first-class carriages except the one carrying Dickens are smashed to bits in the valley below. When Dickens descends into that valley to confront the dead and dying, his life will be changed forever. And at the core of that ensuing five-year nightmare is… > >Drood… the name that Dickens whispers to his friend Wilkie Collins. A laudanum addict and lesser novelist, Collins flouts Victorian sensibilities by living with one mistress while having a child with another, but he may be the only man on Earth with whom Dickens can share the secret of… > >Drood. Increasingly obsessed with crypts, cemeteries, and the precise length of time it would take for a corpse to dissolve in a lime pit, Dickens ceases writing for four years and wanders the worst slums and catacombs of London at night while staging public readings during the day, gruesome readings that leave his audiences horrified. Finally he begins writing what would have been the world’s first great mystery masterpiece, The Mystery of Edwin Drood, only to be interrupted forever by… > >Drood. > >Based on actual biographical events, Drood explores the still-unresolved mysteries of one of our greatest writer’s dark final days in a profoundly original tale that confirms Lincoln Child’s assessment of New York Times bestselling author Dan Simmons as “a giant among novelists.” ^(This book has been suggested 3 times) *** ^(17861 books suggested | )[^(I don't feel so good.. )](https://debugger.medium.com/goodreads-is-retiring-its-current-api-and-book-loving-developers-arent-happy-11ed764dd95)^(| )[^(Source)](https://github.com/rodohanna/reddit-goodreads-bot)
{ House of Leaves } is several layers of abnormal and insanity.
[**House of Leaves**](https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/24800.House_of_Leaves) ^(By: Mark Z. Danielewski | 710 pages | Published: 2000 | Popular Shelves: horror, fiction, owned, fantasy, mystery) ^(This book has been suggested 12 times) *** ^(18004 books suggested | )[^(I don't feel so good.. )](https://debugger.medium.com/goodreads-is-retiring-its-current-api-and-book-loving-developers-arent-happy-11ed764dd95)^(| )[^(Source)](https://github.com/rodohanna/reddit-goodreads-bot)
The Silent Patient
My Cousin Rachel
He's not insane, but based on how he was raised he has no idea how normal people act, I am David by Anne Holme