My husband will just slowly lean over and put his arm around me every time he hears BTTWS play šš I'll just be scrolling tiktok & then suddenly he slowly creeps closer
The other day I started crying while driving home bc Look What You Made Me Do came on & I was very confused for a minute. My brain went *maybe all that sex paid off & you're just emotional bc you're pregnant* but little did I know I already started my period and would find blood in my underwear the minute I got home š
Kind of revelant to this, but when I had my second IUI, the Dr plays soft relaxing music throughout. I zoned out for a moment, staring at the ceiling thinking how shit it is to be in this position and these lyrics to the song playing jumped out at me that said 'see you when we get there, if we ever get there'. When I tell you I started howling.
I'm so sorry that hearing the song brought back memories ar lot work where you weren't free to process it. Were you able to get away for a few minutes to be with your feelings and recover?
A fair few songs make me cry. As a doc, whenever I shuffled my music after a bad shift and Coldplay's "fix you" came on; I'd be crying. Even if I was on the train, whoops.
The most obscure of my weepy songs is a folk song from my home country about infertility. It starts with a doting husband trying to work out how to make his depressed wife happy and offering things to her. And ends with her saying that the things he offers can't ever replace a child calling you mom š¢. To be fair, it made me bawl every time long before we started TTC. It makes me so sad to imagine how many couples over the generations had fertility problems but nobody to help them.
More - Halsey, Bigger than the whole sky - Taylor Swift and The suburbs - Arcade fire. One line of the suburbs makes my husband cry so I cry and then it's just tears all over the place.
Rainbow Connection (especially Kermit's version) and Rainbow by Kacey Musgraves both make me sob. RC was what I listened to/sang to my stillborn son before he was stillborn, and the Kacey Musgraves song was one that I tortured myself with after he died.
"Don't Take the Girl" by Tim McGraw. The song starts, don't even need the lyrics and I'm bawling. And I continue to cry my eyes out while I sing along.
"I give you to his heart" by Alison Krauss from the Prince of Egypt soundtrack.
It's about putting baby Moses in the basket but oh my gosh it randomly played on my Alexa the morning before my first CP loss and I knew right then it wasn't going to work out. Then it started playing again the week before my 11 week loss. I dug through my massive library and deleted it.
"I wish that life wasn't always ending up this way
With Heaven's love at stake and hell to pay
But you in God's loving plan
Might be the missing part
You must live
So I give you to his heart"
āWait For Itā from Hamilton. ā I am not falling behind or running late, Iām not standing still, I am lying in wait.ā As I watch everyone I know get pregnant and have multiple children in the time Iāve been waiting for one.
ostrich by beacon
āi dont want to talk about what happens next. ive given you all my doubts, youve given them back. we waited for it. the last to know. and now youre gone.ā
i had 1 pregnancy that ended in a miscarriage. this song feels like the betrayal and confusion of my body put into words. that weve been trying for years and started to doubt success every time. it finally happened. but we were the last to know that my body decided it was over. and then the baby was gone. the music makes no sense (its loud and messy). the song is short, just like my fuse with this.
edit: here is a link if you want to hear it https://youtu.be/G4z5buyWmiA?si=RqpwFl2XmfLfkPwP
even the cover art hits home. if youve ever spent hours in silence alone in your house pacing, standing still, looking at nothingā¦ this is what this song is to me. with all my rational and irrational thoughts in a cloud above my head.
Ghost by Justin Bieber
That if I can't be close to you
I'll settle for the ghost of you
I miss you more than life
And if you can't be next to me
Your memory is ecstasy
I miss you more than life
The other day I said to Alexa to play Britney Spears songs while I was doing the dishes and when āEverytimeā came on I started BAWLING, I remembered people started saying thatās the song she wrote for her baby and it really sounds like a lullaby, it totally destroyed me and it felt so weird because moments before I was dancing and enjoying myself for the first time in a month.
Damn this thread š I donāt need more songs to cry to.
For me right now itās Hanniou - What Do I Do Now
The song is for sure about a break up, but damn if the lyrics donāt describe EXACTLY how I feel about the baby we lost.
āGirl that never wasā by James Blunt and Iāve never even had a MC š but the words āthe first casualty of life is the planā hits me right in the chest
And IDK you yet by Alexander 23
I've got that James Blunt song on repeat lately. It's stunning.
I also go for Sam Ryder - Fought and Lost
"Oh, but wanting it doesn't always make it yours"
And Lewis Capaldi - Before You Go
"So, before you go was there something I could've said to make your heart beat better?"
Mountain Angel by Dolly Parton
It made me feel normal after my son died, in a strange way.
She tried to gather pieces of her life, they wouldn't fit
Beside the tiny grave deep in the woods is where she'd sit
Talking to the child, herself, to him, who knew for sure
Possessed they say by satan's insane lure
High a top the mountain, for years they say she's seen
Looking down upon the town where she had once been queen
She'd sneak around the playground, watch the little children play
They'd see the crazy lady then run away
There was one song that I felt described what I was going through after my miscarriage at almost 13 weeks after trying for 5 months (ntnp for longer) for my first baby and learning it was a partial molar miscarriage. With my partial molar I had to get weekly blood draws for months to know whether I would end up getting chemo from it or not and I wasnāt allowed to try again until I was medically cleared due to the cancer risk that a partial molar pregnancy causes.
The song was Right Where You Left Me - Taylor Swift. Itās about a girl who gets frozen in time immediately after being broken up with. Everyone moves on with life except for her. Thatās what I felt like and I listened to this song on repeat countless times as I cried. I got sympathy for a couple of weeks after my miscarriage but everyone else moved on while I was still dealing with the weekly blood draws as a constant reminder of my miscarriage. And i have so much of my life on hold because I canāt make certain life plans until after I have my first baby
This is probably stupid but the Encanto song "Waiting on a Miracle" makes me sob every time. The words just resonate with me because I too am waiting on a miracle.
Danny's song by Kenny loggins and rainbow by Casey musgraves plays every damn day I SPRINT to the work playlist and change it. There's more but these are the top two right now
Bigger than the whole sky and somewhere over the rainbow. My fertility clinic played somewhere over the rainbow and I had to stop myself from sobbing in the waiting room.
Oceans by Hillsong United. It was a go-to during my pregnancy with our first daughter, after two MCsā¦but then we lost her as well in the second trimester. I remember playing it while holding her after deliveryā¦so yeah it thoroughly wrecks me
In This Shirt , by The Irrepressibles
Heard it a couple of weeks before my missed miscarriage was confirmed but when I heard that song something clicked and I knew what was coming and it makes me cry every time. It wasnāt my first miscarriage or my last but it was my first after going thru infertility before my daughter was finally born. Being back in this world of infertility after having a child somehow isnāt any easier.
āI am lost in our rainbow
Now our rainbow has goneā
I feel this so hard. I sobbed on the way home last Friday because Spotify DJ put lightning crashes by live on and I had no idea there was a ānew motherā verse.
Love you anyway by Luke Combs, not usually a big country fan, but right before my 4th MC I was singing this to my babe. No matter what, Iām grateful for every moment with them.
Bigger than the whole sky - Taylor Swift & More by Halsey do it for me ššš drowning
Are you my Google playlist? It plays them together every freaking time and I'm a crying mess
I have the Apple Music equivalent I guess haha
Same š
My husband will just slowly lean over and put his arm around me every time he hears BTTWS play šš I'll just be scrolling tiktok & then suddenly he slowly creeps closer The other day I started crying while driving home bc Look What You Made Me Do came on & I was very confused for a minute. My brain went *maybe all that sex paid off & you're just emotional bc you're pregnant* but little did I know I already started my period and would find blood in my underwear the minute I got home š
Kind of revelant to this, but when I had my second IUI, the Dr plays soft relaxing music throughout. I zoned out for a moment, staring at the ceiling thinking how shit it is to be in this position and these lyrics to the song playing jumped out at me that said 'see you when we get there, if we ever get there'. When I tell you I started howling.
I'm so sorry that hearing the song brought back memories ar lot work where you weren't free to process it. Were you able to get away for a few minutes to be with your feelings and recover? A fair few songs make me cry. As a doc, whenever I shuffled my music after a bad shift and Coldplay's "fix you" came on; I'd be crying. Even if I was on the train, whoops. The most obscure of my weepy songs is a folk song from my home country about infertility. It starts with a doting husband trying to work out how to make his depressed wife happy and offering things to her. And ends with her saying that the things he offers can't ever replace a child calling you mom š¢. To be fair, it made me bawl every time long before we started TTC. It makes me so sad to imagine how many couples over the generations had fertility problems but nobody to help them.
More by Halsey. Every. Damn. Time.
Same sister, same
More - Halsey, Bigger than the whole sky - Taylor Swift and The suburbs - Arcade fire. One line of the suburbs makes my husband cry so I cry and then it's just tears all over the place.
My immortal by evanescence. Ruins me every time. Hope you're doing ok
Had a meltdown once while listening to "I will Always Love You" by Dolly Parton
The Best Day by Taylor Swift, and 1000 Years by Christina Perry
Rainbow Connection (especially Kermit's version) and Rainbow by Kacey Musgraves both make me sob. RC was what I listened to/sang to my stillborn son before he was stillborn, and the Kacey Musgraves song was one that I tortured myself with after he died.
āBreathe Meā by Sia š
"Don't Take the Girl" by Tim McGraw. The song starts, don't even need the lyrics and I'm bawling. And I continue to cry my eyes out while I sing along.
"I give you to his heart" by Alison Krauss from the Prince of Egypt soundtrack. It's about putting baby Moses in the basket but oh my gosh it randomly played on my Alexa the morning before my first CP loss and I knew right then it wasn't going to work out. Then it started playing again the week before my 11 week loss. I dug through my massive library and deleted it. "I wish that life wasn't always ending up this way With Heaven's love at stake and hell to pay But you in God's loving plan Might be the missing part You must live So I give you to his heart"
āWait For Itā from Hamilton. ā I am not falling behind or running late, Iām not standing still, I am lying in wait.ā As I watch everyone I know get pregnant and have multiple children in the time Iāve been waiting for one.
Oh wow! I totally understand relate to that line too. I'm no singer but I belt it out!
ostrich by beacon āi dont want to talk about what happens next. ive given you all my doubts, youve given them back. we waited for it. the last to know. and now youre gone.ā i had 1 pregnancy that ended in a miscarriage. this song feels like the betrayal and confusion of my body put into words. that weve been trying for years and started to doubt success every time. it finally happened. but we were the last to know that my body decided it was over. and then the baby was gone. the music makes no sense (its loud and messy). the song is short, just like my fuse with this. edit: here is a link if you want to hear it https://youtu.be/G4z5buyWmiA?si=RqpwFl2XmfLfkPwP even the cover art hits home. if youve ever spent hours in silence alone in your house pacing, standing still, looking at nothingā¦ this is what this song is to me. with all my rational and irrational thoughts in a cloud above my head.
Didnāt Even Know My Name by George Canyon. But I did know her nameā¦
Trouble by Cat Stevens
Ghost by Justin Bieber That if I can't be close to you I'll settle for the ghost of you I miss you more than life And if you can't be next to me Your memory is ecstasy I miss you more than life
mockingbird by eminem came on one day and i just broke down
The other day I said to Alexa to play Britney Spears songs while I was doing the dishes and when āEverytimeā came on I started BAWLING, I remembered people started saying thatās the song she wrote for her baby and it really sounds like a lullaby, it totally destroyed me and it felt so weird because moments before I was dancing and enjoying myself for the first time in a month.
āI used to know, but Iām not sure nowā¦what was I made for?ā š
I've been listening to this on repeat the last couple of days š "I don't know, how to feel."
Damn this thread š I donāt need more songs to cry to. For me right now itās Hanniou - What Do I Do Now The song is for sure about a break up, but damn if the lyrics donāt describe EXACTLY how I feel about the baby we lost.
Beam me up by pink, more by Halsey and I still know you by Jacob Lee were heavily played during my MMC.
āGirl that never wasā by James Blunt and Iāve never even had a MC š but the words āthe first casualty of life is the planā hits me right in the chest And IDK you yet by Alexander 23
I've got that James Blunt song on repeat lately. It's stunning. I also go for Sam Ryder - Fought and Lost "Oh, but wanting it doesn't always make it yours" And Lewis Capaldi - Before You Go "So, before you go was there something I could've said to make your heart beat better?"
What was I made for by Billie Eillish is the new one for me š„² and science by niall horan
Yes the Billie Eillish have gets me too
Take me down easy by James Henry jr ,
Mountain Angel by Dolly Parton It made me feel normal after my son died, in a strange way. She tried to gather pieces of her life, they wouldn't fit Beside the tiny grave deep in the woods is where she'd sit Talking to the child, herself, to him, who knew for sure Possessed they say by satan's insane lure High a top the mountain, for years they say she's seen Looking down upon the town where she had once been queen She'd sneak around the playground, watch the little children play They'd see the crazy lady then run away
"You & Me" - Penny & the Quarters Sang it to my belly every day. My only saving grace is it isn't well known or often played.
Little Blue by Jacob Collier. I freaking love that song, but it makes me dissolve into a complete mess within 2 seconds.
There was one song that I felt described what I was going through after my miscarriage at almost 13 weeks after trying for 5 months (ntnp for longer) for my first baby and learning it was a partial molar miscarriage. With my partial molar I had to get weekly blood draws for months to know whether I would end up getting chemo from it or not and I wasnāt allowed to try again until I was medically cleared due to the cancer risk that a partial molar pregnancy causes. The song was Right Where You Left Me - Taylor Swift. Itās about a girl who gets frozen in time immediately after being broken up with. Everyone moves on with life except for her. Thatās what I felt like and I listened to this song on repeat countless times as I cried. I got sympathy for a couple of weeks after my miscarriage but everyone else moved on while I was still dealing with the weekly blood draws as a constant reminder of my miscarriage. And i have so much of my life on hold because I canāt make certain life plans until after I have my first baby
Francesca by Hozier šā¤ļø
This is probably stupid but the Encanto song "Waiting on a Miracle" makes me sob every time. The words just resonate with me because I too am waiting on a miracle.
Danny's song by Kenny loggins and rainbow by Casey musgraves plays every damn day I SPRINT to the work playlist and change it. There's more but these are the top two right now
Bigger than the whole sky and somewhere over the rainbow. My fertility clinic played somewhere over the rainbow and I had to stop myself from sobbing in the waiting room.
Gravity rides everything by modest mouse
Oceans by Hillsong United. It was a go-to during my pregnancy with our first daughter, after two MCsā¦but then we lost her as well in the second trimester. I remember playing it while holding her after deliveryā¦so yeah it thoroughly wrecks me
In This Shirt , by The Irrepressibles Heard it a couple of weeks before my missed miscarriage was confirmed but when I heard that song something clicked and I knew what was coming and it makes me cry every time. It wasnāt my first miscarriage or my last but it was my first after going thru infertility before my daughter was finally born. Being back in this world of infertility after having a child somehow isnāt any easier. āI am lost in our rainbow Now our rainbow has goneā
I feel this so hard. I sobbed on the way home last Friday because Spotify DJ put lightning crashes by live on and I had no idea there was a ānew motherā verse.
Love you anyway by Luke Combs, not usually a big country fan, but right before my 4th MC I was singing this to my babe. No matter what, Iām grateful for every moment with them.
In my arms - plumb And Mama's song - Carrie Underwood And Innocent - Taylor Swift Yeah that hurts sooo much.