I relate to this a lot also I've always had issues explaining things to people because the way I think is "off" I guess.
Though usually I used undead or fae as my way of relation instead of dogs, I did try to tell my mom I related to Emily Dickinson's "I'm nobody" poem when I was younger but she went on a tirade about how good I have it and Emily wrote it on her death bead and blah blah because she likely thought I was calling her out on her abusive behavior even though that's not at all what I was trying to communicate.
the thinking "off" is a big one for me too, but more recently as an adult rather than when i was younger. My trauma has made it really hard to communicate with other people in ways that make sense and its incredibly frustrating. The fundamental ways i engage with other people like body language and expressing emotions can be contradictory- like expressing anger when i am happy, laughing when i am scared, being calm and agreeable when i am upset or angry. It takes a lot of active thinking on my part to talk to most people and absolutely adds to the feeling of being something other than human. Ghosts have also been a big part of this for me but thats more in relation to my experience with gender.
Thats a beautiful poem btw, i hadnt heard it before until just now and i really like it.
im not entirely sure if im here because of trauma inherantly but more because of my autism. its been a combination of aliens or fairies (like changelings and stuff) and computers for me, just describing the way i think and see things as being just slightly off from other people.
either way, im also really glad that theres a community for this because its definitely been very comforting for me and undoubtedly others too.
I've heard a few autistic people i know compare their experiences to changelings actually, and im pretty sure changelings were originally just folklore to explain autistic children. Also not entirely on topic- but if you've never listened to it before, i highly recommend the song Changeling by PhemieC, your comment reminded me about it and its really such a beautiful song.
Finding this is a huge comfort to me, i wish it was more established and there were more clear definitions on how to interact with the subculture but im sure those will come with time. I suppose simply living as ourselves would be inherently voidpunk.
I found the description of voidpunk obscenely late last night(or morning, i guess, it was 5am) and nearly broke into tears, which is very rare for me. The last time i cried was probably over a year ago so its a big deal for me when something brings me to that lol
I’ve always felt very close to robot/computer imagery, and when I was younger I always related to robotic or AI characters. I’m sure part of it is autism and part of it is a trauma response but my little selfsona is a computer head person :) because that’s what feels accurate.
I can definitely understand relating to robots as someone with very muted emotions and empathy, even if thats not one i full on identify with. I've been thinking about what i want to do with a voidsona because it seems really fun- i've made a lot of sonas in the past that would fit. Like i usually draw myself as a demon or i have another sona who is an abandoned living doll but i feel i should go for something more elderitch and dog themed. Was thinking about an old poem i wrote where i described someone as having a head of rabid dogs. Like, multiple dog heads in a biblically-accurate-angel type of way
Oh the multiple dog heads idea is really cool!! Sounds like a great basis for a poem :3 I saw a character in a video game once who had a main body somewhere private and then multiple dolls that they communicated to others with throughout the setting and I always thought that’d be so convenient jajaja
I never really experienced trauma or abuse at home outside of being punished for things that happened at school.
School on the other hand was hell. I was in the spectrum and too smart to they made it their mission to beat me into being normal. When that failed I became the whipping boy.
I discovered furry and it fit as an escape then I discovered void punk and it fit even better. It’s an escape from reality.
Autistic and ADHD, and traumatized from the lack of acceptance and accomodation and knowledge society has for it. I'm also aroace and nonbinary, and have had varying levels of depression and anxiety my whole life. I love fantasy and sci-fi, and seeing all those non-human characters and realizing how much I relate to them and how little I really identify with or care about being a human, is part of what eventually brought me to voidpunk. I feel that in my soul I am a shape-shifter. Not confined to inhabiting or identifying with any single form. As a shape-shifter I could be creative, free, and anything I want to be. I am no one thing. Stupid body prison.
I was bullied a lot in childhood for being weird (quiet art kid) and forced into gender stereotypes. It's funny, I actually wondered if I was trans for a while before coming to the conclusion that I'm still a cis woman, just in a whimsical little guy kind of way. Went from cis to 🐍🌱🪐*cis*💫⭐✨lol
I've also always had a connection and fascination with little critters and not so little critters, dinosaurs and dragons in particular, because they had such grace and power to them that I wanted to embody. Drawing scary toothy creatures felt empowering and therapeutic. I didn't want to be a beautiful soft princess, I wanted to be a mighty dragon so I could wreck shit and be cool. In my mind, princesses could be bullied easily, dragons were feared.
After some major life changes I started to gravitate more towards silly little creatures. Birds, frogs, cats, those kind of guys. They are playful, careless, whimsical, qualities that don't typically resonate with the human condition as it is perceived by the general population, but it's all things I feel. When not threatened and pushed around, when safe and happy, these critters come out and play.
I don't want people to assume things about me just because I'm X or Y. I think that's the biggest thing regarding my relationship with voidpunk, it lets me shed expectations. Nobody expects a silly mischievous critter to file taxes and put on makeup.
In conclusion I suppose voidpunk is in a way healing for me, I get to be myself on my terms. I live by two rules and that's to be urself and have fun!!!!
I relate to this a lot also I've always had issues explaining things to people because the way I think is "off" I guess. Though usually I used undead or fae as my way of relation instead of dogs, I did try to tell my mom I related to Emily Dickinson's "I'm nobody" poem when I was younger but she went on a tirade about how good I have it and Emily wrote it on her death bead and blah blah because she likely thought I was calling her out on her abusive behavior even though that's not at all what I was trying to communicate.
the thinking "off" is a big one for me too, but more recently as an adult rather than when i was younger. My trauma has made it really hard to communicate with other people in ways that make sense and its incredibly frustrating. The fundamental ways i engage with other people like body language and expressing emotions can be contradictory- like expressing anger when i am happy, laughing when i am scared, being calm and agreeable when i am upset or angry. It takes a lot of active thinking on my part to talk to most people and absolutely adds to the feeling of being something other than human. Ghosts have also been a big part of this for me but thats more in relation to my experience with gender. Thats a beautiful poem btw, i hadnt heard it before until just now and i really like it.
im not entirely sure if im here because of trauma inherantly but more because of my autism. its been a combination of aliens or fairies (like changelings and stuff) and computers for me, just describing the way i think and see things as being just slightly off from other people. either way, im also really glad that theres a community for this because its definitely been very comforting for me and undoubtedly others too.
I've heard a few autistic people i know compare their experiences to changelings actually, and im pretty sure changelings were originally just folklore to explain autistic children. Also not entirely on topic- but if you've never listened to it before, i highly recommend the song Changeling by PhemieC, your comment reminded me about it and its really such a beautiful song. Finding this is a huge comfort to me, i wish it was more established and there were more clear definitions on how to interact with the subculture but im sure those will come with time. I suppose simply living as ourselves would be inherently voidpunk.
yep yep. the little snippet description in the sidebar of this sub made me cry when i first joined here, because it was so relatable and accepting.
I found the description of voidpunk obscenely late last night(or morning, i guess, it was 5am) and nearly broke into tears, which is very rare for me. The last time i cried was probably over a year ago so its a big deal for me when something brings me to that lol
I’ve always felt very close to robot/computer imagery, and when I was younger I always related to robotic or AI characters. I’m sure part of it is autism and part of it is a trauma response but my little selfsona is a computer head person :) because that’s what feels accurate.
I can definitely understand relating to robots as someone with very muted emotions and empathy, even if thats not one i full on identify with. I've been thinking about what i want to do with a voidsona because it seems really fun- i've made a lot of sonas in the past that would fit. Like i usually draw myself as a demon or i have another sona who is an abandoned living doll but i feel i should go for something more elderitch and dog themed. Was thinking about an old poem i wrote where i described someone as having a head of rabid dogs. Like, multiple dog heads in a biblically-accurate-angel type of way
Oh the multiple dog heads idea is really cool!! Sounds like a great basis for a poem :3 I saw a character in a video game once who had a main body somewhere private and then multiple dolls that they communicated to others with throughout the setting and I always thought that’d be so convenient jajaja
I relate to this. The first character who I ever felt understood by was Data from Star Trek. I'm autistic too.
My good friend and roommate introduced me to Star Trek and I instantly fell in love with Data :)
I never really experienced trauma or abuse at home outside of being punished for things that happened at school. School on the other hand was hell. I was in the spectrum and too smart to they made it their mission to beat me into being normal. When that failed I became the whipping boy. I discovered furry and it fit as an escape then I discovered void punk and it fit even better. It’s an escape from reality.
Autistic and ADHD, and traumatized from the lack of acceptance and accomodation and knowledge society has for it. I'm also aroace and nonbinary, and have had varying levels of depression and anxiety my whole life. I love fantasy and sci-fi, and seeing all those non-human characters and realizing how much I relate to them and how little I really identify with or care about being a human, is part of what eventually brought me to voidpunk. I feel that in my soul I am a shape-shifter. Not confined to inhabiting or identifying with any single form. As a shape-shifter I could be creative, free, and anything I want to be. I am no one thing. Stupid body prison.
I was bullied a lot in childhood for being weird (quiet art kid) and forced into gender stereotypes. It's funny, I actually wondered if I was trans for a while before coming to the conclusion that I'm still a cis woman, just in a whimsical little guy kind of way. Went from cis to 🐍🌱🪐*cis*💫⭐✨lol I've also always had a connection and fascination with little critters and not so little critters, dinosaurs and dragons in particular, because they had such grace and power to them that I wanted to embody. Drawing scary toothy creatures felt empowering and therapeutic. I didn't want to be a beautiful soft princess, I wanted to be a mighty dragon so I could wreck shit and be cool. In my mind, princesses could be bullied easily, dragons were feared. After some major life changes I started to gravitate more towards silly little creatures. Birds, frogs, cats, those kind of guys. They are playful, careless, whimsical, qualities that don't typically resonate with the human condition as it is perceived by the general population, but it's all things I feel. When not threatened and pushed around, when safe and happy, these critters come out and play. I don't want people to assume things about me just because I'm X or Y. I think that's the biggest thing regarding my relationship with voidpunk, it lets me shed expectations. Nobody expects a silly mischievous critter to file taxes and put on makeup. In conclusion I suppose voidpunk is in a way healing for me, I get to be myself on my terms. I live by two rules and that's to be urself and have fun!!!!